trough the storm



01. Mess is Mine, Vance Joy | Hold on, darling, this body is yours, this body is yours and mine. Well hold on, my darling, this mess was yours, now your mess is mine.

02. Wilder Mind, Mumford & Sons | It’s in my blood, it’s in my water, you try to tame me, tame me from the start. When the din is in your eye, flash your flesh, desperate for a need to rise (…) You can be every little thing you want nobody to know.

03. Fire Meet Gasoline, Sia | It’s dangerous to fall in love, but I want to burn with you tonight. (…) So come on now, strike the match, strike the match now, we’re a perfect match, perfect somehow, we were meant for one another.

04. Glory, Radical Face | I was born when they took my name, when the world turned wicked, when I joined their game. (…) I sat and dreamed at the foot of your bed. You split my skull and reached inside my head and pulled out the pictures I’d been wishing I’d forget. And you stitched me up then and wiped the blood from off my chin.

05. I Will Possess Your Heart, Death Cab for Cutie | How I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me. It’s like a book elegantly bound, but in a language that you can’t read just yetYou gotta spend some time, love. You gotta spend some time with me and I know that you’ll find love. I will possess your heart.

06. Hurt, Johnny Cash | I hurt myself today to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain, the only thing that’s real.

07. Human, Of Monsters and Men | Cage me like an animal, a crown with gems and gold. Eat me like a cannibal, chase the neon throne. Breathe in, breathe out, let the human in. The air is silk, shadows form a grin, if I lose control I feed the beast within.

08. No Light No Light, Florence + The Machine | You are the hole in my head, you are the space in my bed, you are the silence in between, what I thought and what I said. You are the night time fear, you are the morning when it’s clear, when it’s over you’re the start. You’re my head, you’re my heart, and I’d do anything to make you stay.

09. Can’t Help Falling in Love, Haley Reinhart (Elvis Presley cover) | Like a river flows surely to the sea, darling so it goes. Some things are meant to be. Take my hand, take my whole life too, for I can’t help falling in love with you.

10. My Body is a Cage, Arcade Fire | My body is a cage that keeps me from dancing with the one I love. (…) You’re standing next to me, my mind holds the key.

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Nothing Like Us (Vkook Angst)

Here’s some Vkook angst based off of Jungkook’s (not so recent) cover of “Nothing Like Us” by Justin Bieber :) 

Hope you enjoy ;)


Exactly three weeks ago, Taehyung and Jungkook had their last big fight. Exactly three weeks ago, Tae heard the last word that Jungkook spoke directed to him.

Their relationship sure had its ups and downs, but this time, it seemed like they fell too far, too deep, into depths that they will not be able to crawl out of ever again.

Taehyung had faith in their relationship, that is for sure. But he was scared that the delicate flower that their love resembled got ripped out by its roots. Not able to bloom ever again, not even with a lot of time.

Thinking back to it, their fight was stupid, unnecessary to say the least. It was something so minor that ruined their entire bond, their trust in one another.

There is not a single second a day that Tae’s body is not aching for Jungkooks touch.

Tae also lost count of how many times Jungkook ran away when the entire band sat down to eat dinner together, tears running down his face and Tae wished he could kiss every single one away just like he used to.

His heart hurt worse then it ever did. Stupid teenager Tae thought that girl in 7th grade broke his heart when she denied him. Oh if fetus-Tae would only see himself now, every drop of happiness left his mind, his heart, his entire surroundings. Everything is grey, full of sadness, the only person that made his day brighter, colored his world in blues and purples and reds and rainbows, Jungkook, his one and only happy pill, left him.

It was once again one of those evenings that Jungkook ran away from dinner that Tae also stood up with a silent “I’m not hungry to be honest…” and left to hide under his blankets.

Hoping that comments of their fans might cheer him up a little bit or at least distract him for a while, he logged in.

But that was a bad idea.

