trust me when i say this is all good for me

I think this is my time to say how much I appreciate those people who never surrender to make my life better:

To my Mother,

Mom, thank you for giving birth to me. I know you think I’m just the girl who is stronger than you. You are one of the most people that I want to treasure forever. Thank you for giving all I need/want in this world. You can call me brat or whatever, but promise me again don’t make words that might cause of my heartaches. I’ve been so down to myself when you say I am not good as my big sister, but trust me mom, I can be like her, soon. I know you are so proud of me because one step closer and you’ll have your accounting technician daughter. Thank you for rescuing me when I’m drowning, and sorry for everything. Sorry for being me. I love you, Mom!

To my Father,

You are my doctor when I am attacked by my disease. You are the one who makes me feel better and I know you don’t want me to die. Thank you for being the childish father that I’ve ever seen. Thank you for the laugh, corny jokes, and the dramas. Like mom, thank you for giving me what I want. You taught me how to live by my own and today, I can say that I can stand on my own [really?]. Sorry also for everything dad, I think I am the worst daughter that you have. Let’s enjoy the rest of our life until you and mom and us get old. I love you, Dad.

To my siblings,

Hey best buddies. Thank you for being my playmates when I was a little. And now that we are getting older, we matured enough, let’s be focus on what our parents planned…to be a successful people. Truly, ot is better to have a siblings than to no one. I love you always!!

To my friends,

Thank you for the love. Thank you for the patience, thank you for everything. You know when I am broke and happy, but you never leave on my side. When everything’s not fine, you cheer me up though I was wrong. Sorry for having a friend like me, the sensitive, the moody, the bitch they called, and the cry baby. Thank you guys!!

—  Thank you, for you.
Life is Strange was/is NOT doing well financially. PLEASE consider purchasing at least Episode 1.

I met Luc (the producer) and Raoul (one of the directors) at NYCC. I don’t want to get into exactly what was said in case this could get them in trouble by any means, but trust me when I say this: it was very clearly communicated to me when I asked that the game is NOT performing where it needs to by any means.

A lot of this fandom watched Let’s Plays of this game. And there’s nothing wrong with Let’s Plays, that is, when it’s not a game that needs the money more than the fans. Let’s Plays don’t hurt a company when those people immediately turn around and buy a ton of merch and other media, thus still spending money, but for a game like Life is Strange, where all the money comes from units sold, it’s devastating. 

There’s a very good chance that the ending was as rushed as it seemed because of pressure to release it early or just finish it due to it’s under-performance. This is even alluded to by Michel Koch in this twitter conversation:

So here’s what you need to do. If you didn’t buy the game, please, at LEAST go onto steam and purchase Episode 1, if not the entire thing. If you liked Life is Strange, even if you hated the ending, please go throw some money at it. Maybe if we all had, the ending wouldn’t have been what it was.

I know this is biased because ive met and spoken with them, but Raoul and Luc are really passionate about this game, and it’s fans, and our love for it. There aren’t words that I can use to describe how Raoul’s eyes lit up and how his smile was when people talked with him about the game and how it effected them. He spent significant time thinking about what he was going to write on every autograph he signed. I truly do in my heart believe that if LIS has performed better financially we would have gotten so much more of an ending than what we did. These are passionate creators, and I want to see what they can do next.

Please try to have a little bit of faith in the team, and if you enjoyed ANY of LIS, even if it was just 1-4, please, please pay for it.

You say I never needed you,
But you were wrong.
I’ve always needed you,
just not the way you want me to.

I never needed you to fight my battles for me,
I can do that on my own.
But I do need to know that you will always be on my side,
that I have your trust and support.

I never needed jewels and gold,
I live a simple life and only want for simple things.
But I do need assurance and comfort,
not of finance but of heart, that I am good enough.

I never needed to be constantly around you and wanting your every attention,
I am a big girl and can get by on my own very well,
But I do need to know that I have a place by you side, even when I am not there.

