to get lost in your eyes

270. Always

It’s you. It’s always been you.


We said we’d meet back here in 10 years.

A promise borne out of 7 days together.

A vow from our summer romance.


It’s you. It’s always been you.


Love came and went.

It was you I looked for in every face, in every heart,

Your warmth I sought in every embrace.


It’s you. It’s always been you.


I shuffle my feet, nervous you won’t show,

But I have so much to gain from staying

and so much to lose from walking away.


It’s you. It’s always been you.


It’s your eyes I first see - the same hazel I got lost in ten years ago,

the same hazel that gets me running,

the same hazel that tear up when I throw my arms around you.


It’s you. It’s always been you.


We need no words or poetry or art to tell each other how we feel about the here and the now and the ten years bottled up into a minute of a shared gaze and embrace and we are

kissing

kissing

kissing.


We are kissing.


It’s you. It’s always been you.



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Prompt:

“Meeting after 10 years of separation” kiss, its kinda out of the list 😅, do only if you want to, no pressure.” - For @renaudcr7

hello! i was tagged by @localxangel!! 

rules: answer the questions and tag 20 blogs to get to know them better

Nickname: Billie! uhm bunny, honey, dolly, little lady!

Gender: female

Star sign: Leo

Height: 156 cm

Time: 13:18

Birthday: 15 th of august 

Favorite bands: uhhhmmm peach pit i think! 

Favorite solo artists: princess nokia for the last couple of days!

Song stuck pale blue eyes from red velvet underground

Last movie I watched: moonrise kingdom!

Last show I watched: the flash! 

When did I create my blog: oum maybe 10 montyhs ago?

What do I post: trauma posts personal things pictures of happy things

Last thing I googled: lost cats

Do you have any other blogs: yes this is a sideblog 

Do you get asks: no haha it is a sideblog sadly

Why did you choose your url: i got called stupid alot!

Following blogs: 388!

Followers: 420 on my main and 200 on this one! so 620!

Favorite colors: pink!

Average hours of sleep:i sleep in 2 hour streches maybe 8 hours in total?

Lucky number: 15 9  

Instruments: hahha nope

What am I wearing: gray sweater skirt tights frilly socks and my church shoes

How many blankets do I sleep with: 1 for me one for the cats!

Dream job: housewife

Dream trip: oh i would say england! but anything woods is great!

Favorite food: so many things really but my ed is on the raise so i try not to think about

Nationality: belgian but my mother is italian

Favorite song now: sunday candy from change the rapper

and like always i will tag the last 20 people who followed me! (i haven’t checked if these people are nice but i assume they have seen my rbf otherwise don’t do the tag)

@fatnsick @theeighthphilospher  @strawberii-soda @bringrusty

 @playgroundhoney @upsetkarkat @churchbaby @suga–wara @megsapeach@deadsuny @tagintoe@lonelypastor @angelbunn @mynameisnessunoo @milkmothh @ghoulgetem @tf-cbt @dullblush @pxssionflxwers @chernobylreactor!

2018 moods

you’ve been waiting to read your new book all day, finally getting to sit down with it and a cup of tea. soon you’re lost in its content, hearing only the sound of pages being turned gentle rain outside.

you’re laughing so hard tears being to form in your eyes, you’re stomach already hurting. no matter how hard you and your friend try, you both just can’t seem to stop.

it’s early, way too early in the morning, the sun hasn’t even come up yet. still, you’re already awake, seemingly before the rest of the world. everything is quiet and calm as you calmly breathe in and breathe out, ready to start the day off right.

“great work!” the little note on your essay says. you’ve worked so, so hard for this, and finally it has paid off. instantly, you begin to smile, newfound motivation radiating off of your beaming face. you can do this, everything you set your mind to is possible.

sometimes it seems like you can get lost in their eyes forever, forgetting the world around you. nothing exists, and even if it does, nothing comes close to being as important as this moment and the happiness you feel.

