Because honestly…I want to honor Jay and fill my tumblr with pictures of her beauty, and kindness, and amazing family…but every time I think about it for too long, I start to cry. I know that I didn’t actually know her, but I certainly feel like I did. I got to know her through Louis, seeing the kind heart and loving personality he always accredited to her. Knowing that they were best friends makes my heart break for how Louis must be feeling right now. Knowing that the babies, the twins, and the girls have to continue through life without their mother, their rock, their hearts incomplete crushes me. I am comforted by the fact that Louis will always provide and take care of his family, and I know that he probably did everything in his power to get her the very best care possible. I’m happy that she was able to be with all her loved ones until the very end, and that she will live on through Louis, Charlotte, Felicite, Daisy, Phoebe, Doris, and Ernest. But she will also live on through all of us. This fandom loved her with a passion, and I know that we will raise money for the causes she believed in, support her babies, and remember her for the amazing woman she was. I’m still absolutely gutted that this is real life, and I keep hoping that I’ll wake up tomorrow and she’ll be fine.