time person of the year 2012

vaguely nsfw asks
  • 1. Are looks important in a relationship?
  • 2. Are relationships ever worth it?
  • 3. Are you a virgin?
  • 4. Are you in a relationship?
  • 5. Are you in love?
  • 6. Are you single this year?
  • 7. Can you commit to one person?
  • 8. Describe your crush
  • 9. Describe your perfect mate
  • 10. Do you believe in love at first sight?
  • 11. Do you ever want to get married?
  • 12. Do you forgive betrayal?
  • 13. Do you get jealous easily?
  • 14. Do you have a crush on anyone?
  • 15. Do you have any piercings?
  • 16. Do you have any tattoos?
  • 17. Do you like kissing in public?
  • 20. Do you shower every day?
  • 21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
  • 22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
  • 23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
  • 24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
  • 25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?
  • 26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
  • 27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?
  • 28. Have you ever been cheated on?
  • 29. Have you ever cheated on someone?
  • 30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?
  • 31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?
  • 32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?
  • 33. Have you ever had sex with a man?
  • 34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?
  • 35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
  • 36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?
  • 37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
  • 38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
  • 39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
  • 40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?
  • 41. Have you had sex so far this year?
  • 42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?
  • 43. How long was your longest relationship?
  • 44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
  • 45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013?
  • 46. How many times did you have sex last year?
  • 47. How old are you?
  • 48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
  • 49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?
  • 50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
  • 51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?
  • 52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?
  • 53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
  • 54. Is there someone you will never forget?
  • 55. Share a relationship story.
  • 56. State 8 facts about your body
  • 57. Things you want to say to an ex
  • 58. What are five ways to win your heart?
  • 59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)
  • 60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?
  • 61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?
  • 62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?
  • 63. What is your definition of “having sex”?
  • 64. What is your definition of cheating?
  • 65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?
  • 66. What is your favourite roleplay?
  • 67. What is your idea of the perfect date?
  • 68. What is your sexual orientation?
  • 69. What turns you off?
  • 70. What turns you on?
  • 71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?
  • 72. What words do you like to hear during sex?
  • 73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?
  • 74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?
  • 75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?
  • 76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?
  • 77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?
  • 78. What’s your dirtiest secret?
  • 79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?
  • 80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
  • 81. Who are five people you find attractive?
  • 82. Who is the last person you hugged?
  • 83. Who was your first kiss with?
  • 84. Why did your last relationship fail?
  • 85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?

since some people are being ugly about this 

implying that the fact louis dressed preppy and wore skinny jeans while in 1d and never called himself a chav because he was working through the limits of a boyband image is somEhow proof that he’s “lying” about his current image for whatever reason, i’d just like to quickly show some pictures of louis wearing sweatpants(plus general athleticwear) on his time off from 2016 all the way back to 2012  just like he says.

yes, he has always dressed this way. he hasn’t pulled a 180 with his image or style. he’s dressing the same and acting the same. he calls himself a chav as a joke, because he fits the stereotype for liking athleticwear and having such a strong personality. it’s not demeaning. it’s him, it’s his sense of humor, it’s his image, it’s him presenting himself the way he wants as 25 year old man. it’s disrespectful to pick apart everything he wears and tell him what’s the honest way for him to dress himself just because you’re unhappy he isn’t dressing the way you want.

if you associate a working class image and urban-wear as a negative thing then that’s your problem, and a very shameful one at that.

vaguely nsfw asks
  • 1. Are looks important in a relationship?
  • 2. Are relationships ever worth it?
  • 3. Are you a virgin?
  • 4. Are you in a relationship?
  • 5. Are you in love?
  • 6. Are you single this year?
  • 7. Can you commit to one person?
  • 8. Describe your crush
  • 9. Describe your perfect mate
  • 10. Do you believe in love at first sight?
  • 11. Do you ever want to get married?
  • 12. Do you forgive betrayal?
  • 13. Do you get jealous easily?
  • 14. Do you have a crush on anyone?
  • 15. Do you have any piercings?
  • 16. Do you have any tattoos?
  • 17. Do you like kissing in public?
  • 20. Do you shower every day?
  • 21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
  • 22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
  • 23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
  • 24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
  • 25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?
  • 26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
  • 27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?
  • 28. Have you ever been cheated on?
  • 29. Have you ever cheated on someone?
  • 30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?
  • 31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?
  • 32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?
  • 33. Have you ever had sex with a man?
  • 34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?
  • 35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
  • 36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?
  • 37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
  • 38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
  • 39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
  • 40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?
  • 41. Have you had sex so far this year?
  • 42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?
  • 43. How long was your longest relationship?
  • 44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
  • 45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013?
  • 46. How many times did you have sex last year?
  • 47. How old are you?
  • 48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
  • 49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?
  • 50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
  • 51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?
  • 52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?
  • 53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
  • 54. Is there someone you will never forget?
  • 55. Share a relationship story.
  • 56. State 8 facts about your body
  • 57. Things you want to say to an ex
  • 58. What are five ways to win your heart?
  • 59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)
  • 60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?
  • 61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?
  • 62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?
  • 63. What is your definition of “having sex”?
  • 64. What is your definition of cheating?
  • 65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?
  • 66. What is your favourite roleplay?
  • 67. What is your idea of the perfect date?
  • 68. What is your sexual orientation?
  • 69. What turns you off?
  • 70. What turns you on?
  • 71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?
  • 72. What words do you like to hear during sex?
  • 73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?
  • 74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?
  • 75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?
  • 76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?
  • 77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?
  • 78. What’s your dirtiest secret?
  • 79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?
  • 80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
  • 81. Who are five people you find attractive?
  • 82. Who is the last person you hugged?
  • 83. Who was your first kiss with?
  • 84. Why did your last relationship fail?
  • 85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?
The Secret To Shinhwa’s Longevity? The Answer is Their Leader, Eric Mun.

Eric Mun, one of the best leaders, if not the best, sets an example of what true leadership is. What has he done for Shinhwa that the group stayed intact, becoming the longest-running idol group in Kpop, with no disbandment & no member change?

Let’s start from the very beginning. After winning a street dance championship in the US, Eric was selected by Lee Soo Man in March 1997 & he debuted as the leader of the 6-member-group Shinhwa on 24 March 1998


In 2003, Shinhwa’s 5-year-contract with SM came to an end. At that time, many 1st generation groups faced disbandment, like H.O.T, Secks Skies, S.E.S. So it was expected that Shinhwa would disband too. Following the group’s contract expiration, SM wanted to disband the group & offered solo contracts to only some members. But Shinhwa’s aim was that the 6 of them would stay together as a group and could not be separated. So, Shinhwa refused the solo contract offers with SM, which was undoubtedly a shock in the industry. So far no artist had ever dared to offend the big boss of the Korean entertainment industry, and they were the first.

So, what did Eric do to avoid disbandment and keep the members together after the contract expired? 

Eric, the leader who chose to keep his group together over money. His first priority was his group. 

He was offered solo contracts that were FOUR times more than the other members. “Honestly, others would think about those offers for a month, but Eric rejected them immediately, just to let the members be together.”


Truthfully, how many people do you know that can make such sacrifice, whether in real life or in idol world?!!!! .. Eric could’ve said, ‘screw Shinhwa’ and then accept SM’s offer to double his contract 4 times on the condition that they disband Shinhwa and he go solo.. But Eric’s genuine love & loyalty for his group couldn’t be replaced by money or securing a place in SM. He turned down the offers IMMEDIATELY & & took Shinhwa to another company, which was even a great risk as they were leaving the big boss of kpop entertainment to start again in another much smaller company. The result didn’t matter to him as long as remained with the members. 
imagine that Eric accepted those tempting solo offers, then we wouldn’t have Shinhwa anymore. The fact that the six of them are able to stay together now, Eric contributed A LOT to it.

and to Eric, his choice wasn’t a sacrifice .. it was the best decision he has made in his life.


After Eric chose Shinhwa over money & suggested moving to another agency, then came the next problem. Leader Eric had to fight for the rights to “Shinhwa’s” name.

After Shinhwa left SM among much controversy & refused to extend their solo contracts, then came a huge problem. The members needed to continue using the same name “Shinhwa”. But since SM still owned the rights to Shinhwa’s name, so Eric had to put himself through a crash course in legalities to resolve Shinhwa’s contract issues. Eric was the one who negotiated with the management and no one will ever know how much hardship he had to endure during the negotiations. Eric went to court against SM to retain the rights for Shinhwa’s name. He even studied law to find a way for Shinhwa to continue being active under the same name. (Bear in mind that he was only 24 years old back then!!) .. He paid a HUGE sum of his OWN money to buy the name’s rights.. Eric really went through hell during that period until in the end, Shinhwa won & left SM with the rights to their name.

Can you imagine that a young man in his early 20s, gave up on massively tempting solo offers and chose to go through hell & fight for his team just to remain with his band mates & keep the group intact?!!! .. who else can do such thing?!! .. what a true leadership & loyalty! 


It’s also Eric who negotiated -alone- with other companies till he chose the best offer for his group. Then Shinhwa moved to Good Entertainment. But unfortunately, not so many people were pleased with that decision & so they tried their best to bring Shinhwa down, asking them to disband like what other groups did back then.

