this-is-why-i-should-not-try-to-be-creative-at-all

anonymous asked:

I was an art major and now I'm a graphic designer, and I hate my day job. It's not creative, and everything about it is objectively terrible. I haven't done any personal art in literally years and I hate myself constantly for it. I can't call myself an artist. How do I start again? How can I do art? It's making me cry even thinking about it. I love art so much but I just can't force myself to start again. I miss it, but now I'm so scared to even try.

I’ve been where you are (working in a field I didn’t enjoy) and I know how draining it can be putting all your creative energy into something that makes you miserable. 

I guess the big question you should ask yourself is, why are you scared to try? If it’s fear of failure, a good way to look at it is: what’s the worst that can happen? If you fail, you’ll be exactly where you are now but will at least know you tried. But if you never try, you never have the chance to succeed and will always be left wondering “what if?” And if you’re determined enough and work hard enough, there’s a good chance you will succeed.

If the fear has to do with job security and finances, I definitely understand that. That’s what kept me working jobs I didn’t love for as long as I did. There are ways you can make changes towards your ideal career goals without taking too many serious risks.

When I realized I was not going to be happy unless I gave my dream (freelance illustration) a shot I started saving money as much as I could. This meant anything leftover in my paycheck after paying my bills went into savings. I rarely ate out, didn’t buy much in the way of non-necessities, and just generally tried to be as frugal as possible. Eventually I had saved up enough that I felt comfortable taking the risk of quitting my studio job and going freelance, knowing that if I couldn’t get decent paying jobs right away, I had a little bit of a financial buffer.

Another option, if you feel it would be too difficult to save up enough or if you have the motivation/time (or even combined with the above), is to start carving out a little time in the evening and/or on weekends to focus on your personal art. Start building up a portfolio and depending on what kind of art job you’re interested in, either try applying to some studios that interest you when you’re ready or start trying to take the occasional freelance job. 

Bottom line is, if you’re truly unhappy, you don’t have to stay in this situation! It may take some time to actually get to where you want to be but I definitely recommend not letting fear hold you back, because it really is worth it!

anonymous asked:

I respect the point you are trying to make. We shouldn't have to suppress our artistic creativity just bc it could hurt someone's feelings. POC switch traditionally white characters all the time and there is nothing wrong with that. Why is it a double standard for us? Not too long ago there was an Annie remake with a POC playing the main role. She was originally a red-headed white girl but we didn't make a giant fuss about it. People need to stop getting so butthurt. Smh

THIS! Right here, fucking thank you, Anon! I actually loved the idea of that movie (it was poorly executed in other ways) but the casting was great! And yes, I agree. There’s a definite prejudice against anything that sets a white person on equal footing with a poc on tumblr. Anything that elevates or benefits the poc community is seen as progressive, usually the expense of white individuals or culture. Progression should never be a chaos ladder that forces different races and cultures to crawl over one another to be valid. Thanks for the message! Have a great day!

anonymous asked:

I have a dumb thing that I need to get off my chest. I feel really stressed right now and I can't sit still because I feel stressed. I have absolutely nothing to he stressed about but because I'm stressing I feel like there should be something so I'm stressing about stressing. I'm just a stressed nervous wreck right now and over-thinking everything.

Your feelings are valid even if you can’t figure out the reasons. Do everything you would to de-stress if you did know why you were feeling this way.

Self care. Relax. Talk to someone. Find distractions. Get rid of some extra energy (run or dance). Get creative. You can journal or make art. Eventually the stress will dissipate. Don’t spend all your time/energy trying to figure out what it is that’s making you feel that way. If you figure it out then that’s awesome but I really don’t think you need to. Just focus on taking care of yourself and relaxing.

kyameow asked:

Chris, can I get a reading please? :)

General Reading

Darma://Akashic_Records

Carve your own way. Don’t follow after the paths of others because it will not work for you. At this time you must get away and retreat into yourself. You must become honest with yourself at all times. Yes this also means in public as well.. No more hiding. You are a creative individual and your creations must be manifested into this world. You must separate yourself from people whom don’t enhance the real you. Filter nothing and don’t try to fit in. Rather you should let society adapt to you. Also you must be careful of whom you entertain. As they have hidden agendas. Lastly, if someone likes you and you’re not being yourself–who do they like? This is another reason why it’s important to be yourself 100% of the time. Question all that you do and you will understand. If you could do anything and not fail what would it be? The answer is what you should be–and is the start of realizing who you truly are. Awesome.

