thoughts i occasionally have

see, like, missy has been a very touchy character in this regen?

she snogs the doctor, and constantly rests her arm around him/on his shoulder (outside st paul’s, and once she’s free on the plane, to name a few times), and just holding on to him for dear life when he kisses her in the graveyard. she wraps her arm around osgood. in s9, she reaches into clara’s personal space to make her have the vortex manipulator, and she sits very closely to the doctor in the ship.

getting into people’s personal spaces is a very quick and effective way to make them very uncomfortable, and she uses this to her advantage to scare osgood, and her just being nearby people makes them nervous.

the scene in which she reaches for the doctor (and to me she looks like she’s reaching to fix his coat, like in s8 with the unit/cybermen in the square scene),  he steps back, and it shows she wants to be near him and touch him for her own comfort, not to make him uncomfortable. she instantly stops, and freezes and looks down and laces her fingers together, kinda shakily. she doesn’t continue her attempt, which is something the old her might have done - stepping forward and not allowing a rejection in the first place.

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12 recognizes, however, how much she needs that contact, but isn’t ready to give it. he’s not much of a hugging person, but he understands that she needs that from him, so he does what he can. her reaction to this, like she’s taking a breath, about to speak, is so fundamental. she knows he’s trying to help her too, but doesn’t know how to convey how much she needs it without embarrassing herself/acting ooc.

i feel that missy really needs that hug. she really, really needs it. even just from bill. she hasn’t really had physical contact with anyone in years, presumably, and that does things to a person whose character revolves a lot around it. she’s restraining herself so much.

I’ve come to the conclusion that if you’re doing any kind of httyd AU, the dragons kind of…can’t be human?  not unless you want to change up their relationship with the “vikings”.  I mean, it’s not as though the dragons in canon are exactly…subservient, but at the same time there’s this feeling of “and now everyone has one!” that wouldn’t sit well with me were they, you know, human people.

so the conclusion would have to be just a simple “and now we’re all friends” instead of “and now we have augmented our society with the powers of these former enemies!!”  also, the whole “we’ve killed thousands of them” thing would be a lot harder to just gloss over.

“Raw and soothing” Ahkmenrah fanfiction / Introducing smut Mondays!

AN: Hello there lovely people. I apologies for not writing in a really long time but I was so busy and a bi sick. Hopefully you will forgive me , I mean if anyone cares - hahah. Anyways, I have decided to make a standard thing on this tumblr blog to post a smut with Rami Malek or one of his characters very single Monday. This one is with Ahkmenrah from Nigth at the museum. I really hope you will enjoy reading this one, feedback is highly appreciated.

Title: Raw and soothing
Fandom: Night at the Museum, Rami Malek
Pairing: Ahkmenrah x Reader/Original Character
Rating: Mature content - smuth duh
Word count: 798

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Already crumbled up robes, tunics and pure white underwear were scattered all over the cold stone ground. Two heated bodies on the bed grinding over each other. What a mess, a hot mess.

A sixty nine inches tall, toned and sweaty man held your body close, with a soft smile appearing on his face. “Oh Ra, I have never thought we’d be doing this. But now, when I look at your stunningly blessed body by all the Gods, Hathor must love your very much.” He mumbled under his breath. His compliments made you giggle. After around seven months of working for the most important person in the World, the descendant of  Amun Ra on Earth, he had finally noticed you. The pharaoh could not stop himself from tracing soft, open mouthed kisses down your neck, then over your shoulder, giving you an occasional nibble then and there.  

“I have never thought, this could be reality either, in this world, a man like you, holding me in your arms, kissing me, touching me. Need I go more?” You responded to him shyly before he approved and placed a hungry kiss upon your lips, gently tugging your lover lip with his teeth. Ahkmenrah broke the kiss after a minute before moving his head a bit lower to kiss between the two bouncy breasts, gliding his tongue over the centre of your visible rib cage. You could not handle your urges anymore so you slipped your hand down and wrapped it around his already half hard length, stroking the muscle slowly intending to make it as big as possible. Eventually the man had let out an extremely low moan which could only be a massive turn on right now.