In 2004, a journalist once wrote an article heavily criticizing Shinhwa & blatantly used personal attacks on the Shinhwa members implying that they are failed musicians who try too hard with solo activities. He proceeded to slam Shinhwa with ruthless criticism, leading to a big media frenzy. It was then that Eric stepped up once again as the leader to speak out. He made a powerful reply to the reporter & published it on the Internet, asking for a more meaningful review. That reply of Eric went viral & found its way to the official school books in Korea, marking him as the 1st & only artist to have such feat. He ended the letter with: “It’s not so easy to see Shinhwa. If there’s anything, you can look for me.” & this line became very famous.

Here’s an excerpt of his lengthy letter..


WOW! such powerful reply! Eric might be 4D & act like a cute kid, but when someone or something threatens Shinhwa, he turns into a totally different person. totally dependable & trustworthy leader.

When Eric was at the peak of his success, being the nation’s flower boy after starring in the very popular drama “Firebird” in 2004, & dominating almost all CFs and he was dubbed the “CF King” .. Many thought that he would leave Shinhwa & there were many articles released that urged him to go solo & pursue his successful career as an actor & rapper away from Shinhwa.

“I remember a conversation I had with Eric over drinks back when we were filming Firebird (Phoenix). I said ’“It’s a good idea to go into acting. Anyway, you can only be an idol for a few years, just make acting your lifelong career”. Eric turned serious and replied “NO! I’ll be with Shinhwa for more than 10 years, for a lifetime. Please wait and see!”
- Firebird Director San Ray’s twitter (2012.03)

Eric strictly clarified to everyone what his top priority is, which is the group Shinhwa. Eric: “Shinhwa is everything. Without Shinhwa there won’t be the present me, and I would not meet precious friends and members who love me.”
                 Eric: “Shinhwa is our root and it has to be our core.”


This man’s loyalty & devotion to his group is simply unbelievable!

2008 - The group hiatus due to military service. Eric is always the leader who knew how to keep his word.

In 2008, Shinhwa held their last concert before the 4-year hiatus due to the army enlistment. In that concert, they promised the fans that Shinhwa will come back after all members finish their military service. “Shinhwa will come back, please wait for us”


But .. during those 4 years of military service hiatus, Shinhwa was on the verge of disbandment. So the dependable leader Eric stepped up again to keep their promise to the fans & keep the group together.


and that’s how Shinhwa came back to us again, thanks to Leader Eric who lived up to his position as the best leader & the big brother to his group members and brought them together again. Couldn’t be more grateful to this AWESOME man! he’s truly a man of his words! .. Thanks to him, we have Shinhwa today!

Eric: “Shinhwa must go on forever. Even if there is no company that wants us, we might just form our own company and carry on.”

In 2007, some members left Good Ent. (the company Shinhwa moved into after SM) & many people thought Shinhwa were going to disband. But the loyal leader Eric stepped up again and assured that Shinhwa will go on forever even if there’s no company that wants them, Leader Eric came up with the idea of forming their own company! He’s truly the leader that thinks ahead & seeks for what’s best for his group! to this extend he’s so loyal & dedicated to Shinhwa!


Eric’s efforts to gain the full rights to Shinhwa’s name.

But .. to establish Shinhwa’s company, there was a serious issue needed to be resolved. Shinhwa didn’t have the full rights to their name yet, since SM handed over the full rights of “Shinhwa’s” name to Jun Media Ent. in 2005.
So before establishing “Shinhwa Company”, leader Eric went through a very tough time & had loooong negotiations with Jun Media to use Shinhwa’s trademark. And finally, after reaching an agreement, Eric’s dream came true & Shinhwa Company was established in 2011, marking Shinhwa as the first & only idol group to establish their own agency with their own name & personally run it. 


But due to many legal issues concerning Jun Media, Shinhwa filed a lawsuit and leader Eric went to court against Jun Media in 2012. He went through hell again with many trials & appeals & temporarily changing the company name to “ShinCom Ent.”. Until finally In 2015, Shinhwa won and gained the full rights to their name after 12 years. 
This man, Eric, used to show up in varieties, all smiling & laughing, acting 4D & as 3 yrs old kid, while he had such huge burden over his shoulders, fighting for years for Shinhwa to continue with their name. He makes me speechless!

The members expressed their gratitude & thanks to Eric as he was the one who struggled the most during the the whole process.
Such a dependable Leader! 


The leader that always thinks of Shinhwa as family.

Eric has always been the dependable big brother to all the members. “I always think of the members as my real brothers”. And as a real brother, Eric is always there for the members when anyone of them faces troubles & does his best to help the members out.


Eric, to help Minwoo out, gathered the members & suggested that everyone of them contributes a sum of money so that they help Minwoo overcome his financial trouble as loyal brothers. 
This man continuously sets examples of how true friendship should be.


When Eric earned a large sum of money in CFs, he split up his pay and supported other members who had financial difficulties. When he was dominating CFs, he called the members to his house and gave them bonus money. He’s also filmed CFs originally meant for himself but he got the company to include the rest of the Shinhwa members.

Shinhwa’s appearance for China gag concert in 2015 was originally meant to have Eric as the only guest, but he refused & told the production team that if it wasn’t a SHINHWA segment, he wouldn’t attend. So, Shinhwa as OT6 was casted instead.


One of the things that make other groups disband is when the members care more about their solo work than the group itself.
Then comes leader Eric, who leads by example. For his solo activities, he always thinks of “us” before “me”! his group always comes first.

To Eric, Shinhwa always comes as a top priority even before his solo work. When he does a solo activity, he does it because he knows it will benefit the group itself, not doing solo to shine away from the group. He does his solo work to promote Shinhwa.


  Even when he gets a solo activity, he never decides on it by himself… Eric will first get the agreement of the members if there is something he wants to do for himself. If there is a solo activity that he wishes to do, he would first gather the opinions of the members & seek the agreements of all the members first!!. 
Seriously who ever does something like this?!!!! .. such an attitude of his sets an example of what made it possible for Shinhwa to promote separately and together. 
Eric: “Rather than my solo activities, Shinhwa’s activities are more important.”

 

another secret to longevity? it’s the leader’s genuine care and support to the other members’ solo activities. Eric always sets an example for others to follow. 

Dongwan: “Eric always thinks about every member, and seeing how he helps make us take care of each other.“

Eric has always been a truly supportive & selfless Leader. Not being selfish & focusing only on his solo activities, but he always helps his members in their solo careers, showing ultimate support & encouragement to them & happily agrees to feature in their albums, and always expresses how proud he is as his members are doing great in their solos. While staying at home, he keeps on monitoring their performances & giving them very useful feedback & advises.

Eric: “Aside from our group activities, I’m really happy to see the members do well in their solo careers. If I can offer my help in any way, I’d like to help them continuously.”


  & what does he gain in return for his massive help & as feat. fees in his members’ albums?! .. Pizza or sunglasses :D


Eric, the leader who leads from behind & puts the members in front. He doesn’t like to stand out and always stays away from the limelight, happily giving it to the members. 

and there is always that noticeable thing about Leader Eric. He has always been supporting Shinhwa from the back since debut. Never been bossy. He always stays away from the limelight, happily giving it to the members. You’ll find him standing quietly in the interviews. So humble & quiet to the extend that many people are still not aware that Eric is the leader of Shinhwa. This is because he is a man with few words and doesn’t stand on the front of the group. His true features of taking care of his people shone brightly as him working behind the scenes. But when Shinhwa encounter a problem, he takes the front line, protecting the group & the members.


and after all of this, it’s expected that Eric will be thinking highly of himself as one of best leaders, if not the best ..
but ..this man is so humble to an extend you can’t believe! 

Another thing about Eric is that he never thinks highly of himself!! he’s one of the most humble people you can ever meet!!. Like he’s one of the best leaders, if not the best, the loyal, selfless & dependable leader that has been keeping Shinhwa for such a long time in the industry & still, he doesn’t think that he does something extraordinary!! 


Seriously, how can he even be this humble?!!.. Eric, you’ve been setting standards of how ideal leadership is! 

Whenever someone praises or says something nice about him, he’ll do some funny stuff to cut that person off & move to another subject. Like what he did in Shinhwa’s latest concert when Dongwan thanked him for his great efforts in getting the full rights to Shinhwa’s name back. Eric kept on kissing Dongwan to cut him off.


Or when someone praises his outer looks, & it’s known that Eric is one of the most handsome Korean celebs (he was dubbed Korea’s handsome representative) but he never brags about his handsomeness for even once, and when others tell him that he’s handsome, he’s gets so shy & flustered & tries to change topics. 


and even though he’s the mighty Eric, with more than 20 years in the industry, regardless of his fame, he remains the humble Eric who still bows 90 degrees to even the hoobaes & the fans. Forever humble as Day 1. Eric really sets an example that no matter how famous you are, you should always be humble & down to earth with everyone.


The leader that always thinks of Shinhwa before himself !

& he also doesn’t think he’s doing something extraordinary!!! 


and even during his solo activities, he seizes every chance to promote Shinhwa & the other members’ solo events. 


Then there is this amazingly meaningful quote of Eric, that makes me feel so lucky for being a Shinhwa Changjo ..

“It’s impossible for Shinhwa to disband now even if we wanted to. Shinhwa doesn’t just belong to us, it also belongs to the fans and people who love us.”

To any group, before disbanding, think deeply of this quote. Your group doesn’t just belong to you, it also belongs to your fans & people who love you!


