i wish i can take my life into full control. be able to do absolutely everything without this sense of being controlled or stopped by anyone. i know im only 18 and im “young” but i think i’ve lived enough at least to know that bad things happen to good people and that good people are sometimes able to change some bad people and i think i learnt what it was like to love myself so much to fight for the one i love so much despite everything. i believe that faith pushes two people together it makes them stick, it makes them want each other. i know we are young but sometimes the best love happens young, its not dumb young love because its raw and real and sometimes very messy and when all goes bad we still feel the good. i mean its real for me i’ve been in fake love before it makes you want to die and you try to convince yourself its love but its not. im not convincing myself i live it, its beautiful. its like waking up and feeling you there, its missing you and wanting to do everything this world will ever allow me to do with you. love is supposed to be real and raw, i dont have to say it for us to fucking feel it constantly in our bones and running through our veins. today made me realize that something life changing can happen at any given second, i still cannot imagine how id live if you were not around, i love you in every single way possible, its real because for us there has never been anyone else, its always been us even if we force ourselves to fake otherwise we cant do it. i may only be 18 and write over the top poems but theres no way to romanticize the love i have for you its just the realest thing and it makes my body warm and my mind at ease and maybe my head just fits perfectly on your chest and my arms wrap around your neck just right, your nose is the most perfect facial feature my eyes have ever seen on anyone. i think i fall in love with you a bit more each day, not just with you but with us, im in love with the way we help eachother grow and change for the better, i love us for how we fix eachothers faults, i love us for how beautiful we are together. i cant explain how i feel, i can just show you in every single way possible.