tho i still have to present it

anonymous asked:

so. do you consider china’s age 4000? wouldn’t he consider himself 5000 yrs old tho (like, not as a defined age for him as a person, but as the nation ‘china’) bc don’t nations’ views of things depend on their people’s thinking? and like chinese consider our country to be 5000, unlike westerners, so ...

i’ve always headcanoned that his earliest memories are kind of murky and he’s not able to pin down a definitive date. to reflect how long ago it is, and the very fact that we in the present also still have a lot of questions about that time. the idea i very much like is that his earliest memories are connected to the yellow river. the cradle of chinese civilisation, simultaneously an embodiment of life and death; responsible for the fertile silt that enabled our ancestors to farm on its banks, but also the destructive floods that killed so many throughout history. 

i think being around 4000 is a reasonable figure he might subscribe to because of the Xia dynasty, now estimated to have existed around 2070 BCE. but i definitely like to keep a sense of ambiguity because before the xia-shang-zhou project commissioned by the govt (which came up with that estimate), there were debates about this and different figures tossed around. there’s also a gigantic can of worms about china as a concept being fluid throughout history, arguments about whether the dynastic cycle conceptualisation kind of distorts the actual nature of chinese history (china not always even being china as we understand it today etc). all these historiographical issues? maybe there doesn’t have to be a straight-out answer because our understanding of chinese history (like all history) is continually changing—being revised and rewritten, as we develop new approaches and make other discoveries.

i certainly do think he likes the idea of being Old. prestige and all. seniority means wisdom and commanding respect in the confucian hierarchy. the whole sense of being an old empire who survived for so long while many of his counterparts returned to dust. so 5000 is also a claim he might make, especially if he links himself to the huaxia tribes, or considering the traditional stories about the yellow emperor’s reign. 

Smoke (Sherlock X Reader)

Summary: Reader is Sherlock’s longtime girlfriend and one of the few people in Lestrade’s division who likes him. Sherlock and Watson take her on all their adventures, as she is the one who presents cases to them and represents them in the police force. She finds herself awaiting their return to Baker Street often, but none have ended up like this. What does she do afterward? Can she find closure?

Key: (Y/N)-your name

Today’s Playlist: Hmmm…so many options… My original inspiration was Viva la Vida, though it doesn’t quite fit (still a good song tho :3 go listen to it) as well as I Was King (ONE OK ROCK) and I Want You Here (Plumb). As always, I usually listen to the nightcoreversions and those are the ones linked as they are my inspiration, but I highly encourage you to listen to the original songs, too!

Cast: YOU! Sherlock Holmes, Greg Lestrade, Mycroft Holmes, John Watson, Mrs. Hudson, Anderson, Mary Watson, and brief mentions of Donovan and Lestrade’s Ex-Wife

Warnings: Language? I think? Too lazy to check…. Smoking Habits, Depression (minor, nothing super serious other than brief mentions of grief and tragedy) Angst, Grief

Status: Complete (May consider prequels or a part 2 if requested and I can find the inspiration)

    “Or, or, or- hear me out on this one- a bungee cord! That would have worked! I mean-”

    It’s been almost a year to the day since his death, yet Anderson still holds hope. How? I’ve no bloody idea.

Even I lost hope a long time ago and I was quite possibly the closest to him, besides John. You’d think that being his girlfriend would dub you automatically closer to him than his best friend, but that’s not the case. John has known- knew him far longer than I did. Still, I loved him very much.

“I mean, obviously he had to have help from his brother, right? Because if not-”

    It’s been hard without him. What has? Cases, for one thing, talking to people, waking up in the morning, and how about living? How’s that for an answer? He was part of me. He was my other half. We were both clever, but I’m a sweet talker and he was…antisocial, to say the least. He was a sassy bastard and a pain in the ass while I was sneaky and persuasive. We made an interesting couple, for sure. We definitely gave my dad headaches on the regular.

    “So he had to have done that or else he would have-”

    Dad. He’s taken his death pretty hard, too, though not only for his sake. He can’t stand to see me like this. He’s started smoking again. He thinks I haven’t noticed, but I’m not that blinded by grief. I tend to notice the little things. Besides, he’s not the only one with a pack of cigarettes under his bed.
    “See what I mean? That’s absolute bollocks!”

    I’ve detached from everyone. Dad and I don’t talk. I haven’t seen John in a while. He’s probably moved on at this point. I wouldn’t be surprised if he wanted to cut ties after what happened. Mrs. Hudson checks in on me often and I take care to call her at least once a week for fear that she might come after me if I don’t. I haven’t spoken to Mum since the divorce. She never cared for me, anyway. Never wanted a kid, much less a daughter wanting to follow in her dad’s footsteps. It was kind of a blessing when she left. Donovan doesn’t dare even think of talking to me. It was all her fault after all. I doubt I’ll ever be able to forgive her. It’s a miracle I can tolerate Anderson after that. Anderson is one of the few who dares to approach me, though I’m sure he’ll stop once I give him what for.

    “What do you think? (Y/N)?” He asks, holding out his coffee in questioning.

    I turn to him with a frustrated sigh. “Stop it, Anderson. Sherlock is dead. He’s not coming back.”

    “But he-” He starts to argue with me, but I can’t take it anymore.

    I shout, “I saw him fall with my own eyes! I identified his body, Anderson! Don’t tell me for some bollocks reason that Sherlock is alive because he’s not.” I glare him down as he goes silent, glancing down at his feet. I desperately have the instinct to bring up how Sherlock’s death was partly his fault in the first place, but I don’t. He’s already expressing his guilt through coming up with theories and acting as if there’s hope, not to mention starting the fan club. “Sherlock is dead and it’s about bloody time you accepted that because he’s not coming back.” I storm off, choking back a sob.

It’s hard to accept, but I know he’s dead. There is absolutely no possible way he can be alive after that.

I go home after that, not wanting to bother with anyone for the rest of the day. I’ve left Baker Street by now and moved back in with Dad. I can’t stand living in a flat completely composed of things that remind me of Sherlock. At the same time, I can’t fully move on.

