took this like last week haha

okeedokees  asked:

I've just discovered you and I love your work! Would you mind sharing your approach to composition and thought process on it? Are there any artists you reference? Thank you!

Hey! you found me! Thanks!  

 I reference from photos for stuff I can’t visualize on my own, and artists like bouguereau, rockwell, leyendecker, mucha for mind fuel


Whenever I do a piece, the objective I have in mind is to not get bored, because once I lose interest, I lose the piece.

So for me, the composition has to be distinct enough to avoid echoing an early piece, and to immediately be recognized due to its layout. It’s gotta be new for me, and new things are fun and exciting, right? (yes they are) 

I think about the subject, the action, the actual format (whether it’s allegorical, objective, subjective, i.e. is it a symbolization, a certain scene, would you find it in real life? I tend to avoid the latter, because I find it dull and uninteresting and I hhhhhhhate that) I place priority on the human form, it’s versatile and expressive more than anything else, in my opinion. 

Here’s an example. Normally I don’t post my sketches since they’re just glorified chicken scratch, but this is the best example I could think of at the moment. It’s St. George (for my series sanctus), and normally, you’d see him like this 

(Saint George and the Dragon by gustave moreau, 1889-1890 )


(Saint George and the Dragon by raphael, 1504-1506) 


It’s a pretty common depiction, since it goes back to medieval times. The similarities are that he’s on a horse, he has a spear/lance, there’s a dragon, and he’s attacking it.

The big picture (haha pun) is that I wanted to also have my subject be st george (side note, it’s kind of the theme of the series), but different enough from past artworks where I’d know it wasn’t enormously reminiscent of the traditional depiction. So I aim to keep the basic idea, and see what goes on from there. 

This is the first sketch I did, it was okay, I knew I’d never drawn anything like that, which is good, but composition was lacking. I wasn’t so hot about this, so I dropped it. I kinda like it so I might revisit it .  Additionally, though, it strayed a little too far from the main idea. 

Above was the second sketch, after I’d finished roughing it out, I knew immediately it wouldn’t do. I was satisfied for about 2 seconds, then I got disappointed and stayed that way.. If I put it side by side with the other million or so paintings of st george, I doubt I could tell it was mine. It was practically the same: horse, lance, dragon. The action was too similar to other portrayals.  


It’s not as similar as the previous one was, but I didn’t like it. That’s a good indicator too, whether you like it or not. I’d tried to fuse the first and second sketch because I did like the first one somewhat, but it didn’t really work for me. It’s just so awkward … 

So I left the piece for a while, and came back and did this. It was different, simpler (which can improve a piece more often than not), and I liked it. After I did most of the sketch, I said great job u idiot it only took you a week to come up with a sketch the hell is wrong with u, went to bed, and woke up happy, and normally it doesn’t take me 3 actual sketches or something to come up with a good piece, and I was getting pretty fed up before the last sketch, but good thing I didn’t give up (this time. hah) This is basically how I go about my pieces for now.

tl;dr Don’t give up! (haha I lied, go back and read)

Not So Picture Perfect || Kian Lawley Imagine (Requested)

“Literally all I want to do is go home. I really don’t want to be here,” I told Callie as I worked on the gym elliptical.

“What, why? You love the gym. What’s wrong?”

“Kian flies out with Jc and Dom today for the second half of the tour and won’t be back for 3 weeks.”

“Okay, I know you love him, but it’s only 3 ½ weeks. They will fly by, especially with Maya’s birthday party and Ricky’s “I Hit One Million” Bash.”

Even though I hate to admit it, she was right. It’s just 3 lousy weeks and with the technology we have today, it will be like he never left. 

“Fuck, you’re right. Did you know I hate that about you?”

“Yeah and I love you too, beyotch. Call me later, okay?”

“Alright, bye.”

I finished my 90 minute workout and headed home to see Kian for the last few hours. I grabbed my gym bag and unlocked the door to see Kian’s suitcases against the wall. I let out a sigh and called out to him.

“I’ll be there in a sec!” he yelled back. When he came into my view, I saw that he was on the phone.

“Yeah, Dude. I’ll be there in about an hour. Okay. Bye”

I gave him a confused look,”I thought your flight was at 10 tonight.”

“It was, but there was a screw up with the airline and our flight is 4:40 now.” I looked at the clock behind him and it read 1:27 pm.

“So that means you have to leave now,” I said defeated.

