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Bee’s Modest Art Arsenal

I made a comprehensive list of all the stuff I typically use to make art as of right now. It’s not meant to be an end-all-be-all for art supplies by any means, just… stuff I like! And it’s largely affordable whenever possible, yay!!! Some of my favorite art products I find completely on accident or in unlikely places so never be afraid to give it a shot if it calls to you! My list is under the cut, and ofc, all photos are not mine and used purely for educational purposes.

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echosonata781  asked:

Before I say anything. Amazing job on the mafia au. I truly feel happy to know there's something interesting like this on the internet. Keep it up! What I really wanted to say though is that I found it hilarious. The fact that poor Vitya is so worried about his face for his date with Yuuri. Again good job I just wanted to say that. Since you really helped my day improve. (/♡\)

Thank you! :D
It makes me so happy you like the AU ;w;
Like, the attention it’s gotten still blows my mind so much!!!
But, pffff, I know what you mean XD
OF ALL THINGS FOR VICTOR TO BE ANGRY ABOUT
A MARK ON HIS BEAUTIFUL FACE BEFORE HIS DATE IS APPARENTLY THE GREATEST OFFENSE
And I’m glad it was able to make your day even a little bit better ;A;

super detailed blogrates!

I’m so close to my next hundred and I don’t even know how this can be possible, I really want to thanks all my followers who keep following me even though I’m such a weirdo girl omg

because of this, I would like to make these blogrates <3

RULES

  • must be following this weird blogger
  • reblog this post please
  • send me an ask with either your fav character or your fav show, or how your day has been so far!
  • check out my icons maybe?

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anonymous asked:

Terushima Yuuji with a bf aka S/O thats generally cool and suave, but is so weak to Teru's tongue piercing, like a simple kiss with it and Yuuji might as well be able to commit murder and get away with it. Also bf low-key wants him to get nipple piercings MAYBE even a dic one he's iffy on that though.

I just, I can’t resist writing this omfg - Hope


With a boyfriend with such high energy people were surprised that (Y/N) could even keep up with him at times. (Y/N) was a chill and very laid back kind of guy which is probably why the two worked so well together. Yet although that (Y/N) was so laid back he also had his moment where he couldn’t just melt in Yuuji’s hands. 

Terushima usually just ate lunch with the team and (Y/N) didn’t really ever feel like sitting with his over enthusiastic boyfriend when he could relax and catch up with some new manga and listen to music while he enjoyed his lunch. 

Yuuji knew very well what he could do to his boyfriend and how he could get him so worked up with just a single kiss. Ever since he got his tounge piercing it definitely added so much more to his ‘bad boy look’ even though he wasn’t anything like that. 

Terushima walked into his boyfriend’s homeroom and took out the earphones that were in his ears. (Y/N) sighed putting down his food before looking over at a grinning Terushima.

“Yes Yuuji?” He asked but before he could even take another breath Terashima pressed his lips on his boyfriends. (Y/N)’s eyes widened as Terushima slipped his tounge inside of his mouth. (Y/N) began to blush like a madman melting at the feeling of that silver ball that was on his boyfriend’s tounge. It probably wasn’t the best idea for Terushima to just start to make out with his boyfriend because yes it did have risks, but for the most part he didn’t care.

“Yu-Yuuji.” (Y/N) moaned as Terushima pulled away from his aggressive kiss. “Damn it you can’t just do that to me, give me a little prep time would you?” (Y/N) complained rubbing at his temples his face probably still a light pink. 

“You know you love it.” Terushima smirked resting his arm down on (Y/N)’s desk. 

“But at school really? You couldn’t wait till we got back to my house?” (Y/N) asks leaning back in his chair glaring up at Terushima.

“No I couldn’t, I mean the locker room is always open.” He teases and (Y/N) shoves him away as the bell rings. 

“Go back to class you dumbass.” He says rolling his eyes picking up his book. As Terushima presses a kiss to his cheek. 