He was the first person to truly see my potential and help me to use it. He wasn’t like Dad, who refused to bring me on dangerous cases because he was so scared for my well being. No, Sherlock was the exact opposite. He wanted me to be there. He wanted my opinion and my help. He wanted to hear what I had to say. He wasn’t like Donovan or Anderson who doubted me and turned on me within milliseconds. Even when his reputation was tarnished, he was careful to make sure I was safe and that Moriarty had no idea how close I was to him. Even when it meant that we couldn’t be seen together in public, he kept me safe. I wasn’t like other people in the force. I didn’t think he was a freak. I thought he had an amazing talent that could change the world and I so desperately wanted to learn it. He was astonished by this and, after some suspicion and time spent together, started to teach me the science of deduction. I have learned a lot, though by no means have I mastered it. I only wish he could have taught me more before…

I find the door to the apartment unlocked, surprisingly, which means Dad’s home. We don’t cross paths a lot anymore. In fact, it feels like we avoid each other. I just can’t face him after all that’s happened. I’m afraid that if I do…well, there’s no avoiding it now.

I climb the stairs and enter the living room, barely glancing at Dad, who’s sitting on the couch staring at nothing with a blank look on his face. He looks up as I enter and close the door behind me. I toss the keys onto a nearby table nonchalantly and turn slowly, pausing there with my hands in my coat pockets. “Hey,” I mumble quietly, not making eye contact.

Dad mumbles a reply that I can’t hear, running a hand through his grey hair and sighing. Suddenly, he notices a pack of cigarettes peeking out of my pocket. His head snaps up, “Have you been smoking?!”

I don’t answer, glancing away and furrowing my brows in slight frustration. I don’t feel guilt. I turn back to him with a huff. “Yeah. So have you.”

His gaze softens as he takes his turn to glance away and lean back onto the couch. I’ve caught him. “Talk to anybody today?” He asks, casually slipping concern into the conversation rather than facing up to my accusation.

“Anderson,” I mutter quietly with a sigh, something Dad quickly picks up on.

“He badgering you with his theories as well?” He rolls his eyes and scoffs. “Of all people he had to-” He mutters a few incoherent thoughts as I stand there awkwardly. Then, he’s silent.

There’s a tense air filling the room quickly as neither of us wants to talk about it. We don’t want to talk about the fact that Dad had to help in the events that killed my boyfriend. We don’t want to talk about how he died. We don’t want to talk about the idea that he might be alive. We just don’t even want to bring up the topic of Sherlock.

“You can talk to me, you know.”

“Huh?” I turn suddenly to him, not sure I heard him right. He can’t mean that…

He stands and starts toward me. He looks unsure, though his eyes are full of love and hope. He stops just in front of me and continues on, knowing I heard and acknowledged what he said. “I’m worried about you.” He puts his hands on my forearms gently in a loving motion. “You don’t talk anymore, (Y/N). At least talk to me. Please?”

I’m silent as he pulls me into a tight hug. He closes his eyes and holds me close, resting his head on top of mine.

“I love you.” He whispers, “This scares me.”

I blink a few times as tears come to my eyes. I bury my head in his coat and mumble. “I miss him.” I start to sob as Dad pulls me closer and rubs my back, comforting me the only way he knows how. He understands loss, sure. I mean, he felt it with Mum. However, he doesn’t know what it’s like when someone you love with your entire being dies unexpectedly, especially not in the way that Sherlock went.

“I know.” He whispers. “I know, love. I miss him, too. We all do.”


“What will you do when you tell her, then?”

“Tell her?”

“You don’t seriously think you’ll be able to avoid her?”

“…”

“She hasn’t forgotten you, Sherlock.”

“I hope not.”

“You have to talk to her.”

“What for?”

“Don’t be so selfish, Sherlock!”

“Me? Selfish? Well, that’s just irony at it’s best, isn’t it, Mycroft?”

“Talk. To. Her.”

“She’s better off without me.”

“And why is that?”

“She won’t have anyone on her tail, won’t be constantly watched by my government official brother…I don’t know.”

“The sarcasm is overwhelming, brother mine. Despite your best efforts and ignorance, I will always keep an eye on her.”

“Then you admit you care?”

“No. I simply know that you do, though you ever refuse to act on it.”


“What do you mean you haven’t told (Y/N), yet?!” John whisper-shouts, floored by Sherlock’s admittance.

“Exactly what I say, John,” Sherlock mutters, uncomfortable speaking about this around Mary. He barely knows the woman and now she’s going to hear about his girlfriend- ex-girlfriend?

“You can’t be serious!” John is even more furious with him now.

“Completely,” Sherlock assures him.

John lets his jaw drop in anger. “You have to talk to her. She is in absolute ruin, Sherlock! She wouldn’t speak to Lestrade- her father, mind you- for a year! A year, Sherlock!”

Sherlock tilts his head ever so slightly upward, cocking an eyebrow at John. He doesn’t show it, but that statement concerns him. Surely (Y/N) would have moved on by now. Surely she’s found happiness elsewhere.

John quickly realises what Sherlock’s thought process was and leans back into his chair with an angry smirk, the token expression of a Watson’s fury. “You bloody idiot. You thought she would forget you?” He leans back onto the table, pointing his finger angrily at Sherlock. “She is worse off than when her Mum left. In fact-”

He just saw her the other day at Baker Street, meeting with Mrs. Hudson. He immediately smelled the smoke on her when he first walked in but was even more shocked when she walked out the door and started to smoke right away. She didn’t care about the consequences nor what anyone thought when they saw her smoking. She needed it. It was her coping mechanism, if you could even say she was coping at all. She hadn’t talked to John at all, which Sherlock quickly deduces was because she was envious of his relationship with Mary and his ability to move on from him. All of this shocks Sherlock. He can’t believe that she’s so hung up on him…Why?

“Because she loves you, Sherlock,” John tells him fiercely.


He rings the doorbell cautiously, taking a deep breath as he does and preparing himself. As the door creaks open, he greets her casually. “Hello.” He can barely catch a glimpse of her shock and overwhelmed emotion plastered on her face before he closes his eyes, ready for her fist to come in contact with his jaw.

