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The Grave Digger’s Spade:

“Let us take the spade that now digs our grave through the passions and emotions of life and use it to unearth the secret room far below the rubbish of the fallen temple of the human soul.

As a deck of playing cards, we find a very wonderful symbolism. Of all the suits of cards, that of the spade is the only suit in which all the court cards face away from the pip. In all the other kings and queens, the faces are looking at the little marker in the corner of the card, but in the spade suit, they look away from it. Now it is said that the spade is taken from the acorn, but the occult student has a different idea. He sees in the spade, which has for ages been the symbol of death, a certain part of his own anatomy. If you will again turn to the picture of the spade, you will see, if you have ever studied anatomy, that the grave digger’s spade is the spinal column, and the spade shaped piece which is used on the deck of cards, is nothing more nor less than the sacrum bone. This bone forms the base of the spinal column, and is also the spear of the Passion. Through it and the foramana which peirce it, pass the roots of the spinal nerve, which indeed are the roots of the Tree of Life. It is the center through which are nourished and fed the lower vertebrae of the spine, and the sacrum and coxygeal bones that dig the graves for all created things.”

~ Manly P. Hall; The Initiates of the Flame

Shay Cormac x Reader - Her Betrayed Heart

Originally posted by templar-queen

[RQ for @indyanahr; an imagine where the reader takes Shay for dead after he betrays the Creed, finding him again after she’s had his twin sons.]

Your name: submit What is this?

You knew of his work; an Assassin for the Colonial Rite. While the title was off putting at first and made your blood run cold, you had spent too much time with this man, Shay Patrick Cormac, to ignore your feelings for him in the end. Your fear of him turned to worry when you realized he would be involved in his own secret war. Would you always be graced with his presence every morning and night?

While the months had been kind in granting you such a request, you still couldn’t help but worry. Some days he would come home fine and others, he would come home with an injury or two he’d bandaged himself before you tended to it.

At least that evening he was fine.

With everything into place for the meal that night, you found yourself crippled with nerves. Wooden spoon to your chest, clutching it as though it were the only thing to grant you strength, your back remained to him as you heard him take his seat there at the table. You had news to give him—news, which was just burning within your chest and dire to get out. For awhile yet, you had been sick, and upon finding a doctor within the city, you got your diagnosis: you were pregnant.

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Essays in Existentialism: Christmas

If you’re not to busy, Id love to see thanksgiving turn into a series. Jake definitely confronting Clarke before she leaves after thanksgiving because he knows she wasnt entirely truthful about hers & lexas relationship but he definitely approves of Lexa & he & Abby invite her back for Christmas & kinda force her into agreeing in that way parents do, without even consulting Clarke. & then getting to see their relationship grow through the different holidays. Christmas, New Years, Mardi Gras, etc

Previously on Thanksgiving

The salt kicked up in the traffic, through the slush of the dingy snow that remained on the highway while the fields and town itself was covered in the purest kind of precipitation that added to the picturesque feeling of the season. Yards were adorned with reindeer and santa’s and wishings for good tidings, while the town was wrapped up like a present, ribbons on street signs and wreaths on every door available. 

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A spade (spadille), or the ace of spades, is normally the highest card in the deck of playing cards. Forcenturies in popular legends, it is also known as the death card, the spade of the grave-digger, and the symbol of death. In FM, the Symbol of Mortality is represented with a spade, a coffin, and an open grave.

If we explore the etymology of the word spade, we will find it is composed of the words “spa and de.” The meaning of the root word spa is “to draw”; from the Greek orcaw, “to draw, or draw out.” The meaning of de is down, down from, and off, that the word spade means to draw down or draw out and down, or draw from the down.

Manly P. Hall had said the spade is actually related to our own anatomy being that of our spinal column, and the sacrum bone. This will all start to make sense to you once you realize that the highest degree in FM is the 33rd, there are 33 turns in a complete sequence of human DNA, and the human vertebral column usually consists of 33 vertebrae.

The English word sacrum is derived from the full Latin expression os sacrum, a translation of Ancient Greek ἱερόν ὀστέον, attested in the writings of Greek physician Galen. Both os and ὀστέον mean bone, and sacrum and ἱερόν mean holy or sacred. Formerly the os sacrum was called holy bone. The human sacrum bone is known as the “holy bone” for a reason. It is a large, triangular bone that looks very similar to the symbol of the spade. It is located at both the base of the spine between our two hip bones with the coccyx (tailbone), and also at the top of our spine which connects with the last lumbar vertebra, and its lower part. The sacrum bone normally forms from five unfused vertebrae at birth and they begin to fuse together between the approximate ages of 16–18 years old, and by the age of 33-34 years it fuses into one bone that looks just like a spade.

Manly Hall had written; “He sees in the spade, which has for ages been the symbol of death, a certain part of his own anatomy. If you will again turn to the picture of the spade, you will see, if you have ever studied anatomy, that the grave digger’s spade is the spinal column, and the spade-shaped piece which is used on the deck of cards, is nothing more nor less than the sacrum bone.”

