this would make me so happy no matter what

I Love Her

I love her. I admit it. After a year of the same thing, constantly denying the fact that I am indeed in love with my best friend. We were perfect, we could still be perfect and things were always amazing. The only issue was that she fell for another and sadly there was nothing I could do about it. So I dreamed. I hoped and prayed countless times. Soon my normal energetic days turned into depression and tears. Every night was sleepless or barely any sleep at all.

I love her and I don’t ever want to let her go. I want to have her and hold her. I want to love her. I really do. I’d treat her like a goddess and make sure that she was always happy. I’d protect her through everything. I just wish that she would love me back. She never will though. I may hope and wish and dream but no matter what nothing will change.

I’ve made a mistake. I fell for her. I am still falling for her and there’s nothing I can f**king do about it. I see how she looks at him. How she cares about him. How she wants him. She once looked at me like that. Like I was the only one to make her happy. I was the only one to calm her down. All I had to do was hug her, pull her in close and hold her tight and seal it all off with three words. Three fucking words that mean nothing coming out of my mouth. All I ever had to say to her was “I love you.” That’s all she ever wanted to hear. And now it means nothing.

I can’t love her. I have to move on. I can’t forever love the same girl. There’s someone else that loves her. She loves him more. She will always love him more. I am nothing to her. I will never be anything to her.

I’m done dreaming. I’m done hoping. I’m done praying. Nothing has worked. So now, I’m saying goodbye. Goodbye to her, to us, to love entirely. I don’t want to have this feeling ever again. I don’t want to go through this ever again. I want this to be the end. And now it is. This is how this chapter is ending. This is how all of this is going to end.

 I once loved you. And there is a part of me that always will, but I’m done. I hope things are good for you and will always be.

—  I love her, quotes-134
8

Happy Birthday 카이 // Kim Jongin [ January 14, 1994 ]
I always have to surpass myself. Yesterday’s me, no matter what good things happen, I forget them and want to do great things again. Instead of materialistic or physical outcomes, I want to spend time personally accepting, understanding myself. Activities are fun and make me happy, but I’m also happy seeing myself growing day by day. I would like for the me of today to sing better and dance better than the me of yesterday.” ∞ NYLON Interview

6

5 years n you’ve never failed to impress me with the transition of fluffy n cute kim jongin to sexy and mesmerizing kai on stage. please take care of yourself n stay healthy because every time you get injured it just really breaks our heart. i hope you never lose this beautiful smile of yours n know that you’re so well loved by all of us n no matter what we would stay by your side for as long as time allows us to. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONGIN (灬♥ω♥灬)

6

hi everyone! i would firstly like to thank u all for the notes on my last post about learning anything in 3 steps! i am so grateful and happy that i can help people study and achieve what they want to achieve! 

today i decided to make a post about the night before the exam. for me, i get incredibly anxious at this time and i start doubting myself and all the hard work i have put in. however, i want everyone to know that these feelings are normal, and in order to deal with them, i have made a post to help u out!! no matter what happens in the exam, you will come out a better person for it, knowing more than u did when u went in. this can be difficult to realise the night before so i hope this post gives u some tips in dealing with those nasty feelings!

i’m so proud of you and what you will achieve, no matter what!

best luck and wishes to all,

shakespearestudies

asmr channels that are 10/10 (idrk how to explain what it actually is, but all these channels should have some info on it in the description bar if ur unsure!!):

albinwhisperland // whispersred // psychetruth // lauralemurex 

dearentity  asked:

Trans boy Nino coming out to Adrien and Adrien using his modeling income to help pay for hrt. Alya comforting trans boy Nino, telling him she will love him even more as her boyfriend (instead of girlfriend) because hell be even more happy with himself, and Marionette sewing him his first binder after researching what fabrics are comfy and work. Good boy A++

Adrien helping pay for his transition just made me so damn emotional. Nino’s happiness matters to all of his friends so much. I feel like it would take a little getting used to for most of the classmates, but surprisingly after Chloe is told she never misgenders him ever. Shes still a rude and underhanded, but she never uses his transition against him ever and he always lowkey respected her for that. She even makes a not compliment about how hes much better off a boy anyways. And while that was an insult to him before he is kinda like “t-thank you? I think? Not really but, its better than nothing.”

