to will


When I met you I had pretty much given up on relationships. Pretty much decided that I had made my peace with being alone for a good long time. Yeah, I was dating someone when we met, but I was miserable and irritated with him and it and already finding excuses to break it off. I figured I would just hang out, do my own thing and not let anyone in anymore.
And then I met you.
You were confident and happy and didn’t play games with me. You showed me you liked me and didn’t seem at all uncomfortable with it. You were chivalrous and gentlemanly and I was sure there was something different about you. It was easy to fall in love with you and all your quirks and habits. I was comfortable just being around you, even if I was terrified of screwing this up for myself. It was hard to put myself out there for you. It was harder to accept that you weren’t like any other guy I’d ever met and that I was head over heels for that.
And then, a little over a month after I told you I loved you for the first time, we found out we were going to have a baby. You hadn’t told me you loved me yet and I was so scared you wouldn’t stick around.
But you did.
You were there through the morning sickness and the hormone roller coasters, through the body changes and all of my worrying. You still looked at me like I was beautiful, even when I felt like a planet. And you were there as I labored through the delivery of our perfect little boy, a silent but loving support through the pain. And seeing the way you looked at the tiny person we created made me love you even more.
Now, seven months later and you’re still here, assuring me that you have no plans to leave. And for the first time in my whole life, I believe that the man I love isn’t actually going anywhere. I watch you play with Liam, see the happiness in your face when you come home after a long day, and I see the love not only for your son, but for me. And I trust in that love, that happiness. I know you aren’t going anywhere without us.
I want you to know that I appreciate every single thing you do for me, for us. Even if I don’t say it out loud, I am so thankful for you. You are a wonderful man, a fantastic father, and I couldn’t ask for a better partner.
So, to the man who gave me hope, the man who gives me reasons every day to be a better person, I love you. With all of my heart, for all my imperfections and yours. I wouldn’t trade what we have for the world.