though the rest of her is also lovely

ACOWAR rant

Here’s the thing that annoyed me about ACOWAR, as in, I was really hyped for this and ACOWAR was such a huge let down: Amren. Nesta. The Bone Carver. The Weaver. Bryaxis. Hell, even Rhys’ “true form”.

But mostly Amren.

What do all of these have in common? They all have some sort of mystic power or “second skin”, their “true form”, which the reader has not yet seen and which they have not revealed to Feyre. Everyone constantly talks about how powerful and dangerous and scary they are (Amren is supposedly a nightmare they tell children about even beyond the wall). I was really really interested in what Amren’s “true form” would be, and from the popular “Amren’s a dragon” towards my far-fetched “Amren is a Crochan witch”- theory, I was speculating about this forever. Was she a goddess, Pirates of the Carribean style? A giant, perhaps, or something else? Why could she only drink blood? What the hell made her so powerful? She’s like 5000 years old and fucking ancient, so what’s her story?

Feyre always says things like “I knew it was better not to ask”, or “I was not as stupid as to question why she was drinking blood” (which, girl?? are you serious??? thank god for Nesta who actually asks these questions!!!), which gives the impression that Amren must be something reaaally horrible if even her CLOSEST FRIENDS have not even asked ONCE.

And then Amren jumps into the Cauldron (which is so badass!! i love her) and emerges as….giant lightbulb. Oh, she also has wings. She flies around for two seconds, destroys the enemie’s armada, and then she’s gone.

That’s it.

Sorry, but what’s so special about that? Why couldn’t she tell her friends? This world has really powerful fae, magical beings like the Suriel or the Weaver and all of this doesn’t even include what’s going on on the continent. In which way is Amren so much more terrible than the rest? “People died just because she flew close to them”, describes Feyre, and even though that’s obviously very powerful, it’s not really that scary compared to High Lord “I sometimes think about unleashing my power across the world and wiping the board clean” Rhysand.

Is she a phoenix? Is she a dragon with fire wings? We don’t bloody know, because her desription is so vague! We’ve never heard about beings like Amren before. We don’t know her “true” name. We don’t know anything about her original people. It’s just so scrappily written. Not fleshed out at all. There was such a huge build-up about Amren’s true form- and it turned out to be a short and unprecise description. (Here’s Amren’s true form. She’s dangerous and she has wings. Why she dangerous? She can kill many people at once, that’s why. How does it work? How does she kill? Why does she kill? Not important.)

And this goes as well for Nesta’s power (which is supposedly sooo huge and terrible, but I didn’t really understand until the end what she can actually do besides having this connection to the cauldron), Rhys’ “true” form (he doesn’t grow a second head, he doesn’t suddenly have a tail, he’s not suddenly hideous, there’s just a few more shadows and again, only a very vague description which tells us we should be scared of him), Bryaxis (WHYYY is he so scary) and even the Weaver’s and the Bone Carver’s powers. Yes, they are “powerful”. But what does that mean? Are they very skilled fighters? Are they teeth so sharp they can bite better? Do they paralyze their victims before killing? Do they have claws? WHY are they so deadly, why are they the way they are?

In the end, all of these “powerful” beings have only one power: to kill, and to kill a great number of people at the same time. That’s it. That’s why they are mystified, that’s why they are powerful. In the end, they are all the same. Their “forms” simply vary a little.

I loved a lot of things in ACOWAR, and I love the series. I also love when authors make up their own magical creatures. But in ACOWAR, I was just disappointed, especially because none of these creatures had creative, different powers or a background story. They are introduced, they are described as big and scary and then they are gone. 

Take the dementors in Harry Potter, for example. JK Rowling made them up. And they are big and scary. But why? Because they can suck your soul away, because they are lifeless, emotionless beings, because they have no faces, blabla…list goes on. We, as the readers, understand why they are scary. We understand why they are powerful. It’s being shown to us on multiple occasions. In ACOWAR, we are told, and that’s it. Nesta has great powers now. She made the cauldron give something back. What? We don’t know, that’s what. But she’s “like” the cauldron now. Make of that what you want.

And Amren, Amren who Lucien is afraid of, who smiles and you think she wants to kill you, Amren who is the “tiny ancient one”, whose name alone stirs fear in everyone around her, Amren who NEVER TALKED ABOUT HER TRUE FORM BECAUSE IT WAS SO SCARY….is simply an Illyrian on fire.

I feel very let down.

Originally posted by samisoffthewall

I fell I must add that I still love the series. This is by no means “Sarah J Maas hate”. I love so many things about the series- that’s the only reason why I’m so disappointed, because I care about it that much.

The Crows Against the Common Cold

I have a cold so I’m inspired.

Matthias: sleeps it right off. Takes him max two days to get rid of it. Coughs maybe once. This pisses Nina offffff. Rises and shines like the secret tulip he is. “Cold? What cold? I live in the ice.”

Nina: loathes being sick. Even just the sniffles. Doesn’t want to be seen except not really. Could she eliminate it with her heart rending? Probably. But she won’t because everyone lavishes attention on her and she LOVES IT. Mattias babies her and so does Inej. Milks it as long as she can #DramaQueen

Jesper: Also #DramaQueen. But actually grumpier than Nina can be because he has to rest to get better and what is rest??? Loves Wylan taking care of him though. Very verbal about being cut down in the prime of life by the cold while wylan just shakes his head and spoon feeds him soup.

Wylan: (brought to you by my friend betterthanwaffles). Tries to hide being sick. Doesn’t want people to know because Jan Van DICK would get mad at him and call him weak. Not sure how Jesper found out, but suddenly Wy’s tucked in bed with blankets and tissues up to the gills. *cough cough Kaz told Jesper*

Kuwei: wants Jesper’s attention but he’s getting over it. Knows chemistry so well he can usually shake the cold quickly with different concoctions. Very quiet while sick. Sucks on cough drops obsessively.

Inej: tries to go about her business. Doesn’t exactly hide it, but doesn’t want a fuss. Nina wants to fuss so bad, so Inej avoids her as much as she can. Then Kaz hears her cough while trying to sneak in his office and he sends her straight to bed and sics Nina on her. Says it’s because he can’t afford a Wraith who gives herself away sneezing everywhere. Actually he is in love and brings her medicines and tissues on the sly. She knows.

Kaz: immune. The germs just burst into microscopic flame.

you know who i’m so grateful for? amy santiago

  • firstly, she isn’t stereotyped at all but her culture isn’t ignored
  • despite her rule following and sucking up to her superiors she’s never been a killjoy and ruined things for the rest of the squad
  • she’s always been portrayed very much as jake’s equal, even though they’re so different, they’re still both super good at their jobs
  • she’s never just been a love interest, the show has given story lines outside of her relationship with jake and she has been allowed to grow and develop friendships with the other characters
  • her character development has been amazing. she was so concerned with impressing holt in s1 and now in s3 she’s become so great at standing up to him and making sure that he respects her as much as she respects him
  • she’s also become a lot more chill, without becoming, y’know, actually chill, probably thanks to her friendship/sister-in-law-hood with gina
  • she proves that you can be a nerd and be badass
  • she’s a disastrous chef and she doesn’t think that putting eIGHTEEN CUPS OF OREGANO in cooking is at all weird, what a dork
  • she outsmarted both jake and holt when they underestimated her also rosa called her an evil genius (because she fucking could be, okay)
  • she’s also really adorable and sometimes i find myself getting distracted by how pretty her face is

A character that I feel doesn’t get enough love is dear princess Sharena.

I see so much people shitting on Sharena because apparently she’s not such a good unit (I don’t know man, she fights pretty well for me), and that is understandable…I guess. I do wish she has a critical attack :/

What I love about Sharena though is that she wants to get to know the Summoner. Well, everyone does XD But for Sharena, her way is talking. It’s not going to the library, or accompanying them in their patrols, or having them rest on laps, or going out for a drink. It’s talking. Just the normal route.

I myself don’t prefer to talk to people, but I feel that with Sharena, she’ll carry the conversation and will react happily to anything you say. Also, she’s a good listener, which means that she’ll actually pay attention to what you say and will be there for you if you need to vent.

Sharena is very friendly. She wants to become friends with all the heroes the Summoner summons, and I can see her actually chatting it up with Lissa or Eldigan or Olivia or Gaius or Ogma or Nowi or Selena or Owain or Eliwood… Basically any hero. I just think that’s amazing of her.

It maybe because I do this too that I like this about Sharena. Any hero I summon, I take in with open arms. I don’t care what rarity they are or if they “have a bad tier”; I’ll train them all up. (Well, unless they cant get to Lv. 10 easily, then they are sent home).

And lastly, she’s just so fudgin adorable??

Like, her personality is just so bubbly! And in any artwork with her, she’s portrayed in such a cute way! It’s usually with the owl, which she is most likely close to (maybe it’s the one that sends the letters to her mom).