“See you after practice.” He waves walking out of (Y/N)’s classroom. 

anonymous asked:

Oh! What's are your original characters?

I’m trying to keep things somewhat secret before the real introduction that I’ll be doing at some point in the future, but here’s a super vague rundown of the cast as it looks at the moment! Things might change as I write, but this is what I’m planning right now.

The protagonist is a young lady trying to piece her life together after depression stole the first four of her teenage years.

One of her closest allies is a child who wants to grow up to save the world, even though he doesn’t really think anyone can do it. The other is a more pragmatic morally gray figure determined to make the best of things the way they are, in her own not super legal way.

There’s an evil princess who keeps her lands shrouded in darkness to keep out an even bigger threat than her own merciless self.

A dollmaker creates living clay soldiers in her crystal fortress and sells them off to highest bidder. Highest bidder is always the princess, one of her appointed dukes, or the rogue lizard king of the mountains.

One girl was planning on running away from a broken home with her best friend to start a new life before The Plot separated them, and she will not stop before the two of them are reunited. No matter the cost.

Another girl is looking for the power to cross the world all on her own.

Another transforms into a hideous beast just for the chance to have a family.

There’s a boy in a tower who owns a magic violin that heals the wounds of all who hear it, and he stands on his balcony every night playing it, just in case. He’ll never know how many lives he’s saved.

There’s something in the sky. It’s not friendly.

There’s something in the dark too. It might not be unfriendly.

And there’s a mysterious archer in the woods hellbent on taking down every single character on this list if it’s the last thing she does.

There are more characters than this, but these are the most finished ones.

anonymous asked:

Opinions on toddler harness/leashes? I found a really cute one that's a stuffed animal that looks like it's hugging your back, and the "leash" is the tail of the animal. I'm hoping my toddler will enjoy it cause she hates the stroller and wants to walk with her brother. I'm kinda scared that'll make me look shitty though.

I think if it’s something you need, go for it. I haven’t used one on my kids because we haven’t had any problems with keeping them close or in a stroller. But I keep hearing stories around my area (at the mall, specifically) about kids getting kidnapped, and most of those kids were running around no where near their parent. That to me is very scary. I know some people look down on it, but they aren’t the ones looking out for your kids. I did see a mom once using one for her daughter and the way she would pull on the “leash” like she was a dog or something, that’s when it bothered me. She is not an animal, she is a child. There is no need to be pulling her in like that, ya know.

Anyways, I think they are fine. They keep your kid close to you and safe, you never know.

Anyone else have opinions on this?

anonymous asked:

hi! i love youre art and i myself draw for fun all the time, and im even getting my first drawing tablet (a huion h420) this week and i wanted to ask if you would think it would be a good idea to start up my own ask blog. my style is pretty simple but everyone says its adorable, though im not sure i even have a chance in this community. should i at least try or should i just continue keeping my art to myself?

DO IT- honestly having an ask blog is just really fun and you get to meet tons of amazing people. I think that you’d do just fine especially if you have a cute yet simple style~

anonymous asked:

I'm somewhat new to kpop and bts has caught my attention. In a span of almost a month I can honestly say that I am pretty much obsessed. NamJoon is my bias and Yoongi is my bias wrecker. I just really wanted to let you know how much I love you and everything. I also want to let you know that everything you post makes me absurdly happy and makes me love bts even more. Keep doing you cause your the only you and you're fantastically amazing. Sorry I'm being weird

This is not weird at all! Thank you so much for these words! 😍😍💞💞💞 i’m more than happy to know that i can spread love for bts though my posts 😄💞

Originally posted by bangtan-boys-daily

The boys, are here.. 🖤
More fun facts about the Punk Band AU! Levi is a solo artist and Lucky is his roadie. They tour with Andre’s band, Ded Batteryz. Gosh… and Everyone is CUTE. But we already knew that, huh? They are good punky boys and they flirt and smooch. Though Lucky TRIes to keep it Professional! For. A little while..