I never needed you to love me like I love you,
I am wise enough to understand not all love are requited,
But I need you to not hurt me,
though we both know that if that happens all I can do is to only continue loving you.

I never needed your heart,
for a heart should never be so easily given away,
But I need your hand,
A warm touch, a gentle embrace, to let me understand that I am safe in your arms.

I never needed your kisses,
They are superficial, and though they feel good they never convey as much as I wanted to.
But I needed your words,
Words in which I hear and can recall in dark times, giving me reason to stand up once again.

I never needed a marriage,
for marriage can be broken and I know how you always hated to be tied down,
But I needed a bond between us,
Something that is proof that this is real and not just a fabric of my imagination.

I never needed a castle,
It is big and cold and I get lost easily,
But I need a home,
A place filled with love thatI can always go back to.

I never needed to be protected,
I am not made of glass and I can look after myself,
But I need to be embraced,
To know there’s a place I can go to when I am vulnerable.

So yes, I do not need you the way you wanted me to,
But for the ways I needed you, more often than not, you weren’t there,
Which is why I am saying goodbye now,
Before this last piece of fragile heart shatters too…

Farewell my love, I hope that you can find that someone you need,
and I hope that in passing time, my heart will slowly piece itself back together,
When that time comes, maybe then we can risk seeing each other again,
with hope that the feeling of wanting to cry, to hurt, to embrace and to love you will be gone,
and then, truly then, will we be free of each other…

Until then,

—  Carmen
Can't Take My Eyes Off You
  • Can't Take My Eyes Off You
  • Heath Ledger

You’re just too good to be true

Can’t take my eyes off of you

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You’d be like heaven to touch

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I wanna hold you so much

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At long last love has arrived

And I thank God I’m alive

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You’re just too good to be true

Can’t take my eyes off of you

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I love you baby and if it’s quite all right

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I need you baby to warm the lonely nights

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I love you baby, trust in me when I say

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Oh pretty baby, don’t bring me down I pray

Oh pretty baby, now that I’ve found you stay

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And let me love you baby,

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Let me love you

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R.I.P. Heath Andrew Ledger (April 4, 1979- January 22, 2008) Six years have gone by and we still miss you, more every year. Goodnight, rest in peace.

For PS4 players in the Dragon Age fandom

Jaws of Hakkon DLC is not earth-shattering. There are no major reveals relating to a certain elven apostate or any other post-game stuff.

Rest easy (well, you know, as easy as possible), this is good material, and a huge map worth exploring. The Avvar are great, but you are not missing out on anything related to major plot spoilers. The DLC is like DA2′s, it can happen at any point in the game once you reach Skyhold. I mean I wouldn’t recommend it that early because the baddies are like level 25 but you know.

It’s a sub-plot at best (a neat one) and there are some interesting lore tidbits that might become relevant in future games, if you’re like me and spend way too much time on the wiki/theorycrafting, but trust me when I say it is not a plot that will move heaven and earth.

Exclusivity is still crap but I just wanted to reassure y’all that this isn’t something major. There’s some new armor, new weapons, high level baddies, and a whole new map but nothing like must leave Tumblr for a while worthy.

Really it’s a DLC for people who are max level and need new pastures to roam. With some lore hints in between. Good stuff, well worth the $15 price of admission for me. But it can wait, I swear.

I Choose Him - original print from The Worship Project.

Day 9 / 31  #‎MonthOfPraise‬

I Choose Him". I was really impacted by a simple phrase, that to be honest, I’ve known all my life. However for me, it’s been one of those truths that I’ve known in my head but not always in my heart. Not to say that I didn’t believe it, but I just didn’t always have a deep-rooted trust in this. “I choose Him, because He first chose me”

When I heard this at church today, it was not so much of a revelation, as it was a sense of fulfilment. I’ve never really liked myself, always felt like I wasn’t good enough to deserve other’s love, let alone God’s love.

