took this like last week haha



okeedokees  asked:

I've just discovered you and I love your work! Would you mind sharing your approach to composition and thought process on it? Are there any artists you reference? Thank you!

Hey! you found me! Thanks!  

 I reference from photos for stuff I can’t visualize on my own, and artists like bouguereau, rockwell, leyendecker, mucha for mind fuel


Whenever I do a piece, the objective I have in mind is to not get bored, because once I lose interest, I lose the piece.

So for me, the composition has to be distinct enough to avoid echoing an early piece, and to immediately be recognized due to its layout. It’s gotta be new for me, and new things are fun and exciting, right? (yes they are) 

I think about the subject, the action, the actual format (whether it’s allegorical, objective, subjective, i.e. is it a symbolization, a certain scene, would you find it in real life? I tend to avoid the latter, because I find it dull and uninteresting and I hhhhhhhate that) I place priority on the human form, it’s versatile and expressive more than anything else, in my opinion. 

Here’s an example. Normally I don’t post my sketches since they’re just glorified chicken scratch, but this is the best example I could think of at the moment. It’s St. George (for my series sanctus), and normally, you’d see him like this 

(Saint George and the Dragon by gustave moreau, 1889-1890 )


(Saint George and the Dragon by raphael, 1504-1506) 


It’s a pretty common depiction, since it goes back to medieval times. The similarities are that he’s on a horse, he has a spear/lance, there’s a dragon, and he’s attacking it.

The big picture (haha pun) is that I wanted to also have my subject be st george (side note, it’s kind of the theme of the series), but different enough from past artworks where I’d know it wasn’t enormously reminiscent of the traditional depiction. So I aim to keep the basic idea, and see what goes on from there. 

This is the first sketch I did, it was okay, I knew I’d never drawn anything like that, which is good, but composition was lacking. I wasn’t so hot about this, so I dropped it. I kinda like it so I might revisit it .  Additionally, though, it strayed a little too far from the main idea. 

Above was the second sketch, after I’d finished roughing it out, I knew immediately it wouldn’t do. I was satisfied for about 2 seconds, then I got disappointed and stayed that way.. If I put it side by side with the other million or so paintings of st george, I doubt I could tell it was mine. It was practically the same: horse, lance, dragon. The action was too similar to other portrayals.  


It’s not as similar as the previous one was, but I didn’t like it. That’s a good indicator too, whether you like it or not. I’d tried to fuse the first and second sketch because I did like the first one somewhat, but it didn’t really work for me. It’s just so awkward … 

So I left the piece for a while, and came back and did this. It was different, simpler (which can improve a piece more often than not), and I liked it. After I did most of the sketch, I said great job u idiot it only took you a week to come up with a sketch the hell is wrong with u, went to bed, and woke up happy, and normally it doesn’t take me 3 actual sketches or something to come up with a good piece, and I was getting pretty fed up before the last sketch, but good thing I didn’t give up (this time. hah) This is basically how I go about my pieces for now.

tl;dr Don’t give up! (haha I lied, go back and read)

Not So Picture Perfect || Kian Lawley Imagine (Requested)

“Literally all I want to do is go home. I really don’t want to be here,” I told Callie as I worked on the gym elliptical.

“What, why? You love the gym. What’s wrong?”

“Kian flies out with Jc and Dom today for the second half of the tour and won’t be back for 3 weeks.”

“Okay, I know you love him, but it’s only 3 ½ weeks. They will fly by, especially with Maya’s birthday party and Ricky’s “I Hit One Million” Bash.”

Even though I hate to admit it, she was right. It’s just 3 lousy weeks and with the technology we have today, it will be like he never left. 

“Fuck, you’re right. Did you know I hate that about you?”

“Yeah and I love you too, beyotch. Call me later, okay?”

“Alright, bye.”

I finished my 90 minute workout and headed home to see Kian for the last few hours. I grabbed my gym bag and unlocked the door to see Kian’s suitcases against the wall. I let out a sigh and called out to him.

“I’ll be there in a sec!” he yelled back. When he came into my view, I saw that he was on the phone.