“Yeah, I’m sorry Baby.”

“No it’s fine, it’s not your fault. Did you need me to drive you?”

“I don’t need you to, but I definitely want you to,” he said as he embraced me. 

I helped him load his bags into the car and hopped in. I couldn’t help but think that i wouldn’t have moments like this for 3 fucking weeks. I hated it, but Kian loves his fans and would do anything for them. I would never stand between that.

After what seemed like the shortest ride in history, we pulled up to his terminal. Jc and Dom were already out there waiting for us and I helped unload Kian’s things. We stood there for what felt like forever, just holding each other.

“Ugh, ew! Come on already, Vitaly’s inside!” JC whined beside us. Kian and I decided to gross him out even more and started tongue battling each other.

“God! Didn’t you guys do enough of that before he left?!” asked Dom.

“We actually didn’t,” I said to Kian, looking kind of amused. 

“Well this is going to be one uncomfortable flight,” he joked.

“Speaking of flight, we gotta catch ours!” JC said.

“Fuuuck, I don’t want you to leave.”

“I know, but I’ll be back soon, okay.”

“Okay, have fun.”

“I will, I’ll call you when we land,” he said running into the airport.

“I’ll be waiting,” I said to myself.

When I arrived back to our place I was finally able to take a well needed shower. When I was done, I ordered food off of Postmates and caught up on ‘Are You The One?’ I really hated being here without Kian, but I had to remind myself that I did it during the first half and was (somewhat) fine.

My phone started to ring and I got excited when I saw that it was Kian calling.


“Hey, Baby. How are you?”

“Lonely. How was the flight?”

“Pretty good. Some kid threw up though, which made Dom almost throw up.”

“Ew, but kinda awesome, haha.” Our conversation didn’t last long due to the fact that he had a long day tomorrow and it was late where he was.

I decided that it was time for me to go to bed as well and try to not be so bleh.

The next few days were getting easier and easier. Almost two weeks have already passed and Maya’s birthday party was a great distraction. I hear from Kian every night and every night I miss him more. Tonight is Ricky’s bash and I’m really excited. I took me like 4 hours to get ready, but I was almost done. I was applying the last bit of makeup when my phone buzzed. 

I heard Callie come in and we naturally had to capture this moment. 

That night was complete blast. I can’t stress how proud I am of Ricky T for reaching over one million youtube subscribers. Callie and I finally got back to my place and I was about to take a shower when my phone started to ring.

“Hey, I saw your Snap. You look beautiful, how was the party?”

“It was really fun, but tiring. How’s the tour going?”

“It’s good! The fans are amazing, the closer I get to coming home, the more anxious I get to be with you.”

“*Sigh* I can’t wait for you to come back.”

“I know me either, but I’ll let you get some rest and I’ll do the same. Sweet dreams, Babe.”

“You too, Kian. Good night.”

The next few days were quite boring, but Kian comes home in a little over a week and I’m so happy! I had been trying to reach him for the last few hours now, but he wasn’t picking up. I finally gave up on him and tried calling JC, but it was too loud to hold a conversation. My last resort was Vitaly who evidently was asleep and didn’t know anything.

I realized that this was the first night Kian hadn’t called me and I got a sort of uneasy feeling in my stomach. I quickly shook it off and decided to go to bed. 

It was about 7:15 am when I was woken up by the constant vibration of my phone. After about 2 solid minutes, I groggily turn over and check what it is. I see that it is a bunch of Twitter notifications and I decided to open them. I see an assload of pictures of Jc with some random girl wither ass out, but that’s when I see it.

“What the fuck?” I say to myself as I read the tweets. I feel my heart drop as I see my boyfriend cradling another girl’s ass. I immediately decide to call him and of course it goes straight to voicemail. 

Over the course of the next 9 days, I didn’t leave the house. Ricky and Callie came over to keep me company, but I just wanted to be alone. Kian tried calling every 5 minutes, except when he was on stage, but I ignored all of them. Even the rest of the boys were trying to contact me, but I only talked to Vitally since he wasn’t there that night. He tried to get me to talk about it, but knowing that he would relay it all to Kian, I just changed the subject. 

So many people were talking about what happened, even Kian’s ex Andrea. All I could do at this point is cry and look at old photos of Kian and I. 

Kian comes back tomorrow and I had to make a hasty decision. I was in the middle of my thoughts when my phone vibrated over and over again. I thought I shut that fucker off. I go look at it and I see it is the man of the hour once again.