Everyone is super supportive of him and it means everything to him. Gabriel asks Adrien where his money is going and Adrien is defensive, saying its his own buisness. But eventually he is honest with his father. Gabriel doesnt visibly react at all, but tells adrien to stop spending his money.Adrien is infuriated and starts screaming at his father but Gabriel raises a hand and dismisses him. Adrien is hurt and defiant over it and is heartbroken about what to tell nino, he had to find a way to keep paying the money, when suddenly Nino calls him first. Hes crying, telling him that Adrien’s father had just payed for all the treatments and hormones in full.

5

Love yourself no matter your shape or size. If you want a donut? You have that donut. Screw what society is telling you and do what makes YOU happy!
@taylorswift all I can do is thank you for introducing us to so many positive and inspiring people, many struggling with the same issues, who do nothing but lift each other up with their friendliness and smiles. A few days ago I did not even know half of the people involved in this project, but now knowing that each one of them would be there for me and stand up for me through anything. None of this would have been possible without your loving energy bringing us together. So, have a donut for us all? 🍩

Ok so nothing makes me more pissed off than fans who can’t stop whining that MCR should be back right now.

Of course I can’t deny the fact I would be super excited and such an emotional roller coaster if that would happen one day but then again: all the boys are currently doing their own thing they love most. While still staying friends with each other. What’s not to like about that? In my own personal opinion if you call yourself a real fan, you respect your idols decisions and support them no matter what.

Do you know what i love about Luke? That no matter what people say about him or his private life he just carries on with what he’s doing, he never complains, just brushes it off and focuses on his job and his passion. He gets so much hate and negativity surrounding him and he never shows that it gets to him, he just keeps going because he does love us and he does care about us and he’s so worried about making everyone else happy that i think sometimes he neglects his own happiness and that makes me so sad because i would prefer his happiness over my own, he deserves happiness, love and positive attention because he has a heart of gold and the patience of a saint. Luke doesn’t get enough recognition for all that he does for us, instead the media and even us as fandom focus on all the negativity that’s around him and it’s just not right.. he deserves to be recognised as this amazing musician, who literally gives his all at 5sos’ shows, he’ll endure days of vocal rest just so he can sing for everyone and nobody gives him credit for that. Nobody sits there and goes you know what? That’s pretty fucking amazing that he sings even though his body is practically screaming at him to give it a break, he just keeps going because he loves his job that much and doesn’t want to let anyone down and i think that truly shows the type of man Luke is. I’m always in awe of Luke and his attitude and talent, he’s incredible. Luke is one of the strongest and bravest guys who doesn’t give up and just keeps going and keeps trying to please everyone, that’s all he’s ever tried to do is please you all and people repay him by hating on him because of someone that he associates himself with? Instead of focusing on the positive things you just focus on the negative and shit on everything he does, it’s not right and it needs to stop. You don’t need to tear Luke down to build the other members up or to make yourself feel better. Luke deserves more than that. He deserves respect as a musician and as a person. 

Lets calm down please

Oh gosh, can we all take a break, a deep breath and calm down a little?

I knew this would happen and that some ARMY will go wild to my response… well, the hate is not necessary my dear fellow ARMY. It won’t change anything exept for you to feel more miserable.
I don’t want that.

But you got to understand that you can’t force me into drawing what you want or think would be good. Not by sweet talking nor by bluntly calling me all sorts of names.
It just won’t work. I’m a grown up, make my own decisions and enjoy what I’m doing no matter what you do or think or say.

So if you want to spare yourself the nasty feeling of anger, hate, disgust or whatever is bothering you, just don’t engage with my art. It’s simple as that.

I hope one day you too will be able to enjoy my art and feel the fluffy, happy, sweet loving emotions I feel when drawing. It’s just more fun and lasting.
But again, I make my decisions and you do yours.

Wish you all a good day/night!
Kisses and hugs from Germany ^^
Diana

Michael Scofield X reader

“Idk if you’re taking request or not, but if you are I was wondering if you could write a long Michael Scofield imagine where you visit him in prison and you tell him you’re pregnant and gets exicted and tells Sucre he’s gonna be a daddy? Plz plz” by Anonymous.
A/n: I’ve had another person request this one but I will write another so you guys will get a little more :)

-

YOUR POV
I don’t know why but I was extremely nervous to see Michael today. I know he’ll love me still no matter what and he would probable be happy for us, but he’s in there and we’re outside. I know he’ll look forward to it, but I know it will make him depressed also. He’ll be missing most of our baby’s life. I can’t say that I agree with his actions but I love him and I’m willing to make it work.