“Yeah, Dude. I’ll be there in about an hour. Okay. Bye”

I gave him a confused look,”I thought your flight was at 10 tonight.”

“It was, but there was a screw up with the airline and our flight is 4:40 now.” I looked at the clock behind him and it read 1:27 pm.

“So that means you have to leave now,” I said defeated.

“Yeah, I’m sorry Baby.”

“No it’s fine, it’s not your fault. Did you need me to drive you?”

“I don’t need you to, but I definitely want you to,” he said as he embraced me. 

I helped him load his bags into the car and hopped in. I couldn’t help but think that i wouldn’t have moments like this for 3 fucking weeks. I hated it, but Kian loves his fans and would do anything for them. I would never stand between that.

After what seemed like the shortest ride in history, we pulled up to his terminal. Jc and Dom were already out there waiting for us and I helped unload Kian’s things. We stood there for what felt like forever, just holding each other.

“Ugh, ew! Come on already, Vitaly’s inside!” JC whined beside us. Kian and I decided to gross him out even more and started tongue battling each other.

“God! Didn’t you guys do enough of that before he left?!” asked Dom.

“We actually didn’t,” I said to Kian, looking kind of amused. 

“Well this is going to be one uncomfortable flight,” he joked.

“Speaking of flight, we gotta catch ours!” JC said.

“Fuuuck, I don’t want you to leave.”

“I know, but I’ll be back soon, okay.”

“Okay, have fun.”

“I will, I’ll call you when we land,” he said running into the airport.

“I’ll be waiting,” I said to myself.

When I arrived back to our place I was finally able to take a well needed shower. When I was done, I ordered food off of Postmates and caught up on ‘Are You The One?’ I really hated being here without Kian, but I had to remind myself that I did it during the first half and was (somewhat) fine.

My phone started to ring and I got excited when I saw that it was Kian calling.


“Hey, Baby. How are you?”

“Lonely. How was the flight?”

“Pretty good. Some kid threw up though, which made Dom almost throw up.”

“Ew, but kinda awesome, haha.” Our conversation didn’t last long due to the fact that he had a long day tomorrow and it was late where he was.

I decided that it was time for me to go to bed as well and try to not be so bleh.

The next few days were getting easier and easier. Almost two weeks have already passed and Maya’s birthday party was a great distraction. I hear from Kian every night and every night I miss him more. Tonight is Ricky’s bash and I’m really excited. I took me like 4 hours to get ready, but I was almost done. I was applying the last bit of makeup when my phone buzzed. 

I heard Callie come in and we naturally had to capture this moment. 

That night was complete blast. I can’t stress how proud I am of Ricky T for reaching over one million youtube subscribers. Callie and I finally got back to my place and I was about to take a shower when my phone started to ring.

“Hey, I saw your Snap. You look beautiful, how was the party?”

“It was really fun, but tiring. How’s the tour going?”

“It’s good! The fans are amazing, the closer I get to coming home, the more anxious I get to be with you.”

“*Sigh* I can’t wait for you to come back.”

“I know me either, but I’ll let you get some rest and I’ll do the same. Sweet dreams, Babe.”

“You too, Kian. Good night.”

The next few days were quite boring, but Kian comes home in a little over a week and I’m so happy! I had been trying to reach him for the last few hours now, but he wasn’t picking up. I finally gave up on him and tried calling JC, but it was too loud to hold a conversation. My last resort was Vitaly who evidently was asleep and didn’t know anything.

I realized that this was the first night Kian hadn’t called me and I got a sort of uneasy feeling in my stomach. I quickly shook it off and decided to go to bed. 

It was about 7:15 am when I was woken up by the constant vibration of my phone. After about 2 solid minutes, I groggily turn over and check what it is. I see that it is a bunch of Twitter notifications and I decided to open them. I see an assload of pictures of Jc with some random girl wither ass out, but that’s when I see it.

“What the fuck?” I say to myself as I read the tweets. I feel my heart drop as I see my boyfriend cradling another girl’s ass. I immediately decide to call him and of course it goes straight to voicemail. 

