this-is-so-heartbreaking-and-beautiful

phillip hamilton things, for people who haven't or can't see the show.

-during his rap in take a break, he starts out nervous and then kid gets WAY IN TO IT, bending his knees and flexing his arms and yelling. alex hugs him and looks so proud and phillip is so pleased with himself. it’s precious.

-during reynolds pamphlet, jefferson, madison, and burr take him up front, surround him, and show him the paper. they point and say “at his own house? at his own house? damn.” out loud to him and oh my god his face, he’s shattered. you can physically see his father get taken down a peg in his eyes. I can’t even describe it. it was heartbreaking.

- I always pictured his argument with george eaker happening up close, like he pushed past a bunch of people and was up his face. but no, eaker is up on the balcony and in true hamilton fashion, phillip is making a scene and shouting at him from below. the actors in the “play” even stop to watch, and you’re like damn this really is alex’s son.

-when he’s telling his dad about the duel, alex is standing with his arms folded (and using his “dad” voice) and phillip looks so sheepish but also defiant and it reminds me so much of “meet me inside.”

-“stay alive reprise.” tore. my. heart. out. which I knew it would but jesus. no mercy. I was full on sobbing. (eliza screams at the end of it and I can’t even describe that. it’s so horrible and your breath catches in your throat and she sounds so worn down and destroyed. she’s held it together throughout all the shit alex put her through but in that moment it all comes crashing down and you can hear so much pain. It’s heartbreaking and beautiful. the acting is amazing.)

9

Films in 2012: Five Centimeters Per Second

“It must really be a lonelier journey than anyone could imagine. Cutting through absolute darkness, encountering nothing but the occasional hydrogen atom. Flying blindly into the abyss, believing therein lie the answers to the mysteries of the universe.”

Mama, don’t cry.
I was once your little baby boy,
so full of love and light. 
By the time I turned 25, 
I was lost among the pavement,
lower than the basement,
and I couldn’t stand to smile,
I thought of taking my own life.
But Mama, don’t cry.
I found songs among the tragic,
hung my hat on sadness.
Mom, I think they’re trying to keep the grand romantic in me,
now that we got bottom lines.
But mom, I think I’m ready to free the grand romantic in me.
day 1: i cried so hard my mom woke up every hour to make sure i was still breathing; she told me it was like i was a newborn in his crib for the very first time.
day 2: i went to school and cried in the counselors office.
day 3: i believed we were okay and our love was cured, i think my mind was playing a sick joke on me.
day 4: i told you i’d wait for you, you replied with “i don’t want you to wait”
day 5: i came across a picture of you on tumblr. It lit my throat on fire so i tried lighting your letters over the fire… it was to hard.
day 6: happy one month: you loved me so much you couldn’t even make it a month with me
sincerely - the love you don’t deserve.
day 7: you left me broken into pieces on the bathroom floor, someone is picking up your dirty work, something you’ve never been able to do even before.
day 8: your voice still echoes in the wind and although your touch never got the chance to bruise my skin, your voice overpowered my soul. i’m no longer bleeding on the bathroom floor though i am in the room where you once called me yours.
day 9: im finally laughing with someone new and my smile is bigger and brighter than ever.
day 10: the doubt makes my spine feel less like a vertebrae and more like a giant icicle (you never loved me)
day 11: Since when was heartbreak so fucking beautiful to you? Since when was lying fun? Since when was i not enough for you?
There is nothing pretty about losing feelings in my knuckles after squeezing my hands so tight to keep from texting you
day 12: i was never able to squeeze them tight enough; i never would have imagined that it would be so easy for you to let go.
day 13: i no longer think about you constantly, my heart no longer beats for you, my mom no longer checks to see if i’m alive. I’m moving on like i said i would
day 14: i smoked weed with a girl in the front seat of her car and she asked questions i couldn’t get myself to even answer
day 15: i found out you had finally replaced me and it flicked at my bruises i gave myself but somehow i still didn’t break.
day 16: i still find excuses to text you; you still find reasons to ignore them.
day 17: what color are your eyes? what does your smile look like? what does your voice sound like? who are you now?
day 18: i was worth it. i was so fucking worse it. You don’t deserve the love i had to offer. Fuck you i was worth it
day 19: sometimes all i feel in my chest is my heart trying to escape from its cage it’s being held in; i think it’s tired of all the tears i’ve shed because of you
day 20: i was finally able to sleep right; your voice no longer keeps me awake late at night. You no longer overpower my brain.
day 21: someone told me it took 21 days to break a habit. It has been 21 days since you decided to leave me for her. Within them 21 days, i’ve realized you never deserved me, i was worth it and that life is so much better without you. i’ve realized i don’t need you to be alive.
—  21 days without you

