tried to make it not so depressing

CS fandom: Rumbelle is so abusive! Belle should totally leave him! She deserves better!

Rumbelle fandom: At least Rumple and Belle have never tried to kill each other, hurt each other, or make each other feel worthless (on purpose), and actually seem to have seriously untreated mental health issues, like psychosis, PTSD, OCD, psychotic depression, and poor communication skills that drive them to the point of being so insane when they want to protect each other and their loved ones that they no longer totally know what the difference between right and wrong is anymore, like in 6A. It’s never been direct, selfish, or intentional enough of shitty behavior to be considered an inherently abusive relationship, though because the root of their issues are severely untreated mental illnesses, and poor communication that sets the other off in an insane paranoia to protect each other for the right reasons by using shitty methods, but they don’t mean to harm each other.

I think it’s more like Kitsowitz are driving them to these point of displaying toxic behaviors towards each other by making them go insane, and abusing Rumple and Belle for the sake of their OOC plots by not letting them communicate properly, or letting them get professional help from the very beginning, just so they can drag out all the unnecessary bullshit by blowing up a pointless conflict out of proportions. That way they think they can try to make us forget that CS is really abusive.

Hook 100% meant to kill Emma and her family for his own personal desires for revenge. He seems like a pretty mentally/emotionally stable guy. He came up with a very calculated plan to hurt Emma and meant to make her feel worthless by killing her and sending her to the UW because he delighted in hurting her.
He threatened to commit suicide by jumping off of a fucking building to get her attention! Emma brought him back to life against his request. Emma mind raped Hook and the whole town to cover up Killy!Stu’s crimes! Emma chose Hook over her fucking parents! Emma is blackmailing other people for her own personal gain! Hook gave her a bullshit sob story over the rings that he keeps as trophies of the victims he’s murdered, and Emma fell for it! Hook makes rape jokes to Emma all the time!

The root of Rumbelle’s issues is that they are both “difficult people” to love, mentally ill, and have poor communication skills. They don’t mean to hurt each other, but they have picked up some dangerous behaviors towards each other because the writers don’t take their mental illnesses seriously anymore, don’t allow them to get emotional support or professional help anymore, and thought that “It was fun to drive them both to the point of insanity in 6A because they don’t know shit about human psychology, and hoped that it would make everyone forget how truly abusive CS is. But it didn’t work. Rumbelle’s become extremely unhealthy, but it’s still selfless and unconditional true love. I can’t say the same about Hook and CS.

The root of CS’s issues is that Hook is a narcissistic sociopath, he and Emma have committed direct and intentional abuse towards each other for their own personal gain, and they have a negative influence on each other’s personalities and relationships with other people.

“People who see us from the outside think that our greatest struggle is the disability. It’s not. Our greatest struggle is that we’d fallen out of love with each other. I lost a lot of my independence when Tatiana was born. I fell into a depression. He was working a lot. We grew distant. I didn’t think I could ever love him again. Two years ago I prayed one night, and said: ‘God, you’ve done so much. Please grant me one more miracle and make me love him again.’ The first change came from me. He’s always been the easygoing one, so I had to change first. I started trusting more. I tried to be more forgiving and understanding. I started to cook for him and organize things around the house. And he started spending more time at home. We started enjoying each other’s company. We talked about things other than diseases. And we started going out together– just like this. It was like I suddenly met a friend, who became my best friend, who became my love. And our life started over again.”

(São Paulo, Brazil)

Allow me to preface this by saying I do not get angry easily.

I don’t care if people dislike kpop artists, I care that they disrespect them.

These boys and girls have gone through more crap to get to where they are, and have put up with so much. If anything, even if you don’t like them, you will respect them.

Allow me to just point to one example, that of Min Yoongi. (There are many I can pull out of my hat. Amber, Jackson, Namjoon, most of EXO, I could go on. But Yoongi’s story is one of my favorites.)

His parents didn’t approve of his dream to become a musician, and if you don’t know about Asian culture, parental approval is a huge thing. They burned his music, and wouldn’t pay for his lessons.

Min Yoongi worked part time jobs delivering so he could get music lessons. He injured his shoulder in the process, and heaven only knows how his parents reacted.

Oh, he has depression and social anxiety as well. His parents took him to a psychiatrist and then told him they didn’t know who he was anymore. He didn’t even know who he was. He hid himself away to make his family happy and tried to do what they wanted, but he was dying on the inside. He would hide in the bathroom and cry.

Did this stop when he became a trainee? No. His depression and social anxiety were still there, and his parents still didn’t approve. He doesn’t speak a lot on what happened during the trainee days, but there were a lot of people that said he wouldn’t make it, and a lot of people that betrayed him.

Min Yoongi went through hell.

Min Yoongi had no one that believed in him.

Min Yoongi started out rapping in front of two people.

Min Yoongi is a person just like us.

Min Yoongi made his dream a reality.

Min Yoongi may not have changed the whole world, but he has changed mine and so many other’s.

And dammit you will respect him for that.

They’re not “pretty boys” or “hot girls.” They’re human beings. They’re people just like us that had the strength to fight for what they wanted. To go through hell and unimaginable pain for what they wanted. People that teach others to believe in themselves, and remind us that the world isn’t all bad.

They have changed my life.

They have saved my life.

They have been there for me when no one else was.

Just because you can’t look past language barrier or the fact that they’re all in a group, you disrespect them? You don’t understand why we love them so much?

Learn to listen to the music with your heart instead of your ears, and then maybe you’ll understand.

on passive homophobia

there’s this post that i just saw, where the OP said that she does not condone same-sex ships because they’re sinful in her eyes. She was all “don’t hate me, pls, i mean no harm.”

and here’s the thing- i believe people when they say that they mean no harm when they say “love the sinner, hate the sin.” i grew up in an evangelical catholic household, but i also grew up with a sister who identifies as part of the LGBT community. when i was a kid, i also used to believe the whole “love the sinner, hate the sin” but over time, i realized how hurtful and just plain wrong that belief is. i realized how that belief still leads LGBT people to feel shame and self-hatred, how it alienates and destroys self-worth. Like… being gay is not the same as adultery and murder. It’s part of someone’s identity– how can you tell people to hate something that is part of their identity? 

i know the point many christians are trying to make is that Jesus takes away that shame and hurt bc he carries it for you, but day to day, it still is so hard to overcome. it’s hard to feel like you can’t be yourself, like you have to constantly reject your heart, your thoughts, your identity- even though no one else around you has to. it hit me when one my good friends told me, “I am gay, and I have accepted that I will always be a bachelor, because of what God wants.” My heart broke, because it felt wrong— if you fall in love with someone, you have to throw that away because loving someone who this religion says you shouldn’t is WRONG? 

