transmenofcolor

[Description: a spooned the fuck out selfie shows a brown trans boi with a side eye gaze. He has wily big black hair, a lip piercing. He wears a red paisley shirt & lays on a pillow with a blue robot on it. They aren’t “having it.”


Post-op night #3: again, sleep ain’t no good at night. Foot swelling peaked, from his toes to his hip feels like a live gnarled electric chord in a thunderstorm. Can’t sleep. Can’t think. How does pain become so brazen on a stationary body? Meds please kick in. If they do, it’ll feel only like a sunken gash, the way a clenched fist meets the plumage of a bruise. Can’t watch TV. Can’t eat. Just ride it out. Wait it out. There’s no crying tonight. Night #3. He’s noticing headaches, belly aches, the panging need to rattle/shake/deconstruct/hammer something, an even bigger need to push away or pull toward (depending on the scenario). Rain loves his arthritis forever. Kindred spirits aren’t always a blessing. He senses the drizzling gray clouds before they show face to his window sill. Maybe fresh juice to brighten his spirits & longer meditation tomorrow? Yes, do that. He craves soft palms on his face, wiggling toes without consequences. Not happening. Just get through it. You can. Grit your teeth. Grit your heart harder.] #sickanddisabledqueers #sickqueertimes #selfie #qpoc #qtipoc #qpoc #curmudgeonlyqueer #morningpages #SDQlove #supermoon #brownboi #boi #transmenofcolor #transmasculine #cripisolation #chronicpain

#SaintHarridan model and mentor @brownroundboi on bodies, beauty, fashion, and health in @curvemag. Awakening and affirming. So proud of our community and these conversations.

#Repost
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[Description: an online publication shows the word, “curve” in bold red & subheader “the best selling lesbian magazine.” In black headline lettering, “When Health & Fashion Intersect By Kelli Dunham, RN, BSN”] I’m quoted & featured in a mainstream gay/lesbian publication. Where’s my rainbow card of immediate freedom? Where’s my marriage equality of L Word fame? Just kidding. I’m brown & trans. Thanks to Kelli for this poignant piece! ****Performer Kay Ulanday Barrett modeled for @saintharridan in the show and later explained why it was important to participate: “In mainstream, I’m told that being pudgy, brown, disabled, trans, I’m told those aren’t desirable. I’m told I don’t exist. That’s kills people like me everyday. However, when I have options to engage my dapper, I’m drawing from my style, my influences & interpretations,  I can be my authentic self. Some people say, that’s just a shirt or hat, what they don’t get is that shirt has utility. It brings my community & i closer to comfort, closer to the love work we connect to… The messaging I’ve received as a queer boi is clear: able bodied, white, skinny, & american bodies are the standard. I counter that standard with my patterned bow tie, beads, cane. With tools & clothing that honor me, I channel my own brand. I harness the art of communities that embody a style that pays no mind to the rules. We can alter the rules….In fashion, in lesbian & gay spaces, my brown bois, migrant bois, femme bois, fat bois, sick & crip bois aren’t celebrated. Being on that runway, wearing apparel that reflects me for just 2 minutes can change the image of fashion, and by proxy celebrate all our complex gorgeous selves.”
#sickanddisabledqueers
#qtpoc #qpoc #transmenofcolor #dapperq #kaybarrett

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[description: a brown round boi at the beach in their natural habitat, with nunchaku.] video by @idaliuchis #qtpoc #qpoc #martialarts #nunchucks #nunchaku #chaku #transmenofcolor #ritual #gendernonconforming #kaybarrett #weapons #ocean

[Description: one bespectacled trans brown guy wears black collared shirt, beads, red patterned tie. Next to him, a queer brown femme lady wears a black sleeveless dress & red lipstick. They both are conspicuously in western clothes and conspicuously new yorker in style. I didn’t go with the kurta or the barong. | weekend adventures to Connecticut meant a jelly donut & a perfect iced latte acquired at grand central station, & more dancing. Me prior to event: “Shall I get a haircut, love? My hair is not event appropriate.” She: “It’s not just your hair. All that we are is not event appropriate. We’re queer.” The event was a lovely straight engagement party. lol. #qtpoc #qtipoc #boi #femme #desiqueer #queerpeopleofcolor #qpoc #qpocshoutouts #selfie #brownqueerlove #walanghiya #diasporicfeels #sickanddisabledqueers #sickqueertimes #transmenofcolor]