Their entire account was flooded with messages of how amazing Jungkook’s latest cover was. A cover Taehyung did not even know of.

Not thinking twice, he opened their soundcloud account to press the play button, a piano and Jungkook’s soft voice instantly filling the air around him.

Tears already started building after he read the title. “Nothing like us”.

He was not sure if he was able to take the sound of his favorite person’s voice when he knew that in reality, that person was sitting in the room next to him, crying. But he could not get himself to stop the music either.


Lately I’ve been thinking, thinking ‘bout what we had

His sight got flooded by the hot tears building up in a second. Jungkook always chose his covers wisely, implying a meaning behind every single one of it.

I know it’s hard but it’s all that we knew

Their current situation was hard as hell for both of them, but yes, it has always been hard. Coming out to the members first, then not being able to come out towards their manager and of course not their fans, “we can’t destroy the image of the heartbreaking golden maknae” their manager once said.

Have you been drinking? To take all the pain away

Taehyung was not proud of that event either. Two days after their fight started, he did not know what to do with himself. His day has always been about Jungkook. But he was gone. So Tae decided to walk to the nearest shop and buy some alcohol. Yoongi-hyung once told him that alcohol might be helpful sometimes. Long story short, it all ended in Tae drinking too much, puking as Jungkook walked in on him, head hanging into the toilet.

I wish that I could give you what you deserve

Jungkook gave Tae what he deserved. Leaving the bathroom after shooting him a disgusting look and Taehyung knew exactly what that meant. Jungkook did not only express his feelings towards the smell and atmosphere around his ex-lover, but also how disgusting Tae looked.

‘Cause nothing can ever, ever replace you

Nothing can nobody will ever be able to fill the gap Jungkook left behind. He was Tae’s one and only, still is, will stay.

Nothing can make me feel like you do

“I feel so happy when I’m with you.”, Jungkook whispered one late night. They were sitting on Taehyung’s bed, talking about everything and nothing at the same time. The younger said that right before he grabbed Taehyung’s chin and gave him a small peck to his right cheek, making the elder blush.

You know there’s no one that I can relate to

Jungkook used to tell him almost every day how much of a god listener Tae is, how often he already helped the younger with various problems.

And know we won’t find a love that’s so true

Never will he ever find someone like Jungkook. Someone so perfect, the one and only perfect match for him.

There’s nothing like us

There’s nothing like you and me

Together trough the storm

“You’re some weird ass couple…”, Namjoon groaned when he walked into the living room, Jungkook and Taehyung sprawled out on the couch, not getting any sleep last night because of the horror movie they decided to watch. So yes, 7am on a couch with rests of cold pizza, that is… was the kind of couple they were. Used to be…

There’s nothing like us

There’s nothing like you and me


Taehyung thought back to their last concert in December he was not able to attempt because of feeling too sick. Jungkook texted him about how much he misses him and how he feels so incomplete. Then Hoseok texted Taehyung as well, telling him how lost Jungkook looked, how different he was without his boyfriend around.

I gave you everything babe

“You know I will always give my all for you, Tae. -“

Everything I had to give

“- That is because I love you. I’ll die for you if I have to.”

Girl why would you push me away?

“Junggu, you… you really shouldn’t say such things…”

Lost in confusion, like an illusion

“Tae you can’t be serious. You would have never said something like that to me…”

You know I’m used to making your day

“… I thought you might feel the same for me, Tae. Maybe I was wrong…”

But that is the past now

Cuddling in their bed on rainy days, yes, that is the past now. No more happy relationship.

We need to last now

Now the tears started streaming down Tae’s face. Jungkook always did choose his covers carefully and wisely. He always wanted to express his own feelings and beliefs even if it was written in the words of other artists. Somehow, Tae gets a small bead of belief back, maybe it is not too late yet, maybe Jungkook still wanted him.

