too late at night to be doing this


(requested by anon)

Kai Parker x Reader
word count :
5 348
warning : smut
summary : (based on the song “Taking Back My Love” by Enrique Iglesias)
*gif by chris-woods
keep reading after the cut 😈🔥

Late night parties at the swimming hole were the last thing Kai had expected Y/N to do. It wasn’t like her. It also wasn’t like her to spend so much time at parties in general , specially around the boys. When he had found her that night , she had been standing on her arms , a guy holding a tube connected to a beerkeg directly into her mouth as she kept drinking. Everyone were cheering her on. Kai would’ve too only the group was made mostly of boys who were looking at her as if she was a piece of meat. It wasn’t helping much that she was wearing ripped light blue short shorts , her white top that had fallen down to her head and the laces of her favourite converses had been untied. Her hair wasn’t even pulled in a pony tale and Kai could hear with his vampire hearing every comment the guys made about her. A moment later she rolled backwards landing on her feet. Y/N wiped her mouth and her eyes fell on Kai , a wide smile spread across her face which quickly faded. He was looking at her as if he had no idea who she was. She raised her plastic cup to him and gulped it all at once. Kai wiped his face with his hand and in a few short angry steps he got to her , not carying about any of those guys he had pushed away , some of which had fallen on the ground.
“What do you think you are doing?” he asked trying to sound calm. “Late night parties ?! Come on , you are coming home with me.”
Y/N directly hooked his hands around his neck pulling him in for a kiss , he returned it for a few seconds and pushed her away.
“I missed you so much.” she beamed at him. “Did you miss me ?”
“OH you have no idea.” he muttered , grabbing her forearm and dragging her after him. As soon as they were away from the group , Kai grabbed her and whooshed them in vampire speed to his car. Damon and Stefan had mentioned that something was up with Y/N and she was acting out of control , but Kai hadn’t want to believe it at first. Seeing her acting the way she had a few moments ago only confirmed the Salvatore brother’s words. He had been away for a week to deal with unresolved family matters in Portland and apparently the fact he had been away had given her the freedom to do whatever the hell she wanted. Kai wondered if he should’ve left her alone to begin with. Specially after that email Damon sent him , which resulted in Kai coming back home earlier than expected.

