I growled against his lips as he bit down hard on my bottom one causing it to draw some blood. It was as if time had stood still from the time we last did this. I can feel Thor’s arms rub up and down my back as if remembering as I was. So lost in my trance I did not hear the incoming footsteps.
A voice cleared from behind Thor. “Sorry to interrupt your highness but your father would like to speak to you.” The guard said as Thor moved away from my body and set my feet onto the ground. He briefly rested his forehead against mine before turning to address the guard.
“I see…” He says before briefly glancing at me over his shoulder. “Escort Lady Y/L/N to my chambers.” He says before turning around to give me a brief once over. “I will be back soon.” He says with a look that says he was debating something.
I nod refusing to argue with him in front of the guard who had caught us attempting to rip each other’s clothes off. The guard nodded at me before moving to lead the way back to Thor’s chambers. I felt like an idiot as I watched Thor walk back off towards the throne room to meet with his father.
I had a life that did not include war, death, and mayhem. If I allowed myself to stay I would inevitably be sucked into the life that I was banished from again. I inwardly face palmed. I should have known better than to let my guard down and let my emotions have free rein.
That was a terrible lapse of judgment. I was no longer a child. I knew better than to attempt anything like that in public. Besides that, he had Jane, who seemed to be better for him than I was. I followed him as I watched the guard who seemed to be taking that display a lot better than I was.
I needed to stop worrying about my little incident and think back to being trapped here again. I told Thor I was not planning on staying yet he thinks to bend me to his will like he once did. I sighed; this was not who I was, nor who I wanted to be anymore. More importantly the meeting with Odin raised a few flags. Like, what was with the odd way Odin had acted earlier? Or why Thor was summoned back? Why didn’t Odin want to seek out answers?
I watched as the guard paused as we ran into a few others. “We are needed.”
The taller of the two guards said to my escort. “I ha-“
I forced a sweet smile, one I used to wear when I was here. “Don’t worry about it. I am sure that Thor will understand. Besides, I know my way.” I say heading in the direction of Thor’s room.
I made sure that my pace was slow as I waited for them to round the corner and head out of sight. I turned and headed down the narrow corridor I once knew so well. I smiled sadly remembering all the times Loki and I would use the little hiding place to spy on Odin’s councils or to eavesdrop when Thor had done something stupid.
I laughed as I made it to the small alcove that was hidden. How many people passed this not realizing that it was not just a piece of showmanship but a secret passage to the throne room side wall? I smiled remembering Loki. I move silently within the passage until I see the wall and gently push it open. Upon opening the door and staying in the shadows as not to be made I noticed that the Warriors Three, Sif and Thor were all summoned back.
“What else can you share?” Odin asked adjusting himself into an odd sitting position.
In all the years that I have known Odin I have never see him sprawl out on the throne like that. In fact the only person I ever knew who did wa-Loki. My eyes widened, how was it that none of them noticed?
“Father Y/N believes that someone is looking for it.” Thor says.
“I am aware my son. However, you could have brought the news back yourself. Instead you bring her back here.” Odin says staring up and down at his staff.
“You know why.” Thor says anxiously.
“Ah. Yes, because you love her.” Odin says glancing at Thor, “Or who you thought her to be.”
I watched as Thor clenched his jaw. “ Fa-“
“Enough. I have heard all I need. You are all dismissed.” Odin says with a wave of his hand.
I watched as they all exited the room. I turned to do the same but was stopped by a familiar chuckle.
“Never was really one to behave were you my child?” He says to me.
I move from my place next to the passage. “Your child?” I questioned knowing very well that Odin would never refer to me as his child. “You must be drunk on power to not have realized that your father would never say that to one such as I.” I say moving away from the large pillar and into the full view of the throne.
I nod of understanding came as I watched the illusion Loki cast fall away and be replaced by a much older looking version of the boy I grew up with. Not that he had aged, just that his features seem more hollow, his eyes angry, and his hair a greasy mess.
Loki laughed harshly. “Thor always did think he knew you best. But really he only knew what you allowed him to right Y/N?” Loki says tauntingly.
“You’re not really one to speak.” I point out watching his eyes narrow. “I mean you wanted them all to see how clever you were, how blood thirsty you were, what you were capable of whether it was good or bad, but you never really allowed them to see the pain, the hurt, the betrayal.” I say looking at the man who radiated so much pain.
I understood the feeling that no matter how good you were, how hard you tried that you could always be an outsider. I understood the pain of betrayal from those you loved above all else.
“It seems that you are the only one. Maybe we should have ended up together?” He says smiling uin a way that changes his features.