Darla shared a few lil sketches of their au design for Lucky with me over chat, and I really wanted to draw him with some of the group! He got cute tattoos. :3c (okay ok and I wanted to draw the tongue piercing..) Plus, I’ve always wanted to draw Punk Levi! He’s been designed separately for a while now.
(Punk designs are my one weakness..)

As always,, Lucky and Levi are @duck-n-clover’s ocs!

anonymous asked:

I'm so sorry I don't support your writing as much as I used to. I still love it. Your writing is great. I just don't like yoi. I can't help it. I'm sorry. Please keep writing what you love and what brings you joy. I'm not here to tell you to stop writing yoi. I'm only here to say I'm sorry I can't support it as much. Keep writing and keep being wonderful. Even though I can't show my support via reblogging I still support you mentally and wish you all the best

2/2 I’m sorry I really didn’t mean to be rude. I really mean for you to write and reblog and post what you want and please enjoy yoi and enjoy writing! I hope my previous message wasn’t rude. I really don’t mean to be. I enjoy your blog and your posts and your writing and discourses. Just yoi isn’t really my thing. But I don’t mean to be rude to those who like it.


Um, you’re not being rude in the slightest and if you don’t like YoI then I don’t blame you or anyone at all for not reading. I love Haikyuu and Yoi and yet I’m really not going to read every story because sometimes I just don’t happen to like ship, or the premise of the story.

I really should apologise to anyone who I’ve given this impression to. I’ve been very down on myself recently, and it’s affecting my writing and online experience, but I never wanted it to sound like a ‘why aren’t you reading my stuff?’ type of whinge. It really should not matter the reception I receive, and I have to take responsibility for my feelings about ‘validation’ rather than expecting something I’ve liked writing to be well received and catapult me into stardom (okay, last bit is really over-dramatic, but you get my meaning.) 

Regarding YoI, I don’t actually think my stories have been particularly good. I haven’t written anything that I think comparable with Zephyrus (iwaoi, hq) or Veils (Jily, hp), for instance. I’ve liked writing most of them, but the last drabble was something I forced myself to write, and I think that came through because it was clunky. I’ve deleted because I felt it was shit, that was all. I might keep some of it and put into another story, you never know. 

I guess what I’m missing at the moment is that real compulsion and joyfulness that I used to have all the time, and now only have in patches, when it comes to writing. Or that intensity, which I can’t describe as ‘joy’ but makes something important to me. (But then again, I had rl issues so writing was an escape) 

I wrote a story about Ennoshita and Sorting after the ShimmyTsukki poster, and I honest to god have never laughed so much writing an hq fic. The only comparable time was a Percy Weasley fic I wrote once which took me half an hour and still makes me giggle. Other fics have affected me differently, literally making me cry in the case of one or two, even if I know how they’ll end, and they tend to be the ones that I desperately want ppl to like but are also the ones that show I’m kind of out of step as they’re not enjoyed by the set of ppl I think will like them. There’s also the point that I’ve written too much, and I should probably become like Sherlock and update something every three years *insert laughy/crying emoji here* 

Uhm, anyway, that’s kind of beside the point, and I’m sorry I’m using your messages to expound on the subject but this is very cathartic. 

You have nothing at all to apologise for, anon. Read what you want and what you enjoy, and don’t feel you have to read something by anyone because you might have once liked something they wrote. 

Thank you for messaging me. xxx

atomicounty  asked:

i just wanted to say that even though your sim aren't my style, i love them a lot. you really encouraged me to make my sims the way i wanna make them instead of trying to make them "pretty" ya know what i mean? and i love the uniqueness of your sims so much ): so keep it up <3

Ohh, thank you! <3 That’s really sweet! I can’t believe I encouraged someone to actually be themselves. Awwh! You be you! Don’t let the community pressure you to make the same Kardashian style sims. Make them the way YOU want them! <333

Originally posted by realitytvgifs

So the lady I’ve been dating is very awesome and very lovely and fun to be around, but we see each other once a week and I feel like it’s like 80% me who sets stuff up to hang out even though she def wants to. But being an ~anxious mess~ I cannot let someone in until I’m sure they really like me, and I am not at all used to getting to know someone so slowly and so little. She doesn’t text much and I’m generally pretty chatty, and it’s not easy for me to balance when I feel like I get so little from her. Lol I don’t want to care enough that it bothers me, but I keep kind of drifting and wanting to see other people but feeling like I shouldn’t.

