to know some of those bands

Exquisite Death

Got your attention, didn’t it? GOOD. Now that you’re here:

Humans Are Weird ™

I know. Anyway - I was in the dentist this morning and I had a thought. It isn’t necessarily about teeth. Those of you hopelessly addicted to Dragon Age will recognize that phrase up there in reference to some apparently gorgeous-looking, truly-heinous petit fours. Apparently they’re…I don’t know? Delicious but killing you while you eat them. Pain, but, you know “worth it!”

So there I was, getting my teeth scraped and belt sanded clean and I realized that (along with the oh-so-nice slick feeling of clean teeth) I was really looking forward to my teeth aching all day. I know. Weird. But it’s like when I had braces - I hated the rubber bands, the jerk orthodontist, getting food stuck, and the brackets scraping up the inside of my mouth. What I didn’t hate was when I got adjustments and my teeth would dully ache for days. How messed up is that? It was my own Exquisite Death. A sweet ache.

Doesn’t have to be my brand of weird. Maybe for you it’s muscles. How they ache after a good run, a good workout. You hate it while it’s happening, but afterwards, when there’s that aching tingle of a muscle well-used, it’s pretty glorious.

— — —

“Human-Denton!” The alien’s too-large eyes were wide and unblinking as he looked down on his charge who had yet to get up off the floor. Urrut was supposed to be keeping watch over this human, but he was hard to keep track of - he was constantly moving and hardly ever asleep.

Holding an arm up, Denton let it fall to the ground. Hard. Muscles aching and protesting any sort of movement. “Gimme a minute.”

“Are you in distress? Shall I call a medic? Why did you do all of that - you are…oozing! Is this normal? Shall I call a medic?” Urrut’s sticky feet peeled up from the mat - first one than the other as he shifted uneasily.

“You asked that twice,” Denton gave a wheezing laugh. “I had to see if I could do it. Gotta push yourself, Ur. Gonna hurt like hell tomorrow.”

“I am calling a medic.”

“No, Urrut-” Oh it hurt, but he sat up. Rubbing his arms, he worked the stiffness threatening to set in. “I’m fine. I swear.” Next was his legs, and then he could get up. He wasn’t kidding. It was going to hurt tomorrow, but… “Worth it.”

— — —

Maybe you’re one of those people who gets a bruise and pokes at it “because it makes it heal faster”. Let’s be real. You just like the ache of it. Reminds you that you’re alive, that you can feel, that you did something amazing or stupid or amazingly stupid.

— — —

Shore leave was over, and as the crew made their way back on board, Meera found herself watching two of the human engineers talking and laughing about what they had done with their free time, and then…then they did something odd. One peeled back the shoulder of their jacket, and the other lifted the hem of their top covering to reveal discolorations - bruises.

They were laughing about them. They were proud of them. And - she was sure her face was a mash of confusion and disgust and horror - they were prodding at each others bruises, hurting each other, and laughing about it!

Barbarians the lot of them.

— — —

Maybe it’s food. Oh god, there’s no way you don’t know someone (or aren’t that someone) that eats good that hurts. Too hot. Too spicy. Too…dairy (lactose intolerant people, I feel for you.)

— — —

The lunchroom erupted in laughter as Aimee all but bathed in the water she was pouring into her mouth, down her throat, and all over the front of her clothes. She hopped around, flailing her hands, tears streaming down her face until someone shoved a glass of white, opaque liquid into her hands and she carefully drank it as though it were the most precious nectar.

Taking flight, Zzirxax zoomed across the room, hovering nearby, “What just happened? Is she okay?”

Through laughter and cursing and what Zzirxax came to understand that the humans had done something called a ‘dare’, and that it involved Human-Aimee consuming the hottest pepper from Galmeria-6. When asked why, why would she do that, the reply was predictably human.

“Won, didn’t I?” Mouth open a moment, fanning air towards it with her hand, Aimee took a deep breath and wiped away another tear. “So worth it.”

Post Ticket Sale Self-Care Masterlist

To all of those of you who have managed to purchase tickets: CONGRATULATIONS! I have so much happiness for you and your opportunity to see our boy in person. Now, it’s been an absolute emotional rollercoaster these past 24 hours, so please, please please please: TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!!

By all means, celebrate. Hoot and holler. Dance in your room in your underwear. Blast some Sign of the Times and air band the fuck outta the jam (I personally know the drum part like the back of my hand). Post to your Facebook about how thrilled you are. 