“You forget Thor was not the only one who betrayed me.” I point out as he stands. “You both did. So don’t think you are above it all.”
Loki cocks his head to the side. “I am sorry.”
I roll my eyes. “Yes, I have heard. You are all sorry. You all wished you would have looked for me.” I say setting my hands on my hips. “I do not care. You know why I came back.”
“Thor?” He says smirking.
“The gauntlet, he is coming for it along with all of the stones Loki.” I say and watch recognition flutter across his face. “You already knew that though didn’t you?”
“Like I said perceptive.” He says smiling but it does not reflect happiness or glee in his eyes, instead it reflects pain.
I closed my eyes. “The scepter, you were working for Thanos weren’t you?” I ask already knowing the answer. “Is being a king so important to you that you are okay with having that… Titan alters the fabric of our galaxy?” I asked.
“I am meant to be a king.”
I let out a bitter laugh glaring at him. “Are you? Well, I’m pretty sure Thanos will have other ideas, I mean after all you failed.”
I watched him clench his jaw. “What happened to you?” I asked. Even though time moved relatively slow for Asguardians a lot had happened in my absence.
“I have been slighted; I am merely taking back what I am rightfully owed!” He says in anger.
“Owed?” I questioned feeling my own anger bubble. “That is not how life works. You don’t just take what you want because you feel people are indebted to you. If that were to I would have taken what you and your brother owed me. Life is not about slight Loki, it is about forgiveness. A true king, one worthy of any type of crown would realize that.”
He steps closer so that I am straining to look up at him. “Is it then how come you forgave me but are still refusing to for Thor.”
I narrowed my eyes. “I am n-“
“I know you better than that. You feel angry at me, but you are still deep down enraged that he never even tried to search for you. So don’t preach your philosophy if you refuse to follow it.”
I angled my chin up to stare him directly in the eyes. “I did forgive him. I just don’t have to like it.” I say folding my arms under my chest. “Also I am not the one that must live with him. I have a life I built of my own.” I point out taking a step away from him.
“Did you? How odd I was under the impression you couldn’t wait to be out of his presence for good, now that you know the truth about him.
The door behind us opened again and Loki transformed himself back to Odin’s form. We both turned to see an angry looking Thor and an amused Lady Sif standing there.
He waved his arm. “Apologize? Very well. I summoned Lady Y/N here to get things in a better perspective.” He says turning to me his eyes pleading for understanding. “This seems that there will be a tighter guard kept around here and needing around the clock guards around the gauntlet.” He says turning to face Thor as they approached. “As for Earth…” He says trailing off.
“It is still under my protection father.” Thor says to Loki.
This causes me to snort and leave me to receive glares from both men.
“You will be needed here for a while after you return Y/N and say your goodbyes to your Jane, of course. Y/N, you are to return unless otherwise summoned.” Loki says. “Now you all need to vacate my presence.”
I exit without another word to Loki and make my way back towards the bridge so I could return to Earth.
“Y/N…” Thor says from behind me.
“Don’t.” I say knowing that all of the things that Loki said were true. The fact that Loki knew me better than Thor, not better he was far more observant though, scared me.
He tugs on my arm for me to stop. “What is wrong?” He asks.
I stop and turn to face him without speaking. Instead, I study him the anger was still there it was just put in check.
“He just pointed out some things that I needed to hear.” I say truthfully.
I watched as Thor clenched his jaw. “I already expl-“
“That doesn’t change anything!” I shout. “It doesn’t change that against my will you brought me back here. It doesn’t change you didn’t try to find me dead or alive, it doesn’t change you are with Jane, nothing has changed!” I shout angrily and yank my arm out of his grasp.
I began to walk away when I hear Thor shout.
“That is where you are wrong. Everything has. I know you felt like this was coming home. I know you feel like even with who you have become that this is where you belong, that with me is where you belong.” He says stepping closer and kissing my forehead. “Regardless to what you or my father thinks I know you. I know you are kind, loyal, brave, loving and stubborn. I also know that you are far wiser than I, that you love beating me, that reading is something you pretend to hate but love. I know that you bury how you really feel to coop.” He says pulling my chin up so I had to stare in his blue eyes. “I know everything about you which, is why I am going to come back for you.”
I open my mouth to respond but am cut short by the fact three guards approach. “We are to escort you back to Midguard.” The brown haired one says to us.
Within moments we are being transported back to Earth.
I sigh as we are back at the site. I turn to find my keys and phone sitting next to a table. Someone must have found them and put them here. I turn and see Thor staring at me.
“You should go see Jane. We could’ve been gone a long while.” I say.