Guess that this is meant to be

They were meant to be, that is for sure. Tae can not even count all the times they talked about that. Jungkook always fantasized about how they would marry, both in snow white suits with black bowties. The decorations would have to be red then, also both of them wearing a red rose pinned to their jacket. Jungkook almost planned every little detail already.

Tell me was it worth it, we were so perfect

No little thing was or will ever be worth loosing his soul mate ever again, that is for sure.

But baby I just want you to see


He should go over. Knock at Jungkooks door to get his boyfriend back.

There’s nothing like us

There’s nothing like you and me

Together through the storm

There’s nothing like us

There’s nothing like you and me



There’s nothing like us

There’s nothing like you and me

Together through the storm


There’s nothing like us

There’s nothing like you and me


Tae does not even bother to listen to the rest of the song anymore.

He instantly jumped up, grabbed a polaroid-picture on his way out and walked the small yet seemingly so large distance to Jungkook’s separate room. The room used to be Jin and Namjoon’s room, but Namjoon and Jungkook changed beds after the fight between the two youngest happened.

There was he standing now, in front of the wooden door, his knees starting to shake, hands beginning to sweat. A shiver ran down his spine. Now or never.

But what if Jungkook only used the song and did not even mean it, maybe he does not want his ex-boyfriend back. Maybe trying to talk to him was a bad decision.

Tae was able to hear Jungkook crying. It seemed like he hid his face somewhere, probably in his pillow, like he always did.

Slowly and gently, he pushed the doorknob down and stepped inside.

Jungkook did not notice him.

Tae walked over to the bed Jungkook was laying on, his head buried in a pillow to stifle his heartbreaking sobs, just like the elder expected it.

Now or never.

Tae lifted his hand up only to rest it on Jungkook’s back, right between his shoulders.

At first, the younger got frightened by the unexpected touch, but he soon recognized the familiar hand that laid flat on his back without moving.

Jungkook slowly lifted his beautiful face that was drowning in tears as they kept spilling out of his red eyes.

Taehyung wanted to say something, but he was not sure if he would find the right words now.

Instead, he lifted his other hand up to swipe away some of the tears that dared to fall down Jungkook’s chin. The younger flinches at the touch but quickly eases into it.

“Hey baby…”, Taehyung whispered softly to not make the younger flinch again.

He did not get an answer apart from the forced smile of Jungkook.

But that one smile was enough to tell him that his boyfriend is sick of the fight as well, that everything will be fine in the end again.


I hope youi enjoyed that promised thingy here ^^

~ Nida <3

Jesse’s girl


“Amy have you seen Chlo?” Beca asked, after having searched the house, but finding no sign of the ginger. Beca thought she said she would be packing her stuff, now that they all graduated and were ready to move on.

“No…” The Australian singer replied, shaking her head. “You two are practically married; surely you would know where she usually hangs out.” She added an obvious smirk.

But Beca didn’t…

She had been so busy lately… For all she knew, Chloe didn’t really have a favorite spot. To be quite honest, Beca wouldn’t have a clue of what the ginger did in her spare time besides the Bella’s. She chose to leave it and return to packing her stuff, just as most of the Bella’s were doing at the moment. When she walked into her room her eyes fell on a letter lying on her pillow. “What in the world?” Beca murmured, looking around for anything else suspicious besides the mysterious note. Beca first smelled the letter, which was her usual habit, to see if she was able to catch any scent. It smelled of something so very distinctive, though Beca couldn’t quite put her finger on it. The brunette dismissed it with a shrug, opening the note.

Meet me at the auditorium…

x Anonymous

Beca rolled her eyes. This could be from one person only. Chloe Beale. Chloe always had a sense for drama and with the coincidence that she was missing, who else could it be? Beca took her phone, ready to text the other back to ask her what she wanted, but eventually choose not to. What the hell, it was Chloe… She probably just wanted to spend some time to say goodbye to the place that had been her home for over seven years. Of course they would keep contact, but it would never be like it used to be anymore. No more Chloe to tickle her awake, or to surprise her with breakfast on bed, to watch movies like Grease at one ‘o clock at night, or camping with 9 girls in a tent, at a place that was surrounded by countless bear traps. They were leaving so much behind. This place would become another memory and Beca knew that it would be hard for Chloe to actually move on.