I’m sorry, but the God I know- the God who saved my life- is a God who makes no mistakes. It’s a God who loves unconditionally, a God of endless complexity. 

and honestly, my sister has recently come to accept that she is not quite as straight as she tried to be for much of her life, and she’s now in a healthy happy relationship with a woman, and she is honestly the happiest i’ve ever seen her. it was such a point of inner dilemma for her, and it literally made her feel so depressed and angry at herself for years

anyway. i don’t usually talk about this stuff, because I’m never sure when it’s okay to speak up as someone who doesn’t identify as LGBT, but I do identify somewhat loosely as Christian, and many people I love are LGBT, and when I see someone using Christianity to peddle off passive homophobia, I feel like I need to speak up. 

TL:DR: even if you mean no harm when you say ‘hate the sin, love the sinner,’ you’re still causing worlds of harm. and when people tell you that your beliefs are harming them, it’s not good enough to say ‘i didn’t mean any harm.’ please listen to them. 


Anon: Can you please do one where lance is self-doubting and staying up really late and training? Like he gets really sick from not sleeping. Like can’t keep anything down sick. It’s okay if you don’t want to do or you already did this already. Please and thank you!

Anon: Maybe something where Lance is getting berrated (idk why) and Keith comes to his defense like in intensness or something.

A/N: When I started writing this, I didn’t intend for it to be so dark. Hot damn. Deep shit ahead. Also, I’m horrible at pet-names. I tried to write from 3rd person Keith instead of omniscient so here we go ᕕ(ツ)ᕗ

It was a particularly depressing mission.

The Blue Paladin had to make a near-impossible choice. Surrender Voltron, or surrender a resource-heavy planet and all its inhabitants. Death wasn’t mentioned in either scenario, but it was very heavily implied. In the end, Lance made the choice to save Voltron on the basis that they would save many many other planets by defeating Zarkon in the long run.

But that didn’t mean a whole planet’s worth of deaths wasn’t weighing on his soul.

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lardo and chowder sharing a bathroom/being besties:
  • they have sleepovers all. the. dang. time. 
    • it started accidentally. lardo stormed into chowder’s room at midnight frustrated that one of her pieces wasn’t going how she wanted it to and just flopped right down onto chowder’s bed (and kind of onto chowder)
    • dude just takes it in stride and brushes his fingers through her hair and asks what’s wrong
    • they end up talking for like 3 hours then lardo says she can’t be bothered to go back to her room and they just fuckin fall asleep there
    • it’s the beginning of a beautiful tradition any time either of them are stressed or upset
    • it happens even when farmer or shitty are staying over (they just join in the cuddle sesh, it’s wonderful)
  • lardo once forgot to lock the bathroom door on chowder’s side while she was having a shower and chris was still half asleep and walked in to pee and screamed which scared the fuck out of lards and made her fall out of the shower
    • after chowder finished apologising while covering his eyes lardo vowed she would get him back for this
    • she still hasn’t but chowder is extremely worried about what she’s going to do and has taken to triple checking both doors are locked before even getting undressed
  • i’ve mentioned before that chowder really likes plaiting hair and often does lardo’s for her but she always likes to return the favour and chowder does have a crazy long fringe so lardo likes to do a plait from the crown of his head forward to his fringe
    • it looks awful (think malfunctioning unicorn horn) but he loves it and usually keeps it in for the rest of the day
    • the team aren’t sure whether to chirp him or not bc he looks so happy but does he seriously think it looks good?
    • he knows it’s Bad but he loves lardo and it’s funny and it makes her laugh so he tries to keep it for as long as possible
    • (also it makes his fringe go all curly when he undoes it and farmer says it looks really hot so Worth It)
  • lardo has a perchant for drawing really realistic dicks in the bathroom mirror when it’s steamy and she likes to leave them as a surprise for chowder when he has a later start than her
    • at first chowder tries to ignore them but they are very um prominent
    • so he starts adding to them
    • the first time he snaps her a picture of a giant dick wearing a goalie mask she’s in a lecture and bursts out laughing before she can stop herself
  • when chowder’s having a bad depression day and farmer can’t come round lardo warms up one of those beany toy animals in the microwave and puts it on chowder’s feet while he lies in bed and just sits next to him until he’s ready to talk or eat
    • sometimes he needs contact so she’ll lie behind and press her fingers into his back, running them up and down with just enough pressure that he eventually starts to feel more comfortable and present again
  • chowder once found a huge string of shark fairy lights at a charity shop and tried to hang them up all Arty around his shelves and stuff but ended up getting tangled in them 
    • lardo walks in when he calls for help, takes one look at him and immediately leaves, only to return with her phone in hand 
    • she then proceeds to take about 100 photos of him sitting on the floor with glowing sharks wrapped around his arms and legs, telling him to look at her and pose like he means it
    • eventually she helps untangle him but not until she’s put at least 20 of the photos on the group chat, changed her lock screen, and emailed a picture to mama chow
  • chowder gets lardo a giant stuffed duckling for a graduation present
    • she cries

anonymous asked:

do you have any headcanons about remus?

