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The women’s PTSD group I’m in had a woman post once about how her husband came onto her and all she could think was “but we already had sex today” and about how much she was dreading it and feeling guilty about not wanting to and several other women commented about how much they all hate sex but they do it for their husbands. Reading it all made my heart hurt and I’ve been trying to think of what to say because I feel I should make a post about it or something but I can’t find words. I wish this was such a rare experience that all we could do is offer sympathy, but unfortunately that’s not the case.

heartthrob (pt. 1)

Originally posted by bangtannoonas

genre: fluff, angst, fuckboy!hoseok au, college au. 

note: this is the longest thing i’ve ever written pls have mercy on me.

part 2 | drabbles

“Heads up!” I hear an all too familiar voice call. I looked towards the origin of the voice and was hardly surprised to see Jung Hoseok, backwards snapback and all, with a football in his hand ready to throw it bluntly at the male I was currently speaking to. I narrowed my eyes at him, disapproving his typical overbearing behaviour. Hoseok simply winked at me, letting the ball fly from his hand directly at the male in front of me.

My hands immediately push the male away from danger, ready to receive the throw from the impossible man that I called my best friend. I recalled the endless hours I had practiced with Hoseok when his “bros” had dates to go on while he remained loyal to his bachelor, unholy ways. A smile formed on my lips as the ball landed in the cradle formed by my hands. I looked forward to see Hoseok smirking, but not at me, at the man currently on the ground because of the force of my unexpected shove.

“Taehyung, are you okay?” I asked, immediately helping the young man to his feet. The timid dark-haired boy brushed off the dirt and looked at me ready to reply but froze as his eyes locked on something behind me.

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wendeyishere  asked:

Hello sweety, I really love ur account, I start to be a believer in kaisoo this year, I am late I know, but I have a request I was looking for some jelousy moments bc these r my favorate moments ever any way all I could find is nini jelouse over soo and there is a lot of it but only 2 or 3 jelouse soo over nini :(((( can u do a long post about jelouse soo :) thanks 😘

Hi~ Seems like a lot of ppl wanna see some jelly ksoo moments~ 

Here are some that I could find ^o^ (there’s not a lot tho)

You could literally see his face fall..

Aw soo..

Lol it was quite funny tho, cuz even k e y noticed it

So he teased soo for it xD and soo tried to deny it but nah, he was being too obvious xD

When some old friend of nini called, and soo was acting weird xD the other members were being really cheerful and interacted with the girl, but soo was like >_>

This one might be looking too into it, cuz they were all pretty tired that day, but there was just smth about this that made my heart hurt a little..

When soo went and “stole” nini from taetae lol

Funny thing is that taetae quietly slipped away xD

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Emotionless?

Group/Member: BTS // Yoongi

Genre: Angst/Fluff

Word count: 634

Summary: Yoongi is looking through his phone, his insecurities hitting him. You comfort him and fluffy fluff :))) 


Originally posted by faqsuga

The noise from the TV in front of me was distant as my gaze around the room fell on my boyfriend of 8 months. He had a hurt look in his eyes while his thumb were scrolling down his phone, his black hair falling down in front of his eyes. I sat up scooting a little closer looking over his shoulder. “What is it?” He just kept looking down on his phone. “Babe?” I said a little louder. My arms found their way around his waist as I put my head on his back. “Am I really that bad Y/N?” I hear his voice weak in the dark room. “Where does this come from, Yoongi?” I asked shocked by his question. He got out of my arms turning around looking at my confused face. His eyes fell down to his hands, as I knew he were struggling to find his words. “I just… You know… Am I really as cold and heartless as people say I am?” I felt my heart sink as I heard his voice full of insecurities. “Do I give you enough love Y/N? Am I really that emotionless?” I knew that Yoongi had a certain reputation being an idol and all, but this? This made my heart hurt so much. He is the most loving and caring man I know, even if he might not always show it, you can always see it through his small actions every now and then. I took his phone out of his hands making him look me in the eyes. Even though he’s cold sometimes and mostly it’s sarcasm that comes out of his mouth, he is full of emotions and it’s times like these where he can’t hold it in that he really opens up. I took his face in my hands looking him deep in his eyes, letting him know that what I was going to say was truly what I felt and knew “Yoongi, You are the most caring person I know and you’re not heartless or cold. I can’t ask for more love from you, as I know your giving me all the love you can. I love you so much and I know you love me too, so please shut up about this and don’t take it in because we both know none of that is true.” I kissed his lips, feeling a tear on my cheek. I pulled away looking at his beautiful face, wiping a tear of his away with my thumb. He pulled me in close for a long hug, his chin resting on my head. We stayed like this for a couple of minutes just listening to each other’s heartbeats, enjoying the silence together. He pulled away taking a strand of hair behind my ear, smiling down at me with loving eyes. And people say this little fluff ball is emotionless?