Akashic Reading

apology + on schopenhauer

I’m unable to sit down and write anything these days, mainly because I am preparing for the defense of my thesis and other university-related things. But those who find time for (and even pleasure in) reading my thoughts are a major part in why I bother to spend time on writing. For without the public, there is only a lonely voice and ominous echos in an empty tomb. Therefore, I do appreciate all of your likes which are tremendously encouraging.

Since I used education as a cop out for not thinking creatively, i.e. writing, I should perhaps mention the brilliant quotes I keep in my head whenever I try to understand why I do certain things at all.

One of them is a quote by an anonymous professor at M.I.T. (Massachusetts Institute of Technology), oftentimes quoted by Noam Chomsky himself, that education and learning is not about cramming and memorizing facts, even though the knowledge of them is helpful and very often just plainly necessary. 

The quote Chomsky uses therefore stresses that education and learning in general is not about what you cover (meaning memorize), but what you discover. As obvious as it is, primary and secondary educational institutions (and a handful of bad universities) seem to forget about this fundamental truth. It is what you bring to this world that counts. Of course, what you bring to the world might be and always is of different and various kinds. Here, it depends on you and your worldview what you deem important to bring unto this world. Here, we are talking about the meaning of your existence.

To be “contemporary”, I suggest that your meaning of the life might very well be summarized to this: imagine yourself being featured in a wikipedia article. What epithets would you like to have next to your name? It might be something as pompous as “the world leader” or as modest as “a good mother”. You choose.

Last night I spent a good deal of time on reading Schopenhauer. I come back to him whenever I am in need of a good advice. I will not be far from truth when I say he is a good friend to me, or even a father-figure.

Everytime you think of yourself too highly, he will more often than not tell you how wrong you are. There are passages in his writing that are questionable from our perspective, but it cannot tarnish your view of his entire corpus of texts and ideas. Read Schopenhauer, read him often and read him closely.

There’s a one quick advice I can pass on you which I borrow from Schopenhauer: read the best, know the best, be able to write as the best do, but never do that; do not immitate styles, write as plainly as you can to express the most difficult thoughts; do not hide behind words.

Schopenhauer, therefore, despised dearly characters like Fichte or the mastermind behind all corrupt writing: Hegel.

Whenever you sit down and want to write something, think first, think deeply. Only after you have thought through what you want to write about can you touch a pencil or a keyboard.

On a personal note, I used to think that one has to express everything he or she is in his writing. Partly, I was right, but the means I used to do so were simply wrong: 

A good author who is rich in ideas soon gains the reader’s credit of having really and truly something to say; and this gives the intelligent reader patience to follow him attentively. An author of this kind will always express himself in the simples and most direct manner, for the very reason that he really has something to say; because he wishes to awaken in the reader the same idea he has in his own mind and no other.  (The Collected Essays of Arthur Schopenhauer, p. 45)

In almost every age, whether it be in literature or art, we find that if a thoroughly wrong idea, or a fashion, or a manner is in vogue, it is admired. Those of ordinary intelligence trouble themselves inordinately to acquire it and put in in practice. An intelligent man sees through it and despises it, consequently remains out of the fashion. (The Collected Essays of Arthur Schopenhauer, p. 38)

If you think about popular “culture”, you will very easily come to the conclusion that exactly because it is so mediocre it can attract so many people of different backgrounds, races, classes, etc.

Therefore, stay away of mediocrity, fill you head with true beauty value of which has lasted for centuries. The life is too short to fill it with ugliness and mediocrity that dull your mind. Read the greats, read Schopenhauer.

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“You are NOT the opinions of others.” -Taylor swift. But I’m really upset about this because clearly Taylor’s hard work and creativity always gets judged harshly. I can’t even fathom over the fact that these people would try and call Wildest Dreams a racist video. What they’ve tried to do here is try and convince people that Taylor is racist and spread hate towards Taylor. Why cant they honor the fact that TAYLOR IS DOING GOOD AND HELPING THE ANIMALS OUT WITH ALL THE PROCEEDS SHE GETS FOR WILDEST DREAMS??? The headline should of been “ taylorswift Wildest Dreams music video to help endangered animals” but instead she got the b.s of calling her a racist…Nice job Fadar, you could of helped spread awareness to to a great cause instead of a pointless message of HATE. THANK YOU taylorswift for an amazing video and for helping save the Animals. I love you and will always have your back ALWAYS!

franticyogurt asked:

42 138 77

42. What is your opinion on electronic music such as dubstep or trap?

 Meh, it’s not really my kinda thing, but I can appreciate the work that must go into it!


