time moves still

Realizing that I don’t want or need you anymore is a beautiful thing. I don’t survive through your compliments or compulsively check to see if you’ve texted me. Your opinion of me no longer makes or breaks my day. I don’t need you anymore. I don’t want you, at least not as a lover, either. It’s beautiful.

There’s only ever been one person I’ve looked at and thought … “I could quite easily spend the entire rest of my life with that man”.


And sooner or later I need to accept that he’s spending it with somebody else.

—  Ranata Suzuki

if you think sanvers is better than clexa, good for you. don’t be a dick to people who don’t.

if you think clexa is better than sanvers, good for you. don’t be a dick to people who don’t.

if you’re jaded from how the 100 handled clexa and find it hard to trust that sanvers will be handled well, i don’t blame you bc same. but don’t guilt people who like and enjoy sanvers. 

people have their opinions and emotions. don’t be a dick bc you disagree. 

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2006!ME vs 2016!ME

Oh hey gais, I found the bandwagon!  

I’m really not a huge fan of comparing myself ten years ago and today me, because 2006!ME would shrivel up and die of despair at being compared to the 2016!ME.  It’s really not fair to her, she’s a teenager with horomones who’s view of the world is colored by depression and being ostracized by her peers and even teachers.  And her biggest dream is to move back to Japan and be a mangaka.  2006!ME’s first best friend (who introduced her to anime) had also dropped her like a hot potato the year before because “it wasn’t fair that [20016!ME] got better grades AND drew better than [Best friend at the time]”.  I was a dour, depressing, and utterly moody young thing (not without good reason, but the fact remains that I was very unhappy with life).

Meanwhile, 2016!ME has since gone to college, learned to be objective about her work, spent the majority of those years learning and almost constantly practicing to use digital tools, Developed a taste, the skill, and lots of appreciation for a wide range of art styles, filled many many sketchbooks (which were not available to 2006!Me due to being too expensive, so she used printer paper and manila folders) of things like hands, noses, and other artistic foils until she dun git gud at that stuff, did 300+ art commissions in three years, got published in a tabletop RPG module book, became a comic colorist for one of her art heroes (that would be @bludragongal), became the art director of a volunteer game studio and then developed the common sense to leave and realize that she can say no to every “job” offer that comes her way if she doesn’t feel that she’s being treated professionally, and to top it all off, gained very important and good friends that she had only just met in 2006 but have since become irreplaceable fixtures in her life.  A bunch of other things happened too, but that’s the gist of it.

tl;dr 2006 was the first year I started doing digital art, so understandably, I sucked. Here in 2016 I have 12+ years of drawing and painting experience SO OF COURSE I DO IT LIKE A BOSS.

While he walked by, we looked at eachother. He saw the tears well up in my eyes and I saw the same kind of sadness in his. But he kept walking, and I looked away. Because even though we love eachother, we aren’t meant to be.
—  How tragic it is, to pick between love and what’s better for me // @ex-qui-site
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Rory and Jess after the series finale; life in New York

You know what the greatest tragedy is in the whole world?

It’s all the people who never find out what it is they really want to do or what it is they’re really good at. It’s all the sons who become blacksmiths because their fathers were blacksmiths. It’s all the people who could be really fantastic flute players who grow old and die without ever seeing a musical instrument, so they become bad ploughmen instead. It’s all the people with talents who never even find out. Maybe they are never even born  in a time when it’s even possible to find out.

It’s all the people who never get to know what it is they can really be. It’s all the wasted chances

—  Terry Pratchett, Moving Pictures

what fucks me up about mary’s little speech at the end is the “what you could become” line because what she describes is what they were before and they HAVE been that and they KNOW that already, like, what the fuck,

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