@ everyone who hates ryan or talks bad about ryan because “he’s transphobic” because of the lyrics for time to dance
ryan wrote that song when he was a teenager. panic! became famous when he was 19, but time to dance was one of their very first demos, so who knows how long before that it was written. there also wasn’t as much mainstream talk or knowledge about lgbt+ topics back in the early 2000s. he was an immature, uneducated teenager who wrote a song about his favorite book and used the same phrasing found in the book. so many people hate him for that.
meanwhile, 30 year old brendon urie still performs the song and has never said anything against it, and y’all still worship him??? he could’ve completely stopped performing it as soon as ryan left the band but he kept singing it and he still sings at least part of it now. no one has ever said anything about that
whether you think the song is fine or you think it’s terrible, this fandom needs to stop hating/shaming ryan for things that brendon also does and no one cares when it’s him
Ryden. Ryan Ross and Brendon Urie. The two men who have royally fucked up my life. I wanted to “decode” their relationship. Song lyrics, interview, lore. Everything. If anyone has read M Theory about Sherlock, that is the feel I’m going for. I’m going to do this chronologically, but first a quick overview of Ryden and a little background. Even If you don’t believe they were in love, the loss of friendship is just as sad.
A lot of this is speculation. I love Brendon, Ryan, Jon, Spencer, Dallon and Sarah.
So, Ryan Ross and Brendon Urie are both known because of the band Panic! At the Disco. A band that has had no fewer than nine members. The originals, Brendon Urie, Ryan Ross, Spencer Smith, and Brent Wilson. Ryan and Spencer had been friends since they were five and had begun the band playing Blink-182 covers. Many splits over twelve years, leaving lead singer, Brendon Urie, the only original member left.
Panic! Was originally Ryan and Spencer Smith (original drummer’s) band, joined by Brent Wilson (original bassist) who was the one to bring in Brendon. The thing is, Brendon was originally the backup guitarist with Ryan as lead vocals. After hearing Brendon sing they made him lead singer and Ryan the lead guitarist. Ryan was reluctant to let Brendon take over, these were HIS songs about HIS struggles. Both Ryan and Brendon have talked about how hard it was for them to communicate on how to sing the songs. You might know the next bit, they sent some demos (Camisado, Time to Dance, Nails for Breakfast and Tacks for Snacks) to Pete Wentz (Fall Out Boy bassist) who flew to LA and watched them practice. He ended up signing them to his label, decaydance. Ryan wrote all of the songs from A Fever You Can’t Sweat Out, the album including hit, I Write Sins Not Tragedies. Chances are, this is the first P!atd song you ever heard. Ryan and Brendon were beginning to warm up to each other.
Panic! Really hit it big in 2006. They sold 10, 000 albums in the first week. Later on that year they won ‘MTV video of the Year’ for I Write Sins. They began to tour. This is around the time they started the ‘stage-gay’. You may have seen the ‘Perfect Passionate Kiss’ video (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YK25McZVK0c) . Later this year the first split occurred, bassist Brent Wilson was kicked out of the band. It was revealed that he didn’t record any bass on the album. Instead, Brendon had filled in and recorded all of the bass. The Nothing Rhymes With Circus tour replaced Brent with Jon Walker. The Circus tour’s most notable event was
Panic! Had a dancer named Dream, who every night would go on stage and say that Brendon was a virgin. In an interview, Dream said this was a lie. Greta Salpeter from Hush Sound, who was touring with Panic! Said that they went skinny dipping at Myrtle Beach around midnight. This is normal. Friends skinny dip together all the time. What makes it part of Ryden Lore is good ol’ Ryro’s livejournal post later that night.
6-25-06 01:21:28 PDT - (No Subject)
The moon bred new Atlantic life tonight. the salt burned you right out of my eyes. and secrets we’re not proud of were taken with the tide. We were all newborns with blurred vision and no sense of direction.
Today I saw cancer, cigarettes and shortness of breath. this is why I walk to the ocean. swim with jellyfish. I may never get this chance again. this is why if you want to kiss you should kiss. If you want to cry you should cry, and if you want to live you should live. You don’t have to love me. You already did. At least enough to keep me smiling from South Carolina to Virginia. it’s for lovers (orjustfriends) This is why I do it.