Idk what to do really. I have kinda tried to talk to her about it and it made things a little better, but I’m still stuck here every couple weeks like… does she really want to see me? Or should I find someone else who is more enthusiastic?

But then she says stuff like she really likes spending time with me and sends cute emojis and says that we should actually make out sometime 😂😂 So I really just don’t know at all.

Screaming into the void. Probably. Whatever

Seriously though, what is happening in here? What is it with the blocking issues?!
I keep discovering that I am being blocked by all kinds of fandom people and I am just sitting here, staring at the screen and thinking “why, what did I do?!”
I get it that not everyone likes the same things and wants to see some stuff on their dashes, but why block someone who didn’t do or direct anything offensive to you personally? I mean it is not like if I follow someone they have to follow back. I want to see and maybe reblog their stuff, this is why I follow, they don’t have to like my stuff…
And also if my description and my views of things do maybe not fit someone, still I do not shove it into anyones faces or start a discussion about it and the other persons views. Also I would really understand it all more if I participated in discussion or the likes of it, but I do not… so…
And I hopefully am known as a generally positive and cheerful and open-minded person about a lot of stuff and ships or non-ships, so what gives people who look at my blog reasons to block me and why? What do I not understand here?
Sorry for waffling thank you for coming to my TED talk

solarisnerds  asked:

25 and 27 for the SWTOR ask thing ;) which ever oc you'd like <3

Thank you for the ask! I went with Odinin.
25. Do they have any deep dark secrets?

Visual hallucinations. They’re one of the main reasons Odinin meditates so much, to keep them from happening. Moments of severe stress or sadness can trigger the occurrences, and they’re always emotionally and physically draining. No one knows about them but her, and she doesn’t want to worry anyone with them. It’s really her only secret. The Barsen’thor is a very open person.

27. Do they have any regrets?

She tries to live without regrets, and for the most part, succeeds. Though in her youth, abandoning Pillisix when she obviously needed a moral anchor was a vital mistake. She was forced to watch as her friend slipped farther into her greed and callousness, and though she did come around to redeem herself, the events left deep wounds. 

Act 1 Update

Hey everyone, Cohen here, creative director and head writer for Hiveswap. Hopefully you’re reading this after watching the new trailer. If you haven’t watched it, go watch it. If you have watched it, go watch it again. It doesn’t cost anything, and, more importantly, no one can stop you.

OK, now you’re back. Wow. Wasn’t that dynamite? I agree.

Anyway, just wanted to give you a quick rundown on the status of Hiveswap: Act 1. We’re very, very excited about

THE GAME: The game is good, folks. It’s gorgeous, and fun, and the music is outstanding, and people say it’s pretty funny, too? We’ll see! All that’s thanks to

THE TEAM: We’ve got a great team full of outrageously skilled people, and over the next few weeks we’re going to be talking to them here about the work they’ve done for Hiveswap: Act 1. If you’ve wondered, possibly aloud, possibly at length, about why we haven’t done more of that before, it’s because they’ve been too busy doing all that work! Busy, busy bees with no time for chatter.

It’s a practice that is potentially frustrating for fans, though, which is why we’re going to be parting the curtain a little more. Because, of course, what you really want at this moment is for me to

SAY MORE ABOUT THE GAME, IDIOT: Right! So, the game is nearly done. It’s taken us a while, but we’re committed to bringing you the game you deserve, even if it means delivering it later than you deserved it. Some things take longer to implement or polish than we anticipate, but our intent is not to mislead you. I promise. We want to keep you in the loop as much as we can.