“Shut up we are going to get in trouble.” I hear a women whisper.
“I’m just saying what if you took off with that god forsaken wo-“ Another women said but stopped upon seeing us.
“Thor!” Jane exclaimed wrapping her arms around him. I nod at the other women and brushed past her.
“It is good to see you Jane.” He says and I can tell he was smiling.
“Well at least this time was only three days.” She says and I can practically hear the happiness coming from her.
I kept walking I did not need to hear any of this. As I made my way through the warehouse I felt as I did the day I was banished. I may have grown and changed but my emotions seemed to have reverted to the way they were that day.
“Y/N! I hear Thor shout as I make my way out to the parking lot.
I turn to see a very depressed looking Jane and a confused brunette woman.
“I shall see you again.” He says.
I nod and go to turn around but stop. “Thor?” I say looking at him to see he never took his eyes off me.
“Yeah?” He says with a murmur of hope in his voice.
“Be careful with you father.” I say pausing. “He is not who you think he is.” I say alluding to the fact Odin was an imposter before turning around and disappearing from his eye sight.
Two Months Later
It was pouring out as I walked through the London streets. It was much like the day I first saw Thor. I sighed. He was right. The damn man had to look into my soul and strip it down until I was left standing vulnerable and wanting nothing more than to tell him how right he was. The worst part of it was that I had to get over him all over again, or maybe I never was I just let the anger have a hold over all of my other emotions.
Since coming back it has been silent, in the sense that no Asgardian has come back to Earth, including Thor. I stared down at my feet maybe I had screwed it up this time by running because I wanted some sort of twisted pay back for not looking for me? I sighed. As I walked I ran into a buff chest. I inwardly groaned. “Shit, I am so so-“ I stop and look up to be meet by the blue eyes that had been haunting me ever since I left.
“It is I who is at fault.” A husky voice said.
My eyes widened. Thor. I pushed my hood back as I stared up at him. “Thor.” I said warily.
“I promised I was coming back. I was not losing you twice in one lifetime.” He says looking at me like he was staring into my soul.
I watched as he smiled sadly. “You were right.” I say.
He just stares at me blankly.
“I run, it’s just what I do. I mean after being banished I had a choice but I was terrified that you had moved on so I choose to stay away. I felt betrayed because you never looked so I built barriors that you just toppled over so I left.” I paused gauging his reaction. “But most importantly I run because I know that even in the deepest parts of me that home isn’t Asgard.” I say pausing
He seemed tried to mask the hurt but wasn’t quick enough to fool me.
“It’s you.” I say after holding my breath. My admission is met with nothing but silence. I quirked an eyebrow at him.
He chuckled shakily. “Loki was the imposter.” He sighs and places his hand on my shoulder causing me to stare up into his eyes and realize it was no longer raining where we stood. “He handed the Gauntlet to Thanos.”
I felt my heart stop upon hearing those words. There was going to be a war unlike any other this realm has ever seen. “Tho-“
“Father would like to speak to you.” He says stepping closer to me, but I wanted to first.” He says cupping my face in his hands. “I know you missed me.” He says smiling.
“Pretty sure my speech made that obvious.” I point out still waiting for a reaction towards my speech.
He chuckles and moves to rest his forehead against mine. “I know that was hard for you.” He says before pausing and moving his hands to rub up and down my chilled arms. “Which is why what I am going to ask you is a lot to ask, but will you please come back with me? Fight beside me. End the war my brother began.” He says as he closes his eyes.
I reach my hand out and lay it on his chest. “I’m done running.” I say swallowing.
“There has been no one but you my whole life.” He says moving to wrap his arms around my waist.
I leaned forward and pressed my lips to his in a heated, needy kiss.
His strong hands moved from my arms to my waist, pulling me tighter against his body. A warm shiver ran pooled in my stomach as my hands tangled in his silky blonde hair.
He wrapped his muscular arms tighter around my smaller frame. Thor’s tongue swiftly passed my lips and entered my mouth; I gasped softly, but allowed him complete access. I felt spreading warmth in your stomach that crept through the rest of your body. It was different than our last kiss, it was better.
My hands grabbed the material of Thor’s tunic and pulled him closer needing more contact than probably should be granted in public. I gently ran my hands up his stomach from under his shirt and could feel the muscles clench under my roaming hands. I felt Thor’s lips form a smile before they moved to my neck, before stopping and just resting his head in the crock of it.
Thor stood back up to his full height. “Are you sure about this?” He asked with a tone that vibrated with nerves.
“Not at all.” I say smiling. “But, it is far past time that I get what I have wanted all of these years.” I say earning a face splitting grin from him.