The man nibbled on his lower lip, looking up at you with eyes full of lust. You could see his appreciation. Several minutes later he moved his frame up so he could align his long length over your wet are, pressing the tip against one of your entrances. With a smile, but also a lot of nervousness noticeable, you wrapped your arms around his neck, letting out a little gulp. “I beg of your for kindness, please be gentle…” You muttered carefully looking at him directly in the eyes. “Don’t you worry my lady … I shall me as carefully and thorough as I can be” He said before gently pushing his member inside of you, slowly spreading your heated walls. You could not help but to let out a little gasp and a squeak. Once his length was fully inside you he began moving his hips up and down up and down, his cock in and out in and out…

Your body trembled with both pain and pleasure combined. But eventually, as his movements intensified and became deeper and deeper the pleasure was the only thing you could feel. Legs shaking and thighs itching, you couldn’t feel a thingy. You held yourself against his frame with a loud moan escaping your lips.

The wet walls became trembling and a bit sore, his length twitching inside of you, causing your to scream out and achieve your climax. The pharaoh then noticed your actions which made him feel extremely excited. His cock had slipped out of your womanhood and sprayed long thin white lines of a warm liquid over your stomach. He panted heavily before resting his body next to yours. His chest raising and lowering. “I am extremely thankful…” you had barely managed to let the words out before slowly drifting off to the sweet slumber of dreamland.

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Several hours later, your woke up  to the soft kisses down your neck. It was him, making sure you feel comfortable. “How are you doing?” he mumbled moving his lips over your temple, kissing open mouthed. “Excellent…” “Listen, would you like to join me in the baths? I will ask the servants to prepare us a really warm, soft, milky and comforting bath for us. How does that sound?” With a bright smile on your face you nodded several times. “That sounds absolutely wonderful. I think we will both enjoy it very much.”

The only things he did as a form of a response he picked your body up bridal style and stood up. Slowly carrying you towards the bathing chambers. “Enjoyable indeed.

He two entered a really spacious room with a big pool, filled up with warm and a little steamy water. Two big pots filled with milk were located on the right side. The bath well prepared for the pharaoh and his new concubine. Or maybe something more in the future? The pharaoh placed you down so you can stand allowing you to carefully enter the water.

It felt stunning. This day is continuously getting better and better.

being mentally ill is so much fun!! i love liking someone then having a burning rage against them in 0.2 seconds. love it

Once someone told me that I’m as “deep as an ocean,” and it wasn’t until recently that I realized, I didn’t really believe it. Sure I have the occasional passing philosophical thought chain, but I’m too wacky and ridiculous to be like an ocean. 

Then I remembered this fucker: 

And suddenly being as deep and full as an ocean didn’t seem so far fetched. Because sure the ocean is full of majestic creatures: 

But then there’s shit like this: 

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So never believe that your depth is only limited to the things you feel are majestic, but realize that it extends to your flopping sea pancake side as well. 

My wife has this sister who I have always thought was hot. I occasionally fantasize about her. To make a long story short, she came over yesterday to pick up my 18m old son to take him out and she accidentally left her fountain drink Pepsi zero at my house. After noticing it, I decided to masturbate and jizz in her soda. I released a fair amount in her drink. Afterwards I tried to stir it up so it would dissolve then I put it in the fridge to perserve the ice because I knew in order to get her to drink it, I would have to prevent it from becoming watered down. When she returned, I went and retrieved it from the fridge and asked her if she still wanted it, she said yes! I gave it to her however I didn’t get to see her drink it because she ended up leaving before sipping on it. I know she ended up drinking it on her way home because it is her favorite drink and it was still nice and cold :).


Keywords: dawn, relationship, side road

Q: What kind of movie will EXO be if EXO were to be a kind of movie genre? What about the movie genre based on your life?

