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TAG!!!! 4!!! WHOA!

Innocent or Guilty?
I was tagged by @poetbitesback (thank you!) to do this. Rules: answer the questions with only “innocent” or “guilty”, with no explanation. (I’ve put off doing this one cause LOTS of explaining, a huge amount of alcohol and craziness, and I felt TERRIBLE knowing how this could make me look.)

Asked someone to marry you?: guilty
Kissed one of your friends?: guilty
Danced on a table in a bar/tavern?: guilty
Told a lie?: guilty
Had feelings for someone you can’t have?: guilty
Kissed someone of the opposite sex?: guilty
Kissed someone of the same sex?: guilty
Kissed a picture?: guilty
Slept until 5 pm?: guilty
Fallen asleep at work/school?: guilty
Held a snake?: guilty
Been suspended from school?: guilty
Stolen something?: guilty
Done something you regret?: guilty
Laughed until something you were drinking came out of your nose?: guilty
Caught a snowflake on your tongue?: guilty
Kissed in the rain?: guilty
Sat on a rooftop?: guilty
Sang in the shower?: guilty
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?: guilty
Slept naked?: guilty
Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?: guilty
Been in a band?: guilty
Shot a gun?: guilty
Donated blood?: guilty
Eaten alligator meat?: guilty
Eaten cheesecake?: guilty
Still loved someone you shouldn’t?: guilty
Have/had a tattoo?: guilty
Been too honest?: guilty
Ruined a surprise?: guilty
Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated so you couldn’t walk after?: guilty
Erased someone from your friends list?: guilty
Dressed in a man’s clothes?: guilty
Dressed in a woman’s clothes?: guilty
Joined a pageant?: guilty
Been told you’re beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?: guilty
Still have communication with your ex?: guilty
Cheated on someone?: guilty
Got totally drunk the night before a big exam?: guilty
Been treated by a total stranger paying your fare?: guilty
Got so angry you cried?: guilty
Tried to stay away from someone for their own good?: guilty
Actually murdered someone?: guilty
Thought about mass murder?: guilty
Actually committed mass murder?: guilty
Rode in a stranger’s vehicle?: guilty
Stalked someone?: guilty
Had a boyfriend?: guilty
Had a girlfriend?: guilty
Been totally drunk on a holiday?: guilty

I’m tagging: absolutely NOBODY cause I feel bad that I waited this long and am afraid I have some explaining to do.


my life

what in self deprecation
what in sleep deprivation
what in endless education
what in constant irritation
what in too many obligations
what in test preparation
what in awkward situations
what in exaggeration
what in no organization
what in no communication
what in too much information

Overly Analytical Problem #29

When test questions don’t contain enough information…

Seriously. How am I supposed to answer when there are 29 ways the question could be taken, 35 variables that aren’t specified, and 7 different ways of writing any of the possible answers!!!

That’s… 7,105 potentially correct answers and nothing indicating which one to choose!!!

February 5, 2017

There’s something wrong with this place. They say that individuality is something we should embrace, but they want everyone to wear the same clothes and buy the same phones. They want the parts of us that makes us unique, it’s okay as long as everyone else is doing it, right? They say that freedom of speech is something needed, but we’re a little scared to speak our thoughts– is anyone truly listening to the youth? They say that it’s our fault because we’re young, there’s too much information for the brain to filter– somewhere around the lines of being born into this mess and being blind to the truth, we have lost our way as a species. They don’t build them like they used to. So before you blame it on the youth, remember who raised us. So before you make another mistake, remember that we must act together. We can laugh at the president all we want, but remember who put him there. So before you blame someone else, point the finger at yourself. So before you get some sleep tonight, pray a little longer than usual because it’s going to be a long time before everyone returns to just being okay. It’s going to be more than a few years of (subtle) fuckery.

what it’s like to live with seasonal depression
right before your peak month

at 7am last morning my body broke into sobs
because i could taste the toothpaste on the roof of my mouth
and knew in a month i won’t be able to anymore

what it’s like to live with four bodies
one for each season

i am a blind woman given sight each year
in echoing rays of sunshine and beaming laughs
in the ability to breathe and speak and eat
as if my limbs move without protest and my poems —
they exist only etched into the redwoods
as if every life movement contains purpose

what it’s like to believe
you can extend your lifeline from june

so i tell myself
every year you get better
but a diary entry from last march reads
“i am being held captive in eternal february”
fourteen times consecutively  
and god only knows what i wrote on the torn-out pages
i burnt into ashes out of shame

what it’s like to count 28 days
while you swallow paper cuts
what it’s like to tell your mother
you need therapy again every year
what it’s like to lose your body
to a page in your calendar

what it’s like:
we eat and we sleep and we try to breathe
we write and we speak and
(we really do try)

and it will swallow me whole

—  for my birthday i would like operative body parts



Finnish learning things #29

Every language: So, now you’ve learned the basics. Let’s continue with #high society speak, because what you say is way too informal.

Finnish: Fun fact, nobody actually speaks like this, it’s only used in books. Drop this letter when you’re in this area, this one in this city, you use this form for this, this….

Student: …perkele…

Women across the country are rushing to get IUDs. Or at least, they’re tweeting about rushing to get long-term birth control, according to a surge of messages on social media.

They’re concerned that the Trump administration might end Obamacare provisions that require insurers to cover intrauterine devices (IUDs) and other contraception, and cut funding for abortion and reproductive health overall. So women are looking for long-term solutions like IUDs: ones that will outlast a presidency. But they may have a bit more time than they think.

They’re not just talking about it on social media; they’re looking for more information, too. Google Trends showed a massive peak searches for “IUD” “birth control” and “Planned Parenthood” on Wednesday.

The online conversations have left a lot of women wondering how much longer their birth control will be available without copays, as is required under the Affordable Care Act. The short answer is that while memes say women should get their IUDs before Inauguration Day, things might not be quite so urgent. The wheels of government take time to turn, so no one will lose their coverage on Day 1 of the Trump administration.

But women are already acting.

Women Rush To Get Long-Acting Birth Control After Trump Wins

Illustration: Joy Ho/NPR

13/100 days of productivity

01.30.2017 - I know this is not the kind of aesthetics I usually reblog or even post, it’s too dark, too full of information and not neat at all… Well, I wanted to post it to show what it looks like before it’s ready… This is my annotations pre-mind map, they are confusing, dirty, heavy, not aesthetic, but do I care? As long as it gets stuff done, no, I don’t. It was a productive day of reading and annotating, it was not pretty, but I’m still proud of myself…