man but honestly few things fuck me up as much as when adam says in trb “i think you’ll find i do pretty much everything quiet”, because on one hand, as a massive introvert, i super relate– but on the other hand, when you think about the heartbreaking implications of that sentence, it’s like, fuck. fuck, of course you do
you laugh quietly because your dad is always angry, you cry quietly because the neighbors don’t care about your bruises; you’re quiet about your achievements because the kids from the trailer park don’t really care about your straight As, and you’re quiet in school because you’re ashamed of your accent; you think quietly because it makes it easier to pull apart your emotions and sort them into logical containers, and you love quietly because you don’t quite know how yet, and because in the dusty back roads of henrietta, virginia, a boy who loves girls and boys is not quite safe.
you brave, lonesome boy, of course you do everything quiet; how could it be otherwise?
Aren’t you reminded sometimes of how Gansey was afraid “someone would fall on Ronan and cut themselves” in TRB but then the second he finds out that that someone is Adam he’s all like “don’t break him, Adam”, like he knows Adam Parrish is the only person in the world who could break Ronan’s heart? And whenever you’re reminded of it, don’t you feel compelled to post it publicly so that other people may suffer as much as you’re doing?