Sehun: Fantasy. If I were to boast, I would say we did things that were not realistic, and we are going to do the same for the future. The members are all very different from one another too. If we were to be made into a genre, it wouldn’t be comedy but fantasy action? The main leads would be our team, EXO. 
If I were to seriously express my personal life, it would be a very sad movie that turns happy. Why happy, firstly because our members are doing so well and I, too, have widened my working field. I think it’s because of those two things.

Q: When and where is your favourite time and place? 

Sehun: I like midnight. About 1 or 2AM. The very mid of night. I think the feeling of tranquility and silence that one will only get at midnight suits me well, and I also really like the feelings that I am only able to feel at that time. I can also think more then.
As for my favourite place, I don’t really like being cooped up. If I was locked up, I’ll become gloomy. Or should I say that I get lost in my sadness. I have friends whom I always go out with. Though I like being with them indoors, I don’t really like it when I’m alone. 

Q: What do you mostly think of at midnight?

Sehun: Everyone might not think the same but, worries for my future, my expectations, my excitement, don’t we all have thoughts like these? Thoughts of our lives.

Q: Between something familiar and something unfamiliar, which do you enjoy more?

Sehun: I enjoy unfamiliar things. We’re comfortable with familiar things, aren’t we. But we have to adapt to unfamiliar places. Just like how we have to follow the Roman law when we go to Rome, I think the process of adapting to a new place is fun. New people, new things, getting to experience those kinds of things for the first time while there will be many eye-opening and challenging things too. That is why I think I can enjoy unfamiliar things more.

Q: Where do you think you will make your home if you were to travel your entire life? 

Sehun: I hope to have my home in Seoul. I think it would be great if my ordinary day is in the city, living with many people in a place where the air isn’t good and then sometimes going to somewhere that doesn’t have anyone and where the air is good. 

Q: How was your very first travelling trip?

Sehun: I can’t remember my first trip because I travel a lot. I obviously had my first trip but I just can’t remember. 

Q: Then can you talk more about a trip you’re thinking about now?

Sehun: With travelling, I should organise the trip and then travel. But I like travelling whenever I feel like it. I don’t ever plan it and I just go spontaneously. I won’t even bring my clothes, I won’t even book a place, I will just go carrying only my wallet. It’s fun going with my friends and doing things there. I don’t know what will happen but the people that I match well with all like that kind of things. So I think our relationship will last for a long time. If there is a baseball game when we get to a rest stop, we’d do that and then leave, and when we get to Daegu, we eat something. Those kind of unpredictable trips. It makes you excited. When I see others making plans for their trips, I also wish to do the same. I really want to do that but I don’t follow my plans very well. Then I think that will screw up the planning even more. So I just travel comfortably with a “Okay, whatever!” mindset.

Q:  How would you explain something that you like because it’s been a long time with it, and something that you like because it’s new?

Sehun: I think of new things as something that I get to experience and be enlightened by. As for old things, what I learn from them will become feelings and memories and that way, I can remember them. To be specific, it would be human relationships. I think relationships are the most important in life. With humans, the more you see each other, the more you become fond of the other, don’t you? The process of getting close with someone is fun. It’s the same with new things. If you meet someone new, you will obviously have things to learn from them, there will be things you get to gain and on the other hand, you will have an influence on that person. I think those kind of things are fun. 

Q: The past, the present, and the future. Which one of them do you think is the most important?

Sehun: For me, I think the future is important. I think about 10 minutes has passed since the start of the interview but that’s still the past, isn’t it. And so, I wonder if there is such a thing as the present. The moment a minute and a second passes, those moments become the past and besides, we are walking in the direction of our future, aren’t we. I think the thing about the present is that it’s quite ambiguous. Are we able to talk about the present? I don’t think so. That is why I wonder if there is such a thing as the present. Can we even call it the present. Of course if we look at the big picture, we can call the time from just now until this moment the present but if you really consider it, isn’t the passing of 1 minute and 1 second history? Time is always moving so isn’t the the future important? I think of it that way. 

Q: When did you experience the broadening of your outlook on the world?

