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C/B, AU where In the Belly of the Beast happened when they were not together

Fear grips at her chest as the burning cold grips at her lungs. She had always wondered what she’d think about in the moments before her death. When she was shot, Castle’s “I love you, Kate” was left ringing through her ears. When she almost died in that freezer with him, the smell of his cologne was the last thing she remembers thinking about before she passed out. Kate had always assumed that the reason he haunted her final thoughts was because he was always there with her in her near death experiences.

But he wasn’t here with her now and still he was all she could think about. Her thoughts whir with how she has missed her chance to be with him and how now she never would. All she wants to do is to go back and fix it, to run to him after she temporarily resigned instead of hiding away again at her father’s cabin last summer. It was stupid; she realizes that now.

She tells herself that if she ever makes it out of here, she’s going to tell him. She’s doesn’t want to hide her heart from him anymore; she just wants him.


As soon as she sees him, she flings herself into his arms without thinking. Castle welcomes her, his arms squeezing her tightly.

“I’m sorry, Castle, I’m so sorry,” she apologizes over and over, not even sure what she’s apologizing for anymore.

“Hey, it’s okay, you’re okay,” he soothes, his right hand brushing up and down her back.

“I can’t do this anymore,” she tells him with a hitch in her voice. “I can’t.”

“Can’t do what? Undercover work?”

“Pretend that I don’t love you.”

Castle steps back out of the embrace and stares at her. “Kate –”

“I almost died. And all I could think about was you. I can’t just sit back and pretend that I don’t have feelings for you anymore. I know that you’ve moved on and it’s been a year since you told me that you loved me, but I –”

He cuts her off, kissing her, and pulling her back into him as close as he can. Her arms snake back around him and she lets the heat of his body help warm her up.

Castle smiles down at her. “I thought I had moved on too. But today, thinking that I’d lost you, that you were dead…It just made me realize how I’m still so in love with you. I want to make this work, Kate; make us work.”

She buries her head into his shoulder, still trying to get warm. “Me too, Castle. Me too.”


I should leave the Photoshop to our other wifey but your package is lost in Europe somewhere so I tried. This is also me telling you to pick out a prompt for me to fill for you. You have too many “fp’s” pick one for me. :P I would totes wake up at 7 am to wish you a happy birthday right at midnight, but will you even be awake?