To his surprise, it never comes. Instead, she wraps her arms around him in a tight hug, immediately starting to cry into his coat. Sherlock opens one eye, glancing down at her curiously before comfortably wrapping his own arms around her tightly. She doesn’t say a word at first, just holds him close as if he’ll run away if she lets go. “I thought you were dead.”

“Yes, well, a lot of people did.” Sherlock jokes lightly as (Y/N) looks up at him, tears flowing freely down her cheeks. He hates to see her cry. “Now then, stop that. You’ll get me started.”

To her shock, she sees a few glistening tears in his eyes. She stands on her toes and presses her lips to his, holding his cheek in her gentle hands. Once she releases, she leans against his chest. “I love you, Sherlock.” She knows he won’t reply. Sherlock isn’t one to say those things, especially not out loud.

He doesn’t even hesitate. He shocks even himself. His emotions overwhelm him to the point where he has to say it or else he might just die then and there. He doesn’t know what it is. It’s a feeling he’s never experienced, only heard of before. At least, he strongly believes he’s never felt it quite this way.

“I love you, too, (Y/N).” They’re frozen there for a few moments before he reverts back to his bastard self. “But really, you should stop smoking. Not exactly pleasant for physical contact.”

She giggles lightly, shaking her head. “God, I hate you.”

Note: I love the idea of Dad!Lestrade so much!! Seriously, if I ever have the opportunity, I will write with him as a dad again! There are just so many options! Anywho, hope you enjoyed my first Sherlock fic!

Requests are always open!

anonymous asked:

some people say the actual arc of kuroshitsuji is boring so they quit... cause they don't have seen Sebastian for months now. what do you think about it? is it still worth it to buy the mangas?

For me personally its totally worth it! with the last chapter it took a real dark turn and I can’t wait to see the next chapter!. Even tho I am more excited to see the present time and what will happens with everything that now the twin is there standing in-front of them.

mookie000  asked:

“I might have had a few shots.” akaken!

LOL you finally managed to pick one!

——-

It was a colder winter than most, for Tokyo anyway.  Kenma wasn’t used to needing ear muffs until late December or early January, but the frost was settling into the city earlier this year, and he was very much regretting not bundling up more before leaving the house.  In his head, he could hear Kuroo’s voice scolding him in his best mom voice.  Still, the sudden snowfall was unexpected.  It was light and would probably melt away by morning, but it created a nice enough atmosphere, Kenma thought.  

Even more unexpected was Akaashi waiting for him outside of his apartment, nose tinged red from the chill and swaying slightly in place.

“…were you drinking?”  Kenma could smell it from three feet away.  Even through his face mask.  The cigarette smell was worse than the beer smell, but both were fairly poignant.  

“…I might have had a few shots.”

“With Bokuto?

“And the team.”

That’s right.  Tomorrow would be December 5th, and Akaashi’s 20th birthday.  Of course his university team would take him drinking.  Kenma checked his phone.  Not yet an hour before midnight.  Though he was curious as to how Akaashi ended up here of all places.  

“Happy early birthday,” he mumbled.  He held up his convenience store bag.  “It’s mostly snacks, but… if you wanted to come inside…”

“Kozume-kun… may I ask for a present?” 

Kenma took a quick peek into the plastic bag.  “…you can have whatever you want out of here, I guess.  Not the apple pie tho–”

Akaashi’s long, thin fingers pressed against the fabric of his face mask, pulling just slightly at the cord around his ear.  

“May I have a kiss?”

Kenma froze, and it had nothing to do with the temperature outside.  Forget the layers, all he needed to keep warm was a deep, burning embarrassment.  He stood as still as stone as Akaashi gently pulled the mask down to his chin and pressed his cold, chapped lips against his own.  

“…”

“…”

“…I think I might pass out now.”  

Akaashi said it as Kenma thought it, and quickly he began rummaging through his pockets for his keys.  He didn’t really feel like dragging an unconscious body through his doorway tonight.

anonymous asked:

i'm starting to feel a lil bad tho. dan expressed that he doesn't want sympathy and that he doesn't want to be defined by it. i feel like some fans aren't necessarily respecting that (not you btw I'm talking generally). we should still treat him as we did before the video and realize that he's still dan, he can still laugh and have fun and that we shouldn't let this change how we see him and his content, past and present. he wants ppl to be aware of his depression without it defining him.

i agree with this. the worst thing is when you tell people about your mental illness and then their attitude towards you completely changes. people with depression or any other mental illness do not need to be treated like delicate flowers who require heaps of praise and validation just for existing and breathing lmao. i think the best thing about dan’s decision to share his story is how much he has already helped others dealing with similar issues by reminding them they’re not alone and the power of treatment and putting effort into recovery. it makes perfect sense to me for people to want to share their own stories and to thank dan for helping them, to express the gratitude and the emotions they felt in seeing him be so courageous and vulnerable. but i think there’s a difference between those statements of gratitude and respect and pride and admiration and support, and statements that coddle him and demand his audience change the way they treat him or speak about him in light of his coming forward with this. 

you said it yourself, anon, but i’ll repeat it: dan is the same person he always was. we just know more about him now. his sense of humor is the same as it always was. he is self-deprecating and sarcastic and sometimes a little arrogant. he is insecure in certain ways but astonishingly confident in others. he fucks up sometimes and at other times he does great things and helps so many people through his actions. in short, he is complex and multifaceted and he is all of those things, to use his own words, in spite of this thing holding him back. he’s gone out of his way to describe the steps he’s taken not to let depression define him and it’s on everyone watching him to do the same for him. so when i see posts that are talking about how no one should ever make a joke about him again, no one should ever criticize him again, i just roll my eyes a little. depressed people dont need to be tiptoed around and treated like they’re made of glass. dan’s decision to share his story definitely should not significantly alter how you view him or talk about him or treat him and i hope people can keep that in mind as things move forward (though i expect it will take some time for everyone’s emotions to settle.) 

