Author: @riversong-sam Drabble Request: @jkqueenly Can I get a criminal minds fic for the #4 (“I’m too sober for this”) for your drabble thingy? 😆😆😆💜💜💜💜 love you 😊 Prompt: “I’m too sober for this” Word Count: The team had just finished a hard case and were hanging out together drinking. To lighten the mood a little more Derek suggested a little truth or dare. Most of you were buzzed by now, not drunk but definitely not sober enough to know this may be a bad idea. You however weren’t buzzed nearly enough when it was your turn. “Alright (Y/N) truth or dare?” Morgan says “Dare I guess.” “I dare you to kiss Hotch.” You shrug that was easy. You lean over and kiss his cheek. “Done.” “Whoa now you know that’s not what I meant.” “You didn’t specify Derek that’s all you get.” The game continues and you don’t notice Aarons flushed cheeks after the kiss. The round once again returned to you. “Truth or dare?” “I’m too sober for this. But Dare.” You take another shot of whiskey. “I dare you to text your crush and tell your feelings for them.” You glare at Morgan take another shot and pull out your phone shooting a quick text. Seconds later Hotch’s phone rings with a text alert. He checks it before flushing more not that anyone notices with all the alcohol in everyone’s systems. You and him were going to have a talk later.
The day is terribly close. I draw breath. On my legs something feels like an acorn or a seed in death: try not to imagine it for long.
Me, going out of fashion far too soon. Decades. For my own good. Far for my own good. I left for a long visit, saw some people hang around the beach, the lonely cabin. Ever felt nothing that I could say.
It wasn’t about love that I came this way. The ghost is how it mattered somehow. To say this; in the delayed reaction of a body we do not know: Mattered, the particular was gone. Flickered, turned out white in a vision. Wasn’t a dog in pain or someone else dying quite yet…
… Yet I cannot say the truth ever about you. That is not what’s for us. The big plan slides under like the water under ice at spring. Walking precariously every new season.
Is this it? The right year inside a moment? A long eternity. Without many words I am disgusting in the reflection, and released only without you. Everything seems possible when it is not seen. As night delays and decides not to go on.
For once more annually trees grow back and are chopped down. Comfort —
No mystery to deal with. Just this a good kind of emptiness showing the truth between and as the blows.
one of the reasons mental illness sucks so fucking much is because people around you can literally tell you again and again that they love you, that they think you’re cool and funny, that they support you in every way, that you’re talented or intelligent, and no matter how many times they say it you’ll always cringe and shake your head and say “no, no i’m not, really” but the SECOND someone says one bad thing about you, even just once. You believe it completely.
Kurt Cobain: was mentally and physically abused by his biological father because he had ADHD and was hyperactive which bothered his dad.
Kurt Cobain: his parents didn’t want him to play with poor kids because he was “better than them” and he was forced to wear a sweater he was allergic to so his mom would brag how her kids “were the best dressed kids in town”
Kurt Cobain: thought he was the reason of his parents divorce since his parents usually argued about his up-bringing which made him feel guilty and embarassed
Kurt Cobain: witnessed his mother being abused by her boyfriend who once broke her arm and felt guilty because he couldn’t do anything about it
Kurt Cobain: moved to live with his dad in a trailer trying to improve their relationship but his dad ended up marrying another woman after promising his 10 year old son not to remarry
Kurt Cobain: couldn’t get along with his step-mom because he felt that if he would love her he would betray his mom and because his father treated his step-siblings better than him which made him withdrawn and deprssed
Kurt Cobain: he had minor scoliosis but both of his parents didn’t care which caused several physical problems in the future mainly his stomach problems
Kurt Cobain: was forced by his father to practice sports and left his father’s house when he was 14 after a huge argument because he lost a wrestling match
Kurt Cobain: his mother didn’t want him to come live with her so he had to move from relative to relative. None of his relatives afforded his stay which made him feel depressed and un-wanted
Kurt Cobain: moved to live with his mom and her husband and he was constantly abused by his step-dad for being a virgin and single and often called him “loser” and “faggot”
Kurt Cobain: was bullied in high school for being friends with a gay boy and because he was intersted in arts while the other boys were interested in sports
Kurt Cobain: started smoking pot when he was 13 to deal with his depression and his mother didn’t bother to stop him because she was also smoking pot that she hid in her jewerly box and she even once took a drag from her son’s joint at a party
Kurt Cobain: got kicked out of his mom’s house at 17 because he brought a girl with him to impress his step-dad who would always brag about how many girls he slept with when he was in Kurt’s age
Kurt Cobain: was homeless when he was just 17 and he would sometimes sleep in the library, in the hospital waiting room or on cardboards and he NEVER complained to anyone about it
Kurt Cobain: had to quit school at 18 to find a job to afford his bread and rent a dirty and smelly shack and he went through several jobs including being a janitor at his own high school
Kurt Cobain: he was kicked out of his appartements several times because he couldn’t afford to pay the rent until moving in with his first girlfriend when he was 21
Kurt Cobain: suffered from severe stomach problems because he had a pinched nerve in his spine caused by his untreated scoliosis and he didn’t talk about it because he didn’t want to bother people which later made him medicate himself using heroin in littles doses to kill the pain
Kurt Cobain: would sometimes stop in the middle of the performance to check if the people who stage dived were ok
Kurt Cobain: heard the story of a 14 year old girl who got raped and wrote a song about her (Polly)
Kurt Cobain: hated sexists, racists and homophobes and didn’t want them to come to his shows and always expressed his annoyance because of their presence
Kurt Cobain: respected women dearly and encouraged feminist movements (like Riot Grrrls)
Kurt Cobain: tried to quit drugs and went to rehab twice in a row. Once when his wife was pregnant and a second time when his daughter was born
Kurt Cobain: accepted to play a benefit for rape survivors in Bosnia and Herzegovina and didn’t get a dime for his performance
Kurt Cobain: wrote a song about rape (Rape Me) because he wanted to attract media’s attention to that issue and kept playing it despite the critics and the controversy that surrounded the song
Kurt Cobain: played a gay rights benefit supporting No-on-Nine
Kurt Cobain: stopped in the middle of the song to defend a girl who was being harrassed and kicked the man out of the show after making him feel ashamed about himself
Kurt Cobain: used his fame to promote good bands who weren’t famous and was bothered by media’s focus on his band only and openly expressed how he thought bands like Soundgarden and Alice In Chains were better and deserve more recogniation
Kurt Cobain: didn’t want to be called “a voice of a generation” because his drug use was exposed and he didn’t want to influence anybody negatively and he felt that he was judged by media which deepened his depresion because of his insecurity and made his drug addiction worse
Media: Kurt Cobain was a rock star junkie who hated fame and commited suicide because of it at age 27
People: Kurt Cobain is an emo pussy! He was a coward for killing himself and he was a junkie loser! He was always complaining about how his life sucked and the only thing he did is whine and sing about depression!