Can I encourage you in this, I felt it on my heart to speak this out as a declaration over those of us who struggle under the “weight” of being single. While all our friends are in relationships, getting married, seeming to “move ahead” in life. Let me speak it again…Even though the struggle is real, with every nail, every drop of blood, every thorn mercilessly piercing His brow, Jesus chose you. He chose you and he continues to choose you.


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it’s that time again children! Come and sit and let me tell you about why you need to go watch Sense8 on netflix right now. Like right now. Open up a new tab and hit that netflix button. Trust me, children. I’ve never led you astray.

(again, I understand that not everybody in the world mainlined all 12 episodes in 12 hours. I’m sure people have much more self-control than I do. So I’m going to keep this as spoiler-free as physically possible but still beware)

  • Eight main protags. Four dudes. Four ladies. Three FOUR PoC. One trans woman. One Lesbian. One Gay dude. 
  • (I’m leaving this purposely blank because of spoilers but trust me when I say that this is the most diverse cast I’VE EVER SEEN)
  • deals with real shit I AM TALKING HAD ME IN TEARS REAL SHIT
  • villain is a scary-ass white dude
  • you will love every single protagonist even if they are pieces of shit sometimes
  • all of them
  • every single one
  • some of them will be your children, others will be precious cinnamon buns, others will be assholes that you would protect with your life
  • hrrrrnnnnnng there’s one scene about halfway through the show but I can’t talk about it cause it’s too spoilery HOWEVER
  • I will just say that this one particular scene was the greatest television scene I have ever seen
  • ever
  • i’m not joking there are people who will back me up on this
  • the man protagonists break every stereotype the world throws at them. every single one. Indian woman who is both badass with her degree in pharmaceuticals and really supportive of her religion. White bro cop that will not tolerate anything happening to his precious babies. Trans lady is literally the driving force behind the cluster and IS LITERALLY GOING TO FUCK YOU UP
  • i’m in pain because i’mma have to wait a year to get season 2
  • go do it
  • go on
  • nothing you have to do right now is more important than this show
okay but imagine:

jace hanging out with downworlders after he’s rescued from valentine

  • jace’s mental state would be severely damaged after being with his abuser for so long and the shadowhunters certainly wouldnt get it, theyd brush it off saying they were all affected by valentine’s regime 
  • however luke knows what its like to trust valentine and get used and discarded so he takes jace under his wing
  • he helps jace throughout the night terrors and the flashbacks since he’s has ptsd as well, he knows what its like
  • magnus, luke, and jace squad up, going through their struggles together
  • magnus takes jace out to downworlder parties, knowing that it’s a good distraction
  • at one of them, jace gets closer to simon and they become friends
  • simon forces jace to watch star wars with him when jace has bad days
  • jace ends up being a trekkie, simon is betrayed
  • they have group gatherings and jace has to sit and listen as raphael magnus and luke banter
  • “easy there fido” “bite me dracula” “now now boys you’re both pretty” “shut up dumbledore”
  • jace and raphael sass each other sorry i dont make the rules
  • raphael also can tell when jace isnt in the mood for sassing so he either gives him space or sits with him, not saying anything, letting jace know that he’s there for him if he wants to talk
  • the group of them are fiercely protective over jace bc theyve all seen him at his worst and they dont want anyone else to hurt him
  • luke treats jace like his own son and shows him that what valentine did to him is not how a father should treat his son
  • luke also reassures jace that he never deserved what valentine did to him
  • the falcon story? yeah luke is ready to throw hands if valentine wasnt already dead luke wouldve killed him