THIS IS AFTER BEING NAKED WITH BRENDON. UNDER THE MOONLIGHT. JUST SAYING.
Also, I’m going to mention a few lyrics here. I will go deeper into lyrics later on.
Hey moon, please forget to fall down.
I’m just going to say, it’s probable that Ryan and Brendon fucked that night. I think this lyric is about not wanting that night to end. Hey moon, don’t you go down. Don’t go down because that means this night is over. A night which was probably one of the best of their lives.
2007 was pretty uneventful. They started to work on Pretty. Odd, around the same time Ryan’s dad passed away. They worked through it though. The band.
They released the first single Nine in the Afternoon, early in 2008. What stands out about this song is really the video. Despite having great lyrics, if you’re looking at this through the Ryden Conspiracy Theorist Lens™ like I am, the video really stands out. The end especially shows how comfortable they were around each other. It’s just really cute. I don’t want to talk about Northern Downpour yet because it’s 1 AM and I don’t want to cry right now. So we’re going to talk about When The Day Met The Night. This is the Sun and Moon theory. Ryan is the sun, Brendon is the moon. Some believe it’s the other way around. Please check http://analyzingpanic.tumblr.com/post/65592663208/i-think-its-the-other-way-around-ryans-the-sun for why I think this. I think that the song is a story. A story about how they fell in love.
When the moon (Brendon) found the sun (Ryan) he looked like he was barely hanging on. I think this is saying that before Brendon, Ryan was close to giving up.
Her (Brendon) eyes saved his (Ryan) life. Brendon’s love saved Ryan. Like it or not, Brendon’s voice is what gave Panic! That little boost that it desperately needed to make it big. Many other songs reference this particular piece of lore. Anyway, I guess I have to do it now. Northern Downpour. THE Ryden song. First, we have to talk about Ryan’s 21st birthday. Pete threw Ryan a party in New York, which is on the EAST coast. Ryan was the only one drinking age, so the rest flew to RAINY NORTHERN SEATTLE. Around midnight Ryan left his party and his girlfriend, Keltie Colleen, and flew to Seattle without warning. Maybe you’ve already figured it out.
I missed your skin when you were east. Ryan was on the east coast away from Brendon. This ties in with- You clicked your heels and wished for me. Ryan wished he was with Brendon.
I know the world’s a broken bone, but melt your headaches, call it home. THIS LINE. Ryan told Brendon to pay special attention to this line. Also, this is the line when Brendon would start crying while performing it after the 2009 split. The meaning though. I think it’s about how yes, the world sucks, and hurts. But if you ignore that, let the pain melt away, it’s home.
You may be wondering how we know about Seattle. The thing is, there’s photos of them there. Eating at the Market. Ryan in the same clothes as the night before. Seattle itself is very important. Ryan has said it’s his favourite place to perform. Ry was driving to Seattle when he got the call that his father died. Of course there’s also the “Maybe one day we’ll settle in Seattle” line. Also Bren breaking down while performing Casual Affair in Seattle.
Okay. I’m done with 2008. Bring on 2009.
If I didn’t want to talk about Northern Downpour, I definitely don’t want to talk about 2009. But I gotta. Fuck 2009. 2009 is the year of the split. The cited reason of the split is ‘Musical Differences’ I think that this is partially true. Ryan and Jon had begun to write music on their own. They had also started to make fun of Brendon’s attempts at writing music. The tension was building. They did try to work things out by going to a cabin to write their next album, Crickets and Clover. Never heard of it? That’s okay. It was never released. Now. Now we talk about Cape Town.
This was it. The End. I can’t really talk about Cape Town. No one knows what happened.