The female guard patted my body up and down, checking for any items that I might be trying to transfer in. All while I was thinking how I didn’t want our child to have to go through this every week, making this her or his norm. She got to my stomach and smiled.

-“He or she isn’t carrying anything?” She said jokingly, with a slight chuckle as she said it.

I smiled, feeling down to my stomach- “No. Only thing (b/g) is carrying is my food I ate”

We both laughed and she handed my things that were checked- “Well, I can’t wait to meet the little (b/g)… Be nice to see some kids running around here”

I faked a smile and walked into the the room where everyone was waiting for their loved ones. It was coming more and more into reality. Even the guards were becoming family to our unborn baby. I didn’t want that. I want a normal family home where prison doesn’t feel like a second home and I can actually kiss Michael without guards thinking I’m passing him something.

Breathing got rapid, causing me to have to sit before fainting. I couldn’t do this, I didn’t want to. But then I saw Michael enter. His diamond eyes meeting mine and that beautiful smile of his raising as he found me waiting for him; just like the day when I agreed to go out on a date with him. Just like that I had calmed and I felt ready.

I basically leaped up from my seat, wrapping my arms around him before guards made us come apart; which then I sat back down.

I played with his fingers for awhile, stopping myself from kissing him as he was just a seat away in front of me.

A began- “Michael. I have something to tell you”

He smiled again- “I have something to tell you too, but you go first”

I shook my head, no- “You go first, please” I quickly drank my water, giving myself time to think of how I was going to tell him.

“The tattoo, the plan and everything I was telling you; it’s working so far. I could be out sooner then I thought”

A single tear dropped down my cheek. The smile I was holding before was still raised, but it was because I was in shock.

“Soon as I get out of here I will kiss you and we’ll run together” my smile dropped and I looked down to his hands that I didn’t realise I was still fiddling with- “I know it won’t be romantic but we don’t have kids so it’ll be easy”

I let out a chuckle, tears still flowing. I covered my face with my hand which caught the tears. My laughter became cries.

-“Y/n? What’s wrong? You okay?”

I shook my head, no while my hands were still covering my face. I couldn’t believe this. I ruined everything- “I should go”

I stood up, but Michael grabbed my arm; getting a warning from one of the guards but I assured them that I was okay.

“I know I can’t make you stay. But next week when you visit me I’ll explain everything more and it won’t sound scary”

Both of us stood. I stroked his jawline before allowing my hands to hang loose- “I don’t think I should come back, baby” I said as I struggle to talk through the tears.

-“What!? No! Y/n, please don’t leave me. I can’t do this without you”

-“Baby, I’m pregnant” I looked down. Scared to see his reaction but once I looked back up he had a massive grin on his face and his arms in the air in victory.

“I’M GOING TO BE A DAD!” He yelled. Making extra sure everyone could hear so that he could let me know he was okay with all of it. I laughed. My tears quickly drying up- “Now you yell that you’re going to be mummy”

-“No” I chuckled. Holding his hand. He got ready to yell out our embarrassing moment we had together in bed- “ I’M GOING TO BE A MUMMY!”

We both chuckled together, coming closure and closure together till we were looking at each others lips. We knew we only had a minute left so we used that time wisely. Our lips clasped together while our tongues played with each other. His hand around my hip brought me closure to him. Everything around us faded out until two guards pulled us away.

-
MICHAEL POV
-
The guards were yelling non stop to stop running, but I couldn’t hold it in. The moment I saw Sucre I yelled- “I’m gonna be a daddy!” It took him awhile for him to realise but once he did we both celebrated.

-“Congrats, man. Maybe our kids will form to make a football team”

-“I hope. But I know it’s going to be a girl, and she’s going to be just like her mum”

-“That also likes football” Sucre added. Creating humour.

