this would make me so happy no matter what

1. I dont love you anymore, but this, this shattered me a little.
2. It isn’t seeing your hand in theirs that’s the problem, it’s that you look at her the way you used to look at me.
3. Every little thing you did that made me feel so special you do with her now. Seeing you move your fingers along hers makes the air leave my chest. It was our thing. A quiet little reassurance that no matter what was going on you were there.
4. If you can give every piece of yourself that i had to her did i ever have any part of you to begin with?
5. You were just here. This is too fast.
6. I would ask if she made you happy, if you were happy, if only you would read my texts.
7. It’s the loss of our friendship that keeps me up at night. We were friends once, remember?
8. It’s funny how things change. You used to say my eyes were a home you never had. Now you can’t even meet them.
9. That one night we layed in bed until the morning hour bonding over our belief in ghosts. It was then i realized your past haunts you the way the monsters in your closet do as a child.
10. I wonder if i’m one of your ghosts now. The woman you never had the courage to keep. Tell me do i haunt you?
11. I hope to god i do. At least then i know you still remember me.
12. I was crying the night you told me you loved me. I know you pretend you never said it. You never did want to love me. Trust me, i wish i could forget it too.
13. Some words never get a chance to be said, so i’ll just say this.
14. I hope she reaches the part of your heart i never got to touch.
—  seeing your new girlfriend for the first time// 4am

a thing I love about the TransDanny headcanon: there’s a photo of Danny and Maddie when he was little, happily dressed and presenting as male, meaning that his parents either accepted him as trans from a young age, or allowed him to dress himself and have his hair done as short as he wanted and not forcing him to conform to gender roles, which allowed his coming out to be a lot easier

did he have a phase where everyone just called him a ‘tomboy’? or did he announce that he was a boy early on and that was that from then on? did he start school as Daniel or Danielle? like maybe it was one of those kids will be kids things where he wanted to be a boy for a day and his parents were like, 'aww that’s cute we’ll let her have her fun’ but a day became a week, a month, a year, he never grew out of it because he was never just playing pretend

personally I like to think that it started with Maddie and Jack just having super lax views on gender roles, unsurprising since Jack loves knitting which he might have been made fun of for because it’s 'feminine’ and Maddie is very strong and self sufficient and grew up with a big tough sister who wears her hair short and acts very 'masculine’, so they already have experience subverting traditional gender roles

so when they have a daughter who drags them to the boy aisle as soon as she’s old enough to choose her own clothes/toys and asks for a short haircut like that Chip Skylark guy who sings about his shiny teeth on tv, Maddie and Jack are just like, yeah sure why not? their kid can look however she wants

Danny was able to present as male from a very early age, his parents treated him and Jazz equally regardless of gender and I feel like maybe he didn’t even think to ask to be referred to by male pronouns until he got to school and the kids immediately assumed he was male and he realised ho dang, this feels RIGHT.

and then he’d have the teachers calling him Danielle and referring to him as female and another kid is like, umm Danny’s a boy tho?? and the teacher looks at this little boy with little boy hair and little boy clothes and is like, oh uh sorry kid there must have been a mistake in the paperwork, was it supposed to say Daniel?

and he’s just like yES YES DANIEL THAT’S RIGHT THAT IS MY NAME ALWAYS YEP

but then he feels bad because technically he 'lied’ to the teacher so he goes home and doesn’t say anything because he thinks his parents will be mad at him for lying on his first day at school

and then the parents get a call from some very confused school staff asking whether or not they’d enrolled a boy or a girl because they had a Danielle Fenton in the paperwork but a Daniel Fenton was dropped off to class this morning and that’s when Maddie and Jack were like… oooooh okay so this is how it is

they tell the school that he’s definitely a boy, always has been, they don’t say he’s trans because they probably don’t even know that word exists but they do know that their daughter seems far more comfortable as their son and they don’t see a problem with that and as far as they’re concerned it’s none of the school’s business

they’d probably sit Danny down for a talk after that in which he starts crying and apologising and they have to spend about ten minutes ensuring him that he isn’t in trouble for lying at school and if he wants to be a boy that’s okay they can call him a boy for as long as he wants, he just has to let them know if he changes his mind but if he doesn’t then that’s okay too, they just want him to be happy

and from that point on he was pretty much just the Fentons’ son, his parents would buy him binders and do research on trans kids to make sure they were doing the right thing and as soon as he was old enough for T they said they’d support him whether or not he wanted to take it and if there were any complications it was okay because he was still their boy no matter what his body looked like

I mean just, the Fentons have fucked up a lot of aspects of parenthood so I just really really REALLY want them to have done this one RIGHT or as right as they possibly can, they might be quite scatterbrained and neglectful at times but it’s clear that they really do love their kids, and were probably a lot closer with them when they were young, so it makes sense to me that they would be accepting of Danny’s identity even from such a young age

all they want is for their kids to feel happy and safe, which means when they find out he’s half ghost it still doesn’t MATTER, because they already promised they’d accept him no matter what

Adored by Him

A/N: So this fic is inspired by the song “Adored by Him” by Dodie Clark. Yeah that’s really it… 

Warnings: Swearing but that’s normal.

Word Count: 2, 428

Your POV 

I honestly never expected any of this to happen. When I became friends with Dan, I did think he was handsome and funny. But I didn’t think I would fall for him as fast as I did. I always pushed away the feelings until they asked if I wanted to move in with them. Being around him 24/7 made it harder to conceal it so I just let it happen. No one knew about my feelings, except Phil, who figured out a year ago. I always expected the feelings to just go away but they didn’t.

But then she happened. Allison was Dan’s most recent girlfriend. They’ve been dating for many months now, and he was absolutely smitten (cheeky Dodie reference again) with her. He never spoke about how he felt about her, but I was able to tell. The way he looked at her with adoring eyes, and smile at the mere mention of her name. I don’t blame him though. She was beautiful, with her butterscotch hair and her smile that could shine brighter than the sun, I bet anybody would fall her easily. She was literally perfect, and I was just…well me. It was easy to figure out how she made Dan’s soul practically glow, and it hurt. A lot.  

I won’t hate you but oh it stings,

How does it feel to be adored by him? 

It was hard to hate Allison. She was super nice, and had the same sense of humor as Dan. Plus, she makes him happy. That’s what matters, right?


I was sitting on the couch, watching my favorite movie with Phil. It was raining outside so we decided to dedicate the day to watching a bunch of movies. Phil and I were cuddled up under a blanket, eating popcorn. It was relaxing to say the least. Dan was out at Allison’s house so, of course, Phil questioned me about my feelings.

“Are you ever going to tell him, Y/N?” Phil asked, nudging my arm with his elbow.

I pulled up the blanket to my chest, and sighed heavily. “Philly we’ve talked about this before. I’ll only ruin things so-" 

"You should tell him. It’s best to get it out there.” Phil gave me a sympathetic look. It’s like he knew Dan wouldn’t return the feelings but he didn’t want to keep any secrets. To be honest I’m surprised he didn’t tell Dan by now. 

“Phil, look-”

Phil and I jumped off the couch when we heard a loud bang, and stumbling coming from downstairs. We exchanged confused glances, and hurried to the front door to see Dan, stumbling around the entrance of our flat.

“Hi guys!” Dan said, his speech slurred.

“Dan what the hell happened!?” Phil questioned, running up to his best friend’s side and helping him take his shoes off. 

“Heh, Allison and I got in a fight. Stupid really-” He tripped over his shoes that he just took off and laughed. He looked up into my eyes and smiled. “Don’t worry I’m fine.” Dan pushed Phil’s hand off his shoulder, and walked up the stairs by himself.

“Y/N, do you want to make sure he’s okay?” Phil asked, walking up to my side as we slowly followed Dan up the stairs.

“Why?”

“Just talk to him." 

I let out another sigh, and took another glance at Dan, who stumbled into his bedroom. "Okay. I’m not telling drunk Dan anything though.” I pointed my finger at Phil, and let out a small laugh to lighten the mood. Phil shook his head, smacking my hand away and smiling.

“Just go.” He laughed. 

I walked to the kitchen, and poured a small glass of water for Dan. I ignored the aching pain in my chest, and the tears swelling up in my eyes. I put down the glass for a moment to take a deep breath, and recollect myself. After a few minutes, I made my way towards Dan’s room where I saw him softly crying. My heart broke at the sight. It pained me so much to see another girl make Dan hurt. I hated it. I walked towards Dan’s bed and gave him the glass of water. 

“Here you go, sweetie.” I sat at the end of his bed, waiting for his response. 

“Thank you.” Dan sniffed, taking a sip of the water. 