138. When was the last time you had a deep conversation with someone?

 Ohmylord, it was like a few weeks ago and this guy was attempting to be all philosophical and stuff, saying that I shouldn’t value myself on how I look and how I treat others and how creative and hardworking I am blah blah blah
  
 Like, I know I’m creative and whatever, but if I feel like I can increase my self worth and how I see myself visually, why not value myself a little on how I look?? And he was way out of line saying trying to tell me how I should value myself, he’s obnoxious af ✋🏻

77. What bad habits do you do?

COMFORT SHOPPING OHMYLORD. If I’m having a bad day, I’ll just go online and buy something for myself. It’s never expensive or anything, but if I’m having a bad week, you can guarantee I’ll spend the next week at home waiting for parcels to be delivered 

anonymous asked:

"There are many wonderful CS shippers". Aww, thank you so much, Nothingeverlost. We try our best to keep the peace and focus on only what makes us happy about the show. BAs just take the fun out of it, no matter who they ship. This fandom is so talented. Great fan artists and fanfic writers. They use their passion and energy for only positive things. Why anyone would want to waste time trolling other fans is just beyond me.

I’ve been in fandom more than a decade now, and the creativity and talent of the OUAT fandom blow me away.  I think in part because of all the plot holes and failings of the show, the fandom is active and energized to create art and fic and meta and things to fill the gaps and make a more cohesive story.  Most of the fandom is amazing.

And there is nothing wrong with what anyone ships.  I think it’s important to recognize the flaws in the show, in all the characters, but you should absolutely enjoy what stirs your heart and makes you enjoy things.  

It’s sad that a few BAs give each respective fandom a bad name, because outside each ship those loud haters are the most visible.  But that does not mean they speak for the whole.  I’m amazed sometimes that anyone that likes Hook or Regina wants to follow me, but they are always welcome and that’s the reason I anti tag, because I want people to be able to blacklist things and be comfortable.

The BAs do not speak for your fandom, and I know that most of the CS fandom is supportive and just wanting to celebrate your ship.  And as much as I don’t like the story I’m glad you guys got to have your moments that make you squee.  You should enjoy your ship, your art, your ship.  I am sorry that you have the BAs you do that not only torment those outside the fandom, but I’ve seen some bullying of people in the fandom as well.  I’m sad about that.

It’s always nice to be reminded of how much we actually have in common.

Sometimes I wonder if I should try to mend my broken friendships of the past, or at least get passed the hostilities, but then I think about all the things some of these people have said and done (during our friendship and after our fallout) and I have to wonder…. What the hell is wrong with me?

People like that don’t change and there is no reason to put myself through that crap again. I finally have a wonderful group of friends who are creative, supportive and caring. Why look to the past when the present is much better?

Leadership + Innovation + Failure

Being optimistic does not make your feeble,

rather there is strength in optimism.

Fostering a positive mindset can help us better cope with adversity alongside developing the skills and behaviors to be a leader; a leader of resilience.

Often times I speak about the ability to adapt, failure is inevitable, but the ability to bend instead of break when times get tough is a skill that develops overtime;

A skill that develops from countless trials and errors.

You should never fear trying something new.

                                                                               Why?

Because, innovation benefits your own personal learning from doing.

And, also because innovation has critical competitive implications.

In terms of corporate organization, innovation is a key factor for competitive advantage.

We all have innovative capabilities, and trust me we all have the ability to fail, so the goal to being a leader is to tap into a new creative, try it out and take notes on what follows.

Turbulence.

It’s around 4:00 A. M. in the morning, and the coldness of this bedroom doesn’t let me sleep anymore. My bed is empty, there’s just me and some blankets, with so much space beside me, for anyone who wants to be a little warm on the inside, for some pleasant company to spend the dreadful night with. I should try to sleep some more, to stay calm until I’m submerged into another dream. I beg the next one won’t be so disastrous, that I’ll be able to rest this time. Think it’s not real; that it’s just this mind of mine tricking me, but is it more than a game? By now I can only giggle a little, cynicism at its peak… sighs. Why now? Why can’t I question all this in the morning? I must shut it off, this is no good.

