141103 Gimpo: Bangtan Fansign FA
The thing I’ve learned over the past few years of fangirling here, is that for the optimal fansign experience, there has to be just the right amount of nerves going into it. If you’re too nervous you forget everything you want to say, you start sweating and shaking and, in extreme cases, there can be tears. You definitely don’t want to be overwhelmed, but you also don’t want to have the opposite happen. If you’re not nervous at all, best case is you just end up talking to them like normal and the worst case there’s just awkward silence filling the precious time 30 seconds or so that you have to talk to them. It makes for a bit of an underwhelming fansign, and you can come out of it feeling pretty regretful. Or at least, that has been my experience. The previous fansign I went to for bangtan (Bundang), was the latter described type and had I known at the time, it would be my last time meeting them for a month I wouldn’t have been so casual.
The result was the day of the Gimpo fansign I’d worked myself into a nervous frenzy of caffeine fueled panic. It’d been a month since the unsatisfying Bundang fansign, my Korean is feeling rusty as hell so I was worried about even being able to communicate properly with them, and god I really didn’t want a repeat of Bundang. Now that I’ve kind of actually settled on a favorite member (well… favorites), I was even more worried about how it would go with him because… KIM TAEHYUNG OKAY. he’s a capricious creature you see, you never know what he’s going to be like and he made me fall for him so fast. Before he pulled the whole “Kat, I love you! You’re my favorite” stuff I didn’t really mind if I messed up with one or two members because of mental overload, or whatever, but now there’s a pressure to do well with him and I know I’d be disappointed if he suddenly was cold towards me and- wow this fansign ALREADY HAPPENED AND IM STILL FREAKING MYSELF OUT ABOUT IT.
I should also mention that I got into a B1A4 fansign for Tony Moly (a cosmetics store) for 3pm the same day that I’d kind of just entered for fun (it was 500 people, you entered by buying a special mask product B1A4 is endorsing, and spending a minimum of 30 dollars and I needed new makeup anyway). So I had drunk a huge cup of coffee, met freakin SANDEUL (who by the way, was lovely and wow it was a really quick thing, but still enough to make me giddy as hell), had MORE coffee as I sat with my new friends I’d met because of the fansign, and by the time I came home to gather my things for the Gimpo fansign you can imagine, i was like a coke bottle a 12 year old boy had maliciously shaken for 10 minutes straight and i still had 3 hours until the fansign. I’m making myself nervous just thinking about it that’s how bad it was. I’m just glad I wrote my post-its and letter to Taehyung the day before.
Two of my friends had also got into the fansign so before it started we spent time chatting, which didn’t entirely help my nerves, but don’t worry, I didn’t actually screw this fansign up all that badly which has to be some kind of miracle. I was number 63, which put me in the 3rd row of the seats, and 1/3 into the fansign and Hana so happened to end up with only one person between us by the time we went up haha it was kind of fun. When the boys came out I saw they were wearing their MV outfits and I might have had a slight panic attack and had to tell myself very firmly to BREATHE because um, did you know jeongguk doesn’t wear anything under that sweater? and wow Jimin’s outfit looks so unbelievably good on him. I’m so into the Hormone War concept it pains me. Anyway, enough about me what am I even doing right now I should be talking about Bangtan!
They were all in pretty good moods when they came out. Taehyung ended up leading their greeting haha, its so funny when he does that because everyone including the members gets so thrown off. It was kind of quiet after the initial cheer when they came out because everyone was taking pictures so they started passing the mic around and getting us to say “fighting!” back at them. Then Hoseok decided they should show us some aegyo, got jimin to participate and they both /tried/ to get yoongi to but he wasnt really having it haha. Taehyung told us not to catch colds, and Yoongi said he’s sick right now. Poor guy, he was coughing a lot throughout the whole fansign, and his nose was a bit red and while red nosed red haired Min Yoongi was really cute, I hope he gets better soon. Hoseok was next to him and seemed a bit sniffly too, and we all know how easily he gets sick. They kept telling us not to catch colds but everyone was like UH YEAH YOU MORE THO -_-. Anyway, lets get to the part where I didn’t entirely make a huge ass out of myself in front of BTS.