The spinal column is like a serpent that directly is connected to the brain, DNA and central nervous system. For a person to rise above their lower animal selves and emotions in order to reach the 33rd vertebrae to the house of illumination in their brain, they can then become an illuminated Gnostic. This is when an initiate uses his brain to control his body, emotions and animals self to then operate at the 33rd degree by properly activating his or her DNA, spinal column and central nervous system to become a master of thyself and thyworld. The Number 33 is a Master Number that is also the Master Teacher. The master Jesus was crucified at Golgotha (place of the skull) at age 33 in the year 33 A.D. There are 788,280 words in the King James Bible, and if you add the number 7+8+8+2+8+0 = 33.
In the occult, 33 is also the numerical equivalent of AMEN: 1+13+5+14=33.

The God Amen, Amon, or Jupiter Ammon was an ancient Egyptian, and Greco Egyptian Gnostic Deity who is known as the God of Truth, The hidden one, Lord of the visible and the invisible worlds, and the mysterious soul of the universe which reveals itself in light.

In the middle of the brain is part of the temporal lobe called the Ammon’s horn (Amuns Horn) or the hippocampus. In neuroanatomy, Ammon’s horn is a metaphor that relates to the gods and the brain. Ammon’s horn and the gyrus. Ammon’s Horn, or the hippocampus plays one of the most important roles in the consolidation of information from short-term memory tolong-term memory and spatialnavigation.

As Plato had said, déjà vu is an actual real memory of events, and that all learning is remembering. When a person becomes awakened, or illuminated to these past memories and lives, they have connected to their spade in the sacrum bone, 33 degrees all the way up to their higher power to the God of Truth and hidden one that we know in reality is our Ammon’s horn (hippocampus), using their spine which is sometimes called the kundalini, and their chakras, AKA nervous system.

Hall had further written on the holy sacrum bone stating; “This bone forms the base of the spinal column, and is also the spear of the Passion. Through it and the form which pierce it, pass the roots of the spinal nerve, which indeed are the roots of the Tree of Life. It is the center through which are nourished and fed the lower vertebrae of the spine, and the sacrum and energies it has reached its present proportions.”

These energies control your lower animal body, and organs such as your genitals through the sacrum bone and sacral nerves. The sacral regions of the spinal cord are called the peripheral nerves. There are five pairs of spinal nerves which exit the sacrum and connect to the central nervous system that supply the thighs and lower parts of the legs, the feet, most of the external genital organs, and the area surrounding the anus.

This is why the symbol of the spade is known as the death card, the spade of the grave-digger, and the symbol of death. If you concentrate all your energies in the sacral regions of the spinal cord, you are essentially living like an animal controlled by your sexual pleasures and animal passions such as sex, food, alcoholism, drugs, sports etc. You have essentially killed your own Christ at Golgotha (place of the skull) within because you have not raised your energies 33 degrees to your higher self. You are not truly illuminated or enlightened, and your souls evolution has met with death in this life, symbolized by the spade or death card.

Manly Hall; “This point has been beautifully symbolized by the grave digger’s spade, which has been used by the brothers of many mystic organizations for ages. The currents and forces working through these lower spinal nerves must be transmuted and lifted upward to feed the altar fire at the positive or upper end of the spine.”

~G.N - Manly Hall

PathcodeEXO UNCOVERED!! Finally ^.^

Well, it turns out that everything is less complicated than you think, people! Thanks to a question someone made me yesterday I realized that we just need to make memory since MAMA era and put the puzzle together (btw thank u anonymous!). Well, here I go…

First, apparently they’ve been telling us the same story over and over again under our noses, but yeah, of course I understand that it’s preferable thousand times only pay attention to the boys and fuck the story ;) Well, the easy matter and the one I’m 110% sure is the fact that they continue telling the legend from MAMA, remember it right? The Tree of Life and all that. Only that now we should bring the sequence from MAMA, Overdose, and now “Exodus” era (to identify it this way). First things first:

MAMA ERA: In this era we knew there was a Tree of Life. The legends, through their twelve forces, nurtured the tree of life. (water, ice, flame, flight, earth, lightning, teleportation, telekinesis, time control, wind, light and healing), this tree was divided by ‘the legends’ in half and each part was concealed. That is:
Tree of Life = EXO (fed by the 12 forces / legends)
Tree of Life ÷ 2 = EXO ÷ 2  = Exo-K + Exo-M 

EDIT: The legends = The 12 Exo members. The 12 forces: water, ice, flame, flight, earth, lightning, teleportation, telekinesis, time control, wind, light and healing
We already knew this I think, but I have my reasons for pointing that out. History tells us that when the tree was divided in half, the time overturned and space turns obscure. Which leads us to the next era:

OVERDOSE ERA: Overdose was about the sequence of story told during MAMMA era (remember that in between is the XOXO era). Legend says that each half of the tree was hidden and space became dark, this is where does appear the freaking dark maze and exo-k and exo-m are hidden into it. Well, all of you remember the overdose video, don’t you? At the beginning is Kai/Luhan entering into it, not getting out, and then we can see all of them lost in different ways. But also you remember the end of the video, right? It turns out that all members at the end manage to leave, but not as we think. Actually what they find as “exit” is the center of the maze.

