the pantaloon- have you ever been deeply affected by a death?
Nope. I’m not the kind of person that cries and shouts when someone dies, it’s kinda ugly but… no. I feel sorry, I feel empty sometimes, but not that deep.
march to the sea- do you conform or go against standards?
Uhh, pretty much go against. In my teenage phase I was… problematic, I guess, one of those stupid anarchist angry with society and with too much questions with no one responding or comforting them. Something of this still remain in me, I’m a polemic piece of shit.
johnny boy- who in your life is a sort of unsung hero?
Raiko. Raiko is my unsung hero, my brother, my moon, my guide and he’s a soft, frail ballad about time passing by.
oh ms believer- someone in your life whom you wish was more confident in themselves?
My girlfriend. I don’t want to violet her privacy, so I’ll only say that she keeps searching problem or errors in her — when they aren’t. She’s so beautiful and warm, so sweet and complete, she’s a quiet dawn at the beginning of a good day.
before you start your day- what song helps you feel confident?
Neon tiger & Spaceman by the killers, at the moment, and simple math by Manchester Orchestra.
isle of flightless birds- what holds you back from reaching your full potential?
I’m a lazy piece of shit basically and I’m afraid of responsibility yeah
guns for hands- how do you redirect negative thoughts?
Oh man, I don’t even know how. I let them consume me and they made me an angry beast full of regrets. I don’t know how to control anger, basically I lay down doing nothing for hours or i wish to break stuff but I know I can’t so, and I don’t know how to control depression or simple sadness, my power over my feelings doesn’t exist at all.
holding on to you- who do you go to when you need help?
No one. I hate it when I need help, so I act like I don’t have those needs at all.
ode to sleep- are you a night owl or an early riser?
Insomnia is my best friend since I was twelve
glowing eyes- what are your dreams like?
Usually they are dark, about murders or monster or losing someone. I watch too much horrors movies even if them impress me too much.
lovely- best compliment you’ve ever received?
“You’re worth it.” My girlfriend whispered this into my ear while we made love for the first time.
trees- someone you wish you could speak to?
A ghost from my past that hates me, I guess, I don’t know
ode to sleep- have you ever asked someone for forgiveness multiple times?
Yes, in my past relationship I was really a monster, maybe even abusive, I have no words to describe how much shame I feel when I think of her. I made her feels bad so many time and so many times she forgave me, until the point she was too tired and bumped me. I hope she’s doing well.
holding on to you- do you write in cursive or print?
Cursive, it’s faster.
migraine- favorite and least favorite days of the week? why?
I hate Sundays because I work so much on those days! I love Wednesdays coz its my off day. Pretty boring motivations.
semi-automatic- something you wish you could change about your personality?
I’d love have more control over myself.
the run and go- the last person’s house you stayed at? the last person who stayed at your house
Last summer I was at my girlfriend’s house, in a little town in the south of Italy. Totally hated it.
The last person in my house… still my girlfriend, she was here one week for Easter’s holidays.
fake you out- something you seem to care about more than other people?
I care so much about respect and the pride, some people seems to have totally lost them. My mom’s used to call my “little soldier” for this.
guns for hands- the last lie you told your parents?
“Yeah, I’ll tie up my room” whoops too hot too fucking hot for even moving.
fairly local- are you typically cold or hot?
Oh god I don’t get this- uh. My body is usually very hot, even in winter, I go around in t-shirts. My character is usually really cold, even if I don’t want to.
lane boy- have you ever stood up for what you believe in?
Yes but I was a fucking stupid anarchist and I stood for the worst reasons oh my goooood too much shame, too much shame.
the judge- which is scarier, fear or what causes fear?
What causes fear. I can get over fears, but I’ll always have shivers thinking about the causes.
polarize- where do you “hide” your problems?
In the past ( sometimes nowadays, ugh ) I did and do self-harm, so I guess I hide them in my scars. Not proud of this, not happy of this, I wish I have the strength to stop but I haven’t it, so I’ll just go ahead with this.
Hey, sorry for the late reply but I like so many songs of them- also sorry for shitty English, I’m Italian and I’m bad at write in different languages. Have a nice day, sugar.