too foreign for this

Peregrïn

  • Night elf but loves the sun.
  • Wants to explore, wants to see the world. 
  • And wants to protect it.
  • Never felt home where she was born. Left very young.
  • Fell in love with the human kingdoms.
  • Her name means “wandering, traveling, migrating”, which fits (but wasn’t intentional).
  • Her name also means “foreign”, which fits too.
  • Sometimes feels better in cat form.
  • Adopts every cat.
  • Loves her pet wind rider.
  • Helps everyone.
  • Always curious.
  • Loves to fly.
  • Loves to swim.
  • Loves to read.
  • Loves to learn.
  • Loves to laugh.

Having died
one is at great disadvantage
over his fellows–
one can pretend.

And so,
the smell of earth
being upon you too–
I pretend

there is something
temptingly foreign
some subtle difference,
one last amour

to be divided for
our death-necklaces, when
I would merely lie
hand in hand in the dirt with you.

William Carlos Williams, “Spring Song”

on a scale of one to ten how sad are you.

you almost say seven but the answer floats in your lungs like rising mud. you shift your shoulders. some part of you is already forming an excuse. that it’s not that bad sometimes. one, two, three on a day that the clouds are out. you’re just complaining about stuff. yesterday you laughed past a brick of a four, does that make the brick come down to a two-point-five.  the solid seven panic attack of last tuesday feels somehow like a little thorn, just a regular day full of a gentle three-point-nine earthquake rocking after yesterday’s close-to-an-eight. see but if tomorrow you have a real bad day, it will make today look simple.

and what if. what if tomorrow it’s a big old red eight-point-nine. like one of those days where sirens are going off in every part of you but you’re stuck behind a glass window watching it all burn down. like one of those days that your skin against the air feels foreign. like too much of everything. like sitting-in-the-shower, like can’t-eat, like the tide isn’t just coming in, it came while you were sleeping and now you’ve gotta learn how to swim. like bounce me against a bullet hole kind of day.

you keep numbers like nine and ten way out of reach. those are for the people who really are suffering. you’ve got no excuse. nine and ten are funeral numbers, for real problems, not yours, no. and sometimes you’re fine. and you’re kind of used to it. and it’s not sad, it’s just numb like a television caught on static. numb like i can’t remember if i care about this. numb like nothing works but i can’t be bothered to fix it. that’s not sad that’s every day stuff. everybody feels like this, right? feels like they’ve been shut off. right.  

maybe five. right in the middle. like not gonna shoot myself but i’m not wasting your time. a nonanswer. like could be worse could be better. like i need help but i don’t want you to worry even though i need someone to worry about me because i can’t worry about myself. maybe five. but what if five is too small. what if five is too big. what if -

“on a scale of one to ten,” he repeats into your silence, and then pauses. “and please be honest about this.”

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a little story of how Yuuri and Viktor met at the ball in St. Petersburg
and here’s their dance 
they were around 11 (Y) and 15 (V) when they first met. Viktor was on his trip to Japan and then came to Hasetsu where he met Katsuki family. Young Katsuki heir was too afraid to speak with this charming silver-haired foreigner (thou he knew Viktor was a prince), but anyway they friendship started from “what’s this flower” conversation. It turned out that Yuuri was obsessed with botany, like, he even wanted to become a botanist to study flowers, so they promised each other to meet in St. Petersburg when Yuuri would become a scientist and after being apart for more than 10 years they’d finally met and stayed with each other forever.
i guess i should make some more parts to make the story clear lmao

psa for the yoi fandom: russian names & how to use them

Russian guides: masterpost | patronyms | terms of affection | answered asks

I’m going to start by swearing this isn’t me just complaining but a general resource for the Yuri on Ice fandom because I’ve noticed some mistakes in the naming conventions used among the fandom and want to help correct them. Especially in how the fandom treats diminutives. I absolutely love seeing the huge amount of interest in Russian diminutives, etc. in fanart and fics and hopefully this breakdown will help continue that trend and interest and even spur some more ideas in fandom content.