Also, her character design is fabulous! Look at that long blonde hair with pink tips. Good color combo! And the blue of her cape complements it well. Her hair tips look like wings, which resemble the symbol of Askr, and contrasts the roundness of her head and her personality. And best of all, she’s not hypersexualized (like the women in Conquest. Geez Charlotte has no freaking armor. And Effie!? For an armored unit, she sure isn’t protected at her legs).

Sharena needs more love man…

“Dennis’ Double Life” Defense & Explanations

In this post, I’ll attempt to explain/defend all of the controversial scenes in the Season 12 finale, “Dennis’ Double Life.” This write-up has helped me to appreciate the episode a lot better and it might help some people who have mixed feelings about the episode to view it in a different light.

NOTE: This is a mix of speculation and canon evidence.

Question 1: Why was Dennis a butt to Mac the entire episode, especially after he was so nice to him at the end of “The Gang Tends Bar”?

Answer 1: I will break this answer into three parts:

  • Part 1: I got the vibe that Mandy surprised Dennis with the visit, which explains why Dennis had mere seconds to tell the Gang to pretend that he was someone else. With the flesh-and-blood reality of Brian Jr. on his mind, I don’t think he had the mental energy to consider Mac at all. (In “The Gang Tends Bar,” Brian Jr. wasn’t there, so Dennis didn’t feel that immediate/strong pressure. Also, Dennis was emotionally vulnerable and available after having told the Gang about his “big feelings,” so he was able to react better to Mac)
  • Part 2: I’m not sure Dennis fully comprehends Mac’s feelings for him. I think he knows, to some degree, that Mac is attracted to him, but it wouldn’t surprise me if he sees Mac’s attraction to him as a kind of strange “hero worship.” Dennis verbally confirmed that Mac is gay in “Mac Day,” but he constantly acts weirded out or confused when Mac does/says something that shows that he has feelings for him. For example, in “Mac & Dennis Move to the Suburbs,” Dennis thought it was weird that Mac would name their dog Dennis Jr. That reaction, of course, mirrors Dennis’ reaction to Mac’s reveal that he perfectly recreated their old apartment. I don’t think he was trying to hurt Mac. He just flat out does not understand why Mac would go through all the trouble.
  • Dennis also doesn’t appear to understand his own feelings for Mac. He has asked Mac to “get off with him” (a “mostly sexual” manipulation game) and tried to get him to participate in a threesome with a male golf caddy in “Frank’s Back in Business,” admitted to Dee that he made his sex tapes for himself and Mac in “The Gang Group Dates,” stated that he has a thing with Mac where he picks out porn for them that he doesn’t want Charlie to join in on (“The Gang Spies Like U.S.”), and danced for Mac when he saw him avidly watching him in “PTSDee,” but he doesn’t see anything strange about this. It’s just par for the course in their relationship.
  • If Dennis has trouble seeing his own feelings, then like hell is he going to fully see Mac’s feelings. And if he can’t see Mac’s feelings, he can’t deal with them properly. 
  • Part 3: In the back of Dennis’ mind, he was seriously considering leaving the Gang and being a father to his son. He knows that leaving the Gang is going to hurt him, so he emotionally pushed them away. When the Gang becomes “lesser” in his mind, it doesn’t hurt as much to leave them.

Summary: Dennis was stressed the heck out about Brian Jr. and didn’t have the energy to deal with his relationship with Mac.

Question 2: Were Mac’s feelings for Dennis treated as a joke?

Answer 2: Not necessarily. Even though Dennis likes to act like he’s the smartest member of the Gang, Mac is clearly more aware and accepting of the nature of their relationship than Dennis is. Mac was 100% fine with them pretending to be a couple and raising Brian Jr. (with or without Mandy), not because he’s super desperate and lovesick, but because, no matter what they call their relationship (lovers, partners, pretend, friends), they’d still be together. Mac just loves being with Dennis and wants to help solve Dennis’ problem, so, of course, that would be his plan. (And it’s actually a good plan.)

It hurts the empathetic audience members to see Mac treated the way he is by Dennis, but it’s normal Dennis behavior that Mac has accepted. Mac has survived his internalized homophobia, his father’s dislike of him, his mother’s indifference to him, and the Gang’s occasional dislike of him. Mac is stronger than we think he is. And if he gets tired of Dennis, he definitely has the strength to walk away from their relationship relatively unscathed.

Summary: Mac was pretty much having fun playing a character (he even wanted his character’s name to be Griffin) and hanging out with Dennis and Dennis was stressed the hell out about Brian Jr.

Question 3: Charlie wanted to have sex? With The Waitress?

Answer 3: Yes. In “Charlie Has Cancer,” Charlie was visibly disappointed when he realized that he missed the chance to possibly have sex with The Waitress. In “Who Pooped the Bed?” a drunk Waitress stated that she would get drunker and bang a random dude and Charlie asked her if it could be him. In "The High School Reunion Part 2: The Gang’s Revenge,” when a drunk Waitress told the Gang that she’d bang the next person who talked to her, Charlie opened his mouth and stepped forward, but Schmitty came out of nowhere and The Waitress went home with him.

Summary: I know some people headcanon Charlie as ace and/or sex-repulsed (I personally headcanon him as gray ace) and that’s fine, but Charlie has expressed interest in having sex with The Waitress in the show.

Question 4: Why did the Waitress have sex with Charlie?

Answer 4: Surprisingly, the possibility of that happening was set up in a previous episode. In "Charlie and Dee Find Love,” (which was written by RCG) the Waitress reacted in an arguably jealous manner towards Charlie’s then-girlfriend Ruby (“Who the hell is this, Charlie?!”). Also, at the end of the episode, the Waitress told Charlie that she needed him in her life and that she was thinking about reducing his restraining order. Admittedly, the Waitress’ strange behavior was after Frank accidentally put rat poison in her shampoo (which made her sick) and hit her with his car (which put her in a hospital), so she could have some kind of permanent brain damage.

In the beginning of the show, the Waitress wasn’t attracted to Charlie, but was concerned about his well-being sometimes. (In "The Gang Gives Back,” she tried to help Charlie with his alcoholism) It’s possible that after “Charlie and Dee Find Love,” the Waitress’ view of Charlie started to change. As the years went on, the Waitress’ problems started to get worse and worse, and, like Cricket (her male counterpart), she still found herself continually drawn to the Gang. Even though she still thinks Charlie’s a mess, a part of her might think that he’s all that she has left. (And that might, sadly, be true) And, if Charlie can help her to fulfill her dream of having a baby, maybe things can get better for her.

Something I noticed as well is that the Waitress never said she loved Charlie back. It’s possible that she still doesn’t love Charlie and never will, but sees him simply as a partner that can help her to take care of her child. (Also, in order to get Frank’s money, she needs to be partnered with Charlie)

Question 5: What’s the deal with The Waitress acting the way she did after having sex with Charlie?

Answer 5: We don’t know that much about The Waitress, but we do know that she sometimes does/thinks weird stuff like the rest of the Gang. (In "Mac Bangs Dennis’ Mom,” The Waitress slept with Frank, a man she’s not attracted to at all, in an attempt to get back at Dennis because she thought he was cheating on her with older women. In “Charlie and Dee Find Love,” it’s hinted at that The Waitress might be stalking Dennis because she has his phone number even though he changed it. In “The Gang Group Dates,” after years of Dennis’ mistreatment of her, The Waitress was still excited about possibly being Dennis’ girlfriend.) Also, even though she was kind of aggressive towards Charlie, all of her points were valid, some of Charlie’s responses were dumb, and her dislike of Charlie is totally understandable.

Question 6: What’s the deal with Charlie freaking out after finally getting The Waitress’ attention?

Answer 6: Surprisingly, the possibility of that happening was set up in a previous episode. In Season 9’s "Flowers for Charlie,” Frank paid The Waitress to hang out with Charlie because he was getting worried about him after he started taking “intelligence” pills for an experiment. When the Waitress began talking about her life, Charlie immediately started getting annoyed, started hearing a ringing in his head, and had to leave. We found out at the end of the episode that these pills were placebos. Basically, this was a strong hint that Charlie might be in love with the idea of The Waitress, not the actual person. So, even though he has been stalking The Waitress for 15 years, he might not really want to be with the real her. (The fact that he thought of The Waitress’ negative reactions as a “game between them” is another hint, of course)

Also, even though Charlie fantasized about raising multiple children with The Waitress in “The Gang Saves the Day” (which aired before “Flowers for Charlie”), it was still a fantasy. Charlie might fantasize about having a nice house, a wife, and children, but he still likes living in his unfancy and dangerous apartment and doesn’t handle stress well. There are huge conflicts that he doesn’t see.