I can’t help but smile a little bit as I cry even harder now. Is it worth letting go? Is it worth staying? Then he said it. 

Those words made my decision so much easier.

So last week I took my ass to Harry Potter world and when you go into olivander’s (the wand shop plebs) they crowd everybody into this little room with an actor that carries out an example wand ceremony–this is because they couldn’t feasibly do it for everyone individually I would imagine

Right so I’m in here and this lady prowls the room going ‘I sense a great power here’ and my astral ass is like ‘haha it’s probably me given I’m an actual witch good joke self’

Meanwhile my friend standing to my right is like 'haha it’d be funny if it was Dusken since she’s an actual witch and all’

Actor lady about faces. Points in my direction. 'It’s you!’

My ass was dead inside. GOOD JOKE ASTRAL!!!

Anyway that was how I went through with the entire wand ceremony at Harry Potter world trying desperately to conceal don’t feel while my witchy friend laughed to herself and took burst photos. The end.

day 6/365

to be honest, I feel like I’ve improved quite a bit in the last (almost) week

the faces are more symmetrical, I’m capturing the feel quite a bit better, and it’s taking a lot less time to finish one sketch

however, I still feel like it’s a game of chance, I have like a ¼ chance of drawing a successful sketch

but yeah.

idk why but it’s incredibly hard to find a reference photo of jungkook. not sure why. that’s why it took me so long to finally draw him haha.


Tagged by: the beautiful supersis who has a better fashion sense than I ever will, so in this case she could be my Alex helping me pick out an outfit, haha @karadanversofel

Rules: Post a picture of your current lockscreen, homescreen, last song you listened to and last selfie you took (or any other photo if you’re not comfortable with selfies).

I’m really pumped for June 15′s Iron Maiden/Ghost concert, so I’ve been listening to them all week. I rarely take selfies, so have a thing from SnapChat that I really like. This one was back on October 1st after getting heavily rained on at the AIDS Run & Walk. I was just really happy after the walk and it’s really fitting for this month, so ❤️

Tagging: @planetariio, @drsncw, @cfkara@desiredoverkills, @echoesxofxthexpast@shewhowalkedtheearth, @tragicletters@fcrmychildren

SARIC UPDATE: today was quite different. part of our project is to conduct a poll using a random sample of strangers so we went to the mall and asked a bunch of random people questions about alcohol and stuff. im more of an introvert so i was not excited about it but eric is very charismatic so he kinda took over which was nice of him:) after about an hour of harassing innocent shoppers, we got dinner in the food court and just talked again for a long time. he didn’t say anything about the events of last week (about asking if i like him and saying he liked me) so im not sure if it was just an innocent thing or like some weird boy strategy thats supposed to freak me the hell out haha. the best part though was the ride home. i crashed my car a couple weeks ago so eric offered to take me home and spare me the embarrassment of being picked up by my dad. so we get in the car, he hands me his cd book thing and says i can pick one and that is when i found absolute confirmation that we are freaking meant for each other. he loves the beach boys. i love the beach boys. we spent 20 min in the car singing surfin usa and fun fun fun. it was quite possibly one of the top 10 best moments of my life haha. and then when he dropped me off he said “tell your dad i say hi” which idk why but i thought was totally awesome. another successful saric day:)

(P.S., next weeks update will be on saturday cuz i have plans next friday)

Zutara Week 2016: Dragons

Sorry mine is so late! I’ve been pretty unwell lately and also I felt guilty if I took too long to queue things for @zutaraweek so I neglected my own submissions haha. Also I haven’t worked digitally in such a long time! Took me forever to get use to it again.

For inspiration I chose this Zutara Week fanfiction by @liv-like-liv!

Tonight I’ll be looking for someone’s Reincarnation piece to work from. Let me know if you read any amazing ones! I already have a few in mind. c:

raendown  asked:

17 and 24?

17: What was the last lie you told? I’m going to take the blood samples tomorrow (A week of lies xD)
24: Do you have a collection of anything? Prompts, that was the reason why I took so much time to answer this, I opened my inbox and started the sketches and I forgot this!!! (I’m so sorry, shame on me!!) and pencils 

thanks for the questions Rae <3 <3 <3 


It will have been angst to the end ;)

@jroseley : 😢😢 

I know me too haha!