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i dont understand where all these haters are coming from but let me tell you when i watched ratatouille for the first time and i heard emeril lagasse say “Anyone can cook” i knew i was meant for greater things i went to chef school for 5 years and graduated top of my class all because of my love for cooking and disney

so before you hate on my beignets try my recpie first before judging me…,,… trust me if you try it i know you will love it. i make them for my family every weak and they say im the best cook ever so you can stop off

everyone knows im a good cook

Teen Wolf Starter Sentences

· “You want me? Come on- come and get me!!”
· “Hey there, I was actually hoping you’d be out for a few more minutes…”
· “I jumped through the window?”
· “The plan is to save you.”
· “Lower the gun…we walk away…you don’t have to get hurt.”
· “Why can’t you trust anyone?”
· “Because you trust everyone!”
· “That’s a lot of burden to carry, _____”
· “Why break your own toys when you can break someone else’s?”
· “Obviously I want my money back.”
· “It’s ‘do well’ not ‘good’.”
· "Conflict? No. Stressful? Yeah.”
· "Looks like we’re going to have to wait here and see what happens.”
· "Maybe what I really wanted to say was….I’m sorry.”
· "I wish I could have helped you…I’m sorry.”
· "No I’ve never been under his/her bed, or in it….just on it…wearing clothes..”
· "I don’t like guns.”
· "Running out of bullets can get you killed….it also makes you look stupid.”
· "You’re not worried are you?”
· "I’m guessing the power doesn’t go out that often in this hospital.”
· "How much has he had to drink?”
· "Just focus on my voice, alright?”
· “You completely and totally have a concussion, ____ lie down.”
· “I think we need a psychologist….or a medium.”
· “You don’t just accidentally lock a door.”
· “I don’t have much practice in things like..forgiveness..”
· “All you ever wanted to do was help.”
· “I know you wouldn’t want to be here if you didn’t want to talk.”
· “Three things cannot long be hidden, the sun, the moon, and the truth.”
· “Anyone can be corrupt by money.”
· “I don’t know anything about computers from the 1970’s”
· “Oh god, what have I done?”
· “You can save people’s lives, but you can’t save them from life.”
· “What’re you doing? I haven’t even brushed my teeth yet.”
· “Are you kidding me? This is like 300 pounds you’re going to kill yourself.”
· "They’re still here…they’re still here!!”

OUAT 5x05 - 'Dreamcatcher'

I watched OUAT because, as much as it pains me to say this, A&E’s episodes are the best ones because they focus on what the show is really about – we get great Emma + Regina moments.

There was a moment in particular that impressed me: the porch scene.

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anonymous asked:

Did Bellamy ever apologize to Clarke for all the things he said previously?

“This is who I’ve always been, and I let YOU and Octavia and Kane convince me that we could trust these people when they have shown over and over who they are, and I won’t let anyone else die for THAT mistake.” (Side note: he didn’t say ‘my mistake’…he didn’t take ownership of it. He basically said that he was coned into trusting the grounders) 

“Enough, Clarke. YOU are not in charge here, and that’s a good thing because people die when YOU’RE in charge. YOU were willing to let a bomb drop on my sister. Then YOU made a deal with Lexa, who left us in Mount Weather to die and forced us to kill everyone who helped us, people who trusted me.”

[Handcuffs Clarke against her will and refuses to let her go when she is pleading with him to not take her to Pike] 


(x) nope. that was basically it. 

He said that he was angry so does that mean he isn’t anymore? He says that he doesn’t want to feel that way…so does he? or is he still trying to not be angry with her? It is a ‘want’ not a given. Does he even understand why Clarke had to leave? what she has gone through? Does he even ‘get it’? 

“You’re angry Clarke, but I know you. What you’ve done haunts you, and it is easier to hate me than to hate yourself” Bellamy hated Clarke because it was easier than hating himself, and he is still blaming people. He blamed Trikru, Lexa, Kane, Octavia, everyone other than himself. I also see Clarke enabling this too, which irritates me even more. “ The problem was solved, and then you let Pike ruin everything.” She is not associating him with the massacre and him pulling the trigger. She just said that he “let Pike”. There are many more instances of this occurring which I hate. I hate enabling this behavior of lack of responsibility taking. Clarke on teh other hand, bears it all. “I bear it so they don’t have to.” Clarke is still bearing things; things that aren’t her fault. 