And if you remember overdose promotion, each member was assigned a code, right? Well, this code represents the maze each one was introduced, means that there was a maze for each, and is showed to us as the album cover. In the teaser for exo’s comeback 2015 also give us that sign (Plus notice that right in the center is ‘exo’ would represent the place where the 12 forces belong):

Yes, I know we actually see that only two of them came out, but here’s what I think: Kai is the one who find the center of the maze but in reality he would represent each member of exo-k doing the same, remember that each was looking for the “exit” on their own, not walking in pairs or groups, So what we see is a representative “output”, all members from exo-k manage to get out of the maze and exactly the same applies to exo-m members.

EDIT: I recommend you review OVERDOSE MV. You’ll see things in a different perspective and everything will make more sense. When starting the song we first see them appearing in a kind of 'box’ into two parts exo-k then exo-m (represents the part where the 12 forces were separated and hidden by ‘the legends’ and remember the box is also a important hint on the teaser for exo comeback. Remember it’s also the exo logo -cube in perspective-). Then we see them together and the stage has hexagonal shape (represents when they’re in the labyrinths but as I explained above).

Until then this would be part of the history from Overdose era, all 12 members are supposed would leave the maze, but SM didn’t know would lose two of them (or at least that’s what I want to believe), this obviously affected all and proof is actually in the case of exo-m the member representing the output is precisely Luhan. Which brings me to the next era:

EXODUS ERA: In the “Exodus” is where we all are going insane. Keep calm! First, maybe you have already read the meaning of Exodus: literally it means departure, mass migration of people from the place where they were to settle in another country or region (this is important). Well at the end of exo teaser comeback 2015 we see that 10 marbles passed the maze and all are separate. Obviously can’t be 12 marbles out 'cause there’s no Kris-Luhan story to tell  (* ^ *) so they just decided to leave them as trapped in the maze.

We must make memory and remember the story of the legend again: Story tells “The twelve forces divide into two and create two suns that look alike into two worlds that seem alike. The legends travel apart. The legends shall now see the same sky but shall stand on different grounds, shall stand on the same ground but shall see different skies.”

EDIT: –Damn! (sorry, I had to). I appreciate your questions because it make me help clarify details, I’m still human. Here’s another detail on a question asked: When the story say “The twelve forces divide into two and create two suns that look alike into two worlds that seem alike…” it’s very ambiguous. Yes, not clear whether this is another world similar to exo planet or whether are two separate lands of exo planet BUT… Interesting part is: ‘The legends shall now see the same sky but shall stand on different grounds, shall stand on the same ground but shall see different skies’ How can this be? Well what I believe it referred to they’re all separate, just like that, and because geography we all know that even when I’m in the American continent watching a dark sky in Asia will surely be watching a very clear sky. Remember that the locations in pathcodes are in different time zones, day, morning, afternoon, evening, even dawn… So the world where they traveled seem alike to exo planet but it’s not. I stand with that.

 All of them should meet again but there is only one way that can happen: the legend continues that the day when the sky witness a 'failure’ between two similar worlds, the forces will greet to each other. I was wondering since Sehun’s pathcode why he’s the only who saw the eclipse (I know, the location, time zone and blah blah… but actually is much more than that). Then Chen’s pathcode came and I get it now: the 'failure’ occurring in the sky between the two worlds is none other than the eclipse! And I support this with the fact that is show it at MAMA video, the teaser for this comeback and with the following facts:

  • The only who witness this fact so far are Sehun and Chen.
  • We can see that Sehun runs when it becomes aware of Eclipse and he’s not fleeing but precisely the opposite. He definitely knows what that means.
  • Each member doesn’t know where the other one, perhaps they know they can only be found when the 'failure’ (eclipse) occurs that’s why we see them so lost. Plus not all of them have seen the eclipse so they don’t know when that might happen. Baekhyun think he’s haunted by “something” and flees perhaps because he’s aware that being alone and separated from the rest of the forces he’s not safe at all. That’s why we see a nervous and restless Kai, a shocked and worried Suho, a lonesome Chanyeol, a drunk Xiumin and an almost resigned Chen.
  • Sehun seems to find someone and actually he does: Kris and Luhan but in children form. Remember that they (10 forces) are in another world that resembles theirs but is really not, and Kris and Luhan didn’t passed the maze as the others did, so it made possible to Sehun find them but not like he expected. EDIT: Maybe this is how he found out that Kris and Luhan didn’t passed the maze.

The thing is: how they will meet all again? Well, all clues are in the video teaser for this comeback: the tops spinning, the eclipse, the hexagonal routes (mazes), the hexagon puzzle, the pieces of broken glass, the box … A bit complicated to explain in detail, so I recommend you review the video and pay attention, there are lots of details and you’ll understand the best.