Johnny Depp visiting children in a hospital in tahiti on his own birthday is so heartbreaking beautiful. He loves making these children laugh and it means a lot to him. Even on his own birthday he can’t stop making these people happy. I’m crying it’s so wonderful. It’s a passion for him doing this, he loves wearing his Captain Jack Sparrow costume and walking around a hospital. He cares so much because he was at the same situation as many of the parents once. And it makes me cry so much he only want them to be happy.

That scene was so heartbreaking and beautiful, because of course she wasn’t mad at him for what he did– she was just upset that he thought she wouldn’t. 

She thought they were past him hating himself and that he could talk to her but he still kept this from her because he’s so scared of losing his family, and Emma Swan, who’s been on her own all her life, wants him to lean on her when he’s hurting, wants him to share things with her and wants them to do things together. 

She knows that his past is going to haunt him, but she wants him to share it with her so that he can live with it, so that they can live. 

I’m ruined. They love each other so much and they’re both such broken characters who struggle with love and I will never be okay again.

5

Stockholm is drowning in flowers

Today, April 9th 2017, two days after the recent horrific terror attack on Friday, the people of Stockholm came together in a huge love manifestation to show that terror will never win. Stockholm stands.

Seeing all the people come together after such a horrific attack is so beautiful, heartbreaking and heartwarming.

Stockholm, I love you. Love always wins.

You manifested yourself
In my dreams again
The way you have for weeks

Each night is new
But nonetheless familiar

I am somehow simultaneously
Aware, consciously, of our reality
And immersed, subconsciously, in desire

This consciousness serves not
As a gentle reminder of my delusion
But instead 
As a blunt force to my cerebral cortex

So violent, in fact, 
That upon waking, 
My head aches,
Stomach turns,
And skin scorches

The deepest parts of my mind
Are fused to you;
Begging to relive 
Our most intimate
And passionate moments

To smell the sweetness
And feel the softness
Of your skin
Surrounding me,
If only once more

And so I dream
Of you welcoming me,
Perfectly content with my company;
Connecting and moving rhythmically,
As immaculately as ever

Eliciting an emotional response
That is so profoundly heartbreaking
And nostalgic
And beautiful;
One which I embrace
And rely upon

—  The Comfort of Cognitive Dissonance

anonymous asked:

What is your favorite thing about Fenrys?

My favourite thing about him is definitely how sweet and loyal and selfless he is! I totally love how cocky and funny he is also! I mean come on, his entrance in Eos “was your aim that shitty when you cut your own hair” is just so sassy and so perfectly him!
But it’s his deeper qualities that I really love. He has such a wild and free nature and he selflessly gave it up. He gave up his freedom for his brother, to help protect him and look after him. And that is just so heartbreaking and beautiful. But despite being bound to Meave, despite everything she’s done to him, he doesn’t give up, he doesn’t let the oath break him. He remains a dreamer. He still hopes for something better, for something more. He hasn’t become hardened by his abuse. He remains so kind and willing to help others.

He deserves the world! And if anything happens to him in the next Tog book so help me!

@still-with-hearts-beating your tags! #they are so broken #but desperate to fix it

THIS IS EXACTLY WHY THIS IS SO HEARTBREAKING BUT BEAUTIFUL AT THE SAME TIME!

Kurt is going to realize that the only person who can help him heal from this is the person who has shattered all his walls, who is inside them, and knows just how much he is hurting and how broken. He will realize that even though she has a hand in the pain, she is the only one who can take it away, who can fix him and put him back together! And when he will… oh my, when he realizes it is going to be the most beautiful thing ever, isn’t it?

MY KLAMILLE HEART.

Klaus hallucinating Cami was so heartbreaking but also beautiful that he knows her so well that he’s able to conjure her up and unconsciously have her act and speak just like real Cami. In fact she seemed so real I wanted to believe she was a ghost but ‘Cami’ said she’s a figment of his imagination, his brain’s way of distracting himself from the pain. SOBS. Knowing Klaus has been conjuring her up like that during his five years of imprisonment and torture from the blade makes it all the more heartbreaking. But beautiful that he IS carrying her with him, like he said he would, making her ‘immortal’ like he said he would and not forgetting the things she taught him. She came into his life and changed him forever and I see the beauty in that story - that people can come into our lives and change us, have a huge impact on us but we can lose them suddenly, but we can still carry their spirit with us. 