“What was that about?” wondered Y/N as they walked into the house. Immidiately her hands hooked around Kai’s neck and her lips pressed against his.
“Nothing.” he said pushing her away a moment later , not returning the kiss.
Y/N felt hurt like never before. Kai always wanted to kiss her , in fact usually it was him chasing her around the house not letting her go anywhere before he had drowned her in kisses and had messed up her hair and make up to the point when she had to stay a little longer and be late to fix it all. Y/N followed him into the kitchen , seeing him open one of the cabinets and pulling out a bottle with bourbon. Kai poured himself almost an entire glass and drank all of it at once. Y/N leaned against the doorframe , folding her arms on her chest. He sighed and poured another. She took a few steps towards him gripping his wrist.
“You are going to tell me whats happening now. ” she said , taking the glass from his hands and placing it on the table. “Come on , Kai. We tell each other everything.”
He glanced at her and she felt her blood freeze in her veins. Her boyfriend was looking at her with a mix of hurt , anger and disgust in his eyes. It was a look she had never seen before and a her heart cracked.
“Do we ?” he asked. Even though his voice was calm , there was anger behind it. Like he was trying very hard not to start shouting at her. “What was that stunt tonight ? Is this what you have been up to the whole time while I was gone and all the nights you said you are ‘studying’ with classmates?!”
Y/N’s hands dropped to her sides. Her eyes met his , trying to understand where all of this was coming from. Not once he had snapped at her like that. His voice didn’t have a hint of the softness it usually had when he was talking to her.
“What ? No -”
“Don’t deny it Y/N.” he said taking a step towards her until their bodies were barely and inch apart. Kai towered over her and she found it hard to keep his gaze. His eyes were burning into hers. “Damon and Stefan told me everything. They were very explanatory too. It appears you have had a lot of fun while I was away. The fact you are refusing to meet my eyes now only confirms it.”
Y/N stood frozen on the spot. Stefan and Damon … when she got her hands on them things would get ugly. Whatever they had told Kai it was far from the truth. She had felt alone in the house without Kai and yes she had been partying a bit too hard but she’d never do anything more than just dance and hang around her friends. For her it was only Kai and no one else.
“Hold on. What are you accusing me of?” she asked confused. “That I was cheating ? Don’t you know me at all ?”
“I thought I did. Apparently not.” he snapped.
Y/N placed a hand on her forehead trying to figure things out.
“Yeah. Wow.” he said , taking his glass back and walking towards the door.
“Kai I -”
“You know what hurts the most ?” he said suddenly turning around. “That I trusted you. I loved you with all my heart and you - you betrayed everything we ever had.”
“I what?”
“Damon showed me pictures Y/N.” he said taking out his phone. “There I was , minding my business in Portland , getting ready to come home to you and surprise you when all of the sudden - BAM. I get an email with this picture attached to it.”
He turned his phone screen towards her showing her the photo. Damon had caught her and one of her friends in each other’s arms and from the angle it looked like they were kissing. He clearly had decided to play a joke on Kai.
“I’m going to kill him.” she hissed. “Kai its not what it looks like. He is taking things out of context. How can’t you see this ?! I love YOU. I’d never -”
“I see everything perfectly clearly , thank you very much.” he shouted. “You cheated on me. After everything we went through , all the grief your friends gave us about being together… Where is the warm , kind , loving person who made me want to be better ? All I see is this cold person in front of me who cares only about herself. You meant the world to me Y/N. We had such dreams of being together forever. I was going to turn you so we can have eternity with each other… but its all destroyed now.”
“I’m not cold.”
“Yes , you are. Stone cold and out of control.” he snapped back. “I’m done caring and loving you Y/N. I’m done.”
“What are you saying?” she asked quietly , dreading the answer.His emotions had completely taken over , blinding him.
“Its over. Whatever it was that we had , this entire lie that you turned my life into - it’s over.” said Kai through gritted teeth.
Y/N stared at him as if he was a stranger. He was ending things between them , she didn’t want to believe this was happening but it was. How can he believe DAMON over her? After everything they had been through.
“OH so you are just going to throw everything we had away ? Only because of a picture thats taken out of context ?! ” she shouted. Silence. “Fine then.” she said , raising her voice with every word. “Thank you for just proving to me you have never changed. You are the same monster you were before the merge. Blinded by your emotions , paranoid and afraid of rejection. God , how didn’t I see it before ? My friends were right. You should’ve done the world a favour and stayed in the 1903 Prison World. ”
Kai’s fist mashed the glass he was holding sending glass shards everywhere. Y/N scoffed and left the room , a moment later the half full bottle flew right past her and smacked in the front door.
“You missed.” she shouted , groaning in frustration a moment later.
“I wish I hadn’t.” shouted Kai , flashing in front of her.

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Hey, it’s me. You might not remember me but I was once your whole world then we drifted apart. I miss you, I hope you do too. You’ve been in my thoughts lately and I haven’t been sleeping. I know I haven’t crossed your mind at all and that’s okay, I just wanted to let you know that I’ve been hurting quite a lot. Hurting in your absence, your apathy, and your silence. Everything feels missing without you; conversations, early mornings, late nights, and myself. I no longer have someone to share pictures of the sunset or thoughts with. My mind keeps wandering and it’s exhausting me, I’m tired and I want it to stop. I want everything to stop. I want peace. I feel you everywhere and I see you in everything. Every stranger looks and sounds like you. I feel helpless.
I miss you. I’m sorry life got in our way. I hope you’re doing well.
—  a.o.k.
“write a letter to someone you haven’t been talking to.”

“Does she know how you feel about her?” His mom asked having joined them and moved them to the living room. She was curled up beside her husband on the couch.

Vincent shrugged from where he sat on the floor. “She told me from the start she wasn’t into relationships.”

“I think you’re missing something” Jillian persisted “she went out of her way to take care of you when you needed help.” She gave him a severe glare that said his drunken night out was going to come up again “she wanted to tell you something. I think it might be important and what you want to hear.”

“It’s too late” he whined “she’s in Monte Vista and I’m here. I’ll never know what it was.”

“Not with that attitude” she snapped “stop wallowing in self-pity and do something. If you want the girl figure something out.”