And here’s the best part: remember that in Tao’s pathcode he’s reading the newspaper and it announced that a UFO is appearing in 10 different cities in the world? (Also we can see his overdose code in there) And remember all the tops spinning in the video teaser for this comeback and also in Xiumin’s pathcode? Well what I think these tops spinning represent the ‘UFO’ which will allow the 10 forces/legends meet each other. The precise moment when the eclipse occurs is the ‘call’ (or at least the signal) to the forces start the Exodus (departure from the world that is not theirs) and return to the Exo planet. Because the standard has been met.

In my previous post I said that in my opinion they have no control over their powers, but now I’m 101% sure that NONE of them had their powers at least till some point when it was activated on purpose. Keep that in mind…

We can see several strange signs of communication that we don’t understand in pathcodes: Kai receives a message, while Tao is reading the newspaper energy in the lamps fail, Chanyeol in the forest (should pay attention), Xiumin on TV with the sign of the wolf, Sehun see the eclipse, with Suho drops falling from the sink, Chen see the eclipse and Baekhyun happens like Tao, energy lamps begin to fail. And if you look right after passing all this is when actually their powers are activated.

EDIT: Those strange signs of communication are their forces indicating that are back. We can see as well in OVERDOSE MV when they’re in the maze, the energy lamps also begin to fail.

I said I was 101% sure that none had his powers, but in pathcodes we see that are used, don’t we? Well, this is because although each of the stories are told separately, in fact all  would be happening at once, and when that happens is 'cause eclipse is also happening  and their powers are back again, because they are ready to leave that world, the time to meet again has come and they’re aware of it.

The last part of the legend says that the day when the red forces purify (the evil that seeks to end the Tree of Life) and the 12 legends/forces (now 10) will reunite into one perfect root, a new world shall open up. This makes me think that story for this comeback ends until the Exodus moment and the boys return to their planet. However in the teaser we can see the way forward for the 12 forces to become one:

This image is the same in the video teaser and we can see that represents 6 points that connect the 12 forces, first with their pairs and then towards the center, become them one. The Tree of Life. But, there’s 6 points (to 6 pairs but now there’s only 5). Well, if you look at the Tao pathcode this connection was changed to the following: 

Right there we can see only 5 connection points for the 10 forces that remain. I think the last part would be about the red forces, the evil that wants to end the Tree of Life (è.é) or about the forces become in one… Buuuut for another comeback maybe. Edit: If this were to happen at some point, don’t you believe that the forces pairs need to be completed? Remember that Kai and Chanyeol lost their pairs (Luhan and Kris). There’s 2 possibilities: Exo stay as 6 exo-k + 4 exo-m or 1 exo-k is transferred to exo-m and keep the balance. I don’t know that for sure, we’ll see.

EDIT: Hi! If I find more clues, I’ll edit, but always with supported facts.


Beginning = End has several meanings. to understand why  D.O’s pathcode is very different from the others we have to go back to MAMA and Overdose (yes again!). In 'MAMA’ when is narrated the part  “The day the grounds be kept a single failure before one sky in two worlds that seem alike…” The eclipse is shown, the alignment of planets and immediately after the earth symbol which represents D.O’s force:

Now we have to remember the Overdose MV. When they’re lost in the maze, we can see that 'DO’ receive a box containing one of the elements associated with his force (earth) and he throws it on the ground. Immediately after we can see Lay giving life to the element (remember Lay’s force is healing/shall live). It means that between D.O. and Lay was created the land to the 10 legends traveling separately and so keep them safe from the red force until failure occurred in sky as previously I explained about the story. Plus during Kai pathcode we can see a flashback about this moment precisely.

So far we can give a first meaning to Beginning = end: the pathcodes ended with 'who started this new era’ (to put it in some way). But there’s more than that. Here my interpretation of D.O. pathcode: he was exactly like the rest, waiting and searching but with no luck because it was not yet time for the forces can greet each other as the story says. So we see him looking for without having any success, then he just awaits (he also try with different elements). If you pay attention you’ll see that while he’s on the ground a silver ball is suspended over him and represents his call from exo planet to start the exodus, as happened with the rest of the legends/forces. Then we see he’s holding up three marbles and throws them down with the other 7 because he’s aware the time has come. Exodus begins!

About his power, I still think the same as I explained above. He neither has power but returned when he received the 'call’, just like the others. The moment after we see the ball suspended over it, we can see his power activated as follows:

Finally, I have to comment on the alignment 3x3 and 2x2 that the pathcode shows at the end. This makes me think that probably EXO stays as 6/4, ie, 6 exo-k and 4 exo-m. The truth is I was hoping for 5/5, but… u.u Maybe SM doesn’t want to make any change because lawsuits are still in process and hasn’t been given any officially final decision, so…

Also we can give this meaning to 'beginning = end’: Beginning of the exodus = End of separation.

I’m just saying… ^^

So this is what the whole pathcode thing was about. Find the path to the 10 forces can return to their world and meet with each other. START THE EXODUS! :)

CONCLUSION:  it’s not coincidence that their motto is WE ARE ONE! That’s the main reason for their existence.