Now.. With every anniversary we celebrate with Shinhwa, the group that debuted in 1998 & still going strong with no disbandment & no member change, let’s forever remember that the main reason behind this is Eric, the best leader we could ever ask for. The leader who knew how to keep his group intact & overcome all troubles they’ve been through since debut. That troubles that could’ve easily made any other group disband.
Eric always puts Shinhwa as a top priority over anything else .. To him, the group always comes first. He really lives for Shinhwa!

“Eric is really like an otaku. If he gets addicted to something he’ll bury himself at home but after we left our first agency, as the leader of Shinhwa, he became the otaku of Shinhwa. Even now, he worries a lot for Shinhwa and is also in charge of dealing with external matters. He is a leader I’m thankful to and can trust.” - Dongwan


Thank you leader Eric for all of what you’ve done & still doing to Shinhwa. Thank you for keeping them as forever six .. thank you for always protecting us, Shinhwa Changjo .. Thank you for always protecting Orange .. Thank you for always protecting Shinhwa Company .. Thank you for always choosing Shinhwa over anything else no matter what the temptation is .. Everyone of us appreciates your great efforts & dedication for Shinhwa. Plz continue on leading Shinhwa for more anniversaries & more success. 2gether 4ever, walking on the same road. Never apart, friends till the end. ♥♥

#HappyEricDay ♥♥  Happiest birthday to our awesome leader Eric ♥♥

MASTERLIST

my little caveat about my smut-filled chapters

Chapters with smut have a ***

STILES STILINSKI//TEEN WOLF

Originally posted by teenwolfmazerunnerunited

The College Years

Freshman Year (Chapters 1-20)

Sophomore Year (Chapters 21-?)


MITCH RAPP//AMERICAN ASSASSIN

Originally posted by dylanfanforeverr

The Recruit

The Barn (Chapters 1 - 24)

The Ghost Mission (Chapters 25 - 33)

The Agent and The Asset


DYLAN O’BRIEN//REAL PERSON HUMAN THING

Originally posted by its-ethereal

The Summer Fling


DAVE HODGMAN//THE FIRST TIME

Originally posted by heulend

The First Time (In London)


STUART TWOMBLY//THE INTERNSHIP

Originally posted by mieczyslawr

The Blackouts (Coming 09/21)

contracts.

Members of groups like The Pussycat Dolls, Spice girls, Little Mix etc. were contractually allocated a specific personality and given certain characteristics/mannerisms to make the group dynamic aesthetically perfect. Individual traits must be relatable or else no one would associate with the group. The idea when forming these groups is to increase diversity so that the group as a brand becomes more appealing to all types of people. Their cohesive image must be attractive and appealing to both men and women. And that’s a beautiful thing, until the label use this to their advantage. This all falls upon how they treat the individual girl. Now, this distribution of personas within groups are put in place to influence an individual’s musical contribution to a record. Their behaviours become contractual agreements. Through allocation of these mannerisms, we can see how it influences the verses given per individual on a song. The more likable you are, the more verses you’re given.

From the off, contractually Lauren became the label favourite. At 16, she eluded maturity and talent. Look at their debut single, ‘Miss Movin on’, Lauren and Camila lead. Now, let’s forget “camren” as a concept for 5 minutes. Their voices melodically together sounded beautiful and when together, their personalities complemented each other. There’s one thing no one can deny, and that’s the consistency of Camila’s vocals. From 2012 to now she has always been the one to deliver a flawless performance. I’ve had the privilege of seeing the girls as a 5 piece live three times. Each time, Camila was the one that stood out. She had absolutely no issue with breathing control and her vocal range excelled her talent. I think from 2013, the label favourite then contractually switched to Camila. She became the ‘it’ girl. Her personality is relatable, she’s real and everyone fell in love with that. When Epic realised this, it influenced their treatment towards her. Her being the ‘it’ girl meant they realised she had potential as a solo artist. This is when they begun preparing her and schooling her in a career outside the group, offering her a solo contract for 2015.  If I’m honest, I think they completely declined Lauren’s potential and at a point, her confidence fell hence she behaves the way she does. Laurens vocals have changed drastically from 2012 to now, she’s lucky the rasp suits her but I am concerned about further vocal deterioration. I think possibly the label considered her lifestyle choices in regards to her ability and reallocated her parts to someone who took the preservation of their voice more seriously. Since then, she has lacked influence on some of the girl’s most successful hits. Verses in ‘Worth It’ and ‘Work from Home’ were reallocated so Lauren’s vocals were played down. She’s simply a chorus in both. As for Reflection, both Lauren and Dinah were barely heard. Their potential on those records could have been so much more. Unfortunately, that’s purely the labels fault and clauses they induced in the girls contracts. Now personally for me, Dinah is the most capable. She is by far the most underrated out of the 5. Ally and Normani both have unique and incredible talent, however for me nothing compares to Dinah, not even Lauren or Camila. Dinah has misplaced her confidence because she has been a victim of vocal allocation on the debut singles, Reflection and 7/27. I understand during live performances, Dinah struggles with breathing control, but when that is the case, it becomes the label’s responsibility to minimise the choreography and allow her vocals to excel. It’s only when the girls perform acoustically are we really allowed to appreciate Dinah’s capability. At last, on this new album we are witnessing Dinah’s artistic potential. We can feel her vocal range in ‘Don’t Say You Love Me’ (slightly biased but that’s my personal favourite off the album) and it’s amazing. The combination of her and Lauren’s vocals are ethereal. Her temperament is incredible. She is such a sincere, genuine, compassionate young woman. For me, Dinah deserves to be the ‘it’ girl of the group. So regardless of the alloction, its fair to say that groups formed on talent shows are unnatural. Relationships are forced and obligated because participants simply have no other option. If any of the Fifth Harmony girls didn’t sign that initial contract on that day in 2012, none of them would be where they are now. That’s a fact. But this is the reason Epic offer young applicants these contracts. Those formed on X-Factor; Fifth Harmony, Little Mix, One Direction etc. All were aged between 15-19 when they applied. They were manipulated and operated through contracts. More specifically, 5H, Epic/Syco took advantage of 5 young girls and their families who were clueless on industry law. The label morphed their talent and personalities into the mould of a ‘successful’ girl group. They completely belittled their dreams and aspirations down to a contract and a pay cheque. Every single creative and personal right was snatched from the girls the second they signed that initial contract in 2012. Each name; Ally, Camila, Dinah, Lauren and Normani became a brand. Their humanity as young girls/women was stolen from them by a legal piece of paper. Over these 5 years, they’ve been robbed of time, money and optimum success. 

Fifth Harmony was never a girl group; it’s was nurtured into a brand from day one. It’s a brand that has been manufactured and marketed for the sole purpose of financial profit at the girls expense. It would be ignorant for fans to not understand that their label is failing them.

https://twitter.com/CamrenLatinOff/status/902924041836691457

What’s the saddest part, is that the girls lives are now nothing but a contractual obligation.

Onision’s Track Record: Underage Girls

In light of recent events, here is a post detailing Greg’s relationships with underage girls. Getting in trouble with the legal age of consent is nothing new to Greg and something he has a lot of experience defending himself for. I hope this sheds some light to the current situation with his forums and exploiting his underage fans.

Shiloh

Shiloh explicitly states that Greg violated the Mann Act, which is essentially a federal law claiming that it is illegal to transport women/girls across state lines for sexual acts. People are still prosecuted to this date for violating this law, a pastor was recently convicted in 2012 for transporting a minor to a state with a lower age of consent to have sex with her. Which is the exact same thing Greg had done multiple times with Shiloh.

In this screenshot, Shiloh recounts her abusive relationship with Greg again but with more details into his warped sexual fantasies. Near the end Shiloh mentions how young she was when she was taken advantage of and announces her fear that Taylor could experience the same abuse. She makes a point to mention her age being the same as Taylor’s when they began their relationship with Greg.

Taylor

Greg knowingly entered a relationship with Taylor while she was underage and attending high school. Greg met with lawyers frequently to confirm the legality of their relationship, while Taylor’s father objected that it was illegal in his opinion. The age of consent in New Mexico being 17. Greg and Taylor met only 10 days making contact online and had sex the first day they met in person. Greg obviously does not take issue with having sexual relationships with minors. Greg also married Taylor secretly from her parents only a month after turning 18! Which doesn’t seem totally underhanded and sketchy at all! /s

Side Note:

Billie joined their relationship in the end of 2015/early 2016 when she was 18 years old. Age of consent in Billie’s home state, Virginia, is 18. I find it curious that Greg seems to carefully check the laws before pursuing anything. He’s aware he is doing something morally wrong and knows he can get into some legal shit if he isn’t careful.

Also here is a screenshot of Taylor patronizing Billie for her age even though she was even younger when she got with Greg.

Greg like to harp on to the fact that a lot of his criticizers seem to point out the fact that he’s been in multiple questionable relationships with minors, and still feels like he hasn’t done anything wrong. The fact that this has happened not once, but twice shows his true intentions when it comes to children. Greg likes to forget the fact that teenagers are still children.

His Audience in General

OnisionDrama made a great post outlining Greg’s target demographic and why YouTube analytics aren’t exactly a valid reference when trying to determine the average age of an Onision fan. I know personally I lied about my age online from the time I was 12-17, which is the exact age range of Greg’s followers. Here we have multiple polls from 2012-2016 showing the majority of fans are indeed minors. Which is why most of the girls featured in his “body positivity” videos are underage.

Here is a poll from Taylor as well, showing most of their shared demographic being under 16 years old.