So let’s go through some important details below the cut!

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Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but ‘Mom’s’ probably wouldn’t feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listened everyday and arms that were never for anyone else. But just to calm you down when you started feeling trapped in a five-minute period where nostalgia is too much and thoughts of this person you are feel foreign. When you realize that you’ll never be this young again but this is the first time you’ve ever been this old. When you can’t remember how you got from sixteen to here and all the same feel like sixteen is just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The coffee’s done. You’re going to breathe in and out. You’re going to be fine in about five minutes.
—  Kalyn RoseAnne
Masterlist by Names

Obviously it’s impossible for me to always update the masterlist because I keep getting request but I keep getting asked about specific stories from specific people so, here you guys go<3 

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  • Namjoon

         Punishment

        50 Shades of Namjoon

        Concerts(AMBW//public play)

        Sex Ed

        Geeky Monster

        Fighting with daddy(AMBW)

        Collaboration

        Take care of you

        Power(AMBW)

       Don’t hold out on me(AMBW)

Aggression(Namjoon Smut)

Busted(Namjoon Smut)

Little Helper(Namjoon Smut)

Patient Namjoon(Namjoon Version AMBW Smut)

Only Mine(Namjoon Smut)

  • Namjoon and V Threesome 

        Dance with me(AMBW)

  • Namjoon and Jimin Threesome

          Movies(AMBW)

  • Namjoon x Zico x Taewoon x Suga

          Careful with words

  • Namjoon x Jhope x Yoongi Foursome

          Gym

  • Namjoon x Suga Thressome

         Late Night

         Behind the black door

  • Namjoon x Jin Threesome

          Shiver

  • Namjoon x Jungkook Threesome

         On Hold(AMBW)

  • Namjin

         Trouble

  • Namseok Threesome

Meddling Maid(Namseok Threesome Smut) - poly relationship

  • Namjoon x Chanyeol Threesome

Inspiration(Namjoon x Chanyeol x Girl)

  • Jimin

      Night Shift

      Detention 

      My Teacher is a naughty Teacher

      Bad girls get punished

      Nobody but you

      Squirt

     Tutor Session

Push Over(Jimin Smut)

Helping Hand(Jimin Smut)

Once in a lifetime(Jimin AMBW smut)

Office Wars(Jimin Smut)

  • Jimin X V Threesome 

Sharing and caring(V X JIMIN X READER AMBW SMUT)

  • Yoongi

        Officer Yoongi

        Kitten Yoongi(smut no fluff)

        Study Session

        Bad Boy

        Makeup Sex

        Second Round

        Sweet Dboy

       Inner Freak(Yoongi Smut)

      Just for one night(Yoongi Smut)

      Degrade(Yoongi Smut)

  • Yoongi and Jimin Thressome

          Caught(AMBW)

  • Yoongi and Chen Threesome

Show(Yoongi Smut feat Jongdae)

  • Yoongi x Taehyung Threesome

          Fire

Taster(Yoongi x Taehyung x Girl Smut)

  • Taehyung

          Punishment

         Rough Sex

        Can’t wait(AMBW)

       Don’t play with your food

       Please(V Smut)

       Hard Work(Taehyung Smut)

Obey(Kim Taehyung Smut)

  • Taehyung x Jungkook Threesome

Sexual Appeal (Taekook x girl Threesome Smut) -poly relationship

  • Seokjin

         Spanking

         Make me want it

  • Hoseok

       Changing Rooms

        Alpha Sequel

       Foreign Affairs(AMBW)

       Earn It

     Its too evil

Teach Me Doctor(Jung Hoseok AMBW Smut Version)

Rebel(Jung Hoseok Ambw Smut)

  • Jungkook

         First Time(fluff smut)

         Jealous Maknae(AMBW)

Moans(Jungkook AMBW Smut)