[#tbt- description: a group of queer and transgender indigenous, people of color (#qtipoc) take a groupie in Eugene, OR. They all have such big joyous smiles & it is almost in fact, too much cuteness. Photo courtesy of the groupie skills of @mightyfemme. Cc: @chove_sem_parar, @ryryelle, @inez_garcia_ortiz, @jktoshie, @webstersofia, @fayi14, @msbutton. | #qtipoc #qtpoc #tpoc #gendernonconforming #qpocshoutouts #qpoc #qapi #queerpeopleofcolor #boi #femme #transmenofcolor #sickanddisabledqueers #sickqueertimes #boichronicals #kaybarrett #queerbrownlove #qtpoclove]

[Description: a close up of a brown queer person shows them laying down, covering their face with their own arm. A cursive tattoo on their chest reads: “live in the along.”]

There’s minimal comfort. The bones are tightening from the cold. The body gets swollen, you gotta listen. The ache start to take residence in the exhales, you gotta listen. You can’t get warm enough. “Fuck put together,” someone offers. Tuck nothing away, pluck the raw in your throat, study the percussion of the rain like the heartbeats you try to keep close. Those are yours. Still there. Bless this song, the first rhythm you learned without any choice in the matter. The drumming of your chest as slight as a thimble. Still there. There are others in hibernation or a state of stasis clutching their own true selves clinging and alive. Hearts spill in sheets. Still there. The hair follicle left on the pillow next day is an unassumed gallery. The imprint of your eyelashes on your own skin. The fossil of your own flutter. The smallest legacies could keep us alive.

#sickanddisabledqueers #emoboi4eva #chronicpain #qpoc #qtpoc #translivesmatter #qtpocsupremacy #sdqlove #transmenofcolor #morningpages

My brothers & me. One made ceviche from scratch & the other made fireball infused whiskey. It was that kind of night. [Description: three trans men of color are side by side with various shades of brown, sorts of fashion, & a range of smirking expressions.] #sickqueertimes #transmasculine #brownboi #boisofcolor #queerpeopleofcolor #translatino #qapi #spoonedoutandspectacular #qtpocsupremacy #transmenofinstagram #translivesmatter #qtpoc #qpoc #transpeopleofcolor #sickanddisabledqueers #transmenofcolor / Photo via @bettychantel “@aemiliusmilo_ramiez @brownroundboi @kityanpoet”

[Description: to left, a brown trans guy with big hair, glasses, orange & purple patterned shirt & tweed vest holds up a pomme frite way too excitedly. To the left a desi trans man with longer hair & black collared shirt, smiles half heartedly with a frite & dipping sauce. | My face over enthused and his face deeply underwhelmed. We can care for each other despite our apparent ideological differences. For our boi’s birthday at 1:30am, we closed out with pomme frites. Missed @sylent who pumpkined out with their boo. Anyway, #Pinoy kababayan discount, son! #pommefrites #nyc #eastvillage #carbsmorecarbsyes #qapi #potato #snack #transmasculine #transmenofinstagram #transmenofcolor #boichronicals]

[Description: a brown boi with a black fedora & bow tie takes a selfie in a pool hall.] Dear 2015 & new moon: I’m trusting you. I’m trying.

Reminder:
“Who is worth my love, my strength, my rage?” – #calloutqueen aka mark aguhar. #qtpoc #qpoc #qapi #transmenofcolor #sickanddisabledqueers
#transpeopleofcolor #bowtie #brownboi #kaybarrett

[Description: two brown trans men sit and pose. The queer homo to the left has his arms crossed and wears a magenta snapback with a unicorn on it. The brown boi to the right has a floral snapback on. They both wear glasses and both expertizing their own varying degrees of pain.] I’m missing this guy, @aemiliusmilo_ramirez. Such the loving care support person, listener, & brother. It was so lovely and sweet to experience your support! I shall miss your waffle surprises, solid conversation on matters of various ideas from fashion to flirtation, & kindred #chosenfam #sdqlove time. Treat this one right, Toronto! #qtpoc #qtipoc #qpoc #boi #brownboi #transmenofcolor #queerbrownlove #sickanddisabledqueers #sickqueertimes #transmasculine #homeboi #sogay

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Even though I am still kinda sick, I’m in a great mood today; Happy 1 year on T to me!!!!! #trans #testosterone #ftm #f2m #transmenofig #tpoc #transmenofcolor #transman