-Bria’s interlude - Drake
-For However Long - Bryson tiller
-A Night Off - Drake
-B.E.D. Remix - Jacquees
-Waves - Dej Loaf
-Inside Part 2 - Trey songz
-Came thru - Tory Lanez
-Slow Grind - Tory Lanez
-Differences - Tory Lanez
-Party Favors - Trey songz
-First Fuck - 6lack & Jhene Aiko
- French Kiss - Trey songz
- Bomb - Trey Songz
- All We Do - Trey Songz
- Naked - Lloyd
- No bullshit - Chris brown
- Close to you - Dreezy
-Living Room Flow - Jhene aiko
- Perfume - Chris Brown
- Wet The Bed - Chris Brown
- Privacy - Chris brown
- Sex Room - Ludachris
- Since way back - Drake
- Cold Hard Love - Tory lanez
- Sex On The Ceiling - Sevyn
- Ride It - Eric Bellinger
- Drunk in love - Beyoncè
- Zaddy - Ty Dolla Sign
- Diced Pineapples - Fabolous
- sex on the beach - PND
- Her Way - PND
- was gud/ curious - PND
- Freak In You - PND ft Drake
- Come Thru - Drake
- Sex With Me - Fabolous
I had been leaning against the wall near the bathroom door for about fifteen minutes waiting for her to come out. Every few minutes I would knock and ask her to open the door but was met with silence. Once I heard the shower being turned on, I sighed before pushing myself away from the wall. I walked over to my dresser and pulled out a pair of boxers. I pulled them on before I went to sit on side of the bed to wait on her to finish her shower.
I rubbed both of my hands across my face in frustration. This shit was driving me insane. We just couldn’t seem to get it right. If anyone ever said love was easy was a damn lie. All I wanted was for us to make it work but every time we seemed to make some leeway, we end up hitting a brick wall.
I seriously didn’t want to relive the past by telling her the story but a part of me was happy that everything was out on the table now. There was no more guessing on her part. She now knew everything. With nothing else from the past holding us back, I was only hoping for a clear vision of the future.
I popped my head up when I heard the bathroom door unlock and being opened. She stepped out with a towel wrapped around her body. I looked up at her face and saw that her eyes were red and puffy.
“Come here baby.” I mumbled. She surprisingly didn’t hesitate walking right over to me. She stepped in front of me and I placed my hand on her hip to pull her directly between my legs. I reached up and brushed some hair out of her face before kissing her forehead, red nose, and then her lips. She kept her arms pressed to her body, holding her towel together.
“Are you good?” I asked once we pulled away.
She only nodded.
“Are you sure?” I asked as I ran my hands along the back of her thighs. She nodded again before looking down towards her feet.
“Yeah I’m good. I just had to let that out. I guess I expected myself to handle that way better but it was harder to hear than I thought it was going to be.” She mumbled.
“That’s why I didn’t want to talk about it. I knew it would only hurt you baby.” I said as I pulled her onto my lap. I wrapped my arms around her and kissed her temple.
“No, no. I needed to talk about it tho. I needed to hear it.”
I nodded in understanding.
“So that means we’re not bringing it up or talking about it again right?”
“I promise, the subject is done and won’t be brought up again.” She responded.
“Good. And I know I can’t expect you to trust me 100% but all I ask is that you have a little faith in me and try to trust me. In return, I’m going to do everything in my power to restore your trust in me. Okay?”
“Okay.” She said softly before pecking my lips. “Can we go to bed now? I’m tired.”
I smiled at the pout on her lips.
“Yeah baby.” I tapped her butt signaling her to get up. She got off my lap, dropped her towel, and immediately climbed in the bed once I stood up. She snuggled under the covers and I climbed in behind her. I wrapped my arms around her naked body before kissing her shoulder, her neck, and finally her cheek.
“I love you.” I mumbled into her ear.
“I love you more.” She said as she snuggled deeper into my arms.
I was first to wake up the next morning. I rolled over and Trey’s arms and saw that he was knocked out on his back. I laid in his arms a little while longer willing myself to wake up a little more. Last night was emotionally draining. From visiting the past and new revelations, it took a lot out of me. I got the truth I asked for but I guess I didn’t realize how much her the truth would hurt. But like I promised him, I was going to do my best to move forward and leave the past in the past. Not saying it would go as smoothly as I would like but I was going to do my best. My only focus for now on was going to be my man and our baby.