Secrets(Jungkook AMBW Smut) 

  • Hoseok and Jungkook Threesome

           Ride Me

  • Jimin x Jhope Threesome 

Exhale(Jimin x Jhope x Reader Smut)

  • Bts

         House of Cards

  • Jay Park

       All Mine

      A+

Feature(Jay Park AMBW)

Meeting(Jay Park fluff)

Retaliate(AMBW Jay Park)

No Touching (Jay Park AMBW Smut)

  • Simon D;

         One Dance

        Reprieve

       What’s My Name

  • Gray

        Mercy

Wedding Night(Gray Aomg Smut)

Itty-Bitty-Tiddy-Committee(Gray Smut)

  • Loco(Hyukwoo)

Vixen(Loco AMBW smut)

Mommy(Loco Smut)

Touch Me(Loco Smut)

  • Cha Cha Malone

Welcome Home(Cha Cha Smut)

  • Aomg

        Little Black Dress

        Three vs One(AMBW)

  • Ravi

        FWB

        First Time(AMBW)

All Better(Ravi Smut)

  • Hongbin

         Chained Up(AMBW)

  • Leo

        Slave

  • Daesung 

         No Sex Banned

  • Jiyong

       One-night stand

  • Yongguk

         Jealous Boyfriend

  • Any person

          Bias Drabble

  •     Texts

         Hongbin

  • Snaps

         Leo

  • Key

       Incubus(AMBW)

  • Jonghyun

       Touch(AMBW)

  • Taemin

Try Me(Taemin Smut)

  • Minho

Intentions(Minho Smut)

  • Jb

       Come and see me(AMBW)

  • Jb x Jimin Threesome

       Unlikely Affair(AMBW)

       Jinin’s Wish

  • Jb x Jungkook Threesome

Two in One(Ambw: Jb x Girl x Jungkook)

  • Jb x Youngjae Threesome

Relax(Youngjae x Jb x Reader Smut)

  • Jb x Wonho Threesome 

Exposure(Wonho x Girl x Jaebum)

  • Jackson x Mark Threesome

        Helping Hands(AMBW)

  • Jackson

Mine(Jackson Smut)

In Trouble (Jackson Smut)

  • Got7 reactions:

Got7 reaction

  • Kyung

         Apron 

  • Taeil

       Naughty Princess

  • Shownu

       Your favorite fan(AMBW)

  • Bobby x B.I Threesome

        Stress Relief 

  • Top

       Talk Back

  • Monster Woo

         Baby girl(AMBW)

  • Christian Yu

         Friendly Competiton(AMBW)

  • Xiumin

        Elevator Quickie

  • Baekhyun

        A little break(AMBW)

  • Yixing

Premiere(Yixing Smut)

  • Jeonghan

        Wet Baby Boy

  • Mingyu

Wake Up(AMBW Mingyu Smut/fluff)

  • Seo in Guk

Birthday Girl(Seo In Guk Smut)

  • Dean

Quickie(Dean Smut)

  • Crush

Gentleman(Crush AMBW Smut)

I’ve forgotten how to fake it. I’ve forgotten how I used to do it. I’m just here on the sidelines, watching everyone else behave however it is a fully-grown person is supposed to behave. They do it so easily, but it’s just too foreign to me. I’m trying too hard to play this part, hoping I’m not found out, and I can’t even tell if it’s working.
—  keyds
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Yuri on Ice BD choreography commentary translation - Volume 3

I’m alive… There were too many things this month, I can’t believe we’re already halfway through. Anyway, finally, here’s the full translation of the choreography commentary from the BD/DVD vol.3. The commentary is by Kenji Miyamoto & Mitsurou Kubo, as usual. This time it’s Minami’s FS, Phichit’s SP, Leo’s SP and Chris’ SP. More programs so of course it’s longer than usual.