Hello, baby. Part 13

Originally posted by perfectfeelings


I kiss him and thenI let out a sigh, “Well, my mom was beautiful from what I remember. She had long brown hair and bright green eyes. I remember her voice being so soft and gentle. As for my dad, well he wasn’t much of anything.” I look at him and he still has his eyes on me.
“He was a drunk and in some deep trouble with drugs. He would make me go on runs with him because he figured people wouldn’t shoot at a little girl. When I was 11 I, I actually killed someone to protect him, I still don’t know why. He was never happy, no matter what. He was really violent. I remember my mom never tried to stick up for herself, she would just take it so I wouldn’t have to, but she killed herself when I was 8. I started to become her, i took her place.” He squeezes my hand letting me know he’s still there.
“I realized why my mom always had a full face of makeup around me, it was to cover the bruises. I had to start doing the same. I was heading down the same path as my mom. So, I moved out when I was 17. I didn’t want to end up like her, or like him. He died a couple years ago and it felt like I could breath again.” I let out a deep breath.
I haven’t had to recall those memories for a long time. They still feel like fresh wounds. He leans down and kisses my forehead.
I give him a forced smile.
A few silent moments fall between us.
He lets out a sigh to break it, “I don’t remember much of mine. I don’t remember a mom or dad, or where I grew up. The last date I remember is, well I don’t really remember it, I just sort of have pictures that flash through my head. It was when I was a teenager I think, I was standing there, smiling. That’s it. Nothing else was happening in the picture.” He has his head resting back on the couch.
“I started getting into the crime world and I was good at it, so good at it darling. Still am.” He smiles at me.
“Things went wrong when the Bat showed up. The first time we met he thought he killed me, but he just turned me into a better version of myself. See, my skin wasn’t always this white and my hair wasn’t always green.” He laughs and I give him a smile.
“Falling into a chemical bath, well that might change your looks a little bit.” I look at his skin and his face and can’t imagine him looking and different.
“I came back and I was better than ever baby. I showed up and created the mayhem I desired. You know how strong my desires can be darling.” He runs his finger down my bottom lip.
“I did get caught once more, an asylum this time. A chemical bath and electric shock therapy, that does things to ya baby, and that’s how I became what I am today doll.”
He’s looking straight in my eyes. “Does that scare you?”
“Not in a million years.” I pull him down to kiss me.

I can feel him smile as we kiss and is cause me to laugh a little bit. 

 “What time is it?” I mumble as our lips are still attached. 

He pulls away and his bright eyes are staring deep into mine “It’s morning.” He kisses me again.
I look up at a window and see the sunrise, “Well Mr. J.” I stand up and stretch, “That was a lovely first date, but I must get home.”
I laugh and take one step, he pulls me by the waist and I land on his lap, I start laughing. 

“I’m pretty sure you needed to be punished for God knows what you did earlier,” he bites the back of my neck. 

Originally posted by danielteleki

I get up and his hands fall to his side, I face towards him and straddle him on the couch, he growls. “Now, Mr. J, you can’t punish me for something you don’t know if I did or not.” I kiss him slowly, “but I’ll let you get away with it, just this one time.” I lean close to his ear and give it a soft bite, he grips my ass and groans. 
He picks me up and tosses me on the couch, he rips off my clothes “I think I have waited long enough for dessert.”

“J! People are going to be waking up and coming in here! Can we at least go to…”

His mouth covers mine, “Darling, if you keep talking I really will punish you.” He finishes undressing me.

I start laughing because i’m nervous that someone will see us, but I know he doesn’t care. ‘I’m sure they will hear and just not come out here, right?’

He flips me over and has me bent over the back of the couch and my knees are on the cushions, I am still laughing because I can’t believe this is happening. 
J spanks me, hard. I let out a small scream.
“What the hell J! That was really hard!” I laugh towards the end of my sentence. 

“You must of forgot doll.” He grabs my hair and pulls it, by back arches and my ass sticks out toward him more, “I get to punish you, remember? You were the one that asked for this baby.” He pulls harder and a moan escapes my mouth. 
“Thats right.” His voice is low I can barley hear him.

I feel his dick between my legs, as if I wasn’t already wet. He pushes himself against me and I wiggle myself back, he slaps my ass again, harder.
“Fuck!” I say under my breath and bring myself back to the position he wants me in. 
“You do as I say. Ok baby?”

“Yes, daddy.” I reply and don’t say another word.