That night Yoongi held me closer than usual. Don’t get me wrong we always cuddled, just that this time it was different. It was like he wanted to prove something, I don’t know if it was for him or me but I knew how much he cared and that it was hard for him holding his emotions in all the time. I don’t know why he always did that, I’m just happy he at least has me, and his music to get it all out. I felt his hand take mine, and a kiss on the back of my shoulder, “Goodnight Y/N” he whispered in my ear. “Goodnight Yoongi” I closed my eyes feeling my breath get heavier by every second that passed. Right before I fell asleep I heard a soft whisper from the man beside me “I will give you almost all my love so no other man can take my place”.

An Elucien Epilogue (ACOTAR fanfic)

This is an epilogue-esque ending to “A Court of Wings and Ruin”, so obviously SPOILER ALERT!

Summary: Lucien returns to Velaris after the events of ACOWAR, determined to be a better male than Tamlin and put aside his mating bond if that’s what Elain wants.

Thank you THANK YOU thank you to the wonderful, talented, and overall amazing @feyre-archerons-scrapbook // @the-other-sam for being my Beta reader and pointing out that somehow my brain decided Azriel was a “Shadowslinger” XD  She’s seriously the best- everyone follow her!

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Shawn!hotel room bullet points

requested

A/N: can we just take in the fact that when I wrote ‘melancholic’ it autocorrected to ‘Melon chili cheese’, also, I’m not sure I’ve done this right? But if you guys want more I’ll be more than happy to oblige cause wow this made my heart hurt, feedback is always lovely! :))) and it’s summer break in the UK so get ready for more average writing!!! (That you didn’t ask for)

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  • This isn’t new for Shawn (he’s done it thousands of times)
  • But for you it’s a new experience so you’re excited of the prospect of a luxury hotel
  • “Oo, Shawn look, miniature soaps!”
  • “Babe come here”
  • "No wait look…oh my gosh, they even have a miniature hand cream!”
  • He’d look at you as you’re dressed in just his shirt - bare legged and beautiful - and whine, saying "Come on baby, help me pick what to eat I can’t choose
  • And you’d stare back, eyes not interested in the mini soaps or toothpaste anymore and smile, basking in his post concert glow and slowly walk towards the bed and then knee walk across the soft cotton
  • you’d plop down, leaning your giddy body against his and say “Umm…” biting on your lip and gnawing on the skin in thought
  • But he’s not looking at the room service menu
  • He’s grinning, saying “Actually-” grabbing your attention “-I’m not that hungry for food anymore” and then he’d lean into you
  • Give you a coy look
  • And you’d laugh, say “I’m not on the menu for tonight” and he’d pout at you, all puppy dog eyes and full lips and then you’d kiss him, giggling as he says “But what if I’m really, really craving it?”
  • Then after dinner
  • When housekeeping have taken the empty plates
  • He’d pull you down onto the bed and nuzzle your neck, the moonlight cascading through the windows - illuminating his content features and small smile on his plump pink lips

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anonymous asked:

... mchanzo fic recs, you say? :D Show us the way!

*cracks knuckles* I should be doing work but this is totally more important lmao

If you’ve searched by kudos, then you probably already saw Hang the Fool on the list so I’m not going to link to it. My own personal recs:

Finished Fics:

four days - raise your hand if you’re a sucker for the fake relationship trope! Jesse convinces Hanzo to pretend to be his boyfriend when he goes home to visit his mom and sisters. Freaking adorable.

Good Fences Make Good Neighbors - same trope as above, except this time the pair are undercover pretending to be married. A lot of humor…Hanzo’s rivalry with one of the neighborhood women is fantastic.

Cowman and the Dragonfly - THIS ONE MADE MY HEART HURT. Hanzo and Jesse meet when they’re younger and are reunited after Hanzo joins Overwatch. Short but sweet (and a happy ending).

Lost in Translation - Pining Hanzo flirts with Jesse, but only in Japanese…which Jesse doesn’t understand. Genji is horrified and it’s fantastic. 

Threads - Soulmate AU with the red string of fate. Hanzo has given up hope of ever meeting his soulmate, but Jesse hasn’t

Oh Simple Thing - another sad one with a happy ending. Hanzo and Jesse are reunited years after they’ve retired from Overwatch. 