But afterwards, please give your body some time to relax and recuperate from all the adrenaline. Your body loves you and has held you together during this hell of a ride, and it’s time to care for it as well. Please scroll down to see a list of more self care tips and helpful websites. x

To all of you who did NOT get ahold of any tickets: I’m really, really, really, so very sorry, my love. It’s absolutely devastating to miss out on this opportunity, and you’re absolutely 100% validated in feeling angry, upset, or any other emotions that you need to feel right now. Please remember that your ability to see him live does not in any way affect your value as a person or a fan. It was a real ass-kicker, this one, and the chances were low for all of us. Our boy really loves us a lot, and that doesn’t change if you couldn’t buy a ticket. Please, please, PLEASE take care of yourself, my dear. Here are some tips and things you can do to care for yourself today:


  • Take a bubble bath. 
  • Go for a long drive.
  • Listen to music. Listen to something other than Harry, if you need to.
  • Call/talk to a friend.
  • Buy yourself a treat from the grocery store (or any store)!
  • Go see a movie.
  • Buy yourself that book that you’ve been wanting to read for a little while.
  • Light a candle.
  • Write. Write out all your feelings, every single thought, until you cannot write anymore. It helps to write it out physically so that it’s tangible. After you’ve written everything down, do whatever you need to do to rid yourself of it, whether it be burying it, crumpling it up and throwing it out, or giving it to someone you trust who is understanding and loves you.
  • Give a stranger a smile.
  • Go for a long walk.
  • Go to the gym.
  • DRINK SOME WATER. I MEAN IT. RIGHT NOW. BEFORE YOU KEEP READING.
  • Eat something, please.
  • Read your favorite fanfiction (again, if what you need is to distance yourself from H, might not be the best option)
  • DON’T FEEL GUILTY FROM NEEDING TO GIVE YOURSELF SOME DISTANCE. We all do sometimes, and your health comes before anything else. Log off of Tumblr, stop checking your Twitter for updates, maybe turn off your notifications. We will all be here when you return, but your health comes first.
  • Bake!
  • Treat yourself to a meal at your favorite restaurant.
  • Treat yourself to a meal at the cheapest restaurant. For me, there’s very little that a large fries from McDonald’s can’t fix.
  • Buy yourself something cute online.
  • Take a nap.
  • DANCE.
  • Reread your favorite book.
  • Watch your favorite movie.
  • Watch your favorite Netflix show.
  • Talk to someone. Anyone. If you don’t have anyone to talk to, my ask and messages are ALWAYS open.

Here are a few more resources:

Self care websites masterpost:

 https://changeforhappiness.tumblr.com/post/159476432769/guys-this-is-very-important

Self care masterposts:

http://thegrangersapprentice.tumblr.com/post/159612539530/all-things-pertaining-to-self-carede-stressing

http://catladykhaleesi.tumblr.com/post/157471955395/self-care-masterpost

http://little-red-studies.tumblr.com/post/147555847368/self-care-is-one-of-the-most-important-things

Mental health apps:

http://recoverywarriorx.tumblr.com/post/90481616356/mental-illness-apps-one-reblog-could-help-or-even

Alternatives to self harm:

https://especialty.tumblr.com/post/150042977232/alternatives-to-self-harm


Now I don’t usually ask of this, but please, if this post comes across your dash, reblog it. You don’t know which of your followers could need it.

Take care of each other, take care of yourselves. Much love. x

anonymous asked:

i know it took me a while but i'm beginning to understand now why louis fans are so protective over him seeing the things happen today. i used to follow the wrong people who would get mad when ppl spoke up about him being treated wrongly but now i get why

After this mess i dont want a. single. person. moan and whine about us treating him “"like a baby”“”. NOT A SINGLE PERSON. If it was their fave they’d be breaking down by now. We had to see him being treated like shit for 6 fucking years while helplessly watching it all happen before our eyes. His own “team” treats him like a punching bag, promoting and protecting literally everyone EXCEPT for him, throwing him to the wolves. His own “team” single handedly is responsible for each and every shit he has had to endure for so long. He hasnt had a rest since this band was formed. There is a reason why we are so fiercely protective of him and if people took 5 mins of their time they’d know that reason. Instead they hide behind false pretends waiting till some shit happen so they can look for reasons to hate him and bring him down and attack those who defend him. Fuck that, fuck them.

anonymous asked:

So I got a question about the sparing and padding post that you recently made. I like to read Assassin's Creed fanfictions that shows Altair (the main character) in his early years, which often includes his training to be an assassin. In most of these fics they focus more on the sword and knife fighting but some does include the hand to hand fighting too (without protection). So realistically what kind of injuries would someone training without any kind of protection should expect?

Death.

I’m only sort of kidding, because I know the kinds of fanfics you’re talking about and like every writer trying to be edgy, they have them spar without protections and with live weapons. There’s a reason why we use practice weapons during training and in sparring matches, where rules are in play. 

Now, the Assassin’s Creed variant of the Hashashin live for that super edgy, very stupid state of supposed badass where one must constantly prove their worth so I totally believe they’d do it. I’d also believe this would lead to an incredibly high turnover with their recruits, which is not sustainable in the real world.