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“Sign with Barcelona? Never. As I said from the first moment, my idea was to succeed at Real Madrid. It’s true that there were some bad moments here but that has made me enjoy the good ones even more. I have won three Champions Leagues and I still have the hunger to help this team continue winning.”
Isco during his renewal presentation | 15 September 2017

Shades Of Yoonjin

Hoi! Here’s present the two eldest (I have my doubts tho) members of Bangtan, Yoonjin - Yoongi and Seokjin

What Bangtan they do :

Originally posted by yoongichii

What soft shippers think they do :

Originally posted by bangtan-got7-boys

What hard shippers think they do :

Originally posted by lay-biased

What meme lovers think they do :

Originally posted by yoonmin

What Yoonjin think they do :

Originally posted by seokkuk

What Yoonjin actually do ^^; (Roast em boi):

Originally posted by yoongichii

From Yoongi :

Originally posted by kthish

From Seokjin :

Originally posted by yoongichii

They’re influencing each other well ^^; :

Originally posted by theseoks

There we had the two eldest members (I still have my doubts) of Bangtan. Love them a lot Please! till next time ^^

Link to Shades Of Series List

i saw in the heights for the first time exactly a year ago today so here is a tiny nina

definitely-not-lordenglish  asked:

Heyyy so do you think you could give me a brief run down of basically everything that's happened related to Hiveswap since the beginning? Including announcement of characters and such? (In chronological order preferably please) Thanks ^_^;;

i mean, i’ll try but. that’s pretty much what this whole blog is. i’ll see if i can do a summary here, but this tag has all the really important bits, and if you just read the blog from the beginning (currently only 10 pages) you’ll get everything. ANYWAY BRIEF TIMELINE:

  1. 2012- homestuck is at it’s peak, hussie kickstarts the “homestuck adventure game” and raises $2.5 million
  2. 2013- a backers only update is released on kickstarter, revealing that the game will be a brand new story and showing some early concept art of joey (then-unnamed)
  3. June 2014- another backers only update is released, showing some concept art including dammek (then unnamed) and the developer is revealed as the The Odd Gentlemen
  4. Oct 2014- Hussie releases a massive kickstarter update that:
    1. announces that they’re moving development in-house, with some really vague explanation why.
    2. finally names the game hiveswap and explains that it will center around a human girl named joey who switches places with a troll boy (still unnamed).
    3. announces plans for a second game to follow the troll boy.
    4. announces that the games will each have about 4 episodes.
    5. released a crapton of concept art, that among other things revealed joey fighting with her flashlight and the troll we now know to be xefros.
  5. Feb 2015- WP sets up 2 websites, a twitter, a facebook, and a tumblr, all of which they basically do nothing with. Also there’s another update revealing the timeline is the 90s on earth, and somewhere between the ancestors and the beta trolls on alternia; and Joey has a brother. We also get early concept art of ms. second-best-at-memes herself (then unnamed).
  6. March to June 2015- we get a slew of interviews and updates and a teaser trailer that reveal most of what we now know of the plot and the rest of the characters. Xefros, Jude, and Trizza are named officially, and Cridea’s, Fiamat’s and Dammek’s names are revealed via concept art of prongle.
  7. June 2015- igpd posts, and then quickly deletes, the infamous update about how TOG screwed everyone over.
  8. July - Aug 2015- a few more interviews and updates, nothing major
  9. Dec 2015- after months of silence, a kickstarter update finally comes out saying the game is shifting from 3D to 2D, and most of the NYC employees were let go. more really nice art is released, including a picture of teenage mom lalonde that has confused the fandom into thinking the alphas are in the game ever since.
  10. May 2016- Homestuck 2.0 is announced, then promptly forgotten about forever.
  11. June 2016- Cohen Edenfield, in a mostly unrelated interview that only like 100 people know exists, reveals that the second game is called Hauntswitch.
  12. Oct 2016- after almost a year of more or less radio silence, a bunch of things happen all at once. the first trailer is released, the january release date is announced, the website is completely revamped, and an artist reveals that dammek and xefros are moirails. Hussie completely forgets to actually put any of this on kickstarter. (also someone updated the website for like an hour a week before everything else before immediately taking it down, and it was hilarious)
  13. Dec 2016- Hiveswap goes on steam greenlight and is approved in a week, and the “Broom Temperature” video is released, in a brand new alternian alphabet. no one knows how to spell grubbles.
  14. January 26, 2017- hiveswap is delayed for “several weeks” for “bug testing”
  15. the fandom cries
  16. April 13, 2017- the second trailer is released, and WP vows to actually communicate with us. again.
  17. May - Present- Cohen Edenfield, our lord and savior; and Ash Paulsen, ACTUALLY FOLLOW THROUGH on that promise with weekly interviews with the development team.
  18. June 12, 2017- Frondly Warning was released. We still have no idea how to spell grubbels.
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ANYOLITE is a powerful and combat-ready fusion of Garnet and Flash. They have an intimidating presence due their extremely self-assured nature, however despite their dark and serious look, Anyolite is a surprisingly caring person. Boulder, Sunny, Ruby and Sapphire are not very apparent in this fusion, but Garnet and Flash most certainly come through.
Anyolite exists to get things done and is unlikely to stay longer than absolutely neccessary.

SONORA SUNRISE is an even bigger show stopper than Sardonyx - figuratively and literally. Being a 5 gem fusion, one would assume that he’d be much less stable than he is, however he doesn’t fall apart easy - but his instability comes through in a different way. Sonora is an intensely powerful fusion, but also very unreliable, as he gets distracted easily.
He’s a pairing of Sardonyx’ flamboyance and Flash’s love of life, which provides an extremely charismatic narrator who talks a LOT.
Sonora is more likely to spend his time commenting, complimenting and critiquing the surrounding action, rather than partaking in it. When he does actually partake, however, the opposing force is nothing less than decimated. Non-mortally, of course.