WIPs:

The New Tattoo - Another soulmate AU! Every time you fall in love (platonic or romantic) a tattoo shows up on your body showing what they mean to you. I think you can imagine where this goes. 

Points on a Circle - I like this one cause the chapters switch character POV, focusing mainly on Hanzo, Jesse and Satya. If you like fics involving the noodle dragons (aka Hanzo’s dragons) this is a good one. 

I have a TON more in my marked for later folder, but I haven’t had a ton of time to read lately so I’m super behind. These are the ones that stick out as must-reads for me, though. I’m also sure I’m forgetting some, so if anyone has others they want to add, feel free! Enjoy :D

Harry Styles Album Review

You guys, I have waited way to long for this album to come out. I’M SHOOK (I might say that a lot), But here is my (honest) opinion on each song and at the end I’ll give my overall opinion on the album.

(These are all just my opinions! We all are all allowed our own)

Here we go…

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Meet Me in the Hallway

VIBES VIBES VIBES 

Such an amazing song and I honestly was shocked he made a song that sounds like that (well actually that goes for all the songs on this album). But I honestly really liked the song. I like the way his voice sounded in the song too. It’s pretty emotional too.

Sign of the times

I mean I’ve heard this song a hundred times and each time it’s a great experience. I love the vocals, and I love the lyrics! Every time I hear it on radio I bump up the volume and just freaking soak in his voice. I think he made a great move choosing it as his first single.

When I hear the song I just feel proud.

Carolina 

I loved it literally right away! IT’S A BOP! Lyrics and vocals 10/10!!!! I was so happy he made a song that sounded like this.

It kinda makes me want to go to the beach and run around in a small faded orange bikini ( I actually am a west coaster ;P)

Two Ghosts

This song got me caught up in my feelings. Lots of emotion in there and it kinda made my heart hurt just a little. Lyrics are great and vocals on point. It kinda sounds like it could’ve been on One Direction’s Made in the AM album, honestly.

“Trying to remember how it feels to have a heart beat” 

Sweet Creature 

It’s so soft and calm and it weirdly feels safe? Like I feel if I’m scared and I listen to the song it’ll make me feel better! Yeah…don’t have much else to say about this one. Obviously his vocals were amazing!

But it’s the song I’ve listened to the least. In my opinion compared to the other songs on this album it’s not as interesting (that doesn’t mean I don’t like it, I do, I really do, but not as much as the rest)

Only Angel 

I thought it was going to be another slow emotional song but then he hit it with the “HEY, HEY” and I was like OH MY GOD YES HARRY. This song helped me start to see the more rock n’ roll side of Mr. Styles. LYRICS KILLED ME!!!! VOCALS KILLED ME!!!! THE GUITAR KILLED ME!!!! THE WHOLE SOND KILLED ME!!! Defiantly one of my favorites!

This is the song I dance around my house to in only underwear.

Kiwi

Fucking definition of rock star!!! Another song that shocked me. 

The weird thing about this song is that it actually made me cry real tears because I didn’t know how much of a true rockstar harry could be. The lyrics make no fucking sense but I loved it!! 

I’m not joking I started crying, then I started rocking out.

Ever Since New York

Its been stuck in my head since SNL…It’s kinda simple are really repetitive and I usually wouldn’t like songs like that but I genuinely am obsessed! I honestly don’t know why, I really love Ever Since New York

Women

HANDS DOWN MY FAVORITE SONG! This song is so full of spunk and sensuality and thats the shit i’ve wanted from Harry since he’s been solo! I’ve been listening to this song non-stop. It has the right amount of vulnerability and sexuality without being raunchy at all! The lyrics are engraved in my head and that FREAKING GUITAR! I could say so much for this song, because I absolutely love it.

It kinda brings out this inner vixen in me (plus it’s a good song to have sex to)

From the Table 

Honest (that word sums it up)

I feel like this song is painfully honest and it makes me actually feel something. You can tell this was written from some sort of experience of his and you have to respect that bravery. I LOVED his voice in this. I want to give him a hug after listening to this! 

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Over all the album was a solid for me and really made me see Harry in a different and more mature way, and thats what we needed form him!! 

The lyrics weren’t turn over or made “appropriate”, It was all raw and true and I’m very satisfied. I didn’t want a PG album. I’m proud of Harry and he deserves all success he’s receiving.

I recommend this album to EVERYONE, because I think it has a song in it that everyone, young and old, will love!

Even though I don’t have tickets, seeing how he performs these songs live (through video) will be amazing and I can’t wait to see the kind of energy he has when he performs these songs!

It actually shocked me and It impressed me, and I really can’t wait for his future work. 