Sarah

Sarah is a friend of Taylor’s. They began talking when she was 14. After her sixteenth birthday, Greg and Taylor started housing her officially. She moved in with them around Halloween 2016 and has been there since. The age of consent is 16 in Washington. Notice how once again, Greg calculated the perfect time to move her in after she became legal.

Miscellaneous  Notes

It’s been speculated that Greg privately emailed Robert Casio to defend his actions and offered verbal support. Robert Casio being a convicted sex criminal after impregnating a 13 year-old child. Casio uploaded this video thanking Greg for his kind words of encouragement, but only referred to him by his first name and not his online persona as to prevent public backlash.

AntiSouthernMovement being a well-known second alias of Greg, left this comment showing his support of a convicted sex felon. SG also did a video calling Greg out which has more details of the situation.

What I feel to be pretty damning against Onision’s case of “dindu nuffin wrong” was the email scandal that happened in 2013. Someone sent Greg an email claiming to be a model/actress that would like to collaborate sometime, she mentioned being 17 years old, and attached a topless photo. Greg then pursued and asked for her facebook for more pictures and to communicate further. After this came out to the public, Greg began the process of covering his own ass at first by saying “I didn’t see her age!” then later changing it to “I never opened the attachment!”.

Another piece of damning evidence is how much Greg has announced that he isn’t a therapist. He has no desire to help his followers. 

He never wanted to offer guidance to his audience. He dismissed and out right ignored any fans emailing him for help/advice. But now he has changed his tune since it’s more convenient for him to act like his videos are therapy for those who need it, rather than admitting he was asking for pictures of minors’ bodies.

It’s also important to note context. Greg says the photos are harmless and nothing you wouldn’t see in a public swimming pool. The context of underwear though is that is IS private. Swimwear serves an obvious purpose for being comfortable clothing specially to swim in. Underwear’s purpose is to protect your genitals, it is meant for privacy, to be worn underneath clothing. The hard difference between the two is obvious, swimwear is public, while underwear is private.

So understand that photos of underage girls alone in their room, posing in bra and panties, will always been seen in a sexual context. 

So what we can gather from all of the above is:

  1. Greg has no issues being in sexual relationships with minors. As long as it’s barely within the legal limits, he has no moral opposition to dating children.
  2. Greg invites minors into his life and supports relationships with minors even as young as 13.
  3. Greg is aware of his demographic’s age and takes advantage of their naivety for sexually themed photographs of minors.
  4. Greg never intended his “body positivity” videos to be helpful. Greg never had any intentions on helping his fans.
  5. Greg is not qualified to comment on the health of developing girls’ bodies. Greg has no medical certifications nor any experience in the medical field. This includes therapy.
  6. Greg somehow doesn’t understand that you legally can’t make money from minors’ images without parental consent. Minors cannot legally consent without their parents permission.
  7. No matter how many excuses Greg comes up with, there’s no way he can talk himself out of being a hebephile piece of trash.

-N

First You Came for the Trans Women: An Open Letter to the Chicago Dyke March Collective

Core Members of the Chicago Dyke March Collective (CDMC),

I am a Jew. I am also the first trans woman to have been a member of your collective. I am writing in regards to your collective’s decision to ask three women carrying Jewish pride flags to leave the 2017 Chicago Dyke March.

My interest in questions regarding inclusion at the Chicago Dyke March goes at least as far back as 2009, the year when I became a core member of your collective. Almost immediately I became concerned when another core member violated a trans woman’s privacy in such a way that, had it happened to me, I would have considered it a violation of my sexual boundaries. In the backlash that ensued after I voiced my complaint other core members put their feelings before trans women’s need for safety and scapegoated me. It was only after the aforementioned core member of your collective violated my sexual boundaries, demonstrating even to the most loyal member of your collective that my concerns were justified, that the verbal abuse subsided. But still no justice. It was nearly two years before representatives of your collective met with me to talk about what had happened. Your collective made four promises to me and to Chicago’s queer and trans community. It immediately kept the only promise that required it to do nothing substantial—the promise to publicly apologize. To this day it has not kept its other three promises. But it has found new ways to hurt me, including publishing personal correspondence that had the potential to out me. The last time I asked CDMC about its cascading failure, it gave me no collective answer, but in 2012 one of its members responded in a way that now seems like eerie foreshadowing: She said that your collective owed me nothing because I had already gotten my “pound of flesh”, thus drawing a connection between me and an antisemitic caricature.

I am hardly the only one who wants answers from your collective. Many people are now asking, “Was the Chicago Dyke March Collective’s decision to ask three Jewish women to leave the march antisemitic?” It is a fair question. The political right likes to use divide-and-conquer schemes to keep us from uniting to confront oppression. As April Rosenblum argued in The Past Didn’t Go Anywhere, one of the most successful instances of this scheme has been the scapegoating of Jewish people to keep us from focusing on our real oppressors. Blaming diasporic Jewish people for the actions of the State of Israel is the latest variation on a theme at least as old as The Protocols of the Elders of Zion.

Of course not all fair questions have “yes” as an answer. To find out if your collective’s actions play into systemic bias against Jewish people we need to look at the facts. I was not at the march, so I will charitably assume the account your collective gave in its statement is true. You wrote, “We have since learned that at least one of these individuals is a regional director for A Wider Bridge” (emphasis mine). Does it need to be said that what you learned about one of the Jewish women after you asked her to leave the march could not have been the reason you asked the women to leave the march? You also wrote that the women were “carrying Israeli flags superimposed on rainbow flags”. If the flags you were referring to were like the one seen in a photograph published to the web site of the Windy City Times on Saturday, there was nothing superimposed on them besides Stars of David, making them no different from the Jewish pride flags I first saw at Dyke March in 2005 (five years before A Wider Bridge was founded). The Star of David is a symbol of Judaism and my people, the Jewish people, and there is nothing inherently Zionist about it. It is evident to me that your collective has put some people’s feelings before Jewish queer women’s need for queer community.

I find no comfort in your assurance that “anti-Zionist Jewish volunteers and supporters are welcome at Dyke March and were involved in conversations with the individuals who were asked to leave”. For one thing, Jewish people, including those of us who express our pride through the use of Jewish symbolism, should not have to be extensively educated on all political viewpoints before we can participate in an event that is purportedly for all “dyke, queer, and trans” people. For another, all too often Jewish people are subjected to a political litmus test that non-Jewish people are not. (Nobody asked me what my views on Palestine were before they found out I had Jewish ancestry. Such selective outspokenness on Palestine does a disservice to both Jews and Palestinians.) Finally, it reminds me of the reassurances I heard after your collective violated me—that there were trans people who nevertheless stood among you. The goal of solidarity is not to collect oppressed people to insulate yourself from criticism even while you crush us. Rather, the goal of solidarity is to stand with all who are being crushed throughout our struggles even while we resist internalized oppression. In 2010 your collective’s insistence that I was “welcome” to participate in a march with people who had hurt me did not stop your collective from violating me again. And in 2017 your collective’s insistence that the Jewish people you approve of are “welcome” to participate in a march where my people have been harassed does not make your collective any less antisemitic.

L’shalom,
Veronika Boundless

anonymous asked:

What's your opinion on this robot harry?For me it's so annoying he can't even pretend to be excited for his own tour, his social media presence is such a turn off

Well I’m sort of digging myself a grave with this one, but since I haven’t seen a post I can fully agree with, here we go. Disclaimer, I actually study this at uni. I was the Social Media Manager for the planning and putting together of a fashion show, on all platforms. I just handed in last month a 6-months marketing plan that was based around social media promo. So I do have a bit of knowledge in this area. I am by no means an expert, but this is my future field of choice, so I like to think I’m at least educated.

The situation isn’t as black and white as people have put it so far. All I’ve seen is “he’s horrible at engaging with fans” and “he doesn’t own you shit so stop complaining”. The answer is a very big grey area in which Harry’s actual social media presence fits perfectly in my opinion. First of all, there’s two main templates we studied for marketing purposes this year, Gaynor Lea Greenwood’s promotion suggestions (2009) and Burcher (2013)’s Paid, Owned and Earned media concept. Long story short, the first one is your traditional marketing campaign and the second one relies more on social media and advertising on it. Now, I think Harry’s team went for the more traditional approach, and let me explain why.

Harry started distancing himself more and more from twitter and Instagram ever since the hiatus started.Even before, during OTRA and MITAM promo, most of his tweets were promo stuff, lyrics I’m not sure we fully understand even now, charity work, promoting friends or tweeting about holidays/important days or events. His fan interaction has been low for quite a while, and I’m honestly baffled people are acting like this is news. Looking through his Twitter in 2015, there are some tweets to fans, yes, but they’re very sparse.I counted about 12 in 5 months, most of them in September, when Perfect came out, and around the release of MITAM.His tweets were mostly thanks to fans for various awards and nominalisation, promoting the songs/album, some lyrics and, without fail, after every concert he tweeted a thank you for coming.

It felt more personal than what we have now (tho in all honesty, his tour hasn’t started yet and if we eliminate the OTRA tweets it’s already a different story), but Robot Harry has been a thing then, and people were riding along with it instead of condemning it to the extent they do now.But, the thing is, Harry didn’t have the entire burden of engaging with the fanbase like he has now.Louis, Niall and Liam always took turns in taking the lead in replying to fans and interacting with them, which allowed Harry to do his part and everyone was mostly happy.