Signs as aesthetic feelings

Aries: the swarm of butterflies in your stomach before you do something that could change your life forever, the warm burn in your throat after three shots of vodka, hot rage of uncontrollable anger rising to your head

Taurus: a smell that awakens a long forgotten cherishes childhood memory, coming home from an amusement park with rosy cheeks and blisters on your toes, taking pictures in a photo booth with your favorite people

Gemini: tired smiles and glistening eyes of friends reuniting, the moment when something you’ve dreamed actually happens in real life, receiving a long needed text from a loved one

Cancer: the leap in your heart when you see your favorite person, the stinging of sour tears running down your face, the warmth of a hug you get from that one person™

Leo: uncontrollable satisfaction after proving somebody wrong, the warm fuzzy glow of making someone who was sad smile, flirting with your crush and realizing they are flirting back

Virgo: the ache that stings your wrist after writing for too long, nervous jitters right before you have to present, having an idol of yours express their gratitude to you

Libra: the dizzy buzz of city noise, sore feet and throbbing legs after hours of dancing, secret glances across the room that only you can understand

Scorpio: the overwhelming guilt of secret kisses given in the dark, the pain in your palms and in your teeth from holding back pent up anger, seeing everybody’s head turn as you walk into the room

Sagittarius: the unstable realization that other people are living complex lives and you’ll never get to experience the lives they lead, a breath of fresh air after being cooped up inside for hours, the calmness that consumes you when looking at the stars

Capricorn: eyes that weigh down like boulders after an all nighter, looking through a scrapbooks of old times you’ve forgotten, finally starting a project you’ve been putting off

Aquarius: the excited hum of crowded train stations, the stillness of a theater before the performance begins, the melancholy ache of knowing your favorite people are fictional

Pisces: getting lost in thought as you stare at raindrops smashing across the window, falling asleep in the shade of a tree, the bittersweetness of leaving people behind