Now tell me your opinion!

At the end of the day, we still love Jackson.

We all know Jackson loves and appreciates the black culture. We’ve known this for a while and we talk about it all the time. Was it the best way to express it? Absolutely not. Was his response right? Absolutely not. But we also know Jackson doesn’t have a malicious bone in his body. We also know that Asian countries, Korea especially has a long history of racism and culture appropriation. AND we all know the comments on his Insta were waaay out of pocket. They were so rude and unnecessary that they made my heart hurt for him.

I will not be unstanning Jackson or GOT7, but I will not deny that this will be a hard time. I am upset, but more at his comment than anything else. You learn from your mistakes, so let’s just hope Jackson has learned from his. I was up all night thinking about this.

please read and pass along so queen Vic sees it and comments on it/ reblogs (part one)

okay y'all. im goons try to keep this short. over a year ago, i began reading red queen. it was by far one of the best days of my life. im writing this for three reasons. one, i want queen v to see it and know just how much she means to me. two, today i got scared. i got really scared that one day red queen will no longer make me feel the intense love i feel now. three, i had this dream that i was a number one nyt bestselling author and me and queen vic went to go have lunch. queen vic if you read this hmu. i know some pretty gucci restaurants in ri. haha. 😂 okay so back to the beginning of the story, i was walking around bn before gs came out and i saw this book … with the most gorgeous cover i have ever seen. and then i read the back. i instantly connected with this book. i loved it so so much and i hadn’t even read it yet. my depression and anxiety were so bad at this point and i had already started cutting. so then i started reading this book, it was AMAZING. i just felt this connection with mare, as if she were real and i could just talk to her. and i felt so … not alone for the first time in a long time. it was this unimaginable love. it made my heart hurt in the best way possible. glass sword came out by the time i finished reading it. i was so so in love. ask anyone, there is not a day have gone without having a conniption at least one since i started reading it. so the next year was really hard. the arrival of kc kept me going. during that year, I MET VICTORIA AVEYARD in east long meadow at kidly winks in June of 2016. IT WAS LITERALLY THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE. it was the most personal thing to me so im not gonna describe what happened other than HOLY SHIT. I WAS ON CLOUD NINE ☁️ FOR WEEKS. she was just so amazing. idek what to say. after we left the store, I cried. and honestly i miss her sm. i gave her a million hugs and was honestly an awkward but. i hope she didn’t judge too much. it was great. we hugged, complemented each other, our moms talked to each other. I STILL can’t get over it, but quite a while after that, things got so bad that i couldn’t function anymore. i was NEVER happy. i hid my rq books because i didn’t want to see them and have them lose their meaning in this dark time. so, then i was admitted to bradley, a children’s psychiatric hospital, an intensive outpatient program. the first day i was there i was determined to die. i said i would kill myself before kc because i waited so long and came so far, i just had to make it until then, right? wrong. so while i was in Bradley, i was happy for the first time in a while, but not until kc came out. everyone there, even my psychiatrist said it helped immensely with my recovery. everyone told me i look so much happier. even in that hellhole they call school. my mom said that i was the happiest she had seen me in a long time. my best friend the hope, the sparkle in my eyes was back. it made me realize how much i love some of the things in this world. when i left Bradley, everyone said i was the red queen and positive messages about how strong i was like mare. I still carry those letters around because there still are low points. they never just go away. but now there’s a difference. im happy. i have hope. for that, i am immensely grateful. i love you so so much queen vic. and let me just say, i absolutely support the end of kc. of course im sad, but i understand that as an author sometimes ya gotta do whatcha gotta do. and just like kc gave me hope in my life, i have hope and faith in queen vic and what you do with rq4. stop hating on her y'all. again, i just want to say thank you and *anxiety takes over* please don’t think im crazy. (Btw just thought of this, im gonna post some pics right after bc idk how to put them in here) i just want you to know this because you deserve to and honestly, it was helpful for me to put it all down and not try to cram it into you’re ask box in a few asks as possible. again, thanks and love you. ❤️ @vaveyard

~iliana🌹

Monsta X in Chicago

this is going to be long, as I got carried away on the 4 hour plane ride back to the west coast. 

Monsta X was amazing. There is no other way to describe the experience to be honest. Their performance, their chemistry, their energy was incredible. I would 150% travel to see them again. It was one of the best shows I had ever been, kpop or not. 

From the beginning you could tell that they were completely taken aback by the crowd and how LOUD we were. I love going to shows in Chicago because the energy is always turned up to the max. They had said that they never get reactions like that in Asia so it was really unexpected. Which made my heart hurt a little bit. They deserve so much love and affection. And you could tell how much our reaction meant to them. 