The Young Veins
Ryan and Jon left. They formed their own semi-successful band. There’s a few song we need to talk about. Lie to the Truth is all about how Ryan tried to love Keltie, but couldn’t. About how he wanted needed their relationship to stay private. But I really need to talk about Cape Town. Yes, they wrote a song about. BUT IT’S RYAN ROSS SO NO ONE FUCKING KNOWS WHAT HE’S TALKING ABOUT. POETIC LITTLE SHIT. Specifically, the contrast between it and The Calendar. I think that The Calendar is very important so I’ll talk about it separately later.
Cape Town vs. The Calendar
And I meant everything that I said that night. Brendon did mean everything he said. Presumably they had a fight.
I will come back to life, but only for you. THIS CHANGES THE LAST LINE. Yes, Brendon meant what he said, he was mad. But he was still in love. He can forgive him. Only him.
Woke me in the morning, asked me if I meant it. I’m assuming Ryan said some pretty shitty things to Brendon. But he didn’t mean them.
I loved, I left you, in Cape Town. Ryan did love Brendon, but they couldn’t stay together.
Vices & Virtues
I love this album. So much. I cried the first time I listened to it. I swear this entire album is about Ryan Ross. Every song has meaning so this’ll take a while.
The Ballad of the Mona Lisa
Say what you mean. Ryan stop being so cryptic and just TELL BRENDON WHAT YOU MEAN.
Let the sun rain down on me. Sun and Moon theory.
Give me a sign, I want to believe. Brendon wants Ryan to show him he’s still in love with him, Brendon wants them to be together.
You’re guaranteed to run this town. Good job, Ry! You finally have control over you music. Even later into 2009 Ryan and Brendon still struggled with how Brendon was singing Ryan’s lyrics. This is Bren being petty.
I’d pay to see you frown. Brendon wants Ryan to fail so he’ll finally realize that he needs Brendon.
Pleased to please ya. Brendon felt like Ryan thought that it was a privilege for Brendon to sleep with him.
You’re behind my eyelids when I’m all alone. Brendon misses Ryan. A lot.
I led the revolution, in my bedroom. This is talking about the fact Ryden was a LGBTQ+ relationship.
They don’t look like me. Brendon’s a cocky lil shit. Brendon knows that Ryan isn’t going to be with anyone more attractive than him.
They don’t sound like me. No matter how hard Ryan and Jon try, none of those songs they write can sound like his. They don’t have the vocal ability.
This one hurts too. Memories
With an unrequited love. Brendon felt that Ryan never really loved him back
She was the youngest of the family, and the last to be let go. Brendon was the youngest of a large mormon family.
Then they decided that they would try to make it on their own. The original four all risked everything for this chance that they would make it in the music world.
Oh memories, where’d you go? You were all I’d ever known. I actually think this is about Ryan and Spencer’s friendship. One of the unanswered questions of the split is, why did Spencer side with Brendon even though Ryan had been his best friends since they were five?
How I miss yesterday. Brendon and Spencer both just really want it to be 2009 again.
When July became December. An overarching theme of this album is summer ending. This is often related to the split.
But they couldn’t quite remember what inspired them to go. After the underwhelming debut of The Young Veins, Ryan and Jon would have to watch Panic! Make a comeback, without them.
They were fighting for their love, it was growing tired. Brendon and Ryan tried to make it work.
When the money lost momentum. Ryan and Jon were probably rolling in Panic! Royalties after they left, but although they still gain a little money from their Panic! Days, it’s definitely slowed down.
They were young and independent, and they thought they had it planned. Should have known right from the start, you can’t predict the end. At the beginning they were young, and desperate for separation from their parents. They thought everything would be perfect. You can’t predict how things will end.
Don’t let it fade away. I think that this is a message to us, the fans. Don’t let these first two albums be forgotten.
I think this song is about Brendon’s mistakes as a lover and friend. About how it bothers him that Ryan can seemingly just keep going without him. Brendon knows he fucked up by letting Ryan leave, he wants to trade those mistakes for peace of mind
Ready to Go (Get Me Out Of My Mind)
You’ve got these little things, that you’ve been running from. Ryan had a troubled childhood that still haunts him, it’s why he can’t stay with someone from his past. These tiny things following him everywhere.
I’m ready to live. Fuck Ryan Ross. Brendon is learning how to be in Panic! Without Ryan. Learning to live without Ryan.