Sehun: I like things that are eye-openers, I like learning, I like experiencing, and I said that I enjoy coming upon new things. And so I am the type to try everything. That way, I can inform the people that I like and I can be of help. When people say they’ll do something, I can recount my experience and that will help them. I think that also includes how I see the world. So I think I will challenge all kinds of things.

Q: What do you think is the most valuable among all visible things? 

Sehun: Firstly, I am unable to point out just one. Um, isn’t everything valuable? We use every little thing because we need them. Wherever we are, they are all essential and they are all important, are they not? It’s difficult coming up with an explanation right away but I think that even the things that we normally think is bad all have their own roles to play. 

Q: Among the things men made, what do you think is the most praiseworthy?

Sehun: It’s difficult just talking about one, so everything, all. Because wherever we are, they have their uses, and we need them. Isn’t it thanks to them, that we are able to live conveniently? 

Q: What is a moment that you wish to have in your life? 

Sehun: Um, I hope to have a very touching moment. I’m really looking forward to that moment. What it is specifically, I am also uncertain, but I wish to have a touching moment that renders me speechless. I think it is impossible to feel touched if you don’t like that person. When you think of someone you really like, when you were once touched by that person or because they did something that touched you, that is when you are able to come up with plans to make them feel touched. Surprise is also incorporated in the sentiment of feeling touched, isn’t it. Because if there is no element of surprise, you cannot feel touched. 

Q: If you have a twin or a doppelganger, what kind of person do you wish they would be? 

Sehun: We have to be similar. Ah, no. I hope they would be the complete opposite of me. Only that way we can learn from each other, and the way we think will be different too. I think it will be fun if their logic/reasoning is different from mine. I think only in that way, we can inform and enlighten each other. I like taking care of someone. I wish to become someone who strengthens the other. Among the many reasons why living is essential, I think that is one of it. That is my life’s joy. I believe that it is a really happy thing to be able to be of help. And I think that those things will come back to you. So if I die, who will be sad? I have those thoughts too. Among the people I sincerely interacted with, who would be sad? I occasionally have those thoughts too. 

Q: If you were born into a family with 9 brothers, which position would you like to be born as?

Sehun: The oldest one. Then I can take care of everyone. There is joy in busily living in a tough life. Of course I’d be extremely tired and I will need time for myself. But still, if I lived like that, I’ll have things to do and I think that having a life where you get to take care of things will be satisfying and interesting. 

Q: When have you felt that your life is perfect? 

Sehun: I think the greed of humans is never ending. Many a time I have thought that I don’t have more to wish for but because my field of work has widened, I want to know more, I want to do more, I want to experience things. By doing that, it seems like this is how I wish for more. Even now, I have something I am hoping for. 

Q: If you were to be invisible one day and only one person could see you, who would you pick that person to be?

Sehun: The woman I love. 

Q:  When do you feel that the day has gotten shorter? 

Sehun: When I’m happy. When I’m playing with people I love. Or when I go on trips. When I’m happy, I don’t think of what was difficult, or something that I am agonising over at that moment, or what I am stressed over, so it seems like time is passing so quickly. When you’re doing something you hate, you will keep thinking “when is it going to end” and you’ll keep waiting, when is it going to end. By doing that, you’ll become delusional. Then you will feel like time is taking too long. I think humans are mysterious in that aspect. When we do something we like, we go ‘I want to do this until I die.’ When we have that kind of mindset, we don’t have anything to wait upon and we have something we want to do and we do it. And when it happens, you won’t even know that time is passing. 

Q: If day or night was to keep going, which would you like better? 

Sehun: Night, midnight. The tranquil atmosphere of midnight. But day and night have to co-exist. Night is only nice because there is day. 

Q:  What time of the day do you think the sky looks the most beautiful? 

Sehun: Midnight. During that time. It’s very pretty. It’s dark but I like it. Even though we can’t really see the stars in Seoul, I don’t think that it is very important. I’m not the kind to feel moved when I see that kind of things. 

Q: Have you ever felt that someone is of great importance in your life? 

