It's 8:44pm and I feel like being reckless and going on night drives. And being with the ones I love but I also feel like going in to hibernation for 8 months and I'm confused about life in general.
Truly I feel u. Be safe in some way but also don’t hesitate to embrace ur reckless desire and intuition. I would say 80-90% of the most significant memories of my life have occurred while driving around at night. I am absolutely in love with being a passenger in a car at night and not talking, just looking out the window. I would do that for the rest of my life if I could. Even just walking far away from your house can be so incredibly beautiful. Alone or with others. Some things only exist at night I swear 2 u. Last year in (2014) my best friend and I did a lot of laying in the road at late hours and we witnessed so many strange entities that could nvr be described or believed. Parks that aren’t there until midnight and police telling u not to jump off bridges. I do not know if any of it was real. You have to go with your gut and not go to sleep when it tells u that there is something to fulfill. Don’t hesitate to leave yr house when u feel it is right. Like Drake or The Strokes said, u only live once. Life is always confusing and nothing is guaranteed! Lately I’ve felt like I don’t feel comfortable socially and I enjoy being alone more than anything. Of course saying any of this feels stupid because all the internet ppl who want to be relatable and say I HATE TALKING TO PEOPLE I NEVER GO OUTSIDE but it’s such a real feeling for many and should not be trivialized! I keep telling myself “I’m NOT leaving the house again!” but I know things will change. It’s necessary to experience things. That is how you create and grow and understand. Don’t trap yourself inside too much however it’s nice to get comfortable with being by yourself. Balance is crucial. Please go on a night drive right now if you can and tell me about it when u get home