“You want to talk about what happened?” I moved closer to him. His legs were hanging over the edge of his bed and he was staring at the cup of water in his lap.

“She doesn’t trust me.”  

“What do you mean?” I was right by his side after I finished the question. I tried to make eye contact with him but he was so closed off, I decided to keep a little distance.

“She thinks that I’m cheating on her with you.” He lifted his head slowly and stared into my eyes. My face turned red and I stared at the ground. I felt the butterflies in my stomach go crazy, and I had to take a deep breath again to calm myself down. I looked back into his beautiful, chocolate eyes and stared in silence for a while.  

Pretty girl there’s no need to fret

Because it’s midnight, he’s drunk, and you’re the one in his head.

You don’t even have to try at all. 

“I can’t say I’m in love with her but I feel something…strong towards her you know? I’m not even sure if she feels the same. It’s just- It hurts a lot that she doesn’t even trust me. ” Dan’s eyes got glossy, and he stared down at his cup again. All I did was nod my head. I understood where he was coming from. Someone you may be in love with and they might not even return the feeling. How ironic. 

“I understand, Dan. But you should get some rest, then talk to her in the morning.” I flashed a fake smile at Dan and stood up from his bed. I stood in front of him, and he stared into my eyes like he was searching for something.

“Thank you, Y/N. You’re honestly the best.” Dan put his glass down on his bedside table and got up to give me hug. I accepted it, taking in his warmth for that short moment I had. I sighed when he pulled away and sat in his bed. “You want to…stay with me for a bit?” He asked, not making eye contact. I gave him a weak smile, and nodded, sitting next to him as he got comfortable underneath the blanket.

I lost track of time, waiting for Dan to fall asleep. I stared at his sleeping figure for god knows how long, I felt like a complete creep. He looked so peaceful with his head resting in my lap it was hard not to. I gently stroked his hair as he slowly fell asleep, his arms wrapped around my body as his head rested on my leg. I checked the time on his phone, 1:00 am. I noticed his lock screen, expecting it to be a picture of him and Allison. But instead it was a picture of him, me, and Phil at VidCon on our day off. I smiled at it, but quickly my smile faded when a text from Allison popped up. I decided to ignore it, and finally leave Dan’s side. 

I crept towards the kitchen, hoping not to wake Dan or Phil up. However, to my surprise Phil was standing in the kitchen, drinking some tea while leaning against the counter. 

“So, how did it go?” He asked, staring at me. 

“She doesn’t trust him apparently. Allison thinks he’s cheating on her with…me.” I sighed. All my emotions that I’ve been holding in all night were surfacing, and I wasn’t going to let it happen. “Um, he’s asleep now. He asked me to stay with him for a little while and I lost track of time because he was…uh-" 

"Cuddling with you?” Phil flashed me a smile, but it faded when he looked into my eyes and noticed the tears coming up. He gave me a sympathetic look and walked closer to me. “You should just tell him so he knows. So you don’t have to keep hurting. He will understand, Y/N." 

"I know Phil. It’s just- it hurts seeing them together so much. And of course I want him to be happy! But that selfish part of me wants him to be happy with me. God, it fucking hurts.” I felt a warm streak roll down my cheek, and I quickly wiped it away, looking away from Phil. 

“Y/N.” I knew he was trying to make me look at him, but I hated being this vulnerable. “Y/N.” I gave in and stared into Phil’s icy blue eyes. It was full of sympathy, and I couldn’t take it anymore. 

“Phil, don’t look at me like that please. It’s only making me feel worse.” I felt more tears surfacing and let out a heavy sigh. I heard Phil mumble a small apology and he embraced me in a warm, loving hug. At that point I finally broke. I started sobbing into his shirt, with every sob he would hold me tighter, and tell me everything was going to be okay. He gently ran his hands through my hair. I pulled away from Phil, and sniffed, gently rubbing my nose. 

“Y/N, I know it hurts but-” Phil paused in the middle of his sentence and stared behind me. I looked up to Phil, then turned around to see what he was looking at. There was Dan, his hair curly and disheveled, and his empty glass in his hands.

“What’s wrong?” Dan asked, noticing my red, puffy eyes and the tear stains on Phil’s shirt. He looked into my eyes and I could tell he was concerned.

“N-Nothing.” I lied.

“Obviously there’s something wrong, Y/N, tell me.” Dan walked over to the counter and placed his cup on the surface. I looked up to Phil, and nodded, signaling for him to give us some alone time. When Phil left the room, Dan pulled me into a tight hug, and for the second time that night I broke down. “Want to talk to me about what happened?”

I pulled away from Dan and stared at the floor. “It’s not really about w-what happened. It’s more…what’s happening.” I let out a fake chuckle. Dan shot me a confused look, and backed up to lean against the counter.

“Tell me what’s going on or so help me god Y/N I will-”

“Okay. Um. I guess.”

“Spit it out, please.” Dan tilted his head, giving me a worried look. God I can’t handle this anymore.

“Okay, you don’t even have to respond to this…but I really need it out in the open.” I could feel my heart beating out of my chest, and I took deep unsteady breath. “I just need you to know that…that” I stared into Dan’s eyes and I could feel my heart aching all over again. I felt tears pouring out of my eyes and saw Dan’s tall figure making his way over to comfort me again but I pulled away.

“Please don’t. You’re just going to make this harder.”
“Y/N tell me. Please, you’re making me worried.” I realized that Dan and I were standing really close, closer than we usually are. I looked into his beautiful eyes like it was the last time then stared at the floor.

“I think I’m in love with you.” I mumbled. 

“What? Speak up, love.” Dan said softly. 

“Fuck.” I ran my fingers through my hair and avoided eye contact at all costs. “I think I’m in love with you and it fucking stings so much to see you and Allison together. I mean I don’t blame you, or her. Allison is like the definition of perfect. I mean she makes me look blind with how adventurous she is and you look at her like the world is fucking perfect. It’s so stupid to think that I could compare to her. But god, do I wish it was me in your arms instead of her. Don’t even get me started about how I feel about you because there is too much history to even go over.” I shook my head, staring at the ground, watching my tears hit the white kitchen tiles.

“Y/N, can you look at me please?” Dan was still speaking softly. 

“Dan I told you, you don’t have to even say anything. You could just simply ignore it and leave, I’ll get the point." 

"Look at me, Y/N.” Dan said, more stern but still full of care. I rolled my eyes and stared into his eyes. Even though my vision was blurred I could still see the small glimmer in his eyes. “I’m sorry for-”

“Dan I told you, you don’t have to do this." 

"Y/N, we need to talk about this. We can’t just ignore it.”

“Well I’ve been ignoring it for 3 years now, so I think I’m good. I know the speech you’re about to give me and I just…” I let out a muffled sob into my hand, and looked back up to him. “Please I can’t take this right now." 

"Please let me just-" 

"Dan, I’m so sorry I shouldn’t have said anything. I really need fresh air…I’ll be back in a bit." 

Dan looked over to the clock on the oven, and slowly moved towards the door. "It’s 1:20, Y/N you can’t go outside alone." 

"Well I am, so please move.” Dan was blocking the doorway. I made eye contact with him and got lost in his eyes again. I felt like time slowed down when we stared into each other’s eyes, but I broke the contact because I felt more tears coming. Dan reluctantly walked up to me, opening his arms to give me a hug. But instead, I pulled away from him. 

“I’m so sorry.” I mumbled, and ran down the stairs to the front door, putting on my shoes and coat. 

“Y/N wait-”

I left before I could hear anymore. I let the cold London air enter my lungs, as I tried to relax from what happened, and trying to decide if I should go back and face Dan, or go to a friend’s house. I ultimately decided on staying outside for a while. Sitting on a park bench staring at the trees in the park as I replayed what happened through my head. 

What am I going to do?

A/N: Second part? Or leave it there? YOU DECIDE

anonymous asked:

HIIII! I really want to know one thing! What are your music tastes? Outside of BTS, KPOP maybe?or maybe not? I want to know EVERY. SINGLE. ARTIST. you like, doesnt matter if theres billions. Thats all lmao, love youu xx

I’mma make recommended songs  💗 💗

And thank you so much for asking me this question, I’ve been wondering if anyone would ever ask me this question :”) I love you please stay safe and be happy (bc you deserve it, like the rest of my followers💗)

PS: I won’t be adding every single song that I’ve listened to but I’ll write down the good music that you guys might love (links are included)

Edit; I’ve just spent 3 hours on this lmao


❄ Indie & 80′s / 90′s (Basicially not that popular type of songs) 

[I’ve orginazed this section by the genre of the songs (like calm songs first then sad then cheerful songs)~]




❄ For chilling


❄ Korean songs that aren’t K-POP


❄ Mixed Languages

Popular songs that you might have heard of

(I could only remember those songs 💗)

Why I LOVED the Fairy Tail Ending:

The fact that Mashima took the time to allude the very beginnings, middles, and the continuation of their relationship made perfect sense to me. He dragged her away, in the very same way he dragged her (literally) back to Fairy Tail THREE TIMES (now four), and told her they’d always be together. 

