I just got back home, and I’m still totally hyped out about what just happened, so I’m going to write this while my memory is still fresh.
For two years, I had convinced myself that this would never happen. For two years I believed that no matter how hard I tried or wanted it to happen, I would never be able to meet @therealjacksepticeye or the Grumps. And yet here I was, staring right at them.
Tonight was one of the best nights of my life. The show was absolutely amazing and I will never forget it. It’s my first time going to an event like this and my expectations were blown to bits. I’m not going to go into detail about the show since I want everyone to find out for themselves. But having a Q&A at the end was almost perfect. It was such a nice way to settle down after being hyped up about the game we played together. Seriously, you guys were so damn awesome! The crowd, Jack and the Grumps, it was all more than I could ever dream of because the show was straight hilarious.
Originally I wanted to take pictures with my real camera, but professional cameras like mine were not allowed. Though in its sense, it was very nice to just lay back and just focus on the show. I had an amazing time and I’m also suspecting I won’t have a voice tomorrow haha. Probably screamed my head off.
After the show I stood in line for about 40 minutes to get myself some merch and to hand in a gift for Jack. I absolutely love the poster, and I’m probably going to get it framed or something. And because I had time I decided to wait for Jack and the Grumps outside the event center, because I really wanted to meet them. I’m not sure how long I sat there, probably an hour or so, before Jack came out. It was really windy and really cold, so it was just me and two other persons left. And it was just the sweetest experience I’ve ever had. I didn’t want to ask too much of him, but he was super sweet and I got everything I asked for and more. I felt really awkward though haha. By the way, I was the one who gave you the Attack On Titan necklace, which I was super happy to see you wearing. I’m glad you liked it haha. Thanks yet again for doing a small video for my friend Fanny who couldn’t make it :) thank you for making the best ending possible to an already perfect night.
And for your information Jack, I was also the girl you bumped into briefly earlier today outside the Waterfront Congress Centre earlier today around 1PM when you guys were on your way to Vasa Museet(?). I hope I didn’t intrude or anything! Again, super nice to meet you!!
Thank you so much for coming to Sweden, I never believed I would be able to travel overseas and that you would come here. I hope you’ll come back sometime, and that our “good looks” didn’t scare you away :P
33. “Close your eyes and hold out your hands.” 37. “Can I kiss you?”
I have no words to describe just exactly how I was feeling, honestly I was feeling all kinds of emotions right now, a combination of butterflies, happiness, nausea, excitment, all of those were stirring up inside of me right now. And seriously if only you could see my face right now, you would feel everything that I’m feeling. Tonight I had my first date with Josh Dun, a guy that I’ve been liking for a really long time ever since I was hired as their manager’s assistant I guess you can say. From the first day of my job I never ever thought I would even get to meet him and Tyler let alone be dating one of them. I actually had a crush on both beautiful boys to be truthful, but something about Josh in particular really stole my heart, and apparently I must’ve stolen his because here we are, enjoying the rest of an amazing evening together.
Things were a little quiet between us as he walked me home, I don’t know if it was either because he was shy or I was shy, but I figured that it was most likely me, and since things were silent as hell I think the beating of my heart could be heard in the night air.
“So um, what’s it like being an assistant?” He asked, breaking the awkward silence. He has already actually asked me about this when we sat down to eat but I guess he forgot, that’s pretty adorable…
“It’s pretty cool, I mean Michael is a pretty chill dude so, I guess I got lucky that he’s not so strict with me, less stress, and he pays good money too.”
“Oh yeah? That’s cool, very cool actually.”
“Yeah…” Was all I could respond with, followed by another one of my stupid shy smiles that seemed to be the millionth one I’ve shown tonight…
Things got a little quiet between us again, but it wasn’t going to be like that for much longer, I didn’t want Josh thinking that I wasn’t talkative person or that I wasn’t really into him like I have made obvious before…
“Oh hey you never told me about how you got into drums, cause honestly the way you play them really blows me away.” I smiled, that topic seemed to lighten up the mood a lot, because when he started telling me about it it seemed like he could go on and on, which I found to be adorable once again because he was just so passionate about this instrument, it’s like he was born with drumsticks already in his hands. Overall it lead us to talk a lot more just like it was in the beginning of our date, we were now laughing and literally getting into all kinds of stupid subjects. Being around this guy really made me feel a lot more young, it’s awesome.
“You know maybe you can teach me how to play drums one day?” I said, grinning brightly. He grinned as well, that cute face of his lighting up even more than before…
“I would love to teach you. Whenever you want to start I’m down.”
“(Y/N)?” He called out, his tone sounding a bit nervous, making me turn my head to face him. I raised my brows to signal him to tell me what was on his mind.
“I uh…just…close your eyes and hold out your hands.”
I couldn’t help but smile but I shook my head at him, “Joshua come on, don’t tell me you got me a present because honestly you didn’t have to.” He nodded understanding but then he also shook his head at me.
“I know that, I know you’re not a materialistic girl but I wanted to give you something special anyway. So go on now.” He chuckled, and I hesitated but I did what I was told. The next thing I knew I felt what sounded like a chain fall on my palms. Joshua told me to open my eyes and when I did I was in complete awe when I caught sight of a beautiful, sparkling, blue diamond heart shaped necklace. It absolutely glittered whenever the moon light hit it and I was just so in love, but still he shouldn’t have troubled himself.
“Oh my God…oh my goodness this is so precious…”
“You like it?” He eagerly asked with his usual cute smile.
“I love it Josh…like I said you seriously didn’t have to but thank you so much. It’s beautiful. You know now that I look at it more it reminds me of the heart of the ocean necklace from titanic.” I giggled.
“I know that’s why I got it. Michael told me that was your favourite movie so I figured..” He tells me with a shrug. My mouth fell open and I gave him the biggest hug I could give, wrapping my arms tightly around his shoulders. Good God he smells so fucking good, and his strong arms are so securely around my waist, I could honestly say that I felt so safe with him. Also I could be in these loving arms forever.
“May I?” Josh inquired, I nodded in reply and lifted my hair turning my back to him, then he went ahead and hooked the radiant piece of jewelry around my neck. I felt my heart beating faster than ever against my chest when held me so closely from behind, zero space between my back and his broad chest…
“You know (Y/N)…I’m really really happy I finally grew the balls to ask you out on a date…I had the best time of my life.”
“Awwww Josh, I’m happy I went out with you too, you’re such a sweetheart, I always knew it from the moment I met you guys through Michael.” I say. I could easily sense some sort of hesitation comming from him, I could hear his lips parting to say something else to me but it was like something caught his tongue everytime he tried, so I placed my hand on top of his and turned to face him once again, with his fingers interwining with my own..
“What is it?…”
“Hm I uhhh….Can I kiss you?…” He nervously asked in a gentle whisper.
My bottom lip was taken in between my teeth, now I felt like I was gonna have a heart attack, but my lips had a mind of their own…because in the blink of an eye…I kissed him, I kissed him passionately and he treated my lips gently, softly, he was hands down the best kisser I’ve ever had in my life… There was definately a fire inside of me, it was such a spark that I never experienced before and it was magical, that’s the only way to really describe it. I can tell that neither of us wanted the kiss to end, but we still had to walk a few blocks before reaching my house so we had to. Then the rest of the way was even more pleasant than before, this time we held each other’s hand and he gave me one last sweet kiss before leaving my doorstep.
I leaned against the door when I closed it with my face heated up and my fingers tracing my bottom lip, this was surely the beginning of something special between Joshua and I. Man, when I get back to work on Monday…it is truly going to be interesting.