tombstone face

‘I miss you,’ she said. 'Every day, I miss you. And I wonder what you would have made of all of this. Made of me. I think - I think you would have been a wonderful king. I think they would have liked you more than me, actually.’ Her throat tightened. 'I never told you - how I felt. But I loved you, and I think a part of me might always love you. Maybe you were my mate, and I never knew it. Maybe I’ll spend the rest of my life wondering about that. Maybe I’ll see you again in the Afterworld, and then I’ll know for sure. But until then… until then I’ll miss you, and I’ll wish you were here.’
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Aelin, Queen of Shadows

Do you ever think about the first time Celaena/Aelin told Sam that she loved him, she was looking at his tombstone instead of his face? Do you ever just stop and think about this scene and how much regret she must hold in her heart? Do you think about how it took her four books to finally get her closure and revenge while every day she had to think about what Arobynn did?

Do you ever think about the fact that if Aelin is immortal, there will be no Afterworld for her for a long, long time? That every day for the hundreds or thousands of years she is alive, a little piece of her always loves Sam, always wonders if her people would have liked him more as king, always wonders if he was her mate. And for the rest of her life, there’s a small Sam-shaped hole in her heart that no one would be able to fill. Because no one can replace your first love, especially when your first love was taken from you as violently as Sam was taken from Celaena/Aelin.

seriously though I see people discussing which Disney villain death is the worst one but why is that even a question when Dr. Facilier was literally fucking dragged to hell by his ankles while screaming for mercy