I’m going to point out here that the “Asassins” or Hashashin were real. That’s the etymology for the word. The suicide jumping is also real and, instead of landing on bales of hay, they jumped to their deaths. There are a couple of stories about that piece of the order. The real Assassins were religious fanatics. These stories are not so much a testament to the quality of their training so much as their fanaticism.

For what it’s worth, the Knights Templar were also real and a prominent militant order up until they were excommunicated by the Pope.

The history of both groups is actually far more interesting than the Assassin’s Creed franchise. This is a persistent problem with the games, they invariably include historical figures who are far, far, far more interesting, competent, and badass than we’re presented with. If you encounter a historical personage in an Assassin’s Creed game, remind yourself of this simple fact: the real one is about 200x more awesome. It’s this weird inverse where the reality consistently surpasses the fiction. (Black Flag, I have my eye on you. Honestly, how do you mess up Stede Bonnet, The Gentleman Pirate? And that’s the least of your sins!)

The more serious answer is that unless you’re training with weapons or making an active effort to hit each other, in the real world we don’t train using pads on the regular. The pads are so you can essentially go full out against another person under controlled circumstances and then come back for training tomorrow. If your students are constantly getting injured that hampers their ability to train, then they fall behind and you turn out fewer fighters. Injuries on the training floor should not be a common occurrence.

Barring accidents and mishaps, if you’re simply practicing your techniques on your own or against a wooden dummy then all you should expect afterwards is standard muscle pain (maybe some bruising). The same should be true for practice with human opponents (which is not sparring) and sparring itself.

Anything else is a waste of time, energy, and resources.

Remember, injuries take time to heal and if you’re prepping someone to go out and murder that’s time you don’t have.

In the land of “edgy training”, try to remember that you want evil as opposed to incompetence.

The vast majority of training, like the kinds you listed, are edgy incompetence. They don’t serve a purpose other than sadism and your students don’t learn anything. Unfortunately, cruelty on its own doesn’t teach much (the Spartans were abusive jerks, but their methods worked). The beat up, abuse them, cruelty methodology simply doesn’t work unless you understand the kinds that work and, from a storytelling perspective, it also isn’t interesting.

The kind of “edgy training” you see in most stories is a round of Kinder’s First. People mimicking what Hollywood has taught them or what they’ve seen in fiction elsewhere. The assumption in this line of thinking is that the more brutal the training then the more dangerous the fighter. This isn’t true. More importantly, there are much better ways to sadistically mess with your students’ (and audience’s) heads.

1) Depending on your teaching style, you may murder a student on occasion to motivate the others. However, the control over who lives or dies remains with the instructor because the instructor is god. If a student gets a bright idea to kill another student without your approval, kill them.

2) Live weapons should never be used by students on each other except as a graduation gift. The graduation gift being only one of them will be accepted into the Order, so prove your worth. (In the real world, you’ll probably need them both but in fantasy land… why not?)

3) Use the threat of death to keep your students from getting comfortable, make good on this promise every so often. Bring in an established warrior to kill off your best student in demonstration to the others. (Why? It reminds them at no point are they safe.)

4) Encourage your students to break the rules, punish them severely if caught. (Playing favorites? Punish them more, push them harder.)

5) Limit their resources. Make them fight each other for their food. Survival isn’t a given. It’s earned.

6) In the early days, force them into physical exhaustion. Keep them up late. Wake them early. Limit their sleep to the minimum of hours they need to stay functional. Tired minds are easier to manipulate.

7) Force them into direct conflict with each other. There’s never a solid baseline they can achieve, and they’re always watching over their shoulder. Furthermore they never become loyal to each other. They are only loyal to you. Appeasing their teacher is their only means of survival.

8) Got a problem child who won’t play along? Don’t make an example of them. No, no, make them your new favorite. That’ll turn the others on them, and they’ll solve the problem for you.

9) Change the goalposts regularly, so they never know what to expect.

10) You’ve got someone who doesn’t want to participate? Say okay. When others move to join them, punish those students viciously instead. Do it in front of the class and for everyone to see. (This is called: creating heroes and wrecking them.)

11) Have your students inform on each other.

If this is starting to sound like abuse, well.. you’re right. It is. It also very successful in terms of achieving its goal. The goal is attacking the student’s perceptions, beliefs, and their understanding of the world while reshaping them into who you want them to be.

Real cruelty is clever and inventive. It is also patient. Like a good interrogator, this teacher will leave their students so they’re never sure of exactly what the teacher wants or how to please them. They give them hope, then snatch it away. Someone who excels at social manipulation will use this position of power to maneuver their students feelings and their expectations, indirectly point them at certain targets by stoking negative feeling such as jealousy, paranoia, anger, or fear. In the other hand, those rare moments of kindness offered will ensure gratitude. When a good teacher wants their uncooperative students to band together, they make themselves the target the students need to fight against. The abusive teacher does the opposite. They ensure they are the only boat in the storm and turn their charges on each other. They make sure their students never know what to expect. This includes going hot and cold. They change up to batter expectations, handle some problems themselves and let the students handle others.