I’ve stated millions of times that the reason I love Fairy Tail, and all stories, is that everything is up to the reader’s interpretation unless explicitly noted. The statement “We’ll always be together” means different things each person, and I feel it suits their relationship. No matter what Natsu, Happy, and Lucy will always be together. To exclude Happy would be one of the worst things Mashima could do, he’s as a part of their family as Lucy is. 

I loved the ending of Fairy Tail because Nalu wasn’t overly forced. The ending wasn’t a cliche kiss or wedding (and I am the queen of loving cliches don’t get me wrong), but it was so NALU. To expect Natsu to suddenly be making out and having babies with Lucy would be completely out of character for him (and out of character for Lucy to be honest. She comes off experienced and totally all about it, but I see through her facade). Romance isn’t all about kisses, getting married, and having children. Sometimes it’s the little things, instead of the big things, that the author sprinkles throughout the series that make the ship what it is. We’ve all made lists about our favorite Nalu moments, and why we love them, and it’s very clear that those should still all be taken into account despite how upset many of you are about the ending. (I’m not going to share all of these moments because this post is already getting too long)

A house isn’t just four walls and one room. It’s got to have a firm foundation to build upon, otherwise it will ultimately fail and collapse. Despite how long this series has been going on, I feel that Mashima leaving this as an open ending was his way of setting the foundation for their future relationship. By this I mean this first series for Fairy Tail in general, and their series of moments throughout the series. 

My final thoughts on this: Mashima himself tweeted awhile ago that he still had various projects in the works for Fairy Tail after this main story ends. This would include the continuation of the anime in 2018 I would assume, and whatever else it includes is still up in the air. So while many questions may still seem unanswered right now, the fact that he left it as an open ending is actually to his benefit. It leaves him with more space to grow and continue the series if wishes to in the future. 

I will end this post with my way of saying a big THANK YOU!! to not only Hiro Mashima for providing a wonderful story, but to everyone who has included me so kindly in this fandom. I have appreciated every single one of you, and I will continue to contribute as much as I can to the fandom even though the series is technically over. Have an absolutely beautiful day <3

some Baekhyun headcanons
  • Don’t get me wrong I fkin love this kid but he’s such a fuccboi™ sometimes that you wonder how you deal with him on a daily basis jfc 
  •  The teasing and playfulness is nonstop w/ him 
  •  He’ll still flirt w/ you and be cheeky after years of dating and knowing each other ???????
  •  Totally will send you shirtless pics of him after practice w inappropriate emojis 
  •  But yeah he’ll want to check in on you often and sends lots of photos updates w/ him and the boys practicing and eating 
  •  They’ll get annoyed at this tbh bc they’re like ?? You’re literally taking ugly pics of us on purpose so that y/n only keeps an eye for u , u lil sh-
  •  The boys are hella impressed by how quickly he got whipped 
  •  Like…………
  •  So one time you got into a huge fight w/ him over nothing and he stormed out right 
  •  Bc he couldn’t handle crying in front of you and being emo bc he wants you to think of happy and smiley and fluffy baekhyun and not tear-stained, ugly crying, throwing a fit baekhyun 
  •  So he’ll go over to chan’s place and oh my lord 
  •  Chanyeol is like “!!!!! Whoa,..,.,,…no one’s ever made you act like this before so you better get her ass on the phone and talk to her asap boi!!!!!”
  •  “wow you’re not even gonna pretend to be sad for me. I got fake people showing fake lo-“
  •  He’ll be forced by the giant to talk to you and apologize 
  •  And he’ll kinda not say anything and just hold you by the waist really tight ?
  •  But then you’ll hear him murmuring something against your neck and it kinda tickles so you laugh and he looks like he’s just been shot lmao 
  •  “why are you laughing ;(? I said I love you and I’m sorry that I was being a drama queen, but fine I take it back never mind”
  •  “just kiss me u fkin weirdo” 
  •  So needless to say the other members are just shocked by how much of an effect you have on him????
  •  Like he’d literally move the sun and the moon for you if that’d make you happy
  •  I’m not saying he’ll get jealous and pouty often but no that’s exactly what I’m saying 
  •  But you know dang well he can’t live without your constant attention 
  •  No matter how much that would annoy and bother other people, you’ve probably gotten used to it and can’t live without his adorable antics 
  •  Bc I mean it’s not like he’ll get all possessive and get mad when you hang around others 
  •  But totally expect that adorable murderous look to hypothetically kill at least 5 people if they ever made you feel uncomfortable or got your attention for too long 
  •  Calls you so many nicknames that you aren’t even sure if he likes your actual name lmao 
  •  His favorite is probably wifey bc it’s like………..ye I’m being thirsty and obvious but also I’m being low key bc it’s not like I’m saying ‘wife’ which completely has a different meaning, so, way 2 go baek,
  •  OK so like one time he saw you messing around w/ Sehun and play fighting
  •  And he called him your son ????? 
  •  “lol aw look at you two, my wifey and my son :’)”
  •  And yeah it made things hella awkward but hey its Sehun so he understands 
  •  *pats your shoulder* “I’m so sorry u have to put up w/ baek’s bs”
  •  All he wants to do on his free days is to build blanket forts w/ you and cuddle until the sun goes down 
  •  Bc then something else is gonna go down lmao ahsjdkfl I’ll sTop
  •  Yooooooooo he acts like he hasn’t seen you in 28 years when he’s been busy and finally comes to visit 
  •  Will not leave your side and acts like a puppy, literally just following you around 
  •  Pouty kisses OML 
  •  He’d mumble your name in his sleep so often 
  •  Probably the only time he’d actually call you by your real name yikes baek 
  •  Also holds your hand really tight when you’re both sleeping ???? Like omg sometimes he won’t even let go throughout the night and presses it against his lips or against his chest so you could feel his heart beat fuccccccc
  •  So many inside jokes 
  •  Bc he loves having secrets w you!!!!! It feels scandalous but also brings you closer wow the power of gossip 
  •  He’s always teasing you when in public like he just can’t help himself 
  •  You’ll find his fingers just casually  sliding up and down your thighs or even arms 
  •  And first you won’t even think anything of it bc he’s always just touching you in general??
  •  But you’ll get the hint and you’re like…………jfc he really is tryna test me 
  •  He kisses your forehead and the top of your head a lot 
  •  And he’d esp love this if you were shorter than him 
  •  He’s just hella cheesy when you’re both alone tbh 
  •  Also he just loves it when you refer to him as your boyfriend when you introduce him to someone 
  •  Like his eyes start shining and he’ll stare at you in adoration and pure love instead of shaking hands w/ the person lmao 
  •  You’ll know he’s really in love when he’s just sitting there peaceful and quiet by your side, not once shouting any random thoughts in his head bc it’s completely swarming w/ thoughts of you 
  •  When you pick up on this and ask him what’s wrong, he’ll snap out of quickly but keep a warm smile on his cute lips 
  •  “nothing baby, I was just thinking about how cute our future kids will look”
  •  Yeah so there’s that and there goes my sanity 
  •  Like his head is constantly against your chest and he’s spilling out his thoughts and secrets bc he trusts you more than anyone or anything else in his world 
  •  Bc you are his world awwww pls keep this kid safe and loved 🌷

Originally posted by baekhyunsama

Picture Perfect - Dean Winchester x Reader x Sam Winchester - Chapter 6

Title: Picture Perfect

Pairing: Sam Winchester x Reader, Dean Winchester x Reader

Word Count: 5,503

Warnings: Angst

Prompt: I got it! Can you do a fic where Sam dies while (Y/N) is pregnant with his child and so Dean helps her raise the child and they live the apple pie life and right when Dean wants to propose to (Y/N), Sam returns to life & ANGST. Please and thank you

Read: Part 1 l Part 2 l Part 3 l Part 4 l Part 5

“Hope you’re happy.” you said in a hoarse voice, tears having welled up in your eyes as you crosed your arms over your chest and walked away from both of them.

“Neither of us is.” Dean spoke up as he approached you “But we know that she has to learn the truth, sooner or later. And at this point- it wouldn’t make any difference. She already loves Sam, she doesn’t see him as a stranger so that’s what matters.”

