Over| shawn mendes
Word count; 489
Requested; nothing ever is lmao
“Shawn?,” You were surprised when you opened your front door to see your boyfriend, well ex boyfriend. the break-up was messy and you left without so much as a goodbye. you haven’t seen Shawn in over a year though, you had nothing to say to him.
Shawn looked gloomy, his curls flopped down on his forehead, the rain matting them down. his eyes held a look you hadn’t seen in over a year, he looked guilt stricken.
“C-Can we talk?” He was shaking from the cold, wrapping his large arms around himself to secure warmth.
“Yeah, sure.” You move out of the way to let him in, closing the door behind him.
“(Y/n) I need to start by saying how sorry I am, and I really really mean that,” you fold your arms over your chest, feet stuck to the floor. your heart was racing in your chest, and you felt your throat tighten.
“You have nothing to apologize for, Shawn. It was a mutual decision, we both wanted it-”
“Bullshit.” He cuts you off, taking a step closer to you. “That’s complete and utter bullshit. I didn’t want to breakup. It wasn’t over for me, it still isn’t over.”
“I want you back, no, I need you back.”
“Shawn, that’s not a good idea-“ Shawn lifted a finger to his lips, signalling for you to be quiet.
‘’I know. its not a good idea, actually it’s a fucking terrible idea. but I’ll be dammed if I let you go again, I made that mistake the first time. I wont do it again.’’ you were at a loss for words, Shawn had just confessed everything you needed to hear, if only he had said those things long ago, then you wouldn’t have walked out.
‘’Shawn I, I don’t know what to say.’’ you admitted, watching as his face fell.
‘’Tell me you love me too, tell me that the night you left me was a mistake.’’ Shawn was practically begging, his glossy eyes searching yours for a sign, any sign that you might return his feelings.
‘’I’m not so sure it was, how can I be sure that your intentions are good? that you won’t screw me over again?’’
In a second Shawn was in front of you, his hands on either side of your face. his lips were trembling, you wanted to wrap your arms around him and forget about all the pain loving him has caused you, both of you, but you can’t.
‘’I’m sorry Shawn, but we just don’t work. you gestured between you and him, a dry chuckle escaped your lips as you wiped away a single fallen tear. ‘’ I don’t fit into your crazy hectic world, and you don’t fit into my plain boring one. I love you, more than I can ever tell but sometimes loving someone isn’t enough.’’
Loving Shawn came with sacrifices, sacrifices you weren’t willing to make.