to walk this earth

Pablo Neruda for the Signs
  • Aries: "Everything carries me to you, as if everything that exists, aromas, lights, metals, where little boats that sail towards those isles of yours that wait for me."
  • Taurus: "I want to fill my mouth with your name."
  • Gemini: "And every wound has the shape of your mouth."
  • Cancer: "Under your skin the moon is alive."
  • Leo: "There were grief and ruins, and you were the miracle."
  • Virgo: "I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
  • in secret, between the shadow and the soul."
  • Libra: "If nothing saves us from death, at least love should save us from life."
  • Scorpio: "You swallowed everything, like distance. Like the sea, like time. In you everything sank."
  • Sagittarius: "But I love your feet only because they walked upon the earth and upon the wind and upon the waters, until they found me."
  • Capricorn: "You are like night, calmed, constellated.
  • Your silence is star-like, as distant, as true."
  • Aquarius: "…I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
  • I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too."
  • Pisces: "I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this."

I have something I want to express publicly but please keep in mind this is opinionated and by no means canon. They are theories at best- speculations of how I’d perceive the situation in a personal matter, that is all.

Alright, so here goes..
I love the vampire lore and have read and watched many, many, material on the subject matter. With that, there are things that overlap or don’t cross in a different ‘fandom’. And some aspects are straight up replaced or ignored even. But in the end, there is still one thing that remains; time, the everlasting gift of Immortality. And with time things change. The way one feels about something can change. In my opinion I feel a vampire, no matter their previous outlook on life before hand, would becoming something of a pansexual. Yes, there, I said it. But hear me out.. as a being who walks on earth for decades and possibly centuries why would you narrow down your sexual urges or romantical desires to one gender? Why would it matter at the point?

This opinion of mine, though, falls on how the author or director even expresses their viewpoint of the ‘vampire lifestyle’. Depending on that, it can skew the outlook. For example) They become feral creatures who no longer care about love, their old life, so forth- and with that idea, they are most likely not romantical. Maybe sexual but I doubt romantical. Example 2) They are creatures who live to the fullest, no longer weighed down by humanity, and therefor have no ties to the life they once lived but not zombified blood hungry monsters-  and with that idea, they most likely won’t care about romance until years, decades, maybe even a century have passed. If at all. Though at this point you are probably asking where the romantical vampires are in my long- drawn out- speech. Well, it is not that I don’t enjoy reading a good vampire romance every now an then, but it’s more dependable on how one perceives the vampiric abilities in that concept. How they think, process, so forth. There are so much; ‘woe is me I have to drink blood, kill people, and I am so alone and just want to love someone’ that a person can take. Remember I don’t mind them but I also feel they are less realistic when it comes to this lore. Finding soulmates, reincarnated loved ones, that special someone.. so on so forth, is doable in the fandom. I mean it has been done a million times and yet, lots of people still enjoy it while others are begging for something fresh.

In the end, I feel that when a human is going through a transition that makes them into a predator- forces one to live off the life essence of who they used to be- that they would not be, at least mentally, who they used to be. Their viewpoints would change on how they perceive things. Their desires will shift- once craving a cake would turn to craving warm blood- so forth. And with their views changing, I don’t think they would limit themselves to new stuff. Hey, they have lots of time on their hands, why not live recklessly and try new things?

Which circles us all the way back to my own personal opinion that I feel a vampire would not narrow their sexual or romantical desires to one gender. I’m not implying that it happens immediately- it may take time or may not- and it all falls upon the shoulders of the author or movie director. My theory is based on what time would do to somebodies psyche basically. 

Now we all have our headcanons and fantasies for characters in a beloved fandom that you may care about and I say have at it! But if that fandom has canon aspects than so be it. It doesn’t mean you have to follow them but it does mean you can’t alter what is 100% tied down to the fandom. Just like we can’t say the vampires in Twilight ‘don’t’ sparkle- just an example. Now we can pretend they don’t but it is a fact we can’t change outside of our own headcanons and fantasies.

So there you have it! My ridiculous spill about pansexual vampires that you may or may not agree with. Which is fine by me because I am not implying it is canon for any fandom of this lore- unless the own fandom has showcased it somehow like the Anne Rice’s series- otherwise it is just speculations. So thank you for reading~ 

So my best friend arrived here yesterday

And life is magical and we’re gonna have the best time ever <3 won’t be on tumblah much but I’ll jump in every now and then. Also she’s gonna make at least one video for my YouTube with me which is gonna kick ass. Anyway @beshamaru is THE GREATEST HUMAN TO WALK THIS EARTH and if anyone says otherwise I will FIGHT THEM.

Originally posted by cheaplittlemagician

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
We throw around the word never likes its nothing but a small rose petal. The word never is a doubled edged sword. On one side it says ‘I will never leave you’ and on the other it says ‘I will never love you.’
—  The Word Never