An experienced teacher will have seen plenty of student characters, all the versions you can imagine. A good one will break the problem kids to bridle without them ever realizing it happened, and they exit the experience more hardcore than the ones who invested themselves honestly. The purpose of “brutal training” isn’t to churn out a better warrior. It’s to break the individual down so you can reshape their mind and ensure the weapon you’ve created is loyal to you. That level of conditioning is very difficult to break. You’ve re-oriented their entire training into status positions they’ve fought for and earned. This training becomes a foundation for their identity, and you’re not going to get it out of them.

So, before invoking the trope, choose wisely and understand the purpose for what it is. Actively abusive training is done with the express intent to recondition and brainwash. More than that, in competent hands, it’ll snap the “rebellious teenage hero” contingent like twigs.

As a member of a fanatical cult, Altair is a direct example of this sort of training writ large.

-Michi

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Tips To Surviving Band Camp

Hey everyone! So as the school year is coming to an end, marching season is beginning. This of course means band camp! Whether you’re a rookie or a returner, it’s always nice to know what you’re getting into and have some reminders.

1. WATER! Drink LOTS of water! This is probably the most important thing. Stay hydrated, drink water every chance you get, because you’re going to be out in the hot sun on the turf all day. Most people bring those big water jugs, make sure you drink AT LEAST one of those in a day, two would be even better. Drink a lot at night too so you’re hydrated in the morning too. 

2. Sleep! You’re gonna be exhausted at the end of each day, so make sure you take care of yourself and get the sleep you need to stay healthy during camp. I know I went to my drum major’s house and fell asleep during dinner break last year XD You want to have the energy you need, which is gonna be a lot, so don’t be staying up till 1 or 2 am watching netflix if you know you have vis block at 7 am.

3. For my trans and nonbinary friends, DO NOT bind during band camp! Trust me, I am in the same boat with this one. As much as I know you want to pass, it’s not safe or healthy to bind in those conditions. You’ll restrict your breathing at a time when it matters most. I know it’s gonna suck, but your health and safety is more important.

4. Don’t blow your chops out! Sometimes you really wanna practice, or over practice, but trust me if this happens you won’t be helping yourself. You wanna be able to come to camp every day ready to play your best, and you won’t be able to do that if you over played the day before. Know you’re limits and recovery time, especially for all you lead trumpets.

5. Eat. Whether you’re in drum corps or a high school band, you all need to eat. This goes along with sleep and water, but you need the energy. If you go jazz running around the field in 100 degrees whether with no food in your stomach, you’re gonna throw up or pass out. Stay healthy and take care of your body and make sure you’re getting the nutrients and protein your body needs for an activity like this.

6. When it comes to health and safety, just know your limits. If you’re not feeling great, sit out. You director will understand. Your health always comes first. And if something doesn’t feel right, don’t be afraid to tell someone. Also, I know a lot of people have injuries. Make sure you don’t push those. Wear the knee brace or the elbow brace, wrap your ankle, do whatever you can to help yourself and sit out if it hurts. Don’t push yourself too far.

7. Now that the health and safety stuff has been addressed, social interaction! A lot of you rookies may go in not knowing people, and I understand how scary that can be. Take it from someone who couldn’t even talk to the two girls marching next to me for the entirety of band camp, it’s so much better if you just talk to them. Talk to other freshmen, talk to your section leaders and drum majors, talk to the upperclassmen! We want to get to know you too, and we know it’s hard at first. Band camp is the beginning of a great journey and you’ll make so many friends, you have nothing to be worried about.

8. DON’T LOSE YOUR DOT SHEETS OR MUSIC!!! Seriously. If you lose them, we have to go to the band room and make copies, then you’re behind because you didn’t have all the materials. It makes it easier on everyone if you keep track of everything. It’s also good to show that you’re responsible.

9. Listen to your techs, section leaders, and drum majors. They know what they’re talking and they were put into their positions for a reason. If they tell you you need to fix something or to stop messing around, listen. They’re doing what’s best for you and the band. You learn so much from them too, take every opportunity you get when they give you tips for improvement.

10. HAVE FUN! Like I said earlier, band camp is just the beginning. Do things with your friends! Go out for lunch or dinner together, get to know everyone, have a little fun with your rehearsals. A lot of schools do games at band camp and get into it! It’s so fun to just relax and goof around with people. Do things with your section, talk to people. Just have a good time! These people are gonna become your family and give you an amazing experience.

Bonus (11). A lot of people are reblogging this and adding SUNSCREEN! I cant believe I forgot that haha but yes! Sunscreen is super important! Even if you don’t burn easily, wear it! Reapply every 1-2 hours if I’m being honest. Getting burned sucks!
some more Power Rangers Band AU fic

since @thecousinsdangereux asked, I wrote a ficlet based on that Band AU post going around. Basically, this is an article written about the band after the success of their first single. (I am not a music writer, I’m so sorry to the profession).