I’m still so upset the writers chose this storyline over continuing Cami’s storylines - after building up the O’Connell legacy for 3 seasons and then having Cami finally fully embrace it and plan to take on her Uncle’s work and then killing her off before she could do that is so frustrating. I’d never have wanted them to kill her off but if they had ever been going to kind of wish it could have happened much later in the show’s run, so they could have explored Cami’s role as the last O’Connell. Cause while we saw Cami learning about the dark objects and begin to use them more in season 3 and we saw her decide to become a vampire to continue her Uncle’s work, we never got to actually see her continue her Uncle’s work (the work her brother had been meant to do), which is something I think I’ll forever be disappointed about.

But I am glad they are honouring her memory, that Klaus is indeed carrying her with him in spirit. I think they confirmed Leah Pipes won’t be in anymore episodes this season (which is honestly a shame like can’t Klaus hallucinate her all season or have lots of flashbacks?) But I do hope we continue to see Klaus ‘carrying her with him’ and mentioning her throughout the rest of the season. I hope we have a grave visit even, as much as that will break our hearts!

I can’t get over how heartbreaking it was though, seeing Klaus talk to ‘Cami’ and her stroking his hair and knowing it wasn’t real and she wasn’t really there it HURTS! And knowing Klaus knows that too even as he talks to her makes it so hard to watch. He knows she’s gone but this is the only way he can see her now.

Though TVD confirmed with it’s season finale there is a Heaven and so Cami is probably reunited with her Uncle and Brother which makes me happy and maybe she is watching over Klaus too - in the TVD finale we saw the characters reunited with their loved ones in death in Heaven BUT we also saw Caroline’s mom Liz watching over her daughter SO even without the limbo of the other side they can still watch over their loved ones - I guess I kind of wish it could have been the real Cami too SOBS I JUST AM SO SAD we’ll never see them interact for real again except maybe flashbacks some day. I’m forever grumpy things have changed in the shows so bringing dead characters back to life suddenly isn’t possible or isn’t on the table anymore.

Wincest fics

1. How the Wild Things Start : 9x23 diverging AU.“This is where it starts — the brightly lit ring, the screams, the glinting of knives, the baring of teeth. This, right here, is where it begins. Sam turns to Dean, Metatron just a hero’s walk away, and Dean slams his fist into the side of Sam’s face. It will bruise, but that’s not the point. Sam will not face Metatron’s blade and wrath, but that is not the point. The point is, Dean puts Sam’s hands on his chest, the action sickly sweet like perfume left on a tacky, bloated corpse — and then he walks away. He leaves Sam, dreaming black dreams on the ground, just outside of the impala. Baby does not protect him when one of Abaddon’s followers finds him. Baby does not scream for help or look for Dean when the demons drag Sam’s unconscious body away.When Dean leaves Metatron’s burnt-out husk, his bones screaming ecstasy from the kill, he finds Sam gone.”
[Not wincest. More of a Sam story though. It is so well written, keeps you on the edge of your seat. Seriously, it is amazing. Go read it.]

2. Can’t make you love me  Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I’ll feel the power
But you won’t, no you won’t
‘Cause I can’t make you love me, if you don’t
[this is so heartbreaking-ly beautiful and I just… 💔]

3.You taught me the courage of stars  Light carries on endlessly, even after death. And I’ll whisper your name into the sky, to hear you say one more time that the universe was made just to be seen by my eyes.  
[:’( ]


4. Isn’t It Romantic?  Sam and Dean make a bet that Dean can’t be romantic to anyone for three days. Sam ends up being the target of Dean’s romantic overtures .
[This is such fluffy and cute and sweet… and apparently I want a boyfriend who does things for me this Dean does :P ]

5. Where the Earth Erodes  When Sam explores a mysterious cavern deep in the woods behind the Bunker, he accidentally awakens a sheevra, a mischievous fairy spirit that intrudes the minds of its victims and feeds on emotions. The primary emotions the sheevra feels from Sam are not happy ones, and the steady diet of doubt and loathing drives the sheevra mad, bombarding Sam with religious hallucinations, deafening messages of failure, and attacks his soul. The sheevra’s malice and Sam’s resulting confessions teach both boys something about Sam. He’s not fine.
[Ouch. Seriously. ]