“Now, play with yourself.” He commands

I do as i’m told, he is still pulling my hair and it gets me even more turned on. I moan his name as rub my clit. I hear him growl from behind me.

He releases my hair and my head falls forward, he positions himself and slowly slides himself in me, I can hear him groan and it forces me to let out a moan myself. He picks up his pace and one hand is pulling my hair back while the other is holding my hips in place as his thrusts get harder. 
My moans and screams and loud and I cant stop them, I can feel the orgasm approach.
He pulls out.
I let out a loud scream and wait a second. 
“The fuck J!” He still has my hair in his hand so I cant turn to look at him.

“This is your fault darling.” He rams himself back in me and I scream his name.

Im getting close again and my knuckles are white from gripping the couch, he spanks me again and it only brings me closer this time.
He pulls out again.
“FUCK YOU!” I scream out, my breathing rigid.

“Oh my, the princess has a filthy mouth when she doesn’t get what she wants.”
He goes back to fucking me again, he goes slow. The sensation causes my legs to shake. He lets go of my hair and has both hands on my hips, holding them up. He keeps the pace steady.

“Darling you are fucking fantastic, do you know that?” his voice is low, almost a whisper. 
His words send a chill down my spine.
His pace picks up and my back arches again, I cant take this much longer.
I am biting my lip scared to make a noise, the fear that he might not let me cum again.

He is grunting and moaning himself, i know he’s close. I meet his rhythm.
I scream out “Daddy!” and we only last seconds after. 

I fall onto the couch, my body feels extremely weak. He leans over and kisses me.

“Don’t fuck with me again, princess. It will only get worse and trust me, I don’t mind.” He smiles at me. I can’t even answer, i just nod my head and close my eyes.

He puts his pants back on and wraps a blanket around me, “You might want to get upstairs darling.” 
I forgot other people were here, but my legs are weak.

“J, I honestly can not move.” I laugh and he joins.
He picks me up and carries me up the stairs, he places me in my side of the bed and covers me with the silk sheets. 
I fall asleep quick.


I wake up, my body still wants sleep but my stomach is screaming for food. The sun is shining bright through the windows.
I throw on a shirt and some shorts and head downstairs. 
I open the bedroom door and I can hear J yelling in his office, I decide to avoid whatever situation is going on in there. 
Jackie has the house smelling delicious.
French toast today, I make myself a plate and sit at the table alone. 
J’s screams are muffled from the door but I don’t hear anyone else. Then again, who would actually raise their voice at him other than me. I smile at myself.
I eat the entire plate, I wash the dishes and then go sit on the couch and turn the T.V on.
 
Gunshots, like a machine gun. My first instinct is to run to J.
I run upstairs and I hunch down by the door, waiting to hear anything. I don’t know who is in there, my heart is pounding, I swear they could hear it on the other side of the door. 

The door slams open, I fall backwards on my back.

“What are you doing Kat?!” Its Lucas, he looks mad.

“I heard all, i heard the gunshots, I just wanted to make sure everyone was ok?” My voice is shaky. 

“Do you know how mad he will be if he sees you this close to all this? Go! Now! Run to the bedroom!” Hes whispering but I feel the urgency in his voice.

I stumble getting up but I run to the bedroom and close the door lightly. I stand there catching my breath. I get myself together and open the door.

“Good morning! Whats with all the noise?” I smile as I walk out of our room.

J just walked out of his office, “Just some business that needed to be taken care of darling. Nothing to worry about.” He gives me a smile and I cant help but smile back. “I have a surprise for you tonight, we will be leaving shortly doll. Nothing too fancy.” He winks at me. 

“A surprise?” I squeal.

“Yes darling, go get ready while daddy cleans this up.” He gives me that smile again, my knees feel weak. ‘Will I ever get used to that? To him?’

I go back to the bedroom, I throw off my clothes and raid through the closet. I pick out a black t-shirt and some jean shorts that I know will drive J mad. I pull out some purple ankle books that have a good size heel to them. They make my legs look long and that confident feeling comes flooding over me. 

J walks into the bedroom, he looks irritated, i ignore it.
He goes to the closet and changes into a white shirt and more low jeans.
‘Do you even know what those low jeans do to me J?’ I smile at him and at my thoughts.