Here’s the legend from MAMA:

“When the skies and the grounds were one, the legends, through their twelve forces, nurtured the tree of life. An eye of red force created the evil which coveted the heart of tree of life, and the heart slowly grew dry. To tend to embrace the heart of tree of life, the legends hereby divide the tree in half and hide each side. Hence, time is over-turned and space turns askew. The twelve forces divide into two and create two suns that look alike into two worlds that seem alike. The legends travel apart. The legends shall now see the same sky but shall stand on different grounds, shall stand on the same ground but shall see different skies. The day the grounds be kept a single failure before one sky in two worlds that seem alike, the legends will greet each other. The day the red force is purified, the twelve forces will reunite into one perfect root, a new world shall open up.”

PD: We can see that everything also applies to Lay! :)

Thanks for reading! Let’s keep supporting our beloved EXO…! <3

280 Million-Year-Old Fossil Reveals Origins of Chimaeroid Fishes

Discovery allows scientists to connect the last major vertebrate group to the tree of life 

Date: January 4, 2017
Source: University of Chicago Medical Center

High-definition CT scans of the fossilized skull of a 280 million-year-old fish reveal the origin of chimaeras, a group of cartilaginous fish related to sharks. Analysis of the brain case of Dwykaselachus oosthuizeni, a shark-like fossil from South Africa, shows telltale structures of the brain, major cranial nerves, nostrils and inner ear belonging to modern-day chimaeras.

This discovery, published early online in Nature on Jan. 4, allows scientists to firmly anchor chimaeroids – the last major surviving vertebrate group to be properly situated on the tree of life – in evolutionary history, and sheds light on the early development of these fish as they diverged from their deep, shared ancestry with sharks…

(read more: Science Direct)

illustration by Kristen Tietjen

On Relativity in Magick

I must admit it to be a bit irksome when I see people, online and offline, attempting to use scare tactics or bully-style persuasion in order to have others believe the same BS they believe. (Note: BS = Belief System = Bull Shit)

This, to me, only demonstrates that the “know it all” practitioner attempting to persuade hasn’t actually grasped the concept of mental Relativity and how it connects to the Art & Science of Magick.

If you prefer to use the Chakra system as your map and model for spiritual work then the color of your Heart center, to you, will be different than it is to me (utilizing the tree of life as the model of energy centers in the subtle body). One studying the Nagual path as put forth by Lujan Matus will believe the astral to be an evil place to be avoided, where-as one studying the Nagual path as put forth by Carlos Castaneda or the variation presented by John O'Neill (Dreamways) will believe it to be the main source of one’s power. The former would scoff at the latter, and the latter would giggle at the former–yet both claim the same path and utilize the same terminology and jargon.

A Wiccan might banish an entity which seems malevolent, a Thelemite might question it first, and a Chod practitioner would open up their whole self to the entity in trust that everything is perfection. The Wiccan trying to convince the Chod practitioner of the dangers of their path would be speaking out of pure ignorance towards Chod rather than a higher knowledge and understanding of the esoteric. Even if you mean well, speak your opinion softly and then stfu without any expectation that the other person should take your advice.

 The general rule of thumb is that while you are entitled to your opinion it is only RELATIVE to your own self and may be true for another or it may only confuse/deceive/hurt the other. You do not know their universe, you barely know your own, don’t be that person who tries to diagnose a medical issue without knowing medicine.

Teaching your own students is a whole different story. They are being initiated into the same path and system as yourself. Even here though one must be keen to realize that what your path becomes to them might be very different than what it became to you, and that is okay. If a master cannot adapt to variation then they are not much of a master at all.

Relativity is the Word, the Logos, of the whole point I’m attempting to make here. While your Enlightenment might lay through the Higher Self, another’s might start or end with his own Daemon or Lucifer. 

We were so young.

Pairing: Supernatural!Reader x Dean

Word count: 2991

Part Two in the Don’t you worry child series. Read Part one (Heaven has a plan for you) here.

Don’t You Worry Child - cover by Andrew Garcia, Alex G, Andy Lange, & Chester See

Three months later.

Bobby stood at the stove stirring the pasta when he heard the front door. John was earlier than he said but he wasn’t that surprised. He heard the impala’s engine roar as he drove away and he shook his head. Once again, John was too busy to come in and get the boys settled or even give him any information about what it was he was hunting. Of course, if he ran into a problem he’d be calling asking for some quick research. “Jackass.” He scoffed as he checked on the sauce.  

Sam threw out a quick greeting as he walked by the kitchen heading straight for the stairs.

“If you want food I’ll have pasta and garlic bread on the table in fifteen.”

“Thanks Uncle Bobby.” Sam called from the stairs.

Dean dropped his bag in the hall and looked around. The place seemed cleaner than he was used to and it kind of threw him off. Bobby’s house was becoming one of his few stable environments, one where he would always find things just so. Sometimes he craved it more than anything else and it surprised him after his first few visits but now it was a comfort.  