Over the course of the next 9 days, I didn’t leave the house. Ricky and Callie came over to keep me company, but I just wanted to be alone. Kian tried calling every 5 minutes, except when he was on stage, but I ignored all of them. Even the rest of the boys were trying to contact me, but I only talked to Vitally since he wasn’t there that night. He tried to get me to talk about it, but knowing that he would relay it all to Kian, I just changed the subject. 

So many people were talking about what happened, even Kian’s ex Andrea. All I could do at this point is cry and look at old photos of Kian and I. 

Kian comes back tomorrow and I had to make a hasty decision. I was in the middle of my thoughts when my phone vibrated over and over again. I thought I shut that fucker off. I go look at it and I see it is the man of the hour once again.

I can’t help but smile a little bit as I cry even harder now. Is it worth letting go? Is it worth staying? Then he said it. 

Those words made my decision so much easier.

me, aged 11: im not getting crushes on boys like my friends started to have, i must be a late bloomer, haha!!

me, aged 12: maybe i like girls a bit?? but not like in a gay way!!!! its totally platonic im still str8

me, aged 13: so im just gonna pick the popular guy every girl likes and have a crush on him…. man i feel rly uncomfortable around him and so sick to my stomach im actually gonna vomit. (do i have to want to kiss him?? ew sounds gross) HAHA Those Butterflies™ when you have a crush, amiright

me, aged 14: i dont need a boyfriend, im a feminist!!! i like the idea of romance tho…… theory i guess??

me, aged 15: ok… like maybe im a lil bit bi??? not that ill ever come out since im probably gonna end up with a guy anyway, ugh

me, aged 16: attracted to ppl regardless of gender. that must be it!! thats why being with a man doesnt sound appealing–its supposed to be regardless of gender! im so pan!!! wow

me, aged 17: ew, i really hate the idea of being with a man. like,,, literally disgusted. so naturally, if im not attracted to men i must be ace!! thats it

me, aged 18: ok since i got that crush on that cute girl last week, i might not be ace after all????? idk im just gonna call myself queer until o figure things out. but im obviously not a lesbian HAHA imagine that

me, aged 19: hmmm sapphic seems like such a nice term. i mean i do like girls so i think this might fit me. lesbian who tho???

now, me, a lesbian, aged 20: ……..took me long enough

anonymous asked:

Leak your recipes pls I live on my own and I'm pretty sure I'm dying of malnutrition because I survive on coffee and cliff bars



It’s funny that you say that because I’m actually in the process of compiling all of my recipes and pictures and uploading them to a blog on like blogspot or whatever. 

Not just recipes but tips on how to shop smart and budget-friendly. Ever since I had a kid I budget my food spending like crazy but we still need to eat well. I spend less than $100/week at the grocery store for 3 people, 3 meals a day plus the other household necessities. 

Almost everything I made is from scratch with fresh ingredients. It takes a bit more time to prepare but it’s so worth it and it tastes SO MUCH BETTER. 

BUT–I also have a shit ton of recipes for like…crock pots that use 3-4 ingredients and can feed you for 3 days. So if you’re busy a lot and have like…no money, these are AMAZING and TASTY. Just throw the stuff in the pot before going to school or work and you come home and eat. 

Just a few random recipes and pictures of what I have made recently are 

Tonkatsu with homemade Tonkatsu sauce (freshly ground roasted white sesame seeds added) and Gyoza

Pho (this is all from scratch, DELICIOUS. I MADE IT LIKE 3 DAYS IN A ROW BECAUSE IM OBSESSED) ((I had a way better pic but I cant find it boo)) 

Tofu and Wakame Miso Soup (I make this from scratch every morning for breakfast. It’s INSANELY HEALTHY for you. And it takes less than 30 minutes as long as you make your Dashi stock in bulk on like Sunday and use that–the stock lasts for a week in the fridge) 

R A M E N with Braised Pork Belly (okay this recipe is NOT EASY. It took me 19 hours to make. But it is my husbands favorite dish of all time that I make so I do it on special occasions or when I feel like not sleeping and watching the stove all damn night and day haha) 