Also, keep in mind that he came up with the plan only a few hours earlier and he mentioned that he wanted to get The Waitress pregnant so she would be tied to him for life. (clearly no thought about the actual baby and being a father)

So, with Charlie being Charlie and the reality of the situation crashing on him, he is starting to freak out.

Summary: Charlie freaking out is 100% in character.

Question 7: Why was Charlie a butt to Dee after having sex with The Waitress?

Answer 7: Charlie is an idiot and a misogynist, so he projected his issues with women and The Waitress onto Dee. Also, as Charlie mentioned, Dee possibly tried to have sex with him an additional time after “The Gang Misses the Boat” and he didn’t want that to happen again that night. So, overly-stressed and tired Charlie absentmindedly begged Dee not to be a whore numerous times before immediately falling asleep on top of her because even though he has issues with women, he feels comfortable with Dee.

Summary: Charlie and Dee’s relationship in a nutshell.

Question 8: Why did Dennis want to leave the Gang to take care of Brian Jr.?

Answer 8: I get the vibe that this might have been the first time that Dennis actually held Brian Jr. (or he hasn’t held him in a while?). Holding the child made him really understand that he is a living, breathing being he created and not just an obstacle to overcome to get back to his usual life. And then the child knew who he was, which made everything feel even more heavy. This is the first time in Dennis’ life that he’s been responsible for someone other than himself. He knows that if he stays with the Gang, he’ll feel guilty for whatever happens to the child. He’ll feel guilty that the child knew who he was but couldn’t see him. And the fact that the Gang doesn’t comprehend this at all (Mac, for example, excitedly told him “The plan worked!”) pushed him even further away from them and towards his child.

Question 9: Why didn’t the Gang seem to care when Dennis left?

Answer 9: The Gang has a great track record of unusual responses to deaths and departures.

In “Dennis and Dee’s Mom Is Dead,” Dennis reacted to his mother’s death by partying/hazing guys in his mom’s house and Dee and Frank seriously considered grave robbing her. In "The Gang Gets a New Member,” Mac and Dennis had no problem kicking Charlie out of the Gang and replacing him with Schmitty. In "The Gang Beats Boggs,” Mac’s only response to a drunk Dennis spontaneously leaving their plane was to write the number of beers he consumed on his forehead. In "The Gang Misses the Boat,” the Gang “broke up,” yet everyone just spent the episode doing their own thing. In "Frank Retires,” the rest of the Gang started cheering and clapping after Frank declared that he would be retiring from the Gang. I could go on and on, but you get the point.

It’s very likely that the rest of the Gang is still in shock/denial about Dennis leaving and they are expecting him to come back soon like everyone always does.

Since the highlight of the night was firing Dennis’ RPG, they decided to not let Dennis’ departure stop them. (It also doubled as a nice, fiery distraction)

As for blowing up the Range Rover? They think Dennis intentionally left it and it’s the perfect target to take out any frustrations they had/have with Dennis. (This is also one of the reasons Mac, who gave Dennis his cherished RPG, is the one blowing up the Range Rover, one of Dennis’ most prized possessions)

When Dennis comes back, they can excitedly tell him that they blew up the Range Rover and it was awesome.

Question 10: Why did Dennis leave the Range Rover?

Answer 10: Dennis wants to take care of his child, which is a good thing, but he is clearly going through a crisis and is not thinking clearly. He mentally/emotionally disconnected himself from the Gang (notice that he said “The bar’s done” and turned off the lights even though the rest of the Gang is still there and can run the bar) and left everything that reminds him of the Gang behind (which explains why the Range Rover is still there). He did not even think about packing, called a taxi, and headed straight to the airport to fly to Mandy and Brian Jr.’s location. This is one of the reasons the ending feels so “off.” It mirrors Dennis’ mindset.

Question 11: Why did Dennis name his child after Brian Lefevre?

Answer 11: This was probably Mandy’s idea and Dennis went along with it because he couldn’t think of anything else. He also probably wasn’t in the right headspace to complain since he wasn’t ready to have a child.

Moans

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Request: Hey ! Im sorry this one is too smutty but… Okay, can you please make an imagine where, the reader and Shawn fall asleep and in the morning or middle of the night idk, he heard some moans and realise the reader is grinding on him while sleeping and he watch her and don’t want to wake her up yet ( cuz he is turned on ) and like after that you can do what you want 😂 OMGG I FEEL SO BAD I FEEL LIKE A PERVERT NO 😭 But yeah like.. if you could please do one 😂 I love all your imagines ! 💋 thanks !

Word count: 1,501

A/N: I tried, but this was hard. 

Moans (Kind of a smut)

“Hey baby” I whispered, as I silently walked into the bedroom.

“Are you awake?” I wasn’t quite sure if she was sleeping or not.

“Mmh” She grunted at my voice.

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Little Spoon- Morgan Rielly

Originally posted by phillymyers

I wasn’t sure where I was going with this but I love how it turned out so I REALLY hope you guys like it! Things I associate with Morgan Rielly: Captain of the Toronto Maple Leafs, juggling, Jake, and ice cream cake. So… enjoy!

Warning: fluffy Mo

Anon Request: Hey! Could you please write a Morgan rielly one shot about him being the little spoon? Thank you!

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              You laid across the couch, watching TV and waiting for Morgan to get home.

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anonymous asked:

Can u please draw my Lavender Quartz gemsona. She has her gem on her eyeball, she has a big hair bun, and she's buff like a quartz. U can play around with the rest of her design. Please and thank u.

Now that’s an aesthetic girl is I ever saw one.

Anyone ready for some wild SPN season 12 speculation?

OK DISCLAIMER: this is just my opinion and I know nothing more than anyone else OK and I’m more than happy to be proved wrong or have lots and lots of opinions on this, please do, its just fun and I wanted to write down my thoughts as I flailed about this a lot today, lets be honest :)

Foreshadowing points through the season and Speculation under the cut.

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Alistair Theirin - He would be half asleep and confused, smacking his lips as he tried to get the cotton taste out of his mouth. He’d grow more awake though, eyes snapping open. An awkward chuckle would bubble out of his lips and he’d raise an eye brow. “Can you…Uh…Can you run that by me again? Didn’t quite hear you correctly.” When he’s reminded, though, his face goes a little red. Awkwardly shifting under the covers, he’d scoot to the side. “Uh. Sometimes, some of the younger Templar recruits would. Ya know. Want to…snuggle or whatever. Just um. Pretend to be small.” He understood wanting to feel safe at night, so he’d try not to feel awkward about it. Key word being try.

Alistair Theirin (Romanced) - Alistair wouldn’t even bother with waking up. He’d just grunt, lifting up the blanket so the warden could climb in. When she did, he’d wrap the blanket around her, slinging a leg over her and tugging her close. The warden has dug her own grave. Now she will never escape.

Zevran Arainai - He was a light sleeper. Had to be, really, what with the grisly business he was involved in. He would peer out at the opening of the tent, the knife under his pillow ready to be drawn out in a moments notice. Of course he had no need of it! Because there they were, the Warden. A grin curled onto his lips, eye brow cocking up. “Oh? Visiting me, in my tent, in the dead of night? How scandalous, dear warden. What would dear Wynne say?” Upon hearing their request, he’d hum. “A bit too tame for my liking, but yes yes, come in.” He’d demand to be the big spoon, of course, arms holding the warden to his chest. He’d listen to them breathe, silent, a smile curling on his lips as he closed his own eyes.

Zevran Arainai (Romanced) - Chances are they were both already in the tent to begin with. Zevran would not be ashamed to admit he’d be a wee bit disappointed in the fact that he would not be making love to his warden tonight, but he would have no qualms. He’d press a soft kiss to their neck, still demanding to be the big spoon, a hand sliding up their shirt to gently rest on their stomach, gently stroking their skin. “Goodnight, my Warden.”

Leliana - She, also like Zevran, is a light sleeper. Though not as paranoid, a knife not under her pillow. She blinked sleepily, tilting her head at the Warden at her tent flap. She stayed silent, waiting for them to talk. They seemed troubled, and she hoped the smile on her face put them at ease. Though, at there request, her smile fell, eye lashes fluttering. “Oh? Well, I don’t see any trouble in it. I mean, my tent is small, but yes! Come in.” She smiled, patting the spot next to her. She coaxed them to relax, her arms wrapping around them no matter how large they were. Though, they would be waking up with a foot in their face and an elbow in their ass. 

Leliana (Romanced) - The warden is more than aware of her cuddling habits and have long since learned it is best to have their arms wrapped around her as tight as possible, lest they wake up with a mouth full of hair.