“Right, because it’s more convenient.” you scoffed, shaking your head “Liten to me here, we’ve been through tons of shitty situations. We’ve lived moments we never thought we’d go through and that other people would have been torn apart in but this- it’s no longer just the three of us. That kid upstairs is my life and I don’t care what I’ll have to do but I am going to protect her happiness with everything I’ve got.” you got closer to both of them, forgetting for a moment that Sam would probably see the marks Dean had left on your neck. That and the fact that you were actually wearing his shirt.

“And I know she has to find out, I agree that she has to. But I need you both to understand one thing: no matter what goes on amongst us she stays out of it. I don’t want for a second to see her cry, and I need you both to know that.” you said in a stern tone and after a final look you were making your way upstairs.

Your mood seemed to be changing every five minutes as it seemed but you didn’t care anymore. You were slightly angry, yes, mostly at Dean for having gone to talk to Sam without you there. It almost seemed behind your back and you didn’t want to admit that it mostly scared you about what else he had in mind to do.

“She really hasn’t changed one bit.” Sam whispered and the corners of Dean’s mouth lifted into a small smile.

“Yeah” he whispered in a hoarse voice “She really hasn’t.”

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happy birthday to our lovely, talented, and hard-working maknae, jeonggukie!

i can’t believe you’re already twenty years old! wow… it feels so weird, getting to grow up with you and watch you mature even though we’re only a few months apart. do you feel weird being older, too? do you have any of the same worries i do? it’s been four years since you debuted, and you’re so grown up now. and you’re only twenty years old! look at how much you’ve accomplished. did you think you would be where you are now a year ago? or when you debuted? it’s so hard to imagine we’ve made it this far as your fan, and i can only dream of understanding how it must feel for you. you’ve come so far, and you’re only going to go higher. it’s a privilege to be able to watch you soar the way you have.

when i first clicked on that video of you dancing so many years ago, i knew there was something special about you. i will never stop being thankful that i found you and that i found bangtan, because the years i’ve spent with you are my happiest. you have always been and always will be my most beautiful moment in life. you’ve inspired me to pick myself up out of my worst moments, lift my chin up, and move forward. i’ll do what it takes to keep living if it means i can follow you forever, even if i can’t go everywhere you can. you inspire me to run when i can’t fly, walk when i can’t run, crawl when i can’t walk. and it isn’t easy, we both know that, but i will always try for you. as long as you continue to live doing what makes you happiest, i’m happy. it doesn’t matter what else is happening in the world or in my life, your smile is the only thing i need. thank you for being you, jeongguk. i don’t know where i would be without you. i hope today and every day following fills you with as much happiness as you give me just by smiling. thank you.

Please continue to love me even if there are hundreds of walls built around me. Please continue to hold me even when I try to run away. Please continue to cherish me and remind me that I’m valuable. Please continue to stick by my side even if I act as if I’m in another world. Please continue to make memories with me for they remind me how lucky I am to have you. These memories will last forever and I never want to forget a single one of them. Please continue to put a smile on my face and make me laugh the way you do. Please continue to let me know that you’re hurting too, I want to be there for you forever and always. Please continue to accept all my personalities whether they’re dark, insane, or just plain ol’ happy. Please continue to be with me even if it may not last forever, all I need is right now. I know that I am not the ideal person to love, but I’m trying to be someone worthy of your heart. Never doubt my love for you because I love you so damn much. You really are my everything. This is a lot to ask, I know, but if you want to leave… know that I’ll be okay, I would never make you stay. I will fight for us but I will not force you to be with me. But above all else: please promise me that the moment I no longer make you smile, you will leave and find somebody else who makes you happy. Your happiness is what matters to me the most because isn’t that what love is? Placing one’s needs above your own?
—  Please promise me. // S.T

anonymous asked:

Okay i know that you are so sure of klance becoming canon. I appreciate your meta and the evidence that you have provided with it but how can you just say it'll happen and not consider the other option, which is it wont happen. If klance didnt happen, if all your analysis is proven wrong what will happen then? At the end of the day we dont make the shots the writers can litterally just say the fans read too much into it and there was nothing romantic to begin with. Then what ?

because i like being optimistic. my life is already full of negatives in every other area so i’m not pessimistic about it. klance makes me happy, therefore i’m not going to sit here and worry about it not happening… that’s pointless. if it doesn’t, i’ll deal with it then (i’ll never have to though, it’s happening). i’ll never regret the time i put into my masterposts about klance and shit, it was enjoyable for me when i was doing it. i’ve made great friends because of it. i’ll always love klance no matter what because it literally changed my life and made me want to fall in love again, something i never thought would happen.

i’m so certain it’s going to be canon because LOGICALLY it’s the only main pairing that fits everything that’s been said about the romance and it’s the relationship that has arguably had the most consistent development/build-up/focus throughout the show. allura and keith are lance’s only viable love interests and EVERYTHING points away from allura. the VLD crew are secretive about who lance will end up with and his feelings for allura are not subtle whatsoever, in fact, they’re very out in your face (they’ve been on full display since the very beginning). lance has wanted allura since the first episode of the show yet lauren and joaquim implied that what he will be getting will be what he NEEDS, not what he WANTS, therefore he won’t get allura. this is foreshadowed with his line to blue, “sometimes what we want isn’t necessarily what we get”. he wants blue… but he gets red. he wants allura but he gets….. you know where i’m going with this. besides, allura has never reciprocated his affections in that way. she clearly cares about him but not in a romantic way. that being said, a/l being endgame would be the most predictable thing because we all know lance likes her. SHE knows it. the WHOLE voltron team knows it. THAT’S NOT A SLOW BURN. why put all this secrecy on lance’s love interest and the romance if it was going to be something so obvious in the first place? plus, it’s… it’s just not setup romantically. obviously, lance has a crush on her (jshada even said lance “still thinks he has a shot with her,” which implies that he doesn’t) but it’s. never. reciprocated. we’re well into the show already so making allura reciprocate at this point wouldn’t make any sense, especially when you consider that they put in little things to hint at this stuff. it’s never been hinted that allura has/will develop romantic feelings for lance. plus, lauren talked about how important expressions are yet there hasn’t been anything with allura towards lance like there has been with keith towards lance (+the fond looks towards keith from lance when keith can’t see him/isn’t around).

in s4, allura and lance parallel with keith and lance from back in s1 but the scenes are very different. with keith and lance, it’s framed much more romantically: they hold hands, they smile fondly at each other while looking into each other’s eyes, keith says “lance, are you okay?” softly, lance says “we did it, we are a good team” to his RIVAL all while soft music is playing in the background and they’re bathed in purple lighting. the moment is made very important in the show, visually and narratively. it’s made VERY important to keith and affects him deeply and is brought up again twice in the next episode… that does not happen with allura and lance’s scene. they don’t hold hands, they don’t stare into each other’s eyes, allura only looks at lance for a split second but he’s looking at her the whole time, they don’t share smiles, lance doesn’t say her name when asking if she’s okay, there’s no music in the background, lance doesn’t go on to say anything other than “are you okay?” to her. narratively and visually, it’s not made that important in the way keith and lance’s moment was. the camera doesn’t focus on either of their faces up close or anything. it’s just lance helping her up. the scenes parallel each other but there is still a very stark contrast between them. allura and lance’s suggests unrequited affection while keith and lance’s suggests mutual affection.

so, allura doesn’t fit being lance’s love interest and that leaves keith and he RECIPROCATES, that much is obvious (though, apparently not to lance, the fool). they are very much setup to be the main romantic endgame. i mean, just by looking at visuals and subtext alone, you can tell. they have so many trope-y scenes, it’s not a coincidence at this point and never has been because klance was planned from the beginning. they already started building the foundation for it in s1 so it would feel natural (lm: “we’re just doing what’s best for the story”) and it does! it fits the definition of a slowburn romance PERFECTLY and blends in seamlessly into the show. the bonding moment happened MUCH too soon in the show if all they were aiming for was a rivals to friends arc for them. they’re already friends, yet it’s apparent that there’s another step… their development is not finished, it hasn’t reached it’s final stop. i’m not optimistic just for shits and giggles, i’m optimistic because EVERY SINGLE THING points to it happening. i have a very logical and realistic way of thinking when i’m analyzing things and everything that’s been presented to me tells me klance is the main pairing. everything lines up too perfectly for it to just be a case of us “reading too much into it”. leave me be. don’t be a downer.

BTS Mafia|Au - Reaction to their S/O telling them they’d give all their wedding money to charity

Namjoon

Namjoon would wonder why you would give up all of their money for their wedding for people that you didn’t even know, but he didn’t really care, money was money, it was something someone like him could easily get his hands on. When you explained to him that you loved to give back to society and help people he understood because he knew you were a genuinely good person but it wasn’t something he would do, he didn’t care much about others, only you. So whatever you wanted he granted so he fully supported your choice.