Figure something out. Easier said than done. He couldn’t just buy a plane ticket. He didn’t have the money and by the time he saved up enough school will have started. He could call but he couldn’t afford the long distance bill. Once again he could feel defeat pressing in around him.

anonymous asked:

Ain X reader x add. Thanks in advance :)

“Hey.  Add.  Can I ask you something?”

“Go away, Elbrat,” Add says automatically.  You huff.

“I’m not Elsword!”

“Oops.”  Add glances up at you, sighs, makes his frown a little less intense, and goes back to his work.  “What do you want?”

“Ain’s not letting me out of the inn,” you tell him.  “He says it’s too late at night for me to be wandering around.  Can you believe him?”

“He is overprotective,” Add agrees.  “So, what?  Did you just come to complain at me?”

“So I want you to distract him,” you say.  “Go kiss him for like fifteen minutes, or annoy him, or whatever.  I’m trying to get him a decent gift, but Lucy’s only going to hold my purchase for so long before selling it to someone else.”

Add sighs and lays down his screwdriver.  “Fine,” he mutters.  “But only because you asked, and only because I get to kiss Ain.”

You grin and step aside for him to walk out.  After about thirty seconds, you follow him downstairs, and successfully manage to sneak past the occupied Ain.

Of course, Add didn’t know you also have a gift for him waiting.  You smile to yourself as you walk down the dark Hamel street.  They’ll both be surprised when they find out you pulled the exact same trick on them both.

i mean my alarm goes off in half an hour

guess who got like zero sleep last night

me it was me 

went to bed late, tossed and turned, woke up when the boyfriend left for work and got no sleep after that

ahahaha work has been stressful as fuck lately (hence, y’know, the vent posts every night) and now I get to do it on like….next to no sleep. at all. 

anyway I have my appointment at the apple store this morning (or i’d have two more hours in which to attempt to sleep) fingers crossed they can fix my phone, and if not, that i can get a new one without too much hassle/expense


beaniebride99  asked:

Hey, so last night I was really upset with myself over this fight that my GF and I had. I was writing in my journal and first wrote worst boyfriend, then crossed that out and put friend, then put girlfriend. Do you think I was purposefully misgendering myself because I was upset? Because I've also been beating myself up with how I look lately. I am too feminine.

Hey! I think that may have been it, you might have wanted to take it out on yourself.
And it could’ve been you taking out your feelings of feeling too feminine on yourself too.

You should try to stop misgendering yourself, it’ll make you feel much better in yourself. - Matthew

anonymous asked:

You previously got a question that asked if Eric would have possibly changed his plan in the fall of '98 had he found the ideal girl. Do you think it would have been the same if she would have came a little later? (Late '98 or January of '99) Or do you think Eric would have carried out the plan anyway? Also, do you think Dylan would have changed his plans too if the right girl came around?

It’s hard to say…really.I can’t speculate about this but with all the hatred piling up day after day a drastic change wouldn’t have magically happened over a night,week or a month. Maybe late ‘98 wouldn’t have been too late though.That one last year of both boys’ lives was determinant and crucial.I believe it might have changed most of their views and at least diminish their negativity and who knows what might have happened after that.

theenigmamachines  asked:


Fear of dreams or dreaming.
I had two patients who experienced this. One of them had to be hospitalized because his phobia became too intense, he simply stopped sleeping at all costs. This caused all sorts of physical issues as well as a deteriorating mental condition. He asked me for help way too late in this phobia, which was brought on due to multiple bad experiences with sleep paralysis and night terrors.

My other patient came to me just in time for help, about the time they tried to force themselves to stay up all night.
The odd thing was that this patient was never afraid of having a nightmare as much as they were afraid of ALL dreams, which rarely happens. The surreality of dreaming is what frightened him. So that made my job more difficult. It was nearly impossible to approach using submersion therapy. What I had to do was replace his fear with the fear of something else. It was really the only way.

I slowly got him to be less and less afraid of dreams, and more afraid of bison. Sounds random and dumb? Good.
What’re the chances he will ever be face to face with bison? Unless he goes somewhere that has a lot, which he told me he would always live in the city, he wouldn’t NEED to not be afraid of bison.
So he still carried a phobia, but nothing that would cripple him.
He could sleep at night fine, but he occasionally had nightmares about bison.