But…it’s a difficult juggling act for us. We’re trying to make a game that is fun, funny, and beautiful, and we haven’t compromised on quality in order to get it out quicker. On the other hand, we DO want to talk to you about how it’s going! On yet a third hand (or maybe back to the first hand, now hidden behind my back), we’re also committed to not spoiling every mystery the game has before you actually get to play it. These interviews we’ll be doing are our way of striking the balance between these three hands (possibly two hands, with one in flux).

The next time you hear a release date from us, it’ll be because the game is about to launch. In the meantime, we thank you, one last time, for your continued patience and understanding.

Take creators stepping in and dismissing fan theories and interpretations of their works with a grain of salt. This is a lesson I learned early, from Anne “my vampires aren’t gay and also I might sue you” Rice. 

During the peak of my Vampire Chronicles love, I – at that time, a very petty fifteen-year-old –  set out to underline every single really queer moment in the whole series. Spite aside, I quickly realized that in a series where the protagonist runs away to Paris with clearly his violinist boyfriend, and convinces his next super angsty obviously boyfriend to MAKE A VAMPIRE CHILD WITH HIM to keep said angsty boyfriend from leaving, this was easier said than done. 

I mean, she’s not fully wrong – Lestat’s not gay, he’s very bisexual. Louis and Nicki are both hella gay, though. 

Anyway, I’ve meandered. The point is – creators can say wildly inaccurate things about their works sometimes. Anne Rice went Christian and didn’t want her books to be SUPER FUCKING QUEER anymore. Creators’ views on what they’ve made can change over the years. You never fucking know. 

Dear you

Hi…it’s me I know you don’t care to listen to anything I have to say but I have so many things on my mind, so many questions.

Could we just rewind our time together and pause at the exact moment where we went wrong. or where I went wrong?

I can’t sleep without thinking, what did I do so wrong to make you hate me or love me less? What happened to us against the world? now it’s you against me..

Please tell me why you can’t stand to hear my name or treat it like it  is a forbidden word in your secret language in which I thought I understood but these days it has become questionable.

Do you remember the promise we made to one another? the one about never leaving each other behind? well I guess that was nothing more than a phrase to you which had no meaning to you but did you know it meant everything to me?

I cried every single day helplessly begging for you to just reach out to me or throw me a life jacket but instead you abandon me and left to drown because I couldn’t keep myself afloat.

Call me naïve but I really believed you were on my side, call me pathetic for thinking you truly loved me. call me whatever you want but just know despite the bitterness you were the sweetest love I ever knew.

Hey….I know you remember me because you told me you will never forget me but I hope you remember me as the only one who loved every part of you even though you tore me apart and left me with emptiness in my heart and soul.

One last thing please love the next person the way you couldn’t love me, you at least owe them that.

sincerely
me

—  Tenari Ioapo Excerpt from a book I may write.

I AM SO OVERWHELMED BY THE FEELINGS IN MY HEART RIGHT NOW. MY TINY HEART IS TOO TINY FOR THIS NONSENSE LIKE WHAT IN THE FUCK

EMMA IS MAKING FUCKING PANCAKES

IN A ROBE AND WE ALL FUCKING KNOW WHAT HAPPENED THE NIGHT BEFORE WHILE KILLIAN WALKS UP BEHIND HER IN AN UNBUTTONED VEST WHICH LBR IS BASICALLY HIM BEING NAKED LIKE THE NUMBER OF LAYERS ON THIS MAN AT ALL TIMES IS ABSURD BUT LIKE

THIS IS TOO MUCH. I CANNOT LOOK DIRECTLY AT IT.