You could see it on their faces. I.M kept repeating that he would never forget that night. He said it probably 4 or 5 times. Kihyun would stare at the crowd with a huge smile on his face as we cheered so loudly. When they did their introductions Wonho definitely got the loudest reaction which made everyone in Monsta X smile. When someone down the line was introducing himself Wonho took off his jacket and the crowd ERUPTED and no one in Monsta X knew why until they saw that he had his jacket off. Jooheon asked us to cheer for Wonho’s muscles several times throughout the night. 

AND DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE TIGHT WHITE PANTS THEY WERE ALL WEARING.

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[shaky off-tune kazoo version of the jaws theme playing in the distance]

Hello, everyone.

First of all, I’m so incredibly sorry for just vanishing for more than half a year, especially because I realized my last post was about a hospital stay (which I did mention was harmless, but probably still looks pretty ominous as a last post.)
I feel terrible for making people worry, especially since there’s already enough upsetting stuff happening :c 

To be honest I’m a little nervous writing this post right now after being gone for so long, but I really wanted to give a life sign! This weekend I finally checked my inbox, and I was incredibly touched by all the sweet messages. I can’t get back to everyone so let me just thank all of you who sent messages or replies, or even just thought about me! I cannot put into words how much it means to me ;-; It made my heart hurt in a good way, and I hope good things happen to you!

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Undeniable Heat Chapter 17: Troubled Waters

Jensen Ackles x Reader

1300 Words

Chapter Summary: Still reeling from having Brad back in the picture, you take the rest of the day off.

Story Summary: You’ve just gotten a job as one of the makeup artists on the set of Supernatural. Nervous on the first day, you become completely awkward, winning the affection of the divorced Jensen Ackles. You try to fight your desire for him, but he thwarts you at every turn. Will you be able you separate work and play, or will you let Jensen win?

Catch Up Here: Masterpost

As soon as you made it through the door, you collapsed on the couch, your energy zapped. It had been such a straining day, and you wanted nothing more than to curl into your bed, and forget that the world existed. But your bed was too far away, and you settled for the couch, pulling a throw over you, and shoving your face into the arm.

Why did Brad have to show up? You were finally feeling free of him, and back to the person before he had so torn you apart, and with one appearance, you were now back to the shaking, quivering mess. Memories, or nightmares, flashed in your mind. Of fists flying, and boots landing on your stomach. Of bruises everywhere you looked, and mornings you were so sore you couldn’t climb out of bed. Then, there had been the verbal abuse.

Clutching your hands to your head, you tried to keep the thoughts away. You had thought with a new town, and a new job, you would have gotten away from everything. That you would have been able to start afresh.

Through your dark and dreary thoughts, you noticed your phone ringing. Taking a deep breath, you answered it, needing to talk to someone who would understand. “Tiffany?”

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Shape of You (12)

I hope this mends a few broken hearts. Enjoy =)

@arianacullen2008 @rayyvenous @noisyunknowninfluencer @imbrownthatswhy @courtcabeswater @always-love-your-self @nightlark-naitohibari @foreverlovingthenightskies @dragonbound135 @actualfeysandtrash @queen-sansa–stark @sheshibori @wingsofanillyrian @sherattledthestars @queenofshadows1 @rayonfrozenwings @stripesandpolkadot @allthestarswecansee @yourejustassaneasiam3 @haileanneposts @crazybookladythings @becca2810 @queenzofillea @automatictyrantcollector

(I hope I got everyone! It was a long list)

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Chapter 12

It didn’t hurt as much at work, surrounded by books. Even though the day was dragging and I felt like time would never move forward. It still hurt, that crack in my heart had gotten bigger but it wasn’t throbbing when I could focus on something other than what had happened. When I could look at the books and pretend like my life wasn’t falling apart. It was slightly easier to breathe, but I knew when I went home the numbness would fade.

And the pain would return.

When I woke up Feyre was still there. She had crawled into bed with me and stayed, trying to help ease my pain. I wasn’t any nicer to her. I was worse and I knew it was wrong. Because she didn’t have to stay. She didn’t have to try and help me.

But she did. Because for some reason Feyre always cared more than us. She always tried harder. And that made this whole thing worse. It made my heart hurt worse. It made the break ache even more than before.

Because it reminded me of all those years ago when she used to hold my hand and we all slept in a bed together. When we were poor and cold and our father didn’t give a damn about us. It was Feyre who kept us warm, who kept the clothes on our backs. It was Feyre who sang Elain a lullaby so she could sleep.