- Priscila

Okay, so.... I've been thinking...

I see tons of posts concerning Draco and how everyone puts deep meaning into his character and stuff like “You don’t appreciate how crafty he is, look at those badges he made fourth year, the song in fifth” and so on. And sure, it’s nice to be creative and all but I don’t think creativity should be used to put people down. And to me the fact that he’s creative doesn’t help me gloss over the fact that he’s still an absolute toad to everyone who doesn’t like him. They don’t like you, okay? Why dwell on it? It’s their loss right? Show them how amazing you are, not what a jerk you can be. And I know he’s a character and a book meant to be an antagonist so don’t try and give me that line and if you do give me that line then you can please step away from my post cause that line cancels out all the “misunderstood” and “unappreciated” Draco stuff.

As an antagonist he’s great, no denying that, he makes me hate him.

But these posts keep trying to romanticize his character (this is all my opinion I freely admit) and it kind of irks me because it makes me feel like he’s being pushed on me? Idk /exactly/ why it angers me but it does. Anyways I thought I’d share. Bring on the hate mail.

[Viral] Even Steve Jobs Didn’t Let His Kids Use iPads: Why You Should Limit Technology Use for Your Kids

There’s no denying we live in a digital age. With a click of a button, we can access any bit of information ever known to humanity. With another click, we can end up wasting an hour of our day watching cats play piano. What I’m trying to say is that the prevalence of technology today is a double-edged sword.

While it’s easy enough for adults to become consumed by their iPads and smartphones, the real danger is raising children who are downright addicted to electronic screens. Even Steve Jobs, who invented all the best gadgets currently in your home, didn’t allow his children to use the iPad.

Others in the tech industry follow that same idea, sending their children to schools that strictly forbid the use of technology, instead encouraging face-to-face interaction and creative problem solving.

Though it might seem hypocritical for parents who utilize technology on a daily basis at their jobs to put a limit on their children’s use of the same technology, it’s hard to argue with the fact that using technology too much results in:

1. A lack of creativity

When a young child plugs into the World Wide Web, everything is done for him. He can watch a cartoon, play a game, or get answers to his homework questions. If children are taught they can simply go to Google and get an answer to a question, they’ll more than likely stop trying to figure things out on their own. Especially if getting done quicker means they can go back to watching cartoons even sooner.

While it’s important to teach children how to use the Internet as a learning tool, it shouldn’t be the only method they use to solve problems. If they learn to rely too much on technology for answers, they’ll be completely lost when the technology is unavailable to them.

2. A lack of curiosity and passion

Along with a lack of curiosity, children who rely too much on technology will lose their passion for learning.

Remember before the Internet, when you wanted to know something, you actually had to spend a decent amount of time looking it up? You had to go to the library, find the right section, then the right book, then the right page…it took time! But when you finally got your answer, the entire experience left you feeling fulfilled. And that knowledge became part of your long-term memory.

Now, if you need to know something, you can look it up immediately; and you’ll most likely forget it by the end of the day. Children need to understand that learning is a process. If we don’t limit their access to technology, they’ll never truly love to learn.

3. A lack of patience

Since information, communication, and entertainment are now available at the push of a button, we’re becoming less and less patient when we have to spend time waiting. I know I’m guilty of closing a webpage because it didn’t load within ten seconds. But I’m not the same way with most other aspects of life, because I know certain things take time (like cooking a good meal, or driving to the beach).

However, our children are growing up in a world filled with instant gratification. If they get too used to things being automated and happening “on demand,” they’ll have a hard time adjusting to the real world as they grow into young adults.

On the other hand, if parents limit their children’s use of technology and place ground rules around when and where they can use their iPad or laptop, they’ll learn much more than they would given free reign of the electronics in the household.

4. Lack of exercise

It doesn’t take much to prove that sitting in front of a screen all day results in a sedentary lifestyle. And it will eventually become a vicious cycle that will be incredibly hard to break the older your child gets.