No, next one will be the last one :( Thanks!


I can’t believe it either! Thank you!


Thank you <3

Awkwardly Personal Update Lol

Okay so everyone and their personal trainer is asking me about my weight lately haha. Some people have gotten used to me being a bit thinner than I used to but some are still surprised by it so I wanna update y'all on my progress haha. Last year some of you know I had bad anxiety in the beginning of the year and it caused strong appetite loss and vomiting periodically, like a few times a week whenever I had an anxiety attack. I didn’t even know what anxiety was until the beginning of last year, I had never experienced it. It took me a while to put it together but I realized it was all triggered by dating/hanging out with guys/feeling like anyone was trying to get close with me romantically/feeling like someone I had feelings for might abandon me, just to lay it all out there haha. Let’s just get REAL personal for a hot minute. It was really bad throughout January/February. In March I let go of this reckless guy I was talking to who was making me so anxious and things got better for a while. I had lost 10 pounds through this experience but gained it back by July. August-December I started boxing about 3 times a week, eating really healthy and gained a lot of muscle, I was in the best shape of my life. Then around Christmas time I started dating someone else and the anxiety came back, I guess I’ve been so closed off my whole life it’s just really hard for me to open my heart like that to people. I’ve managed to do it in friendships really well but romantically I had no experience for the longest time being emotionally close with someone so it just really takes a toll on me, the stress and fear. This time it was much better, I did lose my appetite for a few weeks on and off and still lost sleep and was worked up but first of all it was a much better situation with this guy so I wasn’t on an emotional roller coaster wondering if he liked me that day or not lol, second I only felt anxious about it for a few weeks and then it calmed down and I was able to just push through my fears and let him in. As time went by that fell apart and I realized it wasn’t as perfect as I thought, I’m definitely happier and a lot less stressed now but I’m still so glad I had that experience and got to see myself actually get close with someone and not burst into flames haha. Anyway those few weeks I lost probably five pounds and was back down to my lowest weight which wasn’t good but I didn’t dip below that and eventually came back up a bit and maintained there for a long time and that’s where I’m at now. I’m about 126 lbs, I used to be 132 and then when I lost weight I was 122. I also stopped the high carb vegan thing, though I do still eat a lot of fruit/raw foods whenever I can, because I was developing a protein deficiency as I found out recently, thank you Christina haha. I was constantly tired, I got sick for two months straight and couldn’t recover, my hair was starting to thin a bit and I lost SO much muscle. Mainly from the appetite loss but that’s also what caused my protein deficiency. I know you can get protein through vegan foods too lol but I chose to start eating meat again because it’s just a lot easier for me to maintain my weight and muscle that way. Respect to all my vegan and vegetarian followers tho lol. Anyway I recently went to counseling and the therapist told me the cure for my particular anxiety is exposure, which I kinda already realized but she helped me put it together how each time I date someone new and open my heart it’s a lot less stressful than the time before. Like I’m talking to someone right now and I was anxious about it for two weeks and then it subsided completely yaaayyyyy. No, I still have not had a boyfriend haha haven’t made it official with anyone but I’ve actually met people I would consider for that title which is huge cuz before I LITERALLY had not met anyone I would consider being in a relationship with before last year. So that’s cool!!! Haha oh and also, I had my first kiss. Last summer. Didn’t wanna tell everyone cuz I was really disappointed in myself, it was a bad situation and this guy was AWFUL. So short lived, so pointless, so numb. I was planning to save it for my wedding day and I still think that would’ve been so cool and beautiful but oh well, life goes on. I’m strongly considering restarting on that path because I know it’s never too late to restart and you’re not ruined if you made a bad choice, no matter how tiny or huge. Last summer I was in a really stressful, hopeless, dark, fearful place and I guess I just felt like nothing about me mattered so I might as well throw it away. I wrote a song about it called The Love Of A Man which you guys will eventually get to hear but yeah, that song is legit the only good thing that came out of that experience. There wasn’t some positive message, I didn’t learn about myself except what I already knew which was that I don’t want meaningless interactions with people I am not even close with. But I already knew that and I wish I didn’t have to confirm it the hard way. If you’re on the path to saving yourself for marriage, especially your first kiss, STICK WITH IT. It’s so beautiful and so meaningful. If you’re not, that’s you’re choice and no judgement here but I’ve learned that’s definitely not a path for me. So anyway yeah. That’s a huge extremely personal update on my life hahahahahaha hope you enjoyed 😂

Here we go again. I decided to do the election at the same time as voltage did. Why ? Because I want to. (Also because it’s really hot outside so I’m not going out and I have a lot of time. Aaaand do you see all these boys that took me an eternity to do all the poster so before they add more dude … haha whatever it’s more logical to do it at the same time that voltage did, I think.) Anyway the deadline is in a month so the 08/07/2014. Voltage give two week and half I think it’s too short so I rather make this last one month.