Thai Meatballs in cabbage boats with Sriracha Mayo 

Mongolian Beef (bruhhh love this one) 

Roasted Lemon Chicken Thighs with Asparagus and Baby Red Potatoes


I also cook some….not so healthy but damn delicious food too such as

Copycat In-N-Out Burgers (the sauce is DIIVINE also sorry for the messy plate lol and if you don’t know what In-N-Out is…its sooo good im sorry you’ve never had it but now you can)

PIZZAAAA (okay but for real fuck Dominos and everything, it’s sooo expensive, and frozen pizzas tend to taste like garbage. With a homemade sauce and dough ((SHIT YOU CAN EVEN MAKE YOUR OWN MOZZARELLA USING JUST A GALLON OF MILK)) you can have delicious customized pizza for wayyy less money. Add whatever toppings you want! 

Mini Pineapple Upside Down Cupcakes! (I actually had Buzzfeed really like this recipe and post of mine online! These are seriously moist as HECK and you’ll probably eat them all in one sitting I swear) 


ANYWAY I LOVE TO COOK. I have soooo many more recipes than this. My husband pressures me like every day to open up a food truck or something lmao, but nah. I just like to cook for the people I love in my own home. 

If you guys are interested in good food recipes and ways to save a ton of money in the grocery store then I can post a link for my food blog once I have it up and running!!!! 

I’m really passionate about young people and really everyone in general finding ways to cook more. It’s taken me years to gain all of the knowledge I have on shopping smart and knowing how to spend what little money I have the RIGHT way so I’m not wasting food and eating garbage. I would love to share it with as many people as I can.  

Party Like A Stark

Originally posted by yesilliniz

Peter Parker x Stark Reader

Part (5/6)

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4  Part 6

Summary: Your 19th birthday party was a memorable one and maybe the best one yet.  One of the best things that came out of the party was Peter.  There’s definitely something budding between the two of you, but will it last?

Warnings: just some cursing!


AN: Hey friends! I know this is being posted late, it literally took me hours to write this chapter! Also don’t think I don’t like Zendaya’s character after reading this! I just thought it could work! also The actor or Ned, Jacob, is Filipino, and I’m filipina so I wanted to kinda to make his birthday party accurate to how it would be in real life haha anyway sorry for the long wait! I hope it was worth it!!

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So last week I took my ass to Harry Potter world and when you go into olivander’s (the wand shop plebs) they crowd everybody into this little room with an actor that carries out an example wand ceremony–this is because they couldn’t feasibly do it for everyone individually I would imagine

Right so I’m in here and this lady prowls the room going ‘I sense a great power here’ and my astral ass is like ‘haha it’s probably me given I’m an actual witch good joke self’

Meanwhile my friend standing to my right is like 'haha it’d be funny if it was Dusken since she’s an actual witch and all’

Actor lady about faces. Points in my direction. 'It’s you!’

My ass was dead inside. GOOD JOKE ASTRAL!!!

Anyway that was how I went through with the entire wand ceremony at Harry Potter world trying desperately to conceal don’t feel while my witchy friend laughed to herself and took burst photos. The end.


I was looking at some photos on my computer and I found two drawings that I gave away and didn’t remember I actually took a photo of them xD Janna was a gift for a friend who I play League daily so I sent him this (he knew about the drawing of Janna but never showed him a picture on how it looked I want it to be a surprise and well he likes surprises xD, but it took like two weeks to arrive aaaahhhh I was scared that it would get lost TwT) and Karma was a birthday gift for my cousin =w=

And some pics of other stuff, when I was working on my pic for BM Jhin and Kayn. Pool party Xayah, I remember that I re-draw it digitally because I changed some things in the concept but haha never finish them. The last one I drew when my mom was watching Club de Cuervos/Club of Crows

i am!! extremely tired

so i was doing tank maintenance and i thought to myself, hey, you know whats a good idea, filter maintenance too. time to pull em off and squeeze out the sponges and make sure everythings running ok.