He stopped in the hallway taking in the clean study and then he blinked and shook his head. There was a girl was sitting at Bobby’s desk. A young girl.

Dean walked into the kitchen. “Umm.. bobby? There’s a girl in your house.” He was whispering. Why was he whispering?

“What the hell is wrong with you boy?”

Dean stared at him. “What? She wasn’t here before.” He glanced over his shoulder to make sure she was still there. “Is she reading comics?”

Bobby’s gaze softened as he glanced at her before looking back at Dean. “Take it easy on her. That’s all she’s got left from her dad.”

Dean’s eyes went wide as he stole a glance at her again. “What happened to her parents?”

Bobby knelt on one knee in front of him, coming eye to eye. “She lost both of them like you lost your mama. You take care of her for me when I’m not around, okay? She’s only a couple months younger than Sam.  I’ve seen the way you are with him. You’re a good kid and a great brother. Can you do that for me? Watch out for her when I’m not around?”

Dean regarded him for a moment and then nodded. “Yes sir.”

Bobby frowned slightly, “it’s not an order, Dean. It’s a favor. I’ll owe you one. Hell, I’ll probably owe you a couple the way that girl can run around the junk yard.”

Dean put out his hand for Bobby to shake. “Definitely.”


After dinner and cleaning the dishes, thanks to losing rock paper scissor to Sam, Dean grabbed his bag from the study and trudged up the stairs. He saw the girl laid out on the bed with her knees up in what used to be his room. At least when he stayed at Bobby’s anyway. He leaned against the door frame and tried to remember if Bobby had said her name, “nice room, huh?”

She glanced up from the book she had propped on her legs. “Yes.”

“It used to be mine.”

She turned her head and gave him some attention. “Oh, I hope you don’t mind sharing with your brother.”

Dean shrugged, “kinda used to it at this point.”

She focused back on her book. “Good because I wasn’t going to move. Bobby let me choose and this room has the best energy. Best sunlight in the house.”

He stood up straighter, feeling slighted at her brush off. “I’m sorry, energy? You into that new wave crap or something?”

She looked at him with a raised brow. “You’re telling me you don’t feel better when you walk out into the sun?”

He looked away. “I’ve never thought about it.”

“Well then, you can’t scoff at something you haven’t thought about. Just because you don’t know anything, it doesn’t make it crap. Maybe the next time you feel crappy, you should go outside and lift your face to the sun, and then you can talk to me.”

His jaw clenched and he glanced at her only to catch the fact that she didn’t even bother to look at him as she scolded him. He stomped down the hall and into the room that Sam always slept in when he wasn’t sneaking into his room. He dropped his bag next to Sam’s. “So the new girl is a total brat.” He threw himself onto the bed.

Sam sat at the desk in the corner of the room and popped his head up from his book. “Really? I thought she was nice. Her name’s y/n, by the way.”

Dean rolled his head to the side to look at his brother. “Of course you would. You nerds always stick together.”

Sam rolled his eyes and stuck his head back into his book. “Jerk.”

Dean grabbed a comic off the floor. “Bitch.”



Y/n loved when Sam and Dean came to stay. Bobby was great but having kids around that she didn’t have to watch what she said or did was amazing. Sammy loved reading and studying just like she did but Dean, he was different. He was tougher and a little rougher around the edges but he wasn’t all bad.

It took a little bit of time to warm up to each other from their somewhat frosty start but he had his moments. She got to see that he wasn’t just the older jerk he sometimes pretended to be. He showed his true colors when Sam got hurt while they were playing in the junk yard. She thought he made the perfect big brother and she found out the rough exterior he wore was only for show and he kind of wore it like armor. She treated him a little better and acted a little nicer once she knew he wasn’t really a jerk. Then he finally loosened up around her.

Being around them came easy, there seemed to be a bond there almost immediately. Maybe it was because of the shared pain of loss or secrets of what was actually out there in the darkness but she didn’t really think about the why. She shared the darkness secret with only Dean at first because Bobby told her to be careful with Sam because he didn’t know everything. She had a feeling he knew more than everyone else thought but she didn’t say anything until he told her. She was just happy to have them for whatever period of time she did because that time varied greatly with each visit.

During one stay, Dean over heard her complaining to Sam about some of the kids in her class. He interrupted and told her he was going to teach her how to take care of herself. He taught her some simple self-defense maneuvers to use on any jackasses that tried anything at school or anywhere else. Every few visits, he would add maneuvers to her repertoire and she found herself enthusiastically waiting for her next lesson.  

Normally, their training sessions would be strictly about the maneuvers he was teaching until one session, a couple months after she turned ten when the lesson took a different turn.

She tried the kick that Dean had shown her and her necklace swung up and hit her in the mouth. She growled and tried slipping back under her shirt.

Dean winced, “Maybe you should take it off.”

She looked at him as her hand closed over the pendant. “I never take it off. Well, except..” She blushed and looked away. “I only take it off to clean up.”

He didn’t acknowledge her embarrassment if he saw it. “Why is a tree is so special? You’re not a tree hugger, are you?”  