Morrigan - She would be asleep, and less than happy to be waken up. Her piercing yellow eyes would glare at the warden, an eye brow slowly raising as she tapped her thigh. “Yes? Spit it out! As it were, we do not have all night. Time is precious rest.” When she hears there request, she looks shocked. She is the last person one would ask for a…’cuddle’. And yet, here they were, asking her. “What do you take me for? Your mother? Warden, you are not a child, and I am certainly not here to mind one! Tis most disappointing that you…that…you.” Her lips would thin as she stared at their saddened eyes and quivering lip. “Ugh. Fine. But if at any moment in time I want you to leave, you go, or you will have to get your ‘cuddles’ as a toad!” Morrigan is a cuddler. The warden would wake up with her curled up, nuzzled into them, face calm. And if they brought it up at any moment in time it was like asking for death.

Morrigan (Romanced) - Morrigan, despite proving that she was indeed a cuddler, would still be hesitant. Though, waking up, curled up, safe and warm in her wardens arms? Worth it.

Ohgren - “…Bah! Not drunk enough for this.” He’d grumble, grabbing the closest container of ale he could get his hands on. He’d chug it, let it burn his throat, then move on to the next one. After he considered himself suitably inebriated he’d give a vague wave of his arm, allowing the warden in. On that day, the Warden learned that Ohgren truly did smell as bad as the others say, but that he was the warmest out of them all.

Shale - No.

Sten - A double no.

Wynne - She would probably be awake, reading or whispering to herself, eyes far away. Her attention would snap to the flaps of her tent and she’d tilt her head, a warm smile coming to her lips. “Hello? What is wrong?” And then they said what they needed to say. A part of her, long forgotten, abandoned and buried ached when she heard their words. When they both heard their words. Her smile grew worried and she was silent, then she gestured for them to come in. She guided them onto their side, their head on her lap. “Here. Sleep as much as you like.” She said softly, hesitantly petting their hair. She wondered, for a startling moment, if this is what it would be like with…with Rhys. She continued to gently stroke their hair, tears pricking at her eyes.

Dog - The dog is already sitting on your chest. Hope you didn’t enjoy having lungs. Because you don’t have them anymore. You did this to yourself, Warden. I hope your happy.

True Q - 6.06

Oh, Q, you rake, you scalawag. You’re so mischievous that you’ve snuck into one of these mostly-unis episodes like the scoundrel you are. Also I believe this episode title, much like Return of the King, contains a spoiler within the title. But we’ll get there.

“Don’t even try to out cheekbone me, girl. I’ll eat you for lunch.” —Bev

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I’ve always wanted to write a Shallura fanfic but I honestly don’t know where this came from. Enjoy it, though! <3

Also, this piece was written for @kaxpha because she’s amazing and I love her art and angsty aus so much. I hope you’ll also enjoy this!

Allura is soft yet tough. She’s strong but has her moments of weakness. She’s firm when needed to and kind the rest of the time. She’s a walking contradiction and Shiro loves everything about her.

Or, at least, he used to.

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side 14 || hannah baker

prompt: Hi can you do a Hannah baker x reader. the reader is Hannah’s little sister by a 2 years and adopted just about Hannah leaving the last tape to her nothing bad just telling her she loves her and that it was not her fault that she died nice sisterly tape is that makes since💚

warnings: character death

a/n: i hope you enjoy !! i also suck at titles but as always requests are open and feedback is appreciated , also this is kinda short bc its like straight to the point. ALSO the 14th tape/side isn’t Bryce’s confession just hannahs message to you


You were devastated when you found out about Hannah. She was your older sister and you looked up to her. You were somewhat aware about all the things that had happened to her, you didn’t think she would act like this. You were angry at yourself, you could’ve done something to prevent this if you had just spoken and told your parents. But after Hannah’s death, you went through your week with looks of sadness from other people and at least 5 people telling you, “I’m so sorry for your loss.”

You get people were trying to be nice but really you knew they didn’t really give a fuck, since they were the ones who had believed all the rumors about Hannah. You had also noticed that Clay had started talking to you more, which you found really weird. Since he was Hannah’s best friend and you were pretty sure she liked him. But you went on with your life trying to ignore the pity looks everyone gave you.

Two weeks had passed since Hannah’s death and you came home to a neatly wrapped package on your doorstep. The box had your name on it but no return address or any clue to whom it came from. You brought the wrapped package to your room, opening it to reveal a damaged shoe box. You opened it examining the contents inside, 7 tapes with numbers on them. You took out a tape player you had in your room and put the first tape it, the number 1 showing upward.

You listened to the tapes and finally you reached side 14. You were pretty sure this was your tape and you were nervous as hell and angry. You pressed play on the walkman, and you heard Hannah’s voice. “Hey, welcome to the last tape. Happy you stayed and made it this far. This last side is dedicated my dear sister Y/N. I know you feel anxious now Y/N, don’t worry. You didn’t do anything wrong.” Hearing those words made your heartbeat slow down.

“Yeah I know. Why put someone who had nothing to do with it on these tapes? This is the same case with helmet. But truly Y/N, I love you. I hope you know I appreciate you helping me but honestly it wasn’t enough. Please know that this wasn’t your fault, I chose to do this and just be happy and move on for me please.“ Tears were streaming down your face at this point, your eyes puffy and your nose stuffed.

“I remember when we adopted you Y/N. I was 6 and you were 4 at the moment. God, I was so excited when I found out that you were gonna be my little sister. That day always brought up my mood. Y/N, you were the best sister I ever had, even though you were my younger sister.” She said laughing a little. “This wasn’t your fault, you deserve to live your life Y/N. I love you Y/N.” The tape stopped, and you sat calmly. You were relieved but also disappointed.

You spent the rest of the day, the tapes back in their shoebox and the box sat in your closet. You thought back on memories of you and Hannah. Her coming back and gushing to you about Justin Foely and her first kiss. Then everything went downhill. You thought that if something had changed you could’ve prevented all of it but you knew nothing would’ve changed. And you were ready to live with it.

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WOW UM OKAY SO MUCH TO UNPACK HERE.

First up, my husband and I got a LOT of mileage out of the Hunger Games jokes available to us so thanks for that, show.  However, Jaha had a fucking point: if everyone’s gonna die in THREE DAYS having a death match with NO TIME LIMIT is a terrible fucking plan, guys.

Bellamy and Octavia’s relationship was soooooo good this episode, from his fear of facing her at all to her snapping at him because she was afraid he didn’t love her anymore, to his complete and utter faith in her delivered monologue-style to Echo while Octavia listened in.  A++++ face acting all around by Bob and Marie, because they sold Bellamy and Octavia’s hesitancy, fear, love, and loyalty very well.

I also liked that Octavia used actual strategy to win and wasn’t just like, naturally the best fighter.  Her first encounter with Luna was good character work for both of them and really tensely plotted.

Echo being a shady motherfucker was easy to see coming, but Roan being like YOU WERE CHEATING ON MY BEHALF? GASP! BEGONE WITH YOU, FOUL BEAST was hilarious and Roan for Gryffindor Head Boy and Quidditch Captain, y’all.  (He plays Beater but makes a fair goalie.  Don’t @ me I just report the facts.)  Also I’m forever laughing at Bellamy’s attempts to sneak SUBTERFUGE IS NOT YOUR THING, BOO BEAR.

INDRA FOR MVP OF THE SEASON (she can share with Monty.)  She really knocked it out of the park, mothering her two girls and loving her people and being both strong and soft and wow, Adina, I hope you got a raise for this episode.

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Of All The People

Y/N glanced around the club once again, hoping to spot Joe, but there was no sign of him. Checking her phone, she noticed that it was ten minutes past the time they were supposed to meet up, and there was still no word from her boyfriend.

It wasn’t that she was concerned, she figured there was traffic or something, but tonight was the night he was introducing her to his friends, so she was slightly nervous about that.

Especially since she could see the group of boys that Joe called his friends.


She knew what they looked like, she had seen them enough in Joe’s videos, but they had no idea what she looked like. And so they had no idea that she was sat near them in the club.

Which made it really entertaining when one of them pull apart from their group and make their way over.

It was Jack, and Y/N wasn’t surprised when she saw him put on a charming smile on his face. She had heard the stories, and warnings, from Joe, so she knew to expect something from Jack.

“Hello, there.” He stopped at the bar near her, leaning against it.

“Hi.” Y/N responded, smiling at him.

“What is a pretty thing like you doing here all alone?”

“Just waiting.”

“For me? I thought so.” Jack replied smoothly, winking. Y/N couldn’t help but giggle at the response, it was pretty cheesy, but a good effort.

“Actually, I’m waiting for my boyfriend.” Maybe mentioning Joe, while indirectly, would put Jack off.

She was wrong.

“Must not be a very good boyfriend if he’s left you here waiting.”

“Oh, I think you’d be wrong. He’s a very good boyfriend, just running a little late tonight.”

“Hmm, not right. No one should leave someone as gorgeous as you sat here. Who’s going to keep the creeps away?” Jack leaned in closer, still smiling over at Y/N.