filter 1 went ok except for the fact that the impeller decided to make a horriffic grinding noise when i put everything back together and that lasted about five minutes but now im guessing that the issue was that it was priming itself and there was too much air in the water/intake.

filter 2 was. haha hahahah haaahaha.

okay so i took it apart like normal, shook out the media, squeezed the sponge, and then bc like a dumdum i had put loose media in the intake chamber to help it seed (bc id just gotten it like a week ago) i took the motor/impeller housing off and dumped out all of the loose media into a baggie. did maintenance like normal after that, put the motor back on, climbed behind the tank to pop it back on, plugged it in, annnnnnd

oh dear, the front of my tank seems to be gushing water! well thats not good.

immediately im like FUCK i bet the centre brace snapped or broke or something or there was a hairline crack in the bottom of the tank and draining it + filling it again fucked with the pressure so it widened and now my tank is leaking! fuck me running, of course.

so i panic, start draining the entire tank, move all of my fish into a MUCH smaller tank, pop one filter on the much smaller tank, and pop the other filter on my other small tank just to keep the media cycled and not dead.

well, when i plug filter number 2 in, i had it set on the smaller tank so that the back of the filter was facing me, instead of the wall, and immediately upon plugging it in, i see water just pouring out of the impeller/motor housing and im like FUCK



And i didn’t realise it bc i am a fucknut, and the back of my tank is painted black so i couldn’t see it leaking! so i fuckin moved ALL OF MY FISH, most of my plants, uprooted a bunch of deco, and all bc i didnt check my filter impeller/motor housing before putting it back on the fucking god blessed tank.

so now 55 gallons worth of fish are crammed into a 13 gallon tank with an EXCESSIVELY large filter on it, and im not sure if i should move them back tonight or do it tomorrow when it’s light outside and theyve had a chance to chill from being so rudely relocated.

so to summarise: both filters are now working properly, one back on the 55 and the other on the 13 (that’s an aquaclear 110 on a 13 gallon tank, folks) and nothing is leaking, the plants have been replanted, the 55 got a FUCKHUGE water change, I’m very tired, there’s water everywhere, i’m covered in mud and duckweed, and fishkeeping is a hobby for masochists.


Chance the Real Estate Agent… Again

Boy I tell ya, this post is bout late as hell haha. 

A couple weeks ago, @kinleyskindalove asked me to help her find a new place in NY and of course, I took the job. Last week, we met up and went to see the ones my guys found that fit her description. The trip was pretty productive and she found a place she liked so I guess I did my job haha. Now onto the next steps to get her into dream spot.

day 6/365

to be honest, I feel like I’ve improved quite a bit in the last (almost) week

the faces are more symmetrical, I’m capturing the feel quite a bit better, and it’s taking a lot less time to finish one sketch

however, I still feel like it’s a game of chance, I have like a ¼ chance of drawing a successful sketch

but yeah.

idk why but it’s incredibly hard to find a reference photo of jungkook. not sure why. that’s why it took me so long to finally draw him haha.

63. Your Eyes Girl


I’m VERY sorry that it took me so long to write the next chapter but I was very busy in the last weeks. Originally the chapter was much longer but I decided to split it into two chapter so I will post the next chapter in the next days - hopefully, if I find time to finish it. 
These two next chapters are very special. I already have them in mind for months haha. So finally I can post the first part! 
I really hope you like it!
Thank you for reading <3 


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Due Date has come and gone…

Got excited yesterday around noon as I had what I thought was bloody show… turns out it can happen days before labour even starts. 😩

Took a shower and grabbed all the small knock knacks left to pack and then nothing.. all cramping stopped, no more show, discharge slowed and I basically had given up.

Last night no cramping returned. Ball exercises didn’t bring about anything like they normally would etc.

This girl is stubborn haha

Midwife apt tomorrow, will def not chicken out and get checked. Have tailbone pain so I’m hoping the little cramping I have is at least dilating me.