  • has a specific smile for each of his friends. uses them a lot.
  • is rarely angry. but when he is angry Watch Out, buddy, and buckle up because you’re in for a long rant. peppered with cursing, probably. actually, a lot of cursing peppered with the Thing that’s actually bothering him.
  • slouches and flops a lot. sitting up straight is not in his vocabulary.
  • but sarcasm is. his friends joke he should have Sarcasm tattooed in invisible ink on his forehead
  • does not have face scars, because those would have been mentioned in harry’s description of him. he does have them everywhere else, though, and they’re gnarly.
  • can fall asleep anywhere. does so frequently. snores loudly.
  • is super great at container gardening, weirdly. his family never really lived anywhere long enough to put down roots, and what’s better than food you can take with you. you know remus lives there the back flat is full of vegetables in pots.
  • keeps a secret pet garden gnome named pickles.
  • the middle support for all the questionable, but enthusiastic Marauder-made Gryffindor/Potter Quidditch banners. he is in charge of face painting, too, because of that thing Sirius did in fourth year that landed them all in detention.
  • is known to have a really good sense of smell, even if people don’t know why. has a side-hustle going where, for a small fee, he will tell you what the specific smells in your amortentia sample is.
  • is the king of bartering with people because he never has cash. 
  • takes walks in the woods with james, who doesn’t go on and on about how cool the latest full moon adventure was. they just chill and be.
  • will see his mates being stupid and see the impending disaster ten seconds before it happens but says nothing because the consequences will be an Opportunity for Growth 
  • is perpetually exhausted but tries not to fix it with caffeine (or something more), because it makes the inevitable crash even worse. he definitely hates taking anything, because his body is so fricking weird.
  • is perpetually in pain, just of varying degrees. has scars on the inside of his mouth from biting down on his cheeks.
  • firmly believes that you are what you ingest and tries only to read cheerful(ish) books and cheerful(ish) music, lest he give in to his darker, depressive impulses.
  • hates hates hates it when james does his homework, but never complains when a very specific set of tailored, thorough lectur + book reading notes appears in his bag on full moon weeks. 
  • loves his mates more than literally life itself. ride or die, bros.
  • almost cried when he found out what his patronus was a wolf. 
  • is very proud of being a prefect, but went to dumbledore and asked to be removed from consideration for Head Boy because the prophet always runs a little blurb on the HB & HG and he didn’t want the undo attention.
  • was the one to talk james down when he inadvertently killed someone in a skirmish with death eaters.
  • does not carry any grudges, except against peeves because of a thing that happened fourth year that he really, really doesn’t like talking about.
  • teaches the other marauders how to sew because they don’t and they ruin entirely too many clothes and he’s not their goddamn mother.
  • except he is, really, and they do such a shit job he ends up redoing their work.
  • pretends to believe his friends when they claim they’ve outrgrown a jumper or a pair of trousers or shoes and pass it on to him.
  • mastermind behind most of the marauder programming for the hogwarts pirate radio station and revived the idea for the second wizarding war
  • is the friend who will patiently listen and ask just the right questions to let you draw your own conclusions abt how to solve Current Life Crisis
Bf! Taeyong