He’s good, She thought, But he’s not Joe.

“I can take care of myself.”

“I’m sure you can. But how about I keep you company for now?”

“And what will my boyfriend think of that?”

“See, I’m starting to think you’re just saying you have a boyfriend.”

“Why would I just say something like that?” Y/N laughed, she was having fun.

“Because every girl does that. But don’t worry, I can pretend to be your boyfriend. That way no one will bother you for the rest of the night.” Jack assured her, and she went to respond, but another voice spoke instead.


“The only one bothering her is you, mate.” Joe chuckled, appearing at Y/N’s side. He turned to look at her, smiling. “Sorry I’m late, love.”

“It’s fine. I just figured I’d get a head start on meeting your friends.” She replied, wrapping an arm around his waist as he bent down to kiss her hello.

“Wait, what?” Jack asked, looking between the two. The rest of the boys also joined them, amusement on their faces.

“Did you actually manage to hit on Joe’s girlfriend?” Oli laughed.

“I didn’t know!” Jack spluttered.

“Of all the people here, though,” Josh shook his head, “You managed to pick her.”

“At least we know he has good taste.” Y/N commented.

“That’s what I was thinking.” Joe shrugged. “Boys, this is Y/N. Y/N, these are the boys.”

“Hello.” She offered them a small wave. “And Jack,” She patted his arm, “It was a good effort.”

“But never flirt with my girlfriend again.” Joe told him seriously.

“I wouldn’t have done it in the first place if I had known!” Jack tried to defend himself, but the boys ignored him, instead choosing to introduce themselves properly to Y/N.

Personalities

Victoire is put together. She’s stunning and smart, a bit of a perfectionist, possibly even a control freak. Vic likes everything to be perfect, from her handwriting to grades to her platinum hair to the rest of her life. Her looks mean she is easily pigeon holed. Because of it, people are often surprised to find that she’s quite funny. The Victoire the world sees and the Victoire known by her family are two very different people. She’s mastered the art of showing people exactly what they want to see and projecting a certain image to manipulate their opinions. Vic is poised and sophisticated, with a penchant for designing clothes. Despite what people may think, Vic is quite self conscious and is constantly second guessing herself. She constantly feels inferior to her family, especially when she is compared to her parents, which is quite often. She survives on coffee and macaroons. Victoire isn’t always easy to approach. The glow around her is almost ethereal, which can be quite intimidating for those unused to it.

Dominique is full of contrasts. She’s the definition of confidence, but is quite insecure. She’s aloof, but craves love and friendship. Some muggleborns might describe Dominique as the Marilyn Monroe to her older sister’s Grace Kelly, and they would probably be right. Dom is fun loving and spontaneous, the life of the party, and naturally talented, even if she doesn’t apply herself in class. She’s always making mischief, skipping class, dating the cutest boys, throwing parties, or pulling the occasional prank. Dominique is quite a quidditch fan, and a pretty good chaser, as well. Like the rest of her siblings and cousins, Dominique has some trust issues. She’s quite like a wolf. She’s aloof and cautious, and tends to stick with her pack. Many of Dom’s friends are people she has known since she was young. It’s a rare occurrence for an outsider to break into Dominique’s inner circle. Dom is the girl everyone wants to be, but nobody has any idea to how to go about it. She can be harsh. In her third year at Hogwarts she earned a fearsome reputation after breaking Imogen Welch’s arm, no magic needed, for trying to push Rose into the Black Lake. Dominique is not the sort of person whose bad side you want to be on, and everyone knows it, though getting on her good side is easier said than done. Dom loves the beach, and while her sister is maybe closer to their mother, Dom is a daddy’s girl.

Louis is charming. Albus often describes him as “that surfer dick,” and it’s a pretty good description. With his curly blonde hair and eternally tan skin, Louis quite looks the part, and he often acts it as well, cool, laid back, and charming. Louis is flirtatious and a bit of a man-whore. He also loves quidditch. If he’s not hitting the beach, he’s out on the pitch, where he and Frank Longbottom II make an incredible pair of beaters. Louis makes friends easily, particularly when the people in question happen to be attracted to him, which is quite frequent. He carries quite a bit of Gryffindor pride around with him, and would fight anyone who dared insult his great house. Louis could be a straight O student if he cared enough to study. Grades were never really Louis’ priority. As along as they were high enough to keep his parents off his back, he never gave a damn. Louis did always excel in subjects with hands on approaches. Dueling was one of his better points. Louis is confident, to the point of being arrogant, and believes he can do just about anything. Many of his nights at Hogwarts were spent drinking firewhiskey down by the Black Lake and swimming with the giant squid.

James is the golden boy. Charismatic, dashing, and popular, he excels at just about everything. He possesses a rare, indescribable quality that draws people to him in crowds. Being the firstborn son of the great Harry Potter helps as well. James typically doesn’t get shy or nervous, although on exactly three occasions crushing expectations pinned on him by the entire world caused anxiety attacks. James is a very popular person, the sort that leaves everyone pining for a glimpse into his world. James wears pristine body armor crafted out of confidence, and it never fails to protect him. Even from a young age he was able to appear so perfectly, unwaveringly confident that nobody else ever really questioned his abilities. He constantly questions himself, though, never sure of what he is doing. Unlike Victoire, though, James saw it as his duty to wreak havoc upon the halls of Hogwarts alongside his cousin, Fred. James inherited the mischief gene, and is always up to something, be it rigging the Slytherins showers to spew foam instead of water or managing to levitate Filch’s mattress into the center of the lake without waking the sleeping castle caretaker. James is also a dork. He loves muggle magic tricks, even though he’s awful at them, and has a penchant for dumb puns and cheesy pickup lines. James has a love for quidditch, and killed it as a beater with Fred until he graduated. James is very protective of his siblings and cousins, whom he loves more than anything in the world, and would duel anyone who looks at Albus or Lily the wrong way. James can be quite arrogant, though this sometimes ends badly due to his clumsiness. He’s very smart, and doesn’t mind studying, though he usually does it in the library while it’s empty out of fear his friends might catch on.

Albus is laid back. He’s easy going, witty, and likable, quick to smile and easy to banter with. He’s quite charming, like his brother, but is better with words. Unlike James, Albus isn’t a star at the center of a solar system, a fixed point around which everything orbits. At least, he doesn’t think so. Albus instead stays stuck to his tight knit group of friends. The only real time he takes on the entirety of the spotlight is in a quidditch match. Albus is an incredible seeker, with fast reflexes and an innate ability for quick thinking. For the first few years of his life, Albus really struggled to find his own identity. He was always Harry Potter’s second son, and as the world fell in love with his older brother, he was James Potter’s little brother. At Hogwarts, he was known to be one of the most popular kids in school, but he didn’t break out as his own person until the summer before his seventh year, when he became the youngest seeker to ever win a World Cup, though he isn’t as quick as his older brother to embrace the limelight. He’s known to sleep around a bit, though it’d be difficult to be as infamous as his cousin Louis. Al tends to not sleep very well, and survives off of coffee. Albus is very intuitive. Out of all of his cousins, he gives the best advice. A lot of times, his slight shyness comes off as aloofness, but anyone who has spoken three words with Albus Potter knows he isn’t either of those. Instead, Albus is quite friendly, and extremely likable.. With him in the room, everybody else always looks like they’re trying too hard. He’s easy and calm, good under pressure. Albus doesn’t have much of a temper, only ever raising his voice when quidditch is on the line. He has a gift for sensing when people need advice, comfort, or silence. Despite this, he had no idea Scorpius and Rose were falling in love until they said it to his face. Albus tends to bottle up his emotions due to some trust issues caused by global fame. At times he gets annoyed with the constant fatherly comparisons, and has even avoided doing things he wanted to do simply because they were things his father did.  A common misconception about Albus is that he’s quite arrogant, like Louis or James, and he can be slightly so at times, but Albus tends to be the most grounded. He’s also loyal to a fault.

Lily is popular. She’s a solid member of the quidditch team, playing her mother’s position as chaser, and has a large array of friends. She dedicates time to her social life, studies, and quidditch, making her more well rounded, like Vic. She does have a bit of a temper, though, just like her mother. Can be a bit silly. Lily loves making people laugh, and is quite good at it. Is typically brilliant in school, but has always struggled in potions. Lily is a hard headed Gryffindor with total confidence in herself and not many fears. Lily protects her own, especially her boyfriends, since her family never seems to accept them. Lily harbors an intense hatred for reporters, just like the rest of her family. She is very social, witty, and sporty, and always enjoys a good party. She’s also very determined. When Lily sets her mind to a task, she will complete it or die trying. She’s outspoken and confident, completely unapologetic, and willing to fight anyone who hurts those she loves. Lily is fire. She’s very hands on, and would much prefer to be out doing things than sitting in a boring classroom listening to stale lectures. Lily is a people person. She remembers names and thirty second conversations, and other things most people would forget. Although she is extremely friendly, Lily can be quite critical towards people and their own reputations.