And it was Feyre who was trying so hard to mend my broken heart. My broken world.

Today all I wanted to do was snap at her. I was done crying so now my grief had turned to anger. I was angry at the world and my little sister was in my path.

Feyre left when I went to get ready for work. She hugged me tightly and promised it would get better. I knew she wanted to tell me to talk to Cassian, but right now I couldn’t. She knew that too so she didn’t push that on me. She was just there for me. Promising to call me later to check up.

I was seven hours into my shift and the hollowness in my chest was still there.

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DRACO MALFOY X READER

A/n: in this series Cedric hasn’t died. 

 Draco X Reader
 

  Seeing her walking down the hallway beside him made my heart hurt every time I’d get a sight of them, her smile towards him just make me feel even worst. I can’t say that she wasn’t the light in my whole world of darkness. The only light in my life after I got the Dark Mark, she was the only one that made me keep going. Even though, I knew that in the end we would be fighting for different sides. Different reasons. Being a Malfoy signed my future since I was born, I was born for this. To fight for Voldemort.

   I was walking back to Slytherin common room when I bumped into someone. By the cologne I could recognize her. Y/n. 

 “I’m so-sorry. I was a little bit distracted.” Her voice cut the silence. I was a little disappointed that she didn’t dare to look up at me. 

“Never mind”, I said and she just let go of my arms that she was using as support to not fall.

 “I should get going. It was nice to see you, Draco.” She said and turned around going back to wherever she had came from.

   When I got to my shared room, I just couldn’t sleep. She was always on my mind. She’s so beautiful. She’s my dream that came true and I’d let slip through my fingers. Closing my eyes I could still feel her lips on my neck, her hands running through my hair, the sweetness that her eyes would give me when we’d share glances. But now almost all of this was to him. To Cedric. I know that their friendship was more than that to him, and he also being in the Huffle-Puff house just made everything much easier. At least half of the school think that they’re made for each other, and the other half it’s just worried enough about their own personal problems to opinate on somebody else’s relationship. But I was in the third part, alone. Thinking why I did that to her. Pansy it’s just another bitch that I have the displeasure to have sex with. I fucked her, and she spread the word. And a few hours later Y/n showed up at the Slytherin dinning table and just throw the ring I gave her in my chest. And when I looked up it hit me like a hurricane. See her make up all messed up because of the tears just broke my heart. She was so vulnerable, she doesn’t deserve any of the shit I did to her. I don’t deserve her.   And I don’t know why I can’t get her out of my mind and let her be happy. It’s this what love is about, right? To love someone so much that you rather see her happy with someone else and be happy for her right? Wrong. This is so fucking wrong. I can’t stand seeing her with him, I know I’m a stupid jealous prick. But I just can’t. She is everything I need to feel fine again. As weeks passed by and the Christmas break was getting close, I could notice that she’d got back walking alone and with her head down. And when everyone was ready to leave and I saw her merely waving a goodbye to Cedric, I realized that something was wrong. 

“Hey, something wrong? ”, I asked when I sat beside her on her house table. 

“No. Everything is fine.” She smiled, and focused on the chocolate frogs, and when she opened one box and the little frog jumped she let out a soft giggle.

“You know that they can jump only one time right?” 

“Yeah. But I can’t grab them before they do it. ”

 “Years and years of training, my dear.”   She just let a sigh out and turn to the beans. 

“Well, beans don’t jump.”

“Yeah, yeah they don’t.” And after a long time I smiled, honestly. We spent almost the whole night together, telling stories, remembering our own and everything. It was good to see that she didn’t kept any rage or anger towards me. It kinda give me a little hope. 

 “You could stay the night.” was what she said when I got up to leave. 

 “Ar-are you sure? I mean, I can go back to my room.” I was a little breathless. She asked me to stay. She did it.

 “Yes, stay. I don’t like being here alone.” 

“But what about Cedric?” As soon as the words left my lips I saw a little bit of sadness in her eyes. “I’m sorry, I should get going.” 

 “Draco, stay. Cedric won’t mind. I promise.” 

“What happened?” I whispered to her ear as I lay beside her. 

“Uh… I just saw him with an Asian girl these days.” With this said, her arms got a little bit tighter herself. 