Namjoon was first in the order, and naturally, I had to ask for my name poem. But before that I said hi, and I could see him kind of putting together who I was. He asked me if I was at simple kpop a lot, which I guess he just associates with foreign fans but I could go that day due to uh… conflicting schedules (hides), so I just told him I do go a lot, but I wasn’t there today. He always acts like he remembers my name, but I’m never sure if he really does. He looked at me for a moment and suddenly went, “you… you took your glasses off! Yeah I see you a lot! You look much better without your glasses on, much better.” LMAO… I usually wear my glasses to recordings though bc im too lazy to put in contacts and now im really self conscious haaaa… Namjoon… I think he was just trying to compliment me, but I was really ??? haha, he looked at my post-it and laughed and said he’d give it another shot. I told him I really enjoyed them and he obliged me with this gem hahaha: Kat, Another Trill lady. As I was leaving I told him I really liked his hair, the colors all suited him well and out of curiosity I asked which was his favorite. first he said blue, and after I agreed that it was nice, he changed his mind and was like actually… I like the purple! or… I don’t know haha. It was cute he was really thinking about it. (Ah but I have a confession to make. I might have written LTNS on my post-it, as a joke… which he then said to Hana, which leads me to believe I might have perpetuated his misguided thinking that LTNS is a thing /hides…. IM SORRY EVERYONE IM SORRY NAMJOON HAHAHAA T^T)
Namjoon kind of calmed my nerves a little, but nothing really prepares a person for Jeon Jeongguk. I had a note prepared from my friend who had to go back to Japan and I asked him to write her a message and while he was doing that I pretty much just stared at the holes in his sweater and hid my face behind my hands because my nervous face twitch was hitting full force (please tell me I’m not the only one who gets shaky face muscles when they’re nervous OTL). He drew a heart by my name but he also possibly wrote Kate… there’s a suspicious mark after the ’t’ that mystifies me lol. He was muttering something about hair at one point after he wrote my name like I changed it or something? When I was moving on to Jin though he said kept saying 신기해 and I was like what’s so 신기하다? and he was like O_O you are! what. Jeon I’ve met you like 10 times why am I such a novel thing now? Strange child…
Jin can be really easy to talk to. And sometimes things happen. Things like Jin. Jin reaching for my album, and causing THE GIANT HOLE IN HIS SHIRT TO EXPOSE FAR TOO MUCH OF HIS MIDRIFF A MERE FOOT AWAY FROM ME and sorry but how can I not stare at that. I couldn’t fucking look him in the eye, I could barely fucking speak I was so /oh my god Jin’s body/ mental breakdowning… Its a good thing I had a nice simple post-it note question for him: recommend a song you enjoy these days. He told me to listen to Mate’s Play. and looked pleased when I said I’d not listened to it yet. He was like, right, you don’t know it! So I told him I’d listen to it before the next fansign, and we smiled and by the time I moved on to Taehyung I’d fully recovered from the stress of Jeongguk and the shock of Jin’s strategically scandelous shirt.
Just in time for Taehyung. Oh Taehyung. So I kind of waited for him to look up at me before I started talking because he was looking down at my album even as he was asking my name. When I said Kat though he looked up and smiled and said “oh kat!” and I asked him how he was and that it had been a while, right? and he agreed and said that he’s seen me before. So I said well yes, at fansigns right? and he said “no, no I mean I see you at recordings a lot!” and truthfully some other things might have been said but its all kind of blur. I asked him to write my name on my polaroid since I had gotten his and he did, and then I passed him my present. Which he tried to peek into and then he actually asked me what was in it, so i told him a tshirt and a sweater and a scarf and while he was kind of looking in I did the super gross flirty thing my friend told me I should do.
me: 태형아! 얼굴에 김이 묻혀 있어!
taehyung: [nods unamused] 알아요 잘생김…
me: 아니! 내꺼같이 생김 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
and taehyung made the stankiest stank face at me lmaoooo i think he was kind of amused but also like this joke is soooo lame. whatever kim taehyung, I tried to joke with you in Korean be amazed at my amazingly decent delivery okay. I told him I’d see him on thursday on the boat and moved on to Jimin.