Rose is an odd mix of both of her parents. She’s beautiful and intelligent, top pf her class, but also has a great sense of humor and enjoys letting loose. She has a tendency to be the “mother” among her friends, and is definitely the responsible one, but occasionally causes a bit of trouble. Rose’s skill is just not getting caught, which is how she managed to secure her position as a prefect. Rose is kind and accepting of other people, as long as she doesn’t see them as a threat to those she loves. Rose is a thinker, always trying to figure people and situations out. This sometimes leaded to overthinking. Rose is a ton of fun at parties, where she Dominique typically kill it on the dance floor. It often irks Rose that she isn’t able to control her emotions, seeing as she’s quite a logical thinker. Typically Rose is the one trying to steer her friends on to a slightly less dangerous path. Rose is usually cool headed, but does have some of the Weasley temper. The one thing that really gets her going is being compared to her mother, something the tabloids do often. On occasion, Rose has been known to butt heads with her mother, mostly because of their similarities. Both are quite stubborn and believe themselves to always be right, which creates a vast landscape for arguments, but that isn’t to say the two are not close. Rose has a good, if not dry, sense of humor. Sometimes her two natures battle each other, the good girl and the bad girl. Typically there’s a compromise. Unlike her mother, Rose is a staunch believer in astronomy, but her imaginative beliefs tend to stop there. Rose is a coffee addict. She’s warm, witty, and very dedicated to her family.

Hugo is a bit like his father, but not much like his mother. Music has always been a passion for Hugo, though for a long time Hermione viewed it as a hobby, and not something her son should pursue as a career. Hugo is very kind. He’s good looking and sweet, very genuine. He talks to a lot of girls, but isn’t the womanizer that Louis is. Hugo’s grades have always been good, but nothing special. Really he only kept them up to keep his mom off his back. Hugo hates sitting in classrooms. It just so happen that his three cousins his age, Lily, Louis, and Lucy, all share this trait, which unified the four in their crusade to create fun at Hogwarts. Hugo has always been good at sorting out his emotions, even if he doesn’t frequently share them. As far as songwriters go, he is probably one of the best of his generation, with a natural talent for weaving together lyrics full of emotion that stick in your head for days. Hugo is also a big quidditch fan, like every other member of his family, and in his sixth year, was even convinced by Albus to finally step out on to the pitch, where he excelled. Often times, Hugo feels the need to prove himself. To Hugo, living up to his parents’ legacy is impossible, but he tries hard to prove himself nonetheless. Hugo is genuine and caring, a “good” guy who doesn’t avoid responsibilities and always does the right thing, unless, of course, the right thing is going to bed at curfew or staying out of the Forbidden Forest.

Molly is like her father, if he had a serious fun streak. She’s dorky and sweet, silly and fun to be around. Molly has never been easily embarrassed. She’s also extremely attached to her books, and can usually be found carrying around at least three at any given time. Molly loves to have fun, but usually doesn’t get into trouble. Molly is clean cut but quirky, and perhaps has more in common with her namesake than she realizes. Molly is naturally clever and curious, and was always very enthusiastic about school and studying. She loves the library. In general, Molly is very good-natured. She’s never had much of a temper, and has always handled the spotlight well. Whereas some of her family members might act out, Molly was never that sort. While she was always quite terrible on a broom, she loves watching quidditch, and gets extremely into it, as does the rest of her family. Season tickets to matches are a must. Molly tends to be quite organized and prepared for any situation. The one thing she hates most is not knowing, and not being able to prepare. That, she gets from her father. She lacks the artistic talent her younger sister possesses, but is great with words and numbers. Molly is fun loving, witty, and gets along with just about anyone, though she can be a bit tightly strung. 

Lucy is artistic. She’s always been gifted in all aspects of art, from painting to pottery to photography to singing. Lucy is friendly, though apprehensive of new people. She is very open and relaxed, and doesn’t do well with negativity. Lucy has a love for crystals, photography, and painting, and goes out of her way to make people feel comfortable. She is also good friends with many of the paintings that hang at Hogwarts, particularly the ones that are off the beaten path and tend to not get as much attention. Lucy likes to pretend she isn’t as die hard about quidditch as her family, and often teases them for their obsession, but she is equally as crazy about the sport. Lucy is happy and positive, typically all smiles and giggles, things that draw people to her. Lucy has always been mature for her age. She’s also known to be a pretty good liar, a skill she has used a couple of times to get out of hot water, usually pertaining to being out after curfew. Lucy is a vegan, and conscious of humanitarian causes, just like Hermione. This often earns her some teasing from her cousins. Lucy isn’t as uptight as her sister, or as “nerdy,” as Dominique would say, but does like reading, though she prefers muggle literature, something Hermione turned her on to. 

Roxanne is cool. She’s chill and soulful, kind to everyone but quite popular. Roxy doesn’t follow trends. She sets them. Dominique would call her “groovy.” When Roxanne was fifteen, The Quibbler began championing yoga, citing a group of monks in India who used the practice to strengthen their magic. Roxy became a massive fan. She’s also quite healthy. She and Lucy actually bonded over their veganism. Roxanne loves pottery, astronomy, the beach, music, and traveling. Roxy is always picking up teas from all over the world, as she’s a bit of an addict. While she doesn’t seek out trouble, Roxanne loves to have fun, and is quite adventurous, which did get her into some hot water during her school years. Roxy hates lying, and is a very accepting person. Judgement isn’t really her way. She’s gorgeous and cool, easily sexy, maybe even a little edgy, like Dominique, but isn’t really as aloof. Out of the bunch, Roxanne is one of the easiest to approach and strike up a conversation with. She can typically find common ground with just about anyone. Very supportive. Into humanitarian causes, just like Hermione and Lucy.

Fred is James’ second half. It’s a running joke in the family that he and James are the twins, not he and Roxanne. Fred is a lot like James in that he is adventurous, courageous, popular, and mischievous. Fred can be quite the flirt, and he has a smile that makes all the girls weak at the knees. Fred tends to be exciting and lovable. In fact, it’s hard to find a person who doesn’t like Fred Weasley. He was always extremely good at defense against the dark arts, transfiguration, and charms, but sucked at potions and herbology, and could never really be bothered with those subjects. Fred is very relaxed, and a definite foodie, much to the delight of his grandmother. Fred has a lot in common with his mother in that he is driven to succeed, at least where quidditch is concerned, competitive, blunt, and a natural born leader. 

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Squad 4 barracks office.

After finishing her patrol of the Coordinated Relief Station, kotetsu Isane returned back to the squad barracks, “I’m back~!” she called out whilst opening the door of the office.

“Wel-come w-ack w-ig sis”

The younger sister Kiyone who was grappling with piled up paperwork on the tabletop lifted her face up and replied whilst her mouth remained stuffed with suzu castella*. (*Bell shaped Japanese sponge cake)

“Oh! Eating sweets during work again!”

“It’s fine! It’s only us! I need to consume enough sugar because I use my head for paperwork”

“You did that at the 13th division too right? Without eating sweets”

"No no, the amount of paperwork at the 4th division is different! I absolutely cannot do without eating this~”

Kiyone said whilst tossing the suzu castella up into the air, catching it with her mouth before eating it. She did not stop herself from eating even as Isane chided her “Ugh! Can you not spill any sugar on the documents?”

“Oh yeah, before coming here just now, I saw Kuchiki san and Abarai kun!”

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Molly Hooper Unplugged.

Series 4 Sherlock is not what I expected. Over all, I liked it. A lot. It’s not without it’s problems though. From a viewer’s perspective that is. I’m not going to trash the writers because, in fact, I have tremendous appreciate for their creative process, intelligence and brilliance.

As with the books, the writers set out to tell us stories in similar fashion to the canon literature. John Watson is considered the narrator but, in fact, is the peripheral story-teller. Sherlock, himself, is the primary narrator. Not only that, Sherlock tells us his stories retrospectively. Meaning that from beginning to end the story has already happened. It’s done and over, with Sherlock telling us: ‘Okay, this is what went down.”

Mark Gatiss made an interesting comment once that he and Moffat write the stories from end to beginning. It’s the only way they can detail the cases, the story-line and Sherlock’s elaborate deductions. Truly, it’s a clever approach. But, and this is important, it’s also why the audience rarely receives the resolution they want, or feel they deserve. Sherlock – as the narrator – won’t say. He gives the viewer what he chooses and then leaves us to figure out the rest.

As I looked back upon every episode from the very beginning, this particular format is consistent. It also explains why there’s an abhorrent lack of Molly this season. Sherlock is her avenue and narrator, and he’s not talking. Throughout the series, there have only been two exceptions to this: The Sign of Three and His Last Vow.