Punk!Lance au, aka I’m Projecting

  • lance is the type of punk who never does anything to hurt anyone
    • a little graffiti here and there, he once accidentally kicked over a water fountain, but he never does anything rebellious enough to hurt someone
    • “do no harm but take no shit” is his life motto
  • ripped black jeans, a Nike hoodie, and a beanie is his go-to outfit
    • has a lip ring, an eyebrow piercing, and his industrial earring, as well as regular earrings
    • he spaces, but only a little because he knows his mom doesn’t like it
    • skateboards around with his dog on her leash
  • the galaxy garrison is a military school, right?
    • lance was sent because of his ‘behavioural issues’
      • read: he hated the education system and kept cheating it until his principals told his mom that maybe public school just wasn’t for him, and she was running out of options
    • he hated the garrison too until he found out he was actually pretty good at piloting
      • downside, he had to take out his piercings and cut his hair to an acceptable length
    • then it became his life goal to be the best pilot, because what kind of ‘fuck you’ would that be to everyone who doubted him?
      • the best kind
  • he starts up a rivalry with Keith, who barely pays him any attention, but he just thinks it’s a fun game to play
    • of course, Keith gets kicked out and Lance is slightly jealous because now Keith has the ‘rebel without a cause’ reputation and damn it, that title was his
  • a year passes and the same situation from episode one goes down, but with more snark and fire in lances eyes
    • Lance and hunk sneak out, Lance puts his piercings back in before they go
    • they save Shiro and Keith’s all ‘who are you again?’
      • plot twist! keith doesn’t recognize him with the piercings because he’s only ever known Lance without
    • they go to space, Lance meets Allura and flirts, she insults his ears, he knocks over a chair in protest
    • they become the Paladins of Voltron
  • Keith and Lance’s rivalry is more about reputation as the Most Badass, and their competitions become Who Can Be The Most Reckless Before We Break A Bone or Shiro Yells
    • which is..basically canon anyway
    • they land on a planet and lance notices a lot of the aliens have tattoos
    • back on earth you have to be 18 to get a tattoo without parental permission
    • and lance may not know the exact date, or whether or not he’s 18 yet, but he knows his mom is a million lightyears away so he gets a sleeve
      • his left arm
      • he has to keep the arm uncovered during the first 24 hours of the healing process which is no big deal for lance
      • (it’s kind of a big deal to Keith, who thinks the sleeve is really hot and can’t stop staring at it)
    • lance now has fire and water and earth and space on his arm, he’s got earth’s solar system and his own 9 home planets (Viva la Pluto) around his bicep
    • keith wants to trace every black line with his own fingers but he’s definitely not allowed to
  • some time passes, Shiro goes missing
    • keith becomes the black paladin, lance becomes his right-hand man
    • their arguing becomes playful banter, and maybe sometimes even flirting
  • one night after a particularly tough mission, lance tosses his jacket away and lounges on the couches, Keith comes and sits beside him, and they talk about their strengths and weaknesses in battle
    • it turns into a compliment war
      • “well I wouldn’t have been able to get past the galra without you shooting down that barrier”
      • “I wouldn’t have been able to shoot down that barrier without your quick thinking”
      • “I was only trying to help you”
      • “I appreciate that, but next time you should worry more about yourself! you almost lost an arm, no pun intended”
    • lance smirks at his own joke and Keith rolls his eyes
    • but they’re sitting on the couch, backs parallel and shoulders touching, Lance’s arms are splayed across the back, his legs are spread comfortably in front of him
    • Keith watching him closely, the fire of the complementary argument still in his eyes
    • Lance is keeping eye contact, but his look is harder, and he slowly pulls his bottom lip in and plays with his lip ring with his top teeth
    • keith knows he’s staring and Lance’s mouth and Lance smirks, because he know’s exactly what he’s doing
  • he definitely doesn’t expect Keith to jump him though, so he’s a little surprised when Keith quickly throws a leg over his waist, straddling him, grabs the sides of his face, and pulls him into a kiss
    • Lance makes a surprised noise, but he’s definitely not complaining, and brings his hands to Keith’s ribs, pawing at Keith over his t-shirt but under his jacket
    • Keith thinks to himself that perhaps this was a very good idea as he feels lance’s lip ring against his own mouth
    • he tugs at Lance’s hair a little and the noise Lance makes is extremely worth it
    • when he pulls back, he watches Lance open his eyes again and look into Keith’s
    • and he watches Lance’s face break out into a cocky side-smirk, and he lets out a puff of air, and Keith just rolls his eyes in return
Differences
  • Jungkook: I could just get lost in your eyes.
  • Jimin: *Giggles*
  • -
  • Hoseok: I could get lost-
  • Yoongi: Don't get lost.
  • Hoseok: *Pouts*
  • Yoongi: I would miss your eyes too much~

things harry has said about louis via song:

  • i just want it to be you and i forever
  • you’re all i want so much it’s hurting
  • i think i might give up everything, just ask me to
  • i’m missing half of me when we’re apart
  • pain gets hard, but now you’re here and i don’t feel a thing
  • i can feel your heart inside of mine
  • tastes so sweet, looks so real
  • sweet creature
  • we don’t know where we’re going but we know where we belong
  • wherever i go, you bring me home

things louis has said about about harry via song:

  • you make me strong
  • when i’m not with you i’m weaker
  • wherever you are is the place i belong
  • there will always be the kind that criticize, but i know, yes, i know we’ll be alright
  • i’m all yours, i got no control
  • i just can’t get enough of you
  • when you’re lost, i’ll find the way, i’ll be your light
  • want to wake up and see your face
  • it was there, i saw it in your eyes

Three Little Words

Summary: Billy loves his girlfriend, he just can’t bring himself to say it. 

Author’s Note: Written from Billy’s POV!  More time jumps than I usually put in. Implied smut, big kids reading only plz. Shout out to Rachael and Emma for helping me with this one!

