time and friendship

I have a lot of followers, but sometimes I feel like I hardly know you. I have a hard time making and maintaining friendships online and I think it’s mostly my fault. I’m not good at engaging with people. This isn’t a “come into my inbox” post because I feel like this is on me, it’s just. I’ve been kind of lonely lately. If I show up in your inbox or awkwardly replying to your posts this is probably why. 

anonymous asked:

Are you going to do the rest of the Wholesome Week art? No pressure doe!! We don't want our lil' Angel stressed!

i actually might be able to get in todays (another time tho) and maybe the friendship thursday one! this week gave in a blow to the whole schedule i had planned but the prompts are immortal :)))

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.