The writers love Louise Brealey. They adore her and they adore Molly. Molly is introduced to the audience in ASiP with Sherlock. It’s their “meet cute” – which tells us she’s important – even though she was initially considered a one-off character. Sherlock, however, had other plans and wanted her to stick around. He’s the one who’s chosen her fate in the stories, not the writers.

I know, I know – it’s a weird and unusual way to look at this. The writers are, after all, penning this series and in charge, right? Yes, of course. At the end of the day, however, they are two of the biggest Sherlock Holmes fan boys and they have deferred many decisions to this fictional character.

So, strange as it might sound, anyone who writes stories knows there’s more than a kernel of truth in this. We might think we’re in charge of the characters we create, but really – we’re in guardianship. Sherlock is no exception to this because he’s a long established character in literary fiction.

Many years ago, the ground-breaking television series, The X-Files, elucidated this fact (in an extreme way) with an episode called, Milagro. The writer, Phillip Padgett, experiences his character come to life, who creates all sorts of murderous mayhem.

When you eliminate the impossible, whatever remains, however improbable, must be truth.”

Fox Mulder used that exact quote from Sherlock Holmes in the Milagro episode to convince his FBI partner, Dana Scully, that this is exactly what was happening.

So, if anyone, besides myself, is wondering why we’re not seeing Molly all that much – it’s because of Sherlock. At the same time, he also gives us wonderful clues (because that’s what he does) as to why this is and what happened. All we have to do is observe and don his methods of deductions.

This, by the way, will have little to do with sub-text. That’s a very different animal. Instead, we have to infer and make some logical leaps based upon the evidence given. To be honest, this has been part of the fun of watching Sherlock. But, it can also be frustrating, exhaustive, and even disheartening, when viewers aren’t given any kudos for figuring things out, or for even trying. That does, in my opinion, lie within the hands of the writers. After all, they do have creative latitude.

There are two things that left me saying ‘Huh?’ regarding Molly in series 4.

Her diminished presence.

Her strong resistance to say, ‘I Love You.’

For me to understand, I did a cursory review of Molly’s history, which isn’t hard. Especially as there’s this infuriating, ongoing belief with journalists, casual and not-so-casual viewers, that Molly’s emotional hesitancy in saying ‘I Love You’ to Sherlock is somehow the result of a bizarre form of post-trauma from season one.

Nothing could be further from the truth. Molly / Sherlock ‘shippers’ (and I’m one) know this because we’re not simply watching a television show, we’re observing all the nuances of what’s presented / not presented, that others either don’t see, choose not to see, or believe unimportant.

First, I want to lay the basis that Molly’s “unrequited” love for Sherlock has not remained an issue since A Scandal In Belgravia (s2e1). Nor has she been mocked or ridiculed by Sherlock over her affection for him. The opposite of this is true and also shown.  

Beginning with The Reichenbach Fall, Sherlock and Molly have grown closer and share an intimacy that none of the other characters are made privy. It’s not romantic intimacy, that we know of, but a deeply valued and trusted friendship.

Sherlock turns to Molly in one of his greatest moments of need. She becomes his confidant at a time when things are, quite frankly, frightening for him. Molly, along with a host of others, help Sherlock plan his demise. Her role, as Sherlock later reveals, was not only invaluable, but that she is the one person who mattered the most. Whether his comment is based on the Moriarty deal, or a commentary about how he now views her, it doesn’t really matter. What this scene from The Empty Hearse showed viewers is that Molly and Sherlock have grown. Their relationship dynamics have shifted to a new dance. There’s more than a hint of attraction from both, and whether or not you want to ‘friend-zone’ them, the sentiment still stands: they hold a palpable love for one another.  

Viewers are also made aware in this episode that Molly has “moved on” and engaged to a guy who is a distorted facsimile of Sherlock’s physical characteristics. We think that scene is about Molly and it is – but it’s also about Sherlock. The look on his face when he meets Tom is priceless.

Sherlock has never dealt very well when confronted with Molly’s involvement with other men. It’s not sub-text or speculation…it’s shown. Given the fact this man lives in a state of emotional infancy, especially during The Great Game, he might not really understand why he viciously cock-blocked Jim-from-IT-Moriarty, angering / embarrassing Molly in the process.

He does learn, however. Otherwise, he’s not a very good genius.

I’m not sure why it’s hard to understand that series 3 Molly is not harboring unrequited love. Sherlock is. Yes, it’s a strange sort of love because he represses his emotions and impulses, I’ll grant you. He doesn’t show it overtly, but it’s there.

The tables have been flipped on Sherlock, because although his seeping emotions are masked behind logic and rationalism, or ridiculous excuses – he’s actually the one seeking out Molly.

Molly keeps him on his toes by her openness and authenticity. She even shared that she’s having quite a bit of sex, which really does blow the gasket in his Vulcan mind. He has no idea how to process this info. Ironically, her words are sort of a call back to his from The Great Game, when he’s having a hissy fit and tells John he’s not interested in the solar system, or who’s having sex with who. Molly’s having sex, Sherlock. Does it need mentioning that their romantic involvements have always mirrored one another, too?

Sherlock does find a way to get in another deliberate, but very subtle cock-block regarding Molly’s fiancé during John and Mary’s reception. Of course it bothered her, somewhat. She wasn’t devastated or traumatized over the fact that Sherlock just showed her, again, that her choice in men will always be woefully inadequate compared to him. She’s really rather proud of him in this episode, and swooning a bit.

Truthfully, both Molly and Sherlock have some version of brainiac jealousy / possessiveness going on, but still, Molly adores him, OPENLY, by the way. She’s not hiding it.

All of this gels to demonstrate that Molly’s emotional 180 in The Final Problem over saying ‘I love you’ is NOT because she’s been sitting around for seven years, crying in margaritas over this guy.

It’s about something else entirely. The timeline between TSoT and His Last Vow hold the answer. Something happened between them that came very close to destroying their relationship. Sherlock gives us a few clues in HLV. First, there’s this:

“How dare you throw away the beautiful gifts you were born with. And how dare you betray the love of your friends. Say you’re sorry!”

“Sorry you’re engagement’s over, although fairly grateful for the lack of a ring.”

Great dialogue! Especially if we’re looking through Sherlock’s eyes and know he’s been staying at her beautiful home, which we find out later on. This bit of info comes from Molly, when she breaks the fourth wall of television by interacting with viewers directly.

We can take Molly’s scolding of Sherlock at face value. He’s using (drugs) and by doing so letting down his friends and himself. Bad Sherlock.

I believe, however, this is more than chastising Sherlock for reckless behavior. The following, by the way, is about subtext, because that’s where we have to look and infer. Subtext, while a valid form of information, can be a dangerous little guy, because we project based upon our individual filters and desires. It’s important to keep this in mind when inferring possibilities.

I’m also not being dismissive of drug use, at all, but attempting to fill the blanks that currently hold cognitive dissonance based upon everything we’ve been show up until now. We went from HappyMolly and HappySherlock to ‘what-the-hell-is-going-on’?

Clearly, whatever it is, it’s origin lies in love and betrayal. And, other than in Sherlock’s mind palace after being shot – we only see Molly one more time, when she tells us about her bedroom as Sherlock’s bolt hole.

His Last Vow ends without any resolution between the two. Or so we believe.

But, I’ll get back to this.

There’s head canons and fanfic to fill in the missing gaps of HLV, but The Abdominal Bride does a great job at summing things up in a nutshell.

This episode, in which Sherlock sets about solving 121 year old murder case from the Victorian era, is about the long-lasting consequences of using, objectifying, misleading, abusing, disparaging and basically the all around diminished and misogynistic treatment of women.  

There’s also quite a bit of symbology wrapped up in Sherlock’s psychedelic trip. He’s solving a crime from another century, but he’s still got his Scooby gang by his side. They’re all consistent with their modern, present day counterparts, filling the same functions and roles when Sherlock isn’t following Alice down the rabbit hole.

With the exception of Molly.

The role of a pathologist / medical examiner was not typically filled by a woman in this era. As a result, Molly has to be concealed as a man. Perfectly reasonable. What’s different, however, is the relationship between she and Sherlock. It’s cold, if not a bit derisory and bitter.

John’s role is interesting regarding Molly because it’s not John, but instead Sherlock’s projection. Victorian John tells ‘Dr Hooper’ that he’s not Sherlock’s puppy, that he can see through her disguise and sympathizes with what one has to do to be recognized in the world.

We can take that conversation at face value. It is what it is. But, maybe it’s worth considering that this might also be Sherlock’s conscience seeping through, imprinting itself on the state of affairs between he and Molly. In Sherlock’s words, John is a “romantic” - he sees things Sherlock can’t - so there is some validity with the idea that he might need John’s ‘eyes’ to see his way through this. To see Molly past the façade of anger and self-protection. I’m sure there are other great interpretations.