THIS IS LIKE THE FUCKING SUN. I AM BLINDED BY THE JOY AND THE HAPPINESS AND THE CONTENTMENT AND THE WAY HE’S GRINNING INTO HER SKIN AND THE WAY SHE BITES HER LIP. THIS IS AHHHHHHHHH MAKE IT STOP

AND SHE LIKE FUCKING POUNCES ON HIM AND HER HANDS DON’T FUCKING STOP MOVING AND HER LIPS ARE SO INSISTENT AND 

SHE KEEPS FUCKING PULLING HIM CLOSER AND CLOSER AND WHAT T H E F U C KKKKK I CANNOT HANDLE THIS EVEN A LITTLE

ALSO CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW WILD HER HAIR IS? SHE CLEARLY JUST WOKE UP AND CAME DOWN TO MAKE THEM BOTH PANCAKES BECAUSE THEY MUST BE STARVING AND HE GOT DRESSED HALF WAY AND CAME DOWN TO FIND HER WHEN HE SMELLED ALL THE NICE THINGS AND THEN HE SEES HER WITH HER HAIR ALL WILD AND HER FACE ALL FRESH AND GLOWY AND HAPPY AND WHO CAN BLAME HIM FOR WANTING TO KISS HER OK?

OK BUT WHAT KILLS ME THE DEADEST IS THAT SHE PULLS AWAY JUST SO SHE CAN LOOK AT HIM. CLEARLY SHE WANTS TO KEEP KISSING HIM BUT IN THAT MOMENT, SHE NEEDS SO SEE HIS FACE, TO SEE AGAIN HOW MUCH HE LOVES HER AND WHAT SHE HAS NOW AND I CANNOT LOOK AT HIS SMILE THIS IS TOO MUCH *SHIELDS EYES*

GUYS, GUYS, GUYS. I THINK SHE LOVES HIM.

AND I THINK HE LOVES HER.

SHE’S SO FUCKING HAPPY AND SHE LOOKS SO YOUNG HERE AND SO HAPPY AND IN LOVE AND SHE LOVES HIM SO MUCH OMG

HE CAN’T BELIEVE IT EITHER BECAUSE WHO WOULD HAVE FUCKING THOUGHT RIGHT? 

AND THEN SHE’S LIKE FUCK WAIT MUST GET BACK TO THE KISSING. HE’S SO GOOD AT THE KISSING. MUST TOUCH SOFT LIPS AGAIN.

AND UGH IT STARTS SO SOFT BUT PICKS UP SO FUCKING QUICK LIKE WTF AND HE JUST RESPONDS WITHOUT MISSING A BEAT LIKE THIS IS TOO MUCH FOR ME BECAUSE THEY LOVE EACH OTHER AND WANT EACH OTHER SO MUCH, IT MAKES MY HEART MELT ALSO SEEING THAT RING ON HER FINGER IS HURTING MY EYES AGAIN.

THE HANDS, THE HANDSSSSSS

WILL NO ONE THINK OF THE POOR FANGIRLS?! WHY WOULD YOU KISS THIS WAY?! WITH THE FRANTIC PULLING EACH OTHER CLOSER AND THE HANDS THAT WON’T STOP TOUCHING. WHY WOULD YOU HURT ME THIS WAY YOU ASSHOLES?!

I CAN’T TAKE IT BECAUSE THEY’RE SMILING THE ASSHOLES DO THEY NOT KNOW WHAT THIS IS DOING TO MY SMALL TINY HEART?!

TO HELL WITH THE PANCAKES. YASSS EMMA, YASSSSS.

AND SHE FUCKING PUSHES HIM INTO THE TABLE AND SHE’S PROBABLY BETWEEN HIS LEGS RIGHT NOW AND HIS HAND IS RUNNING UP AND DOWN HER BACK AND HIS HOOK IS HOLDING HER STEAD BECAUSE SHE CANNOT STOP MOVING HER HANDS

AND LIKE FUCKING SOMEONE HAS TO KEEP THEM FROM FALLING ONTO THE TABLE BUT BY THE LOOKS OF IT, EMMA TOTALLY WANTS KILLIAN TO FALL ONTO HIS BACK RIGHT THERE OK?! LIKE NOPE LET’S JUST DO THE DO RIGHT HERE. SMOOSHING BOOTIES ON THE DINING TABLE.