Notes:
-It’s two people talking, not a written interview, so expect them to hop from one subject to another within the same sentence… Even if it sounds a bit unconnected at times, that’s how they said it.
-I still arranged it a little to make it easier to understand as written material, by removing lots of “ehm” “uuhm” “you know” “yes” (I especially removed all instances where someone says “yes” in the middle of the other speaking) and fumbled words.
-Amusingly enough both their initials are KM/MK, but I used the surname initials so M is Miyamoto and K is Kubo.
-I put (LOL) when they’re laughing because otherwise some lines might sound serious while they’re actually joking.

***VERY IMPORTANT***
Do NOT use this translation for subtitles, in ANY way.
I don’t support the upload of bonuses contained in BDs/DVDs, as they are meant to be (as the word says) bonuses for the people who spent money to purchase them. If you like a series so much that you absolutely need to watch the bonus contents, please buy the BDs/DVDs.

Translation under the cut since it’s twice the usual length.


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jack and the bilingual bullshit
  • jack won’t watch a british show without french subtitles because it’s too hard to understand their accents, but he also watches foreign movies with english subtitles even though the french option is right there??? jack????
  • unclear on how his own name is pronounced. his parents don’t seem very sure either. he is afraid to ask.
  • jack hates english punctuation so much. so much. why is it always cramping his style. 
    • shitty can tell when jack’s writing a paper in English because his texts get increasingly capital-F French
      • shitty replies with “hello jack       .   when are we going to annie   ‘  s   . lardo says     << i   ‘ m hungry >>    .”
  • The Autocorrect Struggle
    • autocorrect is also cramping his style
    • marty texts to ask about the game schedule the next day and jack, being half asleep, forgets to change his language settings and replies “Devonshire entire la a 17 heiress pour lo dinner”
      • marty always replies to these texts with “thanks, jacques, that was helpful”
        • he is a jerk.
    • jack’s slowly teaching his english autocorrect to speak french; shitty claims that if you yell “hey siri - FUCK NO” when it corrects to the wrong word it’ll learn faster
      • autocorrect knows to leave tabarnak alone, because jack is a great teacher.
      • speaking of siri - why does she not understand anything jack says ever, any of the time. jack and siri Are Not Friends. they are not bros and jack does not like her.
  • absolutely refuses to watch disney movies in english. that is not the language of disney. he’s seen a whole ten minutes of the english version of the lion king; all of the voices were Wrong
  • he thinks bilingual puns are so funny!!!! he only gets say them every once in a while but they’re hilarious!!!!!!!
    • jack once called ransom, with an actual honest to god phone call, just to tell him a great pun that bitty didn’t react to strongly enough
      • (a key part of rans’ impression of jack is the phrase “i just told bitty this one but he didn’t laugh”)
  • he takes german for his language credit freshman year (shitty: HAVE YOU NOT DONE ENOUGH) and fails a test on possessives because he never learned how to use apostrophes in english and he can’t figure out how to translate plural possessives. he may be the first person to fail a german test because his english isn’t good enough.
    • just?? random gaps everywhere in his english knowledge, honestly. he can write a paper but he doesn’t know what an adverb is. he missed two spelling tests in high school because of a concussion and he still just lets spellcheck tell him how to write “occurred”
  • jack knows history vocabulary but he learned a lot of it out of books and he doesn’t actually know how to pronounce any of it in english
    • he does presentations with his Absolute Most French Accent just so everyone is really clear that he doesn’t know what he’s doing
    • has no idea about science words and won’t discuss it with anyone in english, no thank you
      • someone claims that jack once implied that petroleum comes from exploding fish bones; every time they try to ask jack about it he dodges the question and then runs away.
The Evolution of a Common App Essay: Tips and Excerpts

Do’s and Don’ts:

  • Do choose a topic that you feel strongly about even if people say it’s cliche. A “unique” essay isn’t effective if it comes across as outlandish, unfocused, or worse—contrived; it’s the way you approach a subject that matters, not the subject itself. 
  • Do aim for sincerity over memorability. 
  • Don’t address risky (sensitive) subjects like mental illness or drug use. There’s a fine line between vulnerability and TMI; what strikes a chord with one reader might offend another. Think about how you can communicate similar ideas using different anecdotes. See below.