Get me out of my mind. Brendon wants to think about anything but Ryan.
Always this song fucks me up too
When the world gets too heavy, put it on my back. I think this is about how Ryan wrote songs about his struggles, then Brendon had to sing it. Brendon would have to carry part of the burden.
You’re taking me apart. Brendon is slowly being pulled apart, Ryan left him. His band is split in two.
It was always you, falling for me. Brendon now sees that Ryan did love him.
I’m the light blinking at the end of the road, blink back to let me know. Despite everything, Brendon is still waiting for Ryan. He’s begging Ryan for a sign that there’s something worth waiting for.
I’m a fly that’s trapped, in a web, but I’m thinking that, my spider’s dead. Brendon is still very in love with Ryan, but he’s beginning to believe that there’s no hope for them.
Lonely, lonely little life, I could kid myself, thinking that I’m fine. Brendon feels alone without Ryan. Yes, he has Spencer, but it’s not the same. Even though he knows that Spencer can’t replace Ryan in anyway, he can make himself believe that.
If you don’t let it out, you’re gonna let it eat you away. Ryan and Brendon were keeping their love a secret and it was slowly destroying them.
Pray I could replace her, forget the way her tears taste. Brendon tried to replace Ryan and Jon with Dallon, but it wasn’t the same.
Put another X on the calendar, summer’s on its death bed. Summer was when their love both blossomed and and died.
There’s simply nothing worse than knowing how it ends. Brendon had said in interviews that he’d hoped that they’d be together forever. I bet if you’d told 17 year old Panic! That it would end with them all hating each other, not talking. Toxic relationships. They would have hesitated before signing to decaydance.
And I meant everything I said that night, I’ll come back to life, but only for you. This is hinting at the resurgence of Panic! Literally 90% of the songs on V&V were about Ryan. Panic! Came back, but for Ryan.
Don’t want to call it a second chance, but when I came back, it was more of a relapse. Whenever Brendon gave Ryan a second chance it felt like he was doing drugs again, like he was high. Like he had broken a promise to himself.
THIS SONG IS ABOUT SARAH. I CAN MAKE AN ARGUMENT FOR MOST OF THESE SONGS. BUT. THIS. IS. ABOUT. SARAH.
This song is special because it’s technically the last song written by Ryan Ross for Panic! He didn’t write all of it though. We need to start with the french.
Dès le premier jour, ton parfum enivra mon amour, et dans ces instants, j'aimerais être comme toi par moments, mais depuis ce jour, je n'ai qu'un seul et unique regret
From day one, my love your perfume intoxicated, and in these moments
I want to be like you at times, but since that day, I only have a single regret. Most of this comes in again later.
Here I am, composing a burlesque. What’s really important about this line is how Brendon performs it. This is the last line Ryan ever wrote. Brendon will often perform it mockingly, many people have interpreted it as Brendon being petty af and making fun of Ryan.
I only shoot up with your perfume. Only Ryan can get him the high he craves.
I’ve got just one regret to live through, that one regret is you. Brendon regrets Ryan, regrets their love.
I’ve got just one regret to live through, and I regret ever letting you go. This changes the meaning of the original line. Now, it’s about Brendon regretting letting what he and Ryan had die. He thinks he should’ve held onto it as long as possible.
Mona Lisa, pleased to please ya. This makes me think that the Mona Lisa is Ryan. Even though Brendon regrets leaving Ryan, he knows he was never as much to Ryan as Ryan was to him.
The album as a whole
Brendon is a salty bitch.
Not much happened between this and Too Weird to Live, Too Rare to Die. Brendon cried while performing Northern Downpour. Idk not much. Oh yeah, Brendon and Sarah got married.
Too Rare to Live, Too Rare to Die
I think this album is a lot of Brendon accepting his sexuality, Ryan+Jon being gone, and the future. A fair amount of this album was written by Dallon.
This is Gospel
This song is about Spencer and his struggle with addiction.