Like last year you have to reblog or like or both to vote for your favorite boy. You can reblog more than one dude and also reblog more than one time. Just try to be fair and not reblog like a hundred time, I will not slap the shit out of you if you do but let’s just be fair here. Just click on the boy you want to vote below it will redirect you to the post (I will add all the link after I post all the poster, that will take some time tough).

This year we have 106 candidats. If I forgot someone tell me. and if Voltage realese new story before the deadline I will add them.


- Hayden Spencer

- Kuon Casiraghi

- Sieg Lieben


- Hiroshi Kirisawa

- Kazusa Hanai

- Yutaka Tennoji

- Tadanobu Nomura


- Masaomi Hibiya

- Izumi Takasaki

- Shinobu Narita

- Jinpachi Yushima


- Eisuke Ichinomiya

- Soryu Oh

- Mitsunari Baba

- Ota Kisaki

- Mamoru Kishi


- Minato Okouchi

- Kaoru Kirishima

- Shusei Hayakawa

- Chiaki Yuasa

- Akiyoshi Zaizen


- Yasuto Kanzaki

- Taketo Kanzaki

- Kanji Okumiya

- Homare Midorikawa

- Nagisa Ichinose


- Haruki Tanemura

- Ryuzo Hatta

- Ichigo Sato

- Takeshi Yuno

- Rihito Hatsune

- Johji Chakura


- Issei Sezaki

- Junpei Miyashita

- Soichiro Irie

- Kyosuke Narumi


- Kakeru Kamui

- Tsubasa Shirai

- Rein Isaka

- Meguru Kamui

- Shiki Kurobane

- Satoru Kamagari

- Haruhito Amano


- Toranosuke Hajime

- Ryoma Shirasagi

- Tamatsu Goda

- Shingo Kai

- Koji Nagumo

- Junya Sakurazawa

- Shota Kurumi


- Lute

- Haku

- Ken

- Shion

- Gaia


- Wilfred A. Spencer

- Keith Alford

- Roberto Button

- Glenn J. Casiraghi

- Joshua Lieben

- Edward Levaincois

- Zain


- Yamato Kougami

- Takamasa Saeki

- Ren Shibasaki

- Takao Maruyama

- Yuta Kajima

- Kunihiko Aikawa

- Kyoichi Kunishiro

- Haruka Utsunomiya


- Takuto Hirukawa

- Kenshi Inagaki

- Hiro Sarashina

- Riki Yanase

- Atsumu Kashiwabara

- Tatsuro Togoshi


- Genji Higashiyama

- Shohei Aiba

- Kiyoto Makimura

- Kippei Ebihara

- Ritsu Moriyama

- Soji Higashiyama

- Ginnosuke Oguri

- Koichi Natsukawa


- Russell

- Eduardo

- Christopher

- Nathan

- Thomas

- Morgan

- Alan

- Leonardo


- Yuzuki Kitaoji

- Ryoichi Hirose

- Noel Aijima

- Chihaya Koda

- Mirai Kageyama

- Satsuki Kitaoji


- Subaru Ichiyanagi

- Kaiji Akizuki

- Sora Hirosue

- Mizuki Fujisaki

- Daichi Katsuragi

- Hideki Ishigami

- Seiji Goto

- Toru Kurosawa

So… first actual ‘art’ post in a while but it’s a personal gift sorta. Happy BELATED birthday to the cool @stirpicus (I’m sorry!). I just had to.

Thank you for all you’ve done for MCSM. Thank you for noticing us fans on Tumblr and appreciating all the silly things we come up with. Thank you for being a cool bean when we get weird sometimes. Thank you for liking us. 

Please have a great weekend/week. We look forward to the last two episodes!