After laying there a few minutes longer, I rolled out of his embrace and out of the bed. I dragged my feet over to the walk-in closet and grabbed one of Trey’s t-shirts. I pulled it over my head before walking into the bathroom. I splashed some water on my face before finding a spare toothbrush and brushing my teeth.
Once I was finished, I walked back into the bedroom, grabbed my phone off the nightstand, and started heading downstairs. I walked into the kitchen and tried to find something to eat but ended up finding nothing to my liking. I closed the refrigerator, walked into the living room, and stretched out on the couch. I unlocked my phone and went to dial my mother’s cell phone number.
“Hello?” She answered.
“Hey ma. Everything okay?” I asked as I stretched my legs along the couch.
“Of course. Me and my grandbaby are having a ball.”
“Y’all can’t have too much fun without me.” I fake pouted.
“We’re having all the fun in the world.” She mocked. I started whining and her laughs filled the phone. “You know I can’t have too much fun without my 1st baby.”
I smiled at her response.
“Good. But we’ll be heading back once Trey wakes up.” I said.
“Hmmm, I guess y’all worked everything out?” She questioned.
“Yeahhhh.” I dragged out. “We’re good now.”
“Y’all better have. But y’all don’t need to rush back. Me and my baby are doing fine but make sure you tell my son-in-law I need to see him.”
“Okay, I will. Tell Ty we will see her a little later.”
“Alright. I love you.” She responded.
“Love you too mama.” I said before we both hung up.
It wasn’t until I exited out the phone screen that I noticed that my notifications were blowing up. I opened them up and noticed articles from blogs, tweets, and everything else surrounding me and Trey.
“Trey Songz and Ex-Fiance Reconcile Romance?”
“Trey Songz Spotted Kissing Baby’s Mama at Party!”
“Trey Songz and Jordan Michaels Back Together?”
I giggled as a read every article and looked at all the pictures attached to the articles. I couldn’t even be mad because most of the pictures were actually cute. My favorite one was with him holding me close with both of his hands on my butt, my hands were on his chest, he was biting his lip, and we were looking at each other intensely. I saved the pic and saved it as my phone’s wallpaper.
“So much for keeping things on the low.” I mumbled as I laughed at myself. I decided to respond to everything with a simple tweet.
@QueenJoy: Ain’t nobody business but mine’s and my baby
“What are you doing down here?” I heard Trey’s husky voice say. I moved my phone from my vision and saw him walking towards me in nothing but his boxers while rubbing his eyes. I licked my lips as I watched him move.
“Nothing, I was waiting for you to wake up.” I responded as he finally made it over to me. He spread my legs before placing himself between them. He kissed my lips, cuddled up to me, and laid his head on my chest.
“You could have woken me up.” He mumbled before yawning and closing his eyes.
“From the looks of it you need to go back to sleep.” I giggled. He chuckled along with me.
We sat in silence for a while as I rubbed my hand across the back of his head while going through the responses to my tweet. I started giggling at how some people were going crazy.
“What’s funny?” He questioned with his eyes still closed.
“So, apparently our little secret got out when you decided to be all aggressive in public last night,” I said while playfully slapping his chest. He laughed while shrugging.
“You were looking good and I wanted some.” He replied. I rolled my eyes and shook my head.
“But anyway, I replied with one tweet and everybody is going crazy.” I said.
“What did you say?” He said while chuckling. I went to my tweet and turned my phone towards him so he could see. He smiled once he read it before going to my notifications and reading everyone responses. He would laugh every once and a while before he turned the phone so I couldn’t see the screen before he started typing something with a sly smile.
“What are you doing Trey?” I asked. He ignored me and I went to grab the phone but he swatted my hand away before he finished typing. Once he finished, he locked the phone, placed it on my chest before laying his head back down with a smile. I giggled before I grabbed the phone and opened the Twitter app back up to see what he said. I glanced at the most recent tweets and gasped at what I read.
@QueenJoy: Just know that my baby put’s it down ;)
“Tremaine.” I gritted out as I smacked the back of his head. He laughed before he lifted his head to look at me.
“What? Am I lying?” He asked as he smirked.
I giggled as I nodded.
“Yup, you ain’t all that.” I said with a smiled. His eyebrow immediately shot up.
“Oh forreal? I don’t put it down Jordan?” He asked as he leaned back to balance himself on both of his hands. He hovered over me with a smirk. I playfully rolled my eyes.