AND LOL THE SHOCK! THEY’RE SO DAZED THIS IS HILARIOUS

AND KILLIAN SAYING LIKE OH YOUR MOTHER HAS A KEY. THAT’S GOOD INFORMATION. YES OK. TRY TO CALM DOWN NOW.

THE SHOCK AND THE WIDE EYES LOLOLOL

BUT OK I FUCKING LOVE HOW EMMA JUST LOOKS AMUSED PRETTY MUCH THROUGH THIS WHOLE EXCHANGE BECAUSE THOUGH SHE REALLY, REALLY WANTS TO DO THE DO WITH HER FIANCE IN THEIR HOUSE (WHAT THE FUCK HOW DID WE GET HERE FROM CLIMBING A BEANSTALK TOGETHER ONE TIME FUCK FUCK FUCKKKK) 

SHE NEVER THOUGHT SHE’S HAVE THIS EITHER? HER MOTHER ACCIDENTALLY WALKING IN ON THEM AND LIKE IT’S LIKE EMBARRASSING OR WHATEVER BUT SHE’S JUST SO FUCKING HAPPY TO HAVE ALL THIS IN HER LIFE NOW? THESE MOMENTS OF PEACE AND LOVE AND SILLINESS

AND LOL SHE’S LIKE NOOOO AND KILLIAN IS LIKE HAHAHA YES WE WERE ABOUT TO BANG YOUR MAJESTY. I HAVE A SERIOUS PROBLEM RN LOL ALSO I LOVE THAT THOUGH SNOW IS RIGHT THERE, EMMA STRAIGHT UP DOEAN’T MOVE FOR FUCKING AGES AND JUST KEEPS RUNNING HER HANDS OVER KILLIAN’S SHOULDERS, SOOTHING HIM  AND TOUCHING HIM STILL AND KILLIAN’S HAND DOESN’T MOVE FROM HER WAIST EITHER

LIKE DESPITE THE DISCOMFORT, IT’S ALSO SUCH A COMFORTABLE MOMENT?! IT’S SO DOMESTIC AND ORDINARY AND EMMA IS STILL STROKING KILLIAN’S ARM HERE AND I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN *CRIES TEARS OF BLOOD* AND THEY ONLY FUCKING STAND WHEN SNOW IS LIKE UMM PANCAKES LOLOL

AND THIS ASSHOLE LOLOLOL HE IS SO UNAMUSED. I’VE LOST MY APPETITE. BRACING FUCKING SHOWER HE SAYS  LOLOLOL

THIS CHEEK KISS, THE PANCAKES, THE KILLIAN’S HAND ON HER WAIST AGAIN. THE DOMESTICITY OF IT ALL

LOOK HOW HAPPY SHE IS. DO YOU SEE IT? DO YOU SEE THE JOY IN HER EYES?! SHE’S SO HAPPY GODDAMNIT

*THROWS ALL THE THINGS*

THIS IS TOO MUCH. I CANNOT HANDLE THIS. FUCKING FUCK FUCKKK

@whoacanada posted this, and I’ve seen it a few times now, and finally caught a bit of time so this happened. also tagging @especially-shitty @audiaphilios @pale-silver-comb and @rhysiana who I’ve either seen reblog this, or think will enjoy it. Maybe a birthday present for @iboatedhere too.

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There’s a figure skating exhibition in Montréal which Bob is guest announcing at, so the whole Zimmermann fam goes to watch.

Jack is still in his in between phase of adolescence, not quite grown into his limbs, face still rounded with the last bits of stubborn childhood fat. His whole body still a little too large, and his confidence bowed under the extra weight and his blooming anxiety about his future, his sexuality, and life as the child of two incredibly successful, beautiful people.