And yet, I personally don’t feel this frustration many people feel. I think it’s quite interesting actually. A bold move that wouldn’t work for other artist whose career relies on people who live and breathe social media (maybe Beyonce or Adele, but they are in another league). I was very intrigued by Harry’s statement in the Behind the album video, in which he said that there was a time in his life when people knew everything about him, and he didn’t like it.He has been overexposed since 2012, his personal life splashed across tabloids, fake relationship or not.And now he disappeared for a year (and has been retreating into himself for at least 2) and he wrote this mysterious™ album, trying to see if people can listen and understand it without knowing much about the current him. In this context, having an album that surrounds itself in mystery and then doing 4 Q&As on twitter and 3 livestreams sends…extremely contradictory messages. I can, and will fault his team for presenting a dual image of Harry that sometimes makes 0 sense, for handling a lot of things so poorly, and for the entire Carolina mess, but I will say that his social media fits this old school mysterious rockstar image they’re showing of him. I also think his actual reason is very personal and very real, and I respect the fact that he didn’t compromise this choice he made for promo purposes.

His promo relied on more traditional channels. TV and radio appearances, print magazines, and most importantly, the secret gigs. Now, I’m sorry, but I felt entirely more connected to Harry running across London at 8AM in my pyjamas than by any twitter spree he’ll ever do. I never did this before. This reminded me of the stories my dad told me, of queuing up for days in front of the box office so he’d get the tickets when they went on sale. It was very old school and it worked for me. It was a phenomenal experience, something I will never forget. And he did this for us. All profits went to charity, he didn’t do this for money. And while I know this was for a few selected cities and a handful of lucky fans, it was intimate and it was special and I think everyone, regardless if they were there, or vicariously living through pics and videos, felt a connection to Harry. We got emotional on his behalf when he sang with his idol on stage 2 weeks later, you don’t do that for someone you have no connection to.

Now, the actual reason I’m happy with what we’ve got is that it is genuine from my POV. Liam is the perfect candidate for a comparison, since he also took a bit of a break from social media (not as heavy as Harry’s, but he definitely wasn’t as active as Louis or Niall) and his promo is as textbook as it gets. He slowly, but surely increased his activity since January, a few more tweets, a few more pics on Instagram.A big turning point was April when he posted 13 pics on Instagram, compared to 8 in March, 4 in February and 3 in January. His Twitter went through a similar process.Now, the moment he started posting more, I knew his music was gonna be out soon. It’s pure marketing. You start your campaign weeks before the actual launch, it’s only natural. Unless you want to drop it as a surprise, but that’s another discussion. Actually Harry did it too, with the TV ad, but that was ruined by the info getting leaked beforehand and everyone getting pissed off by that so whatevs. Now, Liam is going for the approachable celeb route. Streams, Instagram stories, snapchat, tweeting fans, loads of pics, videos with popular Youtubers. It’s nice and about as well handled as it gets (apart from that weird video release earlier than it should have been and Liam just generally being a bit…odd?off?idk how to explain it, but a lot of people feel the same way from what I’ve seen). It fits with the image Liam is going for, it aims at the right target audience. He’s not trying to enter a new market like Harry is. He’s consolidating his place in the current market from what I’ve seen (and I’ll admit I haven’t followed his promo as closely as Harry’s). Trying to imagine Harry doing this sort of promo doesn’t really work for me.

Niall has been present on and off social media ever since he came back from his trip last year. Literally, if I pull up the calendars people have been making each month, he doesn’t get more than a handful of days without doing something, so it’s unfair to compare him to the others, since he’s always around and posting and doing stuff.

Louis deserves a better team and I won’t have anyone uttering anything else in my presence, and yet somehow, despite Niall’s constant presence and Liam’s textbook engagement, I’ll never feel as connected to them as I feel to Louis. Louis’ tweets are the perfect mixture of absolutely adorable fan service (“our year” 😭😭) and some of the things he’s passionate about (tv shows, fashion, footie/sports). His promo for JHO was….I have no words for it and I’m gonna have a rage fit if I start thinking about it, but his overall persona is charming and endearing when he’s posting things himself. He created a real communication channel between us and him and he knows how to use it when he needs to send a message (warning selfies anyone?Only you?). There’s an actual analysis of Instagram stats that shows he’s the number 1 male account in engagement and overall likes and that doesn’t surprise me one bit. Louis is a smart businessman, he has a loyal fanbase who is here for him through thick and thin.

And on top of everything I said so far, none of them owe us anything outside the promo bubble. Apart from shoots, songs/albums/tours info and official announcements, they do not owe us anything. If they chose to share a picture from their home, that’s their personal space, and while it’s good for PR, amazingly good in a society that thrives from the feeling of knowing everything about everyone (like what’s your fave’s breakfast and how’s their cat is doing), it’s still a part they can choose to keep private and no one should be entitled to ask for more.

Have you seen Adele’s Instagram? It gives you this illusion of closeness to her, with make up free selfies, funny poses and landscape shots. Too bad literally everything is from touring and other official appearances right? There’s one picture of her home, and that’s to celebrate the end of the tour. Harry sort of did the same with the booklet pictures. He allowed you into his personal space in a controlled manner, just like Adele did. Only he did it in a different way. His promo is just different and you have to think a bit outside the box to see that he actually did a lot of things other artists do. Just a bit differently. Was it perfect?Fuck, no. Was it as bad as many people make it look like?Personally, I don’t think so. It was just different and people are entirely justified to see it as a good or a bad thing. I see it mostly as a good thing. Mostly.

10

Nine years of painting in a sketchbook

As a freshman in art school I cringed when I was told that students were required to keep a sketchbook. I never draw preparatory sketches because I like to work a painting out as I go, not in advance. When shown a finished artwork and its original sketch, I usually find the first draft to be more spontaneous, energetic, fresh and beautiful. But I was an obedient student so I forced my hand and began drawing in a Moleskine journal.

Drawing in public places always led to striking up conversations with strangers and helped me to make friends outside of school. I began drawing and experimenting on a daily basis. I bought acrylic ink for a school assignment and poured some into my sketchbook using an eye dropper. I liked how the ink bled onto other pages, adding color and texture. I fell in love with the medium and started drawing with ink using a dip pen and brush.

It’s difficult to use dip pens, brushes and ink jars while sitting in a cafe, so I began painting in my room. The privacy loosened me up and my themes became more personal. For years I was in the habit of punctuating paintings with song lyrics, but I finally started using my own poetry. After a while, I grew so invested in the sketchbooks that I began referring to them as “books of paintings” to imply they were complete, indivisible artworks.

I used to surf the internet to find images to draw, but that became boring because I kept googling the same things: antelope, construction cranes and light houses were among my usual search terms. In 2011 I got into photography and started using my own photos for reference. Now I exclusively paint scenes from memory or personal photographs.

Change is so gradual it’s hard to tell if I’m improving at all, so occasionally I flip through my collection of Moleskines. I think the most important creative change was the decision to stop copying images from the internet and other people’s poetry. This really opened me up creatively and I’ve become more observant of my surroundings– time spent outside of studio feels creative and productive because I always have an eye out for material.

what your favorite osomatsu-san character says about you

oso: appreciates bad people. probably liked eddy from eene

kara: you crave stability in your life. probably vanilla af

choro: you’re fucked up in the weirdest ways possible. straight up into heavy femdom bdsm

ichi: least stable type of person on this list. kinkmaster of the 3rd kind. weird fetishes

jyushi: chaotic good or chaotic evil there’s no inbetween

totty: you’re not a bad person but you’re not a good person either. wanted to fuck the onceler in 2012

iyami: someone should put you in a box floatin down the river grandma

totoko: you’re either gay or a dude who draws porn. also into femdom

dekapan: 40 year old mom or 40 year old teenager

dayon: rarest type of person. frequents 4chan and faps 5 times a day. probably still thinks dabbing is cool

nyaa-chan: you’re in it for the porn

hatabo: straight up fucking evil

chibita: you’re probably a very nice person. usually thinks being kinky is a bit gross

anonymous asked:

What if Dan has depression and it hit him hard 5 years ago causing 2012? Dan shows signs of depression. An existential crisis is commonly tied with depression (look it up!). Also he lost a lot of weight then and it's probably not just from his 3 week long vegan diet.

This post will be 100% my own opinions and views through things dan has said/posted over the years. I also have depression and anxiety myself so I know some things and I will be using the internet for other facts. This is all just thoughts and opinions so please don’t take this as fact or proof, it is all speculation.

 Since Dan’s been on twitter he’s never been quiet about having mental health problems. Just because he’s never outright said he has depression or anxiety doesn’t mean he doesn’t have them either. From posts saying he’s depressed at the moment, he’s thinking of killing himself, or his existential crisis’s

(I just find It nice that phil tweeted love you 3 minutes after dan tweeted about hating his body)

He even has spoke about it in liveshows. The most recent one being in his show “everything is different now” at 52:27. he talks about not being able to bang out content because of his mental health problems. He wouldn’t say that I he didn’t indeed have mental health problems.

Existential Crisis’s are often linked to depression and anxiety. For the reason that overthinking about life and death and existence in general is bad for ones self. Sometimes I think Dan is too smart for his own good, that he knows and looks into the world a little too much and it’s what’s caused him to fell down sometimes.

I also read that people with existential depression often have it because of what their childhoods were liked. Dan’s said his parents didn’t properly prepare him for the world, they we’re quite busy when they had him, and he seemed to spend a lot of time with his grandmother as a child. There are old tweets about him fighting with his parents, and them not understanding him, and even now they still don’t watch his videos or understand his career.