“Whatever you want y/n, as long as I get to call you my wife”

Originally posted by bts-uke

Seokjin

You never failed to amaze him, he couldn’t believe that although you knew you both were saving up for a while and all the hell he went through to get money especially in his line of work that you wanted to give all of it to charity. He couldn’t understand why you would gave away the most important and special day in your life, your wedding day, just like that. You told him you didn’t care for a fancy expensive wedding, as long that you could bring happiness to others it would make you satisfied and happy. After many attempts of convincing him he would eventually give in knowing it would cause you happiness. He clearly knew you were to precious and kind hearted to fit in with his world but he couldn’t let you go and wasn’t planning on it.

“Your’e too precious for this world my angel”

Originally posted by seokjinies

Yoongi

When you first brought up the idea to him his immediate response was no. He didn’t understand why you would want to give away all the money he worked hard on getting for the wedding. He knew that you knew that his work was dangerous and getting money wasn’t easy so when you told him you wanted to give it to charity he was furious and refused. His reaction had caught you off guard but you couldn’t say you didn’t expect him to accept the idea so willingly. Feeling upset, tears ran down your face caused by his outburst but as soon as he saw what his response had caused, you were in his arms wiping your tears away while apologising for reacting that way.

“We can do whatever you want to do with the money jagi, just please don’t cry”

Originally posted by bwiseoks

Hoseok

Telling your fiance, Hoseok, that you wanted to donate the money that was saved up for the wedding to charity because you thought it would go to better use and would bring happiness to alot of people that needed it more was something that you feared. You knew he was someone that got easily frustrated and had a bad tempter making the whole situation almost like a suicide mission. When you eventually built up enough courage to tell him you were surprised at how accepting he was to the idea. He claimed that planning a big wedding was too frustrating and hectic anyways and that he was satisfied with just a small gathering with close family and friends when you both exchange your vows.

“It doesn’t matter to me babe, I just want to make you my wife”

Originally posted by parkjiminer

Jimin

Jimin was all for it, he didn’t have to think twice, your every wish was his demand for he would any and everything for you. You were his angel, his saving grace, the only one that keep him sane. He would anything in his power to make you happy so when you told him you wanted to donate the you both had saved up for the wedding he fully agreed, knowing that it was what you wanted and that it made you happy, and your happiness was all he cared about.

“I don’t care about the money or having a big wedding, as long as your happy and by my side” 

Originally posted by amsimaria

Taehyung

Taehyung would be extremely accepting of the idea, he didn’t care much for the money knowing that it was just possessions, something that came and went. He found your gesture so pure, just like you, so he wasn’t surprised this was something you wanted to do. He loved you for you and if you wanted to give up their wedding for the sake of helping others in need  then he was all for it, loving to see how you lit up every time you helped others or did a good deed.

“As long as it keeps a smile on your face, I would give up anything for you princess”

Originally posted by mvssmedia

Jungkook

When you first told him what you wanted to do with the money for wedding he was sceptical at first, worried what other would think of him and how it would put a dent in his reputation if people, especially his enemies, found out. But after seeing it was something that you really wanted and how excited you would get when talking about bringing happiness to others he couldn’t say no, he never could. If word ever got out he came to the realisation that he shouldn’t care, he wouldn’t, cause it was for you and he’d do anything to make you happy for you were his soon to be wife.

“Let’s do it, it doesn’t change the fact that I’m going to make you my wife”

Originally posted by suga-mummy


anonymous asked:

My girlfriend is annoyed by my veganism. Eating meals together is such an issue for her. We argue a lot and I'm always afraid to say no to eating out because I love to cook at home and make healthy yummy things while she rolls her eyes. Last night she asked what was for dinner and I said " bulgur and chickpea masala" she said " ugh you sound so gay" it was my meal prep for the week anyways. I would like to avoid eating together . I don't want to fight and argue . Any suggestions

This made me say yikes and also made me feel real sad for you. Try and remember that all of what you just said is not normal behavior and sounds like bullying, your s/o is supposed to be your best friend, too. If anything that all sounds like a bro + bro banter. I’m sorry if it’s not what you wanna hear but my personal suggestion would be to find a better girlfriend - one who actually supports the good you’re doing for yourself and others. I can’t get down with people like that so I’m sorry if I sound harsh!! but if these issues are already here now imagine some years down the line. Your happiness and (really fucking amazing) life choices matter and they’ll matter to the right person too.

How having an amazing teacher can change your life

Get ready for one long text post.

I started playing horn in seventh grade and I was really shy, like hopelessly shy. Playing in front of people was impossible for me. My middle school music teacher was annoyed by it, but didn’t do much to change it. So I just never played solos. Ever.

Then I started high school. It was horrifying walking into the music for the first practice. I was one of two horns in the entire school. The other one was in 11th grade so I was all alone in jr. Band. And then the music teacher walked in. And everything went down hill from there.

This man was the most egotistical person I’ve ever met. (We took coach buses everywhere we went cause it was good for our ‘image’, it’s uncommon to take a coach bus here) He didn’t care how bad he made us feel when we screwed up. If it wasn’t perfect he wasn’t happy, cause that meant we wouldn’t get gold at festival and that’s all he cared about. He made that very clear. I practiced so hard to be able to play the way he wanted me to. It only made my previous anxiety about playing worse. I cried so much during rehearsal and he didn’t care he just kept going and basically told me to get it together.

When band class started in second semester of that year. I couldn’t play in front of people without bursting into tears. My final solo was a disaster. After that, I wanted to put down my horn and never play again.

But I played again next year. He needed his horn player. I was “important to the integrity of the band” He convinced me to come back and It was a little better.

Until the musical started. We did into the woods as our musical and everyday after school for three months I had to deal with his need for perfection. I was told I wasn’t good enough, everyday for three months. It wasn’t a typical conductor saying we weren’t going to be ready to perform a piece. He said we were horrible. I started crying once and he told me to “get it together, real performers don’t cry” All he did was berate me and others. I hated myself.

When our longer weekend practices started we would break for half an hour for dinner. One day we were screwing one part up. He wouldn’t let us eat until we played it perfectly. By the time we did we had five minutes to shove food down our throats, or what was left of it after the cast ate anyway. It was the lowest I’d ever felt in my life. We are high school students, not professional players.

But then it all changed. For the better (thank god)

I moved about a year ago, just after we finished our musical and started at a new high school this year, so I had a new music teacher. I remember the first day walking into the music and instead of a gloomy, hateful atmosphere. It was loud and happy place and everyone was laughing and a shoe went flying through the air. I approached the music teacher and told her I play horn. She was giddy. She told me about all the bands they have at the school and about the music they play and stuff they do, and before I knew it I was going to fall music camp.

It was the most fun I’d ever had with music ever. I made so many friends and began to come out of my shell. She complemented my playing and instead of berating me when I played it wrong she would help me. She made me excited to play my instrument, something I hadn’t felt in two years. Recently for a solo in class, she brought in her own horn and played with me so I could hear how it sounded and felt. She nor any of my band mates made me feel horrible about myself again. I’ve only ever cried once at a rehearsal this year. I started to get way more confident. I can play when she calls on me. It’s hard to believe I’ve only been at this school for seven months.

I told my new teacher at the beginning of the year, right off the bat, I would never play a solo for her.

Today, at festival, I played a solo in front of a heck of a lot of people and an adjudicator.

I have no idea why I kept playing horn at my old school when he made me feel so bad about myself. But that doesn’t really matter now. I’m happy at my new school and really proud of how far I’ve come. It really goes to show you what the difference between a good and bad teacher can make for a student.

anonymous asked:

Ok so if all four of them are gonna be in a *cowboy themed* motel in 13x6 they're gonna have to split up 2 and 2 right??? So I'm really gonna need Dean and Cas to share a room and then have a convo that's reverse of the "Talk to me" one in S8 where instead they talk about how they both did feel suicidal but how they've both overcome it. ~For reasons unknown~

That would be great mirroring, and it’s always good to compare the fun episodes where things seem back to normal to 8x08… However… Sorry, but this is a bummer reply, I’m just not good with leaving off things like this :P

I sort of feel though that neither Dean or Cas got to completely overcome things in their respective paths through dark other worlds… Cas said he’d just keep fighting and even if the standing up was an important part, he acknowledged he was going back with a sense of hopelessness that he’d get what he truly wants - and that’s just how it was in the Empty, while it sounds like he may have forgotten the experience so it’s for now a metaphorical state he passed through and we got to see it vocalised and it probably means roughly where he’s up to. But the despair of resolution, the fact need/want has been called out for US to know it’s a major theme but Cas of course hasn’t actually talked face to face with any Winchester, let alone Dean, to resolve need/want, which is the core of his depression, thematically… He’s come back with levelled up determination and a will to live, which is great, but there’s so much work to do before he feels happy even if he DOES remember the Empty. I’ve written ridiculously long things tracking his arc so I’ll just say that this was a great step forwards for him but in no way actually resolving anything. 

