to pretend to be ok

anonymous asked:

prompt: the disciple who loves Jesus arrives at the tomb of his beloved

if the light touches him,
it does so like this: gently.

if he touches the rock
that covers the cave mouth,
he does so like this: gently.

judas presses one damp cheek
to the warm limestone, & then
both of his blistered
rivermud-stained palms.

mere nights ago, a thousand
lifetimes ago, yeshua had held
those hands in his own,
under a moon-kissed fig tree
in gethsemane while the others
had slept unknowing.

you must do this, yeshua
whispered through trembling
lips, do this for me.

judas thinks of dark thorns,
iron nails, the soft flesh broken
open. he thinks of how he hid
himself in the faraway rushes so
he wouldn’t hear anything but
the water & his own heart roiling.

judas did this for him
but his soul still howls,
his mouth still aches.

they’ll call me betrayer. he stumbles
over the words of his prayer.
whether this is true or not,
i’ve still killed you. my laughing
poet king. my armored starlight.

my blood’s tainted with the sins
of skin, silver, destruction.
should it be that hell exists, find me
there & say i am forgiven.

silence. then suddenly
winds sing past him,
& in the distance a host
of dust-colored sparrows
tears into flight.

The only thing on my mind today was Andrew Minyard and his mocking salute.
It’s super shaky, messy, and rough and the quality sucks sooo bad (I’m sincerely sorry for that, I had insane trouble with the size and resizing, it’s super annoying plus tumblr loves to screw the quality) but anyway.
Now I really wanna animate a few scenes from the books (will only take a life time but whatevs, do I have something better to do with my life ? Yes definitely..but do I care? No.). Also, thank you for 200 followers and welcome to the fandom who ever just discovered it!!

things i am still learning part iii:

love isnt love if it’s not unconditional. don’t let anyone pick and choose which qualities you should keep and which habits you should discard. the words “i love you” should never be followed by the word “but,” and if they can’t handle your hurricane nights they don’t deserve your warm breeze days.

sometimes you need to be awful. be dirty, filthy, cruel. burn photos like you used to in high school. smoke cigarettes in his sweater because he always hated the smell. you can decide if you want to wash it before you give it back. you can decide how far to take it.

be reckless if it makes you feel more alive. adrenaline rushes are so commonly sought after, and you’ll never understand why until you feel your heart gasping for air.

prove yourself right. if you have any small reason not to completely trust someone, chances are you’re onto something. don’t let anyone have your trust if they don’t deserve it.

don’t waste your time on anyone who won’t spend their time with you. if he’s always hours late, if he cancels to be with others, if he isn’t willing to call you on the phone every so often just to talk, break all the clocks in your bedroom. smash the watch you’ve kept since you were a kid. it’s just not worth it.

if he calls you crazy for asking questions, you already guessed the answer. leave. and don’t you dare go back.

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som super early tazboys designs……………i’’’m got so much work to do refining them (esp outfit wise lord Jesus)

being an antizionist jew and discussing it on this website is so fucking annoying lmfao bc on the one hand we have zionist jews screaming about how our “internalized antisemitism” etc and on the other and we have non-palestinian goyim who shut us out of any conversation the second we try to shed some light on WHY so many jews (in the west especially) are zionists so that we can perhaps approach them and get underneath all the brainwashing they likely grew up with, and gain their support for our cause

like golly gee i, a jew, sure do love getting shut out of conversations about jewish nationalism by goyim who have no stock in the issue whatsoever other than earning their Good Tumblr Leftist points so they can yell about how antisemitism doesn’t matter because #FREEPALESTINE and really have no clue what the hell they’re even talking about

it’s not hard to tell when someone considers themself an antizionist because they’re truly against nationalism and settler colonialism and are for the liberation of palestinians, and when they’re actually just antisemites or following what they think they should because tumblr says so…this issue is so complex and i’m tired of seeing people discuss it in such a reductive way lol 

when antizionist jews try to explain the reasons why there are so many zionist jews (mostly, brainwashing and antisemitism) LISTEN TO US!!!! tackling these issues is the first step to making an actual change. otherwise your “activism” is performative and helps absolutely nobody.

and another boxer!lexa~

Naruto couples attend a birthing class
  • Chouji: Providing snacks for his wife's unstopable cravings.
  • Karui: Crying in the corner because she thinks she's getting fat, while assaulting a bag of chips.
  • Naruto: Has three clones assisting Hinata to change positions while he holds her hand the whole time.
  • Hinata: Strongly embarrassed at having to spread legs in front of the entire class.
  • Sasuke: Pretends to find it annoying but has sharingan activated the whole time to remember everything.
  • Sakura: Glaring at Ino and doing her best at following instructions.
  • Sai: Follows all the instructions, including those for women.
  • Ino: Glaring at Sakura and doing her best at following instructions.
  • Shikamaru: Sleeps and snores.
  • Temari: Tries to pay attention, but later falls asleep, too.
Small and Tall | Clony Headcannon

• So its kinda common knowledge that Tony is tiny and Clay absolutely loves it.

• “You know, if you weren’t so small our relationship would be totally boring” Clay mutters one day when the two were standing in the kitchen of the Jensen’s house.

• “What, because you wouldn’t be able to mock me all the time? I may be short but i am one fiesty man, Clay.”

• Tony pulled a pan out of the cupboard and placed it into the hob. “Are we thinking chili?”

• “Mmm, definitely.” Clay moves to wrap his arms around Tony’s waist and rest his chin onto of Tony’s head. “Your chili is the greatest.”

• Tony whacks Clay off of him as he moves to grab a can of stewed tomatoes from the cupboard. He stretches up and his fingers brush the bottom of the middle shelf.

• “Babe, you’re hilarious,” Clay chuckles as he moves Tony out of the way to grab the tin with ease. “All you gotta do is ask me to help your short ass.”

• “Clay, move outta the way and let me cook before i whoop your ass with this tea towel. I want it finished before your mom comes home.”

• Clay sighed but moved from the way and sat down at the kitchen to table to watch his boyfriend cook.