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Originally posted by montgomery-dacre

She twirled her hair around her finger as the teacher lectured. Going over the third chapter of a novel she had finished long ago. I tapped the back of her chair with my foot, making her turn around to face me. She offered me a smile and a slight wave before turning her attention back to the notes she was pretending to scribble in her notebook.

She twisted back around, showing me a scribbled drawing of a stick figure, presumably of me from the looks of the hair,  making a disgruntled expression. She imitated the face she had drawn.

I rolled my eyes at her, giving her chair another kick. She stuck her tongue out at me just as the bell rang.

        “I don’t look like that,” I grumbled.

        “Yes you do, you’re a grump.” She beamed, holding up her masterpiece for me to look at again.

        “Only because I was sitting behind you and couldn’t see your pretty face.”

        “Oh, please.”

One of the things that drew me to her was that she saw right through my charm. The facade that I put on that allowed me to get whatever I wanted. She rolled her eyes, flipped her hair over her shoulder, and kept on walking. And she had me wrapped around her finger, following her around like a lost puppy.

                       Oh fuck. I think I’m falling in love with this girl.

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Fuck It..Let The Whole World Know

Summary: The reader is set to do a day of interviews with Chris Evans and Tom, which wouldn’t be a problem if it weren’t for her massive crush on Tom. Thanks to Chris, the reader and Tom have an opportunity to find out how they really feel. 

Word Count: 4938

authors note: I can’t believe how dirty this is HAHA! but come on…Tom can’t be that wholesome and innocent can he?

You had been used to doing press junkets with Chris Evans, but not him and Tom Hiddleston. You’d been in various rom-coms with Chris over the years, but now you were also starring in Infinity War with him.

You were at the food table getting a drink of water as you felt someone pinch your hip, causing you to jump up, scream, and turn around. There of course stood Chris, left boob grab and all, “YES! Dude, I don’t know how you still fall for this!”.

Maybe you would’ve laughed if it weren’t for the fact that you were about to do a day of press junkets with the man that you’d developed a serious crush on; Tom Hiddleston. Chris could read you like a book, “Come on (y/n) today will be fineeee!”

You sighed, “What if the interviewers ask-”. Chris raised an eyebrow, knowing full well that you’ve all had to handle some tough questions. He laughed, “Do you not remember the hundreds of weird questions you and I have been asked together?”.

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White Lies: Part 8

A Bucky x Reader / Fake Dating AU Series

Master List

A/N: My deepest apologies for this part taking so long to come out. I wanted it to be perfect, plus I believe it’s the longest part so far, and with the holidays I couldn’t found time to finish it. But here it is! I’ll just apologize ahead of time. Let me know what you think. I appreciate all of your likes, reblogs, asks, and replies. Your love and support are what make me thrive as a writer. This series is all for you ♥

Word Count: 2,424

Warnings:
- language.
- mild violence.
- angst.
- Bucky is the biggest shits of all shits.

Tags: (at the end)

*gif is not mine.

The rest of the night was spent watching Natasha flirt with Bucky. Her manicured fingers would trail along his forearm when they were close, catching up on old times, and she’d bat her eyelashes at him whenever he spoke. She was clearly doing this just to piss you off, and it was working. You wanted to vomit; the sour bile creeping up your throat every time she even looked in his direction.

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I see your rocker/greaser Gladstone and I raise you- somewhere inbetween punk-rock/glamrock Gladstone who always gets into fights and has a bad reputation but somehow never gets suspended and repeatedly outs himself as a cutie by finding lost puppies (also you look me in the eyes and tell me Daisy never had a punk phase I double dare you)

obvs influenced by this from: GIGANT Poleca tome 199

Masterlist

Updated: 12/26/17 

I FINALLY MADE A MASTERLIST SO HERE IS WHERE ALL MY WRITING IS!

HAPPY READING TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK!


Stories:

Wanting More  Part 1  Part 2  Part 3

“That was amazing. I had a good time tonight. I’ll call you.”