“You ready doll? We have a detour to make.” He is at the bedroom door, holding it open. 

I walk over to him, “You look nice too baby.” and walk right by him, down the stairs and straight out the front door. 

He meets me outside, and wraps his hands around my waist, “You have my full attention darling.” He kisses behind my ear.
He’s forgiven.

He opens the car door for me and we get in the back, Jay and Lucas are with us as well as a car full of guards behind us.

“Whats the detour?” I ask looking at the car behind us.

“Work baby, don’t worry about it. I’ll be in and out.” he winks at me and i give him a small laugh.

The drive took about 20 minutes. We come to a stop and its in front of  a building that is well lit. There are huge windows all around it. it looks like it used to be an storage unit of some kind. Im sure its still a storage but for very different things now.


J open the car door and gets out and I scoot towards the door, “Oh no, no, no. You are going to stay here doll. I am going to have 2 guards on either side of you, ok?”

“I, I have to wait here? While you go in there?” I give him the puppy dog eyes, they don’t work.

“It’s not going to work. I’ll be back quick. Ok? Vic and Sam will be outside the car till I get back.”

“Come back to me J.” I pull at him to kiss me, he does.

“Every time doll.” He smiles and walks away.

Sam and Vic are very huge men, I feel pretty safe. 
Vic is on the left side of the car, his body tilted toward the building with a gun drawn. Sam is on the right side, he is facing the street and he has his gun drawn with a light on it. 
We sit, and we wait.

It doesn’t take long before my ears are ringing from the sound of a gunshot.
I can’t move.

Originally posted by weaponslover


Another shot, blood is all over the left side of the car, Vic slides down the car.
I can’t move, I can’t scream.
Sam opens the door and pulls me down so I am laying on the seat. He stands back up and starts firing at one of the windows, i hear a man fall and hit the cement below him.

“Miss, you need to stay awake. Do you know where you are?” His hand is on my face and he is making eye contact with me but I can’t say anything.
He reaches for his phone and hits one button, “She’s hit. Vics down.” 

Seconds pass and J is next to me, he puts my head on his lap, “Hospital fucking now!” He yells at Jay and Lucas.
“Fuck!” he keeps screaming over and over. His voice sounds painful.

I reach my hand down under my shirt to my lower stomach and lift it up to my face, its covered in blood.
I still can’t feel anything. I grab onto Js arm as tight as I can, I can’t concentrate on what has happened. My mind hasn’t wrapped myself around it.

He lets out a painful grunt when he sees my hand covered in blood, “Im fucking sorry Kat. I fucked up. Im, I can’t.” 

I cant even enjoy the fact that he said sorry just now. 
J pushes the car door open before we even come to a complete stop at the hospital. He tries to be as gentle but as quick as he can getting me out of the car.
He carries me inside and there are 4 of his men behind him.

“I need the fucking doctor!” He screams when we walk in. 
Everyone stands in fear of The Joker.
Lucas let off 3 shots, “The doctor. Now!” 

Nurses scramble, and a doctor comes forward. He is sweaty and you can smell the nervous feeling on him.
“Ye-Yes Joker?” He stands a few feet away.

“Fix her, save her.” J walks up to the doctor. “She’s shot, lower abdomen. If she dies, so do you.”

Fo-follow me.” He walks J and his men back to an emergency room. “Set her down here.” 

J lays me down, my eyes are heavy, its hard to breath, and i am freezing.
“Im right here baby girl, everything is going to be fine.” 

I try to smile at him. I don’t even know if my face actually moved.

The doctor cuts off my shirt, “I-I uh need to get to that side of her Sir.”
J was knelt down my the wound, he snarls at the doctor but moves to the other side, he grabs my hand, I have no energy to grab his back.

“I need 2 nurses, their names are Hannah and Gloria, I need extra hands.” The doctor looks at J.

“Go get them Lucas.” J doesn’t stop looking at my face. 

Lucas comes back and both girls are crying, they look at the doctor for instruction.
“Shes lost a lot of blood, I need a transfusion now!” They don’t move out of fear, “He will kill us if we don’t save her, move!” the doctor yells at the 2 girls.
“They need that arm Sir. I have an IV in this one,” The doctor doesn’t look at J, he is busy addressing the gunshot wound.