“Don’t be cocky because if that’s the case then we can talk about how this gold between my legs had you in the palm of my hands last night. Remember that?” I shot back while looking up at him. He bit back his smile as he shook his head. “Oh so you don’t remember calling me your life? Or your queen?”
He finally cracked and let out a chuckle.
“Aight, touché touché.” He said before he bent down and kissed my lips. He started with small pecks before he captured my bottom lip between his teeth and sucked on it for a second before he slipped his tongue into my mouth. We engaged in a deep kiss until I felt his hand grip my thigh.
“Don’t start Trey.” I mumbled against his lips as I tried to pull away. “We have to get back to Ty.”
He ignored me before trialing his lips down to my neck. His soft lips pressed against my spot right below my ear and my eyes involuntarily closed.
“And my mom wants to see you.” I mumbled as his hand went from my thigh, under the t-shirt I had on, and gripped my bare ass.
“It’s still early. Let me get a quickie and we can be out the house and on our way in an hour.” He replied as he spread my legs further apart so the t-shirt was bunched around my waist. He licked his lips at the sight of me before he started pulling his dick out his boxers.
“I’m getting on birth control.” I mumbled with my eyes glued to his dick. At the rate we were going, just in these past few days, and the way he keeps putting it down, I would be knocked up in no time. And we all know between me and Trey, a baby wasn’t hard to produce. When I realized he had stopped moving, I looked up at him and saw him staring at me with a frown.
“Naw, for what?” He asked.
“It’s either birth control or condoms because clearly you don’t believe in the pull-out method.” I replied. He smirked as he leaned down and smoothly slid inside me. I moaned and closed my eyes.
“If you knew how good your pussy felt, you wouldn’t want to pull out either.” He grunted as he pulled back and gave me a deep stroke. A moan slipped right through my lips. “You not trying to have no more of my babies, Jordan?”
“I’ll give you as many babies as you want but not right now.” I replied as I opened my eyes to look up at him.
“Make sure you remember everything you just said.” He said with a smile before he sped up his strokes. My moans prevented me from replying.
I hadn’t felt happiness in god knows when. My life has been in a standstill for a minute now and where it was standing wasn’t a good place. I wasn’t happy with who I was in this moment. I felt like this relationship with Chris and the past situation with Adrian had drained me. Somewhere along the way, I had lost myself. There was no way in hell the old Amari would put up with the shit I do with Chris. I guess you could only have your heart broken so many times that you can handle. By now I would have expected myself with a husband and a least a baby on the way. I wanted what my brother and Jordan had. They had their downs and their fuckups but they always found their way back to each other because they had true love. I didn’t know what that was. I thought I did when I had Adrian but we all see how that turned out.
Once I found out Chris cheated too, I didn’t even have the energy to fight and walk away. It’s the very reason why I was so miserable in this relationship. How could you expect to be happy with someone who you knew didn’t have your heart in their best interest? He has been trying his best to convince me the exact opposite but it was too late. The damage had been done. I could very well wipe my hands with him and leave him alone but for what? So I could get back out there just to get my heart broken again? It wasn’t worth it.
I heard my security alarm beep signaling someone walking through my front door. I looked over at the clock on my nightstand and saw that it read 10:28. Hmm, here before midnight, I thought. I heard the front door slam followed by his heavy feet walking up the stairs. A few seconds later he walked through my bedroom door.
“What’s up baby?” He said as came over and kissed my cheek before collapsing on the bed.
“I told you about getting on my bed with your shoes Chris.” I mumbled as I sat my wineglass on the nightstand.
“My bad.” He replied before kicking off his timberlands and relaxing back on the pillows. “What’s wrong with you?”
I sat there silently for a moment.
“Why are you with me?” I questioned as I turned and looked at him. He frowned.
“What? What kind of question is that?”
“A serious one. Now answer it.” I replied.
He shrugged, seemingly confused before responding.
“I love you.” He said in a ‘duh’ tone. His response wasn’t the one I was looking for and it must have shown on my face. He sighed and rolled his eyes.
“What now man? I barely got here and you’re already tripping Amari. I don’t have time for this shit.” He spat irritably.
“I’m sorry it’s such a fucking issue to want to know exactly why my man is with me. I wouldn’t question it if he didn’t give me a reason to. I am sorry a half-assed ‘I love you’ wasn’t enough for me. I’m sorry for wasting your precious time to talk about our fucking relationship. Don’t worry about me bringing it up again.” I said before I rolled over with my back to him, turned off the lamp, and laid down.
The last thing I heard was his sigh before I closed my eyes.