“I’m sorry.” That was all I could say. I couldn’t judge him because I did just the same. Having these thoughts on my mind made me snap out of what was happening, and when I looked at her to see what was happening, I’ve felt her lips on mine. And three seconds later she was sitting in my lap kissing me roughly. My hands ran faster that I couldn’t even realize and the stopped in her waist, where I pressed a little bit and heard her moan low next to my ear lobe, where she did left a small bite. She started to unbutton my shirt and I did the same with hers. At the moment that our clothes touched the ground, I lead my hands to her backs and started to take her bra out and in the following second I could stare at her bare chest, her tan skin matched perfectly with the blue underwear that she were wearing. She smiled and leant a little bit down and ours lips touched again.

I was standing over her, supporting my weight on my arms, already naked. I stared at her hazel-grace eyes a she gave me a slight nod. In the next second I pressed my member in her pussy allowing it to enter her.

A few hours later I woke up and looked at her, sleeping right beside my with her right hand over my abdomen. Did I already mention that I am completely in love with her? 

“Stop staring.”, she murmured with a sleepy voice. 

“I couldn’t resist.” I smiled when she pressed my hand. 

“Alright then.”, she looked at me. With a few thoughts on my head I looked at her and knew that she was thinking about the same thing I was. 

“How do we stay now?” As soon as I left those words left my mouth, I felt her tense a little under my touch. 

“I don’t know. How do you want us to stay?” 

“I want to be with you. But I don’t know if you want the same.” I admitted and stare back at the roof. 

 “I want this either. But I don’t know if I am really ready to get over everything that happened between us yet. ”

 Ouch! That hurt. But at least I knew that she was willing to be with me. 

 “We can work things out. We can make it right this time.” 

“I don’t have any doubt about this. I know we can. But it still hurts you know. And seeing that Pansy keeps that freaking smirk on her face every time I’m around kills me.”

“Pansy what? She keep going on with this shit? What in the bloody hell is wrong with her? Is she disturbed?” 

“I don’t know what’s wrong with her, but it seems that she kept seeing you after that. ” 

“ No she didn’t. I’d never stayed in the same room she was in except for the classes. Did she said that?” I could feel my blood boiling in my veins. That little bitch. Who dared she? 

“I’m going to have a little talk with her tomorrow morning.” 

“If this problem with Parkinson get solved as soon as possible, than we might talk about what really can happen between us. Until that, this is all what we gonna have. Seeing each other hidden.” And with that said, she turned her back to me and fall asleep. Not more that five minutes I did the same.    

Originally posted by crystelgreene

Undeniable Heat Chapter 49: Home Sweet Home

Jensen Ackles x Reader

1150 Words

Story Summary:

Catch Up Here: Masterpost

“Do you really have to leave?” Jared whined as you glanced around the living room, making sure all of your new furniture was exactly the way you wanted it. “I’ve kinda grown used to having you around the house, and it will be kind of lonely without you there.”

Reaching up, you patted the big man’s shoulder. “I’m gonna miss being at your place too. With your fabulous barbecues, and that wonderful guest room of yours. But it’s time for Jensen and I to be back on our own, and our house is almost finished.”

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anonymous asked:

hi!!!! just wondering if you had any recs like your fic Understand Me??? xoxoxoxoxooxoxox

Hello!! FIRSTLY, I am so so sorry this took so long but a lot of these I haven’t read for a while or haven’t caught up on them so I had to go back all over them and just dhfsdhfadffh so I’m really sorry about that! Forgive me pls

(Also I’m not really sure what pairings you want so I’ll just share some of my fave fics that I’m reading/have read)

Lucky for you I read too many fics for my own good so if you’re looking for fics like Understand Me I have some nice angsty ones I’ve read AND some 2Jae/MarkJin if that’s the pairings you’re looking for ;)

MarkJin:
Loves Quiet Place by niazkilam
Status - Ongoing. Not rated. College AU. This fic explores what most (even pro) writers stray away from - representing characters with common disabilities. The writer shows how we can adapt to include and support communities of deaf people. A lovely, fluffy, slow-burn fic with cute drawings sprinkled here and there to go along with the story. Gave me serious feels already. High expectations for how this fic will unravel.

Blue Neighbourhood by gotsichi7
Status - Completed. Mature. A wonderfully angsty AU, but beware of issues such as smoking and alcohol abuse throughout. Cleverly (and heavily) inspired by Troye Sivan’s studio album ‘Blue Neighbourhood’. Well-written with a few editing mistakes (but not enough to take away from the story). Graphic scenes of smut. Definitely listen to the album while reading.

No more empty chairs (Route 66) by jinyoungstuan
Status - Completed. Teen and Up. College AU in which Jinyoung is the main announcer on his university’s local radio station and Mark is a past street-racer. Deals with heavy topics such as depression and suicidal thoughts/attempts. Angst galore. Well-written with a few editing mistakes. I like a lot this writer’s fics and would recommend you read some more of theirs!