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Mighty Ranger Danger on Tour

By Jane Smith (staff writer)

I caught up with the five members of Ranger Danger, an upcoming indie rock band from California (aren’t they all?), backstage after one of their gigs. They’re crowded nearly on top of each other on the ratty old sofa in a tiny closet serving as their dressing room at the back of the building. I ask if they need any more chairs but Kimberly Hart (lead singer) just shrugs her shoulders and flings her feet into Trini Kwan’s lap, the bassist only reacting by trying to tie her shoes together.

Definitely no personal space issues with this group.

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Hello, all my kpoppers out there!

I don’t know if anyone besides us Bestfriends will see this, but if you do it would mean so much if you could help. 

As you may or may not know, Boyfriend is still a band! And their fans love them so so much, I have been a Bestfriend for six years and it’s been the most loving and rewarding experience on this earth, and I don’t want me or any of us to have to let that go. We have been forgotten a lot over the years, but we never lost our ability for compassion and kindness and the propensity to welcome anyone with open arms. We are truly a fandom who has done everything to emulate those we look up to and to live up to our name.

Recently some news has come out that a new band will be debuting on the say day Boyfriend debuted, and they happen to be going by the same name. I tried very hard to help solve problem internally, but we do not have the numbers that many fandoms do. We do not have a problem with these young children who are debuting, they are young and innocent, so we have no ill feelings towards them. But we are so heartbroken that our Boyfriend has been neglected for literally half the time they’ve been a band. We are tired of not seeing them, we are tired Starship didn’t root for them when they weren’t as popular when they wanted, we are tired because they didn’t fight for their own NAME. This is especially devastating because at this point it feels like their name is all they have left and now that’s been taken away from them. It’s cruel, it’s immoral and dehumanizing. One of our very own band members just is clearly so immensely distraught that there is nothing he can do, and I am distraught too that there’s nothing I can do. But there is something perhaps WE can do. These  boys, AND MAybe I’m biased….they are the six most wonderful, kind, talented, loving people who only from day one wished to spread joy. We can’t just lose them like we are, it’s not fair. I don’t want to go down without a fight but I need everyone I can to help me. It would so much to me, it would mean the world and I would be eternally grateful. Sending this out and hoping it gets read really is the last resort.

Please if you have a twitter, tweet and encourage others to tweet at Starship https://twitter.com/STARSHIPent with the hashtag #SAVEBOYFRIEND even if it’s one tweet if we can get a lot of people to do it maybe it will add up to something and if you can spare the time please sign this petition! 

Thank you so much in advance, and if anyone has any questions please don’t hesitate to ask, I am always available 

I saw a high school marching band’s early spring rehearsal today.

I saw flourishes that cut a plane, and dropspins that rolled a flag.

I saw a whole line of freshman that could hardly count as a line, none of them in step.

I heard off tune notes, and section leaders who stopped playing saying “left, left, left”.

I saw a group of people who will eventually turn into a family.

I saw a group of kids, some who know what they’re getting into, some who don’t.

I saw the memories I have of being the terrible off beat one in the back, and the memories of working in the hot sun with people that would become those I loved.

And now I see a tear streaming down my face, because as terrible as these kids are, I know I’ll come back in the fall and be astounded by what they’ve accomplished.

I saw a high school marching band today.

Autistic Dex Headcanons
  • HATES there not being a plan in place all the time
    • honestly too much free time stresses him out, which is part of why he makes sure he’s always busy
  • so bad at facial expressions
    • both recognizing them on other people and actually making them
    • during any given point in a conversation half his brain is going ‘what face should i be making? what do i do with my face? how should i be responding shit i don’t know’
    • everyone thinks he’s angry all the time and he’s not he just doesn’t know how to project his emotions
  • hides his need to stim by doing useful things with his hands (fixing stuff, baking)
    • baking also helps give him control over what smells are in the area
    • and dough just feels really nice
    • can’t sit still ever he’ll be shaking his leg or messing with something with his hands
    • chowder catches on and gets him some stim toys but dex is really self conscious about pulling those out in public
    • starts carrying around rubber bands or a deck of cards
  • he auditory stims SO MUCH he will listen to a single song on repeat for literally months on end
  • gets overwhelmed by touch really easily
    • not a fan of textured clothes
    • constantly overwhelmed around the SMH bc they have no concept of personal space
    • also holster and shitty are capable of causing sensory overload just by theirselves
  • he’s alright with kegsters bc alcohol makes everything easier to manage, but he still prefers helping out to getting thrown in the middle of things
  • also he’s really overwhelmed by heat
    • he loves chowder but dex is never coming to cali
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I hate those fans that keep mentioning Patrick has put on a few pounds with some disappointment in their tones of voices. Why do I hate those fans? Because they’re not fans.