But one day that guy pissed me off. I don’t remember what he did. He pissed me off and had the audacity to demand another therapy session with me. So I told him that I owned a cabin up in Montana and that he could come up for a weekend and we would hang out and I would counsel him.
He asked me if there were bison in Montana.
I said no.
There’s more to the story but… I think you get the idea of exactly what he encountered.
-Jonathan Crane

The signs as I know them

Aries: a fiercely protective lover, continuing an argument when you know you’re wrong, passionate loyalty, pushing past your comfort zone, fights that turn into sex, standing outside in the rain and screaming. Freedom. impulsive behavior. Loud and intense. Home.

Taurus: comfort food. Staying in bed on a rainy day. Smart but stubborn. Quiet calculations. Staying up all night talking. Outer space. Lazy days.

Gemini: books and coffee. Friendship tattoos. Smart and resilient. Beautiful. Making friends wherever you go. Two types; either wildly successful and organized like Pinterest in real life or a chaotic mess. Prone to addiction. Living art.

Cancer: musically inclined. Long walks downtown. Deep intellectual talks that leave you feeling calm but exhausted. Ambition. Second chances.

Leo: Staying up too late and drinking too much. Laughing until you can’t breathe. Doing your makeup drunk. Irresponsible decisions that make for good stories. Platonic kissing. Being held when you’re sad. Loyal friendships. Loud and exciting. Not talking for months and picking up where you left off.

Virgo: White furniture. Homemade Halloween costumes and holiday crafts. Careful and calculated. Cleaning for fun. Alphabetized book cases. Never saying ‘I told you so’ even when you’re always right. Motherly. Nurturing.

Libra: memes. Vibrant and super friendly. Always smiling. Eager to please and doesn’t like to disappoint. Goal oriented, and unstoppable once they have an idea. Surprise parties. Pretending you aren’t in love when you are.

Scorpio: staying up all night watching horror movies. Secretive and endearing. Will hold a grudge forever. Cemetery dates. Rough sex. The sound of a thunderstorm outside of your window. Feeling warm in a cold room. Extreme emotional intelligence.

Sagittarius: wanderlust. Forgetting to text back for days at a time. Always somewhere far away; unreachable. Feeing alone in a crowded room. Getting stoned and cuddling in bed all day. Japanese art. Staying out past curfew. Singing like nobody’s around. Inconsistent and deeply conflicted. Anime. Saying we’d still be friends.

Capricorn: Pretending to not like people but being really lonely. Cold. Immaculate attention to detail. Ambitious and unyielding. I haven’t met that many Capricorns.

Aquarius: Talking about alchemy and aliens all night. Doing drugs because I felt sad and you’re a good friend. Listening to me cry about a boy you told me was bad for me. Feels a lot more than they pretend to. Fireball whiskey. Marijuana.

Pisces: Knowing things before you’re told. Crystals. Tarot cards. Your life is a wreck but you always know what to say to help others. Die hard loyalty. Organized mess. Daydreaming all day. Boxed wine. Drunken yoga. A warm hug and a feeling of security. Selfless love.


“There will always be a door to the light!


Marichat May (Akumatized Chat Noir)

feat. Chat Blanc, The Evil Minor Inconvenience

Let’s face it, this is how Chat Noir will really be if he gets “evillized”. Christmas special tells us he is too pure to even be a real vengeful cat of the night.

Late entry, but I did say I’ll catch up to all of Marichat May eventually… c: it’s june soon


Happy Father’s Day!

they’re dressed as lions bc they’re the pride of the family

adding more to the tsukkiyama parent AU~


It scares me that one day I might wake up and realize that you were the love of my life and I let you walk away. I let you slip right through my fingers because I was young and foolish and I couldn’t see how much we loved each other. I don’t know if I could handle that. What will I do then? What if I’m too late to love you?