But underneath that, is a clever, witty, ridiculous flirty man waiting for an opportunity to present itself.

Enter one Eric R. Bittle. Just over five and a half feet of lean muscle and able to move it all with a speed and grace that leaves Jack breathless. Watching Eric skate, watching him bring the story of his music to life in sweeping arcs and gravity defying jumps and spins, is a revelation. Jack loses himself in the sparkling whirlwind of movement and glowing blond hair that is Eric Bittle.

When his routine ends, in a glorious final spin that leaves Eric with outstretched arms and his head thrown back, a triumphant smile on his face, Jack is mesmerized by the line of Eric’s neck and the way he can see the heavy breaths Eric is taking. Jack can feel his heart beating in time with the rise and fall of Eric’s chest. When Eric looks up, he looks radiant, and he looks right at Jack. The full impact of his smile hits Jack right in the gut.

He must make a sound, because Alicia looks at him with a knowing gleam in her eyes and asks “Ça'va, cher?” Jack can only nod, eyes glued to Eric’s figure as he makes his way off the ice. He misses Alicia’s grin, but takes comfort in the arm she wraps around his shoulder, difficult with the way he’s almost taller than her now, even at 16, but still nice.

He’s not entirely sure how, but he ends up in the hallway outside the locker room with his parents. Bob is talking with the skaters as they come out, Jack mostly a silent presence, making awkward attempts at conversation when addressed and getting slightly irritated at the way everyone looks at him like he’s adorable despite them mostly being not much older than him. (He’d checked Eric’s age at least, and was incredibly pleased that he was the same age.)

Then, Eric is just. There. In front of him. Smiling that same sunshiny smile that is even more spectacular up close. From this close, Jack can see the warm honey and bourbon flecks in Eric’s big brown eyes, and how they radiate kindness. He feels like he’s taking up too much space, feels all the clumsiness in his limbs that only seems to disappear when he’s playing hockey.

When Eric speaks, his accent catches Jack off guard, but in a good way. It makes him feel warm and soft, and he hopes he isn’t blushing.

“Hello Mr and Mrs Zimmermann, it is such an honor to meet you! I’ve followed both of your careers, and y'all are such an inspiration!” Eric’s exuberance makes Jack smile, he feels it stretch across his face and can’t even be embarrassed about it because when Eric looks at him Jack sees it reflected back at him.

“Oh. Hello! You’re Jack, right? The next Zimmermann to watch out for?” He says it with sincerity, and a hint of a chirp, and Jack doesn’t feel any of the pressure he usually does when people talk about his legacy.

He takes just a second too long to reply, and his dad nudges his arm a little to get his attention. He catches a smirk on Bob’s face in his peripheral vision, and a quick wordless exchange between his parents, and has a sudden flash of his dad telling him about how he wooed his mom by speaking to her in French at any given opportunity.

So when Jack responds, a second or two past what’s strictly socially acceptable but not so long it’s awkward, he can only say “Bonjour, Eric,” as he presents his hand, almost sighing when Eric slips his own surprisingly soft hand into Jack’s, shaking it with a firm grip and a smile still on his face. “Vous étiez incroyable.”

He’s vaguely aware that he should be mortified, but Eric’s cheeks turn a delightful pink and it makes something in Jack want to rise to the challenge of keeping the color there.

“Oh my,” Eric laughs, “You can call me Bitty, Jack. Though I must admit my French is terrible, merci beaucoup.” His accent is quite awful, really, but when Jack notices their hands are still together, that they’re just holding hands now, he can only grin wider.

“De rien, Bitty.” Bitty looks down slightly, notices their hands and his eyes widen. He looks up at Jack from under his impressively thick lashes with a look of wonder on his face.

Bitty mutters what sounds like “Oh, lord,” and Jack chuckles under his breath.

Jack couldn’t agree more. So he squeezes Bitty’s hand and says just quietly enough that Bitty has to lean in a little “D’accord.”

i doodled this super quick washington in class today because priorities