keaton, how d'you resolve being a christian and being trans and also gay? I went to church on sunday for the first time in years and I really enjoyed it, but I can't get past the fact that a), leviticus is pretty explicitly 'don't fuck men', and b), it feels like everyone else has this smooth relationship with Jesus, whereas for me, it's like I need relationship counselling. How can I be lovable when who I am is vehemently wrong as per the Bible? Any help would be wonderful.
with regards to leviticus specifically, there’s a huge chance that it doesn’t say ‘don’t have sex with men,’ and that this is just in fact a pretty strong indicator of translator bias. the word homosexuality didn’t even show up in any translation of the bible until 1946. according to jeff chu, the whole passage that the excerpt comes from is about adultery, promiscuity, and idol worship, which has nothing to do with sexual orientation at all.
this aligns with contemporary readings of the koine greek which suggest that the phrase ‘do not lie with man’ has to do with positions of social power, i.e. don’t place the men around you into inferior statuses for your own personal gain (super unfortunate that it had to be phrased through the lens of sexism, but point stands). and yeah, leviticus exists, but so does matthew, where jesus goes and heals a roman soldier’s male lover, so i think that says a lot too.
the bible was written by men in an era when being gay was punishable by death. it’s been two thousand years and we still live on a planet where being gay is punishable by death. maybe this is a reflection of the fact that my viewpoints are getting progressively more radical as time goes on, but listen, the only way to change the system is to challenge it. to be an lgbt christian is to be exactly the kind of marginalized person whom jesus called upon to bring about the revolutionary, freeing social reforms in his lifetime, and we are whom he still calls upon today. your identity isn’t inherently wrong, no matter what any bigots have told you otherwise. jesus values you as you are right now in this moment! you mean so much to him, not in spite of who you are, but because of it!
and as for your second question, any relationship takes a lot of time and effort, and the idea that everyone except you has a smooth relationship with god is farcical at best. i have periods where i forget to pray for weeks, where i spend a lot of time shouting at god, where i’m afraid i’m not good enough to even whisper at god, where god feels distant, where i feel distant, where it’s messy and it’s rough and it’s imperfect. but at the end of it all, the support and encouragement i feel on those (many) good days makes sticking with it worth it to me. please keep talking to god! he loves you so much and he wants you in his life. you’re not unworthy of the blessings that he wishes to give you. take care xx