She glanced down at her pendant then smirked at him. “For someone who supposedly knows symbols, you kinda suck.”  

“What? I.. what’s that supposed to mean?”

She brushed her finger over the intricate design. “This is a very old symbol and yes, the tree of life is extremely important.” She centered her balance and swung her leg out, kicking him in the back of the knee just like he taught her.

He recovered quickly into a defensive stance. “So, tell me about it.”

She raised her fists to block her face and started to move to the side. “I don’t know if you deserve to know. Maybe you should do your research.”

He smirked as he moved staying directly across from her. “Oh sweetheart, I’ve learned that the best way to learn the real stuff is from someone who knows it best. There’s a lot of bullshit out there. Believe me.” He took a swing with his fist and she moved easily out of the way.

“This symbol is the Celtic Tree of Life and it actually holds a lot of significance and also a lot of meaning.” She thought about her mother and father.  “Balance and harmony, connection and rebirth, strength and wisdom, but at its deepest root is family.”  

“So it’s not a protection symbol?”

She noticed that they both had lost their defensive stance. “No but it is sacred and this one is irreplaceable.”

He stepped closer to get a better look at it. “Why?”

He reached for it and she let him touch it. “Pure silver and my parents gave it to me for my sixth birthday.”

His face fell as his gaze shot to hers. “Sorry. I shouldn’t have been such a jackass.”

She shook her head. “You didn’t know.”

He cupped the back of her hand that held the pendant out for him. “Yeah but.. still. Sorry.”

She smiled then jabbed him in the stomach with her free hand and he doubled over. “I thought you said to never let my guard down?”

He glanced up at her, his face still twisted as he tried to catch his breath. “Good job.”


Over time as she got older that difference with Dean became very apparent. All of a sudden, she found herself feeling light headed when he came in the room. When they were all messing around or playing, she was sneaking glances at his growing muscles, studying the curve of his lips and the feel of his hands when he helped her with.. anything. Sometimes she found herself making up reasons for him to help her.  

Sam changed too but there were never any changes in her when she noticed them or looked at him. Sammy had always remained her friend, confidiant, and her brother.

When she was thirteen, everything changed. She was playing capture the flag in the junk yard with Sam and Dean. It was late summer just as the weather was starting to cool as autumn started to roll in but that day had been warmer than usual.

She was close to finding Dean’s flag because he was so easy when it came to this game. He couldn’t hide his flag anywhere but in the cars he actually liked. She was sneaking up on a beat up old chevy with adrenaline pumping through her veins at the excitement of grabbing his flag and making a very loud victory cheer when she made it back to the base first.

She peered over the hood of what Dean would call ‘a wrecked p.o.s. or piece of shit’. She saw the ripped green material that once was some kind of upholstery in what had to be a hideous car. She glanced around and the coast was clear, she licked her lips feeling the glory in the air. Stepping quietly around the jalopy, a smile spread across her face as she got within arm’s reach of the tattered treasure.

One second she was about to grab her prize and the next, she was spinning and then her back was pressed against the car. She looked up into mischievous green eyes accompanied with a cocky smirk. “Thought it’d be that easy to get my flag, huh?”

His hands were still resting on her upper arms with just a slight bit of pressure. She swallowed thickly as the familiar swell of nerves swam in her chest at his proximity. He stepped closer almost sealing the space between them. His right hand came up and brushed the stray hair off her face. Her heart raced as he leaned down and her eyes slid closed and she tilted her head back.

His body pressed against hers and her senses went on high alert. Every inch of skin he touched sang as her pulse pounded in her ears. Her entire body tingled and heat spiraled out to her extremities.  She swore she could hear his heart beating and could see his lips in slow motion moving down to her own.

A soft thump nearby made them jump and her eyes popped open. She saw Dean looking in the direction of the sound. She tried to shake from the daze but then Dean had grasped her hand and took off. She stumbled at first before getting her footing and running alongside him. She stifled the giggle that bubbled up.

She was high. This had to be what drugs felt like. Everything was singing, the breeze through her hair and against her skin felt like the greatest thing in life. She glanced at Dean and saw the smile on his face and her heart soared. The feel of his hand around her own was a drug she never wanted to be without.

He turned suddenly and jumped into a rusted heap of metal that still held the shape of the van it used to be.  She was giggling as the two of them fell into the back that thankfully still had some kind of padding. His soft laughter along with hers echoed within the small space. When their gazes met, the laughter faded. The air seemed thin and hot and she was sure she was sweating but none of that really registered once his hand touched her cheek. He leaned in again and her eyes fell closed.

This time nothing interrupted and his lips touched hers gently. They were soft and gone too soon. It was like a bomb had gone off inside her chest and the explosion’s shockwaves rippled throughout her entire being. Her eyes fluttered open and she gazed at him. He looked hesitant and she raised her brow in question. She didn’t think she’d be able to actually speak at the moment so the only thing she could rely on was expression.. hopefully. She wasn’t quite sure if her muscles had rebounded yet either.

His gaze roamed her face before settling on her lips. “I.. didn’t even ask you if you wanted that.”