  • Lowkey dumb
  • but very cuddly and cute so you keep him around
  • You both met when you were trainees, you were a newbie and really nervous cuz all of these people were so talented and there you were
  • Taeyong saw you all nervous and internally blushed at how pretty you were but kept a strong face and totally ignored you
  • He kept on sneaking glances at you though, when you weren’t paying attention but other times he would pretend you weren’t even there
  • You would sometimes get reprimanded by your coach or your trainers and he would want to fight them and protect you but he has to conceal dont feel because he doesn’t want any other distraction during his trainee life
  • But then he saw you getting closer to other trainee members, especially Yuta and became so jealous that he became really cold towards you, like lowkey bullied you
  • Like that one time you asked for the directions to the boys’ dorm (cuz u wanted to give yuta his vitamin water) and he told you to ‘find it yourself’ and shoulder bumped you
  • you almost fell 
  • He felt really bad about it the whole day though and wanted to apologise but had too much of an ego to do so and he was still pissed that you were closer to Yuta than him
  • He didn’t know why but he was always agitated around you two and just wanted to push yuta away
  • Your debut was nearing and you were in the practice room working on your dance moves.You had improved a lot and everyone loved you. The only problem was Taeyong. He was so beautiful but so cold you almost shivered every time he was around. Yuta was friendly and out going but it was Taeyong you wanted to get close to
  • You felt down as you lost your balance on the cold wooden floor
  • “aisshhh how does he even have friends” you said to yourself while massaging your foot
  • “there are ice packs in the fridge you know” you heard a voice. Turning around you saw Taeyong standing against the door, his face make up free and glowing against the brilliant lights of the room
  • You stood up slowly but Taeyong was quick to react. “Stay” he said as he lunged towards the small refrigerator and pulled out an ice pack. He walked over to you and placed the cool material on your ankle 
  • You stared at how beautiful his skin was and how ethereal he looked up close. He looked up into your eyes and you blinked. He was close, too close
  • “Thanks,” you stuttered, your breath held in. It felt as if you would implode
  • “You should be more careful,”  he said. He looked so soft, so human. You wanted to touch his face and play with the glistening strands of his hair. How would anyone believe that this angelic boy was actually so cold and closed off
  • You both sat in silence, his hand still holding the ice pack over your foot. You inhaled deeply, wanting to escape this situation but wanting it never to end
  • “You know I-” you both started and he smiled to himself. “You can go first”
  • “No its ok” you smiled at him. He stopped to look at you for a while as his heart beat sped up
  • “I’m not doing anything this Saturday, do you want to join me for a coffee?” he asked. You nodded instantly which caused him to laugh. “So cute” he whispered to himself and you looked away, blushing
  • Taeyong seemed like a different person that day. Laughing at your jokes and smiling at you, he even held your hand when walking you to the dorms. You kissed his cheek as you left. He smiled like an idiot the rest of the night
  • Thats when it all began, Taeyong and you
  • Taeyong had never even imagined that you’d say yes when he asked you to be his girlfriend, upon asking “didn’t you like Yuta?”  and hearing your loud “NO HE’S JUST A FRIEND” he almost cried with happiness and also at his idiocy that how stupid he had been 
  • With Taeyong its endless messages and calls, he always so bored when you’re not around or when you’re too busy to reply and attend his calls
  • You both sneak out of your dorms to just walk together and eat together
  • His day gets a hundred times better when he has plans with you and annoys yuta by asking him what kind of sneakers suit him
  • “Taeyong they’re all white”
  • “But do you like the ones with the blue logo on them or should I get new ones with a darker blue logo”
  • Such a mom towards you tbh
  • Like when you weren’t wearing your coat he kept on nagging you to wear his or “should’ve worn a coat” “why don’t you take care of yourself”
  • Offers you his food and you’d be dying cuz you’ve eaten so much but he’s like “no eat”
  • Doesn’t appreciate it when you’re on a diet because that means you cant eat out with him
  • Sulks a lot when you don’t pay him enough attention
  • Like he’ll become to quiet and needy and attach himself to your arm and look at you with puppy dog eyes
  • “love me y/n”
  • loves hugging you, enjoys your warmth and your smell
  • loves the fact that your smaller than him and a lot softer 
  • cooks for you a lot like you’ll just be at your dorm and he’ll show up with homemade food that his mom taught him
  • He wants to explore all kinds of food with you and wants you to have all the food he loves and vice versa
  • he takes an active part in celebrating your life like when you debuted he showed up with cake and candles to celebrate it
  • and on your birthdays he goes out of his way and has a surprise party for you, such a cutie
  • he’s so dumb around you too like people think he’s a suave playboy of sorts when in reality he’s just a really confused and excited pup
  • like he’s really happy around you and also really clumsy and he loses his energy really quickly
  • he prefers having a day in with you and just cuddling and watching movies
  • Whenever you’re sick or sad or worried his mom mode activates and he tries making you feel as comfortable as he can 
  • He can’t stand you crying and is always there when you’re having a hard time
  • The good thing about him is that he’s always there to cheer you up and hear you out and give you good advice
  • Taeyong is a really insecure person so he’s always scared you might leave him and gets depressed really easily
  • Especially in the first few days of his debut he was getting a lot of hate and ended up being really closed off and didn’t even reply to your texts or calls. He thought that the world, including you hated him
  • But then you had to physically go up to his dorm and comfort him and he just laid there in your lap talking about nothing
  • He was a little assured then that you wouldn’t leave but still tries really hard to make you happy so you wouldn’t leave
  • And you won’t leave him because you love him to bits
  • You two fight sometimes on the fact that he can become really closed off when he’s depressed 
  • And especially when he’s jealous
  • Because of his fear of losing you he becomes jealous really easily and gets all cold and mean and you both fight about it
  • but he ends up giving in and cuddling you at night because he still needs all the warmth, it gets cold on his side of the bed
  • makes you pancakes in the morning to have you forgive him
  • and then you give him a long lecture on how you’re his and no one else’s and his smile is so content and oh wow your boyfriend is so beautiful
  • He loves it when you sit on his lap and he pulls you closer to his chest and nuzzles his nose in the crook of your neck
  • and then it turns into a make out session
  • his kisses are so soft and he holds you so close and treats you so delicately and he always smells so nice
  • gets annoyed when your dorm is messy and goes on a cleaning rampage, its annoying sometimes but its just how he is
  • You both go on many long walks along the river and late night snacks at the convenience store
  • He wants to travel the world with you someday
  • Like you both going to Kyoto for your honeymoon
  • and then smacks himself thinking that you both are too young to get married
  • daydreams about you a lot
  • when he’s really busy with his comeback he feels as if he’s missing something and then remembers he hasn’t texted you
  • and then goes like oh fuckOH FUCK while looking for his phone and finding many texts from you saying “good luck” and “i know you’re busy but dont forget to eat and drink water” “dont overwork yourself”
  • and he smiles so wide and jaehyun in the back whistles and he ignores him and just keeps on smiling
  • like a literal text from you to him can brighten up his day so much
  • your relationship is so slow and peaceful and he’s so passionate and loving
  • he’s never bored around you and sleeps peacefully next to you
  • Taeyong is a bottom in bed, he prefers you taking control and being all dominant
  • He loves it when you’re confident and bold
  • but when he’s mad or jealous and wants to punish you god almighty i hope you’re alive child
  • but most of the time its slow and passionate and you both end up cuddling after
  • he later told you that he bullied you the whole time cuz he had a crush on you and you couldn’t stop laughing
  • “let it go ok”
  • And then he blushed and his ears went red 
  • He wants to adopt a dog with you, he would legit marry you if the company allowed him to
  • cuz with you he feels like he’s home, he feels accepted and loved
Ok so I’ve been seeing a ton of those ‘we need more representation at hogwarts’ posts and I was like hell why not more Jewish representation at Hogwarts (and like everywhere else but that’s another story). No like imagine though
  • parents calling/or I guess writing the school to make sure that their kids get a kosher meal option and that there’s a good Jewish presence
  • having Friday night and Saturday morning and Holiday services in the room of requirement
  • bar and bat mitzvahs would be fuckin epic like imagine having your bar or bat mitzvah in the Great Hall like hot damn people would talk about that for centuries like what was your bar/bat mitzvah theme? oh just REAL LIFE WIZARDING MAGIC
  • on a more depressing note learning about how Voldemort tried to wipe out anyone who wasn’t pureblood brings up too many Holocaust parallels and is actually extremely upsetting to many students/ many of the Jewish kids teach their non-muggleborn friends about the Holocaust when they ask why they’re getting so distraught
  • but on a lighter note Hannukah at Hogwarts would be fuckin awesome. like Slytherin students charming their dreidels so they can win every time, Hufflepuffs making everyone homemade gifts and shit, EVERYONE fucking making latkes bc those rule, also the kitchen elves being like wtf is a latke and the students being like prepare to have your mind fuckin blown
  • giving the Jewish students the day off on Yom Kippur bc like how the frick are you supposed to function come on (that should apply to every school not just magical ones let’s be honest here)
  • accidentally saying spells in Hebrew because if you grew up learning Hebrew and English it’s gonna slip out when speaking another foreign language (happens to me all the time in Spanish)
  • getting howlers from concerned mothers who just want you to call back or write back because they love you and they want to make sure you’re warm and well fed (but they remind you that the cooking will never be as good as their own, and your mom is probably right, you miss her brisket and kugel) and if you’re dating anyone make sure it’s a nice jewish boy/girl!
  • religious kids arguing over what kind of magic is okay to use on Shabbat and holidays
  • religious kids getting kippot that match their respective houses
  • religious kids davening in their common rooms each morning
  • having a succah in the courtyard on Succot, but it does the bigger on the inside thing like the tents at the Quidditch world cup, so on the outside it looks pretty small and humble but you get inside and it’s like decked the fuck out and there’s candy from honeydukes everywhere and it’s just amazing
  • dressing up on Halloween and Purim and giving shalach manot to their friends and professors
  • WHY CANT YOU EAT BREAD FOR THE WHOLE WEEK? This question comes up whether you’re in the wizarding world or not let’s face it.
  • HOGWARTS SEDERS. The great hall decorated for the Seder. those long ass Hogwarts tables decorated with like ten Seder plates because they are so long. Students staying up way past their bedtime because it’s the Seder and that’s just what you do. all the kids who were at the Seder just wiped out in classes the next day.
  • Jewish wizards charming matzah into actually tasting decent (what a thought)
  • Jewish wizards inviting their non Jewish friends to Seders and Friday night dinners
  • Introducing friends to the magical bread that is Challah and kids being like 'damn son I do magic all day every day but this is true magic’
  • Jewish wizard couples just because
  • Celebrating Israeli Independence Day at Hogwarts (that would be a dream come true holy moly) like cooking falafel and stuff with the kitchen elves that would be amazing
  • basically just send me to Hogwarts already

