time 4 lunch

okay so. as someone who runs one of the very, very few ocpd-centric blogs on tumblr (not this one, i mean @thatocpdfeel ), its actually so upsetting how little people know abt ocpd, even here on tumblr amongst other mental health bloggers. not to say anything bad abt those bloggers!!! its just not spoken abt much. maybe thats because its not as common as, like, bpd or avpd, but its also because SO many ocpd symptoms are ENCOURAGED by society. i get so many tags on my posts saying “thats an ocpd thing???” or “thats not normal???” or “im not supposed to do that???” like so much of what is killing us from the inside are things parents, teachers, and guardians all think are positive attributes to have, but we internalize those things in such a twisted and intense way that we suffer and yet are idealized for our suffering.
ive had so many people with other illnesses, like depression, tell me how ocpd has its upsides because i can be productive and get stuff done when they cant even get out of bed. thats not how it works.
ocpd is not being perfect.
ocpd is NEEDING to be perfect because even the tiniest mistake means you are the scum of the earth and deserve to die.
ocpd is not double checking your work to make sure you got everyting right because you want a good score.
ocpd is perfecting the wording of a single sentence because if it doesnt imply the exact thought you are trying to get across then it means you have failed and even if it is still technically right and no points are taken off, inside you know that it was wrong and it COULD have been better and your personal standards are ten times higher than the official standards because you know that the goals you need to reach to be successful are leaps and bounds above what the average person needs, not because you are better than them but because you must strive to become better than them at all cost because second best is still a loser.
ocpd is not orangizing your work station before starting a new project.
ocpd is crying and screaming while you trash 42 different versions of the same attempted project and shoving everything off your desk and wanting to pull out your hair or bang your head on a wall because you messed it up so many times already and if you dont get it right this time you will never get it and you will be marked as a failure for the rest of your life, unable to accomplish literally anything and youre so terrified of that thought you take six hours to scrub at your desk and mop the floor and take a razor to that bit of wax thats been stuck on the leg of your chair for a week and half and meticulously organize everything into boxes, counting every ration you put in to make sure they all even out, and listing everything thats there and labeling the boxes then straight up leaving the work area and not thinking about the project for another month.
ocpd is not having a folder of all your important documents because you know you will need them some time.
ocpd is having six folders, each containing vastly different documents, some of which are important, some of which are just old receipts to mcdonalds, some are keepsakes from friends, some of which are just a scap of paper with scribbles that you dont remember what they mean but maybe one day you will, and the rest are just any paper youve ever come across in your life. theyre all just as important as everything else though because the thought of prioritising them is nearly incomprehensible because they are all important and you need them all for equally important things so when you need, like, that paper for your auto insurance you first must sift through six hundred pages of notes your friends passed back and forth in middle school over five years ago and you dont even talk to them anymore but you absolutely cannot get rid of them. its all so important.
ocpd is not being productive.
ocpd is waking up and remembering that you are an inherently flawed and imperfect being, but also that your worth in this world is defined by what you put into it, so even if you cant be perfect, if you make enough perfect stuff or do enough stuff perfectly, it will all give the illusion to others as well as yourself that you are perfect. so you push yourself to do whatever it is you do. regardless of your other illnesses, you work and and try to be as productive as you possibly can because thats your only chance. you go into work sick. you push yourself past your limits, past what you know you are physically/mentally able to do, and you suffer for breaching those limits but all that pain is WORTH it because you are temporarily overcome with a sense of accomplishement and SOMEONE is finally proud of you. you did something right FOR ONCE. so even if you go completely nonverbal, or lay in bed for the next week in pain, or end up in the ER, or seventeen other things didnt get done, there was the most brief sense of absolute euphoria even if its almost immidiately replaced by a sense of overwhelming anxiety about what you messed up, forgot, did wrong, or ignored to achieve that feeling and the cycle of fixing, fixing, fixing repeats itself.
ocpd is not being bossy, egotistical, or controlling.
ocpd is a deeply psychological understanding that even the most insignificant mistake will reflect back on you in the most exaggerated and horrendous way possible. its knowing that if you ask your friend to go get you a red pen, but they bring you a blue one, and you dont know they got blue instead, so if you write even the smallest mark in that blue ink, even if its technically okay to write in red or blue, you specified red, so the fact that its blue makes it wrong and unnacceptable so in your mind its better to drop what your doing and get the correct red pen yourself even if its right beside your friend and you are already focusing on something else. the concept of asking others to do something, not even something in a manner of helping you but just to divide up jobs evenly, its absolutely impossible. because if they do something wrong, it will reflect on you, then you did something wrong and we both know that doing something wrong is completely out of the question. you would rather multitask four things at once, but the sight of someone else just twiddling their thumbs while you bust your ass is so infuriating! why cant they do what you are doing? why cant they just read your mind and know exactly what you need, when you need it, and be helpful? thats what you would do if they were in your situation! if they were working like you, you would hand them everything. you would also probably go ahead and just put that back for them. well, you could also handle that too. and before you know it, their job is your job and there they are twiddling their thumbs and looking at you for a job to do. its the phrase “if you want something done right, do it yourself” taken to a whole other level.
ocpd is so much more than what people think. were more than just a “type a personality” or “perfectionists” and its not just “mild ocd” either. ocpd is painful. please remember that.

