Okay, let me get this straight.

I read that some PPL still judge ZEN because of his narcissistic tendencies and I do agree that sometimes he can go way over the top. BUT…if you play his route, you will understand why he became like this.

If you grew up being called UGLY and a FREAK and they’re not even joking about it, furthermore it came straight from YOUR OWN MOTHER, (who was supposed to be the one to love you unconditionally BTW) what would you feel?

Zen was maltreated, he was unloved. He lost confidence, he grew up depressed and he really thought he was not worth anything. BUT he managed to overcome this. And this is by having the confidence to be the person he wants to be.

When he says he’s beautiful I would like to believe that this is some sort of a mantra that he has to keep saying so he could continue to be strong. He didn’t grow up in a supportive environment so he used “narcissism” as a form of self-encouragement.

Then again, if he’s not your type, I won’t judge you. Maybe it’s just hard for you to see the good in him…it’s not your fault.

But I would just like this to be a reminder that ZEN has his own reasons to be like this. And that HE IS REALLY GOOD LOOKING IN THE FIRST PLACE.

I actually believe that he is not a true narcissist because these kind of PPL won’t be able to be honest with their feelings…

But ZEN is a very HONEST man. He may even sound insecure in his phone calls and in many scenarios about MC being attractive and all. He can be really, really jealous. (Proof: pic above)

(Writing this just made me love him more. MY GAWD. 😍)



Originally posted by passionatemars

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Looking back, I can’t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.
—  c.j.n.