Loneliness is one of the key themes in Moomin books. Tove Jansson was very familiar with this experience. Her father had been emotionally damaged by the civil war when Tove was very young and because of this, she spent her entire childhood longing for his affection. In her adulthood Tove experienced another war and had to wait for her brother, lover and friends who were away fighting. All while her friends and family were also mourning and emotionally distant. After the war ended, Tove entered another relationship full of longing and waiting with Atos Wirtanen. Endless waiting only seemed to end when she met Tuulikki Pietilä, who was finally there when Tove needed her most.

Constant waiting is a lonely experience. But Tove was also aware of another kind of loneliness. This kind of loneliness is the kind we seek ourselves. Tove was a very private person even when she became famous and also a dedicated artist who needed peace to work. She spent years trying to find a place where she could isolate herself to work and enjoy her own company.

Loneliness appears as duality in Moomin books. The bad kind of loneliness is represented with various Fillyjonks and sometimes Moomintroll himself, especially when he longs for Snufkin. Fillyjonks are anxious and depressed people who often suffer from sudden feelings of doom. Their unstable minds and efforts to keep up respectable life often end up isolating them in large houses on the beach because their grandmother had supposedly lived there as a child or in neatly decorated parlors with only their own thoughts for company. Fillyjonks long to escape this loneliness. They will reach out for people but they often fail. It seems it’s impossible to be both polite and proper and speak up about your depression at the same time.

Moominvalley in November is a book where loneliness is the main theme. So it is no wonder that a Fillyjonk is among the main characters. This Fillyjonk is tired of being anxious and alone, so she comes to visit Moomin family in hopes of getting caught up in their spontaneous life. When Moomin family appears to be away, she tries to be spontaneous like Moominmamma herself and make people around her feel at home. She fails miserably, because a timid and orderly Fillyjonk cannot be Moominmamma. Her efforts isolate her further until she lets go and starts to be herself but with a happier attitude towards herself. In the end she manages to put together a work party and heads back home with more enthusiasm. She was able to overcome her loneliness when she accepted her limitations and embraced them and others.

Another lonely Fillyjonk appears in Tales from Moominvalley; Fillyjonk Who Believed in Disasters. This Fillyjonk ends up overcoming her loneliness without other people like the Fillyjonk mentioned above. Instead, she encounters the disaster she was afraid of and turns her loneliness from bad kind to the good kind. This good kind of loneliness means that you can be by yourself and it’s not scary or unpleasant. Snufkin basically lives for this kind of loneliness. He not only enjoys being by himself, he yearns for it and becomes anxious if he does not get to be alone. In a way, his good loneliness is the opposite from Fillyjonk’s bad loneliness. This good kind of loneliness nurtures and gives us strength to be social again. Though eventually even Snufkin realizes that maybe he did not really need to be so much alone, when he was always surrounder by people who understood him.

There is no way to talk about loneliness and healing without talking about the very personification of loneliness; The Groke. The Groke is so cold that everything she touches turns to ice. This isolates her from other people completely. So completely, that they would rather not even mention her name. Whenever she approached their light, they will turn it off and run away. She is almost defiant in her loneliness. “I’m the only Groke. There is no one like me and I will never warm up” she declares in Moominpappa and the Sea. She is bad loneliness given form. But eventually a single act of kindness, Moomintroll coming to see her on the beach, frees the Groke. Moomintroll’s company and caring drive away her loneliness and turn out to be the key to her freedom; The Groke becomes warm. Moomin books always show us characters either freeing themselves from bad loneliness or finding out that limitless amount of good loneliness is not actually a key to happiness.

The truest example of independent and good loneliness is actually Little My. She is capable of finding just the right balance between loneliness and sociality. She is with others when she feels like it and despite being sharp and brutally honest, she is willing to support and nurture them whenever they need it. But she is also capable of running away whenever she feels like it. Little My is free of sentimentality and will not miss people and company. She can enjoy both loneliness and company to equal measure, without ever getting bored or sad.

Sirius Black and Remus Lupin's first times

Here is a (mainly) fluff Wolfstar I wrote those last days ! Hope you’ll like it >w<

If you prefer to read it on AO3, here is the link

When they first meet, it’s at the train station. Sirius is with Walburga and Regulus, half listening his mother’s “advices”, which sound more like orders and threats. Looking at the crowd, his eyes catch a pair of scared but happy green eyes. It’s a boy his age, with apparently his parents and little luggage.

He later get to know his name : Remus Lupin. He doesn’t know yet this name will become his world.

When they first get detention, it’s together, less than a month after the first day of class. Sirius pull a prank on a group of Slytherin boys who are always mocking him for being a lion, but the teacher punishes Sirius and Remus since they are together.

During the detention, Remus tries not to pay attention to Sirius – it’s his fault they got here after all ! He doesn’t last more than twenty minutes though.

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  • wattpad fanfic: so he's a serial killer who has fallen in love with me after he kidnapped me but he won't tell me about his dark and tragic past so he turned to drugs and he physically abuses me but it's okay bc we sleep together like every other chapter
  • deviantart fanfic: *inserts an OC into the canon universe*
  • Quotev fantic: my name is [insert author's first name here] Payne/Purdy/Quinn/Fuentes/Barakat/Irwin/ect. and my parents hate me so they're making my brother take me on tour with him and his band and I fell in love with his bandmate who helped me conquer my depression and now I'm pregnant with his baby and my brother wants to kill us both
  • AO3 fanfics: literally the most well-written stories you'll ever have the privilege to read. better than most classic literature. you've read published novels that weren't this beautiful. you feel like a better person after having read this story.
  • fanfics: stories that tried and came close but weren't good enough for AO3
  • tumblr fanfic: *all of the above*
Random Nico Headcanons

Based on a post by @writing-central

You can request these for any other character:) Feel free to ask.