Mali-Koa's Little Brother

A/N: your best friend Mali introduces you to her baby brother, Calum Hood 😉 (requested) enjoy humans ✌️

Mali was just the best time ever. You were both the most carefree girls when you were in a loose and loud environment. If you guys got wasted you would hop on tables and start to dance like a stripper while Mali throws dollar bills at you. Eventually you’d be getting kicked out of the every place you went into but it was okay because you would both just stroll the night along the city being silly and causing more chaos. Summer nights were the best as long as you had her by your side. She had invited you to a small lunch at her family’s house. You loved hanging with her parents because they were just such laidback and funny people. She’s always mentioned having a younger brother who was in a rock band but was almost never home. You expected to see a preteen boy with his group of friends, in their own little world. But were up for quite a rude awakening.
You knocked at her front door and she smiled really wide trying to say something really excited. “Y/N! You will never guess who came home last week!” “Haha I don’t know, your grandparents?” “No you muppet, it’s my brother Calum! You finally get to meet my baby brother. You’re going to love him trust me.” “Oh nice! Did he just get back from like summer camp or something?” She shook her head and took your hand, leading you to the living room. “I’m going to get us some drinks yeah?” You smiled nodding your head and thanking her. You heard someone come down the stairs calling Mali’s name. “Mali was that Luke at the door!” He froze to find you sitting on the couch such glaring off into space which just happened to be his face. He smirked almost immediately and slowly walked towards you, as you felt you face heating up in shock because he was pretty hot. In that moment, Mali had walked in with two glasses. “Oh Cal good! There you are.” She then grabbed your hand and pulled you next to her, snapping you from your daze. “This is my brother Calum. Calum this is Y/N.” You mouth gaped a little and tried to say something. “Oh my god. You said he was your little brother.” “He is?” You smiled a little flustered as he held out his hand to you. “Trust me there is an exaggeration on the little. I dare anyone to tell me any part of me is little.” “Oh god Calum seriously?” She groaned hitting his shoulder and walking into the kitchen. “It was nice meeting you Calum.” You smiled lightly, following Mali into the kitchen. “I’m sorry he’s just weird. He gets way too comfortable with saying anything that crosses his mind. I’m telling you, he’ll do anything to try and woo a girl. But generally he’ll keep to himself. If tries anything, just let me know.” She winked punching you playfully on the shoulder. “Nah, it’s ok. That’s a little brother for ya. I just I didn’t except him to look… Like that. Mali I’m sorry I’m not gonna lie, but your brother is kind’ve… hot?” She scrunched her nose and smiled, shaking her head. “Ew Y/N. No way. But to tell you the truth, you aren’t the first one to think so.” Your face dropped a little. If you were one of many, what was the point? “Don’t let it get to you. It takes a lot to impress him. He’s a picky bastard, that explains why he hasn’t had too many girlfriends. But it doesn’t seem like it’ll be too much work for you.” She smirked, wagging her eyebrows. “Oh god Mal, why?” You buried your face in your hands while she started laughing. You then heard Joy calling Mali to help her in the backyard. “Hey Y/N, maybe you should wait in the living room. I think you may have left something in there.” She smirked. “Actually I did, my drink.” You responded cleverly, sticking your tongue out at her. You cautiously opened the swing door and peeked to see if he was still in there. Vacant. You sighed, reaching down to grab your drink. “Looking for me?” Someone whispered in your ear. You gasped turning to see the dark haired boy biting the inside of his lip. You nervously giggled. “Ah no. I just forgot my drink.” You said walking forward while he walked backwards, still in your way. “Where you going?” He smiled widely asked spreading his arms out. “Outside Calum.” You muttered. “Do I make you nervous?” He raised his eyebrows at you. Before you had a chance to answer, he slowly attempted to hold your wrist, pulling you the opposite direction. You didn’t know what was going on but you felt almost vulnerable and let him have his way. He lead you up the stairs and to his room. “Sit down babe.” You awkwardly took a seat on the bed and stared at him with no sense of what was going to happen next. He walked towards you and brought his face way too close for people who had literally just met like ten minutes ago. “I need your help.” You tilted you head, asking why with your eyes. “I’m going to the club tomorrow with some mates and I’m having trouble choosing a shirt.” You panicked a little inside, knowing exactly where this was going. He held up two button up shirts. “Uh I don’t know, the black one?” You stammered, wanting to get through the fact that this was actually happening. “Maybe you should see it on me just to be sure.” He winked at you. He stripped his tee off and you felt like your drink was going to slip out of your hand. You shifted your position a little too much. His lean and structured body was so perfect. It was not to reach out and stroke his body right there but you were in too much shock. “What do you think?” He asked walking back towards you. “Think of what? You’re not even wearing a top…” You breathed out, trying not to look for too long. He sat next to you, scanning your body. He hovered above you. “I know you want me.” He whispered to you. You then heard Mali’s voice calling your name up the stairs. Calum quickly got off of you and immediately threw on a top and tried to act casual. She sighed giving you a devious smile as she entered the room. “I had a feeling you’d be up here. I hope he didn’t freak the hell out of you.” She said taking your hand and giving him an annoyed look. “Honestly Calum, you just met her. Give it a rest.” You looked back as he winked at you slowly following after you guys. You couldn’t help but smile back. You knew this wasn’t over. After lunch, you spent the rest of the day up in Mali’s old room. “So… What were you doing up in my brother’s room?” She just had to ask. “Believe it or not. He needed help picking out a shirt for his night out.” “Oh that reminds me, we’re going to a club tomorrow for my old co-worker’s birthday so pick something sexy to wear.” You froze and hoped it wasn’t the same place Calum had planned on going.