Sehun: I feel that way most of the time. If there is something yummy, I’ll say “let’s come together again.” When something bad happens, they’ll run to me. When something good happens, we share it together. People, though it doesn’t have to be the people I know, but I think that value that people have is amazing. And I can’t even measure their worth. Those people, are the first ones I think of. The ones I can’t live without. 

Q: What is the compass in your life?

Sehun: How should I explain this. If there is a road straight forward or backward, and if there is a road on my left and right as well as side roads, I will take the side roads. There are pros and cons of side roads. Side roads are fresh and they’re not complete. Also, there is something you can experience from it. As with the common straight roads ahead, because there are already many information on it, I know that there might not be things I want to try experiencing. However, as for the side roads, people who have not gone through them don’t know what they hold. And though it cannot be gauranteed, I might be able to be a bit more comfortable and be able to go faster, and it will be fun. The con is that there are many bends. Extremely many. And if you’re not careful, you might end up at the start and go the straight road ahead instead, you might not keep walking the same road too. So you need to be wise with your choice of roads. You’ll learn and experience many things, I think you need to rely on and go with people who make the the environment great. If I can only handle being wise, I will be able to safely and enjoyably cross that bend while living a dynamic life. I think being an EXO member isn’t all straight roads and within that, I want to have more dynamic experiences, do a lot more, know more things, help the people around me and learn from each other. I want to live that way.

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anonymous asked:

Just wondering ... how old/young are you? You're really successful.

University graduation age, somewhere near the tail end of the millennial era, a little past early twenties.

Ah thanks for seeing my work that way, haha. I’m grateful for the opportunities/privileges I’ve had, and for having zoned in on a commission niche and aesthetic early. I really enjoy doing freelancing and building a business; hopefully it works out one day!

But to be honest I’ve been having a quarter-life crisis. It’s nothing to do with art per se, but more on the general, non-art stuff - having gone out of the country studying a bachelors for a future/career that probably won’t exist in a decade, so there’s the fear of irrelevance and the anxiety of the changing idea of work. The Road Well Travelled comic explains the gist of my thinking. What isn’t mentioned in the comic though is this thought I occasionally have about my success in the arts not mattering, because it isn’t a ‘real’ job, and it doesn’t follow the typical steps towards success/stability that I had been trained to study/work for since I was 12. Like, what’s the point of having a blooming freelance business and displaying management/communication/marketing skills if no (traditional) employer even wants to hire me? That stuff is super meta and super terrible and anxiety-inducing to think about.

I’m just laying this out here because I don’t want to contribute to this toxic idea that you need to conform to a certain idea of success at a certain age, and if you’re grown past that, you lost your chance. This idea is still disturbing me, as you can see from my thoughts above! Everyone finds their own success at different times, because of unique factors (time + luck + opportunity + privilege). And even with what feels like apparent success in one aspect there are still doubts about success in other aspects.

the one time i tried to confess to a friend that i had obsessive-compulsive disorder, they said, “no you don’t, your room is way too messy, haha”

a human being literally said that to me

Hello friends, tis me, Admin Purse. I’ve come with an update type thing, just to let your guys know why I’ve been a little inactive recently. And to also assure that I’ve not forgotten the requests I’ve taken.

Okay, well. As some of you might know, my Mother was battling Cervical Cancer for quite a while. She was in remission for a bit, but then the cancer returned, full force. I spent New Years 2017 in the emergency room with my Mom. The cancer had spread into her kidneys, and her bones, and it was then that we realized this was a lot more serious than what we had believed. It was now Stage 4. Incurable. On February 9th, I celebrated my sister’s 23rd birthday in Circle of Life Hospice. I celebrated my 18th birthday, February 18th, by my Mom’s Hospice bed. It was clear that my Mother was dying. There was nothing hope, or good luck, or well wishes would do. This was it. This is the reason why I’ve been on semi-hiatus this year.

On the morning of May 2nd 2017, at some point between 6AM - 9AM, my Mother passed. She had told my grandmother the day before that she didn’t want to live in pain anymore, and she let go mere hours after that. And it’s very hard to watch the person you love the most in the world dying, and recognizing all the signs, and counting the days. It’s been a really difficult year for myself, and my family, and I apologize for my absence, because I know a lot of people are still waiting for me to finish requests.