Harry  tells you as he opens the door to let you out of his house. And that’s when you knew. That’s when you knew what he wanted from you was way different from what you wanted from him. He didn’t see you as girlfriend material, but just fuck friends. That’s what you too were. And no matter how many times you try and convince yourself that it isn’t that, the harder it will be

Hurt   Part 1   Part 2  Part 3

Where Y/N is in an unhealthy relationship, and Harry helps her realize and understand that she should be treated better.

Prince Harry Part 1  Part 2  Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  Part 6

In which Y/N is the Princess of Scotland and Harry is the Prince of England. They have both been engaged to marry ever since they were young, as part of an alliance between both countries. But prince Harry might now be as welcoming to the idea of marriage. When danger strikes Y/N must go to England, and be with Harry. The weight of two kingdoms are on Y/N and Harry’s shoulders.

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One shots: 

Drunk  : In which Harry comes home drunk again, and you are fed up.

Shitty Ceramics : In which Harry is really bad a ceramics, but even worst at expressing his feelings to you

First Kiss : You are little nervous to have your first kiss with Harry, and he notices.

Lonely Thanksgiving : You are alone on thanksgiving because you & your family aren’t on good terms. But then you meet Harry and he tries to make you forget everything and have a happy thanksgiving.

Rape :  When Y/N sees her rapist in public, but Harry has know idea what she has been through. But she soon tells him & he’s very understanding, loving, and let’s her know she’s worth it.

Jealous : Harry gets a bit jealous.

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Blurbs:

First Time Making Out

“I thought you loved me”

“Because I love you, god damn it”

“I’m sorry, what? I keep getting lost in your eyes.”

“I’m going to take care of you, okay?”

“Here, let me.”

I will try and update this every time I write something new! If a link doesn’t work let me know what and I’ll fix it!

Thicks Thighs Save Lives Chapter Two- Dean x Plus Sized Reader

“One way or another he was going to get you to understand just how attracted he was to you.”

SERIES MASTERLIST
FANFIC MASTERLIST


Thick Thighs Save Lives Chapter Two
Words: 2043
Warnings: Some sexual language.  Some body issues talk.

Summary:  You’re a hard to handle, sometimes fragile and hold him when he hurts kind of girl.  You have thick thighs and hips that won’t quit, but you’ve never felt beautiful until a certain hunter comes your way to help you save your hometown.  Dean Winchester finds himself falling for you and is determine to make you his.  If you will let him that is.

AN:  So….  This series is cute.  Just…  What?  Why am I doing this to you guys! 

Tagging:  This will be at least 10-15 chapters.  If you are willing to interact with me about the story then I am willing to tag you!  Though if you no longer at least “heart” it then I will stop tagging just as an FYI.  :)  Please send me an ask.  :)  I will take as many people as I feel I can handle.  For now the tag list is OPEN.   If you’ve sent me an ask then don’t worry if I didn’t answer.  I put you on the list! I will answer your ask soon!  Some usernames won’t take for me please give it a few updates to get fixed. If it doesn’t please shoot me another ask.  


Originally posted by thejabberwock

Ah, you gonna take me home tonight
Ah, down beside that red firelight
Are you gonna let it all hang out
Fat bottomed girls, you make the rockin’ world go round
Queen- Fat Bottomed Girls.


You pranced down the hallway sometime after your conversation with Dean.  The man was something else to challenge you like that but it made you chuckle.  You had just gotten off the phone with your grandmother and your heart was a little lighter than it had been.   A phone call from her always put you in a good mood and you had made sure to ask her thoughts on your current case. Since she had moved away the year before, the phone calls had to do until you could afford to visit.  

She had taught you everything about hunting and you wanted to get her opinion on Dean Winchester  You chuckled to yourself as you thought about what she had to say about him staying in your apartment.  Next time you saw her, you knew you were in for a good switching.  Then again, she had told you nothing but kind things about the Winchesters.  That you were glad to hear.