Children need to exercise every day. If parents don’t limit their children’s technology usage, they’ll spend all day sitting around the house, making up excuse after excuse as to why they can’t go outside and run around for a bit. Unfortunately, a lack of exercise at a young age could lead to exacerbated health problems as they grow.

5. Decreased test scores

The London School of Economics conducted a study of 130,000 school children, and found that test scores increase when schools put a limit on technology. Across the board, scores rose 6.4% when phones were banned in high schools.

Underachieving students actually faced a 14% increase in scores when their phones were disallowed in school. One of the main contributing factors to such a drastic increase is that students were no longer distracted on a minute-by-minute basis by their phone vibrating with constant Facebook updates and incoming text messages.

Again, while electronics can serve a purpose in the classroom as a learning tool, if used incorrectly, they can be a huge disruption to the learning process.

6. Lack of human connection

Another study was recently conducted by researchers at UCLA  which focused on the use of technology and its effects on children’s ability to socialize face-to-face. Two groups of children were studied: one was a group of sixth grade students who were enrolled in a week-long educational camp which did not have any access to electronic devices, and the other group of sixth graders were kids who were left to their own devices, as it were.

After the week had ended, each group was shown pictures of people’s faces as they exhibited different emotions. The children who attended the technology-free camp performed significantly better at identifying the correct emotion shown. They were much more adept at picking out facial and non-verbal cues than their cohort who had spent the week using technology as they pleased.

If we want our children to understand the importance of communicating with each other in a personable manner, we need to begin by limiting their access to technology.

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Even Steve Jobs Didn’t Let His Kids Use iPads: Why You Should Limit Technology Use for Your Kids

There’s no denying we live in a digital age. With a click of a button, we can access any bit of information ever known to humanity. With another click, we can end up wasting an hour of our day watching cats play piano. What I’m trying to say is that the prevalence of technology today is a double-edged sword.

While it’s easy enough for adults to become consumed by their iPads and smartphones, the real danger is raising children who are downright addicted to electronic screens. Even Steve Jobs, who invented all the best gadgets currently in your home, didn’t allow his children to use the iPad.

Others in the tech industry follow that same idea, sending their children to schools that strictly forbid the use of technology, instead encouraging face-to-face interaction and creative problem solving.

Though it might seem hypocritical for parents who utilize technology on a daily basis at their jobs to put a limit on their children’s use of the same technology, it’s hard to argue with the fact that using technology too much results in:

1. A lack of creativity

When a young child plugs into the World Wide Web, everything is done for him. He can watch a cartoon, play a game, or get answers to his homework questions. If children are taught they can simply go to Google and get an answer to a question, they’ll more than likely stop trying to figure things out on their own. Especially if getting done quicker means they can go back to watching cartoons even sooner.

While it’s important to teach children how to use the Internet as a learning tool, it shouldn’t be the only method they use to solve problems. If they learn to rely too much on technology for answers, they’ll be completely lost when the technology is unavailable to them.

2. A lack of curiosity and passion

Along with a lack of curiosity, children who rely too much on technology will lose their passion for learning.

Remember before the Internet, when you wanted to know something, you actually had to spend a decent amount of time looking it up? You had to go to the library, find the right section, then the right book, then the right page…it took time! But when you finally got your answer, the entire experience left you feeling fulfilled. And that knowledge became part of your long-term memory.

Now, if you need to know something, you can look it up immediately; and you’ll most likely forget it by the end of the day. Children need to understand that learning is a process. If we don’t limit their access to technology, they’ll never truly love to learn.

3. A lack of patience

Since information, communication, and entertainment are now available at the push of a button, we’re becoming less and less patient when we have to spend time waiting. I know I’m guilty of closing a webpage because it didn’t load within ten seconds. But I’m not the same way with most other aspects of life, because I know certain things take time (like cooking a good meal, or driving to the beach).

However, our children are growing up in a world filled with instant gratification. If they get too used to things being automated and happening “on demand,” they’ll have a hard time adjusting to the real world as they grow into young adults.

On the other hand, if parents limit their children’s use of technology and place ground rules around when and where they can use their iPad or laptop, they’ll learn much more than they would given free reign of the electronics in the household.

4. Lack of exercise

It doesn’t take much to prove that sitting in front of a screen all day results in a sedentary lifestyle. And it will eventually become a vicious cycle that will be incredibly hard to break the older your child gets.