• his opinions about boys: he likes them obviously but being very committed, he doesn’t let his eyes wander when in a relationship (will appreciates this)

• His opinion towards girls: he’s had two sisters and many female friends so he respects the gender very much but he doesn’t appreciate when girls come up to him and are forward despite them knowing he’s into dudes

• his type: is the beach babe sort of guy, and he doesn’t get it. He isn’t even close to being sporty so he doesn’t know where it came from but it does explain why he liked Percy and Will consecutively

• the meaning of life: for him is to live the life that the people who died never got to live. He’s had many friends and family who died at young ages and he wants to avenge them

• nightmares: they’re are getting better thanks to the sleeping medicine that Will has him on, and he’s stopped taking it recently and still getting good sleep but he remembers how horrible they had been and that they’re the source of his dark circles

• The best flavor of chap stick: in his opinion is the strawberry Fanta lip smacker that Will once borrowed from Kayla. He had to refrain himself from kissing Will every two seconds and just to be annoying, Will has now started to wear it on a daily basis

• Inappropriate stuff? Nope, this child is one hundred percent pure thanks to Maria and Bianca’s brought up but he does let his mind wander to sex once in a while. He also had to get the talk from a homosexual point of view (thanks to Will). But that was really awkward since he’s dating Will.

• family: He considers the camps his family now, and of course Hazel. But in his heart, Maria and Bianca will never be replaced and Hazel understands this since it’s the same for Marie Levesque

•Plans for the future: they’re interesting because he really doesn’t know what he wants to do. In the end, he did end up settling between literature or psychology.

• The weirdest dream he’s had: it will always be the popcorn one he had when he was a corn plant. Never has he been so afraid of popcorn

• Vine: thanks to Lester’s big mouth, he was introduced to some modern platforms like vine and Snapchat but he doesn’t use them because of the whole demigod not supposed to have phones thing

• Spongebob: Will made him watch it when they were finding out Nico’s hobbies, but he ended up liking anime way more (he doesn’t understand how a starfish has EYES)

• Aliens: some campers decided it would be funny to tell him that when he was in Lotus, aliens had invaded the earth for a bit but he didn’t buy that because he’d done his research

• Harry Potter: despite a lot of Headcanons saying that he would like Harry Potter, I beg to differ. He would probably not be a fan of another magical world since he’s already had enough and next thing he knows the camp is being attacked by Voldemort

• The end of the world: he feels as if he’s come close to it a few times and yet he’s still alive so he perceives it as something more horrible than anything he’s suffered through

• death: it makes him feel slightly depressed which is strange coming from a son of Hades but it’s a flaw that he has but he doesn’t mind

• School: I like to think Nico tried public school but it was too much for him so Chiron allowed him to take private lessons in camp since he hadn’t been exposed to mortals very much after Lotus

• The best superpower: according to him, if he could have another one, would be bringing the dead back without consequences

• Pet peeves: they include close minded people and people who have no sense of personal space

• Who he’d sell his soul to save: at this point, it would narrow down t Hazel because of the personal relationships he has with her but there’s many other people he’s save so he can’t answer this one

• Poetry: he used to like it until Will started telling his horrible poetry smh

• Religion: he came from a strongly catholic family (thus his hesitation to come out) but he’s more of someone who doesn’t particularly practice religion but does sometimes pray

• Coke vs Pepsi: Will hates him for it but he likes sprite more than both and doesn’t drink coke if there’s alternatives. Poor Will, he loves his coke that Texan

•The worst pain they’ve ever felt : Tartarus.

•Fears: strangely, it’s darkness. Being a son of Hades he should’ve been more accepting of it but the dark makes him uncomfortable Enough to wake up and go to the Apollo cabin’s bathroom

• Childhood hopes: he always wanted to be a pirate

• What if plants had feelings? As someone who has been a plant before, he’s a strong believer of this

Again, you can ask for any other characters

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Originally posted by raquel-lostgirl

posted 4/25/17

request? yes
    I LOVE YOUR MONTY IMAGINES!!! Can you please write and emotional Monty x reader, it would mean so much!


“ Can you do a SAD Monty x reader imagine! Thank you!!!


“ REQUEST! Can you write a sad Monty x reader imagine?

pairing(s): montgomery x baker!reader , hannah x sister!reader

warning(s): um, sad? mentions of hannah’s death, and a suicidal thought

a/n: 2/3 requests are from my other blog so enjoy !
+ i’m not sure if this as sad as you guys expected, but i tried so it’s the thought that counts
++ please know that my inbox & messages are always open if you need someone to talk to. trust me, i know what it’s like to feel alone and think that there’s no one to talk to, but please just keep in mind that i’m always here and that i’m more than willing to talk to you if you need help. xx

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Second Chance (F)

Originally posted by ceohan

REQUESTED: a scenario based off the song Sick written by Youngjae. 

Reader (you) x Mark Tuan

Word Count: 1188

Warngins: none :)

note: since i didn’t update mayday yesterday, i felt bad because i haven’t written anything for you guys. anyways, requested by anon! i hope you like this one, my dear! it’s written differently than what i usually write so… it’s something new haha. take care everyone, since it’s freezing outside. happy reading everyone! -admin

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After a week of hitting your voice mail, Mark was close on giving up on you. All he wanted was to hear your voice. The voice that made his insides turn and his cheekbones rise. For two years, you two were happily dating with no problems at all. Or at least Mark thought there was no problem at all.

Coming up to your two year anniversary, you and Mark started to have frequent fights over small little things. You were frustrated at Mark because he didn’t change like he promised after fighting with you. And after a week of making up, Mark would slowly return to the person who you fought with. You told your friends about this problem and they told you to give up on him. They told you that you deserved better and you agreed. So one day, you snapped at Mark and broke up with him.