SARIC UPDATE: today was quite different. part of our project is to conduct a poll using a random sample of strangers so we went to the mall and asked a bunch of random people questions about alcohol and stuff. im more of an introvert so i was not excited about it but eric is very charismatic so he kinda took over which was nice of him:) after about an hour of harassing innocent shoppers, we got dinner in the food court and just talked again for a long time. he didn’t say anything about the events of last week (about asking if i like him and saying he liked me) so im not sure if it was just an innocent thing or like some weird boy strategy thats supposed to freak me the hell out haha. the best part though was the ride home. i crashed my car a couple weeks ago so eric offered to take me home and spare me the embarrassment of being picked up by my dad. so we get in the car, he hands me his cd book thing and says i can pick one and that is when i found absolute confirmation that we are freaking meant for each other. he loves the beach boys. i love the beach boys. we spent 20 min in the car singing surfin usa and fun fun fun. it was quite possibly one of the top 10 best moments of my life haha. and then when he dropped me off he said “tell your dad i say hi” which idk why but i thought was totally awesome. another successful saric day:)

(P.S., next weeks update will be on saturday cuz i have plans next friday)

Zutara Week 2016: Dragons

Sorry mine is so late! I’ve been pretty unwell lately and also I felt guilty if I took too long to queue things for @zutaraweek so I neglected my own submissions haha. Also I haven’t worked digitally in such a long time! Took me forever to get use to it again.

For inspiration I chose this Zutara Week fanfiction by @liv-like-liv!

Tonight I’ll be looking for someone’s Reincarnation piece to work from. Let me know if you read any amazing ones! I already have a few in mind. c:

Did I reply to everyone? I’m so, so sorry if I missed anyone - I WAS NOT EXPECTING ANY OF THIS?? Like, I’m legitimately so touched by everyone’s warmness and kindness. I can’t believe it… I can’t believe people took time to wish me happy birthday or even make something for me??

This is especially touching since due to a typhoon/ storm I couldn’t leave the house, but even if I could I don’t have many friends in this place. ^^’ There’s not many people my age, and there’s a language barrier and, most importantly, I’m an introverted anti-social fuck – so checking tumblr to find all these kind messages legit almost brought tears to my eyes. I feel so SO lucky to be part of such a warm, friendly and caring fandom. I’m really, really happy people like my translations and I want to work hard from now on too to translate as many things as I can find.

I can’t find the Japanese source, but it seems Inazuma Ares is aiming for a global launch – I’m not sure what that means. Perhaps the subs will be available at the same time. So it means I won’t be helping to sub Ares – but if there’s anything else, like special events or magazine articles or events – I will definitely try my best to translate them! As for the requests people made that I haven’t posted yet – I’m so sorry I’m taking a long time but I will post something for everyone’s request eventually!

I have so much admiration for so many users on tumblr who are talented at drawing/ writing/ making fun headcanons/ graphics – but one thing I particularly admire is EVERYONE IS SO GOOD AT ENGLISH?? Like, it’s happened so many times that I think I’m talking to a native English speaker… And they’re like… Nah, my English is bad, sorry. NO!! Don’t say that… I feel really lucky as a native English speaker that English is one of the main languages of the tumblr IE fandom – I realize that’s a privilege for me. And I realize most resources for learning Japanese – including this blog – work through English. SO THANK YOU FOR COMMUNICATING WITH ME THROUGH A SECOND LANGUAGE!! I’m really, really grateful.

I’m sorry this message is all over the place! Thank you for all the birthday wishes! AND THANK YOU FOR ALL THE KIRINO!! I’M DROWNING IN SWEET KIRINO GOODNESS!! THERE’S SO MUCH PINK!! THERE’S SO, SO MUCH KIRINO!!


Here we go again. I decided to do the election at the same time as voltage did. Why ? Because I want to. (Also because it’s really hot outside so I’m not going out and I have a lot of time. Aaaand do you see all these boys that took me an eternity to do all the poster so before they add more dude … haha whatever it’s more logical to do it at the same time that voltage did, I think.) Anyway the deadline is in a month so the 08/07/2014. Voltage give two week and half I think it’s too short so I rather make this last one month.

