tonight i'll fall asleep with you in my heart

I’m done living my life missing you, choking down tears & vodka at three in the morning. I’m done killing myself waiting for you to save me. so tonight i will fall asleep before midnight, something i haven’t done in months. I’ll wake up at 5 am and watch the sunrise while i sip my coffee and read my latest book. I’ll sing and dance to all my favorite songs, yours too, and i won’t feel sad. I’ll drink water instead of shitty beer. I’ll finally forget what it’s like having someone take care of me, because i can take care of myself.
—  it’s your turn to miss me (a.j.)