touchy territory

anonymous asked:

In the tags of your military comic you said you unintentionally made Keith's actions a trigger for Lance, which is understandable since shooting someone from far away is hella different than seeing someone die right in front of you. So does that means that maybe poor baby Lance might start associating those bad feelings with Keith on accident? How would he, and Keith, deal with that?

–what about keith? is he dealing with some emotional processes as well? (other curious anon; referring to military au)

I’m glad you asked these questions cuz i’ve been thinking a lot about this after i finished the comic. 

Keith definitely has a lot on his shoulders as well, however his emotional and mental processes are very different from Lance’s. Since Keith’s upbringing is a harsh one (orphaned due to the war) he’s grown up believing that the world is cruel. He takes his role as a soldier very seriously and has a strong sense of duty, to the point where he shoves subjective feelings out of his mind almost entirely. Where Lance and Hunk are empathetic to those around them even the enemy, Keith believes entirely in “it’s us or them.” In the beginning, Keith doesn’t really understand the emotional struggle Lance goes through in taking the life of others, immediately assuming Lance is acting soft; he basically doesn’t realize Lance has PTSD. 

A part of me considers the trigger for that particular moment, is seeing the face of the man that got killed– im my original draft of the comic, i was actually going to draw the enemy soldier’s face in detail. The face of the enemy soldier dying was actually meant to have more impact than the expression Lance makes seeing it. I decided against it mostly because i didn’t want to make the comic too gory (and i was already spending way too much time on it and i just wanted to have it done lol). So the image that would keep returning to Lance is the face of that man that died, more so than the act of Keith killing him. But yes, I can definitely see Lance developing a subconscious association of that incident with Keith. 

Lance would be very reluctant to bring it up, trying to hide it but not being able to control the subconscious twitches and flinches he gets when Keith gets too close. At this point in time, their relationship would become undoubtedly strained. Keith not being able to understand and Lance not being able to admit/address his issues causes a lot of frustration on Keith’s side. 

And that’s all i got LOL their relationship in my au is a complicated mess that i still need to figure out because frankly i haven’t had a lot of time to think things through completely (plus i’m getting into extremely touchy territory here so i have to think really hard about it) 

anonymous asked:

Hi! I just wanted to say that I love your blog. How about Ren's PDA headcanons? Thank you!

((Aww, thanks! We appreciate that! :D And sorry this took a little while, we’re a bit backed up, haha. -Mod Finny))

  • First things first, Ren isn’t opposed to PDA. He finds it a good way to show off his significant other while also saying that they are his.
  • While he’s okay with handholding, he’s more of the type to pull his s/o close and wrap an arm around them while they’re walking.

  • He respects boundaries, so if his s/o is uncomfortable with him touching them somewhere in public, he would stop. Whatever they’re fine with, he is.

  • If he notices someone eyeing his s/o up or flirting with them, he will become a little more territorial and touchy feely to assert that they’re with him.

  • When Ren proposes, he’s likely to do it somewhere public, especially if it’s a place where he and his s/o met. He would take them there and propose to them, no matter how many people were around.

  • The only places Ren will kiss his s/o if other people are around are on the cheek, hands, and maybe lips. He prefers to save neck kisses for more private, intimate places.
Memories

Originally posted by sweet-teavodka

Steve Rogers x Reader

Memories

Prompt: Can I have an angsty Steve imagine where the reader is insecure/sad about the flashback Steve has in AOU (of him and Peggy dancing). Like she gets insecure and wonders if he really loves her and if she can ever measure up to Peggy. With a happy ending. Sorry if that’s confusing, thank you!!!

Warnings: Little angst, but no swears though.

Note: Hope this is what you wanted!!

Tears rolled down your cheeks. You had given up on wiping them away long ago. They just kept coming. After Steve had told you about his vision, you had nodded and walked away, playing it cool. You pretended you were okay, you held in all of your feelings until you were alone.

You didn’t want Steve to feel bad, not about this, not about Peggy. You knew how much he had loved her, and you respected it. You grandmother had even been a good friend of hers, back in the day. But you cared about him an awful lot, and the thought that he maybe still loved her more than he could ever love you was crushing.

“(Y/N),” he said, knocking on your door. You wiped your tears away as fast as you could and threw the evidence in the trash.

“Come in,” you called, although the tears were still present in your voice. Steve opened the door and walked into the room to find you curled up on the bed.

“(Y/N), what’s wrong?” Steve asked.

“Nothing,” you lied, shaking your head. “Nothing is wrong, why?”

“I heard you crying. Please don’t lie to me.” He pleaded with sad eyes. “(Y/N), I’m sorry. Is this about Peggy?”

“How did you-”

“Wanda told me.” Steve admitted. He looked at you, the guilt eating away at him. “May I-?” he motioned to the bed. You nodded silently. He sat down gently, but that didn’t stop the bed from dipping under his weight.

“I know you loved her. I know you still do. I just…I don’t know what I expected.” You shook your head sadly. “I know I’m not what she was. She was more incredible than I’ll ever be.”

“That’s not true.” Steve stated, crossing his arms. “Peggy was a beautiful, strong woman, but-”

“But what? You settled? You figured you couldn’t find anyone better, so you settled on me. I’m not some amazing British spy dream girl! And I’m not your true love! Why did I ever think you would ever love me as much as you loved her?” Fresh tears rolled down your cheeks. Steve didn’t hesitate to scoop you up and wrap his arms around you, holding you so close you could feel his heart racing inside his chest.

“I did love Peggy, a lot. But she’s not the woman she was all that time ago. I’ve accepted that. I’ve moved on. And yeah, it’s still touchy territory, and if I said I didn’t imagine what my life could have been back then, I’d be lying. But in this confusing world of technology and pop culture, you’re the only thing that makes sense to me. I couldn’t live without you, (Y/N). I never meant to hurt you. I never meant to make you feel like you’re less than her. You’re an amazing, strong, beautiful woman, and I’ve been blessed with the opportunity to get to know you. I love you. I love you so much. I never want you to feel like this ever again.”

“I love you too,” you whispered. Steve smiled and rested his head on top of yours, holding you in his strong arms.

“You know, I’ve been waiting all of this time for a dancing partner, and the moment I saw you, I knew I’d found her.” Steve whispered, holding you tight.

“You mean it?”

“Of course I do, doll.” He paused. “When you’re feeling better, I could take you out dancing if you want.”

“I’d like that,” You sniffled, wiping the rest of your tears away. “I really would…”

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