48/ “As your friend, I’m telling you what I see. It’s not healthy.”
Pairing: Jin x Reader
Words count : will add later
Saturday night. You should be cuddling with your boyfriend right now but instead you were clubbing with your bestfriend, Soo Yeon. It’s been months since Jin and you cuddled. When he wasn’t on tour, or on promotions, or practicing for a comeback, he would spend the little time you had yelling at you for everything and anything. You kept telling yourself that you could handle it but now you weren’t so sure. His crazy schedule was ok, having little time to see him too. But the constant fights were tiring. You needed to think of something else and that’s why you went in that club but nothing could keep your mind of that relationship.
“That’s your fourth mojito,” said Soo Yeon.
“So something is bugging you and I have to know what so I can help you organize your mind,”
“It’s just Jin again, nothing I can’t handle. It will be ok.”
“You’re always saying that. What is going on this time ?”
You sighed. She wasn’t going to drop the subject. But you probably needed to talk and since you couldn’t do that with Jin you could put your bestfriend to use.
“He came back from tour yesterday and we had a fight.”
“About what ?”
“I told him he didn’t text that much and didn’t call at all while he was on tour and he went on how I didn’t understand how busy he was and that I was being clingy. I don’t want to be clingy or suffocating him but seems like I am so he ended up leaving. We were supposed to see each other tonight and I texted him to see if he still had time for that and he left me on read. ”
“And he is going to apologize in a week and do that again. It’s been on for months now. Why are you staying ? You keep getting hurt and he doesn’t look like he cares enough to make efforts. To fix things.”
“Do you think there’s someone else ?”
“I don’t know. I like to think that he isn’t this type of guy but I also used to think that he wasn’t that cold and hurtful. So I don’t know. And that’s the typical cheating behavior so it’s fishy. But even if he isn’t, he’s still no good to you, you should definitely break up and put your time and efforts in something worth it.”
“So you think that my relationship is failing ?”
“As your friend, I’m telling you what I see. It’s not healthy. And as your bestfriend I have to keep you healthy.”
“I know. It’s just that I want to understand what I did wrong, why he is doing this. I need answers so I can stop thinking of possible whys.”
“You’re not the one doing wrong here. He is. What you’re doing wrong is letting yourself in that kind of relationship where he’s ignoring you for weeks and when he finally sees you it’s to yell at you. You deserve better. Nothing he could tell you would excuse this behavior. He will probably say he’s been under so much stress these days like he always does, but yelling at you to relieve his stress is not what a boyfriend should do. He should talk to you about what’s stressing him, and cuddle it away.”
“I don’t want to lose him.”
“You don’t want to lose the person he used to be and the relationship you used to have. But even if that person comes back, you will always wonder if and when it will happen again. Those months will always be there.”
And her words were all you could think about while laying in your bed that night. This relationship was tiring and hurting you. And for nothing. You weren’t getting anything out of it, kisses, cuddles, hugs were long gone. The only thing you were getting were tears. Should you just have a break with him to see if it makes him understand that he was losing you? If it made him change, send texts in the morning and at nights, like he used to. Bring flowers and takeout on stressful days ? Or should you definitely break-up ? Erasing him from your life, going on dates ? And how were you going to annonce it to him, he was always ignoring your texts and calls. You would have to try texting him anyway. You needed to sleep. You would need energy in the morning.
Sunday Morning. You needed coffee. And courage. If he answered positively to your text to see him, it would just be a break, if he decided to ignore you then you would just break up.
To : Handsome Boyfriend ♥
Can I see you today ?
From : Handsome Boyfriend ♥
To : Handsome Boyfriend ♥
Since I can’t see you face-to-face to say that, since you’ve spend the last months ignoring me or being mad at me for no reasons, I have to do that by text. Seokjin, let’s break up.
From : Handsome Boyfriend ♥
“Ok”. That was all. That was the end of 3 years of relationship. Three years that probably ended months before for him. Was there someone else ? Did you do something ? Weren’t you enough ? Whyand when exactly did he stop being your person ? You spent your entire day thinking about it, eating junkfood, crying, watching crappy shows.
Monday morning. You woke up and went to college. Spent the evening at the library, putting your mind somewhere else. If he stopped loving you, you could too. You just had to stop thinking about him, put your mind somewhere else and then one day you would be used to think of anything but him and you would move on.
Two weeks after. Your mind was still focused on him at night. You would still cry. Still wonder how he moved on, why he stopped loving you. If there was someone else or if you just weren’t enough for him. But eventually you would move on. Even if you didn’t have the answers to that, right ? One day, you would move on.
A/N : OK THIS IS SHORT BUT THAT’S BECAUSE I WANT TO MAKE A SECOND PART AND I FELT LIKE IT WAS WHERE IT HAD TO END !!! (I wanted to make a cute ending where he comes to her and apologizes and says he loves her but I HAVE THE PERFECT ENDING IN MY HEAD (it will be short too I think, should I post it next week or in a while ??????) IN THIS ENDING SHE HAS ANSWERS !!!!!
See you next week (even if it’s not on wednesday because I’m always lazy),