I painted a little Rufus with some daisies and hydrangea flowers! 🌼
This was really fun to paint :>

Get well soon Stefán! 💜


February spits; not a lot for this month but that’s fine also you can totally tell which one’s the favorite

Closeted Witchling HELP

decided to start a masterpost for young witchlings who sadly must hide their way of life. THIS IS UNDER CONSTRUCTION. RESOURCES AND MORE TIPS WILL BE ADDED LATER

This post is for: 

  • Inexperienced
  • starter witches
  • lgbt friendly
  • including all witchcraft not just wicca
  • urban witches
  • poor witches
  • all genders
  • closeted witches


Whomever your deity may be, you may want to make an altar for them. You may not be able to have a full altar with crystals, proper offerings, candles and such all over it but none of that is truely needed! little things can be made into altars or maybe a dedicated space! As long as your belief and prayers go to your deity thats all that matters! your deity understands! Example: say your deity is Athena! You may not have a statue of her but you can maybe put up a couple of flowers in a cup or a stuffed owl on a shelf and tell her that its for her! the way you do your craft is totally yours! 

-Offerings can be the hard part. My deity is Abnoba, a Celtic goddess from the Black Forest. Her offerings are mostly Black Forest Ham, Black Forest Cake, and Spring water. Now i can usually provide this since we have Black Forest ham but my mom is gonna be kind of concerned about why my table has just ham on it. So, I do other things, like burn a candle, or talk and offer my stuffed wolf for her. Anything can be an offering if you deem it so. 


Okay so not everyone can get access to multiple colorful candles. however for some witches who hide away this can be a completely normal obsession for some people! So maybe youre in the store with your mom, and you can ask if you can have a candle or two.  “What for?” want that room to smell like Honey Suckle Spring of course.

My mom bought me two candles AND an incense burner! My family is normal about essential oils and incense and candles so this was fairly easy for me. 

Ive realized incense can be a bit of a tricky thing, but for me I had this dragon incense burner forever (it sadly doesnt burn incense well) and it takes the cones, but you can find like gift incense cases and such for the sticks! which is a common form of incense. I use cones but thats okay too! Any little thing helps! If you can convince your parent to buy an incense burner and buy some incense your set! if not, thats okay! candles will still work!

Essential Oils. These are used a lot more today than a couple years back. My family uses them for personal reasons and medically for my bro. These are beneficial though! you usually order them online but some stores have them in candle and incense isles. BE CAREFUL THOUGH. some oils are not to consume or for your skin! Most are for aroma therapy which you mic in water and put in a diffuser! (if oils do not agree with your sinuses steam works as well ive read.)


Rituals can be tricky if youre trying to have privacy and parents dont knock coming in or someone comes home early.I would suggest night time or bathroom rituals. for new witches or witches in cramped spaces, i suggest picking a time, get a candle and pray in privacy of a bathroom or late at night as everyone sleeps and leaves you alone. this goes for spells too. 


You may have read a cool spell to do, but you dont have that candle, that herb, that crystal, etc. Thats okay! Spells are easy to wing its the intent and the mindset that works with it! Maybe try easy spells with minimum effort or research and educate on the spells and what they mean. Write a list of items that maybe you can build up over time! this is the thing a lot of witches freak out over, note you dont need these things to be a witch. the belief in magic, and deities or however you do your craft makes you a witch!


anyone can be into crystals. Its a common hobby to hav crystals it makes it easy to collect when youre out and about. sadly though these things can be pricey. You can find some places that have packs of different crystals. I found a pack at a native american store in cherokee that had rose quartz, amethyst, white quartz, green quartz, jasper, and blue quartz. You can find Crystals or crystal jewelry at art stores, musem shops, malls, or tourist areas like Cherokee, Tellus Museum, and places that hold spiritual value or geology. Ordering them online is an option to! But any jewelry can be like crytsal usage and hold magick purpose.


Mostly for Wiccan witches, you may celebrate holidays like Yule and such. Problem is the celebration. You probably cant make cakes, or certain things on that day. which is fine! you can always make yourself a decent lunch and in your mind its a celebration. you enjoy that grilled cheese and tomato soup.
Now being dragged into family holidays can be different. but some holidays can easily work with yours! Easter and Spring equinox fall in good alignment with one another! Other religions can be a learning experience to improve your craft or take in values you can adopt.