Mark never admit it, the way you looked at him with your callous expression when you left tore his heart apart. It made his days sad for weeks. He often wondered how did you and him end up like this since his days spent without you hurt so much. He wanted to forget you but it was hard for him to erase all of the memories of you laughing when you both enjoyed things together.  It dug deep down inside of him - your actions and the way you talk affected him. He would always wonder why he would do this to himself, remembering you in his memory. And no matter how hard he tried to forget, his thoughts would always wander their way back to you.

Please leave a message at the tone.

“Aghh!” Mark screamed, hanging up his phone for the fifth time and slamming down on the counter. Did you change your phone number? He just wanted to know if you were doing well or if your days were as sad as his. He hoped that you thought of him from the day you left him and that you would pick up the phone whenever he called. But of course, you didn’t pick up the phone.

What hurt him the most was when he saw you the other day. Your bright smile plastered on your face and your sparkling eyes. The happiness radiating out of you made Mark think that you never thought of him at all. After two years of dating, how could you not be hurt at all? But Mark was wrong to think that way since he didn’t know you spent hours crying in your room. You wanted Mark back in your life but you could never bring yourself to confess. And so you moved on.

“Hyung, you okay?” Jinyoung questioned, after hearing Mark scream at his phone.

“I’m fine.” Was all Mark said these days. He was usually quiet at dorm but normally he would speak a few words. Nowadays, Mark said nothing to the members. Not even one word except for ‘I’m fine’. It worried the members since they saw the effect you had on Mark. But they didn’t say a word.

“It’s a nice day outside. Maybe take a walk to clear your mind.” Jinyoung suggested, patting Mark on the shoulder. And that was what Mark did. He walked down the street where you two both held hands and laughed together. He wandered around the area, reminiscing the days you two spent together. Arriving at a nearby park, he sat down on a bench, staring blankly at the scenery. Until, someone caught his vision.

You were sat at a table that was set up in front of a food trolley with a hotdog in front of you. You sat alone, with your phone pulled up on the table as you silently ate your hotdog. Mark admired you from afar, debating to himself if he should go up and talk to you. Although lost at words, Mark still wouldn’t let this opportunity slide. He knew that this moment would be the last time he would ever see you if he didn’t make a move.

Standing up from the bench, he took in a deep breath and took out his wallet. Approaching the food trolley, he calculated a plan in his head and decided to order a hotdog, just use it as an excuse to sit with you.

But you didn’t see him coming since you were too focused on your phone. So when a deep voice, with a hotdog in hand, asked you if he could sit in front of you, you immediately recognized the voice. Looking up at Mark, you stared blankly at him, in shock that he was standing in front of you.

“Sure.” You nodded quietly, watching Mark’s actions as he sat down in front of you. You stared at him and his features. It has been months since you last saw him which made you forget how good looking he was. You wanted to tell him that you missed him. You wanted to burst out and cry, begging him to take you back. But you remained silent.

“Did you change your number?” Mark spoke up, looking up from the table and making eye contact with you.

“Yeah,” You breathed out, still in shock that Mark was sitting in front of you, “I broke my phone a couple months ago so I had to get a new number.”

“Makes sense.” Mark stated, taking a bite from his hotdog.

“How are you?” You asked, trying to make a conversation with him. You wanted to hear his voice so badly that you just blurted out anything that came out of your mouth.

“Can’t say I’m doing great,” Mark sighed, running his fingers through his hair, “But I’m good enough to make it through the day.”

“Mark, are you okay?” You raised your eyebrows in concern, observing his actions. He was different than he was before. He sounded more depressed and down than before. And you knew Mark too well to know that he was feeling down.

“I missed you.” Mark boldly said, setting down his hotdog and looking straight at you. “I tried calling you to tell you this but you wouldn’t pick up.”

“Mark, I’m sor-”

“(Y/N),” Mark interrupted, pushing his hotdog to the side and leaned towards you, “I’m willing to do anything to change myself. Anything at all. Please just give me another chance and I promise you, I will change.”

You knew what your answer was when Mark first opened his mouth. You knew from the moment you saw him that he was dreading over the break up. And Mark knew that deep down inside of you, you wanted to get back together with him. And he wasn’t wrong about that. Even though the road to fixing up the patches would be long, you were willing to give Mark a second chance just to regain that happiness you had with him.

And so you flashed him the charming smile he always loved and nodded at him.

“Yes,” You whispered softly towards him, “I’ll give you a second chance.”

  • someone: i cant believe after all these years and games Altair is still ur favorite assassin, whats so special about him anyway
  • me internally: Altaïr Ibn-La'Ahad from Assassin's Creed™ (2007) was actually a unique character not only because not white (in a time period, the Crusades, that has been novelized from a purely white/western point of view over and over again) but also for the particular treatment of his personality and development. There was absolutely 0 effort in trying to make him likeable or even understandable, he is basically a huge asshole at first and even after the dramatic change his character goes through, he remains a deeply flawed, aloof, unapproachable man. Which I think is actually a refreshing concept - a character that is allowed to exist on his unlikeable own, instead of trying so very hard to appeal to the mass of gamers as it's often done by the majority of developers, ubisoft usually leading the way on this. And yet he's also very far from the icy, unchanging piece of granite that many thought he was at the time (probably because they payed little attention to the dialogues). During only the course of the first game he undergoes a change which remains among the most impressive in the entire series to this day. In fact, other Assassins have much more time and cutscenes dedicated to them and they change very little in comparison. The fact that Altair goes from the selfish, arrogant piece of shit he is in in the first part of the game to someone apologizing and trying to make amends for his mistakes in the second part, reveals he is more reasonable and reflective than everyone (maybe even himself) thought he was at first. His path is built on questions: those he asks to his victims before they die, and those he starts asking himself, about the real meaning of the Creed and its contradictions. This path begins in the first Assassin's Creed game, but it continues, partially behind the scenes, until his death. And if the development of his character is already remarkable in that game, what comes next is even more impressive. Altair's codex is probably the most interesting document in the entire series and it reveals a life dedicated but to the study of the Apple and to the Order, its refinement, its phylosophy, and the possible solutions to its ancient problems. The fact that in the second part of his life he suffered from deep depression due to his losses - his son, his wife, his best friend - and the many troubles of the Order in an age of great changes, only adds a new layer of interest and sympathy for me personally. Being chronically depressed myself, I cherish every positive representation of depressed characters that still try, still fight, and can even save the day every now and then. I think many of the reasons why I like Altair so much were not even accurately planned ahead by his creators and they are actually the result of coincidences, different teams and different necessities from one game to the other; but nonetheless I still love the character that emerged in the end, I love that he is capable and talented and still fail hard; that he makes huge mistakes and apologizes and tries to do better; that he doesn't just run around killing people, but he also sits down and thinks about what he's doing and why he is doing it; I love that he doubts and falters, even on the Creed that dictated his whole life. While there are many other interesting and more easily likeable characters in the series, Altair is still the n.1 on my personal podium because there's a depth, a complexity and a subtlety to the character that, in my opinion, is still unsurpassed to this day.
  • me externally: he's my piece of trash I personally took him out of the dumpster with my own two bare hands ten years ago and I'm keeping him

anonymous asked:

Why do u like SasuSaku? I mean Sasuke tried to kill her, he shows no respect to Sakura in the infinite tsukiyomi arc and treats her like a dirt! Dont get me wrong i love Sakura but i don't see why you SasuSaku ships them so badly? Comparing to Naruto, he is always been there for her no matter what, trying his best to make Sakura happy unlike Sasuke who always makes her depressed.

This is sakura. This child get bashed for loving and wanting the best for the guy she has feelings for. People are mad that she priotitises her feelings over being a cold ninja whose life is without emotions

After being baddly guiltripped for not knowing the feeling naruto has for her, she decides to actaully priotirises naruto’s feelings, trying to give up on her owns by stopping sasuke in the worst way.

Trying to kill him and later taking her own life too. But we all know how strong her love for sasuke is, so the mission was a failure to start with.

It just showed us how selfless she is. How strong the love she has for sasuke, and how much team 7 and naruto means to her.

  • Sakura loving sasuke —–> Endless bashing
  • Sakura denying her feeling for sasuke——> Endless bashing
  • Sakura acts as a ninja—->Endless bashing

The thing is there will always be a so called reason for you to hate her. Reasons that are mostly bullshit that contradict the manga itself, but allow yourself to not feel stupid everytime you say you hate her to yourself.

I’m sorry to say this, but sasuke never once took the initiative to kill sakura. It was selfdefense all the time.

The only times sasuke showed a killing intent was towards kakashi and naruto.He was pissed at kakashi’s ”superior” attitude.

And well naruto because he was literally the only one capable to stop him, since their powers were almost equal.

And yet I don’t see people hating on sasuke for this -.-

The problem exists only when it comes to sakura since she is in the way of your ship, or maybe cus your otp involved her


Sasuke is blunt and realistic when it comes to abilities

At the moment sakura’s powers coudn’t change the situation

Same with kakashi

Strange how noone mentions this, expecially when it’s in the same fucking page

And never forget sakura getting stabbed by madara just to gain some time for them

You really think sasuke would have allowed this to happen twice, bruh. In a way he was thinking just about her selfbeing

You say naruto was always there for sakura, but so was sasuke for sakura. As much I do agree that narusaku is wayyy better than naruhina, sasusaku is still the most devolped couple in the manga. It was obvious from the start.

Too many panels involving sasuke’s feelings for her

Too many scenes confirming the genuinity of sakura’s love.

“He treats her like dirt”

Dirt you said bruh, I guess the definition of this word has changed over time.

Oh but maybe you are talking about respect, like sasuke being the first and only one to see her potential and believe in her strength

Actually thank you anon, you reminded me once again why I’ve been in the sasusaku hell since their very first interaction.

Originally posted by dose-of-sasusaku

the thing with depression is that you can make yourself a tea and an omelette and watch netflix and the omelette tastes so good and you feel pretty okay for a moment and you go out and smoke and a sad song comes up and then it stops. you stop feeling okay and suddenly you are nearly crying while washing dishes and you dont even fucking know why because you choosed a happy song then you even danced or tried to and you sang alone and you tried and it still stopped and you are feeling nothing and you feel so fucking empty 

i hate thirteen reasons why

i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it

after battling my bipolar disorder for years, i can’t help but despise the way 13 RW portrays mental illness. 

after so many years of discussion on glamorised and romanticised suicide and depression, there is still no decent movie/tv series/whatever to describe it. either john green makes it look like something beautiful or Netflix tells you that you are a special snowflake who will survive if somebody tells you they are in love with you

i mean, fuck off. seriously.

nobody can be saved just by other people loving them. of course, it helps if you are not neglected and have a supportive environment, bur mental illness is not something that is caused by a boy not confessing his feelings. suicide is not solely caused by other people. it is caused by the very person who suffers from mental disorders. 

there is not one moment in the show where we see the protagonist aka The Special Depressed Girl staying in bed for a week and not eating for two weeks or overeating or not sleeping or oversleeping or failing classes over and over again because she has no motivation whatsoever. that is what depression really is. it is not a trait that makes you special and romantic and oh-so-martyred. depression is a big fuckload of not being yourself. it’s hell.  

13 RW gives people who suffer from a mental illness one message: it is everyone else’s fault that you’re ill. when really it’s not. and neither is it your fault. if you go around blaming others for the way you feel, there is no way out of it. what you have to do, is to seek help instead of pointing fingers. don’t be a tornado that tries to put the blame on others.

mental illness is not something to make money off. 

Listen up everybody. On the subject of Black Paladin Lance, I think the writers are setting us up for a big shocker. I read a post by kayasuu. I agree. The creators have set him up as a MC, but have only sprinkled in little bits about him. I believe it is due to the fact Lance suffers from depression as shown with his insecurities and loud obnoxious way he introduces himself. Also the homesickness shows you the cracks in his mask.
So what if Black opens for Lance and everybody except Coran doesn’t accept it. As time passes we see the team try to keep going; they fail because no one listens to Lance. He tries again and again, but only Hunk supports him. Finally, Lance has had enough and breaks. He tells them everything. The others realize just how much of jerks they have been to Lance and make up for it. When Shiro comes back he finds a stable and competent team that works together and does it extremely well.
Lance has developed enough now to unlock new weapons. Lotor isn’t an issue in this, because Lance is Lotor. Part of the reason he breaks is that he is accused of being a spy. All is revealed and well.