J stutters to move but he does. The girls rush in and get to work.

Tears roll down the side of my face into my hair line, I can’t feel anything put a lot of pressure. I’m just scared. Really scared. 

One of the girls brushes my hair back, “Its ok, everything will be ok. You won’t feel anything other than the pressure you are feeling already, ok? We gave you pain medication through the IV.” she points to my other arm but I cant turn my head.
“I promise you, you will be ok.” Her smile is soft and warm, i believe her.

J has his eyes locked on me. I can feel the pain radiating off him. 
The medication has swept through my body. 
I close my eyes.

“Don’t, don’t sleep, Kat wak..” He is yelling.

“She is fine Sir. Its just the pain medication, she needs to sleep.” She puts her hand up to J and I know he wanted to kill her right then and there.
She turns round and goes back to helping the doctor.

“It went straight through, that’s a good thing. Its cleaned and everything is fine internally. Stitch her up.” The doctor tells the girls. 

He takes his gloves off and turns to J. “She is going to need a lot of rest, she is going to have a hard time getting up and she will need a lot of help for a while. In about 2 days she will need to start walking so her muscles don’t get tight around the wound. It needs to be cleaned morning and night everyday till we get the stitches out. It is going to hurt, she is going to be in pain. She will live though. You can cut the stitches out in 3 weeks or bring her back here.” The doctor walks past J and out the double doors.

One nurse smiles out of fear and leaves, while the other sits next to me. 

“She’s ok Sir. She’s tough.” She gets up and walk out after adjusting the IV one last time.

“I know.” He says under his breath.
He comes to my side and kisses my forehead.
He doesn’t say anything. He puts his head down on the table next to my arm and lets out a long sigh.
He looks over at the stitched up hole, “Kat, I’m not safe for you. I’m no good for you.” he grabs my hand again, i still can’t return the pressure. “Lets get her home.”

He has Lucas and Jay grab the IV’s has he carries me out.
Not a word is spoken on the ride home.

J takes me upstairs and changes my clothes, he throws everything I was wearing in the trash.
Lucas sets up the IV’s in the bedroom and J lays me down and covers me with the sheets.
Lucas closes the door behind him.

J gets in bed next to me, he pulls me close, “Im so sorry Kat.” 

Originally posted by painfulblisss



I wake up in the morning, I can barley breath from the pain. I try to sit up and fall back gasping for air. I look around for J, he’s not there.

shrimpdinner  asked:

what do you like about virgos? falsely inflate my ego plz

I refuse to be false in any way!
I love Virgos, so I’m just gonna spit some truth >:o

I love Virgo because they love the things you worry other people would find weird in you. All of your little quirks, the way you speak, they make you feel as though you matter. They are eccentric and to be honest, the same nervousness they’re trying to constantly dance around is one of the things that make them endearing to me. Virgo wants you happy, Virgo wants to impact you, Virgo wants to explore the world through you and doesn’t expect the same in return, but they really do hope and are the HAPPIEST when they feel those things reciprocated – because for some reason they never expect their wishes to be realized. I think they deserve the world because they’re so beautifully a part of it. Nothing feels as good as getting a Virgo to let you take care of them for once, watching tension leave a Virgo’s shoulders and a spark light within their eyes is a blessing <3

~Send me your sun sign and I’ll tell you what I love about it~

5

『Shinachiku & Hanami’s Family シナチク』Part II  ( *´艸`* ) ❤

Family isn’t always blood. It’s the people in your life who want you in theirs. The ones you accept you for who you are. The ones who would do anything to see you smile, and who love you you no matter what. -Unknown


(つω⊂* )◞ p/s ; Those awesome peoples who gives such amazing & beautiful messages and cherish my little artworks that still not so good… I can’t say how really happy I am! Thank you so much! That’s very meaningful. Narusaku, Shinachiku Uzumaki and Hanami Uzumaki is inspiration to me and I’m so pleasure to make this more and more. ♥ Enjoy! ^^

anonymous asked:

What if Henry left becouse if he kept over working his drawing hand he might never be able to draw again. What if he had to slow down his work causing the company to falter, so he left so he would be a burden. "The chain is only as strong as its weakest link" he left so Joey could be happy making animations in a timely matter. He left his dream so Joey could have his.