“How do I look?” You asked as you stepped out of the bathroom in a maroon colored body felt dress. The lace sleeves covering your arm and trailing back on your low back side. “Oh hot as fuck… Geez. Turn around.” You spinned a 360 circle, giving her a full view. “It’s not really my taste Mal, I don’t know about this.” “No, trust me. You look amazing. I knew this was it for you.” “You look beautiful too babe.” “Let’s get the hell out of here before we lose good seats at the back booth.” Your one wish was that you could defeat against the odds that you would find Calum at the same club; but sadly fate wasn’t too kind in your circle tonight.
You walked into the club to find the biggest party you’ve been to in a while. You were no party animal but it was nice to cut loose and look/feel hot for one night once again. You greeted many of yours and Mali’s friends who turned out. You were about four drinks in and already were all over the place; not in a typsy way but just having the best time ever and talking to everyone; meeting new people and stepping out your comfort zone. You went to the bathroom and fixed your brick red lipstick. You came out trying to find Mali when someone grabbed your waist. “Hey sexy.” You heard that familiar voice in your ear. “Oh god… You’re here too. I knew it.” Your breath hitched. He was wearing that black top you picked out with a dog tag around his neck. He smelled insanely good. He pulled you closer to his body and start moving against you. He eventually started taking your waist back further and further until you pressed against an iscolated wall corner. He inhaled and stroked your hair away from your shoulders. “Have you been drinking babe?” You shrugged your shoulders and tried to break free. He leaned in and lightly brushed his lips against your neck. “Calum?” “Hm?” He hummed from your neck, trailing kisses on your shoulder. “Don’t take this the wrong way, but you look so fucking good.” You said feeling his sides in an up and downward motion. But also surprised at your sudden confidence. “How can I not though? You’re technically leading me on.” He said smirking at you. “I’m sorry Calum but I can’t. It’s just wrong.” “It doesn’t feel wrong does it?” He said trailing his hand down to your butt. He got you there. You gulped. One kiss wouldn’t hurt. You leaned in and layed one on him. It did feel pretty fucking good, his lips felt so plump and it was hard to stop. You pulled away with your eyes widened. His hooded (HA) eyes fascinated at how you couldn’t help yourself. After a second of realizing how good it felt, you smiled yourself and teasingly felt him up. You started to kiss under his ear and across his jaw. Your hands trailed down his body while you never left eye contact with his. You brought your lips back to his and wrapped your right leg around his waist. He brushed his hand down your body and held it up against him; also grinding up on you. He slowly pulled the top area of your dress to expose a little more of your chest and kneaded it, moaning on your mouth. He was smooth and you hated it yet loved it too. Your open mouth make out session had gotten interrupted when a tall blonde guy had lightly shoved his shoulder. You both pulled away, yourself feeling flustered at what just happened. “We have to go man, Paul’s waiting in the car outside!” He shouted over the loud music and pulling on his shoulder. Calum groaned and lightly smacked your butt as he walked past you. You looked back and saw he bit his lip and winked, mouthing ‘later’ while being dragged away. You felt almost angry that you couldn’t go any further. He was so good and you couldn’t have craved anything more than his touch and affection. You fixed your bra and stood up to hopefully find Mali. Your thoughts immediately vanished when she sneaked up behind you. “BOO!” You closed your eyes, dreading having to turn around and face her after what just happened. “I saw that. You TOTALLY just hooked up with my brother,” you looked at your feet and blushed pretty damn bad. “you must really like to gross me out. No scratch that, you must really WANT him.” She said puckering her lips at you. “If you guys weren’t related, you’d totally understand,” she fake gagged and shook her head. “where have you been all night? I’ve been looking for you.” “Oh yeah clearly. I just don’t think we’re talking about the same Hood here.” She smiled as she pointed her chin towards the door where Calum had left. “Oh shut up.” You said swatting her arm laughing. “Is it bad that I really want to see him again?” “No I don’t think so but I’d rather not think about the reason why.” She raised her eyebrows gesturing you to fix your bra a little more. “Just say the word and he’s all yours.” She said leaning in and waiting for you to respond. “FINE. I like Calum. Happy now?” She giggled, nodding her head and clapped her hands, texting him all your information. “Y'all are so cute.” She said wrapping an arm around you; you burying your face in your hands again. Not long after, your phone vibrated and he invited you to see him the next day at his place for “coffee ;)”. Oh he’s good.

