This is something that is really hard for me to post. I’ve been a skinny girl for most of my teen years. I never really worked out back then or payed too much attention to what I was eating, I just tried to eat generally healthy. & I was very skinny. I still had body insecurities, but I never really saw myself getting “fat”.
Around the time I graduated I started to put on a little bit of weight. This is what I look like currently. My biggest insecurity is definitely my tummy and just my mid section. I always worked really hard to be confident in my body, even when I was skinny. I got to a place where I could genuinely love my body and everything about myself. & to lose that confidence when I gained weight just shook me. I had worked so hard to falter as soon as I gained weight.
I’ve spent the last couple months trying to hide my body, but clothes that make me “look good” and conceal my tummy. I’ve gotten rude comments from family members and friends about my weight gain. Because apparently gaining some weight is the worst thing you can do ever. I started working out because I felt so insecure. I wasn’t doing it for the right reasons.
I can’t say that I’m completely confident with my body yet but I decided now is the time the start that journey. My mental health is just important as my physical health. I want to be the body positive person that I constantly preach to people. I talk about fat positivity all the time but I don’t follow anything that I say in my everyday life. So I want that to change right here and now. I want to feel beautiful again. I know this is a sappy emotional ass caption but I’ve really been struggling with this for months and I wanted to share it with everyone on my blog and just be honest and raw about it. No, I don’t feel totally okay with myself yet but I’m going to try. And the first step for me is to wear a crop top and post a selfie for 8000 people to see on tbecause fuck it. You don’t need to have a flat stomach to wear a crop top!