Why would you do this to me? Why…

4

Honestly, I don’t know how to express my gratitude towards our great lider; I know thank you is not enough but is the only thing i can think of right now befor i get too sappy…. Thank you for being this amazing person, thank you for inspiring me and so many other with both you words and your music, thank you for making me want to be better and most important of all thank you for being our lider, for getting the boys in the right path after all if it weren’t for you BTS wouldn’t exist. No matter what I say, no word would ever show how much I treasure and admire you so, one last time, thank you for everything. Love you!

Happy birthday for our Mr. Dimples, Kim Namjoon.

You know what?
Who cares what everyone else thinks?
Yeah, they’re going to talk bad about you behind your back, if they’re brave enough they’ll say it face to face. But who cares about all of that, honestly the only thing that matters is what YOU think of yourself. For once put your own thoughts before everyone else’s and forget their judgement. Nobody is here to impress others; so do what makes you happy both when no one is watching and when all eyes are on you. If you mess up, who cares; just more experience and knowledge. The world would be a significantly different place if everyone didn’t give a shit what everyone else thought and that amazes me. Every single human being grows up worrying about what strangers/and people who aren’t strangers, thinks of them. Because we all feel the need to be liked. Why are our mindsets so shitty until we finally come to the realization that we’re not going to lead happy, fulfilling lives if we strive to impress everyone but ourselves? Those who teach us are terrified of us being an embarrassment or a failure; but are you really an embarrassment or a failure if you’re happy?

anonymous asked:

Reo and s/o playing basketball anon here! Can it be Reo, Kagami, Kise, Aomine playing basketball and having more fun and intense game than expected :)

thank you so much again! so intense as in a stronger opponent then?

AOMINE:

  • Shit-eating grin would be plastered on his face the whole game and he’s always smirking at his goddamn opponent, it pisses them off.
  • To make matters even worse, he usually taunts them more and even hits close to home if they’re close to him. He tends to get really annoying when he’s excited about a game. 
  • “What? Bet you can’t take me on. Do you need a diaper now that you’re pissing your pants?”

KAGAMI:

  • He’s just generally a very energetic puppy and he gets so excited he has this really happy look on his face. Even if he enter the zone, he’ll be fucking smiling the whole time because he’s so damn excited.
  • Laser sharp focus. His focus usually is already good enough, but, even without the zone, when he’s excited, he will be focusing on that and nothing else. Don’t even try to yank him away from the game.
  • “Damn, you’re good. Better than expected. This is going to be great.”

KISE:

  • He transforms almost instantly. He likes to be taken seriously and so if his opponent is strong then he’ll definitely up his game.
  • Gone is cheerful, playful Kise and he’s quickly replaced by his serious, competitive self. It’s like Akashi but less obvious changes. He gets really scary and emits a certain aura that sends shivers down his opponent’s spine.
  • “I’ll be taking you down today. That’s a promise.”

MIBUCHI:

  • You don’t understand why but he just instantly becomes more graceful in his steps. Every move is calculated and precise. He doesn’t waste energy.
  • He smiles from time to time but there’s this vicious glint in his eye when he’s out to get the opponent. He’ll be somewhat terrifying.
  • “Is that so? You think you can beat me? Anyone can dream big.”
8

뭐라 해도 나에겐 삶의 everything

No matter what, you’re my life’s everything


여전히 내 삶의 everything

Still, you’re my life’s everything


벌써 몇 년이야? 7 years with SHINee.

3

“Is it okay to just watch? Won’t you be left out alone again? Is it scary to join that circle?… There is no such world… where someone would rescue a person who doesn’t do anything and just watches in silence. Don’t cover your heart. Show your determination. If you really wish it, I’ll stand by you.”

“Hey Levi?”

“Yeah?”

“Do you think we’ll ever get to go outside the walls? Like, not to fight titans but, to embrace everything we’ve been robbed of…”

“…yeah”

“What makes you so sure?”

*Holding Erens hands and rubbing circles looking at the bite marks*

“I’m gonna get rid of every single titan, no matter what it takes. Everyday, I think about what life would be like. Just me and you. Together. Happy. No burden. Then I remember, happiness is not a destination. It’s a way of life. It gives me the strength I need.”

*A silent hug. Eren running his fingers through Levi’s hair*