Hey Sammy. I've got to talk to you about something
So it's like this alright... You know how I love pie the best?
Yes I know how you love pie the best
Yeah and I always did since I can remember. And if anybody ever even asked me to eat cake-
You'd throw a bitch fit
I'd politely decline. Shut up Sammy I'm talking. Anyway all my life it was pie and not cake.
But imagine that one day this cake came into my life... this really amazing cake. Like it looks like the most delicious thing to sit on a plate - plucked from God's own dessert tray, if you will.
And I'm like "DAMN! I need to eat this cake right now." And it's not like I don't still love pie, right, like pie is still awesome. But this cake looks so good that I might never eat pie again
I can see myself making sweet love to this cake for the rest of my life
I was strolling around @margarittet‘s page when I got to this post and felt like I was knocked over the head. I’ve seen a lot of posts speculating what songs would have been included on the mixtape Dean made for Cas, but I don’t really remember seeing any that were based on songs actually mentioned in the show (if I missed a post, please feel free to hit me upside the head again).
So I scoured SuperWiki and found … 13 songs. Two of these weren’t actually mentioned on the show/used for episodes but were considered for episode titles (according to the site). So I don’t know if they count, but I was very surprised that everything added up to 13. The remaining Led Zeppelin references I found were to the band members, record label, and albums.
In My Time of Dying - title of 2x01 Houses of the Holy - title of 2x13 What Is and What Should Never Be - title of 2x20 No Quarter - original title of 3x16 You Shook Me - mentioned in 4x14 Nobody’s Fault but Mine - mentioned in 4x14 Ramble On - mentioned in 4x18 Travelling Riverside Blues - mentioned in 4x18 When the Levee Breaks - title of 4x21 The Song Remains the Same - title of 5x13 Immigrant Song - lyric used for title of 5x19 Gallows Pole - original title of 6x18 Stairway to Heaven - title of 9x22
I’m not much of a Led Zeppelin fan (I have three songs and avoid Stairway as much as possible), so if there’s something I missed or whatever let me know. :)
It’s not that they were wrong. Because he had finally accepted that, while they were not his kin, they were his family.
For whom he had - for whom he would - for whom he will always lay down his life.
Because in forty five sunrises and sunsets void of Sam and Dean, it became clear to Castiel that nothing in his world mattered as much as the Winchesters.
But that declaration - it didn’t belong to them. It belonged to him.
All those times Castiel had thrown himself in harm’s way, all those times he’d faced Death for no reason other than to buy the Righteous Man a few precious seconds - in his whole time spent alongside the two hunters, he’d never really admitted to his motives.
Never ventured to say the three words with which Dean’s kind were so enamored. The sentiment - it was difficult for the angel to make sense of. In some eight and a half years, Castiel had never named the profound bond for what it was.
But this time, through gritted teeth and lacerated lips, as excruciating pain gnawed at his gut, as he felt the life leak right out of him, this time, Castiel found the strength to own the elusive phrase.
I love you.
Maybe it’s the last vestige of his angelic nature.
Maybe it’s the clarity that comes with being so close to death.
Maybe it’s nothing more than the connection between two souls focused solely on the other.
But in the wake of those words, Castiel can see - hear - feel every thought passing through Dean Winchester’s mind.
An exercise in doubting it could possibly be true.
Because Dean surveys through all the reasons he’s sure he must be unlovable.
Every bottle of whiskey in which he’d drowned his sorrows - every broken chair he’d made a victim of his rage.
Every lie he’d ever told - every promise he’d ever broken.
Every time he’d dared to look into the mirror and couldn’t stomach the man he’d seen looking back at him.
The face of every person he’s gotten killed.
Every monster he hasn’t managed to slay. Every mistake he’s made.
Because the words have barely made their way out of Castiel’s punctured lungs when Dean’s giving him every but he can come up with.
It is only a few seconds but it is not a short list. He’s had years of practice convincing himself he’s broken beyond repair.
And so with what he believes could be his last breath, Castiel offers a clarification.
I love all of you.
All of you, Dean.
Every single shard I stitched back together after I pulled you from the depths of Hell.
Every aspect of your being.
Every precious part.
All of you.
Dean had a habit of misunderstanding Castiel.
But in that moment, in the small glance the two share, his meaning - its abundant and profound truth - is clear.