These two have been in making for a VERY long time and I’m super happy with the results!! They are definitely 2 of my favourite fusion designs so far, especially Sonora lmao but I might be biased towards all the bright colours <’:

These two are less “canon” to Flash’s story and more like… “maybe possible”, if that makes sense? While I like drawing my gems and canon gems together every now and then, I’m still not fully sure if my gems have/had any actual contact with them in ‘present time’ (definitely in the past tho), mostly because my gems don’t really have a ‘story’. Their purpose is for personal comfort/vent art, and a story is not necessary for me to evoke those feelings, often times I actually fear it would cheapen them? I don’t know, I’m rambling lmao

Anyway, enjoy Anyolite and the Sensational Sonora Sunrise!!

((PS; they are the only canon gem fusions with Flash that I’ll make, as they are the only two I feel comfortable with))


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The instinctive subtypes as I understand them

My attempt to consolidate what I’ve read in a way that filters/presents actual data without forcing them to fit it inso hamfisted, tortured shemes or concepts & to synthesize something from at times not all that concordant sources & illustrate descriptively where the differences are; I’m not under the illusion that I don’t have a PoV, but I can try.

Basically ppl initially theorized that each of the instincts would produce similar suptypes, but while they have certain similarities (ie, sp/sx being invested in their interests, sx/soc startng personal conversations with everyone… my mom somehow extracted a particular cashier’s entire family history), the ‘state of the art’ is that each type can present quite differently when filtered through one’s instincts, which fasciatingly illustrate how the self awareness/willpower, complex cognition, raw emotions & your instinctually driven brainstem all sit on top of each other and sorta form a whole.

In some types the subtypes can be fairly similar, in others they can be extremely different, especially when they go bad…

sp 1 - Someone who wants to be right/good/super-ego compliant when it comes to their own affairs and their everyday life; Might have a perfectionistic approach to their own work & behavior or even living space (keep it neat & presentable etc.) and/or turn it inward in an anxious way to the point of obsessive tendencies.  Might be cordial or, if healthy, even warm to others, not so much showing the cold or hot zeal you’d find in the other subtypes.

soc 1 - Has a colder, teacher-like demeanor; Most intellectual 1 especially with a 9 wing.  This is the “nitpicky” one the stereotypes are loosely based on, basically a person who wants things to be done right in society, wether it is the country at large, their workplace or their friend group, and be measured & controlled in their interactions with others.

sx 1 - Wants to spread in a ‘dialogue’ setting; Most likely to openly display anger, the type of person to be outraged at all the injustice in the world. Unhealthy individual might be a moral watchdog/ white knight/Nosy Neighbor projecting their own rejected impulses onto others or perpetate institutional/religious abuse, often having a “why not” approach to hypocritically fulfilling their desires on the side in the process of decrying others out of a twisted envy for their (”I repress my desires so everyone else should, too, even though it’s my cjoice to begin with”); Healthy individual would fight for actual good causes and be an uncorruptible whistleblower making sure society stays fair.

sp 2 - Quite different from the stereotype, this subtype hopes to make themselves loveable with a childlike, innocent/endearing demeanor. Might expect to be taken care of & act spoiled & entled; Sort of project more ‘static’ good attributes to attract the love & care of others & might feel they have to keep their attention/entertain them somehow to not be overlooked.   Healthier individuals will be sweet, charming & caring and provide for their loved ones with material/well-being related favors.

soc 2 - The “Charity Worker” or “Mom friend” sort of person. While the previous subtype acts overly childlike, this one is overly adult & wants to be in the role of the caretaker while perhaps overlooking their own needs/ fill an important/helpful/indespensable role for a larger whole of people, perhaps an organization - for that reason this subtype can actually be ambitious & leaderlike to get an important position (and/or help a lot of people).  Can get meddlesome,  histrionic, dramatic (”You all don’t appreciate my efforts!”) and/or develop psychosomatic problems when unhealthy.

sx 2 - The closest to the stereotypical version; The sort of person who always needs to have someone to focus on/  (best friend, boy/girlfriend, children…) really can’t stand being alone. Unhealthy individuals might end up on the manipulative or codependent side, more functional ones will be giving & generous toward their loved ones.

sp 3 - The “Businessperson” Markedly different in that while they might still be braggarts, they’re not overtly flashy and might even disdain flashyness & rather play up their no-frills, pragmatic qualities; Projects an image of ‘being able to care for themselves completely’ & not needing anyone (”I didn’t take no free handouts from no one”) which might manifest as being very sucessful, ambitious & industrious, and, in the best case, inspirational, adaptive & preseverant with a “can do” attitude; Most focus on self-improvement.

soc 3 - Now here’s where the flashy is at; This is the commonly known version. Might be interested in fame & popularity or at least adoration in their circle, comes with a lot of “aura” around them, less enlightened individuals might tend toward the fake, shallow & grandiose, but in the more self-aware ones we find confident public self-love & ppl wo are very good at making an impact on others & making their dreams come true.

sx 3 - Also fairly different but accounts for a lot of em, for example, I was surprised to learn that 3 is the 2nd most common type among ESFJs, and sure there might be some enterpreneurial or flashy ones but they’re not what we most commonly think about… but that was before I got this info. This subtype will present as attractive according to the values present around them, maybe the gender norms,  they’ll try to have the perfect friends & family & partner, perfect house etc the stuff the magazines recomend to be liked & admired but more admiration by the ppl immediately around you than society at large; Might still make a good actress or star tho but in a different way.  Though all 3s are usually on the more extroverted side or at least very good at social maneuvering, it’s the least pronounced in this subtype and some can even be a little shy, maybe worrying if they measure up to what they feel society expects from them; As with all 3s getting an understanding about which wants & goals are truly theirs, being transparent about those and knowing that they’re valuable just for being people probably helps.

sp 4 - These are complex, apparently. I’m not sure f it depends on the wing, the exact stacking or simply how life has treated them, but these tend to fall into two categories; Their similarity is that they tend to deal with their feelings/uffering more by themselves, and might be kinda torn between wanting to take care of their shit by themselves but also lowkey wishing someone would notice, which they might deny or be embarassed about; Also they might use physical possesions/decorations as a means of self-espression but be detached of non-symbolic possesions.