You noticed a sudden change in the temperature in the air as you entered the living room.  Groaning as you looked at the thermostat when you noticed that it read fifty-five degrees.  Your clanky old heater must have been stuck again.  That was just what you needed on a day that threaten to be one of the coldest of the year.  You sighed in defeat as you reached to turn it off in hopes that in a few hours it would play nice again.  Stepping over to your tiny lining closet, you pulled out your two electric blankets and a small space heater.  It was always best to get prepared.  

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Raindrops

Summary: Despite his emblem being a stormcloud, Virgil has never experienced rain. Roman fixes that.

Pairing: Prinxiety

Warnings: Over the top fluff. Excessive fluff. You have been warned.



It’s really late. The later it becomes, the more one can argue that it’s actually early. 

Logan and Patton have fallen fast asleep, leaning against one another on the couch. Roman sits on the floor and is still wide awake, completely enraptured by the movie that’s currently playing on TV, even though he has seen it more times than he can count. Virgil sits next to him and is fighting to hold his eyes open, actually enjoying the movie Beauty and the Beast.

Although he has also seen it before, he loves happy endings. No, he doesn’t just love happy endings, he desperately needs happy endings. He needs them because….well, he isn’t even sure why. He just knows that any other ending leaves a horrible feeling in the pit of his stomach and a dull pounding in his head.

The scene currently playing on screen is the moment where the rain is pelting the castle and the Beast is on the brink of death. Virgil leans forward, his eyes still on the movie. 

“Roman?” the anxious side whispers.

“Huh? Hm what is it, Virge?”

“Why is it always raining on all the really distressing scenes?” he turns to look at the Prince.

“Oh, I suppose that’s because storms symbolize change, transformation, and danger in stories. It can sometimes represent the inner turmoil of the characters.”

Virgil grimaces, “Oh….”

Roman glances at him, “Something wrong?”

“….is that why Thomas chose my emblem to be a stormcloud?”

The Prince looks thoughtful, “Quite possibly. But that isn’t necessarily a bad thing, it can also represent new beginnings and growth. Let’s not forget that some of the most romantic scenes take place in the rain! And I rather enjoy rain, it’s quite….purifying.”

“Really? I guess I wouldn’t know.”

“Roman narrows his eyes, “Are you telling me that you have never experienced rain before?”

“You’re the one with the kingdom, Princey. You’ve never really liked me enough to invite me on your little ventures, remember?” Virgil rolls his eyes.

Roman gasps dramatically, “Okay, get up. It’s adventure time!”

“Wh–what are you talking about? It’s like 3am.”

“That’s the best time to get caught in a storm.” The Prince replies, helping Virgil off the ground.

“You’re fucking crazy,” he mutters. Roman simply grins as they make their way to his room, careful not to wake the others.

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- Hyung, did you know I’m DIY?

- Oh really?

- Yeah, you’re gonna have to do me yourself 

jk Jungkook would be laughing too much even thinking abt the pickup line to say it


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When I Saw You

AU Bucky Barnes x Reader Fic

Master List  |  Bucky Barnes Master List

Previous One Shots: The Fluffer* | Perfect Just The Way You Are* | Waxing Gone Wrong

Pairing: Pornstar!Bucky Barnes x Reader  |  Word Count: 10001
Warnings: Fluff, a little angst, some fat shaming, self-doubt

Another offering in this series. A look into Bucky and Reader’s first meeting. Enjoy!


It was late evening on a hot summer night, and you and Bucky were gathered around the pool with the family of misfits you’d come to love. Vision and Wanda, Clint and Natasha, Tony and Pepper, and Steve were gathered to laugh and drink and eat, celebrating the anniversary of your marriage to Bucky. It had been a good evening and a fun party, loud with laughter and shouting as the guys all competed to impress their ladies.

All except Steve who’d come alone.