Patrick Martin Stump is a SINGER IN A BAND (and an amazing one at that), not a model in a magazine, and shame on whoever takes note of his physical appearance in any sort of critical manner KNOWING that being a teenage girl’s heartthrob doesn’t make a musician. As if how much a scale says determines how great and talented a man he was to ANY sort of extent whatsoever.

Patrick Martin Stump is a father in his 30’s, and I’m sorry but despite the lack of airtight skinny jeans he’s still the most attractive man I’ve ever lay eyes on, whether in PRESENT DAY, during SOUL PUNK, or during Folie à Deux.

I said it before, and I’ll say it again, shame on whoever judges Pat for his weight, or lack of his fedora, because he is happy, healthy, and handsome, just the fucking way he is.

Too Deep

Summary: When your depression consumes you, you almost don’t make it through this time.

Request: Could you please do a Cas x reader where reader has severe depression? She self harms too? Nobody knows because she hides it well, but Cas finds out one day. Like, maybe they guys are out, and she wears some stuff that shows her scars. Or maybe it gets hotter, and Cas starts questioning her. Obviously angst, but I also want a whole lot of fluff please. Thank you! Requested by Anon <3

A/N: The ending of this is fluffy, I realize this one is a bit darker, so please know that if you ever need to talk, you’re free to come to me. I’ve been there myself, I get it, I know those voices in your head can say some nasty things <3

-Feedback is always appreciated!

Pairing: Castiel x Reader

Warnings: Depression, attempted suicide, language fluffy ending

Word Count: 1.2k

Originally posted by lucifersagents

Things weren’t typically this bad for you; but as the blood trickled down your arm and onto the bathroom floor, the only thing you hoped for was death.

You’d kept yourself from giving into the urge for weeks. You distracted yourself. You’d rub old scars, snap rubber bands on your wrists, or even take the less harmful route and burn yourself with a Bic.

But today, you woke up to Dean knocking on your door, telling you to get up and get ready. You’d be going swimming. But you couldn’t run from the sinking feeling in your chest, or the voices in your head that told you you’d be better off dead.

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Disappointed

I’ve said much lately regarding Liam and his & his teams promo of Strip That Down and his situation, but I need to get this out, then I’m officially done with speaking on it. I have been part of this fandom for 4 years. I have watched this fandom rally around each of the guys in moments of despair in moments of joy and love and frustration. I have watched this band give back everything they have to this fandom & then some. I have seen friendships develop because of this band, my own friendship with my best friend which I wouldn’t trade for the world. I have found love thanks to this band and I know well each and every one of you have in some ways found those same things. I understand that liams promo has been something else which is the number one reason it should appear as shady af to all of you instead of bashing him your support was more needed than ever. You have rallied for each of the guys getting them chart numbers and mass love and appreciation and yet when Liam needed you the most you failed. I get you may not agree with everything that’s been said but if you truly stop and look, take your blinders off, step away from Larry, babygate 1.0, and every other thing that has you blinded to just how fucked up Liams situation is, you’d see just that. It’s fucked up. Nothing about his promo has been normal. Debut singles are promoted for that, not promo for his personal life and stunts. You have all given so much to this band and they in return, Liam especially, whether you choose to admit that or not. He needed you all this week the way you were there for Harry’s, Nialls & Louis with Steve, he needed you to give back to him the way he has for years. He needed your support and love to achieve something he’s DREAMT of his entire life and you let him down. So so many of you. My heart utterly breaks for him because you’ve fallen to exactly what this promo was. I hope you’re all happy with yourselves. Regardless of whether you love the song or not he’s part of one d and has over and over made that clear to you, you could’ve at least not voted against him in every poll you saw. The other boys all had their moments, they all deserved it & so did Liam. Thank you for truly showing me what so many of you are made of and who you are, I’ve truly never been so disappointed.

So, it’s the end of the year in band, we’re pretty much done, no more concerts, not much point to be in there anymore. As such, our teacher is having us sight-read pieces of music for practice, because we’re not really good at sight-reading. We had a piece today that our director said that his very first band took to district competition, fifteen years ago. Our teacher then goes on to say that they were the worst band he ever had, and that three of those kids are in jail now. One is in for armed robbery, another is in for breaking and entering, and the last one is in for drugs. (Two percussionists and a trumpet, btw.) He then recounts how they warmed up in a gym for districts, and one of the kids just went and started playing basketball, and when asked to stop, cussed him out and LEFT. We sightread through the piece and he goes, “you know, I think that was better than how that band play after having practiced it for four months.”


My band director has seen some shit.

anonymous asked:

If u don't use ot4 or ot5 to denote whether something was before or after Zayn left or whether a gif/photo contains all 5 boys vs 4 because it was after March 2015, then what do you use for tagging?? Or like, if it was up to u what would u want everyone to tag things as?