Some of them might present as relatively sunny & quirky, with an undercurrent of melancholy there, the sort to try to keep up a smile and lament about the mishaps in their daily lives and self-console themselves with some chocolate or scented baths or other material things.

The others will do the “enduring it by themselves” more through projecting toughness (and might be easily mistaken for 6s or 8s.) sort of like this type of anime character who’s a tough, cold adult woman that is all embittered because of some sad backstory; In the extreme of that you get a risk-taking, vagabond–like person.

For whatever it’s worth, as a sp-first person with a w4 and secondary 4 fix, I’d say I have traits of both; It depends on which mood you catch me in.

soc 4 - Probably the ones that could be said to most overtly display shame; They’re also fairly different depending on their functionality level, less functonal ones will often compare themselves t others & find themselves lacking/ have low self-esteem and might (ironically) be the most socially anxious and/or avoidant and reclusive.

In the medium range some of them can be involved with subcultures (goth, hispter, punk, what-have-you) as a way to reconcile the opposing impulses of seeing themselves as disparate from the larger society but still wanting to belong to a group.

At their best they often become savy critics of society & will try to help keep society staying true to authentic ideals or make it better.

sx 4 - The 4 classic. Better characterized as a refusal to feel shame for who they are and perhaps a kind of resentment over their lot in life; Attitude of having been personally wronged. Dramatic & possibly competitive (especially with 3 wing), might be very critical of themselves and others & lament the unfairness of their situation, in extreme cases to to the point of vindictiveness, errecting an arrogant superior veneer or misanthropy (”I hate (normal) people.”)/ feel that others have it easier/get more attention than they deserve & be resentful over that;

Might be tempestous, intense & feel personally wronged, be moody or sullen & just generally have a lot of feelings.

As their best they’ll be uncompromisingsy idealistic & integrous and will turn their high standards toward being their best possible selves & doing the best possible work, generally very creative folks and care a lot about making sure everyone’s treated with respect & fairness despite their differences/ might want to help others also become their best possible selves & generally stand up

In searching partnerships they might run into the problem that they have very high standards and might not find someone who meets them or become disillusioned when their partners don’t live up to their ideals; Also I’ve read somewhere that they have the minor quirk of often staying friends with their exes.

It is to be noted that these usually start out as those super sweet  sensisitive, imaginaive children before middle school/[any random stressor]  happens to them and that a lucky few mantain/regain this in adulthood, but there’s always going to be a fierce, immediate quality to their individualism.

sp 5 - The ‘Hobbyist’ mostly spends all day with their own pursuit of their current obsessions; Introvert among introverts, autonomy & having their own space is very important (many chose to live alone or at least like to have their own area in the house, where they might keep personally significant or potentially useful stuff; Might be minimalistic. Or just quirky. Tends to really like the idea of “secret hiding places” & construct/stock a ‘lair’ that they won’t have to leave more often than necessary so they can follow their pursuits.  )

soc 5 - The most intellectual/detached & most uninterested in ‘everyday life’; often tries to fill the role of an ‘expert’ in society/a group & see that as somthing they have to ‘bring to the table/contrbute’; Often interested in symbolism or understanding how society works, the meanings behind great patterns, might have a tedency to admire people they agree with or find accomplished & be drawn toward groups of other ‘experts’. The most detached from small-scale everyday life. Less pleasant examples might be stuck-up & elist.

sx 5 - Least outright ‘academic’ and kinda more dreamy with more of a ‘natural’ curiosity a rich inner life & artsy inclinations, might dream of best friends and/or lovers but not be as good at realizing it IRL because of their withdrawn nature.

Could be mistaken for a non-sx-4 or  sx 9 but distinguished by the sharing of thoughts & information as  a point of appeal; Want to share thir own secret world with the person & have their thoughts be understood.

While individuals without sx in their stacking/in the last spot might want a partner who’s not too demanding & uncomplicated to live with, (if they’re interested in finding one at all), folks with a more pronounced sx insticts will look for friends &/or partners they can have an intellectual exchange with. (Or at least phantasize about finding them)

sp 6 - The “warm/cute” variant of 6. Looks endearing, kind & harmless so others will trust them, wants to be part of gropus in their local surroundings - family, community etc so less system-oriented, or rather working for the system in their immediate surroundings. Tedentially the most phobic/ compliant variant; Under extreme stress, turns into anxious nervous wreck.

soc 6 - Most intellectual, outright ‘mental’ and system-oriented variant, will seek to understand the rules that govern society, most sceptical, keeps authority in check, can be a sort of beaurocratic legaliatic person or a dutyfull whistlblower. Examples which go bad can become conspiracy theorists or outright paranoid.

sx 6 - The ‘warrior’/’punk’/’rebel’, most counterphobic & reactionary of the subtypes, most rebellious, sort of sublimates energy, the interpersonal “testing” behavior is probably most overt here. The sx drive toward making a direct impact on the people you regularly interact with comes out as wanting to have a tough, intimidating effect of people, to have them respect (and therefore not coss/harm/betray) you. Can be mistaken for 8 but while these are more ‘lone fighters’ or ‘ringleades’, & just want others not to cross them, the 6 will react more to perceived infractions into their ‘territory’ and rely on strenght in numbers where the 8 is adversrial & independent.

Can be real badass & stand up against unjust authorities/ actually get trusted & respected, but also become complete fanatists at worst.  

sp 7 - The ‘Hedonistic ‘Pragmatist’: Focussed toward getting their physical needs met and seeks physical/material pleasure. While some name the soc 7 as the ‘countertype’ I personally think the sp 7 is one that has the marked difference to the others: While other 7s will be idealistic and can be naive, this one is instead pragmatic, materialistic,  realistic & wordly quite unlike the ‘scattered, unfocussed, pixie dream girl’ 7 stereotype.

Can be a good business person, extroverted yet discernin nature helps to form  & secure & formaliances, and be pretty assertive and enterpreneurial, even agressive.