When I saw Panic! In concert, Brendon said this was about a girl in Vegas. I think that there’s some parts that apply to Ryan though. I think when Brendon sings about no one knowing who was there, he’s talking about how they’d had to keep their love a secret.
Girl That You Love
This song was dedicated to Ryan Ross in the album notebook.
Drop every pretense. Pretense literally means an attempt to make something that is not the case to appear true. So basically Brendon is saying, ‘hey Ry, yeah remember how we pretended we weren’t in love. Yeah stop that’
The song’s about how Brendon felt addicted to Ryan’s love, always saying that it would be the last time.
I actually think this isn’t about Ryan, but instead Brendon realizing that it’s okay for him to have these feelings for another man.
This song is talking about how they’d both just said, ‘Oh it’s okay, we’re young, fooling around.’ If you want to cry watch this video of Brendon singing Casual Affair and breaking down. In Seattle. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jhXDQBZNdIE
End of All Things
I am always yours. Yes, Brendon’s married and loves Sarah. But this song is about the end of an era. Ryan will always have a hold over Brendon, but this song is Brendon trying to move on.
We are young again. Brendon wants to go back to the beginning. When they were young and happy and carefree.
In these coming years, many things will change, but the way I feel, will remain the same. Brendon wants Ryan to know things will change, he’s married now. But a part of him will always care about Ryan, no matter what.
After Too Weird to Live, Too Rare to Die Spencer left. He left to go get help for is drug abuse. Brendon began to work on Death of a Bachelor. Ryan…. Ryan kept being emo™.
Death of a Bachelor
Doab is about Brendon falling in love with Sarah, getting married, AGAIN trying to move on.
My life started the day I got caught, under the covers. Brendon didn’t know what life was truly like before Ryan.
Who was I trying to be? Why were they trying to hide it? Everyone guessed anyway.
Then the time for being sad is over, and you miss them like you miss no other, but being blue is better than being over it. Brendon knows he should be over Ryan by now, but he still misses him. And to Brendon, being sad about the split is better than forgetting about the love he shared with Ryan.
Death of a Bachelor
Do I look lonely? Hey Ryan. Ryan look. I’m married and still in the band. I’m still friends with Spencer. I’m not lonely.
And when you think of me, am I the best you ever had? Does Ryan still miss Brendon like Brendon misses him. Is Brendon still the best relationship he ever had?
Share one more drink with me, smile even though you’re sad. Brendon is married. Ryan can never be that person for him anymore, but Ryan has to pretend that he’s happy for Brendon.
Fuck this song. If I went through every song that could possibly reference Ryden/Original band it would take pages. So here’s some highlights.
We’ll stay drunk, we’ll stay tan, let the love remain. The summer before the split, where they toured around the world. That is summer that Brendon is talking about. The summer when the band got along, where they ALL loved each other.
Golden days. Brendon thinks these are the best days of his life. He knows that when he’s older he’ll look back on his life and remember the summer spent with his three best friends is the of his life.
Time can never break your heart, but it can take the pain away. Brendon knows that eventually thinking about the split will hurt less.
House of Memories
This song is a problem. I hate it. So much. HOUSE OF PROBLEMS. It has the same problem as the last one. Highlights;
Memories turn into daydreams. Brendon longs for days of Pretty. Odd And the memories have slowly morphed into daydreams about what could’ve been.
Promise me a place, in your house of memories. Ryan promise me that you won’t forget what we had.
I THINK OF YOU FROM TIME TO TIME, MORE THAN I THOUGHT I WOULD, YOU WERE JUST TOO KIND, AND I WAS TOO YOUNG TO KNOW. Brendon knew he’d miss Ryan, but thought it would be rarer. Now looking back, Brendon realizes that what they had was worth keeping.
These thoughts of past lovers, they’ll always haunt me. This is a message to Sarah saying I love you, but I can’t let go of him.