Children need to exercise every day. If parents don’t limit their children’s technology usage, they’ll spend all day sitting around the house, making up excuse after excuse as to why they can’t go outside and run around for a bit. Unfortunately, a lack of exercise at a young age could lead to exacerbated health problems as they grow.

5. Decreased test scores

The London School of Economics conducted a study of 130,000 school children, and found that test scores increase when schools put a limit on technology. Across the board, scores rose 6.4% when phones were banned in high schools.

Underachieving students actually faced a 14% increase in scores when their phones were disallowed in school. One of the main contributing factors to such a drastic increase is that students were no longer distracted on a minute-by-minute basis by their phone vibrating with constant Facebook updates and incoming text messages.

Again, while electronics can serve a purpose in the classroom as a learning tool, if used incorrectly, they can be a huge disruption to the learning process.

6. Lack of human connection

Another study was recently conducted by researchers at UCLA  which focused on the use of technology and its effects on children’s ability to socialize face-to-face. Two groups of children were studied: one was a group of sixth grade students who were enrolled in a week-long educational camp which did not have any access to electronic devices, and the other group of sixth graders were kids who were left to their own devices, as it were.

After the week had ended, each group was shown pictures of people’s faces as they exhibited different emotions. The children who attended the technology-free camp performed significantly better at identifying the correct emotion shown. They were much more adept at picking out facial and non-verbal cues than their cohort who had spent the week using technology as they pleased.

If we want our children to understand the importance of communicating with each other in a personable manner, we need to begin by limiting their access to technology.

Featured photo credit: Flickr via farm8.staticflickr.com

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Questions.

I don’t know why people are uncomfortable with talking about themselves or what they like to do or what they are talented at or passionate about. I ask a lot of questions and they squirm! I second guess myself and wonder if I should even communicate with them at all. I try to be appropriate and not say or ask about something personal or sensitive to the person. I try to be as understanding as I can. If someone asks about me, I do not get uncomfortable, but I am surprised. I know everything about myself by heart, speaking it aloud to another human being is something totally foreign to me. I often have to think about my words carefully.
I like myself. I have a great, intelligent, creative mind that I would like to share with others. I hope to find some like me if not that is okay. I enjoy people in their simple beauty. There is something profound and beautiful about everyone. And I notice it right away. I don’t tell them, in fear that they will think I am strange.

anonymous asked:

I'm also a female, and although I don't want to become male, I do want to gain more muscle... Would you be able to recommend any workouts, advice? Anything? I'm currently just using creatine and protein powders to reach my protein intake and build muscle... Thanks :)

I never said I was trying to become a male if that’s what you’re saying. If you’re not saying that then good. But honestly I have a pretty easy time gaining muscle in my arms. I have no idea why but it’s pretty cool. Uhm honestly I’ve been working out for like 3 or 4 years. I got into lifting and shit like 2 maybe 3 years ago. I’m pretty much self made besides the advice I’ve gotten from some gym buddies. All I can say is what you’re doing- take in a lot of protein; the creative should help put water into your muscles as long as you’re drinking enough water. I always say go more than less. But workout wise you have to hit muscles at all angles. You can do regular curls all you want but you’re not gonna see gains if you’re not doing them pretty heavy and you’re not working different angles. Hammer curls, incline dumbbell curl, drag curl, concentration curl, etc. and you want to use different types of resistance like Dumbbells, barbells, cables, resistance bands. Switch it up. I could go on but I think you get it.

get-them-drunk-on-rose-tyler asked:

So hey, very important question, who is your all time favorite rpdr queen and why? If you can't choose one what are your top five? ( am I socializing right?) This is important information

oh man idk like 20 of them are my number 1 but i’m gonna try
1. katya because she’s amazing in every way . personality & style & sense of humor 👌👀
2. alaska, she’s so cool + humor
3. latrice royale because realllyyy chill, amazing & genuinely nice human being
4. milk’s creativity was A+++
5. sharon needles? something she did at a signing made me kinda :/ but her humor is great and her aesthetic ROCKS MY SOCKS her rupocalypse runway sign me up

what about you though who are your favourites?
(i’m the last person you should ask about socialising btw. is this human interaction? what is going on)

Send me idea’s!

Ok, so surprisingly i write some stuff on various fanfiction sites. Right now i am trying to plan a one-shot or very short story to post on one of these sites. Preferably 5sos since i know these better but i can do research if needed.