Less functional examples are at real risk for addictions (with or without substances involved) & can be pretty selfish & ruthless as they see much of the world as commodities to cosume and might lose sight of everything but ensuring their own material comfort.

soc 7 - Wants to make “the most of their time” in the sense of interacting with/ contributing to larger society and ‘doing worthwhile things’; Your classic ‘benevolent adventurer’, might travel the world with their friends and/or become a activist/ work toward noble causes, have a self-sacrificing bent. Probably the subtype where the ‘overplanning’ problem can be most apparent.

Maybe because the soc instinct’s drive to focus on the group and the fear to lose your own hapiness are more likely to conflict, this is the subtype where the inner anxiety can be the most prominent/ closest to the surface, especially with a 6 wing. Because of all this, can be mistaken for social 2, but ephasis, motivations & reactions will be subtly different as they’re not so much about earning the direct grattitude of others .

sx 7 - Seeks mainly intense experiences & connections to others and as such can be adventurous & very novelty-seeking. Often has a certain  ‘manic creativity’ to them, probably embodies the ‘positive’/’optimistic’ aspect of the 7 the most. Can be very dreamy, idealistic & energetic. Partnership wise, they might be very romantic & look for the one ideal person. 

Also adventurous, can have a tendency to be impressed by/aprreciate/ be excited about all the new cool things they encounter/people they meet.

One common downside is that these individuals can be a bit on the naive/ suggestible side, at least in their youth, and might end up inadvertedly sabotaging their relationships with their tendentially scattered nature. 

On the lower health levels, there can be actual manic tendencies, and increasing inability to control one’s emotions

Can occasionally be mistaken for a 4, especially with 4 fix.

sp 8 - The ‘tough lone fighter’ sort of 8; A bit like a sp 3, they’re going to want to show that they can take care of themselves and some might express this though securing material wealth, though the independence will be more pronounced, wating others to get off their case & respect their boundaries more than to make an impression on them like the 3 or ‘be the boss’ like the other subtypes (though they might still fill the boss role to get shit done/ not tolerate disrespect/just by virtue of acting dominant)

These are typically very self-governed ppl who don’t listen to or rely much on others and follow their own judgement, sometimes to the point of an ubermensch mentality. (not necessarily a bad thing depending on what their values happen to be, they could fall anywhere between honest, fortright & & following their own justice without yielding to outside pressure/hypocricy, or self-servingly amoral) One particular quirk/traits is that they will often act idependently/ “just go and do something” without referring to other authorities especially if it’s something related to getting what they need; In some cases this can lead to ruthlessness. 

soc 8 - The ‘ringleader/gangboss’ sort of 8, where the adversarial, jungle-survival-y attitude of the 8 gets projected onto their peer group & the strenght/ filling of the ‘strong’ role is lived in part through taking others under their wing. 

The worst example would be that one archetypical short guy leadin a band of bullies, flanked by two taller musclier cp6s. Or they could be muscly themselves, it’s the ‘ganboss/armed-with-a-posse’ part that’s the point. Exertion of power/intimidation through having a group as your asset. Other pitfalls can be black & white thinking where the ‘them’ group is seen as practically a caricature, ie basically mob mentality. (Donald Trump anyone?)

The best of them is pretty much the exact opposite, someone who protects & forms a band for the downtrodden. more the sort of person who’d kick a bully’s ass and offer the bully-ee to check out their friend group & empower them to be more confident; Of course part of that involves allowing themselves to feel tenderness for their friends (and indirectly, for themselves) & feel for their troubles. 

sx 8 - More geared toward projecting strenght & self-ruled-ness in terms of direct interpersonal impact, this is going to be a person with an impressive commanding and/or tough aura; Often someone you have to respect even i you don’t agree with them, a ‘charismatic/magnetic leader’ (more sx/soc) or intense rebel (more sx/sp) sort of person. 

Unhealthy individuals can have a volatile temper and be possesive, controling partners, though those are ppl shooting themselves in the foot due to their inability to fully trust others; Actually they’re the most at home in a ‘Lady & Knight’ sort of dynamic and a well-developed individual will be very comitted & devoted to their partner. 

While 8s with less pronounced sx instincts might look for a ‘worthy opponent’ type partner who is also impressive & idependent, this subtype especially is all about trust & look for someone who will be completely loyal & trusts their decisions & might even have self-awareness to recognize that that is because that makes them feel safe themselves. 

They take betrayal really badly (though most 8s do); At the very best they’ll wash their hands of you. Doesn’t help that many 8s are types with absent/polR or inferior Fi. This is not a place where you wanna poke them. 

sp 9 - An earthy creature of habit sort of person, whose means of ‘tuning out’ in times of stress will tend to be everyday/material comforts like food, watching TV etc.  Grounded, calm and patient. Though 9s generally tend to be your typical phlegmatic temperament/‘people-oriented introverts’, this subtype is the most likely to require frequent alone time. Has their own way of doing things and will put up resistance when asked to change their habits.

Tends to be humble & content with their peaceful everyday life but can be inflexible. 

soc 9 - This one can be a bit harder to identify because they might not look all that ‘passive’ at first, in fact, they can be quite hard-working, maybe a combined effect of the 9s identification with/reliance on he larger complete system/environment, and the soc instinct’s ability to really comprehend/grasp that ‘evironment’ and its constituents as more than a vague mass, thus the tendency to want to actively contribute to its continued existence & stability, but unlike, say, a 1 or 3 they will do this in a very self-effacing manner; 

In the worst case there’s where you find the ‘deadened office drone’ variety of disfunctional nine.

sx 9 - The most ‘dreamy’ nine where the ‘epic inner fantasy’ life is the most pronounced; ‘Idealized Identification with the environment’ will be more bound to particular people though the person themselves might not even be aware how much their idea of themselves & their lives is anchored in those people. he main point of synergy between the instinct and the type is a desire for unification so it’s not usual to find these ppl as nature-lovers, spiritual types, or just, looking for a deeper/ideal form of ‘peace’. 

Though with a ostly internal coping mechanism less functional examples can look apathetic & escapistic.