Memories tend to just pop up. Brendon doesn’t want to miss the old Panic! But he can’t help is. -Don’t Threaten Me With Good Time
Hey, I'm new to Panic! and wanted to ask u what are ur favorite songs from each album? I wanna give them a listen and i trust ur opinion
im glad u asked, my dude
ok so i could list Every Single panic song ever written bc theyre all Literally perfect and u should listen 2 All Of Them but here is a Comprehensive List of my favorite and, in my humble onion, the Best songs on each panic album:
1. A Fever You Can’t Sweat Out (imo the Best panic album….it is Absolutely Perfect, listen 2 the entirety of it)
The Only Difference Between Martyrdom And Suicide Is Press Coverage (one of the first panic songs i ever heard, a Bop)
London Beckoned Songs About Money Written By Machines (listen this song is SO underrated)
Camisado (an Essential, i suggest listening 2 the demo too)
Time To Dance
Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off
I Write Sins Not Tragedies (i mean. come on, this is Practically the most #Iconic panic song)
There’s A Good Reason These Tables Are Numbered Honey. You Just Haven’t Thought Of It Yet
Build God, Then We’ll Talk
2. Pretty. Odd. (his album is a masterpiece and it makes me #Emo every time,,)
Nine In The Afternoon (this is the first song they wrote for pretty odd!!)
She’s A Handsome Woman
Do You Know What I’m Seeing? (i, personally, like the alternate version better)
That Green Gentleman (a Pure, Clean jam)
I Have Friends In Holy Spaces (get Ready for the little snippet of northern downpour at the end buddy)
Northern Downpour (There will Be a Lot of Tears , Boy. also ryden was real)
When The Day Met The Night
The Piano Knows Something I Don’t Know (the alternate version is so. pretty listen 2 that too)
Behind The Sea (listen 2 the the alternate version too!!! fuck!!!)
Folkin’ Around (listen. many people For Some Unknown Reason think this song is not good…..They Are Wrong)
She Had The World (again, i like the alternate version better….it Gives me a Vibe)
Mad As Rabbits (this was the Last song they wrote for the album and It Is .Gay)
3. Vices & Virtues (an Underrated album and one of my #personal faves!!! im probably gonna list every single song)
The Ballad Of Mona Lisa (The National Bop)
Let’s Kill Tonight
Memories (brendon said that this is his least favorite panic song bc he could have written it better but i think its just perfect as it is)
Always (the Most Beautyful….)
The Calendar (he wrote this song abt past members ryan and jon and it is Gay)
Sarah Smiles (he wrote this song for his wife, sarah and they Created the Concept of love!!!!)
Nearly Witches (listne 2 the demo version!!! its so good)
Stall Me (another underrated song)
Oh Glory (this is One of my favorite panic songs Of All Time)
I Wanna Be Free (this song makes me so emotional…..its so good it will make u cry)
Bittersweet (the most #Brendon song brendon’s ever written)
4. Too Weird To Live, Too Rare To Die! (this is personally one of my least faves but its still really good and gives me Interesting vibes)
This Is Gospel (u should listen 2 the piano version….its So beautiful ;_;)
Vegas Lights (a real Bumpin Jam)
Far Too Young To Die (people dont talk abt this song much but its rly good)
The End Of All Things (brendon wrote this song as his wedding vows to sarah!!!!)
Can’t Fight Against The Youth (this is!! such a good song and i think it Should Have replaced Girl That You Love tbh)
5. Death Of A Bachelor (the newest album!!! fucc!!!)
Victorious (sorta overplayed but Still a Bop)
Don’t Threaten Me With A Good Time
Emperor’s New Clothes
Death Of A Bachelor (brendon said its his fav from the album ;___;)
Crazy = Genius (this song sounds p similar to There’s A Good Reason!!)
Golden Days (Gay!!! gay)
House Of Memories
Impossible Year (listen…. this song is the Most emotional and beautiful song ever it leaves me in tears every time)
these are some panic songs that aren’t from any studio albums but theyre rly good and u should check them out too:
New Perspective (the first song written after the split ;____;)
Karma Police (panic’s cover of radiohead. its from live in denver and its The Best)
Mercenary (they wrote this song for batman arkham city and it is a jam!!)
so yeah!! that’s it. i realize now that i’ve Basically listed every single panic song ever lmao but as i said, theyre all so wonderful. im always here if u wanna ask more stuff, i hope u have a Good time listening 2 this band!! (it may ruin ur life but simultaneously make it 100x better)
I believe it’s more of what is in Yixing that cannot be liked.