“I can honestly say I’ve been more happy in the past year and a half than I’ve been in all of my years before that put together” — Camila

4

Dan and Amy + their lunches, brunches, dinner plans, and happy hour.

I really hate having to wake up the baby to pick up his siblings from school. He’s finally, I think, fully transitioned to the one nap system. Sleeping 2-3 hours in the middle of the day if schedule allows. I don’t want to discourage that by waking him every day. 

also who the FUCK coded unicorns to be so aggressive in oblivion if they’re gonna stick the ‘ride’ action symbol in there when you hover over it like you walk up to it expecting to have a magical frolick through the swamps of cyrodiil but instead you get ass kicked and your dreams broken 

0/10 i demand a refund, personally, from todd howard

2

Most of the problems in OUAT could have been resolved instantly if Baelfire had just given his dad a goodnight kiss.

Japanese Tonkatsu Sandwiches

Tonkatsu is a very popular modern Japanese dish - you can find it on rice dishes and Ramen. The crunchiness of the bread crumb layer with the tender texture of the pork makes this a great companion in sandwiches.

Tonkatsu is easy to make and require little ingredients. It makes a great lunch for anyone of any age!

INGREDIENTS:

  • 3 pork loin chops
  • 1 egg
  • 1/3 cup flour
  • 1 cup bread crumbs (Panko - should be fine bread crumbs)
  • 1 tbsp soy sauce
  • 1 tsp white pepper powder
  • salt
  • deep frying oil
  • 6 pieces white bread

DIRECTIONS:

1. Quickly rinse the pork chops under cold water, and pat dry.

2. Marinade the pork chop with soy sauce, white pepper powder and some salt.

3. Place in the fridge for 2-3 hours or overnight (preferred).

4. Mix the flour and panko together in a shallow bowl. For the egg, beat until smooth.

5. For each pork chop loin, first dip thoroughly in the beaten egg and then into the flour and panko mixture. Make sure the pork loin is covered completely with the mix.

6. Heat up the dry frying oil. When the oil is ready, place in the pork loin and deep fry until golden brown.

7 Toast some white bread and when the bread is ready, assemble with pork chop. Serve immediately!

White Radish Braised Oxtail

Sorry for the long pause of posts! Just starting to kick back into school and the blog after the holiday! Hope everyone had a wonderful New Years and Christmas and did plenty of cooking!! There’s really not that many ways to cook oxtail.. the flavour really needs to soak in for this type of meat. If you’ve tried the tomato based recipe before and liked it, try out this one. It’s a whole new different flavour - but a lot more lighter and less filling.

INGREDIENTS:

  • 4 pieces large oxtail
  • 1 medium size white radish
  • 2 tsp raw pepper
  • 2 tsp aniseed
  • 1 tbsp brown sugar
  • 2 tbsp soy sauce
  • 2 tbsp oyster sauce (or 2 ½ tbsp soy sauce)
  • white pepper powder
  • 1 tsp cinnamon 
  • ½ cup chicken broth
  • water
  • salt 

DIRECTIONS:

1. Boil and pot of water. Add in oxtail pieces until it turns brown then drain

2. Marinade the drained oxtail with white pepper powder, cinnamon, salt, and 2 tbsp soy sauce

3. Heat up a pan at high heat and sauté the oxtail lightly for 2-3 minutes

4. Heat up another pot with 2 cups water. Add in chicken broth, and some salt. Chop the white radish into smaller pieces and add into the pot. 

5. Crush the raw pepper into smaller pieces and wrap in clothe with aniseeds. Add in the wrapped herbs into the soup base.

6. Stir in oyster sauce (or soy sauce) and brown sugar and mix well. 

7. Add in sautéed oxtail and cook at low heat for 2 hours until soften. In the mean-time, when radish is cooked, spoon into a large bowl so it doesn’t soften too much. 

8. When oxtail is ready, put radish back in to be heated up before serving with rice or noodles!

Avocado Cucumber Toast with Lemon 

Splashed with lemon flavor, this avocado toast makes a great breakfast or lunch. It’s topped with crunchy cucumber slices and finished off with a sprinkle of cracked black pepper and smoked paprika.

SERVINGS: 4

TIME TO TABLE:
15 minutes prep.

INGREDIENTS:
2 avocados, peeled and pit removed
1 tablespoon fresh Paramount Citrus lemon juice
Zest of 1 Paramount Citrus lemon
1/8 teaspoon fine ground sea salt
4 slices bread, toasted
1 medium cucumber, thinly sliced
2 Paramount Citrus lemon slices, halved
Cracked black pepper
Smoked paprika

PREPARATION

1. Place the avocado, lemon juice, lemon zest and sea salt in a medium bowl. Mash the ingredients together until it reaches your desired consistency and all ingredients are combined.

2.  Spread ¼ of the mashed avocados on each piece of toast. Top each with an equal amount of cucumber slices. Place a half lemon slice over the cucumbers and sprinkle each toast with black pepper and paprika before serving. 

5

quick little story idea (sorry for written in Japanese! )

1: Do you think what it is? - it looks like a coffin..

2: But how can we open it? - there is no lid and our hardest material “Kinzoku” can’t damage it at all

3: Well then, how about such big hummer with Kinzoku? - I think it can break the tip of that at least..

4: **** it’s time for lunch~

5: Oh I’m comi—