For Dean as well, Billie sent him back but it was with the “work to do” order/motivation that’s made Dean and Sam power through a lot of their worst times, and like how in the Empty nothing new was actually said about Cas, it just brought everything up that was troubling him so we’d get a sample of how he feels, that was just repeating the theme for Dean that he started this season on - that at best he’s going to feel like a guy doing his job, because someone more important than him told him he had to and he can’t stop now. 

Billie’s words are the sort of advice he got in season 7 after Cas (and then Bobby) died, from Bobby, Frank and Eliot Ness, all of which was a variation of the same sort of nihilism about doing the job because it’s the job and you’re the one who does it. I’m in most agreement with the meta I’ve seen that Dean didn’t go into that whole mess looking for a reason to die, he just was in that state Bobby described: 

BOBBY:
I want to talk about your new party line.

DEAN:
Party? What are you talking about? I don’t even vote.

BOBBY:
“The world’s a suicide case. We save it, it just steals more pills”?

DEAN:
Bobby, I’m here, okay? I’m on the case. What’s the problem?

BOBBY:
I’ve seen a lot of hunters live and die. You’re starting to talk like one of the dead ones, Dean.

DEAN:
No, I’m talking the way a person talks when they’ve had it, when they can’t figure out why they used to think all this mattered.

I’m picking on this conversation because it’s the most detailed but also because it’s the one Dean has WITH Bobby so in no way shape or form can it be about Dean losing Bobby, except that of course this episode gave Dean and Sam both a private conversation with Bobby about where they were at, so we could have a good last moment with him each, and also to gauge how they’d react to his death (Dean with this massive depression caused by losing Cas and his betrayal to pile on top of) and Bobby’s last advice apply after as well. His advice being:

BOBBY:
Come on, now. You tried to hang it up and be a person with Lisa and Ben. And now here you are with a mean old coot and a van full of guns. That ain’t person behavior, son. You’re a hunter, meaning you’re whatever the job you’re doing today. Now, you get a case of the Anne Sextons, something’s gonna come up behind you and rip your fool head off. Now, you find your reasons to get back in the game. I don’t care if it’s love or spite or a ten-dollar bet. I’ve been to enough funerals. I mean it. You die before me, and I’ll kill you.

Cheery. 

But this is essentially what Billie does for Dean. She reads him, sees he wants to die, and he tells her that he doesn’t matter, so she reassures him that he has a job, that he is important, that he’s in this cosmic position of responsibility. It would almost be encouraging, to know you’re not meant to die that day, that there is a reason for you to be alive. But not for Dean in the state he was in then.

Cas coming back is GREAT and of course it’s going to make Dean wildly happy. But he’s been feeling this way about the job a long, long time in ways that aren’t to do with Cas at all but is just his underlying major trauma that you can see coming from a hundred miles off in season 1:

from 2x09:

DEAN
I’m tired, Sam. I’m tired of this job, this life … this weight on my shoulders, man. I’m tired of it.

[…]

DEAN
I just think we should take a break from all this. Why do we gotta get stuck with all the responsibility, you know? Why can’t we live life a little bit?

Or this speech from 2x20 I contractually have to quote at least once a month as a card-carrying Dean!girl:

DEAN
All of them. Everyone that you saved, everyone Sammy and I saved. They’re all dead. And there’s this woman, that’s haunting me. I don’t know why. I don’t know what the connection is, not yet anyway. It’s like my old life is, is coming after me or something. Like it like it doesn’t want me to be happy. Course I know what you’d say. Well, not the you that played softball but… “So go hunt the Djinn. He put you here, it can put you back. Your happiness for all those people’s lives, no contest. Right?” But why? Why is it my job to save these people? Why do I have to be some kind of hero? What about us, huh? What, Mom’s not supposed to live her life, Sammy’s not supposed to get married? Why do we have to sacrifice everything, Dad? It’s… Yeah…

(And, side note, it really annoys me when people make 2x20 about brotherly wuv, platonically or not, because THAT is why Dean decided to go un-wish this life, not because of anything to do with AU Sam, who he still trusted he could find his Sam in >.> I’ll just keep repeating this until I stop stumbling over the idea… :P)

He’s had similar smaller moments like this but season 2, 7 and now 13 are his grief seasons, so I’m most interested in these parallels. Like, just in general. Specifically in season 2 because he was dealing with John’s order to save Sam or kill him, which of course is a dynamic that Jack could horrifyingly repeat for him if Dean gets attached to a kid with the same horrifying destiny. Specifically in season 7 Dean was dealing with losing Cas and it immediately struck him to the core, that even while Cas was still Godstiel he was having mirrors with his season 2 self after losing John:

DEAN
Sounds good. You got any leads on where the demon is? Making heads or tails of any of Dad’s research? Because I sure ain’t. But you know, if we do finally find it - oh. No, wait, like you said. The Colt’s gone. But I’m sure you’ve figured out another way to kill it. We’ve got nothing, Sam. Nothing, okay? So you know the only thing I can do? Is I can work on the car.

[… five years elapse]

SAM:
So, what? Try to talk to him again?

DEAN:
Sam.

SAM:
Dean, all we can do is talk to the guy.

DEAN:
He’s not a guy. He’s God. And he’s pissed. And when God gets righteous, you get the hell out of the way; haven’t you read the Bible?

SAM:
I guess…

DEAN:
Cas is never coming back. He’s lied to us, he used us, he cracked your gourd like it was nothing. No more talk; we have spent enough on him.

SAM:
Okay.

DEAN:
Hand me that socket wrench.

Dean didn’t lose the car this time, just had Miriam deface it with “Bitch” on the window and the car was washed and shiny in a couple of episodes. But it’s metaphorically a similar process and I guess all they had time for when 13x01 was about taking time in a very different way, by giving Dean like 10 minutes at the end of the episode all about how he was grieving Cas. 

Anyway, I think there’s a lot of thematic overlap in what it means for Dean right now, with Billie’s reminder of his position on the cosmic ladder, to John’s order about Sam, to Dean’s responsibility to deal with Cas and the Leviathans, which eventually crystallises into his mission to kill Dick - and though Dick kills Bobby, finding out who is the head leviathan in 7x09 really just seals the deal of who Dean needs to personally kill to deal with everything, and the Bobby thing was just an extra motivation to fall into a revenge mindset, but it also about what happened with Cas (and when Cas comes back, he has to help kill Dick for the same reason it all happened to him and he was connected to it and responsible). 

We really haven’t seen anything yet, but I think getting Cas back is a temporary fix at least to a bigger issue, which is Dean’s burden of the world, which Chuck lumped on him in 11x23 and made me very, very excited that Dean’s duty to save everyone was hopefully going to get some microscopic treatment and maybe one day some sort of resolution. I don’t think Billie’s comment was a pick me up, and it reminds me of how Cas started picking on Dean on Heaven’s behalf in 4x01 - telling him they had work for him. In 4x02 Dean complains a lot about how he hates being singled out and it’s absolutely horrifying that he was saved for unknown reasons. And those reasons turned out to be being Michael’s vessel and one of the 2 grenade pins needed to be pulled on the planet being destroyed.

(Which we have some handy visuals for and reminders of in the AU world right now :P) 

I’d hope in the long run Chuck’s orders end up being destroyed as much as John’s were, because the parallel is 1 to 1 except bigger scale, and Chuck telling Dean the world has him to protect it literally in God’s own place is an absolutely horrifying unfair burden than broke him in season 5 and can be directly equated to how season 2 broke him when Sam, who was basically his whole world at the time, was lumped on him with the same burden. In the mean time, Billie’s adding to the weight on Dean, although long run she’s neutral, commenting on it rather than ordering, and seems to have some confidence that he has a purpose and will fulfil it, I can see Dean struggling with it in just the same way he took Cas’s comments in 4x01. 

So even if he seems happy to get Cas back, the root problem of his depression, his sense of being worthless, is still truly about how he defines himself as a hunter and the guy who is supposed to save everyone - who will trade himself for a house of random ghosts he feels he LET DOWN by not investigating well enough sooner. Because he has sole responsibility to fix the planet.