Yixing….there’s just too much to say about him, too many reasons to like him.
How can you not like him when the younger him drank in the judges’ venom and criticisms to his heart’s content because he wanted to better himself. Them saying he can’t dance, he lacks control, he should stop relying on the excuse of being young to get away from the real things in the entertainment industry but look at him now? 7 years later, standing in an even bigger stage, the group’s main dancer, finally living his dreams.
How can you not like him when he was still a young trainee, going to a foreign land alone, with no sense of security, with no parents, with no friends just to chase his dreams. Even when some of his old fans visited him, treated him just the same, rooting for him to debut, he would brush them away saying that they don’t need to treat him so well because he doesn’t know if he can repay them for their support, doubting if he can even debut. Now he’s finally an idol, a member of a boyband that is breaking history.
How can you not like him when he exerts his greatest efforts in everything, training for more than what? 10-12 hours? In order to be recognized, in order to debut. Tell him to rest more, take care of his health more, he would say that he needs to train harder, that the only chance of him debuting is to practice longer than the others. All his instructors would remember him as that trainee who has the most determination, that “As long as it is what he wants, there’s nothing he can’t achieve.” He believes that if you’re doing something that you love, you won’t feel tired.
How can you not like him, when he’s so filial, he’s the perfect dutiful son. A 14 year old claiming that it doesn’t matter how much money he would spend, he wouldn’t care, he just want to heal his grandma’s foot. That the first thing that he would do if he win the competition was to help in curing his grandma. Now, a 23 year old admitting that if he could return to his childhood just to change things, he would go back and tell his grandparents “You don’t have to go out, just stay at home and cook delicious food for me. I will keep you company.”. So that they won’t get hurt, so that his grandma couldn’t have been hurt by that accident and should have been dancing till now. He loves his family so much, spending every minute of his free time from being an idol with them, giving them surprise visits, changing their shoes for them, taking them out for a walk, sending them back home on his own past midnight even if he has a hectic schedule in the morning after that.
How can you not like someone who tells his fans that he loves them and actually mean it? That generic L sign that he made for us, his fans, because as corny as that sign is, it’s his way of communicating with us, with his heroes. It’s something valuable between us fans and him, that he acknowledges his fans being there supporting him. 我在舞台上尽力了 希望你们在舞台下尽力骄傲 谢谢你们 “I’ve done my best onstage, hope that you guys below did your best to feel proud as well. Thank you all.” Like what his self-composed song for the fans says, “I’ve placed you all in my heart, hold you with my palm. You will always be my everything” telling us heroes and his iced teas that if we’re tired, then we can rest for a little bit. He loves his fans enough to stay behind everyone, in every performance to bow countless times. He loves his fans enough to compose a song dedicated to them. He loves his fans enough to tell them that they should spend their money to themselves, to their families and not him, that he prefers letters over expensive brands. He loves his fans enough to read their accounts, even updating his weibo to apologize for the lost fangifts at the airport, because he read their sentiments. He loves his fans enough to not go to the VIP lane because he knows that they waited for him for hours. He loves his fans enough to promise them that he’s going to give them his very own DIY shirts on his birthday. He loves his fans enough by doing something as small as liking their posts of being successful, of their achievements, even weddings because he’s like a proud father, that if he achieved his dreams, then everyone else can!
How can you not like his skills, his talents, how he always do his best at everything? Singing, he would immediately ask someone if he did great. Even if he’s not on the vocal line, he would try to sing earnestly, with his cute pixie voice you can hear his passion since he was a little kid. Dancing, he would perform his best, adding his own flair to the choreo, he’s a gentle and well-controlled dancer that would consistently swoon everyone’s hearts. Giving out his all in his position as the main dancer even on rehearsals. Hosting, he asked the staff and his coordi noona if he did well, and then suddenly running to the hallways, screaming in glee because they said he did exceptionally well. Composing, while everyone’s out shopping and watching movies, he’s just cooped up in his room writing songs.