Beca opened the door to the auditorium halfway calling for the ginger to appear. “Chlo… Very funny, but you can come out now! Hide and seek is over…” Beca chuckled nervously. “Chloe?” She knelt to see if the ginger was hiding behind one of the chairs. She sighed. Was it a prank? She sat down in one of the chairs, when she heard some soft rumbling coming from the stage. “Chlo?!” Then music started to play. A pleasant melody of piano chords filling the room with its sound. Chloe had been hiding behind the corner on stage and now walked slowly towards the middle in her hand a microphone. She tried her best to gather as much courage before singing.

Jessie is a friend,

Yeah, I know he’s been a good friend of mine

But lately something’s changed

It ain’t hard to define

Jessie’s got himself a girl and I want to make her mine

Chloe felt a lump her in throat, after all, she was speaking from the heart. There were things she had wanted to tell the brunette a long time ago, but never actually had the courage to do so. But now that they were going their separate ways, what was there to lose right? However, it did concern her that she wasn’t able to read even the slightest reaction from the other.

Beca knew it was about her. She was well aware Chloe loved her, she wasn’t blind or stupid. That night in that tent when they were camping, Chloe had told Beca her biggest regret was she didn’t do enough experimenting during college. Beca totally blacked out so she went with her usual line of 'you’re so weird’, not thinking of how this might be a cruel slap in the face for the ginger. To be quite honest, Beca was confused herself. She knew she had feelings for Jesse, though wasn’t really sure what to call the shiver that crawled down her spine every time she saw Chloe. She always told herself she liked guys only, a 100% heterosexual, but Chloe made her doubt that theory.

And she’s watching him with those eyes

And she’s lovin’ him with that body, I just know it!

And he’s holding her in his arms late, late at night

Chloe swiftly wiped away the tear that had found its way down her cheek, when the other was looking away. She couldn’t stop looking at the brunette. Beca was perfect in her eyes. She always pretended to be a big bad ass, when actually inside she was a big softie. Having met Beca was the best thing that ever happened to her. She deliberately failed her exams three times just so she could be with the dj. Yet she had eyes only for one person. Jesse… What Chloe hated about all of this was that he was actually a nice guy. If he had been an asshole it would have been so much easier to hate him.

You know I wish that I had Jessie’s girl

I wish that I had Jessie’s girl

Where can I find a woman like that?

Beca bit her lip that was now trembling. She tried her best not to make eye contact with the ginger, afraid it would make her burst into tears. Why was this getting to her so much?

I play along with the charade

That doesn’t seem to be a reason to change

You know I feel so dirty when they start talking cute

I wanna tell her that I love her but the point is probably moot

“Chloe…” Beca tilted up her head, Chloe’s name rolling from her lips as a soft sob. She wanted the other to stop or she might really start crying soon, but Chloe ignored her weak protest.

'Cause she’s watching him with those eyes

And she’s lovin’ him with that body, I just know it!

And he’s holding her in his arms late, late at night

You know I wish that I had Jessie’s girl

I wish that I had Jessie’s girl

Where can I find a woman like that?

Chloe was barely able to contain herself. Beca buried her face inside her hands, her shoulders shocking every time a sob escaped her lips. Chloe tried to continue singing but failed horrifically. Her hand dropped the microphone she was holding, like it was numb. “Beca… I love you…” She said, her eyes glassy.

“Just stop Chloe… Please…” Beca shook her head, letting out a dry laugh as she didn’t know how to respond to this. “What do you expect me to say?”

Chloe jumped off the stage. “I want to hear it from you. Say that you don’t feel the same way so I can move on.”