The job is killing Dean literally and metaphorically, and the grief of losing all his loved ones as they do it is just an additional awful, awful part of it. Not getting Cas back immediately thanks to Chuck in 13x01 just confirmed how alone Dean is in the world to him, and he directly mentioned the line from 11x23 when reaching out to Chuck… Getting Cas back and Cas returning seemingly on his own steam is going to be a nice turning point, and good for uplifting Dean, but the core problem remains and since 11x23 I’ve been pretty certain that Dean’s endgame is NOT to be a hunter… Billie also now makes me think he has some purpose to fulfil, and ideally, fulfilling it would let him finally get off the cosmic ladder and be who he wants to be without obligation. 

About all I can really speculate about that hopeful endgame would be that Sam seems to be lumped in with Dean on this, but Cas is literally outside the system based on how he got himself back from the Empty without Chuck’s interference, OR except for in thematic “rewards” or dramatic irony from just missing him really hard, Dean didn’t actually bring him back by DOING anything, and Jack, who is also outside the system in some ways, did instead. But that’s all a huge mess right now :P Need more data. 

So anyway, to go back to Dean and Cas next episode? I think they will have a lot to talk about but it has to be immediate character stuff about their actions and desires. They are both really good for each other and going through very similar emotional territory so I hope they get honest and tell each other how they’re doing, but I don’t think they’ll be talking about overcoming anything. I think if it does mirror 8x08 it MAY be a reversal that Dean admits how bad he was doing without Cas, and Cas is still too uncertain about what happened to him or with a link to make it directly about Dean to reciprocate the sentiment… For all the good communication lately I’m not entirely sure if Dean and Cas can absolutely knock down all the walls. 

And I seriously fear dramatic interruptions to their reconciliation just because of the extremely vague episode descriptions we have after 13x06, which seem to  be concealing exactly what happens in that episode… I’m really expecting silly cowboys for like the middle half of the episode, with the first quarter for reconciliation and getting onto the job, and the last quarter or five minutes for shit to completely hit the fan in some way, probably about Jack, and probably involving Cas since he’s specifically not mentioned in the episode descriptions *even though they just got him back*. 

I’m not worried or wanky about this, I’m just bracing myself for the next round of drama and what its subject will be. If Cas is fine and hanging out with the Winchesters still for 2 episodes and it was redacted spoilers for the sake of 13x05′s last 5 minutes that’s awesome :P But it sounds like time to brace yourself not to expect everything to be fluffy or resolved, either with plot stuff, or emotional arcs. We’re only 5 episodes in so the drama needs to keep on happening, and there’s no way Dean and Cas can or should overcome their arcs about their depression when it’s been set up so interestingly, just because they’re hanging out again.

But it WILL make them feel a lot better in the short term. :D I’m really excited for what they WILL say to each other, I just feel like in some ways we’re really starting to put the cart before the horse on identifying what stories are being told and what moments are being offered to tell them, and assuming the stories are over just because something really dramatic happened. I’m seeing it a lot with all sorts of thematic threads, that just because they’re becoming obvious or surface level or have had a really dramatic moment all about them, they’re being wrapped up as we speak. Instead I think it’s got to all be set up for the rest of the season, where this is all important stuff to know, but the real work hasn’t even begun yet :P

Getting your period Ft. Boyfriend Tom Holland

Originally posted by tomshollandss

-cuddling with Tom on his couch when you feel a Cramp™ and you’re just like oh shit and tell him you’ve gotta go to the bathroom.

-seeing the blood just starting and being like well shit this isn’t great and realizing that you’ve planned to sleep over at Tom’s so you can’t just Make It Work with toilet paper

-Thinking you’re super sneaky calling your friend from the bathroom but Tom can hear you talking

-“what do you mean you can’t drop your plans to come bring me pads?”

-“no, I’m not asking Tom to go out and get them for me and I’m not going out so I can soak through my pants in public!”

-“this is my first night at his place I cannot ask him to run errands for me??”

-Tom knocking on the door when he can hear you whisper-screaming into your phone at your friend

-“hey, babe, not to be a creep or anything, but are you okay?”

-“um, yeah, just..”

-not really wanting to talk about your period with Tom right now through the bathroom door as you were sitting in the toilet with the phone still to your ear

-“I kinda got my period, it’s not a big deal or anything, I just- do you have pads here?”

-“why would I have pads around? Should I go out to get them?”

-being high key Shook™ that Tom would offer

-Tom going out and not making a big deal about it at all

-texting you a picture of the menstrual hygiene aisle

-calling you while in the store crouched down staring at all the labels

-“you don’t want wings do you? What color box do you want? These ones have tampons and pads in them, do you want that instead?”

-telling Tom what kind of everything you want

-“now, my love, for the fun part!”

-asking you what kind of junk food and convincing you to get some kind of snack from literally every aisle

-you finding pain meds in his house and telling him he didn’t need to buy anything extra or different

-him breathing a sigh of relief after you cracked the bathroom door so he could hand you everything after taking the snacks to the living room

-“it’s perfect, Tom, you did great!” From behind the bathroom door

-Tom may or may not do a fist pump and a happy dance at your approval

-he may have bought 4 packages of all the products you’d asked for to store away for next time bc I can guarantee he’s thoughtful like that

-you and him laying back down on the couch all comfy again

-him massaging your cute stomach and hips with his hands that are super warm and nice don’t try to tell me they aren’t

-him finding you his FAVORITE most comfy sweats and blankets and everything to make you as comfortable as possible

-making you so many hot drinks

-you falling asleep eventually curled up with your head in his lap and his hand massaging your side.

-him being even more gentle than ever carrying you to bed

-him possibly seeing a text from your friend after you told her how everything went down that says “shit, YN, you got the best man,” and feeling so happy that he did so well for you

-don’t try to tell me there wouldn’t be those dumb period jokes sprinkled throughout your day

-“sorry, you’re right YN, that joke wasn’t funny- period.

-handing a tampon and being like “you’re gonna need this”

-him being confused af but them laughing when you make the motion of punching him in the nose

-you complaining about how your skin has been freaking out and Tom just kissing all over your face

-“you know you look flawless no matter what, YN, you’re being silly,”

-Tom would do so many small things to make your days easier like put all your stuff together like putting your bag that was already packed with your keys by your shoes near the door

-putting cute notes in your bag

-getting your favorite junk foods and renting your favorite movies

-trying to keep Tessa from jumping on you just in case her paws put pressure on the areas where you hurt even though you really didn’t mind and loved having Tess around

-Tom taking a picture of you and Tess cuddled up asleep on the couch when he comes home

-encouraging the extra naps together and putting you to sleep all the time by just massaging your sides

-can u tell I just got my period and love Tom

BTS Reaction to finding their pregnant wife dancing

request:  Bts reaction to come back from practice/studio and find there pregnant wife dancing I think this would be SO MUCH EXTRA FLUFFINESS !!! 😭💜

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-Kim Seokjin-

Jin would immediately ask what you were doing, a wide smile spread over his features. He would shake his head and watch as you continue to dance around to whatever song it was.

“You’re so silly (y/n). Just be careful yeah? I don’t want you to get hurt dear.”

Originally posted by myloveseokjin

-Kim Namjoon-

Namjoon would watch from the doorway, his phone recording the whole thing and silent laughter coming from his lips. When you finally noticed him there, he would pull you into his arms and place a kiss on your forehead.

“Nice dancing back there (y/n). I’m definitely showing it our baby once he’s old enough to understand how weird his mother is.”

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-Min Yoongi-

Yoongi would shake his head as soon as he seen you dancing. He would watch silently, a small smile evident on his lips. Yoongi would call your name and cup your face in his hands.

“What in the world are you dancing to? Nevermind. As long as I know that you’re both fine, you can do whatever makes you happy babygirl.”

Originally posted by bangtanbtsmut

-Jung Hoseok-

No matter how tired he was, Hoseok wouldn’t hesitate to join you for a little dance party. He would be smiling and laughing the whole time, while also making sure you didn’t slip and fall.

“Let me join you! But be careful though, I don’t want you getting hurt!”

Originally posted by myloveseokjin

-Park Jimin-

Jimin would laugh and smile at the sight, joining you when you had finally noticed he was home. He would make up silly dances just so that he can make you laugh.

“What a great thing to come home to. I’ll dance with you (y/n), you can’t be the only one having fun.”

Originally posted by itschiminie

-Kim Taehyung-

He’d beam at the sight of you dancing. Taehyung would call out to you and squish you against his chest. He would turn to the boys and begin bouncing with happiness, a wide grin on his face.

“Look at my wife! Her dancing is so good even when she’s pregnant!!”

Originally posted by hoe4bts

-Jeon Jungkook-

Jungkook would be recording the whole ordeal just like Namjoon. He would wait until after the song had finished to make his presence known. When you turned to him, he would kneel down before you and place his hands on top of your stomach, kissing it gently.