Nessian’s Kids Headcanons

I know this is unexpected from me because I was vehemently against any pregnancies/baby faes for any of the ships in ACOWAR but I am okay with them having kids waaaaay way down the line. Anyway, I don’t remember how this happened but Sarah @nessiansmut and I came up with a few headcanons of Azriel and Elain babysitting Nessian’s kids so here we go:

  • The inner circle would do the ‘not it’ thing whenever nessian need a babysitter. no one would be able to keep those kids in line
  • Elain would volunteer as a last resort 'how bad can it be?’
  • Azriel agrees to help because Elain convinces him he could probably help keep the kids entertained with his shadows
  • one hour in they’re missing one child, one’s running around naked and another’s pulling at Azriel’s wings trying to get him to spread them wide so they can see them
  • just imagine loud curly headed children running around everywhere
  • even azriel’s shadows wouldn’t be a match for them. Elain would be frantically screaming at him to find the missing kid and he’d just be like 'I’VE GOT NOTHING! IT’S LIKED THEY DROPPED OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH!’
  • I thought fae children were supposed to be rare where do they keep coming from????
    From your damn sister who apparently spends all her time “training” doing something else entirely
    Someone needs to stop them before they make a small army
  • The naked kid is pulling out all these random weapons and Elain is just horrified. “Do they not baby proof?!?” (Cass would be offended to hear that: 'that is baby proof! the blade’s shorter than 20cm!’ )
  • Azriel would be begging and pleading for Rhys to use his daemati power to convince the kids to calm down “But you’re High Lord surely you can get them to stop moving.”
  • one of the kids would be grinning really wide but his teeth have a blue glow and Az sees and he’s like 'Spit out the Syphon! Geez, how and when did you even get that?’ (SOMEONE PLEASE DRAW THIS)
  • a completely dishevelled Elain would be furiously whispering to Az “Just knock them out! Not too hard. Nobody has to know. It’s the only way to get them to sleep and we can get a break. Please”
  • Azriel trying to change diapers having to use his shadows to stop the kid from squirming around
  • one of the babies is that type of kid who just doesn’t stop asking questions. “Are your wings bigger than daddy’s? Do you sleep upside down like a bat? Why are yours blue?”
  • the only reason nessian needed a babysitter was to go to the cabin in the illyrian mountains and have sex for a few hours.  
  • Nesta: I have a meeting with the humans. Emissary business he’s coming for protection.
    Elain: *mutters under breath* the only protection he needs to provide is of the contraceptive kind
    Azriel: emissary business my ass.
  • imagine Az with a baby hanging onto his back for dear life and nibbling at his wing while he’s trying to find his pacifier “Elain it bit me” “Azriel they have names…" 
  • “I fought Hybern. Twice. I survived my brothers. This this is too much.“
  • They find a 4th kid just sitting in the kitchen completely still. they’d look outside into the living room muttering "1…2…3…” they turn and look into the kitchen “4?…” “I thought they only had 3.” “So did I.”
  • after they realise that two of them are twins Elain would be running around yelling 'WHO ARE YOU?! WHERE’S THE SECOND YOU?!’
  • Nesta then lets them know that they won’t make it home in time and they need them to babysit the kids overnight  “What do you mean you’re running late and watch them for 3 hours is now over night? What do we feed them? Do they sleep?” 
  • eventually Nesta and Cass would come back and Az would be passed out on the couch with a baby cradled in the crook of his wing on the floor, the baby’s nappy not even secured properly. Elain would be sleeping upstairs with her head on the toilet seat with two more kids sleeping in a nest of blankets in the bathtub and the fourth kid would be in the kitchen stuffing his face with marshmallows and grinning at them when they come home
  • They wouldn’t even blink, though. Cass would just pick the kid up when he makes grabby hands at him and goes 'DADA!’ and he’d be like 'Heeeey buddy… did you give auntie Elain and uncle Az a hard time?’ and the kid would nod and he’d be like 'good job!’ and fist bump his little fist. Nesta would go upstairs to wake Elain up and thank her
  • Elain would wake up and the first thing she says is  “I swear to god, Nesta if you have any more kids not even your death powers will save you from my rage” or “I’d rather be thrown in the cauldron again than babysit these monsters again.”

BONUS Headcanons:

  • Nesta and Cassian have 4 kids: the oldest is a girl, the twins and the youngest are boys
  • They name the girl after Cassian’s mother
  • the twin who always disappears has Nesta’s personality and he always just hides somewhere and reads