Beca sniffed back the tears that threatened to reappear. She laughed nervously, feeling uneasy. The silence was giving her away. She did have feelings for Chloe, but was afraid to show them.

“What does this mean Mitchell?!” Chloe said, raising her voice, almost angry, but it was more a scared feeling. It was all very confusing. Beca rose from her seat, wiping the trail of her tears from her face. She made a run for it, walking in fast pace to the exit.

“NO! You don’t get to walk away from me Beca! You can’t run from this forever!” Chloe ran after the brunette, who did not bother to look back.

“Watch me!” Beca snarled back. She didn’t realize how close the ginger really was. “Wait…” Chloe stood still, her eyes focused on the ground underneath her. “Beca… Please just wait…”

Beca sighed in defeat. She was weak… Whenever Chloe used her voice like that, it was like a commercial for puppy’s that need help. Okay… weird example. “I love you too.” She softly said, loud enough for the other to hear it. “There I said it! Now can I go?”

Chloe’s mouth gaped open. Without a second thinking this trough, she stormed at Beca. Beca’s eyes sprung open, feeling like a deer in the headlights of a car. Chloe practically assaulted the brunette with perhaps a little too much force, making both fall to the floor. Beca took a quick intake of breath, their noses touching. Chloe entangled both hands, making sure she wasn’t going anywhere. To Chloe’s surprise Beca was the one to move up the last few inches so their lips would touch. The kiss filled with a strong hunger for each other. It was both passionate as soft. There was no longer need to be subtle. Beca’s hand trailed down, grabbing Chloe’s ass earning a soft moan to escape the others lips. Chloe demanded dominance and pulled Beca’s hair back, to kiss her somewhat rougher the second time. Beca then knew who was behind that quirky smile, and it made her love for her grow even more. Chloe’s knee found its way up between Beca’s inner thighs making the other moan into her mouth. Beca came to realize what they were doing and pushed Chloe back, escaping the others grip. She sat up straight, her eyes big as well as Chloe’s who couldn’t hold herself from uncontrollable laughing.

“HOLY SHIT.” Beca gasped.

5sos preference #6; you catch him with his ex

A/N; only doing ashton for now ok

ASHTON; I tried to cuddle up next to him one more time in the attempt that he would put his phone down and pay some attention to me. It had been atleast an hour since Ashton last looked up from his phone. Honestly i was sick of it, so i gave up. Raising my body from the sofa, Ashton didnt even seem to notice and just stared at his phone with a small grin flashed across his face as he typed another message. I crossed my arms, one eyebrows cocked up as i cleared my throat. Finally, he looked up at me and stood up aswell. “Yeah babe i have to go, Luke asked me to grab coffee at his house and talk about some serious stuff so i’ll be back later” Hurriedly, he kissed my cheeks and was out the door without letting me say another word. “Dont wait up!” My head turned to look at the door which closed with a bang. Fucking great, so im all alone. 

I wasn’t gonna mope around all day and just do nothing, so i called a good friend of mine and we both went into town, just enjoying eachother’s company and the fresh autumn air. We passed a little street full of cafe’s and decided to get some coffee. Walking along some of the cafe’s, i looked inside a view, smiling at some couples who were sitting behind the window. Than, my eyes widened and i came to a complete stop. There he was, the mop of blonde curls bouncing up and down as he laughed at something. Beside him was his one and only infamous ex girlfriend. God she looked amazing. She was wearing a black blouse paired with a black skaterskirt and maroon coloured heels. Her long blonde hair fell perfectly over her shoulder. My friend followed my gaze and all i could was a soft gasp as she pulled me with her the other way, back home. During the walk home, i didnt cry, i was numb, eyes still wide. “Shh dont worry Y/N, just go lie down okay, i’ll text you later when that scumbag comes home” i nodded faintly, closing the door behind her. That little bitch, meeting up with his ex behind my back. I didnt think anything trough and just stormed up the stairs and started packing all my shit until i heard a car pull up in the driveway.