“You look so damn beautiful doing anything and everything. I’m literally the luckiest man alive.”

Originally posted by jungkookfortunekookies

boyfriend!jeonghan;

Originally posted by wonnhao

  • nobody asked for this but i for real think about this everyday
  • jeonghan?? is a really good boyfriend when he’s not being a demon
  • it was pretty funny how you two got to know each other actually
  • you’re a stylist for seventeen so u already know your job is like,,, literal hell

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Watch THINGS WE WASTE OUR TIME ON BECAUSE WE ARE TOLD TO here.

In terms of TIME MANAGEMENT, the most common problem always is “I want to do that, that, that, and that - but I just don’t have enough time to get it all done.” Even though I already covered that topic in terms of how time is an illusion (read the post or watch the video), it is a fact that every day contains 24 hours and we can use this amount of time however we want to, but we can’t spend more time that we are given. In order to use the time we have to get the things we want, we need to PRIORITISE

The key to success regarding to time management therefore is, to figure out what to cross out of our to do lists and what to move to the top of it. Most of the time my to do list was so overpacked that no matter how focused I was, how effective or how quick, there was no way possible to get it all done and even though I knew about the necessity of prioritising I always had the excuse “everything I want to do, I want to do it for a reason - I can’t give it up because I have a certain motivation to do it” which is true, BUT: 

The #1 question to ask yourself in order to prioritise is: “If it would just be me in this world, would I still spend my time, money and energy on the same things?” 

By answering that question, you would be able to distinguish the actions motivated by you from the actions motivated by others. In different words: you are able to realise what you are doing just because its expected by society, family, standards, trends, common opinions etc.

How liberating would it be to just do the things you truly want to do because of YOUR opinion, YOUR standard and YOUR expectations? Wouldn’t it be the fastest and directest way to achieve your goals

In order to do so, imagine yourself in a place where the only judge, the only person you need to be okay with and the only person whose expectations you need to meet is yourself. An example I discuss in my video is BODYIMAGE & BEAUTYSTANDARDS. If there is nobody to judge your look or the numbers on your scale, would you still spend your time, money and energy on losing weight, going to the gym, and following a certain diet? If the answer is “no” - you need to liberate yourself from that need because it isn’t something you truly want. If the answer is “yes”, than it means you should keep spending time, money and energy on it because it is something that makes you happy and fulfilled no matter what others might think or say about it. 

This is a simple and easy, yet really effective way to prioritise on what to spend your time, money and energy on and at the same time to liberate yourself from things that you are just feeling pressured to do so by external influences.

As always, I hope I could inspire you and help you to get one step closer to become the best version of yourself. For more inspiration check out my Youtube Channel, it would mean the world to me to welcome you into that community. Sending lots of love, you’ll hear from me soon, xx

All wrong.

Part 2 to ‘Her.’

It’s shorter and I don’t know if I like it. Tumblr gave me a very hard time while writing it so please forgive any mistakes. Tell me what you think about it and if you want another part.xxx

Harry didn’t text her the next day how she told him to do. He also didn’t call her.
He didn’t want to see her, not after what she did. He spent an entire hour in the shower yesterday when she was finished doing whatever she was doing with her boyfriend. He tried to get rid of that disgusting feeling but all the hot water and tons of shower gel did was leave him numb.
Until he broke down crying. He dropped to his knees on the shower floor, broken sobs echoing around the bathroom and he hoped, oh how he hoped she felt his pain. He hoped she felt everything he felt so she knew what she did to him.
She didn’t though. She felt his uneasiness but that was it. After she kissed her boyfriend it was like the connection to Harry was broken. She hoped he couldn’t feel her anymore either because what she did then was something she didn’t want him to feel.
Of course, she felt guilty for having sex with her boyfriend after she met Harry but… It was her life, right? And it was her decision when she told Matthew that she met her significant other.
Even though Harry didn’t text her or call her in the moring she still prepared breakfast for them. She was lucky that Matthew had to leave early for work or she would have had to make up an awkward excuse for him to go. She made waffles and prepared a fruit salad with all the fruits she knew Harry loved. She even got ready herself but when she was finished with everything she still didn’t hear from Harry.•'Are you okay?’ she asked him even though she felt disconnected from him, maybe he heard her.
But when she didn’t receive any sign from him an hour later she put the waffles and the fruit salad in boxes and left her apartment, driving over to Harry’s place.
When she rang the doorbell and heard the faint sound of it echoing around Harry’s apartment she hoped she would hear his footsteps a second later. But nothing moved. Harry actually held his breath when he heard his doorbell, knowing exactly who it was because he felt a strange force pulling him to her.
No. No, no, no. She couldn’t expect him to drop to his knees in front of her after she cheated on him.
The only thing that scared Harry was that he didn’t feel her anymore. She felt her having sex but after that it was like someone with a big pair of scissors cut through their connection. He wasn’t too sure anyway if he wanted to keep feeling her love for another man. But now that that was over he was scared that what she did destroyed them. Not only because Harry was so incredibly heartbroken but maybe fate decided to disconnect them forever?
But then again, he felt like something was pulling him to her. So they had to be connected still.
He didn’t open the door though, not after the twentieth time she rang the doorbell and not after she started to cry and plead for him to open the door.
Not even when he felt her slipping away even more. Not when he felt the burning sensation in his chest slowly fizzeling out.
Was it even possible to stop loving your soulmate?
“Harry, please.“ he heard her sob.
He was hurting her. Even though he wished the night before that she felt the pain he felt, it was different now that it happened.
Harry sighed and got up from his couch, making his way as quietly as possible to his front door. He pressed his ear against it, listening to her sobs and whimpers. It broke his heart.
He opened the door slowly, he didn’t want her to fall in case she leaned against it. She looked up at him with the saddest eyes he’s ever seen. Her cheeks were flushed and looked as if they hurt with how red they were. Her bottom lip was wobbling and her body shaking. She was a mess.

“Y-You don’t love m-me anymore.“ she whimpered.
“I k-knew you w-weren’t happy to m-meet me.“
Harry sighed and shook his head.
“Or course I was happy to meet you. I’ve never been as happy as I was yesterday.” he stated and stared into her eyes to make sure she knew that he was serious.
"B-But you don’t l-love me anymore.“
Harry sighed again. He was heartbroken. And confused. And so incredibly hurt. But of course he still loved her. He was sure that no matter what she did or how badly she messed up, he would always love her.
"I love you. I’m just not so sure if you love me.” he told her.“
"Harry.” she cried.
He shook his head.
“Come in.”
She did, shuffling past him and standing in the middle of the hallway like a lost puppy, her shoulders heaving every few seconds.
“Are you cold?” he asked her, considering she was shaking like a leaf.
She shook her head.
“Do you want something to drink? I could make you a hot chocolate or some tea or-”
“I d-do love you, Harry. So m-much.” she interrupted him.
“Yeah?” he asked her.
“M-More than you c-could ever imagine.” she replied.
“Why did you cheat on me then? When you love me so much?”
He was mocking her and that was quite possibly the worst thing he could do to her right now. She’d prefer him yelling at her and shouting.
“H-Harry. You u-understood that wrong.”
“Oh, did I? Then explain it to me.”
“I n-need time, okay?! I need time to tell him. I can’t just drop the bomb on him and leave. I can’t do that to him, Harry.”
“No?! You can’t hurt him but you can hurt me? The person you claim to love so much?” he was yelling now and even though Y/N thought she’d prefer that, it wasn’t true.
“Harry…”
“No! We kissed! I gave you my very first kiss! I told you that I love you! You promised me you’d talk to your boyfriend! Was it fun to go home to him then and make love to him?! To know I’d be hear and begging you to stop?! To know you were ripping my heart out?!”
Y/N started crying again. Crying and crying.
“I don’t know if I can do this.” Harry shook his head and turned away from her.

Number One Girl

*warning for sexually explicit content*



I was his friend. Have been for ages. Way before he became famous and, to be honest, really nothing had changed. Well, maybe a little. But totally for the better.


I was what he liked to call his ‘regular’. Not very romantic, I knew that, but we didn’t really do romance. We did each other. He had a couple other ‘regulars’, random girls that I didn’t really know, but I was his ‘Number One Girl’, as he like to put it and he always made sure to remind me of that. I wasn’t sure if it was because we had been friends the longest or because of my killer blowjob skills, but whatever the reason was, it didn’t really matter. I was just happy to be one of the lucky ones, because that boy could honestly make me feel like no other. I did have other guys that I was with, never anything serious, but I would drop everything the moment I got the text that he was back in town. It didn’t matter where I was, what time it was or who I was with. When he summoned me, I came. In so many fucking ways.

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