 For Dan to think “what’s my purpose? Why was I placed on the earth? What am I going to do to leave my mark on the world?” constantly makes sense for a kid who didn’t have the happiest upbringing. He was bullied, he didn’t have a lot of money growing up, and he wasn’t taught to follow his dreams. (all things he’s said in liveshows or his videos.)

 So when college rolled around he did what he thought would make him the most money when he grew up, instead of doing what would have made him happy. He went for law school, when he really rather have done anything else, and hated his life. Thus started the first spiral of existential crisis’s. “College Drop Out

 In 2011 him and Phil were quite happy in their small Manchester apartment, they were doing more YouTube things and making good money doing what they enjoyed and they got their first radio 1 opportunities. He seemed happier at the time.

 But in 2012 when they moved to London everyone seemed to sense a change.

 I’ve spoken about this before, but I personally believe that the reason behind the infamous 2012 “no-homo Howell” phase was because of how quickly their lives changed in that year. I don’t think either of them were ready for the level of attention they started to receive, they didn’t expect for people to ship them and make theories about them being together, and Dan definitely did not think people would message his 14 year old brother asking him if Dan’s a bottom.

 I also think that in that year they were more focused on their careers. They wanted to be known as danisnotonfire and amazingphil not phan. They wanted to get attention and build their careers as singles not Dan and his boyfriend Phil. Which is what would have happened seeing as Dan sort of took off more than Phil did that year. Dan hit 1 million subs, and even 3 million subs before Phil had hit 1 million.

 As for Dan being a lot skinnier in that time, they have spoken about how they didn’t have a lot of money that year, rent was high, they were new at their job and the youtube money back then wasn’t the greatest. They lived on ramen noodles and tv dinners for a while before they had enough money to start living properly.

 On September 28th, 2012 Dan uploaded “The Meaning of Life.” in which he describes what his life was like since his college drop out video. He say’s he’s been living in “a state of permanent existential crisis” and then says:

As someone with anxiety and depression I know this feeling. It happened quite a lot. It takes me forever to answer emails, reply to text’s, I hate having showers, I really just want to sit on the ground and cry most days. Before I was diagnosed I thought that was all normal, that I was just a kid but it’s a common problem for people with mental health issues to not have the energy or mental power to persuade themselves to take care of themselves.

 After a year, he uploaded “Existential Crisis” This is around the time that I think Dan started to take medication or really look into ways to feel better.

He’s mentioned looking into different calm down methods, such as breathing exercises and meditation, (here’s a video of him helping the audience calm down in liveshows x) which is what my doctor told me to look into before she wanted me on medication. I’ve found that doctors often want to see if you can help yourself before prescribing anti depressants.

Now I hear you saying “emily there is no proof that he’s on medication” but hear me out okay. You can see him change ever so slightly in 2014. he seems happier, he talks about his existential dread slightly less, he’s more open and free and comfortable with things, and I don’t think that was just random.

I also believe he’s on medication of some sort because of some of the side effects of mine that I’ve seen in him. Such as Congested or runny nose, trouble sleeping, insomnia, increased sweating, dry mouth, and yawning. Most importantly though, is Dan’s whole stay hydrated thing. When on medication they say you have to stay as hydrated as possible in order to feel better, and Dan’s drinking a lot of water.

 The one that I’ve seen a lot is the increased sweating. People were ripping on him for becoming a sweaty mess at tatinof while phil was dry and perfect when it could have been a side effect of his medication.

As well as how he was sweating in the Impossible Quiz #5 video

He’s very educated in anxieties ( as seen I this video as he explains why he tweeted using the word anxiety) and he speaks about his problems often in liveshows, and no one takes him seriously.

i know this was an ask about dan having depression in 2012, but if he had it then he most likely has it now and we need to stop tip toeing around it. he speaks about it and he’s not scared of talking about it. he’s also wonderful at talking to his audience who have mental health problems, as well as knowing how to help us calm down and wanting his content to be a safe place. 

just a reminder not to freak out about any of this to us after you’ve read it all. it’s purely my own thoughts an opinions, not fact

-Emily

anonymous asked:

edit: ey fam got any jealousy/possessive you could analyse/spam us with? owo to me it feel likes it's been a while since i had last seen such a thing.

(Oh my gawd I’ve literally deleted this on accident twice when I’ve written so much and I’m going to kill myself but that’s ok because I’ve kept you waiting for so long and I’m sorry this is my punishment ahhhhhhh I luv u all)

Oh course! I’d be glad to! I’ve actually done an analysis like this before but it’ll be fun to see how much my analysis skills have improved XD ahhh I have no life~

Ok ok ok so one of the reasons why I am so into this ship is because of the fact that they seem to get jealous when one of them is talking to another person (usually an exo member). Of course people may counter against me saying “Well, it’s normal for people to get jealous when their best friend is interacting with another person”. But let me ask you this. Put yourself in this situation, you’re best friend or a very close friend of yours is talking with another friend, do you really think you would get jealous? And we are also adding the fact that there would be so many other friends around you, do you really think you would get jealous? Probably not, it’s not like you’re being left out, you’re most likely not possessive of your friend or have any right to decide whether or not if your friend can talk with someone or not. Now if we think about that, wouldn’t that make the fact that these two show somewhat of a strong sense of jealousy when the other is just talking and playing around and having skinship with usually another friend a bit suspicious?

Now let’s continue on with a slight personality analysis. I think most Chanbaek shippers can agree with the fact that out of the two, Baekhyun has more ‘jealous’ moments. Chanyeol of course has his moments but not as much. Let’s look a bit into their character. If I offend any Baekhyun stans or fellow Chanyeol stans with this analysis I am so sorry XD. From what I’ve seen, Baekhyun is a very playful, happy, extra, and out going guy. I also feel that Baekhyun is a guy who likes attention, like to be noticed, and be in the spotlight. That’s a very good personality as an idol. Baekhyun also likes to tease his members and play around with them, and as we already know he seems to tease Chanyeol quite a bit, calling him today, poking him, cracking jokes and he really likes it when he makes Chanyeol laugh, because he’s that kind of guy, he likes getting positive reactions from people. I mean everyone does, but being a extrovert, he really gets a bang out of it. So him being someone that really likes attention, if he were in a relationship, he would probably get jealous more easily than his partner because he would probably crave attention and want to be the only one in his partner’s eyes. To me, Chanyeol is a very happy dude, he’s an open guy and like sharing his works with everyone, he’s a nice guy, and he likes having fun. I’m not sure if he’s a possessive person, I mean I don’t know him and that trait is one that shows when you know that person but he really seems to be protective of Baekhyun, of course I’m aware that’s not the same as possessive but him being protective means he feels better when Baekhyun is by his side and with his protective nature with people he’s close to (or just Baekhyun maybe, I don’t think he’s really protective (if you want to call it that) of the other exo members, and if he has please correct me. So there would clearly be some jealousy if Baekhyun were interacting with other members (and being skinshipy as he is) because he cares a lot and being the protective ‘boyfriend’ that he is, would like it better if Baekhyun were near him.

Now let’s get on with something a bit deeper. Jealousy [in a relationship] is commonly perceived as something healthy, like a sign that your partner cares and is overall something the average person experiences a few times, hypothetically. But jealousy is mostly blossomed from feelings of insecurity, fear, compassion, and of course, possessiveness. The jealous moments span from throughout the years, but I hope you’ll agree with me when i say most of the are from the years 2012-2013. Now, where the insecurity may come in, let’s just hypothetically say that these two were in a relationship back in 2012. That would be the first stages of a relationship, they would be a newly made couple, and it’d be all happy, but that also means a lot of insecurity and fear. Starting a relationship means there’s not too much trust built up, you may think things like “what if they feel they made a mistake dating me?” “What if I make a mistake that they really don’t like and they want to break up?” “What if they find someone and decide that this person would be better for them?” “What if I’m just not good enough?” The fear of losing your partner to someone else is one of the main triggers for jealousy. With that fear, the mere action of your partner talking with someone else that could threaten your relationship or your partner looking at someone else, could set off jealous emotions. So if these two were in a relationship back then, then that could explain why there were so many jealous moments during those years. (2013 was also considered a bad year for chanbaek). But if they were (hypothetically) still in a relationship, more trust has been built so there’s less possibility for insecurity. Although there’s still jealousy because they just really like being with each other (also it’s pretty normal for guys to be possessive over their lover). 

So basically what I am trying to say with this analysis (consider this a tldr) is that I feel that these two do get genuinely jealous when it shows. I don’t think those expressions are fake (but of course some pictures may be a bit overboard because it’s really hard to tell if they really are looking at the other or not, but most of the time I am certain that they are looking at the other and looking jealous. I mean, they’re faces just look either sad and or ticked off. That is how jealousy is supposed to look. Jealousy is not a happy emotion. It can be ugly, it’s supposed to be negative emotions which include dejection and anger. Honestly if you don’t think that these expressions show jealousy or at least a ticked off expression then I really want to know what you see, because these expressions are definitely not neutral ones. Also the fact that they even look jealous when the other is talking with someone else really gives me suspicion on their relationship. If they were just friends or even best friends there would be no reason to get jealous. But if they were lovers, there would be a reason because being lovers means that you belong to each other and someone you want to be with for the rest of your life. So clearly there’s going to be a feel of possessiveness and more feelings of fear and insecurity (especially when you begin to question the other’s feelings and when it’s more likely to be threatened than a friendship). 