There were times where I seriously considered leaving this blog. And I admit, I still have these thoughts occasionally. “I’m not that good of an admin,” “It wouldn’t even matter much if I left.” But I’ve come to the conclusion that I don’t want to step down from my admin position, because I like this blog. I love editing moodboards, and I love my fellow admins very much. Editing makes me happy, all of our cute followers and moodbabes always make me smile, and still have a long list of requests still waiting to be fulfilled - it’d be a shame if I just abandoned them.

So, below I will list my To-Do list, as a gentle reminder that I’m working in them, and so people who requests these don’t re-request.

  • baeksoo : alpha and omega
  • being best friends with kyungsoo
  • ‘Before Graduation’ chanbaek ficboard
  • chanbaek x 50 Shades of Gray
  • chansoo : alpha and omega
  • chen as selene, goddess of the Moon
  • chen : kitty play
  • chen : pony play
  • kaisoo : alpha and omega
  • kaisoo as achilles and patroclus
  • kaisoo as jason and veronica from Headers
  • kaisoo x desire by clementine von radics
  • kitty!kai
  • puppy!chanyeol
  • sulay : pet play w/ bunny!suho

Again, I apologize for the inconvenience, but I hope you will be patient with me. I don’t know how soon I will be able to fulfill these. Right now, I’m in the middle of moving, so it will probably be a little be longer of a wait. Thank you guys and ily I hope you have a good day. ♡

Part 2, Chapter 4: Chain

A strip mall off the turnpike in New Jersey. Looking for lunch. From where I stand by my truck, this could be anywhere.

We must have decided this, right, at some point? That we wanted it all to look the same? And I can understand that decision. We all like to feel somewhere familiar. Now we can have that feeling wherever we are. No matter the climate or geography, you come inside the chain and you are exactly where you were before, like there was a magic door to the city you feel most comfortable in. It’s a positive that can’t be denied.

But we have paid a price for this.

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I don’t have the urge to jump in front of cars anymore. Or to swallow a bottle of pills so I can sleep forever. I don’t skip meals anymore, or scream until I have no voice. I don’t shove people away as much. I go out and hang with friends. I would like to say I’m cured. But that would be a lie. The truth is; I’m just okay. Because yes the above is true, but I still occasionally have intrusive thoughts that cross my mind. I don’t always look when crossing the street. And sometimes I’ll take more sleeping pills then the bottle recommends. And sometimes I’ll scratch myself to leave that comforting mark that calms me down but if you were to ask me “how are you doing?” I would probably lie and say “I’m doing well.” Because yes I feel like my world is dim, but I no longer feel like I’m drowning.
—  I’ll keep my head above the surface just long enough to catch my breath.

so i recently saw a post going around about “why artists reblog their work,” this applying to all genres of art- drawing, writing, etc.

and i realized i never tend to reblog my stories. it’s a thought i have occasionally, but i always shrugged it off until now. it just… wasn’t a thing i did. i never felt it necessary. i kind of felt like it would be me pandering or looking for more attention. i’m not saying that’s what it is, mind you! it’s just how my brain works.

i’m always highly self-conscious about my innate need for attention. (a tru irony when you take into account how socially awkward and easily uncomfortable i get.) i revel in praise and compliments and acknowledgment of my accomplishments, and then i feel horrible for it. all my life i’ve kinda had this idea about “me getting everything” thrown back in my face? i’m certain it’s played a significant role in my guilt complex.

i digress. i wasn’t trying to delve into my own problems. it’s more like… well, i don’t know. what do you guys think? this blog’s shot up in popularity recently due to my writing for the egos, and it’s so commonplace for other popular blogs to reblog their works…..

note: i literally have never reblogged anything i’ve made. jokes, shitposts, art or writing. it just didn’t occur to me, or if it did, i always felt… awkward about it.

i don’t know. should i start? would it make it easier for you guys? (i was hoping my new tags and stories pages on the blog would help, but…)

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