However, i am hoping you guys can help me out. You guys are quite creative and i thought why not ask these people since its people like them that read it.

All you have to do-

  • Who should it be about?
  • Theme?
  • Any details?
  • Also, any idea’s for a title to go with the idea you put forward?

This should go up on ao3 but i could also post on here, not sure yet. But yes, send me in any ideas you have and i will check them out!

I feel so bad at writing lately. It’s not that I don’t care, it’s that I feel as though no matter what I write, I always seem like I don’t care. Like the reader can tell it’s forced; (they can however). I’m not forcing it for the sake of views or follows on the story however, I’m forcing it because at one point in my life, I loved writing, I couldn’t’ve imagined my life without writing. At one point my creativity had peaked and I wrote everyday for hours on end without a care in the world. My stories inspired people; inspired myself, even. However now (that) I’ve recently gone back and reread my old stories, reread the reviews and seen how I’ve changed lives or whatever, I spot all the flaws in it. The weak plot lines, the spelling errors I failed to correct, the laziness of my work. And although that was my creativity at the time, I feel as if now that I’ve seen all these mistakes and errors, that I’ve tricked myself into thinking that now, if I were to get into writing once more, that a few months would pass, and I’d look back on it just as I am now, and I’d spot all my errors that I failed to realise were errors at the time. Maybe I’m not forcing myself to write for the readers, follows, views, or reviews. Maybe I’m forcing myself because I felt accomplished, a feeling I haven’t felt in a long time. Maybe I’m forcing myself because I want to rekindle my creativeness or whatever, for my Language Arts class for example. Or maybe I’m forcing myself because there’s nothing else in my possession in which I can show my creativity through.  However maybe it’s just the simple matter that I’m stuck on an old memory; writing. The memory. The memory that still makes me feel accomplished even though my writing quality is at its lowest quality as I type these very words. I’ve written about one person for so long, they’ve been my inspiration, my idol, the one I wrote words for without ever expecting them to write a single thing back for me… but now I don’t have them. I don’t get the same passion as I did from when I first met them… and now I have no inspiration. So I sit here, at 12:00am, writing you these sentences. These sentences which are probably never going to be read due to their fail of structure. And due to my fail to keep the topic steady. I force out these words typing in my fast pace. Not correcting any errors, as I sit in a dimly lit room, using a computer from 2009, and the cheapest keyboard and mouse I could find at Walmart. Maybe I didn’t lose my inspiration. I’m not going to say something cheesy such as “my inspiration lost me” or whatever. The cheesy thing I am about to say however, is that maybe, just maybe, my inspiration was never mine to lose, and maybe, I never lost them due to this, and the fact that my inspiration; idol; favor; crush; ink spilling star; world; universe; and role model, lost a little bit of themselves along the trip. Maybe my inspiration (which was never mine to begin with) lost a small piece of themselves, of their own inspiration, and I am just falling back because of that, and the cycle is repeating, and I and all the things that are falling apart around me, are actually falling into place, just as they should be. Maybe I was supposed to gain an interest in writing, maybe it was supposed to be my world, maybe school was supposed to suck the creativity out of me, and maybe, just maybe I was supposed to leave my inspiration, when they needed me the most. I say I am not that person, the one whom leaves someone when they’re at their worst. But maybe I call people out who do that, without making sure my hands are clean as well. Like My original idea and topic was, I sit here at this computer, at now 1:00am, writing words and text posts, forcing them out with all the creativity I do not have to spare, just so things can fall into place. This mess of a world is falling into place around me… and it is slowly becoming what I once thought was beautiful once again. History repeats itself when it has been forgotten. And maybe I did forget it. But I’m just now remembering. And I’m not supposed to, to tell you who have made it this far about it. And I’m not supposed to interfere with my past, and what is yet to come. But I refuse to fall into place like everyone else. I refuse to be what society calls “normal”. Because that’s just simply not my nature. I was meant to stand out and be “that guy”/”that one person”; I was meant to be tacky, and to earn disapproving looks from my elders, role models, and all the people inbetween; here is the twist though, the true one reason I fail to write, is because approval is what I seek the most. I am stuck living in a memory, that not longer is, and in fact, never was.
—  if i’m not replying to you this is why (or this explains most of it anyways)