She smiled and hoped it actually came off that way. “If I didn’t, I would have kicked you in the balls. Isn’t that what you taught me to do if any jackasses tried anything?”

He smirked, “true.” He leaned in again and his lips pressed against hers with a little more pressure and she moaned.

He slid his tongue against hers slowly and she could taste the jolly rancher he popped into his mouth before the game started. She didn’t know what compelled her when she grabbed the back of his neck and kissed him with a fervor she didn’t know she had but whatever it was, it was amazing.

When they finally broke apart, she had no idea how much time had passed. Her mind was still swimming in the drug that came from his lips and she could only wait for the haze to clear. She looked at his lips. They were red and puffy and she briefly wondered what they could say caused it then she saw his eyes. She couldn’t remember seeing such a vivid green in them before but she liked it.

His gaze dropped to her lips and he went a little pale.

“Are you okay?” She asked and miraculously her voice worked.

“Bobby’s going to kill me.” He whispered.

She barked out a laugh then fell into a fit of giggles at the look on his face.

“I don’t think that’s funny.” She couldn’t stop it even when she tried. She was too far gone.  “What do you think he’ll do to you when he finds out, huh?”

She felt tears leak out the side of her eyes and she still couldn’t stop. She put her hand on his chest and tried to say something, anything to calm him down but she could barely catch her breath. She saw a smile break through the tension in his jaw. “I still don’t think it’s funny.”

“What’s funny?” Sam’s head popped in the broken out window. “Did y/n find your flag?” Sam looked down at her in confusion. “Is she okay?”

“She’s fine, Sammy. She just thinks I’m hilarious.” Dean climbed out of the van and started brushing his jeans off then he reached his hand in for her to take. She took a few deep breathes and wiped her eyes. She took his offered hand and climbed out.

“Hey, where’s your flag?” Sam asked, glancing around in the van then back to them.

She glanced at Dean and shrugged. “Probably still back on that..”

Dean pinched her side as he interrupted her. “She dropped it when I was chasing after her.”

Sam’s brow scrunched together. “So how did you end up in the van?”

She smirked as she looked at Dean’s wide eyes, “he tripped and fell on me. We just happened to tumble in there.” She turned to Sam and started walking towards him, “come on.” She lowered your voice to a whisper, “I’ll show you where it is.” Then she took off running with Sam right behind her leaving Dean in their dust.



Phallic; male generative power; fertility; regeneration; stabilizing force.

It is also an axis mundi and the Tree of Life, a ritual world center, a ‘finger of the sun’.

In Egypt it denotes Ra; the ray of the sun; solar generative power.

[Source: An Illustrated Encyclopedia of Traditional Symbols by J.C. Cooper]


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Cernunnos, the shape-shifting protector of animals, Horned God of the Animals, aka the Green Man aka Herne the Hunter: Celtic god of pretty much everything - fertility, life, animals, wealth, underworld, knowledge, sun / moon, hunting, sacrifice

Cernunnos References (and references to online texts about the myths  – they’re italicized) about Stiles’ association: (arguments could be made that Deaton is Cernunnos, too)

Pic 1 - Deaton’s medallion and Morrell’s necklace - Druids / emissaries associated with / worship (?) Cernunnos

Pic 2 - Different images of Cernunnos (notice the Celtic knot and Triskelion in the first) that are similar to the medallion and necklace

Pic 3 - At the Sacred Centre, in the Grove of all Worlds, He sits with legs crossed beneath an ancient Oak… the god and the Great Tree are One.

The Nemeton is the Tree of Life, the sacred center, the freaking Druid Vatican, and here we see Stiles sitting cross-legged on it (and the Nogitsune in a completely different position).

Pic 4 - At His feet the great Cauldron from which the Five Rivers Flow

There are 5 Telluric currents running through Beacon Hills. Currents = Rivers

Also of note - Deaton’s animal clinic and the bank sit where two currents intersect 

Pic 5 - He is the sacrificed one, who, wounded unto death begins his journey to the Underworld…

Stiles as surrogate sacrifice. They were “sacrificed” right on a current intersection.

Pic 6 - In his Underworld aspect Cernunnos is The Dark Man, the god who dwells in the House Beneath the Hill, the Underworld.

Void-Stiles - his “Underworld aspect"  

Pic 7 - Cernunnos and His children dream the Worlds

Stiles and his dreams

Pic 8 - The god whose eyes flash star-fire

Stiles as spark / light… 

Pic 9 - Cernunnos is depicted with antlers. The characters have theories about the deer but Stiles was present at both incidents.

Pic 10 - wolf and fox!

here’s the Rainbow Green Phase Chart, ideally you start with Phase 1 and eat that way for 6 months or so, then move to 1.5, and finally settle at Phase 2 for a lifetime. The level of sugar in this form of eating is miniscule, even at Phase 2 it is radically lower than most other “flavors” of the raw food diet which is usually heavy on fruits and/or desserts. This book is really informative, has a ton of recipes and is pretty easily available at most libraries/bookshops.