Things they don’t tell you about top surgery

- Talk to the surgeon about the size you want your new areolas/nipples (don’t be afraid to ask)

- Numbness. No one talks about this for guys who are about to have surgery. You’re going to be numb all in your chest area, especially where the incisions were. They cut nerves as they pass along your chest, and it can take up to a year to regenerate those nerves. Still, feels super foreign for the first two weeks

- Make your bed into a pillow chair, body pillow, two on each side, and two for your head. 

- Sleep alone. I tried to sleep with my girlfriend and it was miserable. You really do need the entire bed for yourself

- Go on Groupon, & get yourself a 10 foot lightning cable iPhone charger, BEST THING EVER, can reach from wherever you are

- Don’t take a week off from work, take two. You will regret the one week, and love the extra time

- When they say “don’t move too much, even after the first week”. LISTEN. I moved way too much and got so sore super quickly. 

- Drink lots of water & eat if your taking the pain medication, otherwise your stomach feels super funky.

- Get stool softeners, & don’t be afraid to take those babies. Don’t wait a week to poop. you’ll surely regret it. 

- The drains are scary & they may hurt while draining or rewrapping your dressings, but once they come out, the second they do, its no more pain, its crazy. 

i hope this helps someone, because i wish i knew all of this when i was having mine a month ago. Looking back its like everyone forgets all the real negatives, its a great experience, & i healed very well & quick compared to most, but the first few days are crazy. They hurt, suck but it gets better. 

Things To Do After Top Surgery

- Sleep shirtless

- Go for a run with no shirt on

- Grow chest hair

- Go to the beach only in board shorts

- Buy more douchey shirts

- Skinny dipping??

- Mow lawns with my guns out as well as my amazing pecks

- Get rid of these damn tan lines

- Actually go outside to tan

- Get a massage from a girl without feeling even more stressed

- Lay in front of a fan on a hot day in nothing but boxers

- Show off my six pack that I have yet to form

- Work out my upper body even more

- Just put a shirt on in the morning and go

- Shirtless selfies

- Be dysphoria free

- Feel comfortable in my own skin

Left: pre-t, age 19, 122 lbs
Right: 1yr 9mos on T, 10 days post op, age 24, 155 lbs

Who knew this is what I would or COULD grow into? Who knew I would be here in 2017 at all? Healthy and pretty fucking happy. I sure as hell didn’t.

Reasons I want top surgery

So I can wear clothes I like
So I don’t have to layer clothes in summer
So I can pass easier
So people don’t call me a “lady”
So I can go swimming again
So I don’t have to get crushed in a binder
So I can go outside without worrying
So I feel better about myself
So my dysphoria will go away


HAPPY ONE YEAR POST OP TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had top surgery a year ago today with Melissa Johnson. Because my stepdad is a transphobic I had to pay $9,000 out of pocket for my surgery. My surgery went fine and recovery was a bit tough. I had a blood clot, which clogged one of the drains up and I would wake up every morning to a pile of blood but other than that there were no complications. I’m so happy :)

Would mean a lot if you watched or shared :) 

We still have a lot of work to do together, my body and I. I never knew I could look at myself and feel love – but man if i didn’t stare at my body fondly, unapologetically, and gratefully today. I feel so at ease.

reasons i want top surgery

so i can go swimming again
so i can actually wear the clothes i like
so i can go outside in summer without completely overheating
so i can take my top off
so i can be more comfortable in intimate relationships
so i can pass more
so i’m less embarrassed about my body so i don’t have to crush myself in a binder every day (and night)
so i can look at my body in the mirror and begin to recognise myself
so my dysphoria can leave
so i can start to feel happy and comfortable in my own skin

Binding Damage

I bound my breasts almost full time for around 2 years before I had my mastectomy. As a result, my lung capacity is reduced and the muscles around my ribcage are still much less strong than they were before I began binding, even though it has been over a year now since I have worn a binder or even a bra. I even bound ‘safely’ using an Underworks compression vest in the correct size, never with ace bandages or any other methods. I still can’t take a full, deep breath like I used to. 

Does anyone have any tricks to regaining lung capacity and strengthening the rib/chest/abdominal muscles after binding? I’m not sure how to increase lung capacity itself or how to exercise the particular muscles that have been effected but I’d like to regain some strength if possible.