To me, Bellmay sees her Wanheda title as her getting something out of the massacre, while he didn’t. This is something even vocalized by ALIE!Raven, “Does it bother you that you don’t get any credit for the genocide at Mount Weather?” (x)

It just really irritates me how he doesn’t seem to understand the pain that Clarke herself went through. She was alone. Bellamy had people around him, his friends and his family, Bellamy fell in love with Gina and wasn’t miserable for 3 months. He had bright spots. The car scene is one of those moments. Clarke on the other hand suffered alone and had no relief. She had no distraction from her self-loathing. 

Okay, i could go on and on about how disappointed I am in Bellamy. Where is the guy who said to Clarke, “You did the right thing”? or “It had to be done” when he was referring to Clarke closing the dropship doors? Where is the guy that has this empathy or understanding that the things Clarke has done haunts her every being? I will probably attract some Bellamy stans with this post and get some hate. I understand what Bellamy has gone through and how it has changed him. However, the lack of taking responsibility and being selfish is what is rubbing me the wrong way. I adored season 2 Bellamy, but season 3 Bellamy is really off putting. 

Many people stop believing after facing trials and hard times, this is when they question “If Allah loved me why is he doing this to me?” But most of us face so much struggles because we stand firm to our deen. Because:

The Prophet Muhammad SAW said: “If Allah wants to do good to somebody, He afflicts him with trials.”

Allah says in a Hadith Qudsi;
“O son of Adam, I do not forget the person who disobeys Me, so how can I forget someone who obeys Me?”

We was so far from Allah, yet to us Allah was always so close. Allah did not forget, yet we did. We were lost in the depths of our own sins, with closed eyes to all the signs put in our way, Allah did not forget. Yet, the we walked everyday in the dark, further away from Allah. Allah did not forget. Allah brought us to the straight path, despite what we did.

Allah did not forget. Every time you bowed your head before your Lord, he did not forget. Every time tears rolled down your face before him, Allah did not forget. Every time your mind shut off, Allah did not forget. Every time you BREATHED, Allah did not forget. Every time YOU forgot, ALLAH did not forget!

Turn to Allah. Before you return to Allah.

May Allah remind us, when we forget. Ameen.

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Just a friendly PSA for my followers

- You are beautiful/handsome/pretty/etc as fuck like seriously look in a mirror and marvel at how good looking you are babes
- You are so beyond loved. Even if it’s just by some dork on Tumblr named Baylie who has the capacity to love all of you. YOU ARE LOVED
- Whenever you feel down, please come talk to me. I deal with depression everyday, and I have learned that listening to people and helping them, it in turn helps me deal with my own demons.
- Trust me when I say this, tattoo this on your forehead, scream it from rooftops once a day. “I AM A BEAUTIFUL, WONDERFUL HUMAN BEING AND I AM GONNA KICK THIS DAY IN ITS ASS.”

Just I really care about all of you, and I want you to know that my heart bursts with love and pride for all of you ❤❤

Taurus Sun & Capricorn Moon

I am calm and patient. You can trust me with your secrets. I will never betray you. I will never misuse info against you. I will never manipulate you. I will catch you when you are lying and manipulating me. On the outside I may appear unaffected, but on the inside you will never know how much you hurt me. I will never show you my pain. I will smile through it all. You’ll say I’m strong, I’m not, I’m just good at hiding my scars, and I see light where there is none. [Info on sun and moon signs]