You side-eyed him, laughing with Bucky, wondering if you should talk to your husband about setting the blond up with a girl you knew from work, but even as you thought it, you dismissed it. You also dismissed the pang of insecurity the idea of seeing Steve with some gave you.

“Hey, (Y/N)?” Tony called out, pulling you away from your distressing thoughts.

“Yeah?”

“How did you and Barnes meet?” he asked, causing Natasha to snicker.

“Oh… I don’t think-” you tried to protest only to have her speak over the top of you.

“Oh, I think we all need to hear that story!” Natasha laughed, having heard it once before.

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Imagine Jensen, your fiance, taking drastic measures concerning your and your baby’s future when he finds out you cheated on him with your ex and costar, Tom, who takes action himself too.

Related to these: Imagine while at the Comic Con with your boyfriend Jensen, you run into your ex Tom whose feelings for you have not changed one bit. (Part 1)

Imagine getting a role in a movie with your ex Tom and Jensen, your current boyfriend, getting jealous and worried. (Part 2)

Imagine Jensen, your boyfriend, visiting you on set when you have a intense kissing scene with your ex and costar, Tom. (Part 3)

Imagine being engaged to Jensen and being involved in a scandal when you’re seen out on a “date” with your ex, Tom Hiddleston. (Part 4)

Imagine having a bad fight with your fiance, Jensen, when he thinks you’re cheating on him with your ex, Tom, and running to him for comfort. Only to worry Jensen even more when you don’t answer any calls. (Part 5)

Imagine your fiance, Jensen, being furious to find you at Tom’s house, who is your ex, after you had a terrible fight and you run away, and almost fighting with him. Only for the truth about you to start being revealed slowly. (Part 6)

Imagine your fiance, Jensen, learning the whole truth about what has been happening between you and your ex, Tom, when you were spending time together or working. (Part 7)

“I kissed her, alright? We. Fucking. Kissed.” Tom spat “Happy?”

It took a full minute for Jensen to release a breath, stumbling backwards as he whispered hoarsely “What?”

Tom ran a hand down his face and let out a heavy sigh “I didn’t want you to find out this way. She said it would be best if-”

“What?!” Jensen roared this time, cutting the younger man off.

Tom clenched his jaw, looking him straight in the eyes “I am not going to deny it, I was never a fan of lies, and as a man I am going to take responsibility for my actions yes.” he took a deep breath, clenching his fists getting in a defensive stance “But she by no means is to blame for any of this, especially in her current state.”

“She doesn’t huh?” Jensen scoffed, laughing bitterly “Of course she doesn’t, she never does no. Only thing is she fucking kissed her ex engaged and lied straight into my face about all of it!”

“She-” Tom bit hard on his lower lip “She didn’t mean to lie to you, she didn’t want to hurt you. What happened between her and I-” he shook his head softly “It couldn’t be controlled, but you can’t think so little of her when she-”

“Made me feel like crap when she’d done something like this?!” Jensen growled, running a frustrated hand down his face as he paced back and forth “And on top of that she denied every fucking word I told her, pretending to be innocent! I thought I was irrational, that my jealousy got over me that I couldn’t see clearly because I know how much you’ve always mattered to her, that I blamed the woman I love for nothing. I thought that there was still something there and foughtwith her about it, stayed awake all night worrying about her well-being only to find out later that she’d run to you! She seeked shelter in your house, told you about her pregnancy before me and prefered to talk with you instead of even looking me in the eyes! I lost my fucking mind, Tom, over everything that happened, over-” he stopped to stuff his hand in his pocket and fish out your engagement ring and show it to him.

This. Over her leaving this, I was ready to beg and plead for her to come back, to get her this back to her, and wait, put the wedding on hold for however long she wanted. I would do anything she wanted, so long as we were alright, because I thought I was the one to blame for all of this and she-” he scoffed a bitter laugh, his eyes glossy from all the tears “Was sleeping safe in your arms even after all of this.”

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