How can you not like how he’s heart is made of gold? How he immediately donated a huge sum to a child with leukemia because someone mentioned him on weibo, and silly him, deleting the transaction post right after because he doesn’t want his fans to use their money for his cause and name. How he secretly joined his fansite’s donation project during an earthquake just right before it closed, anonymously donating a huge sum, and silly him, didn’t know that the transaction details would show his real name. How during a community service, a kid recklessly played with his phone, then got scolded after, and silly him, still gave his phone back to the boy, so that he won’t get sad, saying he doesn’t care if it breaks.
How can you not like how he’s so selfless, so thoughtful? Always putting everyone else first before him. To the fans, reminding them to be careful always, when crossing the road, when sending EXO off the airport, when the fans are crowding towards the stage. At times typing “keep safe” on the LED screen of his phone and pressing it against the window, at times rolling down the window and telling the fans that it’s not safe back here so they need to go home and have their meals. Never failed to ask them if they have already eaten their dinner, and reminding them to do so, saying that he would check them up on that, and he really did, even liking his fan’s dinner post. To the staff, always telling them that his job is not that tiring and that they have it the hardest. Even going as far as having only a cup of coffee, forgoing dinner in order to not delay the recording, filming 7 episodes at one shoot, even apologizing for something as small as a tap on the microphone. Even telling a photographer that it isn’t right for a lady to move something so heavy, then proceeded to helping everyone else move the piano although he’s already finished with make-up and styling. To the other members, always pulling them to do a demo in dancing with him every time the hosts would requests him to, always pushing them out when the hosts would ask who’s in charge in dancing. Appreciating their efforts for the group, him crying at a corner for a long time seeing another member cheer EXO up with a big smile when an unexpected thing happened to the group and when everything was terribly messed up at one point.
How can you not like how he’s so cheeky, cute, charming, other C words that is relative to being adorable.
How he doesn’t believe that he has this much fans, asking his managers if they really came to see him and looking like a frightened bunny from the amount of people. How he’s so humble. You deserve all the fame and attention being given to you.
How he’s downright truthful, saying he thinks he looks his best when onstage but probably it’s because of the lighting and the make-up. You probably don’t realize how your deep dimple does things.
How his every speech comes out as someone like a government official running for a post. Your mother even wonders when you became so poetic.
How he’s such a perfectionist. Wondering if he doesn’t achieve near perfection, would people still support him? Your fans will always be at your back, please don’t doubt that. You are the imperfectly perfect Yixing that everyone has grown to love and care for.
How he’s so stubborn, something that no one can change, practicing till he breaks, saying that getting injuries is only normal. You shouldn’t be so hard on yourself. You’re…you’re only 23. You said that you don’t care if you miss out on the beautiful sceneries on your journey to reaching that rainbow faraway, but Yixing, there’s nothing wrong with taking a break, you might even realize that the sceneries on the way there are far more beautiful than the actual rainbow. How can you even look at it when you’re already so worn out.
Yixing we love everything that makes up who you are right now. Someone asked me before if I would still stan you if you can’t dance, can’t sing, can’t compose, can’t joke, isn’t chinese, I said no….because you aren’t Yixing if you don’t have these qualities. Every singly quality, good or bad that makes up the Zhang Yixing that we support.
But if someone would ask me what’s your best quality? I would say it would be your perseverance. I love Yixing because of his burning passion for the things that he loves to do. Persevere to give a breathtaking performance for his fans because they deserve it. Persevere and work hard, work hard and work even harder to reach his dreams along with his brothers. Persevere to not let his family’s effort go to waste. But most of all persevere to make himself proud because he is finally standing infront of thousands of crowds, millions of fans, doing what he loves most.
That is Zhang Yixing for you. How can I not like him? 怎能叫我不爱？
Well, she’s not bleeding on the ballroom floor Just for the attention Cause that’s just ridiculously odd Well, she sure is gonna get it Here’s the setting Fashion magazines line the walls now The walls line the bullet holes You sure, you sure you let her have it You sure, you sure you let her