Oh, it’s much deeper than tagging.  It’s really the issue of the fandom either A) not thinking critically at all, or B) being hypocritical about what they apply logic to.  It’s also about people, no matter what they think happened (Zayn’s leaving wasn’t fishy vs. Zayn’s leaving being super fucking fishy), being willing to immediately believe the worst about someone they should already know the true good character of.

In more specific terms, it’s about the fandom buying everything the media and the narrative says about Zayn without valuing logic and the things Zayn says from his own mouth more.  It’s about fans willfully interpreting everything related to Zayn as negative, deciding they have a grudge against him because of those perceived “slights”, and then erasing and demonizing him in equal measure.

To state a surprising truth, there isn’t a single person in this fandom that believes everything the narrative says about One Direction.  They probably think they do, but they don’t.  I’ve seen people who constantly mock the idea of a narrative or a constructed media image and yet they still push back when the boys are said to be dating someone that’s not confirmed, said to have been rude, said to be doing odd things (sheep placenta facials anyone?), said to have a bad relationship with each other, said to be violent or on drugs, etc.  

The thing is, people THINK they believe everything is simple and truthful, but at a basic level, they have their own beliefs about who the boys are based on what they’ve seen in interviews.  If those conflict with what they’re told, they scoff at what’s being fed to them.

This is fact and yet a large chunk of the fandom had very little problem turning around and believing everything bad the media said about Zayn, even when the things he himself said and did were so different from that.  

“so grateful” and “loved what we did as a boyband”

“I don’t think I woulda done anything different”

“there was no contingency” and “my band’s been really supportive, they’ve been really cool about it”

“it was nice to look back at the memories we shared together” and “ok, you’re saying that” (this requires tone interpretation, but his tone is “don’t agree, yeah, ok, whatever, shut up” rather than “I agree with you and I’m being coy about it”)

“you don’t want to feel that you’re being lied to, not that I was lying, it’s just that them songs didn’t really fit my style of singing, so I wasn’t really 100% confident in the way that I was singing back then”

What Zayn said in person didn’t at all match up with the headlines the newspapers kept running and the words they kept putting in his mouth.

A specific example is this whole thing that people believe Harry and Zayn have a problem when NEITHER. HARRY. NOR. ZAYN. EVER. SAID. A. BAD. WORD. OR. SHOWED, SIGNS. OF. TENSION.  

I can understand believing Louis and Zayn fought a little bit more (even though evidence suggests the Twitter fight was all a planned show), but the only things that ever happened with Harry and Zayn were some BS news articles with no source and Harry making a few jokes about the unnecessary tension and glee the interviewers had when talking about Zayn.

Up until the very last show Zayn was at, he and Harry were acting normal and close. Even after Zayn’s last show, Harry was right there with the other boys in leaving space for Zayn on stage.  Even after THAT, Harry was involved in things that referenced Zayn in a positive way.

(When a fan showed Harry this picture of Zayn in concert)

There is NO basis for believing there’s an issue between Zayn and Harry, yet the fandom believes it because it’s what the press has said.  They apparently want to believe it since there’s been little to no pushback.

This is my problem with group A.

My problem with group B is all of that plus they DO know how to see everything I’m pointing out; they know and they choose not to bother with it if it doesn’t apply to Harry and Louis.  That’s even worse.  There’s no way to miss what’s going on since it’s entangled with the other boys.  It’s even harder to miss since there’s a good core of bloggers here that always gather evidence, do the hard legwork, and make posts about it.  

With the ability to reason, there should only be 2 divisions in fandom: those who believe the narrative no questions asked and those who don’t.  Instead, there are those who believe the narrative no questions asked, those who believe it about some and not others, and those who question and examine everything.

“OT4″ and “all 4 boys” are heavily associated with the erasure of Zayn from the band- even the pre-March 25 band-, the degradation of Zayn’s character, failures of logic, gross hypocrisy, and the diminishment of the amazing bond OT5 share.  

I understand and acknowledge that not all people using it have those intentions or participate in those actions (which is why it doesn’t bother me as much when people I follow and know have good intentions use it), but so many do that it leaves a terrible taste in my mouth every time I see it.  Zayn’s career prospects, personal desires, name, and reputation have been so unfairly and so badly abused that the injustice of it makes me furious. Anything connected to it makes me furious and that’s why “OT4″ and “all 4 boys” has that affect on me.

It’s not something I’m expecting everyone would use, but @paynoisbatman uses “zayn’s boys” when there are 4, or “liam’s boys” if Liam’s the one missing, etc.  It’s a great way of showing that the missing member is still important and is still part of the love all 5 share.  When it comes to “all 4 boys”, you simply have to drop the “all”.  It might take a tiny bit more typing, but it’s worth it to represent the situation accurately and honor the contributions of and bond between all 5.