Part 2:


Incredibly sorry for the lack of posts recently! I’ve been traveling! I have a ton of photos in line. Actually, I’m so overwhelmed by the sheer amount of pictures I have to edit that I’m having a hard time getting around to post-processing them. Haha! Here are photos I took in HKIA, my forever favorite airport. The last one, though, was shot in LAX. And these were taken weeks ago.

I started feeling stunted by my obsession with the rule of thirds—which, honestly, I have no idea where I acquired—so recently I’ve been trying to work around it, so that my composition would be a little more dynamic. Especially like this, when I’m taking travel photos, I figured I need to be a bit more forgiving with everything. But we’ll see how it goes.

Anyway, like I said, tons of photos coming. Stay tuned! :D

7 week progress shot

so I think it’s clear to see that there has been a lot of progress haha

I weighed in this morning (when I took the photo) at 83.2 kilos which means a total loss of 6.8 kilos in 7 weeks (10 kilos since last year)

I love how much more energy I have as well as how great I feel about myself! My body can do more and more every day - it’s fantastic. I can run places if I feel like it and not get out of breath and I don’t have to push myself up on my knees anymore from sitting. 

I love my new lifestyle. 

Height: 176cm

Before weight: 90kg

During weight: 83.2kg

Reuse the rainbow indexes:

I just realized that I could reuse these cute sticker thingies (which quite a lot of you were curious about 😁)

I started to feel a bit wasteful when I returned library books full of the indexes, and I had to peel them off (lots of them!), and I threw them away just like that 😅

Last week I figured I would read a few chapters from this library book I’m reading, took notes of the chapters (so the indexes served their function), and then I peeled off and ‘stack’ them on a piece of post it paper, so I can reuse them for the next chapters. And it’s been working well!

I know this might seem trivial, but I’m quite excited, guys! It means I’m saving money and the environment! (Well maybe not the environment haha)💃🎉


oncers love sean week // favorite memory
I’m really thankful and grateful that I have quite a few great memories with Sean (and each has been absolutely wonderful), but these are personally a couple of my favorites! The first was back in October when they were filming the mid season finale. It was late, it was cold as shit, and they were filming an extremely emotional scene, so we really didn’t think anyone was gonna come out the first night. Low and behold when Sean wrapped, he looked up when we all said hi to him, and he immediately waddled (LITERALLY WADDLED IT WAS SO CUTE) over to our group in his big ass poofy coat and was SO NICE and took photos with us. Second photo was the first time I got to meet him, and I remember him taking his time to make sure every single person there that day had a photo (and there was quite a few fans in Steveston that day lol). Third was the day I found out the Sean gives the best hugs ever. Ever. Not just haphazardly throws an arm around you, no it was like a two armed squeeze hug. Now I always make sure I give him hugs ^.^ And the last photo was from a few weeks ago, which was personally my favorite of the three. After I took this photo with the boys I gave them both hugs, and while I was hugging Sean he was like “it’s great to see you, love”. I actually could have melted on the spot but somehow I kept my composure and made it out of the room before freaking out haha. We had just seen him like… 2 days beforehand and told him we were gonna be there Saturday for the convention so I guess he remembered. And it was definitely my favorite moment with him. He’s such a sweetheart, and deserves all the love <3