Like last year you have to reblog or like or both to vote for your favorite boy. You can reblog more than one dude and also reblog more than one time. Just try to be fair and not reblog like a hundred time, I will not slap the shit out of you if you do but let’s just be fair here. Just click on the boy you want to vote below it will redirect you to the post (I will add all the link after I post all the poster, that will take some time tough).

This year we have 106 candidats. If I forgot someone tell me. and if Voltage realese new story before the deadline I will add them.


- Hayden Spencer

- Kuon Casiraghi

- Sieg Lieben


- Hiroshi Kirisawa

- Kazusa Hanai

- Yutaka Tennoji

- Tadanobu Nomura


- Masaomi Hibiya

- Izumi Takasaki

- Shinobu Narita

- Jinpachi Yushima


- Eisuke Ichinomiya

- Soryu Oh

- Mitsunari Baba

- Ota Kisaki

- Mamoru Kishi


- Minato Okouchi

- Kaoru Kirishima

- Shusei Hayakawa

- Chiaki Yuasa

- Akiyoshi Zaizen


- Yasuto Kanzaki

- Taketo Kanzaki

- Kanji Okumiya

- Homare Midorikawa

- Nagisa Ichinose


- Haruki Tanemura

- Ryuzo Hatta

- Ichigo Sato

- Takeshi Yuno

- Rihito Hatsune

- Johji Chakura


- Issei Sezaki

- Junpei Miyashita

- Soichiro Irie

- Kyosuke Narumi


- Kakeru Kamui

- Tsubasa Shirai

- Rein Isaka

- Meguru Kamui

- Shiki Kurobane

- Satoru Kamagari

- Haruhito Amano


- Toranosuke Hajime

- Ryoma Shirasagi

- Tamatsu Goda

- Shingo Kai

- Koji Nagumo

- Junya Sakurazawa

- Shota Kurumi


- Lute

- Haku

- Ken

- Shion

- Gaia


- Wilfred A. Spencer

- Keith Alford

- Roberto Button

- Glenn J. Casiraghi

- Joshua Lieben

- Edward Levaincois

- Zain


- Yamato Kougami

- Takamasa Saeki

- Ren Shibasaki

- Takao Maruyama

- Yuta Kajima

- Kunihiko Aikawa

- Kyoichi Kunishiro

- Haruka Utsunomiya


- Takuto Hirukawa

- Kenshi Inagaki

- Hiro Sarashina

- Riki Yanase

- Atsumu Kashiwabara

- Tatsuro Togoshi


- Genji Higashiyama

- Shohei Aiba

- Kiyoto Makimura

- Kippei Ebihara

- Ritsu Moriyama

- Soji Higashiyama

- Ginnosuke Oguri

- Koichi Natsukawa


- Russell

- Eduardo

- Christopher

- Nathan

- Thomas

- Morgan

- Alan

- Leonardo


- Yuzuki Kitaoji

- Ryoichi Hirose

- Noel Aijima

- Chihaya Koda

- Mirai Kageyama

- Satsuki Kitaoji


- Subaru Ichiyanagi

- Kaiji Akizuki

- Sora Hirosue

- Mizuki Fujisaki

- Daichi Katsuragi

- Hideki Ishigami

- Seiji Goto

- Toru Kurosawa

So… first actual ‘art’ post in a while but it’s a personal gift sorta. Happy BELATED birthday to the cool @stirpicus (I’m sorry!). I just had to.

Thank you for all you’ve done for MCSM. Thank you for noticing us fans on Tumblr and appreciating all the silly things we come up with. Thank you for being a cool bean when we get weird sometimes. Thank you for liking us. 

Please have a great weekend/week. We look forward to the last two episodes!