From a symbolic perspective, TAB was Sherlock reconciling, or at least beginning to make amends to Molly (as well as other women he’s used: Janine).

Now is where speculation comes in regarding the timeline between TSoT, HLV and TAB.

Let’s say Sherlock was using Molly’s home as a bolt hole. Maybe not the first time, so he likes it, and it gives him the space and privacy to work on the Magnussen case. If this is true, it’s probably because it’s too complicated for him to work at Baker St, especially as he’s fake wooing Janine to get to her boss.

The other thing that’s taking place is that he’s using. How often and how much is unsure, but he did look pretty strung out at the hospital. And, when Sherlock uses, he’s a very different person.

Molly and Janine mirror one another, although Sherlock’s feelings, thoughts and opinions toward each are drastically different.

Dependent upon when Sherlock began using Molly’s home, if he’s using her home (he does have other bolt holes) – she might still be engaged to Tom. It’s conjecture, but she probably is. Sherlock tells John that he’s been fake dating Janine for a month, which means this started almost immediately after the wedding.

Realistically, I don’t think anyone expected the engagement between M/T to last, but it doesn’t mean Molly wasn’t sincere or didn’t love him. So, Sherlock’s presence and the use of her home – especially her bedroom, a space that implies intimacy - is bound to inflict some legitimate strain on a relationship that’s already falling apart.

Any number of scenarios could have played out. Tom might have given Molly an ultimatum? M/T might have decided to take a time-out? Guess away.  

Sherlock might be influencing Molly through subtle means to end her engagement. He might turn up the charm and possibly – in one way or another – woo her as well. Maybe lead her to believe something was possible between them? Which he might consider true, at some point. He doesn’t want her with other men, but won’t allow a proper resolution to their attraction. His use of drugs could make it easier for him to make those personality / conscience shifts necessary to do what he’s doing.

If this happened, and there’s nothing to say it did – just using TAB as a blueprint since Molly was included with the ‘brides’ – it really is unconscionable on his part. Although, and this is NOT in any way an excuse of his behavior – his superiority and arrogance did slap him hard - because he actually cares and loves Molly, so his potential motivations with her are very different than with Janine. Knowing this does not make it better or right. He’s taking drugs - he’s in ‘the Game Is On’ mode and not making good decisions.

Perhaps Molly found out about Janine and they had a chat? Yeah, it’s a bit soap opera-ish – but how else would Janine know Sherlock used her? John? Magnussen? She was very quick with her ‘for profit’ revenge plan. More than likely Magnussen told her…he enjoys the suffering of others.

However she found out, Molly would have confronted Sherlock. Sherlock might not have shown any remorse for using someone as a ‘means to an end’ (Janine), while attempting to deduce Molly by saying her LOVE for Tom was equally specious. He did say, during his best man speech, that All emotions, and in particular love, stand opposed to the pure, cold reason I hold above all things.” We know this isn’t entirely true, and he knows it as well. But, if he attempted to make a point to Molly about her actions, as a parallel to his, all while HIGH, wow – it crashed and burned.

I’m not saying this is what happened. Just tossing out the idea. But, it does make the M/S hospital scene even more poignant. It’s their break-up fight.

If Sherlock did any of this, it would be hard to forgive. Molly would have to dig really deep inside her to make a journey back as his friend. Their relationship is fractured and rests on a precariously balanced fulcrum. Betrayal by love is a huge theme in His Last Vow.

There are two external events, which help pull them back into each other’s orbit.

Sherlock is shot. Sherlock murders Magnussen.

I’m sure this would help soften Molly, in as much as tragedy can put things into perspective very quickly. Being deeply wounded by someone you love doesn’t mean you stop loving them – although it’s possible. Maybe the time between being shot and killing Magnussen Sherlock made a sincere effort to make amends with her? I imagine he would, but their relationship has been severely strained and Molly keeps clear distance.

I’m really, really, really speculating on this one – but, maybe Mary reached out to Molly as someone to lean on? We never see these two interact (other than the christening) which is a shame. There is, however, an ever-so-slight seed that might suggest Mary’s involvement, which we got in TAB. Mary is the one who discovers the brides. And, Mary is put on the case by Mycroft. So, maybe Mycroft knows there’s been a fall-out. Again, sounds like a twisted sort of soap opera – but there’s some precedence for this, too.

Mycroft knows Molly. She was a the most significant person in TRF plan. We’ve also seen him request her assistance at the morgue prior to this (ASiB). Who knows. What we do know, is that when Sherlock uses and comes off drugs – Mycroft calls in as many resources as possible. If there is a fracture between Molly and Sherlock, it will be seen as a risk, which requires a fix. Mary could help with this. Furthermore, in TAB, Mycroft tells Sherlock this is a war (women) he (they) must lose. Meaning, Sherlock fucked up. Big time. He’s got to set it right.

Some headway is made, because the bride scene in TAB shows Sherlock acknowledging his mistakes and remorse. We then see where the relationship is left between M/S with two words: “Hooper / Holmes.”  

They can face each other, be in the same room, but it’s chilly.

Series 4 reflects this in Molly’s absence as well as her presence. But, she and Sherlock will continue to be pulled together through more external events.

They are Rosamund Watson’s godparents and on speaking terms.

They are also hit with a devastating, irretrievable blow: Mary’s death. This, along with profound grief, is enough to set aside any personal differences to come together and focus on the needs of others. Even though Sherlock takes himself to ‘hell and back.’

Molly speaks with Sherlock in TLD, and even acquiesces to his request for an ambulance. Molly does this on faith - she really doesn’t know what’s going on. There’s still an edge between them. He’s using, she’s stressed, he’s dying. She’s agreed to do her part in watching Sherlock through his withdrawal days, and meets he and John for birthday cake.

Concessions are being made.

Now we come to The Final Problem, where Molly is Sherlock’s third task. He has to get her to say I Love You, but their relationship remains somewhat perfunctory and cool. A lot of water has passed under their bridge and blind trust has not been established.

If anything remotely took place between them such as the above – whoa – it’s no surprise why this scene went down the way it did.

It also makes sense of Molly’s words: “Leave me alone.” “Why are you making fun of me?” “You know why.” “Of course you do.”

There’s two different events taking place that cause an intense emotional build-up and break-down between these two characters.

Molly is unable to push down her stress and sorrow any longer. It’s risen to the surface. There’s been too much, in a short amount of time, and something’s gotta give. We see her ignore Sherlock, which is an eye-opener for him, and even when she does answer her phone she’s direct and not interested in idle chit-chat.

Sherlock’s stress is mounting too. By virtue of Eurus’s game and the previous month’s events. He needs to ask something of Molly that he knows won’t be received well. Even if he tries to convince himself otherwise and feign ignorance.

It was a life or death moment from Sherlock’s perspective, but a ‘push come to shove’ for Molly. Both of them went through an emotional vivisection. Still, they said I love you and it was sincere and authentic.

At the end of that scene, however, neither one knows the consequences of this event. It’s not a happy moment, but instead filled with uncertainty and possibly more loss. Sherlock killed a coffin. Molly looks absolutely forlorn.

The ending montage is disappointingly neglectful of resolution. This is where the writers could have used a more creative latitude – more than .3 seconds of Molly’s happy smile. At least it was nice to get that, but gees, really?

If we’re looking at this from Sherlock’s point of view – Molly is happy. More than happy – she’s vibrant. Personally speaking, I can’t see any reason Molly would be presented this way had she and Sherlock not achieved some satisfactory relationship understanding regarding romantic love.

My heels aren’t dug in the sand regarding the above. I am truly open to other interpretations. For now, though, this was my exercise in explaining what wasn’t explained. She might be an insane murdering psychopath and brilliant beyond Newton, but Eurus was right when she said - context is everything.

Ell: Umm… Since they’re my friends, I won’t be too harsh. Let’s see…

Ell: Matilda is… She’s really something… I find her sometimes become way too obsessed about her looks and sometimes, she just won’t stop talking about the cute guys she likes. Its annoying but she’s really sweet, though. I think she’s really good at cheering up all of us.

Ell: Now, Tamara is actually really fun to hang out with! When she isn’t causing trouble, that is. Sometimes, she just doesn’t think and starts arguing (with Tori especially) and getting angry for nothing. Its irritating. I do like going to the movies and playing video games with her every now and then, though. 

Ell: Now, Tori is pretty cool. She has the resting bitch face but she’s actually really kind and offers good advice when I need it. Also, I can appreciate how she doesn’t retaliate when Tamara starts dragging her in an argument. She’s kinda easy-going. Sometimes, though, I wish she’d express her feelings more often. She’s pretty quiet at times. 

Ell: My friends are kinda weird but I love them anways. Friendship can be complicated.