(Corrections always appreciated)

Honestly though, and I don’t intend this to be discoursy but I know someone is gonna go there but anyway

It is the most respectful thing you can possibly do, if you are attracted to someone, and they come out or you find out they are not the gender that you thought, and you are still attracted to them, it is a huge thing to then change how you identify to reflect that.

Cus like, honestly, most cis people will not do that. Ever. Most cis pople will but their comfort above our existence. I cannot count the amount of times someone has expressed their attraction to me in a way that has completely erased my identity, to the point where I actively avoid IRL queer spaces so I don’t have to deal with lesbians going “oh but you are basically a butch lesbian tho so it’s ok” (not to say that lesbians are more guilty of this, that’s just who I get it from most, being afab and masc-presenting). 

Surprisingly, it’s mostly been straight men that have been most willing to change how they identify to accommodate my gender (I don’t know if this would be true of the wider population, but it does make all these posts I see discoursers making all the more hilarious). It has been previously straight men who have said “Oh! Well I still like you, so that makes me bi? or pan?”. 

And honestly, that is such a fucking huge and validating thing, when all I hear from anyone else is “I will ignore how you identify yet still try to fuck you” or “ew a trans gross”. To hear “I respect your identity and I am willing to do anything, including publicly giving up my position of privilege and taking on a label that may well lose me friends and family if it means you feel respected and acknowledged as a non-binary person”. 

Like holy fucking shit, how can you look at that and call that transphobia? 

stonybnatural  asked:

Can I request Malec with the quote "I have crossed the horizon to find you" ?

off topic, but sure thing! I hope you like it. 

I present the “we liked each other in High School but we agreed not to talk to each other for 6 months and if we still feel the way we do, let’s meet at the Empire State Building and - oh shit I’m late, will you still be there?”

xx. “I have crossed the horizon to find you”

Magnus rushed through the crowds on the sidewalks, his scarf blowing in the wind and his nose running. He was sure to look to both sides before crossing the trafficated roads of Manhattan on this Friday afternoon.

The sun had set a few minutes ago and painted the sky deep orange and deep blue. It was a clear night and everything was set to be perfect.

If only Magnus’ train hadn’t been delayed for an hour and he was running late to meet up with Alec.

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pjmcito  asked:

69 or 81 + Jimin. (Love your writing btw, you're so talented <3)

au: makeup artist!au + fluff + epistolary form
words: 500
rating: s for shameless jimin
a/n: i chose 81 if you don’t mind!! and ty for the compliment ♡
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from: serenjiminty
to: y/n

>> do you think anyone will notice if i go out without shaving this morning


from: y/n
to: serenjiminty

>> dude have you seen the speed of which your 5′o clock shadow grows? i’d start calling it a 12′o clock shadow with how hairy your ass is


from: serenjiminty
to: y/n

>> so you admit to looking at my ass then? ;)


from: y/n
to: serenjiminty

>> jimin, everyone and their grandmother has looked at your ass. no need to act surprised
>> and second off, what does that have to do with the conversation?

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Baby Howlett (II) | Old Man Logan

Originally posted by thatfunnyweirdindiechick

You can read Part One here 

So you guys have been demanding for this to be written since April, and I thought.. well, why not? But I’m going to make this clear now, there will not be a third part to this fic. I just wanted to kick off for whenever I open all Logan requests again sometimes within the first or second week of June!

Previously - Logan learns of your pregnancy through Lauras confession.

Now - Snippets of the most precious times throughout your pregnancy lead you up to one of the happiest days of your life; the birth of your daughter y/d/n Howlett. 

Warnings: none? Logan is head over heels for his daughter???? 

ITALICS ARE FLASHBACKS; flashbacks are a sonogram appointment and Logan meeting your baby for the first time. Anything in regular text is present. 

Guys, when I open my Logan requests again, I’m going to finish the fics with no links in my Masterlist; AND THEN I AM ONLY TAKING THE FIRST DOZEN REQUESTS. I have no motivation to write for Logan anymore (I still love him tho) and would much rather write for someone else given that he has the most prompts of any character in my masterlist. 

Tag List: @rivertales @drewkelliii @house-of-penguin @weasleytheking @xavier-chxrles @hookedonawolverine @tigers-have-teeth @buckybabble @liveourlifelikenobodyelse @agirlinherhead @katiedreamy

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  • Voltron Fandom: *arguing over whether Keith was hatched from an egg or actually born (or whatever the toesies team stand for)*
  • Me, an intellectual: Keith came out of something and now he's alive and I love him for it.

anonymous asked:

I think Camila is finally over Lauren. Even I think her presentations have been camren af I think it is more bc of the concept of her album and not bc she still misses her. I wonder what does Lauren thinks/feels with all of this tho.

Yeah I think she’s slowly moving on, she’s telling the story now and I think it’s also kind of an healing process for her - since I think they ended things on good terms I’m sure Lauren is proud, probably sad to hear about all of it, but mostly proud.

Reasons I think Lup will come back:
  • Griffin acknowledged and responded to the bury your gays/fridging issues in the show. He had probably already established lup as a character and her backstory at this point and couldn’t think of a good way to change it, but at the very least he can bring her back. Even if he wasn’t aware of those issues tho, i feel like she would have come back anyway because:
    • Griffin loves to laugh in the face of death. There are two separate arcs that feature the ability to avoid death and so many characters have been resurrected. At this point it’s par to the course
  • Even though she’s dead she’s been a present force in the show and operating through the umbrastaff for a while now, and taako heard her voice when he put on the telepathy band, so she’s clearly still around somewhere
  • Barry’s a lich and she’s a better arcanist than he is so extrapolating from that she probably invented liches
    • Plus they tell each other everything so if barry’s a lich than either she taught him how to do it or he taught her
  • It would be really dramatic and I feel like she’d be down for that
  • Greg Grimauldis still owes her $15
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A/N: (⊃◜⌓◝⊂) finished more concept doodles for [Animus/JobSet AU]

[Law Enforcement] [Fuurin Shrine] [Ohara Apothecary]


Ramblings Info/Background below cut:

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