truly-living

Why does it take a life ending to learn how to cherish each day? Why must we wait until we run out of time to start to accomplish all that we dreamed, when once we had all the time in the world? Why don’t we look at the person we love the most like it’s the last time we will ever see them? Because if we did, life would be so vibrant. Life would be so truly and completely lived.
—  Tillie Cole, A Thousand Boy Kisses.

- You’re getting good at this allura… 

 - …and i really enjoy doing it if i say so myself  

- So is this official now?

 - Only if you promise you’ll do my hair as an exchange…

 Deal then.  

Allura learning how to do the eyeliner thing to shiro as my entrance for shallura week! this was suppose to be for ‘tradition’ (?) but i’m not even paying attention to the prompts at this point…

let's talk beautiful lyrics by yoongi

“amidst double standards and opposition everywhere I crushed the limits within myself” (we are bulletproof pt. 2)

“my hobby is proving you wrong” (we on)

“if i ruled the world why would i dream small, of gambling and investing in stocks? i would still be making music with my bangtan fam” (if i ruled the world)

“same day, same moon” (tomorrow)

“because the dawn right before the sunrise is the darkest” (tomorrow)

“the studio is my playground, and the pen and paper are my partners” (triptych)

“a sweet wind named you is blowing in my heart” (miss right)

“others are running forward, yet why am i still here?” (intro: hyyh)

“take a breath, or breathe a dream” (intro: hyyh)

“this moment will never come again, it will never find me again, so i ask myself am i happy? yes, the answer is already there, i am happy.” (intro: hyyh)

“before the day of my birth inside of my mother’s womb, i counted the days till my first move. the cost of the move was a machine on her heart and a scar.” (move….. /fuh my heart)

“on the stage i desired so much, when i sing and dance, i feel that i am yet alive. i can withstand a long commute and the aching of my body because my people are watching me. i endure the exhaustion because the cheers come rolling in.” (born singer)

“i don’t give a shit, i don’t give a fuck” (intro: nvm)

“i have become the pride of my family, and have even succeeded to an extent.” (intro: nvm)

“though i taste failure and disappointment and bow my head, we’re still young and immature don’t even sweat it” (intro: nvm)

“if you can’t go back, run forward…
if you feel you’ll crash, accelerate all the more” (intro: nvm)

“you’re a butterfly effect, shining in pitch darkness. with your light touches i forget reality altogether” (butterfly)

“the words so carelessly thrown at me: even my loneliness looks like pretend to you.” (whalien 52)

“have i engraved my existence into you like rain? or have i come and gone like short showers?” (rain)

“the saying must be true that love blooms like cherry blossoms and then burns to ashes” (let me know)

“hip hop found me like a young child finds his mother” (hip hop lover)

“everyone asks me, what is hip hop, and i say proudly that it is my everything. as a result i have buried my entire existence under music. if loving this culture is a sin i’ll die a hundred times
over.” (hip hop lover)

“dream. hope. forward. forward” (epilogue: young forever)

Here’s what I actually need from this band right now.
  1. Authenticity. Maybe they’re tweeting for real, maybe they aren’t. But right now, what I need from this band, is authenticity. So videos or I don’t care what they say. I need them to say it to my face.
  1. Unity. Literally the last thing this band needed to do last night was have ¾ fly to Johannesburg while Louis stayed behind to take fan pics in a hotel bar. I don’t know why that happened, and I don’t care. The fandom is fragile. Their image as a 4-piece is non-existent at this point. If they want people (read: fans with tickets) to stick around, a united front is the most important thing they can convey.

  1. Empathy. I don’t want to be placated by anyone right now. My feelings are valid, and so are yours. And everyone else’s on this website. People cope with stress and change and grief in different ways at different paces. We are all in this together. So are the boys. I don’t want to hear about the next album. I want to know they recognize the shock we’re all in and respond appropriately when they are able to. I know they are under a media gag order (it would appear), which is fine. Plan a well-thought out, well-timed message to deliver to fans, but in the meantime, don’t jerk us around like we’ve already been jerked around for the last 5 years.

The next 8-12 weeks are the most crucial we’ve ever faced as a fandom and they have ever faced as a band. Those things are tandem. We can help assure them, but they have to help assure us, too. And right now, they are doing the exact opposite.