I’m so sorry this took a long time and I’m super sorry if this causes your dash to crash ;>< 

I love you guyss~

Ask me!

1. Are looks important in a relationship?
2. Are relationships ever worth it?
3. Are you a virgin?
4. Are you in a relationship?
5. Are you in love?
6. Are you single this year?
7. Can you commit to one person?
8. Describe your crush
9. Describe your perfect mate
10. Do you believe in love at first sight?
11. Do you ever want to get married?
12. Do you forgive betrayal?
13. Do you get jealous easily?
14. Do you have a crush on anyone?
15. Do you have any piercings?
16. Do you have any tattoos?
17. Do you like kissing in public?
20. Do you shower every day?
21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?
26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?
28. Have you ever been cheated on?
29. Have you ever cheated on someone?
30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?
31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?
32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?
33. Have you ever had sex with a man?
34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?
35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?
37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?
41. Have you had sex so far this year?
42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?
43. How long was your longest relationship?
44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
45. How many people did you kiss in 2012?
46. How many times did you have sex last year?
47. How old are you?
48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?
50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?
52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?
53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
54. Is there someone you will never forget?
55. Share a relationship story.
56. State 8 facts about your body
57. Things you want to say to an ex
58. What are five ways to win your heart?
59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)
60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?
61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?
62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?
63. What is your definition of “having sex”?
64. What is your definition of cheating?
65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?
66. What is your favourite roleplay?
67. What is your idea of the perfect date?
68. What is your sexual orientation?
69. What turns you off?
70. What turns you on?
71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?
72. What words do you like to hear during sex?
73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?
74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?
75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?
76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?
77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?
78. What’s your dirtiest secret?
79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?
80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
81. Who are five people you find attractive?
82. Who is the last person you hugged?
83. Who was your first kiss with?
84. Why did your last relationship fail?
85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?

anonymous asked:

WHATS YOUR VIEW ON 2012!? YOU REALLY THINK THEY DIDNT HAVE A FALLING OUT ITS SO CLEAR THOUGH

Plain and simple:

They did not have a falling out in 2012.

This might be really long so buckle up because I’ve got a lot to say for you on why “2012″ was NOT a bad year for them. 

There’s a thing called “The Honeymoon Phase” sound familiar?
In psychology The Honeymoon Phase lasts about 2 years between a relationship. This honeymoon phase is when you’re basically obsessed with someone, you’re constantly together, you love them to bits. Basically, you never want to leave their side. AKA, the beginning of a relationship if you will.

(Also studies show that you can go back into The Honeymoon Phase after periods of time with the same person. Reasons why they’re closer than ever lately? And have been like that since 2016? Possibly two more years of The Honeymoon Phase? theorists explain)

Near the end of 2009 they meet for the first time. And you can say whatever you want about them in 2009, but it was what sparked The Honeymoon Phase. In 2010 their friendship flourished to the point of Dan going to university in Manchester to be closer to Phil. In 2011, they’re living together. 

And then comes the “dreaded” 2012. 2 years after knowing each other.
Nothing happened in 2012 between them. They didn’t get bored of each other, they didn’t drift apart, they were still as close as ever. Just that The Honeymoon Phase had ended. It was also when they realized that YouTube is kind of becoming more of “a thing”, they’re getting paid from it, might as well to take it seriously. So they did. They wanted themselves to be known and work hard for their oblivion that was their success. Not because of each other. 

You could also see it as kind of competition between the two to see who would grow more in popularity with the differences in their personalities. You have Phil describing why he was a weird kid vs. why Dan got fired from his job. They both had their growing channels, they both had their jobs as YouTubers. They helped each other sure, but they’re not just a conjoined working unit. 

Now, here comes the question of “how come they didn’t out themselves if it was real?” WHY SHOULD THEY? This was 2012, not everyone was as accepting back then as they are now, and even now in 2017 people still aren’t as accepting as they should be. YouTube was their professional life, telling stories on the internet. It was how they got paid to pay for their cereal and milk in the mornings.

How many times have we gotten the Internet spiel? “everything you do online stays there forever, think about what you post” 
Literally, all the damn time. 

I’ve dug through their twitter and tumblr archives enough to know that Dan and Phil are strict on this rule. They have every right to be. How would you feel if you had over a million people peeping into your window every second of every day, just because you said something that intrigued others? They do this enough already. But for it being 2012, that’s fucking intimidating. 

“But how come they kept denying Phan?” Because that’s their personal life. Whether they’re together or not we have no say in that matter. Yes maybe “no homo howell” did rise and they brought up girls more than ever, but that’s because they were scared. They grew tougher shells, Phil became “innocent” because he never talked about anything, while Dan made a “macho fuck boy” kind-of-a-dick-at-times face just so they could have people shut about about “Is Phan Real?”

When you’re in love with someone of the same sex, you don’t get to have a say sometimes. Especially in the media realm where people judge your every move. When friends and family could be at stake because of what their son has said online to a platform in front of thousands. It wasn’t a harmful thing it what they did and what they said, but it was for protection of themselves. To stay roommates, to keep their jobs at the BBC, and to stay close to one another. Their brand new and terrifying job would have been shut down if people knew “they were gay” and you know it. They had that fear of their radio show not working out for this exact reason. (They didn’t have to say it you can just tell) They moved to London on a very short budget in a short amount of time and were probably on borderline of debt for a while because they were trying so so hard to manage and keep their views growing. 

When you look back, they ended nearly every liveshow together back when they first started doing them. They talked about personal means all the time. They made milk shakes and hot chocolate, answered questions about family christmas time, told stories as kids. They never drifted apart they just grew that face they wanted to share. They ended them like this because they’re each other’s comfort; when the numbers grew large and the questions started to filter back to that dreaded subject.

People tend to forget that Dan Howell and Phil Lester are actual people too. Who have credit cards and bills to their name. That have family and talk to their parents when they have problems. They have feelings and mess up constantly. But they also have each other. 

Furthermore, I truly believe in 2013 times were getting rough for them. Not in 2012. 

Not because of each other. But because they were stressed maybe. They were losing friends, and battles against other youtubers. Their own audience brought up questions they didn’t want to answer. Dan’s own brother got bullied by his own audience because Dan didn’t answer questions he didn’t want to answer. 

You can say those times were bad but it’s because it’s your own fault haha. They don’t stand on pedestal, they’re not celebrities with managers and security (well maybe now they are) but back then they weren’t like that. It was just each other having to fend off literally a million people because that year was when they both hit 1 MILLION subscribers. And back in 2012-13 that was A HUGE MILESTONE, and still is. 

So they had to build up walls, and distant each other, and proclaim that they’re not sewn at the hip back then because they had to protect themselves. They didn’t fall out, because if they did, one of them would have moved out. 

They wouldn’t be where they are today. Finally comfortable in what they do and say and how they act. It’s a long cringy road if you look back, mistakes were made. But they were still just growing into a career that would soon be the best dream job they could ever have. 

And honestly, their friendship is one that is hard to find.

TLDR: Dan and Phil did not have a falling out in 2012 because they’re each other’s security blanket. Dan had never had a true best friend until he met Phil. They never drifted apart, they just made YouTube more of a professional platform so their friends and family wouldn’t judge as harshly as what they do for a living, along with businesses and audience members. They had to keep their jobs at the BBC without all the backstory of “being more than best friends” if that’s the case. They had to “distance” themselves online to keep themselves safe. And honestly, it was probably the best strategy they ever did in my opinion. Because, I mean, just look at them:

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anonymous asked:

I've only been on tumblr for 2 years and i haven't heard of any of those memes, except the listen here cum slut. Would you mind explaining the other four please?

ok so i got like 8 messages asking me to explain all the memes i mentioned in my top 5 favorite tumblr memes post. so here we go. keep in mind that y’all asked for this. i cannot be blamed for what is about to happen.

1. obviously i have explained the “listen here cum slut” meme previously, and you can find a link to that explanation here.

2. i’ve also explained no, it’s someone dying under an MRI scan.” (honestly this post was under-appreciated and i’m 100% serious when i say i want this meme to make a comeback.)

3. so that brings us to “Spiders Georg.”

I honestly don’t know why i love this meme so much??? but i fckng do ok listen……

Spiders Georg is a tumblr meme that originated in January 2013. it started with a text post made by tumblr user reallyreallytrying about the often repeated statistic that the average person swallows a certain number of spiders in their sleep every year (some say 8, some say 3)

at first, the spread mostly focused on the idea of a fictional spider-eating cave-dweller named Georg, but then by June it had gradually developed to encompass other iterations in the following form:

“‘average person [insert action] x times a year’ factoid actualy just statistical error. average person [insert same action] 0 times a year. [name based on action/media] Georg, who lives in a cave & [performs action] over 10,000 each day, is an outlier adn should not have been counted”

example:

4. did you learn that in bird school, which is for birds????

this meme originates with a screencap of youtube comments posted on tumblr in june of 2012.

this quickly became a copy pasta, frequently used when having a fake argument or when a user said something that another user did not agree with. people even made shirts.

most of the time the middle part (“because here in the real world we dont dare use the h word”) is cut out, so that the response reads: 

“did you learn that in bird school, which is for birds???? im a lawyer.” or even just “did you learn that in bird school, which is for birds????”

i honestly still find myself defaulting to this a lot. in real life. like if one of my friends has an Opinion that i do not give my Seal of Approval or states a supposed fact that i do not believe, it’s almost instinctual for me to just go “did you learn that in bird school, which is for birds????”