Awkwardly Personal Update Lol

Okay so everyone and their personal trainer is asking me about my weight lately haha. Some people have gotten used to me being a bit thinner than I used to but some are still surprised by it so I wanna update y'all on my progress haha. Last year some of you know I had bad anxiety in the beginning of the year and it caused strong appetite loss and vomiting periodically, like a few times a week whenever I had an anxiety attack. I didn’t even know what anxiety was until the beginning of last year, I had never experienced it. It took me a while to put it together but I realized it was all triggered by dating/hanging out with guys/feeling like anyone was trying to get close with me romantically/feeling like someone I had feelings for might abandon me, just to lay it all out there haha. Let’s just get REAL personal for a hot minute. It was really bad throughout January/February. In March I let go of this reckless guy I was talking to who was making me so anxious and things got better for a while. I had lost 10 pounds through this experience but gained it back by July. August-December I started boxing about 3 times a week, eating really healthy and gained a lot of muscle, I was in the best shape of my life. Then around Christmas time I started dating someone else and the anxiety came back, I guess I’ve been so closed off my whole life it’s just really hard for me to open my heart like that to people. I’ve managed to do it in friendships really well but romantically I had no experience for the longest time being emotionally close with someone so it just really takes a toll on me, the stress and fear. This time it was much better, I did lose my appetite for a few weeks on and off and still lost sleep and was worked up but first of all it was a much better situation with this guy so I wasn’t on an emotional roller coaster wondering if he liked me that day or not lol, second I only felt anxious about it for a few weeks and then it calmed down and I was able to just push through my fears and let him in. As time went by that fell apart and I realized it wasn’t as perfect as I thought, I’m definitely happier and a lot less stressed now but I’m still so glad I had that experience and got to see myself actually get close with someone and not burst into flames haha. Anyway those few weeks I lost probably five pounds and was back down to my lowest weight which wasn’t good but I didn’t dip below that and eventually came back up a bit and maintained there for a long time and that’s where I’m at now. I’m about 126 lbs, I used to be 132 and then when I lost weight I was 122. I also stopped the high carb vegan thing, though I do still eat a lot of fruit/raw foods whenever I can, because I was developing a protein deficiency as I found out recently, thank you Christina haha. I was constantly tired, I got sick for two months straight and couldn’t recover, my hair was starting to thin a bit and I lost SO much muscle. Mainly from the appetite loss but that’s also what caused my protein deficiency. I know you can get protein through vegan foods too lol but I chose to start eating meat again because it’s just a lot easier for me to maintain my weight and muscle that way. Respect to all my vegan and vegetarian followers tho lol. Anyway I recently went to counseling and the therapist told me the cure for my particular anxiety is exposure, which I kinda already realized but she helped me put it together how each time I date someone new and open my heart it’s a lot less stressful than the time before. Like I’m talking to someone right now and I was anxious about it for two weeks and then it subsided completely yaaayyyyy. No, I still have not had a boyfriend haha haven’t made it official with anyone but I’ve actually met people I would consider for that title which is huge cuz before I LITERALLY had not met anyone I would consider being in a relationship with before last year. So that’s cool!!! Haha oh and also, I had my first kiss. Last summer. Didn’t wanna tell everyone cuz I was really disappointed in myself, it was a bad situation and this guy was AWFUL. So short lived, so pointless, so numb. I was planning to save it for my wedding day and I still think that would’ve been so cool and beautiful but oh well, life goes on. I’m strongly considering restarting on that path because I know it’s never too late to restart and you’re not ruined if you made a bad choice, no matter how tiny or huge. Last summer I was in a really stressful, hopeless, dark, fearful place and I guess I just felt like nothing about me mattered so I might as well throw it away. I wrote a song about it called The Love Of A Man which you guys will eventually get to hear but yeah, that song is legit the only good thing that came out of that experience. There wasn’t some positive message, I didn’t learn about myself except what I already knew which was that I don’t want meaningless interactions with people I am not even close with. But I already knew that and I wish I didn’t have to confirm it the hard way. If you’re on the path to saving yourself for marriage, especially your first kiss, STICK WITH IT. It’s so beautiful and so meaningful. If you’re not, that’s you’re choice and no judgement here but I’ve learned that’s definitely not a path for me. So anyway yeah. That’s a huge extremely personal update on my life hahahahahaha hope you enjoyed 😂