10 tips I learned from my first trimester of pharmacy school:
My last three advices are optional but it may/may not help depending on you.
  1. FIND A GOOD STUDY BUDDY! This is extremely important. Do not wait a few weeks to find one. Make friends during your interviews and exchange numbers!!! You don’t even have to study together all the time. My study buddy checks in occasionally with me on assignments and makes sure I do them. 
  2. READ the syllabi! For every single class, the second the syllabus is posted or given to you. Know the distribution of points and who is teaching what days (if your class has multiple professors teaching). Trust me when I say you’ll like certain profs over others. Use Google calendar or icalendar and input all exams and major assignments. Use tasks for smaller assignments and daily quizzes. Do this and you’ll never be surprised.
  3. Find your study space. It can be the library, your desk at home, a coffee shop. Any place where you can be productive with minimal distraction and free of stress-inducing factors. I know some people advise on staying after class on campus to study but DON’T do it if it doesn’t work for you. I learned that the hard way. For me, staying on campus after hours of classes and forcing myself to study was a huge drain. The library was also distracting for me. My bed is my best study space lol. 
  4. Talk to your professors. They are there to teach you. They want to see you succeed. Take advantage of it. Seek help when needed! To be honest, I don’t know any of my professor’s office hours. If they’re in their office, I just plop in. If you’re not sure, don’t be afraid to email them! I have never had professors send me soooo many emails in undergrad. Now, I get emails all the time. (On that note, turn your email notifications on!)
  5. Find your study style. Depending on the class, you will have different ways to study for them. Rewriting notes, relistening to lectures, practice problems, study groups/sessions etc. Find the best one(s) for each class. DO NOT do all of them. You’ll save time and effort. If one way does not work for you, DISCARD it and find another study method. 
  6. Use a note taking program. I personally use OneNote. There is also Evernote. If you want all your notes in one place for all your classes, DO THIS. There are youtube tutorials on how to use them if you don’t know how. Here’s a link to my post about OneNote and how I use it: click here.
  7. Talk to your classmates. You’re with them for the next three or four years, might as well get to know them. I have a small class so everyone knows everyone. It is not like the dog eat dog world of undergrad. My classmates genuinely helps one another. In our Facebook page, we would constantly remind others of due dates for assignments and SHARE NOTES before our quizzes, exams, finals. I knew I had a badass vaccine chart with everything you needed to know about it (info, vaccines available, dosing schedule, indictions, contraindications, administration etc) and it took me a long time to do it but I knew my classmates will benefit from it as well. I saw so many of my classmates with printouts of my chart the next few days. xD
  8.  Go to events/join clubs. It’s a nice way to bond with your classmates and meet with practicing pharmacists or to talk to your professors/faculty more. My class also has post exam gatherings the weekend after every exam. And although events such as APhA, CPha, OCPhA costs money, I think it’s worth if you put in the effort. Do not attend these events just to be there. Be active! Help out with interviews, tours, information night etc. 
  9. Do not date! This only applies if you’re single lol. Don’t go looking for a S.O. Use that energy instead to focus on studies. Tbh, I assure you, 80% of the class is already married, engaged or have a S.O. Besides, if you do hook up with a classmate, your entire class will know and it will be awkward for everyone when it doesn’t work out. At least wait a year or two lol.
  10. Lastly, don’t freak out. It can be overwhelming at times but freaking out when do more harm than good. If you need to, take a break. Work out, take a hot shower, watch a movie etc. Then go to sleep or take a nap. Start the next day with a better mind set and tackle your classes again. 

I hope these tips help!


Oh gosh. This killed me when I watched episode 9. Lucifer is his normal emotionless self when the police barge in, he offers them a bribe and all. And then. AND THEN Chloe appears and Lucifer totally goes into puppy-mode in the space of two seconds. Just look at the screencaps (I suck at gifs, sorry).

At first he’s just surprised. (Why would the Detective be here? The Detective wouldn’t kick me out, right?)

Then he looks so completely confused about why she would kick him out. (But the Detective made me a trustful sandwich? Surely, the sandwich meant something? And she said we were friends, no? :( OH FATHER, we’re probably not even friends then! IT MUST HAVE BEEN A MISTRUSTFUL SANDWICH). And dare I say that he looks scared in the second pic?

Then he goes into defense-mode in the last two pics (Whatever, been here before, I’ll just play it cool), but he fails miserably. When she asks him what’s going on he opens his mouth, goes full-fish, and can’t say anything. If his reaction in this scene doesn’t prove how much he loves and cares about Chloe then I don’t know what will. (I mean, maybe if he died for her or something…oh BUT HE DID.)

And the parallel to the ending of 1x12 is so obvious it hurts.