Jimin is always nice, but never /super/ enthusiastic when it comes to me. Honestly I think he’s just a little reserved when it comes to foriegners. My post-it to him said that I missed him and the hormone war concept fit him really well and when i see him on stage I get short of breath haha, he preened a little at that and seemed pleased. my question for him was about what flower he liked the most. He wrote it in korean and I wasn’t sure what kind of flower it was so I told him I’d look it up and complete with adorable typing gestures he goes in English “Searching! Searching!” smiling his 100000watt smile at me and I just nodded helplessly and smiled back. i told him he looked really really good (because good lord he did. his shirt was all unbuttoned and his chest is so nice and smooth and he was wearing a nice necklace and I just am always struck by how small his body is when I see him in person) and he thanked me and I felt pretty good about the whole thing. Oh and he wrote Kat누나 T^T Later, I looked up 민들레 and found out it was dandelion and I’m amazed at how well it fits Jimin. Of course he likes dandelions. Now all I can think about is him in his hormone war outfit, hair all mussed holding a bunch of dandelions, maybe blowing on a fluffy white one… its so perfect. I wish I wasn’t horribly out of practice with my art. I want to draw it so badly i can PICTURE IT so well.
Hoseok was next, and since he’d been coughing a little too, I told him he should be careful of catching a cold and in English he said “Im sick! Im sick!” and rubbed his nose. and I was like uuhhmm well get better soon! He wrote my name with his customary tilde and two hearts and then read the post it, which was asking what his morning alarm was, and while his answer wasn’t super interesting (the default iphone alarm) his imitation of it was really cute haha.
Yoongi was last and for once i actually was still mentally there enough to talk to him. I told him i hoped he felt better soon and he smiled and said thank you. my question was what color should I dye my hair since Yoongi is really good with paying attention to details and he has a good eye, but he told me black. I was like are you sure?? isn’t that a bit extreme? Black is pretty instense. He was like why? No I think you should do it! and i was like okay, i’ll think about it. And he asked me if I was going to do it before the next fansign so I said yeah i’ll show him on thursday and that was it.
So it pretty much went as well as it could be expected to go considering how hyped up i was haha. I hope that taehyung asking about the gift meant he was going to keep an eye out for it and actually maybe… maybe wear it somewhere? sob, I know I’m getting my hopes up but who knows. I’m still not over the Jimin ad dandelions thing. I asked him because I know he really likes flowers, he’s always really cute when people give them to him, I love the way he looks at them, its really special I don’t really know how to describe it. I wasn’t expecting his chosen flower to /fit/ him that well though. I hadnt really thought about it, but the minute I found out it just clicked. I forgot to ask any of them aobut Mexico so I’m kind of headdesking about that… I could have saved my awkward time with Jeongguk where I didn’t say anything by asking about mexico… oops… I think I was still shaking too much at that point anyway though. I’ll have to follow up well with all of them at the boat fansign on thursday. and dye my hair! haha… I’m not going to go all black, but I’m going to do it darker.
The rest of the fansign was pretty relaxed. Jimin was in a great mood, making cute faces at the audience, singing a long, harmonizing with the songs from the album playing in the background. him and taehyung were being especially cute with eachother. At one point Jimin had the mic and started talking about how since they were trainees he and taehyung have been close doing everything together and taehyung grabbed the mic and started talking next… they’re really something. Jimin also asked us if we liked hormone war promos… and his butt HAHAHA. Hoseok did his fair share of flirting with the crowd as usual.
The lighting was really bad, and they’d hung the banner from the front curtain rod of the stage (we were in a typical theater set up with them on the stage) so when they came forward for picture time, everyone yelled at them to move back bc their faces were in shadow they were like???? ohhhhh… it was pretty cute.I’m sure I’m forgetting a lot of cute things they did during the fansigning so I’m sorry about that, but luckily there’s another one in two days and we can do it all over again haha yay!
Hopefully Taehyung actually likes the presents i gave him and he wears them… we’ll see. tomorrow will be a busy day. I have to get him another present, get my hair cut/colored, try to make my jimin dandelion picture, prepare post-its again and try not to lose my chill. Cos next time we meet… we’re gonna be on a boat!