The Evolution of an Essay

I went through seven drafts from start to finish; this is a shortened (and slightly exaggerated) version of my thought process.  

What’s the most integral part of your identity? 

Anxiety. 

Why? 

My struggle with it has probably shaped me more than anything. 

Okay, too risky. What’s an event you keep revisiting in your mind?

That time when I got caught in a riptide.

Why is it significant? Jot down a few key words/ideas.

Helplessness. Fear. Saving myself. Writing. This became:

Surrounded by yet estranged from humanity, so close to shore yet so far away, I began to despair. The sharp pulse of my fear ebbed into resignation; my kicking and flailing slowed. But almost as soon as I stopped struggling, it dawned on me: all I had to do was tread. From this experience arose my poem “Fujian.” This piece is a memorial of the boundless joy I had felt upon reaching land, an elegy for the arrogant girl who had thought that she was greater than the sea. But it is also a lesson for days to come. Don’t waste energy fighting life’s many storms. Weather them out.

I went through several drafts and changed the topic several times, but noticed a recurring focus on the third idea—overcoming a seemingly insurmountable obstacle by ceasing to struggle. In my first draft, I was only able to swim back to shore after I stopped resisting the tide; in my final draft, I was only able to speak up after setting aside my fear of ridicule:

I think about how I’ve exchanged no more than a few words with my grandfather during the entire trip, fearing that he would rue the foreign lilt of my Mandarin. But silence is too high a price to pay. My aloofness has shielded me not from hurt but from connection; it is the weakest defense, mere child’s armor in a grown-up world. And so I clear my throat, my Mandarin an old tune whose lyrics I am only just recalling, and begin to speak.

Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but ‘Mom’s’ probably wouldn’t feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listened everyday and arms that were never for anyone else. But just to calm you down when you started feeling trapped in a five-minute period where nostalgia is too much and thoughts of this person you are feel foreign. When you realize that you’ll never be this young again but this is the first time you’ve ever been this old. When you can’t remember how you got from sixteen to here and all the same feel like sixteen is just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The coffee’s done. You’re going to breathe in and out. You’re going to be fine in about five minutes.
—  Kalyn RoseAnne

anonymous asked:

how would the gentry react to students who are kind or polite? i mean i know they look out for favored students, but like just people who are genuinly helpful? "Oh jimmothy likes those beads? I saw those on sale last week, ill get him some! Even horse sized skeletons must have birthdays right? what do you mean "what do i owe" its just a gift jimmothy?" just people raised to be thoughtful and help out? Painting their roomates 3 toenails, helping out with homework, never demanding payment?

I think the overall attitude would be benevolent curiosity, because that is a very foreign idea but also a very pleasant one. Traditionally, too, the tend to quietly reward people who are kind for the sake of being kind. You would have allies, if it came to it.

(Jimothy is delighted beyond reason)

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I received something really special today! (人´∀`)♡♡.

Lena sent me this ereri poster and postcards with her beautiful artworks on them!

The poster is amazing, it’s so big and really well done, very high quality, and same with the postcards!

I swear I almost cried when I finally had all of this in my hands… I feel so lucky! I always loved her art so much, and wanted to own something physically, but she doesn’t sell her stuff often so it isn’t easy. So I’m very grateful for this opportunity!  She is so dedicated to her fans, and has done a great effort to send her goods across the world so that even foreigners could enjoy them too, I really appreciate it!

Now I need to decide where to put the poster… hehe (♡´艸`).

I drew your name in the sand
And watched the waves wash it away.
I wish it would pull my memories of you away too.
Drag it off to some foreign beach and let it wash up for someone else to find.
But theres no where else for memories to go.
Theyre trapped like a letter in a bottle.
—  A.P