YoonSeok:
Oops, Sorry by VeryGhost
Status - Completed. Teen and Up. Wrong number texting AU in which Hoseok is a college student and Yoongi is an underground rapper. Very cute and low-key angsty.. Side NamJin and VMin. Quite a simple fic but it really made my heart hurt at points. Haven’t finished it yet but I love it so far.

A simple question by ItsaShrillFeeling
Status - Ongoing. General. Idol-verse AU like Understand Me. Sweet and fluffy. Quite simple but has an interesting story-line. This fic explores struggling with/ discovering ones sexuality. Interested in seeing how this story pans out.

Let’s Try and Try Again by forjimin
Status - Completed. Explicit. College/Friends with Benefits AU. It explores manipulation in a relationship and the effects of coping with traumatic life events in an unhealthy manner. As surprising as it may be it was one of the few fics that actually made me cry. Feel free to ask me why if you want.

YoonMin:
The Letter Thief by d4wndust
Status - Completed. Teen and Up. Wrong number texting AU. Explores overcoming depression. Very simple but 100% guaranteed to make you sob by the last chapter. (I sobbed like a baby at the end) Must listen to each song mentioned for added effect. Side TaeKook. 

XiuChen:
Mechanical by vixxedfeelings
Status - Ongoing. Teen and Up. Robot AU (I guess??) Mystery. Slow burn, angst and pining. Very interesting story-line. I anticipate the outcome and discovering just exactly what’s happening. Very slow updates. 

TaeGi: (Now for shameful exposure)
Where The Heart Is by roachprince
Status - Ongoing. Explicit. Pretend boyfriends AU. Quite funny with a slow burn and then suddenly goes from 0 to 100 (aka smut) It’s done for plot and if you read on far enough you’ll find out why. Quite well-written. Mentions of past CSA. Past YoonSeok and VMin. Side NamJin and JiHope.  

Finding Home by Bandit4Life
Status - Completed. Not rated. AU. Explores depression, anxiety, self-harm, eating disorders and attempted suicide. Please be respectful to the writer as this fic was wholly based on their real life experiences. Hurt my heart so much, but I loved this fic. 

JackBam: (I actually don’t ship JackBam lol but this fic is great)
Jupiter In Retrograde by amerithotkongs
Status - Ongoing. Explicit. 1980′s AU. Had me hooked from the very first sentence. Lovely, flowing writing style - clearly well-written and thought out. Dialogue is exceptional (since this is something writer’s often struggle with) sentences just seem to flow so naturally. Love it. High expectations. Side MarkJin.

2Min:
Somewhere Far Away From Here by nonsensicalnonsense
Status - Completed. Not rated. High school AU. A lovely lil first person fic about discovering and accepting ones sexuality. Though it’s not tagged as such beware of tooth-rotting fluff. Angst fest. Very cute. Side JongKey. 

HimDae:
The Thin Space Between Us by Jishubunny
Status - Completed. Teen and Up. A one shot exploring into the mind of a person suffering with OCD. Very sweet. Fluffy and cute. A bit unrealistic but a nice and easy read. 

The World in a Grain of Sand by jezzberry
Status - Completed. Mature. Yoga Au (of all things…) Honestly such a guilty pleasure fic. Very artistically written. Most definitely well-written. Like honestly I was shook by the writing. Lots of metaphors but that just helps in drawing you in.

baby, baby by andnowforyaya
Status - Completed. General. Babysitting AU. Single parent Himchan and babysitter Daehyun. One of my personal faves. Just plain adorable. Cute, sweet fluffiness. Also funny. Quite well-written. Tugged on my heart strings a lot.

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I’m actually so sorry but I thought long and hard about it before realising that I don’t really read a lot of 2Jae, like, I’m a 2Jae hoe but don’t really read any 2Jae fics :/ Also idol-verse fics are very hard to come across so I apologise that I couldn’t tailor to your request that well :(

Despite that, I hope you like some of these :) I specialise in rare pairs but you should definitely give them a try and also these fics a try cuz personally I think the majority are very good! (I’m just so shocked at how many of these were so explicit. Oops?) Please tell me if some of the links are faulty.

Thanks so much for the ask btw!!

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So I’ve recently started binging sense8 (watched the 2 seasons in 3 days or something) and I really fucking love Bug. He’s so honest and cares about his friends, and his happy, unbelieving face when Nomi and Neets invited him at their Christmas party just made my heart hurt tbh. So here’s to bug, friend, hacker, lovable idiot and imo one of the best characters.