5. extra hour in the ball pit

fuck. honestly………this is one of the best memes that has ever been spawned by this smelly armpit of the internet. it’s just….. 😙👌

this truly deserves a post to itself tbh. i may make an entire meme history post about dashcon eventually. but not now.

basically the ball pit meme originated with something called “DashCon,” a convention “for tumblr users, by tumblr users” that occurred in 2014. 

by all accounts, it was a total fucking disaster. it was such a massive disaster that it has its own wikipedia page. please. do yourselves a favor. read the entire thing. i cannot possibly describe what a shitfest it was both comprehensively and concisely in this post unless i really want to drown everyone in a gigantic wall of text. here is another article about all the shit that went down that is absolutely worth the read.

but (one of) the biggest controversies that occurred during DashCon was that they neglected to compensate the vast majority of their guests (despite a last minute fundraiser at the con that raised over $17,000).

 the cast and crew of the popular podcast Welcome to Night Vale was one of the groups that the DashCon organizers failed to pay. when they arrived at the convention and learned that they would not be paid in full prior to their appearance, they left. WTNV was probably the single biggest draw and most anticipated appearance for the convention, so this resulted in a huge backlash. in response to that backlash, the official DashCon tumblr made this now infamous post:

their compensation for the people who had reserved seats for the WTNV panel was…….an extra hour in the DashCon ball pit. which. i will remind you. looked like this:

obviously this was some Prime Meme Material. i mean……….look @ that fuckin shit. look at that sad deflated ball pit (that someone claims to have pissed in, by the way) in the midle of a sad, empty convention hall. it would be sinful not to meme that. 

this meme came in two primary forms: mocking the phrase “extra hour in the ball pit” and mocking DashCon and the ball pit itself by using pictures of the sad, empty ball pit to represent the complete and utter failure of DashCon as a whole. 

here are some of my personal favorites (includes a few choice crossover memes)

i would apologize 4 the sheer length of this post but honestly you should expect this from me by now ✌

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Betty Smithey endured a turbulent and traumatic childhood. Her father died when she was just 4 years old and her impoverished mother was deemed incapable of caring for her six daughters. Smithey was separated from her sisters and lived in and out of orphanages and foster care. She had reportedly been sexually assaulted in some institutions. When she was finally adopted at age 8, she was severly abused by her adoptive parents, both emotionally and physically. Years later, she was sent to live with one of her sisters in Phoenix. Smithey had problems with adjusting to her new surroundings, so she ran away. She did the same twice after she was sent to the home of another sister. By the age of 16, Smithey had already attempted suicide. Her mental health was deteriorating. The next time she ran away, she was put into a reformatory in Albuquerque. Sometime in 1959, Smithey was declared fit for rehabilitation and her psychologist hired her as a babysitter for her 18-month-old son Mitchell. On May 4, 1959, Smithey kidnapped the 18-month-old and hitchhiked with the boy from Albuquerque to Oklahoma. At some point, she left him in a drugstore and ran away, but was found less than a hour later in a cafeteria located near the drugstore, eating breakfast. When she was asked what led her to kidnap the 18-month-old, she answered “I don’t know why I did it  – I just took him.” After serving four years in juvenile prisons, she was released in 1962.

In an attempt to turn her life around, she searched for a job  – again as a babysitter. Erma Geberick, mother of four children at the time, hired Smithey as a live-in-baby-sitter at the end of 1962. On New Year’s Day, 1963, Geberick’s 6-year-old son stormed into the kitchen, screaming to his mother “Mama, Sandy’s dead!” 15-month-old Sandy Geberick, the youngest of all children, had been strangled by Smithey. She fled the scence, but was found the next day hitchhiking on the highway between Tucson and Nogales. “I think I hurt the baby… I may have used a stocking” were the words Smithey reportedly told the patrolman who had found her. Although her attorney tried to argue that she was mentally ill, Smithey was found guilty of first-degree murder. On July 29, 1963 she was sentenced to life without parole. Between 1974-1981, Smithey managed to escape four times from three separate prisons. She also tried to kill herself numerous times in prison. Everything changed in 1983, when she received a letter from the victims mother Erma Geberick, forgiving her for the crime. Smithey stated that at that point of her life, she started to believe in herself again and wanted to become a better person. On August 12, 2012, after serving 49 years behind bars, the now 69-year-old Smithey was released from prison. She became eligible for discharge when then-Governor of Arizona Jan Brewer granted her clemency in June of 2012 and commuted her sentence to 49 years to life. The Board voted 4 - 1, granding her absolute discharge. After the vote, Smithey thanked each Parold Board Member and waved at her supporters.

anonymous asked:

would you call what you feel towards dnp infatuation or something else/more? bc infatuation is usually viewed as short lived and most of us are in it for the long haul lol.......but im genuinely curious, since I don't really know where the line is drawn and I think some times it's indicernible

in my own personal experience i only experienced “infatuation” early on with dan and phil. as i consider infatuation to have more romantic or sexual connotations i really cannot say i have that disposition anymore. i’ve been watching them since 2012 and have been in the phandom for the last two or so years so my “infatuation” has sort of worn off for a more caring outlook on dan and phil. it’s hard to describe the relationship between a fan and dan and phil just because of how one sided the relationship is. i just deeply care about and maybe even superficially love dan and phil for who i know them as. i think a lot of people do become infatuated or at least obsessed with the ideas that come along with dan and phils world. there’s phan and then the friendship and the history and so many things that somehow mean such a big deal to basically strangers of dan and phil. everyone’s stint in the phandom is different so i can’t speak for anyone else but liking dan and phil has really changed my personality and how i deal with things. they have affected my life more than i care to admit so i think it might be a little more that light infatuation on my part

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all time low + inspirational lyrics from each album (with the help of @gabricl)

put up or shut up (2006) - the party scene
so wrong, it’s right (2007) - stay awake
nothing personal (2009) - therapy
dirty work (2011) - time-bomb
don’t panic! (2012) - so long, and thanks for all the booze
future hearts (2015) - missing you

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Soppy post coming, but this is fully needed. I just finished my run of UK Green Day shows now and am finally home.

June 11th 2017, at Download Festival Paris, I got on stage with my favorite band.

I remember exactly how, 7 years ago, I fell in love with Green Day. It was around this exact time, June or May 2010, that I randomly bought a magazine dedicated to them, because I used to like one of their songs that was always playing on the radio. I went on holiday with my parents, and I listened to every single song mentioned in the articles dedicated to them, as they were coming to France just a few days later. I suddenly fell in love and found a passion for a musical artist for the first time in my life. I couldn’t go to their concert that year, because, at only 12, it was obvious I wouldn’t be able to go to convince my parents to go see a band I had just discovered with me. I was very upset. I started creating Twitter accounts and blogs about the band, while trying to deeply know everything about them as soon as I could. After the concert, I read an article dedicated to this girl who went on stage with them during Longview. I watched the video a few times in a row, and suddenly, I decided I wanted to be that girl one day, that my goal would be to get on stage with Green Day and sing that song myself, and prove the world that I could be a rock star. I am a very determined person, and this is what I wanted to dedicate my passion to. Thanks to Green Day, I widened my music knowledge, and was immersed in the world of rock music. I met so many fans through social medias, and weirdly, I still talk to many of them to this day, 7 years later. They were the first band that introduced me to what being a fan truly is: passion, dedication, and pure love for music. It was only 2 years later that I got to see Green Day live for the first time, on August 26th 2012. I was blown away, and I still remember to this day it was the first time I cried when I saw a band walking on stage. I still get that overwhelming feeling each time I see them.
A year later, it was the first time of my life I travelled to see a band in another country. I went to see them in London on June 1st 2013, which was still, until last Sunday, the best gig I had ever been to. I also travelled to another French city to see them one more time that year. I was only 15 but was certain I would one day travel the world to see them. 4 years later, it is finally 2017 and I am about to turn 20 in November. As some of you might have seen, I was away in the United States for 6 months, and I decided to finally see them more than once this year. I saw them in New York, and travelled to Canada by myself, meeting some family members I had never seen there as well, and I got to see them in Montreal and Québec, where I met the loveliest people. Visiting Canada was one of the best things I have ever done in my life, as it is now a country I would like to live in. I also was incredibly lucky to see them for free in Central Park just a few days before going back home.
Then, while booking my tickets to see them in London, I spontaneously decided to see them in Paris last Sunday at Download Festival (I only booked my ticket a day before coming back for the weekend). Each time I saw them live (it was now the 8th time), deep in my heart, I was still secretly hoping to finally be chosen to get on stage. It finally happened. Thanks to two guys who lifted me up at my demand, Billie Joe came to my direction to ask if I knew the words during Longview, looking straight in my eyes. I obviously said yes, jumped out of the crowd and went on stage. This was the most beautiful moment of my life. I got to tell BJ thank you, even if he doesn’t know how much this band made me grow up throughout the years, I got to hug him, and spend one of the most incredible and absurd moment of my life.
To anyone that I ever met thanks to music and shows until today, thank you for always believing in me, for making me become such a strong and confident person. Without Green Day, I would not have met any of you, I want you all to know that. Anything great that happened to me until today is thanks to this band. I will probably never be able to say thank you to them ever again, but they changed my life and made me achieve all of my dreams. If you have dreams, keep on ALWAYS believing them, because if you believe in them, they will definitely happen one day.