Title: Faux Pas
Fandom: X-Men
Word Count: 1,307
Characters: Warren Worthington III x Reader, Jubilation Lee
Reader Gender: Female
Warnings: Alcohol mentions, swearing
Notes: Request from anon for “’You’re really hot, shame about the personality’ from one of your prompt lists (with warren please)”

Originally posted by brownvalerie

“Please let me set you up!”

“Absolutely fucking not.”

Conversations such as these were frequent between Warren Worthington III and Jubilation Lee. The latter of the two was nothing if not persistent – and the former was nothing if not stubborn.

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anonymous asked:

hello hello, i am in desperate need of kyouhaba fic recs and i'm pretty sure i've read all the ones in all the other recs as well as the ones in the first five pages on ao3 when you sort by kudos, so if you could help me out i would be very much obliged

Yo anon! Such a daunting task you’ve requested, lmao. I actually had to think about whether or not to indulge this since 1) I have no idea if you’re serious, tbh, 2) I’m not sure if I’ll be able to link you fics that haven’t already been recommended somewhere else, 3) I have no idea which stories you’ve already read, 4) Like I said, this seems very daunting because there are LOTS of brilliant Kyouhaba fics out there. If I get really serious with this, by the time I’m done the list will look pretty overwhelming, lol.

That said, the request wouldn’t leave my mind and since I have free time now, I guess I’ll do it. I’ll go all the way too and treat this as an extensive Kyouhaba rec list for others (HQ/Kyouhaba beginners especially) who might want it, so take note of that if you see stories you’ve already read.

Btw, I’ll just do a shortcut when it comes to authors with multiple Kyouhaba stories and take you to their main AO3 page instead of linking each of their stories. Believe me, these authors are brilliant and there’s no use sifting through their Kyouhaba stories to see what’s good and what’s not. They’re ALL amazing. 

Btw, I used AO3′s tag filter to take you to their Kyouhaba stories only since that’s what you asked for (and what this blog is for).

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anonymous asked:

In light of your recent instagram post, I'd like to hear your thoughts on the racist and nationalist ideas that have been propagated by the pagan/fantasy communities. Specifically, the controversies surrounding bands like Wardruna and the lack of POC representation.

WHOOOOOO buddy this is going to be a long one. I really think I could write an entire book on the subject so this is going to be an extremely abbreviated version (feel free to let me know if there’s anything I need to clarify.) In short, I am so incredibly FRUSTRATED with the crowds that come into the reenactment/pagan/fantasy communities looking for a white utopia. I can’t even begin to explain how fucked it is. I think a lot of people don’t even quite understand why it is they are drawn to areas like Viking history (or the tv show), Celtic religions, and Tolkien’s realm of fantasy but they do all have one thing in common: they’re all incredibly white washed. I’m definitely not saying it’s wrong to enjoy one or even all of those things, but there’s a refusal to be self critical that I see in those communities and it makes me a bit uncomfortable. We live in a white washed society; we were raised constantly internalizing every day acts of racism and haven’t been taught to make ourselves aware of why we like the things we do. And I’m just going to say it, a lot of the time our internalized racism makes its way into our interests and as such makes communities like the Celtic pagan and fantasy communities incredibly non-inclusive. In this way it also attracts people who read history the wrong way and who believe by romanticizing the past we can create that fucked up white utopia that the fantasy and pagan communities sometimes seem like. But I am SO not here for that. There’s an absence of people speaking out about racism in the community….more like a dead silence. And I really believe it’s because people recognize that it hasn’t been inclusive in the past and there is definitely some guilt associated with that (from the less terrible people, at least.) but I don’t believe dead silence and hoping the Nazis just magically disappear is going to fix anything. In a world that is increasingly more friendly to white supremacists and increasingly more dangerous for minorities we have to be loud and work hard to create environments that promote equality and human rights. In the past, Celtic centered neopagan/fantasy communities have been primarily white and that’s why the nationalists and racists have found their way in, but it doesn’t always have to be that way. I believe strongly in fostering an environment that is welcoming to those who may have felt unsafe before; a place where they know they will be defended fiercely. In the same way, I don’t believe we should be glorifying history as some better time. Those are the kinds of ideas that give nationalists their amo and it’s the same kind of ideology that has been used to kill millions in the past. I think we need to be real with ourselves and continuously ask what kind of message our interests are sending. As far as Wardruna goes, I don’t know much about the band themselves, but it does make me uncomfortable that they aren’t loud about the presence of neonazis in their community. They have definitely singlehandedly created this “macho Viking warrior” subculture and I think the racism that goes along with it is definitely something that needs to be addressed.
I’m sure there’s a lot more I could be saying but I hope I was specific enough! If any of you would like to add thoughts or have questions feel free…I’d like to open this discussion :)