too early i know

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Chapter 16: Episode 8

       He smiled. “Are you implying I absolutely won’t?”

         “I—”

         “I’m joking. I know it’s too early to think like that, but I suppose I’m more pressed to do so. Yes, I considered that breaking off my relationship with Chelle would be detrimental to my future, and that starting a new relationship with you would guarantee that I would lose the rest of my trust fund. But it was a sacrifice I was willing to make in order to be with someone of my choosing. I worked hard to put myself in a comfortable financial position. I don’t need my father’s money to sustain my lifestyle. So, it is my choice to make. On all fronts. I do believe I chose correctly.”

         “Roen,” I breathed. “I don’t know what to do with you. You just can’t be like this. You can’t.”

         “Like what?” He asked, confused, but I answered by pulling him down and pressing my lips to his.

         Maybe I am afraid of this. And I regret it. I wish I could just let myself be happy, let us be happy. I didn’t think that perfect people existed until I met him. I was so taken by him, infatuated with the idea that I could be perfect, too. But I can’t be. I’ll never be perfect.

         And yet I can’t walk away.

[End of Chapter 16]

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it might only be 25th November BUT that doesn’t mean i can’t draw christmas art xD!!! haha so here you go! some happy sterek family christmas fanarts ;U;!

(i still need to figure it out how i’ll put this on a mug and all of that so i can post it on Redbubble as well xD! soon! i promise)

vine

Oml this is too much XD

NO ONE TOLD ME THIS STUPID FUCKING MEME IS FROM THIS STUPID FUCKING SHOW

Ryan: *bursts into the room, panting* Brendon, there’s something I gotta tell you

Brendon: yeah?

Ryan: Brendon, we’ve known eachother since we were teenagers. We’ve seen eachother at our worst, supported eachother and come this far. You’ve always been there for me, Brendon. You gave your voice for my words and brought meaning to my life. I know I haven’t always been the easiest person to be with, but you accepted me for what I am and helped me be a better person. Our relationship has had its ups and downs but cuddling with you here on the tour bus at 3am, talking about our future, is what really matters in the end. So Brendon, maybe this is too early, but I hope you feel the same way. I know it’ll change our relationship completely, but there’s something I’d like to say.

Brendon: *tears streaming down his cheeks* Oh Ryan.. I can’t believe you’re finally proposing

Ryan: no actually I’m leaving the band bye

youtube

Voice actors play their overwatch characters featuring
-Matt mercer repeating every one of his own voice lines
-crispin freeman is just flat out “Oh, I think we won?” Winston
-“It’s….eleven forty-five apparently. Bit too early there”
-WHAT I DIDNT KNOW I HAD A FROG SKIN
-Jonny Cruz repeating every one of his own voicelines
-players somehow thinking they are using a soundboard of some kind because “there’s no way”

Omg guys so Baz grew up in his scary big mansion far away from roads right? So he probably never got trick or treaters because the kids were too afraid (and probably too lazy) to go all the way to the front door.

Which means Baz has absolutely no experience with trick or treaters.

So just image Simon and Baz living together and it’s Halloween, and suddenly there’s a knock on the door. Baz opens the door, and there are 3 kids, dressed so well that Baz thinks there are actually a real ghost, vampire and witch in front of his house.

Just imagine his reaction omfg.

“SNOW THERE ARE MONSTERS AT OUR DOOR AND I SEE MORE OF THEM WALKING THE STREETS GRAB YOUR SWORD THE APOCALYPSE HAS BEGUN”

El’s first Valentine’s Day is the color of pastel candy conversation hearts. It’s soft and gentle—her way of, as Nancy described it to her, doing nice things for someone you love very much. It’s buying those little cheesy drugstore Valentines with cartoon characters on them to give out to her classmates and favorite teachers. It’s getting her fingers all stuck together and her overalls covered in glitter and a bit of permanent marker on her face when she makes handmade paper heart cards for the people she loves the most. It’s insisting that, yes, all the boys get Valentines because they’re the Best Friend Kind. It’s personalizing Hopper’s card with a loving drawing of the two of them and Lucas’ with a carefully cut camouflage paper heart. It’s poring over new books from the library to find just the right words to express her boundless love. It’s riding her bike into town with Dustin the day after for all the chocolate that’s on sale. It’s the proudest, brightest smile on her face when she shows Will the drawing of their family that she did for him. It’s El’s sweet giggling that lights up the room when Mike sheepishly reveals the delicate flower crown he braided together and places it in her fluffy hair. It’s the moment right as their friends are heading home when Mike hands her his own homemade Valentine and recites the dorkiest, heartfelt poem that he wrote specially for her, while his cheeks turn redder than the heart shaped lollipop taped to the back of the card. Perhaps when they’re older, Mike will put together an elaborate plan for a romantic Valentine’s Day with his El that will be ultimately scrapped in favor of cuddling under a pile of blankets and pillows while watching movies and eating dollar store chocolate because El came down with a cold. Perhaps El will take Mike gently by the hand as they visit all the little spots around Hawkins that have been important to them over the years, ending in a miraculous and hidden field of flowers in which they spent days of their childhood picking flowers and tellings stories. But for the first one, Eleven reciprocates all the love in her life with a warm embrace

bl/ind and trans ppl

i figure that BLI is pretty tolerant when it comes to binary trans people. the issue comes up when someone doesn’t want to identify as either male or female. it has nothing to do with religion, of course, nor with ““biology””– chromosomes or genitals or whatever– it’s just that BLI believes that it’s too confusing for citizens to have more than two set genders floating around. bad for productivity. BLI already divides everything into a binary, all black-and-white, so gender has to be as well. 

gender EXPRESSION isn’t really policed or anything, if you’re dmab and you wanna wear a dress BLI doesn’t care. they only get involved once it’s a question of gender IDENTITY, of pronouns and legal names and markers on documents.

if you get cleared by your BLI physician, the company is more than happy to provide you with hormone therapy through their Gender Reassignment Program. it’s just another set of pills, after all. any surgeries are optional, but still covered if wanted. but to get access to any of these, you have to identify as either male or female, and you have to exhibit “strong enough” dysphoria (evaluated by an appointed professional). 

anyone trying to assert that they don’t want either of the two gender markers to be used is obviously misguided. that’s a problem. that’s inconvenient. they get assessed, and if they are found to exhibit dysphoria, then they are prescribed a mandatory transition to the opposite gender. if they are not found to exhibit enough dysphoria, then they are sent away and continue to be marked as their assigned gender. 

in contrast, gender’s seen as a lot more fluid once you get out of BLI’s clutches. some joys get out there knowing they’re trans, but some, it never occurs to them until they’ve spent some time in the desert. they’re able to explore themselves more once they’re out of that cage, and settle on what they think suits them best. overall, though, labels and such aren’t so important. lots of joys don’t settle things any further than a set of pronouns.